Relatable College Chat | Our Experiences, You’re Not Alone
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What's up guys, it's Sam and Taylor and we want you to put your shoes on. I'll open that energy drink and go.

Hello guys, welcome back to another episode. I'm Taylor and I'm Sam. We are so excited to do this episode. We're going all things college. We are. It's going to be a massive throwback for me at least. And we got two different perspectives, okay? As you guys know, or maybe you didn't, I'm 21, Sam is 24. If you, fun fact of the day, if you didn't know that. A lot of people actually don't know our age. I get asked on the daily basis how old I am and I'm like, I thought I made it pretty clear like how old I was. No, I think it's just confusing because like I think

I think people know how old I am. Yeah. Because like recently 21 is like a thing. Yeah. So they're like, wait, how old are you? Yeah. No, I get asked like on every Q&A that I do, I always get asked what my age is. And I'm like, well, I answer it every time. I'm always like 24. We're a lie. If people think that we're the same age and you're like, throw back to college. And people are like, wait, wait.

Wait a second. What's going on here? I know. Snapchat, I have so many memories right now that I've been just like going through because obviously we went... It's September, so everyone's going back to school. So like...

The peak of college, at least for me, was like the first few weeks back at school because everyone's rallying. You're excited to see each other again. So like my snap memories are making me emotional. Yeah, well, my college experience is basically still going on. And what I had at my university when I went was absolutely tragic. But we'll get into that in detail. But first, a little bit about us. No, before a little bit about us. Yeah, no. No, screw that. A little bit about us.

uh the podcast and our uh you know biz merch still for sale and guess what drumroll please

what am i saying tell them what new merch is coming oh okay i didn't know if you want me to say that or the fitness app but guys we have exciting news we are getting the future milfs hats back so exciting and we're doing two different designs we have the og ones which i'm obsessed with but also another design which we are going to keep secret until the launch you guys will see them you're going to be obsessed yes uh and trust me that second future milf design hat i'm gonna be wearing it

All the time. All the time. And just remember that merch is one of those things where it is in stock while it's in stock. And once it's out of stock, you may not be able to get it again. This is the only time, though, we'll be restocking a specific item. And that is these hats. Because we just felt like not enough of you guys realized we launched them last time. And...

I'm obsessed with them. I wear it all the time and I want you guys to be able to wrap them. So we're bringing that one back. Yeah, we get comments basically every time we wear it. Where'd you get that hat? What is that? So on and so forth. So we thought we'd bring it back, but it's probably the only restock. The only way we do a restock of something is if it like sells out on the first day. Yeah. Then maybe we do a restock. But if...

That doesn't happen. I'm sorry. Yeah, sorry. Anyways, but that and the fitness app, guys, we are so close to giving that launch date. I promise you. We hopped off a call yesterday with them. We're just finalizing some final details on our admin panel so we can program the workouts into the app and then we'll get a launch date for you. Yeah, it's just like the little last bit, like 100% for sure. I think it's going to be great because as you enter that

new year's holidays, new year goals, new year, new me side of your life. You know that like, okay, it's Thanksgiving. It's Christmas. Like now I need to get my life in order. You guys will have it. Yes. A hundred percent. Which I think is perfect. Perfect timing. Yeah. And there's no better feeling too, especially with all like new year's type stuff coming around to start it before the new year. I posted about that. Yeah. Like I posted, I was like, this was like last week, I think.

It was, I don't know when it was. It was like last week or a few days ago. I was like, it's becoming the fall. It's becoming the holidays where you're going to start thinking of that. January 1st can be your day one or today could be, if you start today, it'll be your day 113. Yeah.

so get going ladies yeah but don't worry that'll be there for you when you're i'm so excited and that wasn't even on purpose guys it wasn't like oh we're gonna try to do it around that time we've just been trying to get it done when it gets done but that's just gonna work out for you guys because i know people are really in that state of mind yeah at the end of the year um but that's basically that make sure you follow along on instagram i've been um

making a lot of clips of like youtube on instagram so our instagram is like a little different now we got some video on there i'm loving it um it's a good time stay up to date on instagram and now a little bit about us you guys this is the favorite part of the entire episode i look forward to it every time it's my favorite week i've gotten so much better at putting like a list on my phone of things that i want to talk about during the catch-up because i

months ago, I wouldn't do that. And I would forget and be like, damn it. Like, I wish I talked about this on the podcast. I really wanted to let you guys know how I was feeling about this certain situation or this happened to me during the week because I want to be like as open as I possibly can about my entire life to you guys because you guys are my fam. Yeah. Same. I really feel that I love podcasting. Like,

I just realized I love podcasting so much and it makes me happy to do it. And there's all these times where it's like, oh, maybe I can journal about this. And I just think I want to podcast about it. Yeah. That even it's made me think I was like, like the other day I was just like, my mind was like racing. I was like,

The way I just want to start like a secret other mini podcast of me rambling because like all this stuff that I'm like, I just want to talk about this and has no place. Like it's not related to this shit. Like it's just random. I'm like, I just want to, I could talk into a mic every single day. I love it. Yeah, I agree. But let's start with where should we start the weekend? Yeah.

I feel like we always start with the weekends. Yeah, we can start weekend because that's a chronological order from the last time they heard from us. Yes, that's so true. So this past weekend, guys, you know, it's college football season. We got all the games going on. One of the biggest games, at least for UT, was against Alabama. So that was a rowdy weekend. And

Taylor and I have entered this phase that you guys know we don't drink as much right now. You know, we went through like the summer drinking a shit ton. And now I'm kind of like laying back, relaxing a little bit more with that. So we went to a...

a bar in the middle of the day. Beaufort's actually on West 6th, right? No. Yeah. Yeah. West 6th. I don't know why my compass was just off for a second. And let me tell you, I've never seen a bar so packed in my entire life. I was honestly surprised they let us in. Me too. I'm definitely whatever rule they have about capacity, like surpassed, surpassed. That was one hell of a fire hazard. Yeah. Bad. Really bad. Like,

Like, definitely wrong. Definitely not correct. Definitely too many people in there. I don't know how those bartenders were surviving. Like, it was... One of our friends worked there. Did I tell you how I texted Parker? And I was like, hey, are you working? I texted him before we even got there at, like, 12.

And we got there around like 1. And he texted me literally at 7 p.m. and goes, hey, sorry, I have not been on my phone. It's been the busiest day of my entire life. I'm like, I respond back. I'm like, I cannot even imagine what it was like working through that. Yeah, we didn't know it looked like that in there when we sent the text. Otherwise, it probably would have been useless. Yeah, I wouldn't have texted him if I knew. I wasn't going to be able to find him. So it was crazy, outrageous, hot, sweaty, crazy.

I just like college football is just so much. And like, I get doing that whole thing when you are a student, but like, if I'm not a student, why am I standing around crowded, sweaty doing this whole thing? Yeah. Honestly though, like I love any type of sporting event when the games are so close though, like that game, like I wish I could have been more into actually watching it, but during the last like five, 10 minutes of that game, when it was like pretty tight scoring, I was like, okay, like this is intense. I actually really enjoy like watching this.

But like Taylor said, watching it in a bar when it's like sweaty packed, it was like 95 degrees out. We were in an outdoor bar with over capacity. So I was like, I would rather be watching this like on my, on my couch with some appetizers, close friends around all that. But it took us over an hour to even find our friends at this bar. Yeah. It was, it was just too much for me, honestly, for a sporting event. I don't care a lot about if it was like my old college, I'd probably be interested. Um,

Like, I just was so focused on, like, I want the game to be over so people can leave and I can, like, breathe for a sec. I didn't even care who won or who lost. Yeah.

But then we ended up leaving and going back to hang out with our friends. And I found a new fine at Trader Joe's. What are they called? Hold on. I need to, like, do research because they were so good. I don't know. Someone just commented on your TikTok saying, oh, my God, is that the TikTok canned wine. Oh. I think they only have, like, one type. Because someone commented on your TikTok. Oh, it's like a popular thing. Or no, they commented on my TikTok because I was holding it as a microphone. It's called...

simpler wines they're canned wines at trader joe's oh they're not new wait these articles are from 2017 i feel like i've definitely seen them for a while they're at trader joe's i got the peach one i love peach wine i'm like a peach wine connoisseur i love peach wine it's my one of my favorite beverages

So I got the peach one and they were so good. Just like sipped on one and like a half. I'm a slow drinker and they just tasted so good. Like I honestly, like if we stayed there longer, probably would have drank them all because they were delicious. So I highly recommend those wines from Trader Joe's. I literally told...

