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Reddit's Darkest Confessions

2024/10/30
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Malevolent Mischief: True Stories of Horror

Key Insights

Why did the son's relationship with his mother deteriorate?

The mother revealed herself to be selfish, manipulative, and untrustworthy.

Why did the father initially stay with the mother despite her affair?

He was smitten and too passive to resist her strong-willed nature.

Why did the son's parents decide to have another child?

They wanted to experience a normal, happy family life after years of dealing with their troubled son.

Why did the son's parents lock themselves in rooms?

To protect themselves from their violent and unpredictable son.

Why did the father not intervene when the mother beat the son?

He felt the same anger and frustration and believed the son deserved it.

Why did the vendor on the darknet stop selling drugs?

He accidentally mixed fentanyl with mescaline, leading to several deaths.

Why did the vendor feel guilty after stopping his drug sales?

He believed he had killed several people due to his mistake.

Why did the son's parents seek therapy for him?

They were desperate to find a solution for his violent and destructive behavior.

Why did the son's parents feel horror when they found out about the second pregnancy?

They were afraid of having another child with similar behavioral issues.

Why did the son's parents eventually separate their lives from him?

They decided they were done with him after he tried to harm his sister.

Chapters

A son's deep admiration for his mother turns into resentment as he discovers her manipulative and untrustworthy nature, leading to a complex family dynamic.
  • The son idolized his mother for 25 years before discovering her true nature.
  • The mother's affair and manipulative behavior deeply affected the family.
  • The father's passive nature and the mother's dominance created a toxic environment.

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Some truths are too unsettling to admit face-to-face, yet too heavy to keep hidden. In today's episode, we'll explore the twisted corners of r/confessions, a place where anonymous users unveil the darkest parts of their lives for all to witness, for those unfamiliar. r/confessions is a massive online community where people come to share their most intimate and shocking secrets with complete strangers.

It's a space that taps into our collective curiosity about the private admissions of people we've never met. The confessions you're about to hear are deeply disturbing, each one more chilling than the last. I assure you, discretion is advised. Now let's dive in. I grew up idolizing my mother, as many sons do. She was everything I admired: protective, smart, beautiful, and successful.

As a boy, I looked up to her, wanting to be just like her in many ways. But over the past three years, everything I thought I knew about her has unraveled, and now I feel only resentment. The person I once adored has revealed herself to be selfish, manipulative, and untrustworthy. It's a harsh reality to face after spending 25 years loving someone without question. But the truth is, you don't really know your parents until you become an adult yourself.

My dad, on the other hand, has always been a steady, reliable presence in my life. He owns a successful business and has been an incredible father to my sisters and me. He's the kind of man who will do anything for the people he loves. Growing up, I always thought he was a bit too accommodating when it came to my mom. They've been together since high school, though their relationship started on a strange note. My mom literally pulled another girl out of my dad's jeep.

and took her place because she wanted him. That should have been a red flag, but at the time he was smitten and too passive to resist her strong-willed nature. Throughout their marriage, my mom was the dominant force. Whatever she wanted, she got. My dad, though a successful man, let her dictate their lives. She wanted a big house, fancy vacations, and a Mercedes, even though they couldn't afford it, and they went into $90,000 worth of debt

when I was 13, just to satisfy her expensive tastes. They lived beyond their means for years, putting on a front of wealth and happiness. The only thing my dad stood his ground on was his annual deer hunting trip with the guys, something she constantly complained about, wanting to be included in every aspect of his life. But it wasn't her materialism or controlling behavior that ultimately shattered my view of her. Four years ago, just before my wedding, we went on a motorcycle trip

My mom, dad, my fiancé, and an old coworker of my mom's, James. My dad and I often rode together, so this trip didn't seem out of the ordinary at first. James was supposedly going through a tough divorce, and my mom thought the trip would cheer him up, but something felt off about the whole weekend. James was tall, handsome, and successful, and he seemed to focus a lot on my mom, constantly taking pictures of her and my dad.

I brushed it off at the time, but it left an uneasy feeling. After the trip, my mom started acting strange, secretive phone calls, changing her passwords, even putting a jar of rocks on her phone while she slept, apparently to prevent anyone from checking it. My older sister who was living with my parents at the time noticed it too. One night, at an Incubus concert, my mom disappeared for almost an hour.

