Spirit Guides, Ouija Boards, and Making Friends with the Voices In Your Head
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Today we're gonna get spooky. I wonder if the cameras and shit are gonna remember when we had Eric on We had a psychic named Eric Brown on not too long ago and the cameras were like going to weird numbers and shit like it was crazy But today I brought in this little cutie Paige slid in my DM and was like what happened? I mean, I think we had talked normally well, I

I always like had paid attention to your story and you always talk about spiritual stuff. You're always talking about Libras and cancers. Like you're always talking about astrology and I'm actually in astrology school. So I don't know what happened, but I just DMD one day and was like, I feel so called to give you a reading. And you were like, yes, like let's do it. And I was like, wow. Okay. So that's kind of how that worked. But I had been in your DM. Oh,

a lot. Like, I feel like we had talked. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And I always, you know, had commented on your post, but I'd been manifesting our connection for a little bit just by, you know, just talking you up, telling everyone about you and, you know, just, you know, love you. Well, I fell in love because you gave me, you did a reading on me first and then you did a reading on Jay and I just loved your energy. You were like, just so like, I

I don't know if clean is the word to say, but just like pure, I guess, and intention. And, you know, you prayed before it and it like everything was just like, so there are some psychics or mediums and we're going to get into what the difference of that is that, you

are kind of like doomsday people and you weren't like that like everything was so on point too like it was crazy the shit that you said was like so dope because you really hit on points that are like we're really going through in our lives you know and then you did a reading on jay and i and i was just like oh my god i love this girl i love her energy so i had to have you on because i was just like dude this is you got to share your gift with the world what what do you call yourself like

psychic medium or so I'm a psychic medium but I'm a spiritualist right so I actually pull from all religions from all walks of life and kind of incorporate that I don't really follow a lot of spiritual gurus because anyone trying to sell you spirituality is

When did you realize you had this gift?

Well, I started hearing voices in my head probably like five or seven years ago. And I just thought I was crazy. Like I truly thought I was losing my mind. And you know, the drinking, the partying, substances, they don't really help. It doesn't really help you separate reality from, you know, what's going on. Right. So throughout college, like I knew I was different. Like I knew that I would like feel things and they would happen. I would predict things and then people

would always think I was up to something. They would always be like, how did you know this? Or, you know, they would think like someone told me or I was snooping or spying. So it really just started pointing to like, girl, you're tapped in, like, you know, something and something's happening to you. Right. And so when I stopped playing the victim mindset and started really taking my power back from the world from, you know, what was going on in my

surface level of life, I really realized like, wow, like I can, I can do this. Like I can tap in and help other people not only, you know, find their gifts, but express their gifts. Cause a lot of us leave our gifts dormant and leave them under the rug. And so that was really my goal was just to help people incorporate that into their own life.

Um, ever since I was little, I've always seen spirits. I've, I've, I'm one of those people who, um, ran from it too. Um, like drugs, drinking, fucking sex, whatever I can do to just get the anxiety. Cause I literally am a walking ball of anxiety. I don't want the gift. I'm like, I, I have people like you that I can, I can talk to and stuff like that. But I feel like there's something greater that, um,

is going on within me too, because that I have visions. I don't hear voices, but I see things. It's crazy. I have really lucid dreams and I see things and I've predicted two deaths. When Breezy died, when I was with Frankie, I predicted she was going to die three months before she died. Everybody thought I was crazy. I had a dream. My thing is, is when I have dreams and I wake up and I'm severely emotional about them, they usually come true. And that's why Jay, like if I wake up and I'm bothered by a dream, he's like, was I in it?

because Jay is so like tapped into me and now like he'll always ask me, baby, how do you feel about this? Because like I just, it's so weird. I just see things. So I understand what you're saying. I feel like a lot of people that do have that gift run from it. And why do you think that is?

I would say because the world puts us in this box of like who we should be, what we should do. And it makes us feel like an outcast. It makes us feel like the black sheep, like different from everyone. And no one wants to be different. Like a lot of people, they just want to fit in with the crowd and kind of roll on.

and that's where I really connected with your journey with, you know, getting sober and those things because it was like, I dumbed myself down for so long just trying to run from it. And I would say that most people, they don't understand it. So when you don't understand it, you can't connect with others about it. You feel foreign. You feel, you know, it's like, well, it's scary. Nobody wants to fucking talk to a spirit. I don't. It's like, they,

scare me dude because I I've seen I see good I have a little girl that follows me around I don't know who she is but she's been around for a really long time I think she came off a Ouija board and I don't know if she's good or if she's I swear to god you guys I swear this is real um I don't know if she's good or bad but she's always there and other psychics have picked up on this little girl that follows me around too she thinks I'm her mommy like it's really it's crazy probably a past life yeah something is going on there but um

I just lost my train of thought. Oh my God, I'm so freaked out because this stuff like scares the fuck out of me. Like I, spirituality, I love it. I embrace it. I think it's beautiful, but I've also seen like the bad side of it and that's what scares me and that's why I'm like, I don't want it. I love Jesus. I don't want nothing. I don't want nothing to do with this. So when you, you said you got sober, what were you like, what would, what's your story there? So through college, it was just like Adderall.

cocaine, drinking heavily. I come from a family of heavy alcoholics. My mom's dad died in a car wreck when she was 11, drinking and driving. My mom has several DUIs, you know what I mean? So like I've kind of just grown around the substances. So it was like, you know, at 12, 13 years old, that was just kind of like,

It was normal. You were desensitized to it. Yeah. And, you know, growing up in Kentucky, all the bourbons made there. I mean, you have like a lot of just alcohol that runs in people's family and in their bloodlines. And so I picked up on drinking at a very, very young age. And then by high school, you know, we were doing Oxycontin. We were doing Xanax. We were doing whatever. I love Xanax. Fuck, I will lick a Xanax bar right now if I could.