Derek was like let me try it and he was like oh those are dangerous. He was like how much percent alcohol? I was like eight. And he was like and I was like yeah. And they're small cans. They're small cans and they're good. Like they're so good. But that's my vibe right now is like there's no point in me trying to like I'm not trying to commit to being sober but I'm also like to me going out and buying drinks that taste bad and like taking shots just for the purpose of getting drunk and being like this is kind of gross. Like no if it tastes good and I like it I'm going to drink it. Yeah. That one is so good. But like I'm not going to

drink a seltzer I don't like just to get drunk or like get a tequila soda that I think tastes like ass.

just to get drunk. No, yeah. And oh, actually, this is something that I wanted to re or like stitch on TikTok. I'm actually going to play it on the microphone right now. But this, this TikTok spoke to me and I was like, obviously I'm not in college, but I know this is like a college episode. So this kind of goes hand in hand, but ready? How am I supposed to have good friends in college when I don't want to drink every day? I don't really like alcohol. I don't really like it. It tastes like shit and makes me feel like shit. Wait, I

Yeah, I saw that too. I was like, holy shit. This is sitting so hardcore with me right now because Taylor and I have been struggling to find girlfriends here in Austin that genuinely have the same interest in us. Yes, we have a good balance of like a few of our girlfriends that like go out. But I think what it is, and I said to Taylor is that

we're good influences on our girlfriends. Like we're causing them not to be as fucking crazy as they should be. But we kind of need another side of that with our girlfriends. And I'm like, where are these girls? Like, where are they at? Where are they? We are definitely struggling because it's really hard to find people that are going to find joy

in doing things we like. To some people, it's their worst nightmare. Yeah. Like, and to us, it's fun and it's hard. You don't want to feel like the Debbie Downer when we're like, let's go. And we're like, no, we're going home. Yeah. But it's like, I'm in my selfish era. I'm not staying out till two in the morning and getting drunk just because everyone else wants to. I'm going home. Yeah. Like I, cause exactly what that girl said in the TikTok, it tastes bad and it makes you feel like shit. I found that good balance of drinking what I think is

good and drinking that will make me feel good, not feel bad. And be in my bed by midnight. Not enough that'll make me feel bad and not feeling bad that I'm like bored and having FOMO. That perfect little amount of just like, I'm included, this tastes good, but I'm not going to feel bad in any type of way.

And it I'm gonna like be totally fine. No. Yeah, I definitely think I hope there's a good amount of you guys listening right now that probably are feeling this way where you feel lost and they're like, I can't find friends or I feel like I can't go out because I don't want to drink and

fuck it who cares what anyone says we've been going out and a lot of the times we have not been drinking or i've been maybe drinking one or two drinks first of all sneak a drink in i did this at one of the other bars no i'm dead ass like a non-alcoholic drink so the what are those the kin euphoric the kin euphoric drinks i put one in my purse and we got to a bar and i asked for water at the bar drank the water real quickly and then went to the bathroom and then poured that drink into the

cup and then I was walking around the bar and it looked like I had a beer in a cup and it was so normal and no one questioned me because they just assumed I was drinking whereas if I was maybe standing around with nothing in my hand I probably would have gotten like one or two questions but it's just if that's gonna help you feel a little bit more comfortable with not feeling anyone's gonna say anything to you do it yeah so that's how we've been vibing it's just like doing that and trying to find girlfriends finding girlfriends is so incredibly hard maybe we need to go on like bumblebee effect

I was on it and I connected with a few people on it. And it's actually funny because one of our guy friends went on a hinge date with one of the girls two weekends ago. And I was like, holy shit. Like I matched with her on hinge on or I matched with her on Bumble BFF. I'm like, I'm like telling my guy friend, I'm like, please like bring her into the friend group, please. Bring her around, please date her so they can be your friend.

yeah we're telling our guy friends we're like please get girlfriends for the love of god make sure they're cool make sure they're cool so we can hang out with them please no and it's funny you guys you guys are ruthless on my snapchat you swipe up on every single one of the selfies i take with my guy friends being like is this the new boyfriend i'm like no it's not is it is it too much to ask for some guy friends goddamn and it's like we're trying to make girlfriends guys like

Yeah. It's just hard out here. It's hard out here. But other than that, that was a whole tangent. But that was Saturday. I forgot we were even doing a week catch up. Yeah, I know. I thought we were just talking. Sunday, I posted a TikTok about this. Sunday, I'm in my adult... I just call it me being like a wife, cooking, cleaning, whatever.

Shopping. Like, I want to clean everything top to bottom. I want to grocery shop. I want to do my laundry. I want to vacuum the floors. I want to wipe off the windows. I want to wipe off the mirrors. I want to do it all. All of it. All of it. I want every... Like, I want to be like, oh my god, I haven't sat down all day because I've literally just been doing... Just, like, getting my shit done. And I love... No, I love it too. And the thing is, it feels...

Like special in a way. I know it sounds so cheesy. But like once you finally come to that Sunday. And you genuinely feel good when you wake up. And you are able to accomplish so many things off your to-do list. It feels amazing. And it's like so mindless. Like I wake up and I'm like. All I have to do today is play a podcast and get shit done. That's all I have to do today. And someone commented on my TikTok. Because I made a TikTok about it. And they were like. I'm just curious. Like as someone that works for yourself. Like why. Like.

do weekends still hold the same value to you? Like, why still are weekends important? Yeah. And I was like, okay, two reasons for this. One, I like a schedule. I can't just like, everyone else has weekends off. I like normal work hours. I'm going to work normal work hours. Like, I'm going to try to be done by work hours.

Around dinner time. And I'm not working on the weekends. Like real work. Obviously I'm going to post like Instagram stories. And take a picture. But like I'm not going to be like. On my computer working. Turning things down. Because I have to work. Because. I'm not going to be like.

it's the weekend. I'm not going to be focused on editing on a Sunday because it's the weekend and that's my cleaning get other stuff done day. And I like having a schedule and all of our friends work. So obviously if we're going to go out, it's not going to be on a Tuesday. They have jobs. Yeah, I'm not going on a Tuesday. Hell no. So yeah, obviously we could take that day on like a Thursday if we wanted to, but it doesn't hit this

I like a Sunday. Also, my whole life I'm used to that schedule of school and like it's been my whole life. So it just feels natural. But I just love that. I love putting in a podcast and just going all day on shit that needs to get done. I love it. It's like meditation because you don't do anything else and you're like, oh my God, it's 4 p.m.

I just cleaned everything and like organized and like did all my laundry. Then you go to sleep and your sheets are fresh. Oh my God. My go-to thing right now on the weekends has been going to a new coffee shop every weekend and I've been loving it. I don't know what it is. It's just, it's life's simple pleasure. It literally is life's simple pleasures. And you know what? I've been going to a new place every weekend. And I think by the end of the year, I've, I told myself this, I'm going to do a ranking of like my top 10 favorite places to get a coffee in Austin. And,

And I'm slowly but surely going through my list of places that I have been wanting to visit. One of them being Dutch Bros that we went to today. Not a weekend. It's a Wednesday. Yeah, it is a Wednesday. But this was a special treat because my beret bag launched today. How did I forget to even talk about that? Yay!

I forgot about that for a second. Guys, if you are like, what the hell is Sam talking about right now? I have been working with Varee, which is a bag company. If you're not familiar with it, they are do gym bags, duffel bags, backpacks, tote bags, you name it. Um, and for the last year I've been working on designing, collaborating with a bag with them and we finally did it. So check it out on my Instagram. It should be up there now. The bag will actually launch tomorrow.

A day before this goes live. So the 15th of September at 9 a.m. Central Standard Time. While supplies last. So I don't know how long that's going to be. But I am just so happy it's finally out there. Because I have been keeping this a secret. Literally this bag has been in my presence for maybe like eight months now. For a week.

And I have not been able to talk about it because of COVID. They've been having a hard issue with getting merch overseas or merch. What am I saying? Product overseas. So finally she's launched. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think the first day we met in Miami, you told me that you were doing a bag with Vure. Yeah, it was about two weeks before that. I had gotten off my first phone call with them where we mapped out the entire process. Okay. So yeah, like the first time literally we met in Miami, you told me you were doing this. Yeah. Yeah.

