#FALCOHOL | Coping with anxiety , setting boundaries, saying no to parties
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Hello guys, welcome back to the show. Welcome back and guys, guess what? We're at a table with chairs.

And I'm sure you're following the Instagram. And if you're following the Instagram, you know that. And guys, these chairs, by the way, super cute. And they're from Walmart. If you need a cute desk chair, definitely Walmart. Just side note, they're super cute. We're like in pink chairs right now. It's really a vibe. I'm not going to lie though. One of mine doesn't have a screw in it. So I'm a little nervous. I hope that I'm just like fall mid podcast. Yeah. It was kind of hard to put together. So if you hear like a crash. Yeah. That's Sam. It might be me. Yeah.

And it's just coming together so nice. And we have two mics now. I've been having issues setting up the garage band to get two mics at the same time. It's been quite a process. But this week, I did it. So now we're going to be two mic'd every single time. Hopefully it works out. Which is so fun. Like, it's so, like, legit. Yeah. When we're in two mics. When we're in one mic, it's like one mic sitting on the couch. Yeah. This is way more casual. We can, like, roll around. I know. Yeah.

I can't drink any water, though. She has a nice... What is the drink you have right now? A poppy. Yeah. If I drink any type of drink right now, I'm going to have to get up and go to the bathroom probably five times mid-podcast. It's okay. We can take pee breaks. Yeah. This is small. I'm not going to finish all of it. I get too distracted talking, and I don't finish it. But we are recording this. It is...

And Wednesday, we haven't talked to you guys in a long time for us because we recorded a week early for the last episode. So it is like, I feel like I haven't talked to these people in forever. And they've all been on Thursdays. We record on Thursdays, like last minute, and we're doing it now. I think Wednesdays are going to be our day, guys. We've kind of given ourselves a good schedule. Yeah, Wednesdays are probably going to be our day because one time we had an issue with the recording. So if we do Wednesday and there's some issue with the audio, we have a whole day to fix it.

Rather than if we record Thursday and we have an issue, we kind of spread ourselves. But yeah, we have a good schedule. And I mean, we should give a shout out to our new like...

Instagram. Yeah, I don't really know what to call her. Social media manager? Yeah. Shout out to Sarah. She has been crushing it. We are in like a group chat with her, like getting to know her, of course, too. She makes us laugh quite a bit, but she's doing an amazing job. She is helping us with the graphics and stuff on our Instagram. Yeah, and we just appreciate her help so much because, you know, we're trying to see this out long term and like she really believes in us and we believe in her. So it's going to be really fun. You'll notice our Instagram just get

a whole lot better honestly like we're gonna be posting a lot and it's just different content than you guys will see on our page if you're like why would i follow the podcast page if i could just follow you guys it's honestly really cute graphics if you're trying to get inspo for your own like aesthetic i feel like i see a lot of podcast pages and it influences my like aesthetic or stories like it's honestly just cute and it's like a whole other part like behind the scenes of our life yeah there's really cute wallpapers on there there's little like

I don't know. I feel like you can also connect with people who follow us more. Yeah. Because it's like everyone that follows that is like true. Yeah. Like listens to us. There's going to be a lot of stuff going on in the stories too. Like Q&As of like trying to like guess like our favorite things or this or that. But you'll see a lot of those things coming too. Yeah. The Instagram is just fun. Like a little like a place that's kind of like chill, hang out, good vibes. It's a good time. And as we do more things, it'll probably be a lot on that Instagram. So you don't want to miss out.

On all the cool things, like all the effort that we put into the content we do together will pretty much go on that page. So you don't want to miss it. And the support means a lot. And the support to Sarah means a lot because she is busting her butt getting those graphics up and she's killing it. Well, Sam made the one for this week. Good job. The one that's actually you've already probably seen it is I made that one.

I will do it here and there just because I do like actually like enjoy making art. Like if I have the time, it's just, we had to hire Sarah because I did not have the time. Yeah. And we didn't want to slack on it for you guys. Cause we don't, it's a lot of work making content. Like, especially like I'm doing YouTube now. Like you do more like clients than me right now. And it's a lot. Like it's,

It's a lot, guys. So now we have our little helper and we're still recording every week. We haven't missed a week. I like shouting us out for never missing a week. Yeah. We haven't missed a week this whole time. That's really impressive. It is impressive. Yeah. I like it. No bi-weekly shit here. No, no bi-weekly.

Why would you do a podcast every other week? We already have girls in our DMs saying do it twice a week. I'm like, oh, hell no. I'm like, I don't think I would have the capacity to do that. I know people that do every other week, but they'll post like three times a week on YouTube. So I'm like, okay. Like if you're posting three YouTube videos a week and podcasting twice a week, that's okay. Yeah. But like if you're a podcaster...

Twice a week episodes. Yeah. For sure. I don't know. We're very proud of our weekly uploads. I'm kind of vibing with it. But I guess life...

This episode's gonna get kind of, like, deep. Very deep. Deep. So deep. Like, real. No, I honestly think, like, not only that I've mentioned this so many times in my story, but, like, talking about this stuff helps me, but it also helps them, like, the listeners, the viewers, because they can relate to everything that I have to say. This is, like, therapy. Yeah. No, like, it legit is therapy. Like, and this is stuff that we, like, I mean, like, we talk about it to each other in real life, but, like, not for an hour. Yeah.

Yeah. Uninterrupted. Yeah. So this is going to be like, I might start crying. So it's kind of fitting because this week, just a little life catch up. For me recently, I have just felt so the amount of change. I was kind of telling Sam this today. I think it hit me like this week. The amount of change that has come in one summer is a little bit intense. Like it's a lot. It's just a lot. Like in one summer, I stopped going to school. Yeah.

I now make the money I'm making in charge of my own money. Relationships and friendships have changed. You gotta figure out taxes. I've been stressing around with that. Like, I bought a car. Like, it is so much in one summer. Like, I feel like most people, that's like a whole, like, three years of life experience. Yeah. Like, you graduate, and then you stay home for a little bit, then you find somewhere to live, and then a few months down the road, you get a new car, and, like, you slowly get, like...

What's it called? Adjusted? No, like when you're promoted. You slowly get promoted and it's like a gradual process. And it was literally zero to 100. And I'm thankful for it. It's been crazy. But at the same time, I'm like, holy crap. I feel like I don't understand anything.

