93: Leah from Love Island exposes the WHOLE show
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Hi guys, it's Tana Mongeau. Welcome to the cancelled podcast or welcome back to the cancelled podcast. As you can see, I am in a very different setting and I want to start off with an immediate apology, which you know is just my favorite thing to do, right? Like, hey guys, it's me, Tana. Sorry again, right? Today's episode of the podcast is going to be kind of similar to that one that we shot a while ago where...

Tai Page and I were in London and Brooke and Amari were at home in the studio and by the studio I mean my house um because I am in Hawaii I am in beautiful gorgeous Maui right now and I unfortunately am not able to make it home to shoot and I did just want to talk to you guys about that for a second I am preying on my hands and fucking knees that Brooke and Bebe or Brooke and Paige or whoever the

Shooting at home carries this episode on their back because I'm shooting from an iPhone in Hawaii and I'm so sorry, you guys. I'm so sorry that this is going to be the quality of a blender, but I had to do it for my mental health and.

I don't know if you guys saw. This is not a Patreon plug, by the way. This is not me telling you to go subscribe or not subscribe. I'm just saying it because it happened. But last week on the Patreon, I kind of got into my life and my mental state a little bit. And I ended up crying and crying.

You could just kind of tell in that episode and in my real life, if you're around me at all, that I've been teetering the verge of a mental breakdown. Like I'm on the edge of a Hawaii mountain, right? Just a little mentee bee. And that has nothing to do with all of the positive in my life right now. Like you guys, this podcast is number three in the world right now. Our tour is completely sold out. There's all these like good, amazing, beautiful things happening, but

I also feel like I'm in this place in life right now where so many truths and serious things and beefs I've been saying on the podcast every week that I just need to forget.

weeks of mental health clarity and nothing insane and to be underwater or I'm going to lose it. And it's like, I don't want to like even this Cody co situation. Like I don't want to talk about it. Like it's a bad thing. Cause at the end of the day, that's something shitty that happened to me. And now the truth is coming out and I am able to help so many young girls and stuff. But at the same time, I can't open my phone or go anywhere in LA without being

seeing a million things about it. And I think that you can only intake so much about your own self before you go insane, right? Like it's just not mentally healthy to intake that much

content and opinions about your own self. Right. And it's like, and even just being, I went out in Los Angeles the other night and like, as much as I love my LA friends and shit, like I was out for like four or five hours and every single person I talked to is coming up to me like, what's going on with Alyssa? This is my experience with her. Can I come on the podcast? What's going on with Cody Cole? This is my experience with him. Can I go on the podcast or can you come on mine? Can we do this? Can we do that? Can we, and it just feels like I'm being

pulled in a thousand directions. And I finally get home at the end of the night and I'm like, oh my God, I just felt like I was on the canceled mic for five hours. This is my first time breathing. Right. And then on top of that, obviously just being home is like, there's a lot more access to me. You know, it's like, oh, Tana's home. Can she do this shoot and do this and do that? And a million people relying on me for their income and moral support and

to take care of them when I don't have any taking care to give for even myself, you know? With so many good things coming, I knew that I needed to kind of get the fuck out of LA and protect my health and my mental health and myself so that I can execute and deliver for all of you. And I don't want to cry. It's like 9:00 AM. Like crying at 9:00 AM is never fun. But like I said on the Patreon last week, I just want to say thank you again to everyone

who has ever loved me because you are the one soul thing that has kept me alive and pushing and kicking all these years. I hope you can forgive me for today's episode being toaster quality because just know your girl had to come be underwater and shut her phone off. And I've been here for a week and I'm still, I've been working so much here. I'm trying for the rest of today to go jump in the ocean and just breathe because I'm

I know that's what I need. And I already filmed this beginning take the other day to give you for the podcast. And I went on this 40 minute tangent about my United Airlines experience getting to Hawaii. United, listen.

I love you. Okay, you've gotten me from A to B my whole life and I think you have a lot of redeemable qualities as an airline. Okay, I really like the blue. I really like the logo. I think flying Polaris is really nice. You've got some good lounges all over the world, but United Airlines needs to get on their motherfucking Zoom. Okay, because the travel experience I had

Getting to Hawaii caused me 100 times more stress than anything ever should. And I was already at my wits end, sobbing, just trying to get here. Like get me out on the first fucking flight. I woke up sobbing and booked a flight. And I don't know if you guys saw online everything that was happening with Flightgate, United Flightgate. There were like no flights taking off at all from all the major airlines. Like my flight got canceled.

Sorry about the sirens. It's like United Airlines is coming to get me. Essentially, I don't know what the fuck happened. Listen, I'm not an air traffic controller, but what I do know is every flight in America, including mine, was just randomly canceled because there was a Windows error, which is just crazy that there's one fucking person on a computer with Windows open and that's like how all the flights are controlled. Getting on a new flight and then everything that transports

from the moment I walked into the airport is probably one of my most traumatic LAX experiences to date. This shit made me barking at that woman seem like a cakewalk in the park with rainbows and unicorns. Okay, I almost got arrested on my flight. Our brakes were broken. Like a few men may or may not have verbally assaulted me in the airport.