You know, just the transition from that into going to college, trying to maintain a nine to five, going to school full time. Adderall really, you know, them uppers started to motivate me to keep me on track. And, you know, I just kind of got lost in the salts for a really long time. When was your first encounter with a spirit? Um.

I would say I was seven years old. We moved into my grandfather's house that he had passed in. And when we moved in there, we decided to gut the whole house. And as we started gutting the house, we started finding journals, bottles of wine, keys. We started finding all this stuff. Well, I wanted it. Like I was clinging to it. Yeah. Like I wanted these items. Yeah.

And the first encounter would be when something moved from the laundry room into the living room. Wow. And people thought that I was playing this joke, that I was doing these things, like, you know, but things were moving. Right. And I was picking up on it. Right. It was almost like...

My grandfather wanted me to have that experience with him so I wouldn't be scared. It's like spirit has been prepping me for this for a really long time because as a child, I just saw things, felt things, you know, could read energies in antiques, especially mirrors, lighters.

And now I have this obsession with collecting antique mirrors. Wow. Mirrors freak me out. Mirrors are portals. Oh, I know. And mirrors hold so much energy. There's no mirrors in here on purpose. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, they really do hold a lot of energy. I won't even let a mirror face my bed. I cover mine up. You have to. Yeah. It's a weird thing. But I have...

a huge obsession with mirrors too, but they have, they can't have them in my room and I won't have them like in my zone, you know, like I'll have one so that I can like look at myself in the mirror. But other than that, I can't do a whole bunch of them. So after the, your first experience, what led you on this journey to tap into your talent? Cause it's really is a talent. Yeah.

Well, I would say that when you struggle with the darkness and you get lost... You search for the light. You start searching for the light. And I really just knew that I wasn't crazy. Like, I didn't want to share this with other people because I didn't want them to say or put their fear onto me. But I knew I wasn't crazy. I knew there was something going on and it was for a very, like, special reason. Right. And so...

You know, throughout college, I really started to see my connection with others, like people coming to me, people like seeking my guidance. And it's like, you know, I'm 17 or I'm 19. Like I've barely been through life and people are coming to me. Like there's a reason that people come to me. And so I just started really trying to incorporate the healing and the growth in my own life and try to pull myself out of the darkness. But there for a while, like I was lost. And I think...

you know, we all want to be found or we all want to feel supported. And so I've always felt supported from spirit. Right. Like I've never felt scared or felt, um, complete opposite of me. Yeah. Like it doesn't scare me. And I think you mentioned that earlier that, um,

I was very pure and genuine because I really work with my inner child and like the pureness of the world. Like a lot of people want to sell you the fear. They want to sell you the darkness. And that's just like not the point of spirituality. It's to help you grow. Absolutely. Now, I totally believe in that, too. I was just raised in a really like severely cult like Christian home.

So, and my dad was like obsessed with Bob Larson. I don't know if you know who he is, but he literally always had demon possessed people on his podcast. And for some reason, my parents always had like books on Satanism and shit. So I read all, but they weren't satanic, I swear. Um, so I read all that as a, as a child, I was always grounded. So all I could do was pretty much like read and I read all the books on Satanism. So I've

See, I've read so much about the dark side and I think that's what scares me about it. Dude, I've seen the real life Easter Bunny. There is a fucking when I was five years old. I are not. Yeah, I was five or six. I was at my mom's house in Texas. And this is when it started for me. And I woke up. There was like a coyote howling outside my window. I woke up and I rubbed my eyes and literally this motherfucker looked like the bunny off Donnie Darko.

He was not fucking fluffy. He wasn't cute. And he literally, he had a basket. He was standing there in my doorway with the basket. And I was just like, go away. And he went away, woke up the next morning. The same exact basket he had in his hand was my Easter basket.

So I saw the fucking Easter Bunny and that's how it started with me. It's always been weird shit. It's never been like fucking Tinkerbell comes down and says hi. It's always been like this fucking weird fucking thing is around me, you know? So that's why I've always been like, you know what? I don't want it, dude. And then when I turned 18...

I started having like really severely bad anxiety that would like put me in the hospital. Like, cause I would visualize like cemeteries and just, it was just crazy. So I haven't had a good experience with it. And I don't, why is it doing that to me? I would say when you're raised in like a very,

religious household, no matter what religion it is, it gives you this box like this is right and this is wrong and everything else is wrong. So then it's like you start associating things as right and wrong. And I feel like, you know, there is darkness. Like I don't not acknowledge the darkness. I just don't choose to work with the darkness. Yeah, I don't want to either. So it's like, you know, when we're seeking the light, the light can't exist without the darkness. And I would say that, you know,

religions and being right and wrong kind of creates that black and white. This is good, this is bad. And as a child, absorbing other people's fears, other people's thoughts, other people's emotions, being very empathetic as you are. It's something that is kind of

attached to you. It's like other people's fears, other people's emotions. That makes sense. And, you know, I think that's why people attract to you in such a way because you are a healer. Like you have a very healing energy. And I would say that anyone who is in this world to heal is going to attract darkness. Yeah. But you have to have those boundaries. You have to have those intentions and, and,

you know, being scared of it doesn't necessarily turn it off. You know what I mean? Sometimes I'm tired of it. It's exhausting though. Don't you get exhausted sometimes? I do. Energy work is very exhausting, especially the people who want to just hop in your messages and send you their life story all day long, expect you to engage with it, expect you to read it.