How much my life is different. Like it seems normal. Cause it's been my day to day, but I'm like, hold up. Like when you actually say that all happened in the last like three months, it's nuts. It's been like a million plane flights. I hadn't been on a plane in like 10 years. And all of a sudden I've been on like 10. Like it's, and they've all been revolving around me. Yeah. Basically it's been nuts. Like, I just feel like I haven't had a second to be like, Holy crap. This is,

life now like it's just moving so fast and it's all good change like I said and I was thinking to myself I was like you know like trust the process but then also in my head I was like actually I feel like it's not trust the process because this is not this is not what I thought the process would be at all it's kind of like ditch the process and like do do you it's crazy yeah it is nuts how this is not what I thought life would be

But now I can talk to you guys about it on a podcast. And I did not think that's what I'd be doing by now.

Yeah. And then you're going to have like such an amazing support system. Like damning you probably after this episode and being like, it's, it's like, it's, it's weird. Cause it's not like, Oh my God, it's making me like so sad and stressed. Like it is making me stressed and like some things are sad, but also a lot of it's good. So it's more just like craziness in my head and like a little bit of anxiety than like so sad and overwhelmed. Yeah. It's just like life's a little nuts.

Yeah, it is. But we know that we'll... It's a good nuts. Yeah, it's definitely a good nuts. It's going to stay, it's going to probably remain that way for the next like six months. It just like hasn't hit you yet. Like I feel like I can't grasp what we're doing. I think it's a little different because I won, did graduate and... You did graduate. I moved here, like I've been here three months longer than you did.

I think that graduating helped a little bit because you were like, okay, done with this part of my life. Now I'm going to be on my own and have a job. In no way, shape, or form did I think I'd be on my own working and buying a car at all. So that's just very weird. So that's where I've been at. Just a lot of change. I'm trying to embrace it. It's fine. Yeah. Well. It's going to keep happening. I'm sorry. I hate to break it to you. It just doesn't stop. Yeah.

No, yeah. Honestly, you guys have been pretty up to date with my life, given the podcast. Last month, July, or not even, it was not August. July was a really, really bad month for me. I just was having so much stuff happen to me, my family, things behind the scene that I didn't really share. I shared a little bit on the podcast, but...

And I didn't realize how much of an impact that had on my mental health until I started to be more social down here, go out, drink. And then the next mornings, I was having the worst hangover anxiety that I'd never experienced before. My heart's racing. I can't control it. I actually, this is something I've never really shared on here either, is

I found out and I kind of realized that I had really, really bad anxiety when I had my first ever panic attack when I was out in Dallas visiting Rise. Taylor wasn't even with me during this. I was just with the Rise boys and the Rise boys, they obviously were super, you know, helpful with the situation. But like, that's when I realized I like reflected back. I was like, oh shit, like I have anxiety, like bad. And, um,

Then it's just been like something that can like look back and like kind of like like see because I'm like, okay drinking It's affecting me now. I'm realizing maybe the caffeine's are affecting me I have no idea but I'm also it's the my time of the month So like I have no idea but we're experiencing with the caffeine cleanse and it's going quite well. I'm on day seven I think yeah day seven and I feel like a freaking brand new woman, but I think dealing with mental health like

It should be a topic that's talked about. And I honestly don't see a lot of creators or influencers. I hate that word. But I don't see a lot of big public social media people out there talking in detail about it on a podcast. And I feel like this is a great opportunity for us. I agree. I just feel like this is a great opportunity for us to talk about what we want to talk about in terms of our life. But also give you guys the opportunity to kind of reflect and...

find ways to make things better for yourself because there are ways. And I feel like me and her have definitely like kind of hit rock bottom, but we've both are working in the process of coming back up. Yeah. Because I think when it's, when mental health is talked about, it's very on the surface and just like, sometimes you like have a bit of a bad day, but then you like go for a walk and like all is good. And like,

Like it's more than that sometimes. And I don't talk about it on my platforms that much. I will mention it. Like I will, I like to mention like, Hey guys, like if you follow my YouTube, I'll be like, you know, part of my morning routine. I do take medication for my anxiety and depression. And like, I mean, I just like to say it because I know when I got on it, I thought it was like weird or like so bad. Like it was so normal. So I just want to be like, Hey, like I do take this. Like, it's okay if you take that. Like, I don't really like touch on in detail, like why or what happened or like what, like my

My symptoms are what happens to me, but I'm just like, this is a part of my life, but I've always wanted to talk more in detail about it, about it, but it is very personal. And then I, on an Instagram story, sometimes in the moment when I'm feeling like very depressed, I'm not going to Instagram story about it. Yeah. I cannot. And then, so then the next day, if I'm feeling good, I'm not going to talk about that. I'm going to talk about something like better, but the podcast is like a safe space. Like I can talk about this right now and it's,

It's better for me to talk about it here than on any platform. Maybe it's because also no one's watching. Yeah, there's no faces. You can't see the facial expressions. It just feels...

like good to talk about it because I also know when we're like hey guys like make sure you go like move your body today like get your steps like today I posted something like what's stopping you from drinking your water like when we post our little things like that I feel like I get a lot of things like oh but like I'm depressed and I'm like girl me too yeah like I'm like I know it may not seem like it because it's like I think the stigma of like oh it's like well how are you depressed if you like

do what you do for a living because I had to force it to be my I had to force myself to get here it didn't come easy I had to force myself to one day get out of bed and go to the gym force myself and then I took months off because I was so depressed in college and

I had to be, again, forced back by people that loved me and cared about me to say, like, hey, you really need to go back. And it was a journey to get here. So when... I want you guys to know that we get it. Like, we get it that when we're like, oh, like, are you, like, working out today or, like, staying home? Like, did you make a good breakfast? If you're like, well, no, because, like, I have, like, depression and anxiety. Us too. Okay? Yeah. Like, it's... We're not saying it's easy. It's definitely not easy. And, like...

One thing like I don't let the gym like there will be other things that I don't want to do for me personally. Like getting to the gym definitely helps me. But there are other day to day things where I'm like if I am super anxious like I'm not going to do those things. But I can force myself and figure out ways that will make me feel better. And like that's why we wanted to talk about like different ways to cope in general. Honestly like.

obviously exercise, but we're going to kind of break it down into things that we specifically have been doing that is like helped us. Yeah. And I think, I mean, just for like background, I think there's a different, um, we give good perspectives because we,

We both deal with anxiety in different ways. Like, different things make us both anxious. The physical symptoms of anxiety for everyone are super different. And I also, like, deal with depression pretty bad. I'm not going to say it's, like, so severe because I know there's, like, worse. But it's also not, like, I feel like a lot of people come on the internet and say they're depressed just when they're, like, kind of sad. And I'm very much aware that saying you're depressed is more than, like, being sad. Yeah.