A flight attendant wanting me dead. Like, it is just... And I was going to include that all in today's podcast. And that was going to be my section. I gave you guys, like, an OG Tana Storytime rant. I was literally screaming. Like, I don't think Maui has ever heard screams like the ones I was giving explaining this rant to all of you. And...

Trust me when I tell you. I will give you every single word and detail of this. And listen, maybe I'll get spunky in the edit and insert a few seconds of that rant right now just so you guys know where my headspace was at mentally. And still is, honestly, towards United, but...

I'll just show you. Another hour goes by. An hour goes by. I'm not kidding you guys. Like I'm like tit sweating enough to fill up a fucking jug. Okay? Like it is...

so hot. People, babies are crying. People are screaming. Eventually I decide I'm going to go on a walk to the front of the plane because I'm about to pass out with how fucking hot it is. I walk up to the front of the plane and one of the flight attendants standing there has the gall and the wherewithal and the balls to look at us and say, why do you guys want off the plane so bad? I don't

fucking 10 degrees in row 30B and we've been here for an hour and a half. Mind you with the four hour delay. It's a hundred it's so hot. He goes, oh I haven't

I haven't been back there, I didn't even know. Must be nice being in Antarctica up here, you fucking asshole. I'm doing a little better than I was in that clip, but however, something happened, okay? A bombshell entered the villa and she came to save the motherfucking day, bitch. I'm not kidding. If I had to upload that toaster quality rant as my back half of the canceled podcast, I'm pretty sure I would lose every fan.

It just, it wasn't what this episode needed, okay? Angry Tana ranting about the airport yet again, right? As I've been out here in Maui, all of my TikTok comments, every single one, I don't think we've ever had a higher requested guest on the canceled podcast than Miss Leah from Love Island. And I watched her on Call Her Daddy, and I was like, fuck, there's still a lot of shit I want to talk with her. If you have or haven't been keeping up with Love Island, like point blank, if you haven't, I'm just going to give you the quickness

quick rundown. She is that bitch. She's that bitch. Every TikTok sound you hear for the next six months is her talking. Every outfit that bitch had on in Love Island, like, okay, pussy stunt queen. The way she handled so much shit that was happening to her mental health and all kinds of crazy shit. Like the way she's just handled all of this. Like she is beauty. She is grace. She is Miss American race. Okay. I, she's my president, honestly.

Brooke and I really still want to have her sit down on the canceled couch and just kick it with her. Like aside from asking about all the Love Island drama, like I think she's just a dope ass bitch. And the most well-received episodes of canceled are always going to be, you know, us with our friends or us talking to someone where it's not like an interview or anything crazy. And I think she like fits that mold tenfold. And I'm so excited to have this new iconic conversation.

But I might as well have been getting death threats from all of you to get her on the podcast now to talk to her about other shit that she didn't uncall her daddy or she hasn't talked about yet and just kind of introduce her to the canceled audience. And that is what I did for you guys today. I just got off Zoom with her. Never in my life did I think I would do a Zoom interview for the canceled podcast. I'm just I'm not a big Zoomer. Okay.

I'm never giving girl get on your Zoom. I did what had to be done and I called this bitch and I'm about to insert that and I'm so excited for you guys to see that and I think it's just 10 times happier of a lighthearted episode having her on than me actually cussing out the phone about United Airlines.

And don't worry, we will get there. I will never actually let go of that travel day that I had. I never will. I will remember it when I'm 80. So either in next week's episode or a story time on my channel, if you guys just want like an OG Tana story time, I've got it for you in the bag.

And again, I just want to say, I know I'm beating a dead horse with what I'm saying, but like, I'm so fucking grateful for you guys and every single opportunity that you have brought me in this life. And I'm so sorry once again, that my half of this episode is coming from an Island shot on a phone zoom interview style, but it was that or a psych ward and your girl has got to protect her mental health so she can get on her zoom for tour and for everything else that's coming like forever.

The reaction and response to this podcast is the most life changing, important, valuable thing in the world to me. And I want you to know that at every second. And that's why I'm here. I'm just trying to protect myself so that I can show up for you guys every single week.

We all gotta do it in life sometimes, you know? I needed to get away from the general population. Like, I don't know what's in the air right now, but I just feel like my whole life and traumas and everything are so public. And even just going out in public. The other day, I was sitting by the pool at a hotel here in Maui, and this random man walks up to me, pulls his camera out, doesn't say hello, goodbye, nothing from Adam or Eve, and screams in my face, fuck Cody Ko, am I right? And I'm like...