My sister casually mentioned that she and my dad suspected my mother was having an affair with James. That was the moment everything started to come together for me. My mom was no longer the person I thought she was. Weeks later, I went to my grandparents' lake house to pick up my kayak, and that's when I discovered the truth. My dad had called me earlier, saying my mom claimed to be at the lake with her girlfriends. He told me to be prepared if that wasn't the case.

When I arrived, I saw only two cars, my mom's and another girly one. So I initially thought everything was fine. But when I stepped inside, I saw James' motorcycle jacket hanging on a bar stool. My heart sank. I found his motorcycle in the garage. And when I looked through a phone charging in the kitchen, there were photos of my mom and James kissing. I immediately called my dad and told him what I'd found. That call changed everything. My dad was heartbroken.

but calm. He drove three hours with his brother, my uncle, to confront the situation. That night, he hid in the woods with binoculars and watched my mom and James cuddling and kissing like they were a married couple. The betrayal hit him hard, but he didn't confront them right away. Instead, he gathered evidence, took pictures, and the next morning, he emptied their joint bank account and sent my mom a message. I know everything. I'm leaving you.

The fallout from this discovery was brutal. My mom, instead of taking responsibility, tried to manipulate everyone around her. She begged my dad to take her back, but when he refused, she dragged the entire family through her mess. My dad just wanted peace, but she wouldn't let go. She dumped James and tried to play the victim, crying to anyone who would listen. She moved in with my little sister who was already dealing with her own financial struggles and spiraled into depression.

taking the rest of us down with her. Her manipulation knew no bounds. She cried to my wife, who was new to the family and didn't know how to handle it, making my wife feel guilty for my mom's problems. It was exhausting. My mom's lies started surfacing more and more, and I found myself growing angrier with each revelation. I remembered a time when I was seven, and my mom briefly left my dad for another man, a doctor. At the time, she had blamed the doctor, claiming that he had drugged

and raped her. My dad reluctantly took her back, believing her story for the sake of the family. But now I realized that this was just another in a long line of deceitful acts. It became clear that this was who she had always been. My dad tried to move on with his life. He embraced his newfound freedom, dating, hunting, and enjoying his hobbies again. But my mom kept trying to guilt him into reconciling.

She used my daughter, their first grandchild, as a pawn, telling my dad that if he didn't forgive her, it would be his fault that their grandchild grew up with divorced grandparents. It was a cruel, manipulative move that only fueled my anger. Eventually, despite everything, my dad caved. He and my mom sold their house and moved into a townhome together, and things returned to the way they had always been, my mom controlling every aspect of his life.

It was heartbreaking to watch him fall back into the same toxic cycle. But what hurt more was how my mom now tried to interfere in my own family. She constantly criticized how we raised our daughter, always playing the victim and trying to guilt us for not spending enough time with her. It took every ounce of strength to keep her manipulative behavior from poisoning my own marriage. I love my mom, but it's impossible not to see her for who she truly is: someone who manipulates those closest to her to get what she wants.

She has torn our family apart twice with her affairs, and though we've tried to forgive her, the wounds are deep. My daughter adores her, which fills me with both happiness and frustration. My mom doesn't deserve the love and loyalty she gets, especially from my dad, who has always been far too good for her. It's a sad, complex situation, and I find myself at a loss for how to fully reconcile the person she once was with the person she's shown herself to be.

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Terms at casino.draftkings.com slash get50. Ends November 24th, 2024. About 10 years ago, I was a vendor on the darknet. It wasn't a long-term thing, but I got into it because I was too lazy to get a real job. At the time, the thought of a 9-to-5 felt suffocating. I wanted to start my own business, and I saw drug money as a way to fund it.

I had been a user for years, and through that, I met a lot of people involved in dealing. Eventually, I started dealing too, but I have crippling anxiety. I hated meeting people in parking lots, and I definitely didn't want anyone knowing where I lived. That's when I stumbled upon the Silk Road and learned about Ross Ulbricht's arrest. I became obsessed with the idea of the darknet, with learning how to cover my tracks through OPSEC, all with the goal of opening my own store. A few months later,

I did just that. I started selling three drugs: ketamine, meth, and some cheap outdoor weed a friend of mine could get at a great price. Things were going well for a few months. I lost a couple thousand dollars in an exit scam, but I had about $25,000 saved up by then, so it wasn't a major blow compared to what some other vendors went through. Then, I met a local supplier who came to town once a week and had access to anything I wanted.