And that was like, what, February of last year? Almost two years ago. Yeah. So I literally remember that phone call. Like, it was so crazy. I had, what, like 50,000 followers on Instagram? Like, nothing crazy. And...

to me, I thought it was crazy that like this big brand wanted to work with me. I was like, holy shit. Hell yeah. Like I'm excited for this, but it's just, I feel like I'm a different person now ever since like you, you've been saying this. Yeah. I was telling Sam cause like when she first made it, she was very in, I mean, maybe some of you don't even know this cause you're like newbies to the following, which I can still love you. Thanks for being here. But,

But like Sam used to be like the bright colored like long sleeve shirt with the shorts. Like everything was bright colored. Everything was like blue and red, like always blue and red to the gym, like always all these colors. Yeah. And like the bag was blue and red and it was like, yeah, Sam always wears like those colors. Like that's why she made it those colors. And I'm like, well, who is that girl? Yeah. And the bun. I got I had the bun on the top of my head. Yeah.

I was a different human being. I was like the red and blue Sam. I was a child. Well, I still am a child, but like, I feel that, but yeah, that's super exciting. Super fun. I've like also kept like, it's, I feel like everyone knows, but yeah, they don't know. Oh yeah. The amount of times where I've used the bag, I had to stop using the bag actually like a few months ago because I was getting so many swipe ups and being like, Sam, where's this bag from? And so like, so cute. I'm like,

I had to ignore all of you because I was like, I cannot expose myself yet. Yeah. So sorry that I ignored you if you asked where the bag was from. Now you know the answer. Yeah. So that's out there now for the world to know. So did I think...

No, we had to backtrack to Dutch Bros. Oh, it's really good. Yeah, it's really good, guys. We got the caramel pumpkin cramblee cold brew and we got a shot of espresso on top. We got it dairy-free so we couldn't get like the cream topping on top, but it's still really good. It's pretty fire. It's really good. But that's pretty much been our week. Yeah, I wanted to talk about that thing I told you that I saw on TikTok. Yeah. I just want to like mention it because it's been...

It's been crazy to me that people are seeing this and not really thinking it's as crazy as I think it is. I think maybe it just got on, like, the right side of TikTok. I was going to say that. Where no one's, like, this is the most absurd thing I've ever heard. There's this thing...

I'm just going to tell you guys what it is. Do your own research. I think it's fascinating how insane it is. It's called the Ranch Malibu and it's like $50,000, $40,000 or $50,000. Like this three week long thing where it's like a wellness health retreat, but you really just lose a bunch of weight and like don't eat like anything and walk like 12 miles a day. And your snack is like five almonds and you do so much walking and it's crazy. People lose like all this weight and like big TikTokers and like celebrities do it. And I think there's one also in like another country.

But like they go on these trips and they do it and they spend all of this money and it's so absurd and wild. And I don't know how it's not like a bigger thing of how crazy it is.

yeah i i have no idea how it's not 40 some i think the comments had 44 000 for like three weeks of like not eating and it's not even like you have your phone and stuff like the girls like that so i don't get it at all and i think it's crazy and i've seen like this one girl make a bunch of videos about it and how she like she had a good time but it's crazy i need to do like more i don't think there's a documentary on

I think there should be too. It's crazy. Yeah, I mean, I don't know enough information to even talk about it. I don't know enough either. Because you just told me about it and I haven't even seen it on TikTok, which I'm sure I will now that we're talking about it. Yeah.

Still sounds really crazy. Yeah. Transformative fitness programs designed to promote weight loss. The Ranch Acclaimed results oriented fitness and wellness programs are designed to recalibrate the mind and body through intense fitness and wellness regimen paired with a highly structured plant-based nutritional diet. Yeah. See, in another country, they have the Ranch Italy where you can do it in Italy.

um eight days in italy this one says it starts at nine thousand per person if it's two people and ten thousand per person if it's a double room um so i don't know why someone comes why would it be more okay wait if it's more someone no it's less money you said ten thousand and nine nine thousand for nine thousand if it's like two of you going and if it's one person it's ten thousand so like oh okay i thought you said the other way around i don't know why someone coming to forty four thousand dollars i don't know maybe i'm not seeing that on here these same like

12 000 to 10 000 so i don't know don't quote me on anything but regardless that's super expensive regardless right like 12 000 is still insane like insane oh my god and there's like a schedule on here guys look into it it's crazy it's wild it's it's absolutely insane and no one's talking about it you know what we need to talk about what is i don't know why i

I just got so scared to say it, but no, I'm not scared to say it. It's my love life. Oh, God. I'm sick of this. I know. I'm sick of it, too, but I love making it into a nice little series with you guys because you guys are so invested in my love life. But I do want to say this. I have redownloaded Hinge, and I'm fully invested into this app. Like, I've never had so many matches on Hinge in my entire life because I don't use it. Dude, because it's fun. Like, why not get attention? No, I... No, literally, like... Okay, I...

This is a lot. Okay, so ready? One, two, three, four, five, six. I have six matches right now. But they are doing such a great job when they message me. One of them was like,

um one of them said you look like a swole sandra bullock and i was like oh i like this one that one was facts one of the hinge matches doesn't live here but he's a super duper famous tiktok star sound off in the comments who you think it was an instagram oh i know yeah guess there was another one too and there was two guess who both of them were guess in the instagram yeah i don't know what it is but i guess a lot of tiktokers like is this a normal thing that like

TikTokers or even like Instagram. Oh, 100%. But they travel and then while they travel, they're on Hinge. 100% because if they're famous, think about, like this is a no-brainer to me. You're famous for being a good-looking guy. You can probably match with like five girls while you're there for the week and...

Boys are gross. And fuck all of them. Boys are gross. Let's just say that it was one of Bryce Hall's friends. But I didn't know why he was here. And I was like, why is he here? And then I went to go stalk him. And then I saw he was here for like a photo shoot. I was like, this is just weird. But anyways. I should have met up with him.

Oh my god, imagine. Or the pod. And then you know what I had to do? You know on Hinge, you can actually now, I don't know if this is a new update because I did not used to see it, but you can actually put in your profile what you're searching for. So I put in my profile that I'm searching for a long-term relationship. So no fuckboys better be matching with me because if you're a fuckboy and you're going to fuck with me, I'm going to be pissed because I matched with somebody and in his little profile, what he's searching for is a short-term relationship. What the

How do you search for a short-term... To me, you're either searching for one time. Yeah. A non-committed, you know, like, type relationship. Like, you know. And this is actually the one that said swole Sandra Bullock. I would kiss about it. Like, what's a short-term relationship? Because to me, that's like, I really want to be seriously with someone, but only for six months. Yeah. What does that mean? You know what, Taylor? We actually have five unread messages right now. And I actually... Read them. Read them on... No. I have to go through them after...

After this episode because my goal for the weekend is to go on at least like two Hinge dates even if it's just like one drink or if they meet us out while we're with all our friends. It's already Wednesday. I've been talking... I know. We got to figure this out. I've been talking with this one named Brandon and I want to go on an espresso martini date with him because I've been talking about how much I love espresso martinis and how much he loves going to West 6th and I was like, oh my God. So I mentioned a few places that I like to go and get espresso martinis. When he loves going to West 6th. Oh my God. Like...

This man's literally 27 years old and he loves going to West Sakes. That's a red flag. Red flag. Bad. He's like, I'm... But if it's Adele, though, he's a firefighter. Oh, that's good. Yeah, right? Oh, that's good. See... That's good. He added points back. But it's like...

Oh, my God. Like, you cannot be approaching 30 and spend your free time at, like, whiskey. Yeah, but you don't know. He might be just going to, like, Rustic Tap, chilling with his bros. Yeah. Like, there's a lot on West 6th. I'm just being here. Like, if you're going to the Rancher Bufords, then I'm a little concerned. I'm just a hater. Or Cat's Pajamas. I'm just a hater. Yeah, I'm a hater, too. But it's like... Oh, no. This one guy goes, I'm in Houston for a few weeks. Back, though, soon. No. No. Lame.

So other than that, I don't really have much else to say. Yeah, neither do I. Other than the fact that I am not drinking as much and I am focusing on my love life. Oh, I started a new morning routine. So I am...

Literally so focused on myself right now. It's just absolutely like it's just great. Like I'm so nothing can distract me from my goals is basically what I'm saying. Like I'm so just in it for me in this moment of my life. And my new morning routine is I wake up anywhere from like 630 to 730.

It depends on the day, you know? And then I go outside and I ice roll and I read my book and I drink water and the sunset, not sunset. What's it called? The sunrise is like still happening. Like the sun is already up, but the sky is all colors and my balcony is on the third floor. So the sky is like pink and I get to read my book and ice roll for like 30 minutes, 30, 45 minutes. And then I go to bed.