I mean, I guess I did do that, but I'm going to kill myself because of people like you. Like, and that's just, I feel like that sentiment has been encompassing so much of my life lately. Like one of the things that happened while I was at the airport were these, like all these 18 year old kids coming up to me, guys, like,

barking, literally barking, like growling and barking, which I guess is a funny full circle moment now that I'm thinking about it. Maybe karma for my barking at LAX, but barking telling me to post more feet pics on OnlyFans. And imagine me like there is no worse peril in your entire life than being surrounded by like six 18 year old boys barking at you about your feet. And I was like, cause it's never, it's never the fucking sweet, cute, hot,

IMG-a dressed like long, real hair, cute earrings,

Girls who come up to me and tell me that they love me and that, you know, that I saved their life or whatever it is that they're telling me because I feel the same way towards y'all. You know, I feel the same way towards all the hot girls. I'm like, there's no higher compliment than a hot girl calling you hot. There is no higher compliment than the girls and the gays and the days coming up to me and showing respectful love. There's just been a lot of other out of pocket shit. I think that comes with this life happening to me lately. And I just need...

a giant break. You know, like I was telling Trisha the other day, like it's not that I'm not grateful for everything, but I would love to leave the Tana Mongeau suit for four days, right? Just not waking up to 100 texts of everyone needing everything ever under the sun, not going out in public and getting harassed by men and out-of-pocket strangers. And again, not you guys, not the support, like just seeing a million people

commenting on like really serious things going on in your life or people starting beef with me. Like I just, I got to breathe in and out. That's what I'm doing here. And I like really, really fucking hope you guys can understand because I hate letting you down or feeling like I'm giving you this half-ass shitty toaster version of an episode, but I had to do what I had to do. And I think that Leah saved everything. Like when I was filming the other United storytime rant, every two minutes I was saying like skip to 39 minutes for Brooke

Don't even fucking watch this. So I'm so grateful Leah got on her Zoom and I do have some content to provide you today, but just know like I'm not half-assing or bare minimuming just 'cause I can. I just, I really need a little break seat for my mentee B. I know I'll be back in better than ever 'cause at the end of the day, I think my life's purpose is to show all of the young girls and gays and nays who were dealt similar hands to me in their early years or are dealing with similar battles to me currently

that we will prevail. And that is what I am doing. Doing my best to fucking prevail. Seriously let me know in the comments below where you would like this United story time to live. Should I put the OG one on Patreon? Should I refilm it and put it on my YouTube channel? Or do you wanna hear that next week on the canceled podcast?

either on the couch with brooke or zooming in or calling in or whatever because i've got to get it off my chest But I do think that it's better that we just do a little bit of a light-hearted episode because the last thing I need is beef with united airlines this week I'm trying to just take it easy call this fucking hot bombshell and keep it pushing I love you guys so much and I know i've said it five times in this but

You always thank me for saving your life and I can't thank you enough for saving mine and being there for me through everything. The good, the bad, and the fucking fugly. Now I am going to get the fuck off my Zoom and jump into that pool. I love you guys so much and I will talk to you in the next episode of the Cancelled Podcast.

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Oh my god, you look amazing. You look good. You look airbrushed as fuck. I'm like, I look weird. No, and like the dress, the outfit, just wait. I have so much to fucking say to you. I'm so gagged. I'm so, thank you so much. Oh my god, thank you for having me. I knew we would have a ball. And this is just the beginning. I can't wait to actually get you on that fucking couch and I'll be like, you, me, and Brooke. I'm so glad.

I'm sitting on the floor because I wanted to get everyone the best lighting. So just don't mind me. No, you look fucking amazing. Leah is here, everyone. Welcome to the canceled podcast. I'm fucking elated to be here. I was dragged through the internet saying, why aren't you there? And I said, bitch, you're now. Get on your Zoom. Bitch, I'm on NBC.

We took that literally, honey. We got on our Zoom. It's so funny. In the history of this podcast, I have never and probably will never Zoom interview someone again. But like, I don't think we've ever had a more requested guest ever. Really?

Every comment, everything was like, Tana, if you don't fucking get that bitch on the podcast, you're going to die. I'm so happy you're here. It's fucking insane. It's funny. I think the viewers will enjoy this one because they know the peril that I went through. Leah and I are on the phone yesterday. And I'm like, at any time you want, by the way, the bitch is booked and busy. She just got her phone back. Okay. Like.

let her do her thing right and you're like how does 1 p.m work and I'm in Hawaii and I'm like oh that's perfect oh my god it's 4 p.m it'll give me the whole day it's 9 a.m like so stupid it's crazy and I was like yeah totally that's amazing like we're just dumb as fuck just like agreeing like like it's always two delusional bitches telling each other yes yes I was like oh

Tana texted me after and she was like, wait, I'm dumb as fuck. And I was like, well, I'm dumber. Because I was taking you on. It's like, we can't be hot and know all the time zones. Okay? Like, we've got enough on our plate. And you're here. And I'm so fucking happy. First of all, how do you feel? I'm okay. I'm okay. Like, I feel like it was a lot easier.

More. I was preparing for like the absolute fucking worst. Me. It's taking a bit to settle in. I definitely think like.