LSD, mescaline, mushrooms, PCP, and fentanyl. Back then, fentanyl wasn't as widely used to cut heroin as it is now. People just did fentanyl, and people still do. I kept track of all my orders in an Excel spreadsheet. I'd list the customer's name, zip code, what they ordered, and the amount. At the time, I was selling a pure white powdered mescaline.

The fentanyl I had on hand was also white powder with a similar consistency. One day, my spreadsheet glitched, or maybe I made a mistake, and I accidentally mixed up seven mescaline orders with fentanyl. They went out, and I didn't notice. I went about my business for the next few days. Five days later, I received a message from a customer saying their friend had died from the mescaline they bought. I immediately called bullshit.

I checked my order log and measured out how much mescaline I had left. That's when I noticed. I had 11 grams more than I should have. My stomach dropped. I still don't understand how it happened, but it did. I wasn't using fentanyl myself, but I was high on dabs at the time, and I must have screwed up. I checked the market logs to see if anyone had finalized their purchases. Some had, but none from that particular day, including the person who had messaged me.

No one who ordered mescaline on that day had finalized their orders. The market had a feature that showed the last time users logged in, and none of those customers had been online for at least two or three days. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I had killed several people. I didn't need confirmation. I just knew. Without hesitation, I deactivated my vendor account. I sold off the rest of my drugs, converted my Bitcoin to cash, and got out. I packed up,

moved to a new city, and cut off contact with everyone. For weeks, I didn't speak to anyone. I found a job in a restaurant, trying to start over in a place I had always wanted to live. I haven't touched drugs since that day. I completely walked away from that life, but I can't walk away from what I did. I think about those people every night. I saved their names and googled them a few days later. I found information on four customers who had passed away. One of them had shared the drugs with a friend. Neither of them made it.

I don't know why I'm even posting this. Maybe because I don't have anyone to tell. Even if I did, how could I? I live in constant sobriety now, just going through the motions. Clocking into work, clocking out, coming home, playing video games. I've become a recluse. The people I used to know have distanced themselves from me. I know why. It's because I'm a shell of who I used to be. I feel hollow inside, like I'm not really living.

Could I even tell a therapist about this? Do I deserve to be alive after what I've done? It doesn't feel like living anymore anyway. I don't know. Maybe sharing this will help me feel better. Maybe it won't, but I needed to get it out there. Okay, fair warning. This one is long as hell. Apologies for that. But this is very hard for me, and I've been carrying it for a lot of years. On the advice of my therapist, I've written it all out to try to work out my feelings on it.

He didn't advise me to submit it to Reddit, of course. But I've struggled with this for a long time, and I need to hear other people's opinions on it. I still really have no idea how I feel about it, even after all these years. But I'll submit for judgment by the masses. I know I did wrong on some things, probably a lot of things. I tried to do my best that I could. My son was very troubled, very troubled. If you've seen the movie, we need to talk about Kevin. It will really help to understand what I'm talking about.

Because I swear to God, when I watched that film, I thought I was watching a documentary of my life. I felt like the writer must have had cameras hidden in my damn house. That's how accurate it was. The only difference is that in the movie, the boy appears normal to his father and only reveals his true nature to his mother. With my son, he didn't have that mask. His insane behavior was the same with everyone. From the day he was born, my son just came out wrong.

He was planned. My wife and I tried to get pregnant and were ecstatic when he was born. He was wanted and loved. We showered affection on him and really tried to give him a happy childhood. But from the day we brought him home from the hospital, he was miserable. He cried for 13 months straight. I'm not exaggerating. 13 months without a break. He cried until he had no voice left and kept crying. You could see his little face scrunched up and no sound coming out.

Totally hoarse. There were times he would literally be crying in his sleep. I've never seen or heard of any other kid able to do that. We brought him to doctors, specialists, tried changing his diet, held him, rocked him. Toys, swaddling, music, mobiles. Everything we could think of. Nothing worked. 13 months of grating, grinding, no sleep hell. Once he got over the crying stage, we thought we were out of the woods.