And it's magical. It's my favorite part of the day. It's like my peace. I leave my phone in my room and I just read on my balcony. And it's, oh my God, it's so good. And then I read in the morning and at night so I can finish books faster now because I used to only read at night or like one time throughout the day. Now I read twice throughout the day. And I'm posting book updates on my Instagram stories. So yeah, that's that. Now I'm done.

I would say I would share my morning routine with you guys, but I literally just filmed that this morning for YouTube and that will be up next week. It's not only my morning routine, but it's also my pre and post workout routine all in one. So if you guys are interested in that, go subscribe to YouTube. Yeah. Let's get into the college life. Yay!

This is like perfect timing. Like I said, you know, everyone's going back to school. We got girls that maybe graduated or girls that are going into college. I don't know. Middle of college. We got it all. Okay. Or we have girls that graduated years ago and are still self-reflecting. Yeah. I was going to say sometimes I listen to podcasts and I have zero relation whatsoever to what they're talking about. And I'm like, oh, I'm like listening to the advice like it.

mean anything to me. Yeah. Well, we want to start off kind of with doing a little reflection on our college experience and

And then we'll jump into our highs and lows of our college experience. So I guess I'll jump into it first. Want me to? Yeah, mine's like pretty in-depth. You can go first. Yeah, no, I got you. So basically, I went to LaSalle University in Boston. It is a Division III small school. It's in Newton, Massachusetts. And...

I really wanted to play college sports, but I didn't know at what degree I wanted to play, whether I wanted to be fully committed to it or if I wanted to be committed, of course, but also put in full effort to classes and friends and be able to work because I know D1. If you're playing a college sport, you are playing that college sport. That is your job. That is what you're going to school for. That is it. So I ended up picking D3. And

And my school was only 30 minutes from my hometown. So like I didn't have a car my freshman or sophomore year, but my junior senior year, I did have a car. But it was just really easy for me to, you know, go home on the weekends if I wanted to after a game or whatnot. But I went to school, played field hockey at home.

And then luckily my coach for field hockey was also my coach for lacrosse. And she knew when she was recruiting me that I played lacrosse in high school. So she was like, Hey Sam, like,

do you want to play lacrosse? I would make the transition for you really easy with getting you onto the team and all of that. And I was like, okay, whatever. Like this will be a great way for me to make more friends, which luckily I did because my really close girl friend group played lacrosse. So that was really helpful for me to find friends in college was through my lacrosse team. Unfortunately, my field hockey team, it was more just like kind of teammates, not really girls that

Um, I built really good friendships with, um, which is totally okay. Like you can have your friends and then you can have like your teammates. Like you're not always going to click off field with the girls that are in your team. And so that was what I did from all the way up to my junior year. And then my junior year, I actually quit.

lacrosse because I just did not have the best experience of playing two sports, which I'll get into a little bit later. My relationship with food and exercise was extremely toxic. And I kind of knew that at the time, but I also really wanted to branch out and go abroad. So I quit lacrosse and I went abroad to Australia, which was the best decision I could have done for myself. I was also in a relationship all the way up until this point and we broke up. So that was just kind of the pinpoint of like,

Sam, you're going abroad. Fuck it. You're leaving nothing behind. You're going to the other side of the world by yourself. And so for about six months, I was in Australia. And then I came home and I played field hockey for my senior year. And we'll get in more detail as this episode goes on. But that's a little summary. Okay. So for me, my college experience isn't like necessarily over yet. But...

To just start, I went to the University of Florida and Sam is going to go pee. I went to the University of Florida in Gainesville, Florida. It was my dream school since I was eight years old. I worked my butt off in high school to get there. Super involved in everything. Student government, dance, 4.0 GPA, 5.0 weighted GPA. I was like going all in to get into this school because it's a very competitive school.

And I got in, moved in in the summer. So just a few weeks after I graduated, I moved into my dorm. And before that, actually, in May of my senior year, I auditioned for the University of Florida Dazzlers, the dance team. So at the football games, the girls that are dancing on the sidelines, I auditioned and went through the whole process and I didn't make it. I got to like right before the final cut. It was like days and days of auditions and people got cut every day. And I was in the very last group.

Didn't make it, but you know, it is what it is. And that was kind of the first thing that was like, okay, that kind of sucked because, you know, I put in a lot of effort to do it. Didn't make it, but it is what it is. It was still the summer. So I knew there was way more opportunities and,

And the summer was so boring, but I gave it the benefit of the doubt because it was summer. Summers on campus are empty because most people start in the fall. So I was like, whatever. Everyone's like, summer's going to be boring. Just wait till the fall. And then I rushed. UF, if you don't know, is a big SEC Southern school. It is Greek life. It is the mansions. It's all of it. If you're not in a frat or sorority class,

like there's definitely different areas of the school but like for me and my personality it's someone that should be in a fraternity or sorority to get the experience they want um and i rushed and i went through the miserable process of rush rush on tiktok is so like it's miserable okay like it's miserable and i know some girls they do post like how it's so miserable and tiring it's

It's a lot at these big Southern schools. Okay. Not to intimidate you if you're like about to do it or like doing it next year, but it fucking sucks. And I didn't get any houses. I got one house, but it's a new house. So they were accepting anybody like it's a sorority, but I think they would have taken boys. They would have taken anyone because they just started. So they have to take anyone like you could probably walk up and be like, hey, can I join? They'd be like, yeah, because they don't have members yet.

So I got that one. And when I didn't get like being, I was in a room full of people in the basketball stadium, the O'Connell center, thousands of girls and everyone opens their little thing. And I didn't get the house I wanted. And I literally left in tears because everyone's so happy and you go to the houses and everyone's like living their best life. And I left literally crying in tears. And that was when the,

downward spiral of my life happened and I didn't do shit. I tried out for another dance club. I didn't make the first one that I tried out for, but that's fine because there's another one and I just did that one.

um, didn't really make friends there. Didn't really vibe with people and just stayed to myself. And, you know, people were telling me, Oh, put yourself out there more. And I'd say I put myself out there a lot. I auditioned for two dance teams. I rushed sororities. Like I wasn't just sitting around doing nothing. Like I tried, like, yeah, that was like a lot of work, but I was just very, I was getting good grades, straight A student. Um, and then I went home for COVID and

I actually made the decision to transfer home for that semester because my mental health was so bad. But then I had to go home for COVID anyway. So it made no difference. Everyone was home. Went back, had a good time in the fall with my roommates. That was the first semester of college that I actually liked and felt like a college student where my social media was picking up. So I had this little side hobby. I had friends, but my friends were seniors and they graduated. So I left and dropped out. And now I want to start online classes in the

spring i should probably be able to graduate in two semesters with doing uf online because school comes really easy to me it doesn't take a lot of time for me so i think i can just crank out two semesters and be done with it so yeah that's our stories it's a lot it really is a lot that's that in a nutshell yeah in a nutshell of like a few years of school but yeah my school did not have any sororities and i'm kind of thankful it didn't so i'm

because I went to a small school, all the parties were like sport based. So if I was ever going to a party, I was going to a little cross party, which,

Sport-based, yes, but we didn't have a nice hockey team. We didn't have a football team. We didn't have any of that. So a lot of the on-campus activities were kind of small, so it always kind of forced me to go out to either other schools or to college bars. And all the way up before I was 21, I was just using my bigs. So for sports, we had bigs and littles. Sororities do bigs and littles. So for sports, we did that. And my bigs.

Looked just like me. Like, the reason she picked me was because we looked alike from, like, the back. Get that ID, baby. Yeah, I know. So, like, when we were on the field together, like, we looked alike and everything. So, that's why she picked me. And I ended up getting her ID. So, every time we would go out, I was just always going out with, like, the upperclassmen. And she actually didn't give me her ID, but she would always just, like, have someone...

Give someone the ID. That person would come outside. That person would give me the ID. And then I would go in and I would hang out around them. But I would say, like, for my freshman and sophomore year, I was pretty lost on, like, who I was or the friends I was hanging around because...