It'll take a minute with the whole like nitpicking. I think it's a bit difficult when, you know, I went into the villa, like a very normal human being and I came out and everything I do is being overanalyzed. And I can't imagine what it like psychologically does to you, especially with no phone. Cause it's like, if you had a phone, you would be like gradually seeing this, like slowly accepting it. Like you don't have a fucking phone for that long. And then you come out and you have millions of followers overnight. And yeah,

You're the top bitch. You're the head bitch in charge. Like, they... Everyone wants you. When I told you, I thought I was the bottom barrel bitch. Like, I was like... I literally was like, I've ruined my family's life forever. I don't think I should have come on this show. I've done... Like, I literally was like... Because those...

There's the way I felt in the villa. I keep saying this, but it's just because I'm in such shock. Like, the way I felt in the villa versus, like, the love that was waiting for me out here, I could not have guessed it in a million years. I'm sure everyone can tell from my reactions to every time I got picked. Every time I got picked, I was like, what the fuck? Like, I thought everyone hated me. It just... The villa, like, the whole... It was just a lot. It's gotta, like, fuck with your head, you know what I mean? Especially because, like...

In the villa, like if, you know, the other girls are jealous or feeling some type of way or treating you some type of way and you don't have a phone, you're like, fuck, they hate me. Everyone hates me, whatever. And then to come out and have the exact opposite is just fucking.

I know like obviously PPG like Serena and Janae like were my closest in there but I did feel really close to everyone else Nicole is a really good friend of mine Daniela I love her even Andrea like on our off days we would hang out and like we did there was like a day where we did like each other's makeup we were like fucking around and like same with Liv like Liv I have nothing bad to say about Liv ever oh Kayla I love Kayla please don't I'm trying to remember everyone's names I love you don't have to remember everyone we all think you're nice like I

believe you you know I loved all of them so then I was a bit put

put off when I come out and I'm like, oh, I thought. And now everyone's trying to pit you guys against each other. And like, you had a great time. And that's because it's like men are so fucking stupid. Like all you really can hope for from that experience is a couple good girlfriends for life. Right. Like, and I got that and then some. So and I also got Miguel, which is like, I couldn't have asked for more. Like, I just feel very, very, very lucky. OK, I was letting you say it first. Yeah.

And now that you've said it, I have so many questions. So we're back in real life. Yes. We're with Miguel. I love we like I'm not okay. We he's our man.

Are you with him? Yeah. Yes. And how is that going? What is it? What is like the biggest difference of the two of you in the real world versus are you saying, are we together at the moment? Like in person together? No, no, no. Like, no. Yes. Yeah. Like he's your boo. He's my boo. Is it different?

now trying to like date and be cutesy and shit like in the real world? Is it better? Is it scarier? Like, how do you feel? It's exactly the same. I feel like we just have such a special bond that I just feel like if you guys saw the whole thing pan out, you would, you would get it. Like we are like so in tune and I just feel like he's like the most compassionate understanding person ever. And he's,

My family just keeps saying, like, they couldn't have dreamt of someone better for me. So... I have full goosebumps. That's actually so sweet. I thought that by the time we got to the Zoom, you were about to be like... Because that would just be me. I'm so turbulent. I'd be like, fuck everyone. I hate every single guy. I keep saying I hate... Like, I'm like, I just hate, like, the way everything panned out. I hate that. But, like, Miguel was...

the only like people are like oh my gosh did you have fun on love island and they're like i bet you had the best summer ever and i'm like i literally hated every moment like except for the moments with miguel and ppg like period that's actually like so fucking sweet that it ended up like that and i feel like he is like a good guy and you guys obviously like all the edits of you guys i'm like fuck they're so we sit up on facetime until five in the morning just sending them back to each other wait i'll literally actually cry we love them so much

How does that feel to like, dude, I've been on TikTok and my For You page is literally just edits of you. Like doing everything, every sound. Daisy! But you're that bitch. I don't think I'll ever come to terms with this. Like I, you don't understand. I was spiraling in that video. Like it's going to take me years A to recover from this. Like I was tripping.

traumatized. I still am. I think even like a lot of things I'm realizing like, Oh fuck. Like I, I am going straight to therapy. Like drop. I was going to say, I like just love Island offer like the therapy pack out for it. But you know what? I don't want theirs. So I'm going to need eight life coaches and a psych ward. Yeah. I get that. I can't, I can't fucking imagine. I mean, at least you did come out of it. Like

And overall, the reception is good, but still, you've got to make sure your mental is right, being able to handle all of that. No, my mental is in hell right now. I need to build it back up for sure. Like coming out and no, I can't. But the thing is, the things that are helping are my supporters. Like I don't deserve them. I think that they have given me like.