Sometimes. So I feel like it's not super severe, but it definitely is there. And I think it used to be severe. Thankfully, I mean, I've just gotten the help for it. So I think we give good, like, different perspectives on it. Yeah, of course. So that's kind of the background of, like, what we deal with. So, like, if you hear the advice from each of us, that's where we're coming from. Yeah. And obviously, too, this is something that Taylor definitely has, like, a more of, like, a...

How do I word this? Not background, but more of a way to control it. Because she has definitely helped me out a lot with it. One morning, I came out from the bedroom. We had gone out. We had a friend staying over. He was on the couch. But luckily, he had left when I came out from the bedroom. And immediately, that was my first time standing up all morning. And immediately, my heart started racing. My body was shaking. I looked her in the eyes, and I was like, I'm having really bad anxiety right now. And then she just immediately went...

and told me she was like don't think about it don't think about it think about something different like look at something look at something different so like I immediately did that and I was like holy shit like this actually like helps kind of so like that's one thing too like I've realized with this entire thing is like don't think about it don't think about why you're feeling that way or what's causing it think of the complete opposite like what you're going to be doing later today or things that are going to like

That you look forward to I don't know just anything the opposite of it has helped me Yeah, and with anxiety when it's like a physical like right now. I feel like i'm dying I went through my first like panic attacks my freshman year of college. So 2019 was like my first panic attacks my like Actually, I feel like i'm having a heart attack right now type panic attack and it sounds stupid to be like

think about other things around you. Like, that seems like, duh, but it's really not. Like, when it's happening, you full-on feel like there's nothing else you can do, but feel like you're having a heart attack. And if you just look around and you're like, actually, like, the sky is blue right now. Like, there's light coming in the window. Like, we're making food. Like, everything's normal and everything's okay. Like, really? Like, it sounds stupid because I just feel like hearing, like, oh, like, she said not to think about it. But in the moment...

You need someone to tell you that because some people think the answer is like, what's wrong? Yeah, that's the worst. Tell me what you're feeling. I'm like, no, I know you're feeling like you're going to die and it seems like the world's giving in, but it's not. Yeah. Like, you're fine. Like, you're fine. You're standing right here because no one wants to be asked, like, what's wrong? Yeah. Tell me everything you're feeling. Yeah, like, when we were out that one time, I'm not going to name names or places or anything, but, like, when we were out and everyone kept asking me, like,

why are you feeling like this? Like, why, why, why, why, why? And that's when it was just getting worse and worse. And guys keep in mind in this situation, like I'm, I'm out, like I'm out at a bar, like, but I'm not drinking. And people just kept asking me, why is your anxiety bad? Like what's wrong? Like, I'm like, that's when it got really bad. And I just went home because I couldn't control it any longer.

And it's hard because a lot of people are coming from a good place. Yeah, because they want you to have fun. Like, they want to help and they want you to have a good time. And they feel like they need to be like, hey, I'm here for you. What's wrong? Yeah. But I wish I could just have, like, a sign over my head. Like, please talk to me about anything other than what I'm feeling right now. Because maybe if they wouldn't have done that... I probably would have stayed out, honestly. Maybe you would have stayed out and have a drink and forgotten. You would have been like, actually...

this is cool. Like, I'll chill. But if they just overwhelm you with the thoughts you already had, you're leaving. It makes it so much worse. And like, that, yeah, that night, we'll talk about that toward the end of the podcast, but, um, go ahead.

Um, what was I going to say? So yeah, there's definitely things that you guys can do. And it's also just, again, these things that we're going to say, it's a very long journey, right? So doing it once may not help. Maybe it'll help in the moment and then you'll go right back to whatever state you were in an hour later. It's like adding them into your life over like,

time, I feel like. Like, you can't get discouraged if you're like, well, they said exercise, and I went, and I'm still sad. Like, okay, give it a little bit. Yeah, so obviously exercising, but then there's also the food, my friends. Like, I cannot preach to you how important it is to make sure you're eating, because I have experienced this firsthand. If I'm hungry, and I'm

A long time goes by, my anxiety gets worse because I don't have food in my system. Especially when we're traveling. Like, bad. My anxiety when I'm hungry is the worst it will ever be. I must pack a snack if I'm gonna be somewhere for like a while- like-

In between meals, and I think it's going to be a few hours, I need to pack a snack because when I am too hungry, it is not pretty. My amazing symptom of my anxiety is feeling like my jaw is going to lock. So if you are with me in person and I am hungry, you will see me opening my jaw, clenching my jaw, doing all this stuff because instantly I feel like I may pass out. Like I will get in my head like you're hungry and you haven't eaten. What if you pass out right now?

Which was what happened to me my freshman year of college because I wasn't eating. I would like skip breakfast till after class. Don't know why I would skip. Well, I do know why I was trying to like not eat, but I would skip breakfast till after class and in class the whole time. Just be like, oh, your heart's racing. It's literally because you didn't eat. And what if you pass out like like you're so hungry, you're going to pass out. And that's what I would feel.

day like if I don't eat it's really bad it's so bad yeah honestly mine is probably like a little bit of the opposite of that it just a little it just comes out of nowhere and like I just honestly like I I have tunnel vision I can't see anything other than just food and I just start like my heart like my heart my fingers they're just like tingly that's the only thing that I have but

Yeah, food is definitely one of those. And these sound so silly and obvious, but it's really important to make sure that you're having a good routine for yourself day to day with exercising, getting your food in, and then, of course, what are you going to do? Something I was going to add on to the food, even if you don't notice getting hungry as a trigger for your mental health problems that you may be facing...

Eating enough and getting enough body fat on you if you are very underweight, if you've been under eating and over exercising, will help your brain function and your mental health. So even if you're like, I don't think it comes when I'm hungry, and you have been in those very restrictive cycles, it's still damaging to your mental health, even if you don't notice it right away. So eating enough has helped me tremendously. If you are under eating, I'm telling you, even if you don't think it is...

I promise you eating more may really, really help that for you. And the exercise, I mean, that's scientifically proven. It's going to legit release chemicals that make you happy. For sure. It's also time off your phone. Yes. Time off your phone. Like, it's just like you time when you exercise. Exactly. That's just a way. You get deep into your thoughts. Everyone knows that. So, like, I think we don't have to... Well, I even said...