Now I'm getting to the point where I just scroll through and at the bottom, I'm like, look, if you would like to book a session, please do. It's very reasonable. It's not, you know, it's worth investing in yourself. Yeah. Some girl on Facebook yesterday actually was like, do they ever answer their DMS? And like, was just like hella rude and started this thread about, oh, they're too good to talk to us. And finally I was like, bitch,

Listen, I was like, do you know how many fucking people are in my DMs every day? Do you think Jay, Struggle, or I have the energy to reply to everybody? Like, how dare you feel entitled to our energy? You know, like, it's just people have to... And I understand. People are hurting, dude. There's so many people in the world that are hurting. And if I could help everybody, I would, but it...

it gets to a point even on Sundays when I do my, my things on Sundays, some days I try to just keep it light because literally I have so much pain in the inbox coming in, you know? And it's like, dude, it's heavy. That's a heavy load to carry. It is. It is. And I think I try to separate, um,

you know, my energies from their energies, because if not, you will absorb their pain. You will absorb their fears. And as a child, we kind of absorb whoever we're around's energies. And when I was about seven, after I started seeing spirits, I started having really bad nightmares. And I just remember I was 11 years old praying to God, please take these nightmares away. Like, please help me. And I have never had a nightmare since.

No, Jesus is good, man. Yeah, like I have the most lucid dreams, but I don't have nightmares. And even though sometimes they'll be really strange, they're not scary. Yeah. And I think that...

that I've just really set that boundary like with spirit. Like if you all scare me, I'm not going to pursue my passion. Like don't scare me. Don't fuck this up. And I always like with the blessing, always invite in the light, invite in the spirits that I would like to work with versus just letting any spirit. Have you ever had like just one fucking weird demonic spirit that won't go away? I have not actually. Yeah.

I have a Ouija board. I do not work with the Ouija board. Yeah. I've always been a little scared of it. Yeah. They're scary. A little scared of it. I've played them by myself a few times and I think it's weird shit. It's really not a game at all. It's not. But I like to really set intention, like, you know, to work with the person's higher self, to work with the higher calling because...

3D us isn't going to help us. It's the 5D us that is going to lead the way or light the path. That's so real. So my mentor has really trained me well or taught me well in that sense to not...

instill fear into people because they're already scared. They're already hurting. I got that from you too. And that's why I wanted you on the podcast. Cause I really, I had another reading by another lady. I'm not going to say her name cause I don't want to bring her into this, but she did a reading and it kind of was a little bit like fear.

fear tactic-y and I was just like, God, is there anything good in this fucking reading? Like, so when I got your reading, I was like, finally, shit balls, something good's gonna happen. It's funny. Like she pretty much was just like, you're gonna work your ass off in 2021 and I'm like, duh, that's all I do now, you know? And then she said like,

Jay's gonna have like a surprise pregnancy in the next six years. I was like, well, it's not with me because I'm old as shit So who the fuck is he gonna knock up and hopefully it's not somebody on one of these threesomes that we're having, you know But so when you gave us our reading I was just like so excited about that you see dead people I will say that I see orbs. I don't actually see them in a physical form when spirit transitions

Earthbound spirits have the physical form. I do not work with earthbound spirits. What's the difference? Okay. So an earthbound spirit is kind of like. Those are the mean ones, right? Yeah. It's kind of like the cliche, like the unfinished business here on death's time, you know, doing the devil's work, like whatever you want to say. It's kind of like the movies and like what they make it about. I feel like those are all the spirits that come to me.

They're like, hey, bitch, I'm here. Let's fucking traumatize you. And you know, I think earthbound spirits, they're trapped and when they find someone that can hear them or see them, they latch onto them. Yeah, they need to go away. I'm tired of it. And we can do

We can do an energy clearing and really set those intentions to release them. Yeah. Because we don't realize that we have cords that are attached to us. Like you and your husband would have a cord. You and your family would have a cord, but you also can get cords from just people in your DMS, people at the grocery store, people in general. So if you're not practicing cord cutting, Oh my God, I don't want any cords. Look, I got goosebumps. Cause I talked to so many people a day and cause I tried to fucking make everybody happy. So I talked to so many people, but that's,

Yeah. So cord cutting would probably be very important. Yeah. When can we do the cord cutting? I'm ready. Anytime.

Okay, so back to seeing the dead spirits. So you don't see earthbound spirits. No, so they're not in a physical form. Usually when spirits come to me, it's in with my clairvoyance. So it's in my mind's eye with my third eye. So I will see what they project to me. So a lot of times if they passed very old or they were very sick, they will show me like their golden date.

Like maybe like when they were younger or like, you know, a great friend of mine passed at 19. Like their highlight reel. Right. Like when he shows up, he's a, he's like a 12 year old boy. Yeah. And you know, they will give you identifiers so I can connect the sitter with the spirit when I'm doing a mediumship session. Um,

But I would say that they show me what they want to show me. Yeah. Like, and they'll give me their mannerisms and that type of thing. Monica's brother passed away. We should try to talk to him. That would be so cool. Actually, I've actually feel like last night I was laying in bed and there was this younger man that was like,

I'm going to come through tomorrow. And I was like, look, not right now. Don't do it right now. Because they kind of like get in a line. Like the more pushy spirits will be like, I'm going first. Like we're coming right in. That's going to be me when I'm a spirit. Bitches, it's all about me. All right. I'm going to be like Beetlejuice.