I'm fucking honored. I literally am honored. Like, it's night and day from the villa to- I really think that you do deserve them, though. Like, you're fucking so iconic. Every single person that is supporting you, there's a fucking reason. Like, from the outfits to the shit you have to say, anyone navigating through, like, what you went through across that fucking show for 36 episodes, I know I would not do it with that much grace or intelligence or any of that. Are you kidding? The house would be on fire. Like-

You fucking killed it and you deserve everything. And I just like, again, it's probably so hard, like feeling so low in the villa and then coming out and feeling so high and trying to figure out this like middle ground to be at. But yeah,

I'm proud of you and the people love you. It literally means like more than, you know, it really does. Like the support is like the one driving factor of like that. I'm okay. These people, like I can do it for them. So I just feel like so lucky. So you're her, you're that bitch though. Like, just don't fucking forget that. I'm serious. It's crazy. And it's like,

Like everyone has so many questions. And like, I don't even, I do just want to say for all the canceled viewers, like we've been talking about this a lot off camera. Like this is not ending at a zoom. Like I want you on the couch. Oh, talking shit. Like whole nine. We'll bring the tea. We'll do our big one.

Are you planning on starting your own podcast at some point? I feel like the people want it so bad. I know that the people want a podcast and I know they want it. They would love it with PPG. And you guys, if you have heard our conversations, oh my God, we are un-fucking-hinged. I know people would love it. I know it. But...

but I think we are also, there are things coming. Like there are a lot of fun things coming for sure. Nothing is like set in the books, but we are definitely like looking at a lot of stuff. I know that I'm like, and my girls, they have a lot of great shit coming for them. All well-deserved, literally deserve the whole world. And then I know for me, you're like, also like, Hey, I might want to meditate for two weeks. I think right now I'm just trying to settle, but I've

There are for sure a lot of fun fucking things coming. And I mean, just jumping straight from like that, filming that show has got to be so much work, like trying to be entertaining, like the mental game in your head of like,

You know what I mean? Like I'm on camera at all times. I need to be funny. I need to look good. Oh no, I stopped caring how I looked on like day two. You could literally see like the frizz in my hair. It was like, I literally was telling everyone, I don't give a fuck anymore. What the world sees is what they're going to get. And if you don't like it, then fuck it because this is what you're getting. It's so crazy because you say that, but like I was watching,

So, like the outfits. Can you walk me? I'm sorry if this is, I know all the people. No, no, ask me whatever you want, please. I'm dead serious. All my comments are like, ask Lee.

ask Leah about Rob. I'm like, no, I want to know about the outfits. Let's talk about my clothes. Like way more important. First of all, like order of fucking operations here. How many suitcases? Okay. Four suitcases, two in the villa. And then did all the other bitches have four suitcases of shit? Or were you like, you really came to play? You know, Kayla had a lot of clothes as well. Serena is so fucking funny. Serena would every night would be like,

Leah, I'm going to go shopping in your closet tonight. And she'd like open it up and I'm like, go at it, baby. Like, I feel like I'm one of those people though. I love like sharing clothes and I love like matching with my girls and I love that kind of stuff. So like, it made me so happy, like seeing everyone wear my clothes. And like, I also like my shoes I brought, I think I brought like 15 pairs of shoes and shout out Bottega. Cause that was a very big amount. I swear to God sharing. Yeah.

It is like the biggest fucking serotonin in the world, especially when a bitch has a wardrobe like yours. Have you always been like a designer fashion queen, like a vintage fashion queen? Like when you want, you walked out in something Roberto Cavalli and I damn near fucking fell to the floor and died. I was like, these bitches could never, you didn't even have to talk. Like your outfit was speaking for you. No, I fucking love that dress. Um, my sister sent it. My sister is behind all of my clothes. I,

can't dress myself for shit. I always tell her, like, when I try and dress myself, I will stand in front of the mirror and panic. You know that scene of The Grinch where he's, like, putting on his clothes and he's like, no, hate it. That's me as fuck when I try and dress myself. No, when I'm sweating, screaming, crying, throwing up. Yes, I always say I need to have, like, I...

plan one hour of a mental breakdown before I go out so I can have a mental breakdown of like body dysmorphia and then I'll be like okay cool now I'm ready to go out absolutely like I look in the mirror I see Jabba the Hutt I breathe about it for an hour and then I'm like cool yeah and then like I'll just get drunk and pretend like I'm not feeling that way so it's like looking in a mirror like like me as fuck but yeah no I credit all

run my sister her fucking credit. She's behind all the outfits. She's behind all the vintage pieces. She's behind all the looks. She is, she has, she, she gets fashion. Like that shit comes to her so easily. So that's all on her. A built-in stylist as a sister is the actual dream, but it's crazy. Cause you just wear it all so effortlessly. Hello? The body, like you just fucking kill it. I don't know. I'm like beside myself with all of that. I love it.

So much. I was wondering, like, one of the episodes, Kayla, or did Kayla get voted off and she was wearing your dress? Or, like, you got, like...