It's a really big transition from going from your little like childhood friends to finding new friends, especially for someone like me that was jumping into college with my boyfriend from back home. So like I was so reliant on, you know, talking with this person every day, going home on the weekends or going up to his like

military school up north because he went to a military school in vermont and i would literally drive like three and a half hours to go up there and hang out with him and his i would sneak in there so

Little backstory he went to a military school. They were not allowed visitors So I would literally drive up there just to be there for an overnight and I would sneak into his dorm room they would try to like sneak me in and like all this stuff and then I would when he would get called out at sunrise I was like hiding in like the closet or like under his bed and shit Just so I could like hang out and then I would leave and dip the next day and drive through three hours back So it wasn't like the best relationship

I was very reliant on him, especially with like finding friends. Like I didn't really open myself up to it. So if you're going into college and you have a high school sweetheart, flick him goodbye. No offense. But I think it will help you out a lot with finding friends in college. And I finally ended up my sophomore year, end of sophomore year, finding like a good group of girls that I kind of connected with. And we all ended up rooming together for my junior and senior year.

And yeah, so. So my freshman year, I went home quite a lot because I was absolutely miserable. Like my my depression was out of this world. Terrible. Like I feel like I even blocked out like how bad it was, but it was really, really bad. Like just my God, it was the lowest point of my life. I went home often. I didn't have a car, so.

there's like red coach buses which are these buses like you buy take four it takes you all the way home and they were miserable because they have to make stops obviously so instead of a five-hour drive home it was like eight to ten hours on a bus and it was miserable but I wanted to go home I like needed to go home I was literally miserable so I'd go home literally like probably once a month I did not have good roommates I didn't

mesh with anyone in my hall and the the hard part about uf was people are like everyone's in the same boat no one has friends yet which i know it's a massive school okay there's thousands of people i know a lot of people don't have friends yet but a lot of people do a lot of people were from south florida most people most people that i met like were from south florida like in a class if it's like who's out of state one person raised their hand so many people were from within

Two hours of where I lived and a lot of people even went to high schools that I knew of but not my high school So they weren't my good friends A lot of people went to my middle school a lot of people came in With a lot of people from their high school, which obviously not to say they're still friends to this day But they had people they went in with people from their high school Um the people from my high school that weren't really my friends and there was a very very small Amount of us there was like four of us three of us um

And I didn't have anyone. I was alone. All of my friends stayed and people really went in with their best friends. But my school wasn't a very... My high school wasn't a very like...

strong academic school. A lot of people kind of stayed home for college. Not a lot of people went to schools like UF. So I was alone and it was frustrating when people would tell me everyone's in the same boat. I was like, but they're not. All of these people are here with like their entire high school. Like so many of their high school were there because when you're from Miami, University of Florida and Florida State are like where you go to school if you want to

Go to school. That's where people go. So it was just annoying because I was like, I get what you're saying, but I also don't because I very much know that like this girl's walking around campus with 15 people from her high school. Yeah. Or people from her high school older than her are in the sororities, are in the fraternities. It's her friends because she's known them for four years. So I felt very just...

On the outs, completely on the outs. Like, because then once people rush, then when you're a freshman –

You rush and people go all in on the sororities, which I don't blame them. You're trying to make friends in your sororities because that's important to you. But it's like girls don't even want to do anything besides do the sorority thing. Yeah. They want nothing else but the sorority thing. So I spent every second alone. Every second, you guys. Like, it sounds crazy, but I didn't... I would go the whole day and realize I didn't speak the whole day. Like, I didn't say words. Because...

I didn't talk to anyone. I would talk to David on the phone and I literally didn't talk to anyone. It was miserable. And I found it hard. Like I would look up people like talking about like on YouTube, like I dropped out or this or the other. And no one's situation ever seemed as like

bad as mine like not to make a pity party for myself people would be like I got in a sorority and I ended up not liking it I'm like okay I didn't I didn't get the sorority I wanted like didn't happen and it was so frustrating to hate it so much when it was like my dream school but I was miserable and it's such a big place that it looks like everyone has it all together and obviously not everyone had it together but it was by no means no but it was

Frickin' hard. Yeah. It was really hard. Like, kind of going off of, like, obviously that was, like, your lowest part. I kind of want to touch on, like, my lowest part of college, and that was...

my relationship with food and exercise. That was just a really dark place that I was in. And honestly, even like to this day, some people are very spiteful of the way I was in college because of the way I treated my own body. And the way you treat your body is the way that you end up going to treat the people around you. And like I had mentioned before, I overdid it on the exercise. I underrate the girls around me that...

Weren't the best influences on that as well. Now, I don't know where their head was mentally, but a lot of the comments that girls always make when you know you're going out, you're going to be wearing a tight bodysuit, tight jeans. Maybe you don't want to eat dinner. Skip the dinner because you're drinking. Like that was the type of atmosphere I was in. And with college sports, the mix of the two did not mesh well at all. I was overdoing it with the exercise. I was running on a turf field for two hours. And then after that exercise,

I would end up going to the gym to do more cardio. I was either doing 30 minutes on the bike or I was doing sprint intervals on the treadmill. And then I was doing abs after that. And I was doing that almost every single day. So my goddamn Apple watch was saying I was burning like 2000 calories a freaking day. Like it was insane. And then the weekends would roll around and the girls I was surrounding myself around at the time, um,

I weren't super helpful on that. I just remember I'd go like to the damn dining hall and like they would be having toast for dinner, like literally two pieces of toast with butter. And I thought, OK, well, if they're doing that, I have to eat that as well. Like that's all I'm going to have. I'm not going to have any protein. I'm not going to have anything just toast, you know, because in my head at the time, like I thought, OK, I'm going to have toast because it will help absorb the alcohol a little bit if I do get too drunk. And I'm like,

get sick in any way like maybe the toast the bread because do you ever go through that phase like when you were really really drunk in your dorm room like all you had was like bread and you would just like eat bread because like you thought the bread would absorb the alcohol and it would sober you up a little bit that was just like something that I said that we would I would go through is like oh my god like a loaf of bread I'll just eat that when I'm really drunk because it's gonna help absorb the alcohol so I was just con and at the time I thought this was so healthy too because I was super skinny I was like

A size double zero in all my jeans and extra small in my body suits and my crop tops. And all my friends would be like, oh my God, like you're so healthy. You play a college sport. Like you barely eat, you eat salads and everything.

maybe one slice of toast, like you skip breakfast, like that's so healthy. And so I thought in my head, like what I was doing was perfectly fine. But then it ended up leading into not the best on my body in terms of like my mood. I was cold 24 seven, like literally freezing everywhere I went. I just remember being shivering to the core. And I was just mean to like

everyone around me. I didn't give anyone time a day because I didn't have the energy to give anyone time a day. And that ended up leading to, obviously, now I have a platform. And post-graduation, when I had graduated, people would make these comments, oh, I don't deserve a platform because I was so bitchy in college and all this stuff. And

It just, it does, I did a lot of self-reflecting on those comments that people would make about me in college because it's like, I'm not that person anymore. I was treating my body so poorly and that was just like really one of the darkest times in my life was when I was severely under eating and just treating myself like crap because it also hurt.

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There was two main focuses of it. One, I was eating. I had a meal plan, so I'd eat at the dining hall. I was in a little dorm, didn't have a kitchen. So I'd eat at the dining hall and it was hard. It was like going out to eat by yourself every day for every meal, you know, which is difficult to do. Like I had to get comfortable like sitting alone in the dining hall every day, which sucked. And then it got cold.

um it would get to like lows of like 30s in Gainesville and let's say it'd be like rainy and cold okay I had to go walk to get dinner and it was like okay maybe I just won't and I would sit there and like with a knife like eat some peanut butter out of the jar for dinner like because I didn't want to go by myself and walk in the cold to go sit in a dining hall by myself no I didn't want to like that sounded miserable the other thing oh my god don't

It's so relatable though. There are going to be so many girls listening right now that are going through this too. I even went through periods of going to the dining hall by myself. It's not a fun situation to be in at all because then you feel like when you're walking into the dining hall you have all eyes on you. And you feel like everyone's like, oh my god, look at that loser eating by herself. But no. If you think about it,

If I was in dining hall with maybe a few people, like teammates or whatever, I wouldn't look over at the person eating by themselves and be like, wow, what a loser. If anything, I'm thinking to myself, wow, the fucking confidence to put them through that situation of eating by themselves. Yeah. The other thing...

besides not wanting to go to the fucking dining hall was I was like well if I'm so sad and I hate everything else at least I can be skinny yeah like I was like that's the one thing I can control right I was like at least I could be skinny and be happy that I'm skinny because I have nothing else so I'd like subject myself to panic attacks

All the time. All the time. Because I would go to class and then be like, I'll have breakfast after class. And I would be so hungry. The campus was big, okay? Steps were crazy. I went to a massive school.