But a cool Beetlejuice. Yeah. Monica, would that be something? Is that something that you can do? Yeah. Is that OK? That would be awesome to have her try to talk to your brother. Is that something you would want to do, though? Because that's kind of personal. If you want to do it in a more private setting. She's like, maybe not on the podcast. You whore stuff can porn me out.

Yeah, because it can be emotional. Yeah. And it can be, you know, pulling on the heartstrings. I want to talk to Gracie. We could try to talk to Gracie, one of my best friends who passed away from cancer. I would love to talk to her, dude. See what she's up to. She's fucking hilarious. She was like... She got cancer and she literally told me, I'm going to fucking go out sniffing cocaine, riding a horse naked. Like, she's a wild soul, dude. So when these spirits do come to you, you said that they're like pushy and stuff like that. How do you...

Like literally it's probably got to be like a fucking just a line out the door. Well, I have like we have different spirit guides. And so I have a protector guide who kind of like is like, look, you got to give her space. Yeah. I'll always notice because it will get very warm when spirit comes close. See, that's how I got. And whenever we were sitting now, I'm freezing. But for a second there, I was like so hot.

Yeah. So it'll start getting warm because as we're raising our energy, they're trying to match our vibration. Basically, spirit's vibration is so much higher than ours that they have to lower and we have to raise ours to kind of meet. Oh, wow. So, you know, that's why you sing music in church. It raises the vibration. Oh, I never knew that. So things like that help you connect with spirit. So a lot of times, like when I'm in the car and I'm like jamming out, I will really notice like my guardian angel beside me.

And I know that a lot of people are like, we all have guardian angels. And yes, we do. But if you don't choose to acknowledge them and work with them and

You know what I mean? Yeah. You won't necessarily feel their energy, even though they're there with you. I've seen my guardian angel. I talked about it on the podcast with Seth. I heard that. I heard that in the passenger seat. He's a scary mofo. He's big. He's probably more of your protector god as well. He's a gangster looking dude. Like, he literally looks like he's like seven foot tall sitting in the passenger. Like pinstripe suit? Yep. And just, no, not pinstripe suit. I don't remember what he was wearing, but I just remember his face was so serious and he was just looking straight ahead like he wouldn't even look at me. Like.

like he was like ultra serious hopefully it was my guardian angel i don't know who it was to be honest but he was there um all right well i want to have you do some readings okay let's fucking uh jump into this who's gonna go first i think we're gonna have you know what let's do a reading on jay for 2021 because we did one on me and we did one on me and jay so can we do one do it does jay have to be here for that no no as long as he's open to it and like he's not that

as long as i have permission yeah no you have permission he just he's so he's more of like tell me what she says type type situation i don't want to be there because a lot of times like you said readers install like that fear mindset into people and oh my husband is no my husband already thinks i'm a whack job so and he knows how in tune i am with the spirituality so he just it freaks him out because he's just like god i don't want to hear anything bad

He's like me. We don't want to hear anything bad. We just want it all good. But I want the realness though. I want like if something is bad there, I want it to be said too. You know, I want it to be sugarcoated. And we have free will. So the thing about a bad

scenario or reading. Nothing's set in stone. Yeah, nothing's set in stone. I mean, you can get out and hit three red lights and miss the car wreck versus running the red light and making the car wreck. You know what I mean? So I always think like divine timing is always protecting us. Absolutely. So when we feel like, oh wow, I got caught by a train or I hit every red light, like that's actually divine protection. Like that...

that's my baby divine protection yeah all right well let's do one on jay what do we you got all your cards right here so what are we how are we doing this jelly 2021 all right i'm gonna say a blessing i'm gonna get the cards out and i am gonna say a little i'm sorry about choc she's just all up in the business you're a little lover

All right, so Father God, Mother Earth, thank you so much for this time together. Help me to be a clear channel and the highest good of all. Help me to bring through any messages that Jelly may need at this very moment. And help me to connect with his spirit guides, his angels, and his ancestors. Our spirit circle is now open and we ask for your protection and we give our love and gratitude.

Amen. Amen. All right. So I'm just going to... Who are his spirit guides? Do they have names? Well, actually, as you work with spirit, they will manifest and give symbols. So a name. So, you know, I didn't really have names for mine. And, you know, we have...

Like we have a lot. Like we have some spirit gods that work with everyone. Like ascended masters like Buddha could work with you directly. That would be crazy. Or Master Jesus can work with you directly. I love Jesus. He's my homie. So, you know, there's all kinds of elements. And actually in this deck, it's all with the spirit gods. So, you know, the ascended masters work with everyone. And they're not with you all the time. They may be with you during major life shifts, major life changes. Right.