Last week, my mental health had pretty much... I was low on myself last week. And I looked at Taylor in the morning and I go, Hey, yeah, so I'm going to work out by myself this morning. And she looked so sad. She was like, but why? It's not me, right? I go, no, it's not you. I promise you it's not you. My mental health just needs to be in the zone for this workout today. Yeah, and no, I get it. I just was like...

What'd I do? I can tell she was super paranoid. I was like, no, Taylor, like, I promise it's not you. Like, you're not a shitty partner. I actually get anxiety. I get anxiety all the time about people hating me. I all the time think you hate me. That's just my personality. She's like, she hates me. But you live with me. Like, I just get very anxious about, I guess, like, people pleasing. I wouldn't call myself, like, a people pleaser, but, like,

no, like put it, like to me, if you're like, oh, I want to work out alone, that triggers me. Like I like, yeah, you were so triggered. Someone like confronts me about, that's not even confronting me. Right? Like it wasn't even confrontation, but if someone just, it'll make me sad.

so anxious and so mad but then like after that workout like because I haven't worked out with both airpods in in a long time so like music was blasting like zoned in I was like actually that felt nice yeah I remember that you were like yeah you know what I actually really liked that I was like good let's do it once a week for our mental health even I feel like it was just because we just moved in together and now it's kind of like

I mean, that was it the other day, but I feel like that just kind of, like, broke the wall, and now it's easy to be like, all right, I'm going to go over here. Yeah. And, like... Yeah. Well, luckily today, I forgot my headphones, guys, so she gave me one of her headphones. But we were already, like, doing our own, like, back workout anyway. But I was just like, nah, like, I like this. Like, we can just, like, drift off, like, do our own thing a little bit. But I do, like...

Right now, like, my mental health is more important than, like, my training. Like, I just want to make sure, like, I'm mentally there. But I do want to get back to the point where we're going past failure. I can do... See, when I exercise, I like... Like, to me, I can put all of my extra mental energy into or, like, the lack thereof. Like, anything I have, I will put into exercise. Because if I gave the gym my all, that makes me feel better. If I have a shitty workout...

No one speak to me a bad workout Ruins my day if I wake up because sometimes I wake up horrible mood. I'm like, well Depressed central when i'm on my period. I just like wow, I don't want to go. I don't want to go Yeah, but then it's easier even now. I mean I would still go but some days I would push it off But obviously we live together and like we're leaving at 8 30. So I have to go i'm like i'm the one with the car Yeah, like my car isn't here yet. So I kind of like have to go and um

What was I gonna say? And so if I'm already in the bad mood and I force myself to go and the workout's bad, game over. Like I'm probably done for the day. Like I would rather someone be like screaming in my ear the whole workout. So I can be like...

come back and be like hey I'm strong and productive and I can get work done like the gym is my little like escape yeah even a walk if you can't get to the gym that day walking in the morning that's why my morning routine has been like I love my morning routine yes that was like our next point right more

morning routine oh my god guys a morning routine it's so important to have one like you literally cannot just roll out of bed and just like expect yourself to have a good day and be successful with it like if you can do that like damn you're freaking lucky but like

Honestly, guys, it has been a process for me to figure out my morning routine, but the one I have for myself right now is working wonders. We both wake up around... What time is your alarm? Seven. Yeah, my alarm is at seven as well, but sometimes my mind just wakes me up before my alarm. Yeah, this girl gets up early. It's seven. She's already gone. I know. Honestly, my alarm goes off every single time and I'm already awake, but I usually wake up around 6.45 in the morning. I wash my face.

Typically clean my lashes depending on how I'm feeling I'll clean my lashes either at 6:45 in the morning or I'll do it when I get back But I will then go down to the treadmill downstairs and walk on the treadmill now that it's too hot I have to walk on the treadmill, but once it gets a little bit cooler. I'll be walking outside again and

Um, but I do not touch social media for the first, like I'm usually down there for like 45 minutes. So like for the first like 25 ish minutes, like I don't touch social media and it just feels so good knowing that like I wake up, wash my face, don't touch social media, like do other things. And, um,

Just continue on with my day. It is so important honestly guys if I know 10k steps is like a big thing But morning walks like help so much not only so like when you guys are I'm gonna like get like not scientific with it but like explain the prop like why morning walks help so much but

Your body stresses up your muscles tense up when you are feeling like either anxious stress or any of that your muscles tense up So what you're doing on the first thing in the morning when you're getting up and going on a morning walk what happens? Obviously your muscles are gonna not tense it up as much and when you start your day off like that you just set yourself up for such success like mentally with a good clear mindset and

Whereas like if you start your morning and you know, you're just going straight to your computer desk, your body's still tensed up. You're still, I don't know how to like word this the right way, but like you're just still tensed up. So like if you're going on a morning walk, getting fresh air obviously is a plus, but if you had to go on a treadmill, do it. It helps so much. I'm not kidding. Yeah. And you're, you were laying still for so long. So I feel like getting like everything flowing. Like you were literally just a zombie for eight hours. Like I feel like you need to,

Because then if you're laying and you just go straight to sitting, oh my god. Your body needs to get things circulating. But I agree with the morning walk, so I have been...

Waking up, not going on my phone as well. I will talk more about that when I give you my morning routine rundown after because she talked about the walk. But I go for a walk. I've actually been grateful that our apartment... So the two treadmills, one of them is broken downstairs at our apartment. But I'm actually grateful for it because...

I have been going outside and I love it because I can't really go on my phone when I'm walking because I'm walking on like the street. Like I have to like be aware of my surroundings. Like, so I can just walk and look at the road, listen to a podcast, walk. It could be a mile. It could be two miles. If I'm in the biggest hurry ever, it could be half a mile. It doesn't matter. Like,

go, come back. Feels so good. I get like a little bit of a sweat when it's hot. Like Sam said, it's very hot, but we're going to the gym in like 30 minutes anyways. So there's really no excuse. I'll wake up and be like, oh, but it's hot. And it's like,

I'm like, so what? Like, just go. Like, you're not going to die. Like, yeah, you might get a little sweaty that you're going to go to the gym, come home and shower. Like, big deal. Little things like that are just like excuses in my head. Even today, today's a great example. I woke up at 730. I woke up, but for some reason I kept lightly closing my eyes and thinking only five minutes had passed and it was 30 minutes. Like, for some reason I was just not getting out of bed. And then I was like, I'm too late to go for a walk. And I