Like, was everyone sharing shit? A lot of people, like, so you're not, you don't have to share with everyone. Like, what clothes are yours? So if you want people to wear your clothes, like, they can wear your clothes. A lot of the girls were sharing with each other. And I told them, like, on, like, day two, I literally was like, y'all don't, you don't need to ask me for anything. Like, I know we would call my section on the vanity the pharmacies.

because girls would literally go and like, just take all my shit out. And I would be like, don't, you don't need to ask me. Like the first few days, like they'd be like, can we, can I borrow this? Can I borrow this? I'm like, take it. By day eight, you're like, take the bronzing drop. Oh no, I literally, oh, there, Kayler took my, Kayler currently have

my hairbrush she's like she literally has it now i saw when i saw her at the airport like she was like oh by the way like i have it i was like i know you do i stole stole the dyson hairbrush from the from the villa because you know let's fuck that's some financial competition right there our hair was intertwined in that hairbrush for like two months it was funny as fuck that's fucking so funny like i just i love when a hot girl wants to share too like not a gatekeeper it's so

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And we need Brooke's commentary for like so much. We need it. I know my girl was going through it. My sister was trying to update me on it. And I was like, I got it. I mean, I still haven't looked at it. I need to, I need to get caught up. I need to get caught up. I just realized the amount, like,

I'm like, you had no phone. Like, Oh my God. I didn't even think about the amount of fucking shit you miss. Long story short. He's like an awful lying lizard. He said his mom is dead. His mom is alive. Um, 30 part series he made. You don't have to watch it. It'll make you want to die.

Like just watch Brooks and I'll send you a couple. No, no, I don't give a fuck what he has to say. I just wanted to watch what hers was. Yeah, for sure. Yeah, you're going to fucking die though. It's so nuts. These men just, I don't know. I mean, I guess speaking of playing blind cheating men, I don't know the lore. So forgive me if I'm just so wrong on this reading.

Talk to me about Rob. Okay. Like, where did you two leave off? Like you're like cameras are off. You're all finally going home. Like where are you two at? We're good. I do think people are supporting something that doesn't exist.

As friends, we are great. He is a good person as a friend. Basically, we don't click. We frankly never did in that way. I was miserable every second. I always was living with sheer anxiety and fight or flight mode. And as someone who...

Kind of is very used to that in a relationship due to past relationships of just like trauma. It was very triggering every day. And the fact that the way it all played out was even more triggering. It was very painful. It put me in a headspace that I haven't been in in a very long time. It made me do things that I haven't done in a very long time.

If you've ever been with a man before who like lacks reassurance, even if you go years without being with a man like that, you can immediately like fall back into those patterns. It's literally like miserable. And,

Sorry, I'm getting a fucking call. I don't know why anyone would ever try to call me right now. Right now they're disrupting. Bitch, I'm on my Zoom. You're on your Zoom. Anyways, but yeah, like I get it. I do. I get it. Like we were so like in sync at the beginning and like we were very like into each other. But some moments felt very theatrical. Some moments felt very he just I don't know. It just felt like fraudulent. A was so bad.

scary and I was waiting for the other shoe to drop and then you know everything happened the way it did after he was saying like you're never gonna be left in the dark and then he stood up there and I just went oh my god like we really will let a man in overalls tell us that we'll never be left in the dark and then still get left in the fucking dark as bad bitches and like that's what's crazy I didn't know his well you also are from California right yeah but I didn't know that he like

Was in L.A. before this? Like, I don't know. Was he? I have no idea. I think I some girl I know was saying he was like in some awful situationship with this L.A. girl I know. And I was like, that would just check out. So then I see him like in the car with Nessa Barrett. I'm like, leave Nessa alone. I saw that too.

But again, like I do think he deserves you to be happy. Just not me. Yeah. 100%. What I'm telling you, I was fucking miserable. I was crying every day. I had terrible anxiety every day. I'm literally like, was like a mess up until the second I'm coupled up with Miguel. Honestly, the second Miguel came in, like, I feel like it literally was just like, just even just starting as our friendship and then like,

Having him there as a friend and like just having someone who was like so funny and just didn't care what other people thought of me because in the villa, it was a bit like it kind of felt like everyone was scolding me a little for the Rob situation minus my girls, of course, like they were there for me, but

aside from everyone else it kind of made me feel like I was the one who did something very wrong and only me I'm the one who did something wrong it didn't feel like I felt like I was the only one being held accountable yes Rob and I both did things wrong but I just was like well why am I the only one kind of being scolded for it and it felt like that from everyone it felt like every like my feelings were being very downplayed by the producers as well and I know that the producers

keep telling me not to talk about them but like it was like just like such betrayal in every realm like they're like we care about you and I was like but I'm dying and you don't care yeah that's that's you're gonna hate me saying that but like I don't care that's how I fucking felt so no you're real as fuck for that I think Brooke and I talk about this like a lot as well but like even if like TV producers are humans too and I'm sure in their hardest of hearts like they do they

They want to care about people, but their whole fucking job is to literally like fuck up your mental state. Oh, there was a moment where Liv and I were crying so hard.