Um, health changes, things like that. But then you have your own spirit guides that will be like past life connections, ancestors, um,

people that you, I definitely feel like I met today in another life. When I tell everybody, when I first met jelly, it was like the most familiar. He's not my type at all. Like, and I'm not his type. He likes little brunettes that look like dudes. No, I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. He just, he likes little hood rats that are brunette, you know? And I like a different aesthetic of man. I like dudes that wear makeup and shit. Like I'm a weirdo. Um, so when I met Jay, it was like, I,

All I can say is that our souls literally recognize each other. And I just had, I just loved him. Like it was so weird. And I tell him that all the time. Like, and he's like, I know he's like, it's the weirdest shit. Cause him and I are not relationship type people. Like I've been in relationships, but I cheat on everybody, you know, like then so does Jay. So us getting together was just like,

it was like just crazy how it all happened. And sometimes like, like I picked up in your all's reading is like our soul will match with the person that is going to elevate us. That's going to push us. That's going to help us grow because that's the point. Like that's what our soul wants. Yeah. We did that. Is to go through the trials, the tribulations and then grow from it, then elevate from it. So you have beautiful eyes. Thank you. They're so pretty. Like every time the sun hits them, I'm like, Hey, we're doing a reading right now, but do you want to get naked? Yeah.

All right. I'm going to pull a past, present, future card. So we'll just keep it simple. Tachi. He's making himself at home. The past. We got the two of cups.

So I feel like, like you just said, you're all souls like came together. Like you knew each other. Look at this card. It's all about that union, that joining of two like kindred souls, two like-minded people to push each other, to elevate each other. So I feel like you are very much on the right track when you say that you met in another life.

life. Yeah. You were meant destined to meet in this life. And the thing about that is like I said, we all have free will. So you could have chose to take another path, but it's still going to kind of lead you back around, like no matter which path you take, it still leads you back around to where you started. Then we got present the King of Swords. Yeah.

So I feel like this is him. I love how excited she gets when she pulls the cards. That was another thing that was so cute when she was doing our reading. This is an awesome card. It's got the butterflies on the background on the throne. So I feel like this is the transformation card. Like he's really in the midst of a transformation. He's literally talking about losing 100 pounds this this year. He's like, I want my dick back.

So he wants to lose 100 pounds and he wants to grow his hair out and I'm all for it. Whatever he wants to do. And the thing about the King of Swords, it's all about that transition and like knowing you have the power. Like he has the sword, like he has the support. Yeah.

And like with the butterflies, that is transformation. Yay, good. So I see him fulfilling that. As long as he gets out of his mind, he gets into his body. A lot of things that happen with us is our mind is like, you're not good enough. You can't do it. You won't be able to do it. And so that's our ego. Our ego runs the show a lot of times. His problem is he wants instant gratification. If he's not losing 20 pounds a week, he gets bored with it. So that makes me happy to hear that he's really...

Yeah, and I feel like the more that he steps into his king energy and steps onto that throne, the more that he will see that he is worthy. I'm going to tell him that. Yeah, that he has that dedication and he just has to put it into motion. Absolutely. Everything's already within him. He just has to put that into motion. Go, daddy, go. Then we got for the future, the six of pinnacles. So this is all about giving and receiving and balance.

And spirit is ready to give him what he wants. He just has to work for it. And this card is also about balancing the scales. So it's like you can't be down forever kind of thing. And you can't be, you know, beating yourself up forever. You have to step out of that energy. Yes.

that in the future, like it's not going to be easy. But if he works for it, if he pushes himself, he can make anything possible. And I think he's already demonstrated that a lot in his life. Oh, for sure. Because back when I was in high school, a good friend of mine who's in spirit now used to be like Jelly Roll, Jelly Roll. It was the first time I ever heard about Jelly Roll. It was in 2007. He was like, he's going to pop one day. It's going to be the one. It's going to be the one. And I just remember thinking like, I want to listen to Lil Wayne. Like who's Jelly Roll? You know, because this was forever.

This was forever ago. Me too. Yeah. And so I just really see that, you know, he's put dedication into a lot of areas in his life. He's a hard worker. And now it's time to bring it back into himself because you can only help heal the world so much before you really have to turn that back in. And heal yourself. And heal yourself. I'm going to make, I'm making him watch this. Yeah. And so like what is already, you know, making him unhappy or what is already triggering him is really just a battle between his head and his heart.

Yeah, well, he gives and gives and gives and nobody gives back. Right. So the tables have to turn. The tables have to shift. I keep telling him. And, you know, I feel like if he...

puts that into motion, it's almost like the law of attraction. Like you can't be stopped once you start. And like you said, the instant gratification, that's what the world wants. The world wants that instant gratification. We are brainwashed to want that. And I feel like, you know, this union with you two has really transformed both of your all's journey. It's really elevated both of your all's journey. Oh yeah, for sure. And so at this point, it's

It's almost like nothing can stop this train. Like it's rolling, like nothing can stop it.

Besides your mind, besides your fears. And it's like, what's the worst that can happen? You know, you lose a few pounds a week. Yeah. Or you know what I mean? But it's still something. Yeah, it's still something. So I think celebrating the small milestones, like the baby steps. Yeah. Because it doesn't happen overnight. Right. Nothing worth happen is going to happen overnight. Right. Absolutely. And so I really see that transformation is coming. Yeah. He just has to allow himself to have it. Awesome. And believe he deserves it too. Yep.

I love it. Yay. Well, that was... I like it. I think it sounds good. Who should we do next? Moski, bring that ass in here and bend over while we're just sitting in front of the table if you can. Yay. Do you want to pick a deck or do you want me to do the tarot? I'm going to do the butterfly cards for you. Yay, flutterbys. We love the flutterbys. Do you have a question or anything that you want to see what the cards say? She's like, what does 2021 hold for me? What does 2021 hold?

All right. I'm going to say a blessing and invite in your spirit guides. All right. Father God, Mother Earth, thank you so much for this time together. Help me to be a clear channel in the highest good of all. Help me to connect with Mo's spirit guides, angels, and ancestors, and to bring through any messages that she may need. We give all of our love and gratitude, and we ask for protection. Our spirit circle is open.