Because we eat breakfast like 8:00 a.m. It's like breakfast and we get ready for the gym. So it was already 7:30 and I was like, "It's too late to go for a walk." And I was like, "You're literally being so lazy." I was like, "You have 30 minutes. Go walk a mile." Why would you not go for a walk? You have 30 minutes. Literally go walk a mile and you like,

why would i what would i do sit for 30 minutes on tiktok like for what i was like and that was me getting in my own head that was me being like uh like one thing already kind of didn't go as planned so like throwing the towel probably gonna be like a shit day because like i'm not gonna go for my walk and then i was like i'm literally doing it to myself like that was a moment of me like you're doing it to yourself like oh my god you dozed off your eyes for five you like you thought it was five minutes it was 7 30 okay put your shoes on and

go. Like, and it made me feel so much better and not using my phone in the morning. Guys, if you wake up and start your day with Tik TOK, you are, I like, I was gonna say like, I have no sympathy, but like, if you are like having a bad mental health time and you wake up and start your day with Tik TOK, you're doing it to yourself. A lot of it. Like you can be cutting your problems in half. Yeah. And I stand by that. And some of you might be like,

no it's like not that i bet it is because i did it to myself until i moved here guys i'd wake up every day and do it and it was so bad it'd make me feel like crap it would make me feel like crap because tiktok is like a dark hole the videos are toxic most of them are toxic trying to get people arguing in the comments so if you see a video and you see bad comments if you're us we

We get bad comments. Yeah. So I'd literally start my day with someone being like, you're ugly. Yeah. And I'm like, good morning. How are you? Good morning. And I've told myself, don't do that. I don't go on social media till breakfast. Yeah. And even then my first check won't be ticked off.

My first check will be Instagram. Sometimes I'll check my TikTok to make sure it's still there. Yeah, that's important too. Because we've been getting banned and I feel like I'm going to wake up one day and my account's going to be gone. So sometimes if I'm thinking about it, I'll just make sure my account exists and then close out the app. I'm like, I hope I'm still on the app.

And then close it out. And then I don't touch it till breakfast. And then I'm on it less throughout the day. Yeah. If I start my day with it, I'm like never getting off. Yeah. Like every single downtime I have, I'm on my phone. If I don't go on in the morning, it's like an afterthought. Yeah. Exactly. I haven't even been making them that much anymore. Yeah. I think that's why. I don't even know what trends are. That's so true. Honestly. I don't know what trends are because I don't have like my 30 minute morning scroll of like whatever we're posting today. Yeah.

That's a good point. Dang, I think that's why that is. I, like, don't have ideas to post. We were saying this today, guys. We literally used to post, like, five a day, and now we're posting, like, one or two a day. Because we just, like, don't know what the trends are anymore, and, like, we're just, like, not... There's just, like, other things to put your time into. But, yeah, so the morning routine is crazy. I also wake up and drink a lot of water. Like, I fill a cup of water next to my bed, and then I drink that because...

oh like i talked about medication okay another self-sabotage thing i do in the morning was not take my medication if you guys are prescribed something for your mental health and you're not taking this let me be like your doctor right now like screaming at you because that was just self-sabotage that i did i'd be like i'll take it later and then i forget and i forget for two days and i'm like why do i feel like shit yeah i'm like oh because you haven't been taking it so if i have water i'll take my pill

Yeah, water's a biggie. I bring my hydro jug down with me. But then another one is going to be those social accounts. We kind of got to go back to the Instagram, TikTok part. Guys, it is important that you will make sure you are following people on social media that are actually bringing good vibes to you. If you feel like something bad in you comes out when one of their posts pops up,

unfollow them. Like even if it's a friend, if it's a social influencer, just unfold them. If you're not getting good vibes from it, because that is going to translate to you and it happens, you know, you would think maybe not because it's someone that you don't technically know if it's a social influencer, but I promise you, you need to make sure you are following the right people. Yeah. I feel like it's going to be a lot with influencers or maybe just like

And it can be for whatever reason because everyone has their own reasons. I hate the word triggers because I feel like everyone uses that word. But the mute button is a wonderful thing. If you don't want to just unfollow someone because that could be a lot. You could just mute. If it's an influencer, unfollow them. Whether it be toxic workout advice or even for me, this sounds stupid.

I'm sorry. There's some like those beautiful TikTok girls. I like their stuff. I've talked about Olivia Ponton here all the time. This is Olivia Ponton's stan account. She's so... I could not follow her. Yeah. I see her stuff a lot and I'll scroll, but if I see her every single day on my own wall, I'll get sad about myself. So like I don't want to wake up every single day or I don't go on TikTok when I wake up, but I don't want to be like in the middle of my day being like, let me check the things I see every single day, every like 10 minutes, like the people I see and be like,

Damn. I don't look like that. That is just a whole other level though, Taylor. No, but people have things like that. There's some people that literally comparing themselves to them on social media will literally bring them down like...

such a dark hole. And for me, it's like, I don't want to follow like Instagram modeling accounts. Yeah. I just don't. I have zero, zero joy. Did you, did you see some girls, um, some girls reshare? It was so cute. I didn't, I didn't, or someone, I reposted a Kendall Jenner. Yeah. That was so sweet. I loved that. I reposted that like, um, a lot of those remind me a lot of the, um, there was a trend that it was like other girls, um,

Other girls look up to, like... It would be, like, models. Legenders and, like, models or whatever. And it was like, I look up to, and it'd be, like, us. Yeah, I love us. No, yeah, but I do agree with that, though. Like, I fell into, like, the trap of, like, looking up to and aspiring to, like, genetically gifted and, like, people that would just give out really, really bad advice. And that ended up causing me to, like, do certain things. So...

Very important that social media is a positive place that you're going to. Even in a business standpoint, I've heard a lot of people talk about if you see someone that... I don't know the way to word this either. I'm not saying doing better than you, but if you compare yourself to someone too much in a business standpoint... I feel like if I was following a creator that I was like, oh, she did this, that's so good. I should have done that. Or like, oh, she's doing this, that's so good. I should have done that. That would probably get a lot in my head. I've heard people talk about...

I only follow fitness people, so it doesn't really apply to me, but I have heard people say that they try not to follow people in the same spaces as them because then they don't go on social media and see other parts of their business. Yeah. People, they're legit competitors in their job, which I think is an interesting point.

I don't know. I was like, that's kind of interesting. Couldn't be me. I only follow fitness people. But I think that's very interesting. Also, something about social media, news. I cannot follow or keep up to date with news. And it might sound...