And I was on a fourth floor walk up. So my flights climbed were like 50 steps, 15,000 every day. Okay. So I'd wait to eat breakfast and have panic attacks in class because I was so hungry. And I was like, I'm dizzy. I'm going to faint. And I've had panic attacks because I didn't eat because I was like, I'll just eat.

Like, like, it's your fasting, right? I'll just eat at, like, 1030. Like, no, bitch, eat breakfast because you're literally having panic attacks, like, every morning because you're not eating. So it was just... But then also the thought of going out anywhere made me sad and anxious. So I was a literal disaster. Yeah. My group in college was very small. There was literally three of us. Like, it was me and two other girls. And even...

The chances of lining up my class schedule with their class schedule to even go to the dining hall at the same time, it was just not happening. Like if I had the break to want to go to lunch, they probably had class. So what I would always do is I would go for breakfast with them in the morning and I would bring like a little container and I would get some extra things while I was at the dining

dining hall for breakfast and I would go back to my dining room or to my bedroom and I would just make some sort of random ass lunch because I didn't want to go to the dining hall during lunch because lunch was the peak hours of the dining hall. Like everyone was there between classes because they didn't want to go back. And I just could not go there during lunchtime. So I would just make my own little thing in the

in my place, which ended up causing me to not really eat because like, what can you really make in your dining, in your, I'm sorry, I keep saying my dining room. What can you really make in your dorm room when you don't have anything besides a fucking microwave and maybe a toaster? Don't ask me. I sat there eating peanut butter out of the jar with a knife. You guys can...

Like, I have people that will vouch for me with this. I'd sit there and people would be like, go eat dinner. And I'm like, I'm fine. I have peanut butter. Yeah. And, like, mind you, peanut butter is, like, high calorie. But that's not a meal. Yeah, no. Like, you don't sit there licking peanut butter off a plastic knife for dinner. Yeah. So, obviously, at the time, like...

We're coming up with the excuses as to why we couldn't eat or why I was so severely under eating and why I was treating my body so poorly. But I kind of want to turn the roles a little bit to kind of help out anybody that's listening that feels like maybe they are in that situation and they feel like they cannot get themselves to go to the dining hall or they can't make something for themselves in their dorm room because we really want to like.

to support you guys and educate you guys that you should be treating your bodies properly. And there are so many ways where you can eat food. Yeah. So I do want to touch on something. I know I said like there was a lot of times I did skip it, but there was a lot of like I did go. I did go. There was just times where it was like harder to go and I didn't.

And I'm not saying I ate enough when I did go, but that was more on a lack of nutritional knowledge because there was a point I thought I was being really healthy. Yeah. Because I'd get like egg white omelets. Okay. And I thought I was like the pinnacle of health, but I did go. And one thing that like made sense in my mind, it's kind of what you said when you were like, your schedule didn't line up with your friends. No one knows that you didn't sit with your friends for every other meal. Yeah. Like, you know, you're just grabbing lunch and leaving. No one knows that you don't have like

20 people you sat with at breakfast. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? 100%. Just because someone's alone doesn't mean... You know that you're alone all the time and you don't have friends. But no one else knows you're alone all the time and don't have friends. You could have literally... Your friends could have just left. Yeah. You could have the biggest social life outside of the dining hall. And you just have to study so you went alone and worked. You know what I mean? That's another thing. Bring your laptop. Get stuff done at the dining hall and just eat and do it. I got pretty used to it. Luckily...

I was very lucky that my dorm was right next door to the dining hall because I don't know if I would have gone that much if it wasn't. It was right next door. So...

And the little itty bitty walk when it was cold and rainy sucked, but it was small and it was doable. So I was lucky I lived right next door. It was very easy for me, but my place did have to-go containers. Grabbing a to-go container is super easy. But I did go. It would make me sad times and sometimes when I felt in my grind era because I got into a point where some of it was just routine and go to the dining hall, study, homework, gym. That's all I would do. And I mean...

I guess that's technically how to be like the best college student ever. All I did was like study, work out and go to class. But I did try to get out of my dorm room. I went to the library like as much as sometimes. Like I said, it sucked. Like sometimes it did. When it's like look at all these study groups. It's just me. I'm not going to say it was easy. But eventually I just got kind of used to it. And like I did the little things. I grabbed myself a Starbucks. I grabbed myself a smoothie. I went outside.

To the library by myself with my AirPods and got work done. Because at the end of the day, you're there to get your shit done. Like, at the end of the day. And I did go through it. But I also, like, took the time off that I needed that I think helped. But, like, you're just not alone if it sucks so bad. Because, like, I'm telling you, like, it was the worst months of my life. But, you know, there's light. There are two...

on this. There's the people that are probably feeling the way that we felt, feeling alone, which pop in those ear pods, bring your laptop, get that fucking food, and get out. Like, there's nothing. But if you're on the other side and you feel like you see this girl that's maybe in your class all the time, I know this sounds so cheesy, but like, literally,

But asking them if they want to sit with you or if you if like they want to sit with you, it makes their fucking day. I've had that. I did have that happen to me quite a few times in college when I had like someone from my class or whatnot. And I was maybe like sitting alone or I was trying to find a place to go sit. And someone would kind of wave me over like, do you want to come sit with us? And it's just even not even like that group wasn't even friends. They were all just kind of maybe like classmates and they weren't super close, but they were all just sitting together like.

Something like that makes such a big deal and a difference when it comes to being in the dining hall. So if you can do that for somebody, definitely do it. But in terms of making food in your dorm room, I didn't really do this until like my junior, senior year.

Yeah, I didn't do that either. I am... Sophomore year, lived in an apartment. Yeah, so I didn't have anything. Like, juniors... Every year, we didn't have anything besides your microwave in my dorm room. So I bought an air fryer. I bought the Dash air fryer on Amazon. It is like $30 to $50. Can't remember. They may honestly have raised the prices because they've become so popular, but...

It is big enough where you can make your own single serving meal in there. And I would go to the grocery store and I would get a bunch of frozen supplies, put them in my freezer, and I would make meals from that. It was the biggest game changer when it actually came to me trying to make meals in my dorm room if I one was super busy.

and could not get myself to get to the dining hall or two i was just being lazy or it was fucking raining i don't know but get an air fryer i know they're not i don't technically legal to have in your dorm room but just hide it when you do your little inspections yeah my roommate had one and you can get away with making so many meals in that thing um all i did was make no i didn't even make oatmeal i made sometimes i did i got oatmeal at the dining hall

I ate at the dining hall for pretty much every meal and the only things I had in my place was like maybe a little bit of like cereal or something, granola bars, popcorn, and peanut butter, as we said. Yeah. And like LaCroix's. Like that's like what I had. I didn't really have a lot of stuff because I was on a full unlimited meal plan. So spending money at the grocery store was like kind of a waste. Like I'd go to the grocery store for random stuff, like stuff to make like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, like stuff to have snacks.

that's all I got at the grocery store was really snacks. And then, um, I had the unlimited meal plan, which, and then also in my meal plan every day you had a swipe to eat out. Like you can go to a restaurant on campus for one. Yeah, we had that too. So I'd eat a lot of Subway. I'd get on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I had a routine of getting an Acai bowl before my psychology class. I'd get a coffee and an Acai bowl. Um,

And like that was those were like the best part of my days. Those were like my me time. I felt so good. I'd like put on my little outfit and go get my smoothie bowl and sit in the student union and then walk to my psychology class. And I would do stuff like that with my swipe. Yeah, honestly, guys, I kind of wish I could have been like a good role model on what to do and what to follow in college. But my college experience was just not the healthiest.