But it quickly became clear that for some unknown reason, he was just angry at being alive. I never saw that kid have a genuine, joyous smile once in the time I knew him. I saw him grin a vicious, horrible grin many times, taking a perverse pleasure from causing pain or suffering or breaking a rule. But a smile from real pleasure? At something nice? No. Never. Not once. He had no interest in anything positive. He was fueled by hate.

and everything he did was bent toward that. As soon as he could walk, his mission in life was to destroy things. He would break or try to break anything that came in his range. Smash it, chew it, throw it in the toilet, whatever he could. After a while, he figured out how to get his diaper off and took great pleasure in sh*t and pissing anywhere he could.

After a while, he figured out he could hide it and started pissing and sh*t in places we wouldn't find right away, grinding it into carpets, making it even more of a problem to clean and making the house stink. When he got older, he would piss and sh*t in our bed until we got a lock on our door and he wasn't able to get in anymore. Then he'd just take a dump in the hallway in front of our room. That biological warfare started at around two and a half years old and he never grew out of it.

I'll try to speed it up, as I could literally go on for days about this stuff, but as he grew older, he became more and more unmanageable. He would bite, kick, scream, scratch and spit at anyone trying to do anything with him. He was kicked out of school twice before he was 9. Then they let him back in, and then kicked him out for good. He had to change schools. The next one put him in a special class that kept him away from the other students.

We had to install a door and lock on the kitchen because he would steal knives and use them to gouge the walls or furniture or chase people with them. When he was 10, he stabbed me pretty good in the hip and ass. I still have the scars. As he grew older, he grew darker. He moved into setting things on fire and torturing local animals. There was a stray dog that hung out around the park near our house. My son blinded it in one eye with a barbecue fork.

He would dip cats tails in gasoline and light them on fire. He became a violent, stinking, vicious beast that lived in our house. We couldn't do anything with him. I will take this opportunity to preempt the tsunami of messages. Yes, we had the kid in fucking therapy. He saw a psychiatrist twice a week and had God knows how many different medications prescribed to him over the years. Nothing worked. Therapy didn't work. Meds didn't work.

Nothing f*cking worked. He was like a poison cloud of hate and fury, lashing out at anything in his reach. When my son was 16, my wife got pregnant again. I can't tell you how different our reaction was. Instead of joy, we felt horror. This pregnancy had not been planned, and we really were at a loss over what to do. My son had been such an unending nightmare for 16 years. We couldn't take the idea of starting again from the beginning.

We talked a lot about terminating, but A. Access to abortion was not as easy in those days as it is now for some, and B. My wife was very against it. We talked about many options. In the end, we decided that my wife would have the baby, and if it turned out evil, we would put it up for adoption. We knew we just couldn't do it again with another child like our son. We had a daughter. She was normal. Suddenly, we saw what our lives should have been like the whole time.

how things would have been had our son not been himself. She laughed at things. She breastfed without biting. She didn't have teeth yet anyway, but you could tell she was just trying to eat, not tear her mom's breast off. After four months, she was sleeping through the night. She was happy. She was normal. I can't describe the relief and happiness that we both felt. I don't have the words for it. This is where I believe I may have started really pulling back from my son. Up until that time,

Whatever mistakes I made, I had always tried to do the best for my son. I'm convinced of that. I tried to help him, and love him, and care for him. I really tried. But when my daughter was born, my wife and I both instinctively just turned toward her. She became our focus. Not for malice, but just because she was so much easier. She was so happy, and sweet. Every moment we were with her was like magic. I understand this was wrong, but we honestly couldn't help it.

I don't have a better explanation than that. My son hadn't given a shit about my wife being pregnant. I honestly don't know if he really understood it. But when we brought our daughter home, he started acting out even more. I didn't think it was possible, but he took it up another notch. At this time, he was 17, and we were having blowout screaming matches daily, usually after we fought. He would storm out of the house and disappear for hours at a time, or come back the next morning.

It was a relief. I started to actually look forward to our fights because it would get him away from us for a while. After the birth of our daughter, my relationship with my son was almost entirely gone. Our only real interactions were screaming at each other. My wife was even worse with him. She just had nothing left. By that time, if our son even came into the same room as her, she would just stop whatever she was doing and start screaming, "Get the f*ck away from me! Get away! Get the f*ck out!"

Until he left, he started spending more and more time out of the house, which was a blessing for us. I have no idea what he got up to out in the world, but we were just happy it wasn't being inflicted on us. As a consequence of our son's behavior, we had invested heavily in locks around our house. All of the cheap, thin interior doors in our home had been replaced with thick, dense wood doors that couldn't be kicked through, equipped with keyed locks that my wife and I carried keys to.