Feel like I'm gonna get hate for that a lot because people are like that's so privileged to not need to like know Yeah, I will know what I need to know about but I legit cannot follow Something to see bad news happening every single day. I can't like I would be depressed every day Yeah, so that's like a personal choice. I make I don't have that on my social platforms Some people do some people follow news accounts. I don't yeah, no, I agree

But, yeah, no, I guess we can move into our last one, and that's going to be, like, the social events and, you know, friends and stuff. This is going to be, like, the juice. Yeah, this is, like, the biggest one of them all, guys. Like, it's really, really important. Like, we've got, like...

I would have thought that I have, like, found, like, a good group and, like, I've been able to, like, finally find, like, people that understand my lifestyle and stuff. Like, shout out to my friends back home. I miss them so much. I will obviously see them soon when it comes to the holidays. But...

One thing that definitely happened with me and my friends back home is they started to understand my new routine and my new lifestyle, and they respected that. And you need friends that are going to respect that because if you have friends that are going to be making fun of you for not wanting to go out and drink, pressuring you to drink, or whatever it is, are they really your friends? Yes.

Yeah, I don't know. You know, so it was kind of hard, you know, moving down here, trying to find friends, make friends. And my friends back home, like they totally understood if I wanted to go hang out with them, go to a bar with them and I didn't drink. Like to them, that wasn't unnormal that I was going to a bar and not ordering a drink. But it's been very hard here going out and not getting a drink without someone making a comment to me.

And, you know, that's when my like mental health definitely like gets worse. I don't want to go. I avoid going out because I don't want something like that to happen where someone's going to be like, well, why aren't you drinking? Why aren't you drinking? Like blah, blah, blah, like getting really into me about it. And I'm just like, okay, that's the, that's,

that's it. I don't want to even go out into those social events anymore because people are going to be picking me apart, asking why I'm not drinking. Yeah. And that's so valid and sad that people do that. That's very college culture. Yeah. But for me, it's very, um, when I turned 21, uh, for me, it's very, it's not so much. So the, uh,

alcohol aspect but like i'm not i'm not good around people who have very chaotic just kind of like messy times out like very college culture of like we are going on a bender from tuesday to saturday we're getting home at 4 a.m every day waking up at 12 eating one meal going out like i cannot be around people that live life like that because i feel weird being the one like

I'm actually going to wake up tomorrow and like go to the gym. And I actually can't go out on a Wednesday because I have like work and I need to like film a morning routine. And like, that's just not going to happen. I need things to be planned out. That triggers my anxiety a lot is like chaotic plans. So I need people that are good balance of like,

vibes, but like, yeah, we'll have fun on like Saturday. Yeah. But like chill vibes all week, but also understanding that like, we don't need to be like going absolute like nuts. Yeah. And you don't need to be like, I cannot preach enough. You do not need to be drunk to have fun. I've experienced this like firsthand, like going out with my friends and not drinking and having the most fun time ever because it's the people I'm surrounding myself with. Yeah. And if you're like,

Like, I don't know. I just, I'm trying so hard not to like name names. No, but it's, it's true. And I think you need to reevaluate if, if you're not feeling the best, if you're feeling like lonely, if you feel like you don't have your people. Yeah, sure. It's fun to go out and like drink. Right. But do you like those people? Cause that's what you do. You drink. Yeah. Or do you like those people? Because they're your friends. Like, can you just like,

Go get a workout with them. Go grab lunch with them. Go get a coffee. Can you go to them with your feelings? Or are they literally just like where you pre-game? Yeah, I was going to say, are they your only friends that you hang out with when you're drunk? And that's college, dude. But to me, that's just not a friend. It's not. It's not a friend. It's a fake friend. You're not going to hang out with them past college when you guys both go your separate ways? Are you going to be in contact with them? No, you're not. I'm sorry I had to bring it to you, but that's just...

I don't understand that. And I think it's setting the boundaries with those people and knowing that if that's all the friends that you have, you need...

ones and you might have different friend groups you might have like the people that you like are your close friends that don't really go out and you might have your going out friends or like only some people you go out with are your close friends like whatever but just be very aware and I keep saying this but it's very much college culture of are they your friends or are you drunk yeah like exactly because everyone loves everyone when it's like 2am and everyone's like blackout you know like

I just think you need to be careful about having genuine friendships, especially in your 20s when everything's changing. Yeah, and to anybody that's listening to this and they genuinely enjoy going out Wednesday to Friday, Saturday, whatever it is,

Understand it from the other side. Okay. You know, don't be making fun of making comments that someone doesn't want to drink. Don't make fun of them. Don't pressure them to do it because you don't know what's going on behind the scenes. You don't know if they genuinely just don't like to drink or they're having like a mental health block and they just can't get themselves to do it.

It's very important that like this becomes normalized because honestly guys, it has been so hard for me to like want to actually go out and enjoy myself and have fun because of situations like that. Like when I was out, I'm just going to talk about the situation we were out, um,

Taylor and I we were out and we were with a bunch of our friends and I it came to the point where I legitimately had to tell them that I was having anxiety that night and I couldn't drink but then I felt like okay if I tell them I'm having anxiety maybe they'll stop harassing me about drinking no guys it went the complete opposite way they then started talking to me about anxiety being like

well, what's wrong? How can we help you? Maybe you shouldn't work as much. Maybe you shouldn't be so pressured on your social media. And then that's when it got even worse and worse. And it was just like this massive spiraling thing. And I was just like, you know what? Peace guys. And I ordered an Uber, but it's just really important to like recognize these like situations and just, I'm not saying to be sensitive with it because like nowadays we are just so sensitive. Um, but just, I don't know. You know what I think?

a lot of it was that like hit really close to home now that you're saying it now I realize it's what's it triggers me big time when people do it to me the way it's like well maybe you should stop doing this and you should stop doing that and why don't you just try this as if it's your fault yeah like as if

what you're feeling is like you're being dramatic yeah like that triggers me like no other if I tell someone what my mental health issue is at the moment and their first thing is like

You you you you you you I'm like it's not my fault It is legit the chemicals in my brain stop giving me a lecture on why my life is causing it Yeah, so like telling you like oh you work too much. That's like literally instant being like your fault Yeah, but it's just like another thing too is like the jealousy that came out of that comment Like I knew I was just like i'm sorry i'm successful like

But don't bring my work into it because I know what I can handle with work. And I'm not overwhelming myself whatsoever with work because day to day, I feel good. I'm like, end of the night, I'm tired. Okay, I'm going to go to bed. We're done with working in bed by 8. I think we're good. But then that entire situation triggered me so bad to the point where I had to call an Uber. No one should ever have to feel like that. Yeah, I agree. And like we said, it's hard because people...

