"No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through."
**Producer: **Whit Missildine
**Episode Summary: **A refugee recounts her experience of the horror and devastation of the Rwandan genocide.
This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #113 in August 2018
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **extreme violence, war, genocide, murder, assault, explicit language
Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper
Music Bed: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie; "Water" - Johannes Welsch
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