and they were like hold on cameras aren't rolling can you hold this and me and Liv freaked out we said I would lose it we were it's like it's all my fucking fault you can't turn the camera on I get it this shit's entertaining to you guys I get it I get it I get it it's a tv show to you guys but this is our real lives this isn't yeah we're not having fun right now frankly I'm miserable and I want to go home and I

feel like I'm not here I can't talk to anyone about it because everyone's already mad at me about Rob and I'm just sitting here like oh my god like could this get any worse and then it kept getting worse until Miguel then everything got better I love the fairy tale happy ending I just I feel for you so hard though like phoneless fucking heartbroken the only people you can talk to are people who just want to film you at your worst like oh and they kept telling me like if you want to talk we can't

And I'm like, no, because you're going to make me say it on camera. And it's going to like literally like make me look like I'm like a suicidal, like fucking freak, which...

She was getting weird in there. Like I'm very upset. And it's like, you're not a licensed therapist and you can't even turn on the camera. It felt like they just, it felt more like they wanted to gossip versus like check in on. Yeah. Like you're like fucking animals in a zoo. And that's so like, again, but so much therapy, so much peace and relaxation. I was so fucking mad the other day on Tik TOK. Don't get me wrong. I appreciate like for you, I love seeing all the support and winning, but obviously some people take it too far. And I was like,

I saw some shit about like your address or your house or something. And I was like, you're really like, this girl just went through fucking hell on national television and people really want to try you like that. And that's like the dark sides of fame. Like that's so amazing. Especially cause I don't even live in this house. Um, I,

I have an apartment, it's being renovated right now. My family lives here. My fucking poor family lives here. My parents who have no idea about social media, who have no idea about fame or attention.

my animals are here. The people I care about the most are in this home and people are. And it's like, you're only safe space. I'm only safe space. And even that is getting violated, but I am just like really grateful that you are in such a good spot with Miguel, where you at least feel like you have one person from this experience and who's going through something kind of similar to what you are right now online, who like gets you and sees you like, Oh my gosh, she's literally giving me like Dr. Phil type advice. Like I think like,

I could God. Yeah. No, my sister is like obsessed with everything. The advice he's been giving, like, she's like, he's fucking wise. And I'm like, I'm telling you guys, this man, I love when a straight man does something. Okay. When any straight man does something like that's my favorite. And thank God I saw that. So what's his take on, because obviously you're like so mature about all this Rob shit, like, and not even being petty at all. You're like, we're friends.

everyone's like does Miguel follow Rob how does he like how does do you know how he feels about like shit that went down to you in the house I know he seeing it is not his favorite thing like he definitely feels for me of seeing everything from the beginning like clearly there were a lot of things he didn't see that went down between Rob and I of like how fucking like

I just went through a lot like it's hard even myself seeing myself like that I have to skip through it it's very triggering it is very triggering like I started I saw a video of myself like sobbing and I just started crying my eyes out um I don't want to re-watch it at all I know I embarrassed myself I know I was being a pick me whatever for Rob like but the pick me allegations are also crazy like

Just again, to everything I like, if you put anyone in that situation, like you can't blame yourself and be like, oh, I embarrassed myself. No. Like if you put me with 80 fucking wide shots on me, like I'd be like farting and disgusting and like losing it. Like it's like you're set up to fail and to end up prevailing is like.

So strong and intelligent. It's ridiculous. It's like, I'm so lucky. Like I am so thankful for everyone like that. They saw it the way they did. And I do remember there was a moment in the villa. I told Rob, I said, when you come out of here and you see the way I actually was towards you, you're going to be sick. And where are we now? And I'm even more sick. I was saying the other day, I said, the more I see the way he was talking about me, I start to get...

even more upset. And the more he probably sees the way I'm talking about him, he probably starts to like think, do you like fucking shit about it? Yeah, exactly. Like she was actually genuine. So it's crazy too. Cause wasn't he, and I could just be making this up, forgive me, but wasn't he,

on like a love island season before like he's like he's done reality shows he was last season and i didn't watch it so i didn't know who he was when he came in but the girls were saying like oh my gosh isn't that rob from last season and i was like i would when we first like got together i would like make jokes about it and i would call him like the veteran of love island like he

okay, like tell me how to do this. Oh, what should we do now? And he knew, he knew, I don't know. I don't know. He's a really good guy. I just don't think like he's a good guy for me as like relationship romantically. I honestly, out of like respect for Miguel, I kind of don't even want him

a friendship at the moment. I get that. You're like, listen, but just like from afar, I think. Yeah. And I think that's like the absolute best situation. Like you are in the best case scenario, which is,

Will you ever? You'll never. I am gathering. At least I like it would. I'd be scarred. Would you ever do a dating show again? Never. They called me the next day and said, would you go on Love Island? I said, no, I didn't even let them finish the sentence. I said, no, no. At all. And I don't need to go on a dating show. I found my. At all. I'm good. I'm good.