I was not super educated on nutrition or fitness by any means. But if I could look back on my college experience and say one or two things about it, I would say that I wish I took a nutrition class of some sort as my extra...

courses because like with my degree I was able to pick like I think three classes throughout the four years that were just like kind of extra credits that I needed to take and I wish I took some type of nutrition class to be educated on it and another thing that I wish I did or even learned a little bit more about was just getting myself more out there and like the fitness industry type stuff because when I was in

um, college, I was following a lot of wellnessy girls that were like super clean, super organic, no processed food, like that type of stuff. But I wish I followed different types of content creators at the time when I was in college, because that would have helped me so much with kind of learning a little bit more of like how to treat my body, the types of foods I needed to be eating, because I didn't learn any of that until college.

like my senior year when I started following like the KK fit twins and Morgan Rose and just like all these girls that I looked up to so much. And I learned so much from Lucy Davis is another one. I fucking admired her content and I still do to this day, but she would literally, I remember when I was in college watching her content, she would do full days of eating and she would eat like, I think six to eight pieces of bread.

throughout the entire day she would have like three slices she would make those like peanut butter and jelly toast yeah right you know what i'm saying and i would be like holy shit how is she able to eat that much bread like she was the queen of that content eating that much bread and that's why i loved her queen of bread queen of bread no i'm not even kidding she would have like the cinnamon raisin bread or like this other bread yes the cinnamon raisin

I know exactly what you're talking about. Yeah. So like once I started following those types of content creators, that's when I kind of a light turned on in my fucking brain that I needed to treat my body differently than what it was. So I'm sorry that I my college experience isn't

something where you're like oh my goodness i wish i could follow sam and taylor's college experience step by step if you're following the opposite like do not follow our college experience well here's the thing what i think one i think it's hilarious that seeing a girl eat bread on the internet is like groundbreaking i think that's yeah absolutely hilarious two i think

The reason I'm so passionate about sharing my college experience, and I feel like every time I talk about it, I share more and more because as you see, I literally almost started crying. I can get into more and more, but I physically can't talk about it. I trauma blocked it out and I will start crying. Anyways, it's just because I felt like I was the only one, truly. And I know if you feel like you're the only one, you're not because I promise you, I was deep in the worst months of my entire life.

So I just like people to know it's okay. And there's nothing that I think I could have done differently. Like I said, like I auditioned for two dance teams. I rushed a sorority. I joined a dance team and didn't like find my people there. Like I did what I was supposed to do. Like I did more than people that just...

came in with their high school friends and just were lucky to have friends like I did more things than they did bro I was out there and I and I ate at the dining hall and I did what I was supposed to do so it like yeah like it freaking sucked and then my I did have that one good semester I mean good is a stretch I was in therapy I was still going through it that's when I got prescribed like antidepressants we weren't perfect but I was better that's when I was like my fitness page was more serious um

So you can still you can scroll all the way down and see that content. That was that era of me. And that was fine. But then, like I said, my roommates left me. So I literally I was going to say, like, you tried everything. You did everything. Even for me when I was in my like, I'm not saying that this is possible for everyone. But when I was in like my darkest space, like,

during my four years of college i literally dropped everything and just went across the country like i studied abroad like this is literally like i was in the pits of just either needing to give up one of my sports because i was so fucking fixated on like being active and like exercise and i also went through a horrible breakup with an ex-boyfriend that i had been dating for like three plus years like that i thought was like the love of my life and all this stuff and

And I thought if I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, like I had no friends anymore because my friends from home were a part of like the same friend group as my ex. And even till this day, like when I go home for break and everything or holidays, I'm hanging around my ex because my ex was in my friend group. So it was definitely a hard like situation, but I fully just dropped everything and went across the country. And I think that was the... Across the world.

Across the world, yes. Across the world. I went to Australia. And I think that was like the best thing I could have done for myself because I learned so much about myself. I introduced myself to a new culture of food and people and new people that I had to express myself to. Like nothing's...

crazier than having to be across the world's literally 14 hour time difference and open yourself up to strangers and like when I was able to do that I just learned so much about food and the way you need to treat your body and all this stuff so just putting yourself in different situations can help you a lot with kind of figuring out who you are getting out of like those really dark places and for me that's what it was

Obviously, this is less drastic of a move, but I feel like my equivalent was me moving here. Yeah. Like, I dropped what I was doing and, like, came here. You just need out sometimes of, like, that atmosphere. Get out of that environment. Yeah. And it's okay. Like, people are like, stick it out. Like, you can do it. Like, obviously, like, you finish school, so it's different. Like, studying abroad is, like, different. Yeah. But, like, if you need to, like, transfer, transfer. Like, you don't have – you're not legally bound to, like –

It's not like if you transferred, like the university is going to like leave. Like you don't have to stay. Yeah. And I felt like I was such a failure with that semester wanting to transfer home. And it's like, why? Why? What? It literally doesn't fucking matter. It doesn't matter at all. No, it doesn't. Like you think in another thing too, is like, you feel like you're such a pity party to your, like your parents too. When you go to them saying you want to either transfer or you want to go abroad because you just want to get out of the atmosphere you're in. Yeah.

But in reality, like, it's not that big of a deal. Like, it's not that hard to get yourself out of a situation. Also, if you're someone like me who this was –

like you're at your dream school you worked your ass off to be there right you did great on the SAT like a lot that was keeping me so stuck to the idea and so sad was how much I wanted it and how much work I put in to be there and everyone knew I wanted to go to UF and I was so excited and the day I got into UF I cried and I had a party at my house like it was my dream and a lot of holding on and that guilt and that sadness was this was supposed to be my dream and it all went to shit but it's like

Your past feelings of something don't have to dictate if you stay or what you do about it, if that makes sense. I didn't have to be as sad just because it was my dream and I worked so hard. Who cares? Because at the end of the day, me taking the SAT, I haven't thought about that once since. Who cares? Speaking of SAT, let's fucking talk about for a second...

The academics because I we have two different perspectives. Okay, I'm the dumbass of the friends and she's the smarty of the friends when it comes to books and shit. And I get asked all the time from you guys advice on how to stay on top of academics and everything. But I really want to normalize which Taylor's gonna be so against this right now. Normalize just going with the fucking flow of college like you.

even parents listening or anyone maybe listening this is such bad advice but like no freaking job application is going to be asking you for your goddamn gpa or your grades in your classes get that damn degree and move on and i promise you no no one's going to be looking at you i mean like

what was your GPA? Like, no, they're not going to ask you what your damn GPA was. I put my GPA, which my GPA in college, like wasn't even that good, but I put it in my resume. And I remember because it was part of my senior project to make a portfolio for post-grad. And I remember putting my resume in there and my professor looked at me and goes, why is that in there? You don't need that in there. And I was like, wait, really? Like they don't care about my GPA. They're like, yeah, no, no one's going to be really asking you for your GPA. And

So what I did was go with the flow and half-assed a lot of my work. But hey, I got that degree. Yeah, I actually do feel the same way as you. Like you are going to do like I did absolutely horrid in my accounting class. Okay, I ended up passing. I don't know how. Her grading skill just worked in my favor, but I failed every test. So I guess I just did my homework and that got me through. But I failed every test. I was so bad at it.

And there was classes that were obviously hard to me, but I'm not good at school. I'm like an A student type person. But when you get into college, if that was you in high school, it is going to be different. It was hard for me to be like, I might fail this accounting class. When I took that final and got a D on it, I was like, shit. I got like a 72 in the class. So shout out for her not failing me. But it's like, even if you do fail the class...

Like, you have to think, what is worst case scenario? You redo it next semester. And that is worst case scenario is you redo it next semester. I know there's also, for GPA stuff, it can be really hard because if you're on some type of scholarship or financial aid, you need to keep a certain GPA. Yeah, same with sports. Like, I need to keep a certain GPA. Right, you have to keep a GPA. But for the most part, you probably can, okay? But what I'm saying is, it's not the, your life is not going to

in front of you like you're not gonna die like you're gonna be okay and

professors don't want you to fail. And if you have a professor like that, they suck at their job. Oh, there's some Grinches. Grinches? What is it? Grinch? Yeah, is it a Grinch? There are Grinches out there. That hates Christmas? Yeah. But, like, they don't want you to fail. Like, I went... My professors at UF were outstanding. Honestly, the best part of my UF experience was probably my classes. My professors were...

amazing. I really enjoyed my classes, even the hard ones, but it's going to be okay. I remember my psychology teacher kind of started out the class by telling us how he used to go to this like community college, I think. And he flunked out. And now he's a professor at a top five public university of the nation. And it's like, cause it didn't fucking matter. Like, yeah, he had to go back to school and like fix it, but like he finished. And it's like,

I'm not you don't have to go down a normal path either like I basically dropped out but I guess dropped out isn't the right word because I want to finish online so I guess I just I took a break right who cares like I'll finish what I if I finish in the summer like I want to that's finishing one semester late who the fuck cares

Like, when will that one semester difference affect your life? Even if it's a 10-year difference. Even if you're like, I was supposed to graduate at 22 and now I'm 32. And you want to finish or you want to retake those classes because you failed them. It doesn't matter. No, it doesn't matter. And every college has such a big support system with that. If you need the extra help, get the extra help if you really need it. 100%. But, okay, I will say this.