First card, join in. So spirit is wanting you to join in and co-creating your reality. Like you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people wanted, what other people thought of you, what other people wanted out of you. And so spirit is like, now is your time to step up to the plate and join in with manifesting what it is that you want. Bringing in your ideal partner, your ideal lifestyle, your ideal, you know,

You. The ideal you. We were talking about that yesterday when we were eating. Yeah. And so it's like, you know, you've spent a lot of your life trying to make others happy. So now it's time that you make you happy and focus on your growth, your evolution. Yep.

And then we got courage. So spirit is acknowledging that you are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. You are a lot stronger than you see yourself because when you get tore down by the world, we start to believe that that's true. And spirit is like, no, like that's not true. That's not you. Like you are really strong and very powerful. And the more that you acknowledge that, the more that you accept that, the more that you can use those energies to better your life, to work better,

in your favor. It's all about like, you know, you are what you eat, but it's like, you are what you think. So if you think you're weak, if you think you're not capable of certain things, then you kind of rule out possibilities. So I feel like, you know, just opening your arms to the world and just inviting in whatever is to come, not trying to control it, not trying to worry about it before it even happens, but just letting it happen. Cause I feel like it's going to be better than you expect.

So don't fear. Don't be worried. And then we've got parental care. So I feel like this is nurturing your inner child. Nurturing your father. Nurturing...

I feel like the little you needs nurturing. Like what did the, like the child in you dream of? What did she like? This is all stuff we've been talking about, dude. Since we moved her out here to get on a journey of self healing and just figuring, cause I told her, I was like, dude, I had to move to Nashville and get to know myself sober. It's the most fucked up, beautiful thing ever. And I want you to experience it too. So that's why she's here is to really get her life on track. So you got that.

this it's all about I feel like reparenting yourself cutting out the expectations that other people have put on you what you thought your life would be like by now accepting what it is not you know holding yourself to some standard that it's probably not even your standard it's it's societies it's your parents your friends their life what they're doing but it's more like you're not meant to fit in you're not meant to follow the same path as everyone else yeah so it's like I

I love that. Doing what makes you happy will help you co-create that reality. And I feel like it really starts with self-worth. Like, believing you deserve it would be, like, first step on the list because...

I feel like spirit tries to give you opportunities, but you don't see them because you're like, not for me or I don't know. You know what I mean? So just being open to receiving, not cutting out, not putting this, you know, wall around your heart, this wall around your yourself and letting people in, letting people help you. I feel like asking for help. Who tells you this all the time? I feel like asking for help is hard for you. So being able to ask others for what it is that you need.

and not always being the one that they call when they need something. You know what? Give me a deck of cards. I'm going to start doing readings. I'm just kidding. I'm kidding.

Yes. Because she's tapping into your higher self, your higher calling. And like I said, she has this healing energy that just attracts people. I don't want it. I don't want it. But when she cares about someone, it's like, you know, it's endless. Like you don't know any boundaries when it comes to caring about someone. Like you wholeheartedly want to see them shine. Yeah, absolutely. No, totally. That's why I'm so glad she's here because it's like now I can take care of you and make sure everything you want to do. Now she can perform.

parental care you yeah I am like her I'm like strict with her like a like a parent and I'm like no you're not gonna do this we're doing this you know like so I need to try to be a little bit more looser and let her her do it find her higher self on her own too though yeah and I feel like you know you're already stepping into your power by moving by doing things that were unfamiliar like that already shows that you want this like you want this now you got to believe you deserve

Yeah, baby. That's what we're talking about. Mimi, come get these hands. I'm so excited. Aren't these great? Like, isn't she like right on point, dude? It's nuts how on point she is with shit. All right, I'm going to do the wisdom cards for you. Yay, Mimi or Lou. Can we just all acknowledge Mimi's glow up here? Guys, can you look in the camera, show them how hot you look?

She started wearing crop tops, went blonde, fucking hot as shit over here, man. Damn it. I hate surprises. Are you a hairdresser? Oh, yeah. She does all my hair. Yeah, because I saw she was doing Jay's hair. Yeah. Yeah. She gets me together. Yeah. I was like, OK. I was like, I like this. Mimi holds my life together at this point. I have a question. God. No. OK. All right. Father God, Mother Earth.

Thank you so much for this time together. Help me to be a clear channel in the highest good of all. Help me to connect with Mimi's spirit guides, angels, and ancestors and bring through any messages that she may need at this moment. We give our love and gratitude and we ask for your protection. Spirit circle is now open.

These two cards are wanting to come together. So we've got chopped wood and soulmates. So I feel like you have really been working on yourself. Like you've really, really been elevating your awareness of things and not so much leading with your emotions, not so much leading with your thoughts,

past traumas, past fears, failed relationships, that kind of thing. So I feel like you're really finding this soulmate within yourself. Like you're realizing that if nobody got you, you got you.