I want to be nice. But I think if it was more open conversation and like, especially because alcohol is a touchy subject for a lot of people, mental health or not addiction, like alcoholics, people trying to get sober. That's a very touchy subject for a lot of people. If someone was trying to get like sober out of bar and people were pressuring them and pressuring them about drinking and blah, blah, blah. Like,

They'd probably leave. Like you can't just be asking people about something so sensitive. I think, you know, one little, Oh, have fun. Okay. If it's a no, let it, yeah, let it end. And if some people need that extra push, you know, sometimes I'm like in a, sometimes I go the opposite. I'm in a depressive mood, like get really in my own head. And let's say plans come up later at night. I'm like, I don't want to go. Yeah. Well, I need someone sometimes to be like, go, go,

have a good time. Like, I, sometimes I need that person in my ear saying, go, go, go, go, go. Even though I feel a little bit harassed, then I go and I have fun. Yeah. Like when we were in LA, um, I was in the worst mood and we were going to go to Bradley's. That first time we were going to go to Bradley's and I didn't want to go. I was like, I'm not going to go. I'm not going to go. I was not going to go. I'm not going to go. But I got pushed by,

It was actually David on the phone and he was like, go, like go. Like, are you coming to LA? You're going to Bradley Martin's house. Hello. Hey Bradley. Steve Bradley, rock your head. There's a lot of this night that cannot be talked about. Not really. A little bit. But you're like, but who are you going? Nevermind. Nevermind.

It wasn't just me. It was like a lot of people. And like, that sounds weird. No, I'm talking about on my end. Like, cause I didn't go with you that night. Yes. Like I wasn't there. I was like, what happened? That was weird. I forgot you weren't there. Yeah. I wasn't even there. Anyway. So it was like a bunch of people were going this chill thing and I almost like didn't go. My life may be like different now if I didn't go. Like, I don't know. Like sometimes I need that. So I think it's like, okay, the first one, maybe two times you ask someone, um,

like get their answer and if that's what their answer is leave it yeah I'm the opposite I feel like I feel like I feel like I'm the opposite I'm like I say no once and there's no changing like I made up my mind see yeah well because you're very like you know like your mind is made up 24 7 yeah like you know what gym you want to go to in the morning you know like what you want to wear like you know what you're going to eat as a snack and I'm like I don't care like I'm very like like

don't care like it could be anything i'm like no i know yeah i know what i'm doing and i'm like i don't really care which i guess is a good balance because i mean if we were both like i don't care we probably wouldn't get anything done we would not end up anywhere anywhere be like nine minutes i'm like i'm gonna go to gold they're like i don't know i don't know i don't know you make up your mind like well you know you're driving right now so you'd have to pick

But, yeah, that's, like, that is very you, though. You, like, have your mind set, which I don't think helps your anxiety either, though. Because, like, you're, like, no, you don't get it. I already know. Yeah. Like, I don't need your convincing. Like, I decided this five hours ago. Yeah. Like, I literally picked already. Your mimicry is so bad. It's so true, though. That, I mean, but, like, part of also dealing with mental health, like, you need to be, like, kind of self-aware. Yeah. Like, you know, because I do it to myself, too. Like, I do things where I'm, like...

That was like self-sabotage or like, damn, that was me being so annoying and like rude because I was anxious and like depressed. I'm like, I feel like you need to be aware of like things in yourself. No, but it's, but also, okay. So that's like the social setting with like,

alcohol and partying if that's not going to be like comfortable to you if you need to like leave early because you don't want to be like not sleeping if you need to uh one eat before you go out you college people everyone that just wants to like wake up drink a coffee and go eat f that and like no so just with the drinking know your

and your like boundaries, like it's totally okay to set boundaries and find friends that are interested in the things that you're interested in. But also in terms of friends and social settings, regardless of the alcohol, it's also just like being aware of the people you're surrounding yourself with. Like, do they make you feel better when you leave them or do they not? Yeah. That's a huge thing for me recently. Yeah. Or like, are you also paranoid that they may talk about you when you leave? You know, like that's another thing for me. Like,

I don't like being around people that I feel like potentially I leave the room and they're talking about me or I leave. Oh, I feel that always. I'm like, but if I feel that I'm like, I just don't know if I can get too close with you. And then that ends up me not building good friendship with that person because I'm just so like, Oh my God. Like you're talking about me. I feel like that's why I'm always in small, like,

I have like my close, like I go through, like I have like one close friend that like, like I've been a very small circle person. I have not had a group of friends since my senior year of high school, like a group of friends. Like in senior year, I had a group of people, guys and girls that it was like every single weekend, you know, like it's us. Like we were like a tight group. Obviously that was high school. It went away. I've had like my one best friend from like middle school who's just been like my like

ride or die like she's just like you're my best yeah she's my best friend does she listen to these no oh unless she does but I don't think so um and part of that too is like very I guess no I'm gonna save that topic keep listening for like five more minutes

like you need to know like our friendships like worth keeping and it's not a bad thing or you're not calling them a bad person for friendships ending yeah I think like I'm not at all like it doesn't have to be beef it doesn't have to be like oh they're a bad person they're just not worth all of your energy to be close with yeah which it's totally okay they're gonna they're probably gonna take it personal but at

At the end of the day, what matters is you and you continuing to feel good about yourself. Yeah. I have gone through a multitude of ended friendships. Now, mind you, I've also just transitioned into my early 20s. That's normal. You're not going to be friends with people that you're friends with all through high school. That's normal, right? I also went through, like I said in the beginning, major life changes. I'm the only one my age that I know that's in the stage of life I'm at. So that's a lot to...

to deal with and transition with keeping friends. But something I noticed with the friends I was with, a lot of my, I need to be social, talking to my friends, feeling liked by my friends for my mental health to be good. And I would be in situations where your friends are doing stuff and you see it on Snapchat and they didn't invite you. Yeah. Like, and I never really related to that until like I went to school and then came back and we'd all be in the same place. And then I'd like see it. And I'm like,

that's weird. So like in the group, it'd be like one person was like my best friend and the other two were like also my close friends, but it was like kind of like they were best friends and we were best friends and together we were like a friend group. And I was just shocked because I was like, why didn't like, like, why didn't you like invite me? Like, and that would keep happening or things said about me in the friend group. Like,