I know it sounds extreme, but locks and heavy doors were the best way we had found to create safe spaces from him. And again, before I'm inundated with messages, I was not locking my son in rooms like a prisoner. He had free reign of the house and could come and go as he pleased. My wife and I would lock ourselves in rooms to protect ourselves from him. If anything, we were the prisoners in our own home. On the day in question, I had fought with my son in the morning and he had left the house in a rage.

My wife and I were enjoying some peace and quiet in the kitchen while our daughter napped in our bedroom. And then my daughter began crying. Any parent who has young children can tell you. You get used to your child's cries, and you can tell after a while what they need. They cry differently if they're hungry, or need changing, or are just restless and want to be held. Babies can communicate pretty well before they can speak. This cry was none of those things. This cry was terror.

The second we heard it, my wife and I were both up out of our chairs and running to the room. The door was locked, of course, and it took a few seconds to get the right key and get it open. My son was in the room. We lived in a bungalow, and that bastard had climbed in the window to get to her. He was standing over a crib with a steak knife in his hand. I have no idea where he got it from. I have no idea where he got it. It wasn't one of ours. We controlled our knives very carefully and always kept them in locked drawers.

I think he may have stolen it from one of our neighbor's houses. He had broken her skin twice already, once in the belly area and once on her arm. I could see blood running down. When I entered the room, he was dragging the back of the knife down her face, not cutting, almost tickling her with it, teasing her while she screamed. He looked up at us and smiled. Before I knew what I was doing, I was already moving, running to put myself between them.

I didn't think about it. I just moved instinctively. Even with that, my wife got there faster. It was like a movie on fast forward. She got to our son and bashed his hand away, knocking the knife across the room and then shoved him with her whole body weight, so hard he flew away from the crib and bounced off the wall. I picked up my daughter and held her while my wife screened us. I could see her shaking, almost convulsing. I can remember the smell of the room,

The sound of my daughter screaming and wailing. The look on my son's face as he stood there. Just nothing. Blank. Dead. There was nothing in his eyes. No emotion. He looked like an alien to me. I watched my wife take a step toward him. I could have reached out and stopped her, but I didn't. She stepped forward again, very close to him. I could have stopped her again, but I didn't. She waited, looking at him for maybe three to five seconds without moving, and then

She punched him in the face. Now, until this point, you may have been picturing my wife as a typical woman. Small frame, dainty, delicate. This is not the case. My wife does have a small frame, but dainty and delicate? She is not. Never has been since I've known her. Since her early teens, my wife has been a boxer. MMA didn't exist back then, but karate and boxing were big in those days. And my wife was a very talented amateur.

She was about 130 pounds. She carried a lot of muscle, and she knew how to punch. I had 70 pounds on her back then, and I have no doubt that in a real fight between me and her, she could have and would have pounded me flat. Neither of us had ever laid a hand on our son in anger before, but something broke in her that day, and all the years of anger and pain and sorrow and frustration just came pouring out.

When she hit him, his head snapped back and blood started pouring out of his nose. He hardly reacted. He just looked at her with this shocked expression, like he didn't know how to process what had just happened. She waited another second, and then she hit him again. I could have reached out and stopped her. I could have dragged her out of the room, taken her away, calmed her. I didn't. I just stood there and watched while she systematically started to pound him to a pulp. Every time he brought his hands to cover one part,

She would blast him somewhere else, body, body, head, over and over. He started screaming, crying out, yelling for her to stop. It's the most genuine reaction I'd ever seen him have to anything in his whole life. But she wasn't stopping. I watched her ramping up, hitting harder, faster, working him like a heavy bag. He tried to swing at her, and she slipped him easily. She was on autopilot, sinking down into her training. I stood there watching for a minute.

Then I turned my back on them and took my daughter out of the room. I brought my daughter to the kitchen and gave her a bath in the sink. I found that he had cut her a third time on the sole of her foot. All the cuts were superficial. I cleaned her up and held her until she calmed. I put polysporin and band-aids on her cuts. In our bedroom, I could hear my son screaming, calling my wife horrible names, telling her he would cut her head off and fuck her corpse. After a while, I didn't hear him saying anything anymore.