And you're no longer letting other people make you feel bad about choosing you and about putting yourself first. And so with Chopped Wood, I feel like you've really been storing up a lot of energy and a lot of patience, a lot of resilience. And you're like, I got this. Like, I can do this. And that's a new chapter for you. That's like a new level of awareness for you. And I feel like Spirit's really acknowledging that.

that and acknowledging that you know you can't pour from an empty cup so as you take care of yourself spirit can take care of you the world can take care of you but it all starts with how you feel about yourself and i feel like everything you're doing is really working because we've got 42 and 41 so they're acknowledging that you're taking the steps that you're guided to take that you're um

You're doing the hard stuff. You're doing the shadow work. Like, you're working through the traumas, the fears, like, why you believe certain things. And you're like, I'm not going to live my life like this anymore. Like, I'm just not. So we got a leg up, number 34. So Spirit is saying, like, as you do this, you've got a leg up on your old self. Like, you're no longer competing or comparing with others. But you're really like, look how far I've come. Look how far I've went. And so, like, they're acknowledging that. Yeah.

It's crazy. Really? Yeah. I'm just over here smiling. Like this is, she's so on point. Now do you guys see why I wanted her on? She's so fucking on point. It's crazy. So I feel like, you know, you've got a leg up and you're going to win the race as long as you stay in the game. Like don't let your head get clouded with emotions. Don't let your head get clouded with fear, other people's opinions, and definitely don't get caught up on trying to fix anyone or pull

pull someone else out of the darkness. It's like, you can only do so much, but if it's at the risk of lowering your energy, if it's the risk of lowering your awareness, it's not worth it. Even if you love them. And I feel like you will have to have those difficult conversations with yourself. Like, does this person really help me or do they bring me back to here?

And, you know, it sucks that a lot of the times the people we care about do that to us. But I feel like you're strong enough that you know when to say no now. Like, you know, we're not going to do that. And I'm not going to let you use me and abuse me and, you know, get me all worked up. Like, I don't deserve that. And so kudos to you. Yay. I love that. Isn't that awesome though how on point she is?

It's crazy. Should we do one more? What should we do? Yes. Brittany, you want to do it? Sure. Maybe we'll do one more quick one on me too and just see what it says. I'm going to do the moon cards for you. Yay. Come on down, Brit Brit. This is Jonathan's wife. We love Brittany so much. She literally is just, dude, the funniest bitch I've ever met in my life. She's a great

We love her to death. All right. Father God, Mother Earth, thank you so much for this time together. Help me to be a clear channel for Brittany. Help me to bring through any messages that she may need at this moment. We ask for your protection and we give our love and gratitude. Spirit Circle is now open.

Ooh, look at the bigger picture. Full moon and Sagittarius. Oh, I love it. Her dude is Sagittarius. So Sagittarius is a fire sign. We just left Sagittarius season. So I feel like you had a lot of realization moments in the last month or so. Like the last month has been like a roller coaster of emotion. And it's been like, wow. Like I've been holding myself back this whole time. Like I've been scared of being successful, of being –

being close to other people, being in connection with other people. It's like you're letting the walls down that you had built to keep you safe. But now you're like, this isn't hurting anyone but myself. Like I can't, I can't not let people in and then wonder why they don't understand me or wonder why they don't support me. So I feel like you've really looked at that bigger picture. Like you're starting to put those puzzle pieces together and it's like, wow, like,

This is serious. Like, I'm working on this and I've got this. So that's awesome. Then we've got a new romantic cycle begins. New Moon and Libra. Jonathan's getting some pussy. Yeah.

I see a lot more appreciation in your relationships, a lot more just staying in and enjoying each other, not necessarily needing to be seen or to go anywhere or to do something, but it's like the little things. I feel like little notes around the house, flowers, like that type of stuff. Like it's going to be like that lovey, like I appreciate you. I read a lot of stuff in the basketball.

I love doing that. I love doing that too. Jay gets so mad at me. That is so funny because I love that. I love doing that. Jay gets so mad and I'm like, you can't have an ass that big and not expect me to not want to shove my face or hand in it. Like, come on, dude.

Credit card. All right, we got Have Faith in Your Dreams, The Waxing Crescent Moon. So I feel like you're really hitting the reset because we've got the full moon, the new moon, and then the waxing crescent moon. So I feel like you really reset your energy. And, like, anything that's no longer serving you, write that on a piece of paper and catch it on fire, period. Like, work with the fire magic. I feel like using candles, you know, you light a candle and you just –

Speak into it, whatever it is that you want, whatever it is that you're thinking about and it will help, you know, elevate that intention. So I feel like if there's something that you're looking to do, something that you want to do, have faith in yourself. Like don't write it off before you even try. Like don't count it out before you even know kind of thing. So it's like you have a way bigger plan now.

In the spiritual realm. Like they've got big plans for your life. So know that anything that you've went through. Anything that was negative. That was perceived hard. Hardships. Know that that was for a reason. It was to prep you. Because you have this nurturing ability. Like this very kind. Like essence. That people will...

come to you and they will take your word for it. Like they don't have to go through the same things to believe what you're saying kind of thing. And I think, um, I really see working with like kids, like mentoring or, um, just like supporting young minds of some sort. Like people are really going to be drawn to your nurturing ability. Yay. That's really funny because of what I do, I'm a massage therapist. So it's, I guess it's kind of like

In my nature to it's yeah, it's hands on healing giving. Yeah. Hands on healing baby. Everybody. Yeah. Oh, yeah. You're welcome. Yay. That was awesome. Now you guys see why I love her so much. Like she literally is just like so legit and just right on point with everything. I know you already did a reading on me, but we did it in private. So let's do like a little mini one for me. I'm going to do the work your light card. All right. Tell me if my, I have a brain problem because I'm getting an MRI done on Wednesday. Oh,

I saw your story. You were just at the doctor today. Yeah. I just been having, I face planted on the deck fucking six months ago and I already broke my C1 vertebrae and I think I really fucked something up. So I'm just going to get an MRI done and make sure everything's good. I've just been having headaches and blurred vision and shit.