I had an IEP in high school, so I was on an IEP and I was going into college, continued on on my IEP and, and,

At the time, going into college as a freshman on an IEP, that's the most embarrassing thing possible. Like, in my head, I'm like, I'm the idiot. I'm the loser that's on this IEP that has to go to the library and take these extra classes with this tutor. And, like, I hated it. Like, I literally would cry to my mom being like, Mom, I don't want to be on this IEP. This is so embarrassing. I don't want to do this. But in reality, looking back on it, like, if I really needed that extra help with that tutor, like,

I could have taken full advantage of it, which my freshman year, I ended up getting off the IEP because as a college athlete on my IEP, I had to leave practice to go to these study classes. And I didn't want to do that. Like, why would I ever want to leave practice my like one social hour? Why would I ever want to learn at school? Ew. Yeah. Like, why would I want to ever do that? So I actually ended up my first semester of my freshman year, um,

getting off my IEP and no longer having that support system but like if I needed it it would have been there so like just remember remember that there are those opportunities there's study groups there's everything you could possibly need um every teacher that I had had some sort of after hours yeah like either if it was office hours I think well I think they all called them office hours yeah yeah like office hours or right before a test hey we're doing a test review

Tuesday at 8 p.m. Go. Go. Go to it. Like, things like that. And, like, maybe you're like, is it weird to go to people go to those? Yes, people go to those. Most people go to them. Go to them. And ask questions and talk to your professor. Like I said, most professors do not want you to fail. The best kind of professors to get, I was about to say, are the ones that just graduated, but no, not them. Like, I feel like...

Or no, I guess some of them are cool too. Because there could be a difference. Some people that just graduated know what they're going through, know what you're going through, so they want to help. And then some professors that just graduated think that they need to be like super stern because they just got the job. Yeah. So that can go either way. But like professors want to help. A lot of them are so passionate about what they do that it would make their day for you to come ask them about it.

Because they want to teach. They want you to learn. They love what they're talking about. So it really doesn't hurt to, like, ask for help when you need it. Whether it's, like, an issue with a deadline, studying for a test, whatever it is, like, talk to them. Yeah, but also at the same time, like, I'm the worst influence. You're like, fuck it. Do you hear the doorbell? I think so. Oh, okay. Someone knocked on the door. Should we check? No, it's okay. Is it locked? Yeah. Okay.

I want to get robbed. Anyways, but like another side to it is like you can totally show up to your class with AirPods in, hair covering AirPods so the professor doesn't know and get away with just getting your attendance for the day. Like I had this one class

Art history class. This one art history class. I actually had art history every year. We had art history one, art history two, art history three. And then like some other like type of art history my senior year. But it wasn't called art history. It was just something stupid. But I'm like, why do I need to know who made this piece of art in like 1960? Like I don't need to know this information and it's not going to help me down the road when I have my job. Like some of these classes were so stupid and pointless. And I just felt like,

I was wasting my time. So it's totally okay and it's totally normal to show up wearing your AirPods. You can open up your laptop. Oh my God, the amount of online shopping I would do in college was ridiculous. I would be scrolling on my laptop because we would need our laptops open for something. And I would have my laptop open and I would be on Princess Polly or Pretty Little Things just scrolling.

browsing away at what their new selections from their new like drop was. Okay. I never really paid attention to a lot of my classes and here I am still using my degree with our graphics on our Instagrams and our YouTube channel and all of that. So don't take it too serious. I know a lot of you guys can get really stressed out of like, oh my goodness, I'm going to, I promise you everything in life is not that deep.

And yes, I did the same thing. Those giant lecture halls, let me tell you, sometimes it's stupid. And like, you just got to be smart enough to know, do I need to listen to this or do I not? Because you have a lot going on in your person. Take the break, get your attendance. So show up and just vibe out. I had this class. We were all required to take it, like 300 people in a lecture. And it was literally just like a, what I was doing on my phone, if you're watching on YouTube, was trying to find the name of the class because I don't remember and it's going to drive me nuts. But it was literally just like,

teaching you life lessons that you basically like give your opinion about like there wasn't even right answers it was so stupid it was like turning everything into a deep lesson of like how to be a a good person because it was like your first year in college and like you need to like I don't fucking know it's dumb and like that class I watched I was into watching strangers I'd watch stranger things I'm not like I this is so bad that I'm being such a bad influence on college but I hate to say it's like literally

why is it so expensive why is it so expensive you have to know what your goals are if you are trying to go to grad school you need the gpa right you're trying to get into grad school you need gpas like if there's a goal you have and you're like no but i'm trying to do this and that requires a certain gpa then go study girlfriend yeah but if you're just like graduating with a business degree all is going to be well and that's totally fine like you

You're going to be okay. You know what the most important part is? Most important part of college that I recommend to everyone is getting into internships at a young age. If it's a requirement at your college to get into internship at junior year, fuck it. No, do it. Start senior year. Start your first internship senior year. The amount of internships I did and I literally loved them and it opened up so many doors for my job's

post-grad, which I didn't even like really talk about this, but like I was literally verbally given a full-time position as the Boston College football graphic designer after school. But obviously with COVID all, everything hit the fan and they were not able to financially put on another job opportunity for someone post-grad. So I wasn't able to get the job opportunity, but I was working with Boston College football as their,

intern for two years and that led to me being able to get the job opportunity post-grad so if you start an internship junior year fuck it start it sophomore year get out there even if it's something stupid and you're not even getting paid for it do it because it's going to open up so many doors that's the most important i would say that's actually good advice try not just in the internship realm but before you stress about like a gpa stress about like

Just doing enough that makes you happy and is going to put you in, like, a good place. Nothing – Like, join the club. Do the internship. Like, go to class when you need to. Go to the gym. Like, do that workout. Like, whatever it is, like, do it. Like, do it and start doing it. Like, it's, like, just time to figure out what you like because, like I said, I'm still going through that right now. Like, I'm not done. I'm, like –

Catch me maybe being a UF grad in the summer online. Like, I'm not done by any means. It's just like figuring out. I've never learned so much in my life when it comes to like the real life experiences. Like, real life experiences is where you learn the most. Not sitting in that damn classroom learning from a old professor that doesn't know as much. Like,

you maybe need to know about your actual career. Like my career that I wanted at the time was graphic design. It was like the present graphics that were out there like, you know, for like football advertising. Like my biggest thing is I wanted to do sport advertisement for graphics. And like my old professor had no idea about any of that stupid stuff. Like they can't teach me. So getting out into that

Like I was applying to the New England Patriots, the Boston Bruins. Like I was applying everywhere and trying to get like those like connections. And once I got the Boston College football, like I was so excited. So I learned so much in that atmosphere rather than sitting in my damn class. So get out there, whether it's like we talk about all the time, like the freaking soap industry. If you want to start up your own like little small business, like being an intern for someone that does soaps, like you're going to learn so much from them.

So that way one day you can maybe own your own business or get into another field with that. Like that's the only way you're really going to learn. Yeah, it's all just like finding yourself. Like the big point of it is finding yourself and like transitioning into being an adult. And if you're just like doing that everything else a second, you're not going to remember anything else. You're going to remember the stuff that was fun and you're going to remember the stuff that was like traumatizing as hell. But you're not going to remember like any test I studied for. Couldn't tell you what it was. Any like any essay I was doing couldn't tell you what it was like.

It doesn't matter. Just like enjoy. Be grateful for like the education. Like I had to look at my classes sometimes rather than like, oh, this is school is like this is cool that I'm learning this. Like even classes. I was like, I'm not interested. I'm like, OK, well, this is cool that I'm learning this like this. This computer class kind of boring. But like now I know how to use Excel and that's like cool.

Or like this theater class. Why do I need to know about theater? But it was a gen ed. And let me tell you, it was interesting as hell. And I had a great time. And I learned things about theater that I didn't know before. So just like everything's a learning opportunity. That's all it is. A big learning opportunity. No matter what route you go. Big old learning opportunity. Yeah, that is facts. And I feel like I just talked about so much. Oh, yeah. We've been talking for a long time. I'm so hungry. I'm so hungry.

I'm starving. I can't wait to make food. I'm like nauseous. Me too. All right, guys, we are going to wrap this up. I hope you guys enjoyed it. We will definitely do more parts of this. We have done more parts like on like how to stay on track. We were supposed to go into post-grad. I know. I can't. I can't do it. No, we're done. I'm so hungry. But I hope you guys enjoyed it. We love y'all. Make sure to follow all of our profiles on all social medias. We'll see you in the next one. Bye. Bye.

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