Didn't even hear him crying out. I assumed that he must have been knocked out, but I could still hear her beating him. That went on for a long time, long enough for my daughter to drift off to sleep in my arms. I just sat at the kitchen table waiting for her to finish. Finally, she came out and sat down across from me. Her hands were swollen and red. Her face and arms were splattered with blood. Her chest was heaving. We just stared at each other without saying anything. After a while, I asked her, Is he dead?

She looked back at me and answered, I f***ing hope so. I nodded. That was all there was to say about that. I understood how she felt perfectly. I felt the same. I didn't know what to do, so we just sat there waiting silently. Eventually, my wife started crying and went to go take a shower. I just stayed where I was, holding our daughter. After a long while, I heard moaning and sobbing coming from our room. It turned out that my son wasn't dead. I went in to see how bad it was, and it was...

pretty bad. I've never seen a more merciless beating laid onto anyone before or since. He was lying on the floor, rolling around with blood leaking out of his face, lying in a pool of vomit. His nose was squashed flat out across his face. Both of his eyes were completely swollen shut and starting to blacken already. I could see that a couple of his fingers were bent out at weird angles, and he had pissed his pants. I think he must have been missing teeth, but I couldn't see any on the floor.

and I couldn't see inside his mouth. His lips were all puffed up and swollen. From talking to my wife about it later, I know now that she had systematically beaten every part of his body, focusing heavily on his legs. She told me she kicked him in the groin repeatedly until her legs got tired and had kept beating his body long after he had passed out. When my wife came out of the shower, I still didn't know what to do about our son. I didn't know whether to call the police or an ambulance.

take him to the hospital myself. I honestly didn't have any idea what to do. After a while, I realized that I simply didn't care what happened to him anymore, and we decided to just let him live or die on his own. There was an in-law suite in the basement that we had never really used, and my wife, my daughter, and I just moved down there. We simply ceded the top floor of the house to my son and locked everything down, separated our lives entirely.

There was plenty of food in the upstairs cabinets, enough for a couple weeks or more. He had a washroom and bedrooms to use. We had a washroom in the basement, a small kitchenette, and a separate entrance so we just stopped going upstairs. We just decided we were done with him. I figured we'd let his food run out and see what happened. Over the next week, we could hear him moving around upstairs sometimes. I think he just spent most of the time lying in bed recovering. I went to work, watching on high alert in case he attacked me in the driveway.

But he never did. My wife stayed home with our daughter. She was never out of our sight. One night, we heard him going ballistic, smashing things and banging. We didn't respond. He never tried to get downstairs or get near us though. I think he was afraid that if he got near us again, my wife might finish the job on him. After three weeks down in the basement, we hadn't heard anything from up above for a few days, and I ventured upstairs to the main floor of the house. The place was demolished, and there was no sign of my son.

He was gone. It took months to repair the damage he had done and get the main floor back to normal again. There was food and shit smeared all over the walls, and broken glass on the floor, big holes in the drywall. He had ripped the place apart. He tore up the linoleum in a corner of the kitchen and emptied an entire foam fire extinguisher into the living room. I feel thankful that he didn't burn the house down with us in it. I'm honestly not sure why he didn't. The kid wasn't shy about lighting things on fire.

After that, I lived in fear every day that he would come back, that he would ambush us out of the blue and try to kill us. We moved houses about three years later, and I finally stopped being afraid that he would show up again, as now he had no idea where we were. I finally felt safe from him. All this happened a long time ago. My son was born in the spring of 1971. My daughter was born in 1988. I'm an old man now, and my wife passed from cancer in 2016.

My daughter is 36 now. I moved in with her and her husband after my wife passed. I've got two granddaughters and they are the joy of my life. I see a therapist a couple times a month to talk about all this. I don't know where my son is. The last time I saw him was when he was lying on the floor of our bedroom, bleeding and smashed. I haven't heard from him since he left. More than 30 years now. I don't want to. I carry a lot of guilt from that time and a lot of conflicted emotions.

I didn't beat him myself, but I allowed him to be beaten, and I thought he deserved it. I was happy it happened. I didn't try to kill him, but I would have been happy if he died. I will say that I do hope he was able to overcome his demons and go live a normal life somewhere. If he wasn't able to do that, if he stayed the way he was, then I truly do hope someone out there unalived him. When I knew him, he was a rabid dog, and whichever way it went, I just hope he isn't still out there hurting anyone else.

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