Say the blessing. Father God, Mother Earth, thank you so much for this time together. Help me to be a clear channel in the highest good of all. Help me to connect with bunnies, spirit gods, angels, and ancestors. We give our love and gratitude and we ask for your protection. Spirit circles now open. Amen. This is so special. The Age of Light. You've been training for this for lifetimes. Oh. Didn't I get that in my reading before too? Yes. God.

God, that card needs to leave me alone. See? I'm telling you, man. Spirit really is acknowledging that you're an old soul. Like, you have done this. That's why things seem familiar to you. I'm an old war whore, okay? That's what I always call myself. I feel like you get deja vu a lot. All the time. And, like, you're really in tune with other realms. So, I don't know if people are, like, you zone out and they're like, where did you go? Hmm.

Yeah, like you're zoning out. Oh, people cannot hold my attention at all. I'm all over the place. So you're tapping into other realms. Yeah. And I think, you know, with you kind of being afraid of certain things, just really ask for protection, you know, every single day. Yeah. And not just, you know, your normal prayers, but in addition to that, just asking for protection and guidance. Because I feel like your soul knows where it's going. And it's almost like...

you know, a cat with fire up its ass, like it's ready to go and it's going and it's got the direction and nothing's going to stop it. So it's like just letting things unfold naturally, not trying to control it. I feel like, I think that's one of the lessons I'm going to take from this entire podcast is I've got to stop, I guess, operating in fear. Right. I really do. Like, and I think whenever we've been through so many lifetimes and we're here to really, um,

connect with others like in this lifetime you have this platform and you're able to spread your message and to connect with others on a deep level that's what you've been training for you've been training to have this um can i come back as joyce myers next one just fucking be a fucking female preacher i love joyce she's great she's amazing

Play, have fun, celebrate. Don't be so serious. What you were just saying. So spirit is really acknowledging that it's all in a day's work. Like you can't do a month's work in a day. I try to do that. That's what we're doing tomorrow. So quit trying to overdo it because you're really just going to burn yourself out.

Yeah. And I feel like, you know, your plan is so big in this lifetime that spirit does not want you to get burned out. They want that fire to keep glowing and keep attracting and keep spreading the message. Right. Because it's a team effort. Right. Like, you know, it's a team effort. So I feel like, you know, celebration and enjoying the little moments. And even if that means...

you don't post all day or you don't do something all day, like, or whatever it is, take that time for you. Take that time to have fun. Yeah, I need to tap out sometimes. Yeah, and celebrate the baby steps because I feel like you've made major strides in 2020. Oh, yeah. I feel like elevation, entrepreneurship,

on 100. So it's like, enjoy the view for a little bit. Like, enjoy the view because there's always going to be another mountain to climb. There's always going to be. I just always feel like, all right, I did that. Now I got to do more. Right. Right. And I think whenever you're, when you're an old soul, you know that time is limited. Right. And there's only so much you can do in one lifetime. So spirit really wants you to enjoy this lifetime. That's why they're giving you. Sorry, my dog is obnoxious right now. Tachi, relax. Relax.

That's why they're giving you these resources and this ability so that you can enjoy your life and not burn yourself out. Awesome. Then we've got transformation. Great. Things are changing at a cellular level. Deep healing. Yeah. So they're acknowledging how far you've come just in the last few years. Yeah. Like they're almost letting me know that you've made more moves in two years than you did in 10 years. Oh, yeah. So know that you deserve change.

You deserve the world.

and that you are changing on this level where you went from navigating blindly, navigating with rose-colored glasses on, like just kind of all over the place. And now you've got this laser focus and spirit's like, you're in the right direction, just don't get burned out. And I think that is something that as a hard worker, as an independent woman, we want to just get shit done. But it's like, if you don't take that time for you,

you won't have much more to give to others. Yeah. I do need to take a vacation. You mentioned, you know, always wanting to like reply to people and be there for other people. But it's like, you know, when you need people, make sure that someone's there for you. Make sure that you're able to ask for help or ask for support. And I feel like,

you do a lot of supporting but are people supporting you right you know what I mean so making sure that that energy exchange is there because you will drain yourself and burn yourself out and I feel like you're not at your best when you're worried about so many different things yeah and I know that with your you know your soul's evolution like you're super powerful and you can get a lot done right doesn't mean you have to do it all today right fine no

I won't. Fine. I won't do it. Fine. I'll take a nap. Paige, you're so sweet, baby. Thank you so much for being here. I like want to make her like the in-house psychic. I think she's amazing. We need to keep just bringing her back on at different times and stuff like that. Why don't you drop your website and all your socials so people can find you? Okay. Right now. Yep. Go ahead. At

Made in Kentucky. So it's K-U-N-T-U-C-K-Y. Gotcha. And then ContraryCherryCo.com.

And then you can also find me on all platforms. We'll also write it out. So you guys can see it. With The Maid in Kentucky on Twitter, on TikTok, all the above. But if you make it to my website, it will connect you to all the socials. Yay. Thank you so much for being here. Thank you so much. You're just a little ball of light and we just absolutely appreciate you and adore you. Thank you so much. I literally was so excited to come down here. Not a far drive at all. And

Oh, you're going to be, we're going to have you on probably every other, like every few months. Just bring you down here and have you check in with the team and all that stuff. I would love that. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. We will see you guys next week. Bye.