“I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”
**Producers: **Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future
Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
**Music Bed: **Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie
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