Somehow talking about me is a common thing done when I'm not there. And then it's like, okay, well now I don't want to hang out with you because apparently that word got around and these like hangouts and I wasn't there. Or if we leave and then you're going to talk about me, like I just couldn't deal with it. So that was a situation I had to separate myself from. And I mean, it was hard and it was difficult and it kind of sucked. It was semi-mutual, but I mean, I couldn't keep putting myself in that position. And it's not to say like,

Oh my god, I hate them. But it's like... You're not where all my energy is gonna go. And you could also casually drift. Like, someone can just go from being, like, your best friend. You tell them everything. To, like, oh, well, we hang out. We hang out. Like, and keep it, like, casual. Yeah. But that's something I've gone through recently a lot. Yeah. Is knowing, like, eh, you're not someone I want to be around. Yeah. I've definitely, like, being out of college... Obviously not hometown anymore, so I don't have my high school friends. Like...

That is definitely something that, like, those friendships, like, I love you guys. I'm listening. I love you guys. But it's definitely, like, one of those things where it's going to be hard. Like, finding friendships down here, too, like, kind of, like, moving forward with finding people that you can, like, trust, you know? Trusting people. And also, like, the point I was going to touch on, because I know we relate, is, like,

high maintenance friendships dream yeah me like oh my god guys yeah this one's bad that's why like i i was gonna talk about it when i was talking about my friend because she we are the most low maintenance friendship we've been friends since middle school and the only reason it's worked is she has her friends i have mine there is no bad blood if we end up you know we've gone to different high schools we go to different colleges like we're in different states like if we don't talk for a month

Like it happens. Like we're both busy, but like I can literally FaceTime you or like go visit you and it's like, there's no issue. There's no like, why didn't you text me? Like you don't text me enough. Like it's just like, oh my God. Yeah. Like we were both busy. I guess I need to tell this story. I woke up this the other morning to this massive text message from a friend of mine and she was like,

You don't like my instagrams anymore. You don't like my comment or you don't respond back to my comments and You didn't answer my one message from the other night, which was her message from Her was at literally one in the morning And I was like, you know what my friend I literally responded back I was like i'm dealing with other mental things. I am so sorry that I I go on instagram now for work I don't go on instagram for social hour I'm, sorry. I didn't get back to your instagrams and she basically ended the friendship on me. I was like, well

I guess, you know, I'm not putting the energy to do that anymore. Like, high maintenance people, like, you need me to respond back to your Instagram comments? And you're mad at me for that as a friend? If Taylor came to me and she was like, you didn't respond back to my comment, I'd be like, girl, calm down. Like, you're psychotic. That's crazy. No. And I think part of that, have you seen the whole, like, non-attachment thing on TikTok? Like, practice non-attachment. So it's basically, like, what comes into your life will come in. What goes is what goes. Don't be attached to anything. Yeah. Like,

Like it's I wish I was better at it but like friends and it might sound bad and I've posted this before to like be a little selfish like like I said you don't have to create beef or like fight with anyone or like talk down on them but like in your 20s especially at the stage we're at new jobs like having so many like business things are going into I just moved to a new I just moved to a new state where I have all this like new stuff in front of me.

If your friendship isn't really serving me right now, I'm really sorry that's not where my time's going. And for my own sanity, I can't feel bad for that.

that's just how it is. Like that's straight up just how it is. And it sucks. But that's also why I think I've made the decisions to keep my circle small. Like I would never do that to like you or like my best friend that I was just talking about. Like I would never do that to you guys, but like, you know, like those acquaintances that feel like stress, a friend shouldn't feel like stress. Yeah. Like if a friend texting you was like, Oh God,

Right? Yeah. Oh my God. Like why'd she text me? That's a big red flag. Yeah. Big red flag. Big, big, big. Like if going out with a group of people is like, oh, we really have to like see them tonight. Oh my God. Why are you going? Yeah. Right. Like why? I would like to know why you're going. Because if I've heard people fish for drama and then are like upset and

Like when they're like, why do I feel like anxious? Because you're filling your life with people you don't want to be around. Keep the group small, my friends. I honestly promise you it will benefit you in the best way possible. Less trauma. It truly will. And just know what is worth your time and your mental energy. Because when you're feeling mentally not there, you've got nothing. I have like nothing left to give. I have to be very picky about what takes my energy. Yeah. And to me, it's work.

the gym but the gym is like a non-negotiable so i'm not even counting that it's work and it's the main relationships that i like the one or two relationships i like need in my life in the moment and everything else is good when it's there and it's good but if it's bad and it's not gonna happen oh well yeah reach baby because i'm pretty much the same way so

Alright. I feel like we definitely covered a freaking lot and I hope you guys were able to relate to all of this. Yeah, and just like feel less alone that like, yeah, sometimes it's hard. Yeah. And like, it's very much real and that way when you see us

doing the things we're doing, just don't think like, oh, they have it so easy or like, oh, they're so perfect or like, yeah, we shouldn't complain about anything. Like, yeah, we are human too. We are, we feel the feels just like you do. So we are here for you guys. If you guys ever need anything, of course. Yeah. And take all of our little motivational posts or motivational, you know, like reminders or us getting up and getting after it as like,

know deep down, know that we are struggling too and we're doing it. Yeah. Like, always know that behind the scenes. Yeah. It's important. Because it's not just like sunshine and rainbows. Yeah, just because we're posting like 20 stories...

one day does not mean we're having a good day. Yeah, you only saw how much is that combined? Two minutes? Two minutes of stories? Literally. Even if I vlog. Yeah. Guys, I'm filming like days of my life right now. Y'all did not see the weekend. This weekend I was depressed. Like, my parents are gonna listen to this and be like, what's wrong? I'm okay. But like, I didn't vlog that. Yeah, no. Why would I vlog that? Like,

So even if you're like, oh, but I watched your like 20 minute vlog. Okay. That was still only 20 minutes of my entire week. Yeah. You just don't know what anyone's going through and you are not alone. And those are things that we do on the regular to make us just feel a little bit better. And some reminders that you guys need to take with you.

Yeah. I love that. I feel so much better. That was therapy. We love you guys. All right. Go journal. Go talk with a friend and go do what we just did. Yeah. Pick a friend, go to coffee and just talk. Just let it out. Pretend you're podcasting. We love you. Bye. Love you guys. See you next week.