The next thing filmed is the fucking wedding bitch. Okay? Or the birth bitch. Stop. Do you want kids? I do. We both want, like, four kids. Oh, my God. Stop. And you're going to have such a cute, like, I can just see. Where does he live? He's, like, a nomad for sure. But...

He's like definitely like right now he's in the UK, but he's coming here soon. We have a lot of fun like trips planned together. We have so much shit we want to do. Like, and I'm going to see him like I'll see him soon. I'll see him very soon. I'm folding like a lawn chair for this. Like the, the simp in me is just like, Oh, this is best case scenario. And I'm so happy for you. He's the best. Like you just, now that this is,

This trauma is over. Like, you're just I feel like you're such a smart girl and you're going to fucking figure it all out. And you're so blessed with this, like, huge new platform that you deserve like a motherfucker. Like, go off, bitch. Thank you. Serious. Like, and that's the thing is, it's like you can't accredit.

Any of it to anything but you. Like, you fucking did that. No way. It's everyone out there. Like, they... They see. Like, they recognize that you are that bitch. It means everything. It literally means everything. Like, for... You should have told me we were day drinking, bitch. I would have brought my bottle of tequila. Ha! Ha!

Look, I really, I swear this actual canceled episode is going to be so heinous. I wish you were here in Hawaii with me right now. I'm like, no cameras. Is this a drunk interview or is that so messy? I will get drunk with you. I will get high with you. I don't, whatever. We can take mushrooms and get fucking philosophical. I don't give a whatever that is. Even today I was like, yes, I have questions and shit, but like you've already done the like big ringer interview. And I feel like it's like,

that's not what the people want from you. Like they want to see you talk about like random shit. Yeah. And like, that's what I'm excited to have you on for is just to come like Kiki and talk about random fucking shit. I'm so fucking excited. Cause I know you guys, like we are all like, I know our personalities just vibe so fucking well. I'm so excited, man. You know what? I just remembered that I need to know from you. Cause I was thinking about our personalities, literally vibing. And I was thinking like,

I just feel like your thoughts in your head during Love Island, like I would, I would pay a billion dollars to be a fly on the wall in your thoughts. And I wanted to know, like, do you have any memorable icks that you got from any of the guys in the show? Memorable icks? Everything. Even if it's like some stupid shit. I'm like, what was it in it? No, I'm kidding. Okay.

My biggest thing I always say is watching a guy chase a ping pong ball. Like, I mean, like literally a lot of them chase ping pong ball. It wasn't bad. Swear. It wasn't, it wasn't. I see a lot of people say that actually I do. They picked it up gracefully. That one. I won't say I,

don't love, I have the, all the guys in the villa know this. And Rob actually did a pulled like a joke on me one time, like when we were going to the doc, like the guys had him do it as a joke. Um, I hate, hate, hates a strong word. I dislike when men wear like a full, like a nighttime outfit with sandals, like thong sandals, toes out as a man, why are your toes out? Yeah. It's a bit, it's a bit freaky. Um, so then like he, when he pulled me to the doc, he, I mean, and I'm

And I looked down and he, and I was like,

uh oh and I look he knows this and I looked up and he was like he's just sort of dying laughing and you're like your fourth toe has a hangnail and I literally was like Aaron and Connor told me to do it as a joke and I was like thank god because I was actually about to say like we can't be together anymore at all see that's the type of shit I needed to hear that's what I give a fuck about yeah I literally like that like when men wear like like I fucking love you Aaron but Aaron every night would wear like a full outfit and then just like long sandals and it's like

okay pop off queen but again though he's european he gets he i guess i guess it like it goes off i like my thing is i'm like really big on like like if a guy has really good style i'm immediately i'm gravitating especially like you're a bitch with style so you see it like i feel like when miguel walked in you were probably like oh my god finally like someone with some like swag when i thought he was so fucking hot like from the second like

he walked in like that the dimples just they knew what they were doing they were like we need like their big one bringing him in like point blank period but thanks guys the one thing you did right yay right you're like you can live for now love honestly look i'm not kidding i had all of my like

like roommates and friends give me a lit like what they wanted to know and I'm like I feel like we just need to wait for the fucking canceled podcast I know we can just and like we'll just I I'm not getting like half of this was just me checking in on you I wanted the people to know that like I saw their comments and like I'm alive I am semi okay

I will be okay. Don't worry about me. You guys are the reason I am okay. I love you so very much. Don't worry about me. I'm a big girl. I'm a tough kid. I can handle it. I'm good. I love you. Like I have chills, like just boss ass bitch energy. I'm so fucking excited for the start of this psychotic friendship. Well,

We got a big time. You, me, and Brooke on that couch is actually going to be lethal. And I'm like counting down the minutes. I'm fucking excited, man. Like, I'm so mad that I'm on a rock in the middle of the ocean while all of this is going down. You're lucky. That's like, I would fucking, well, actually, yeah, maybe I don't want to be somewhere tropical for a minute. At all. Next vacation is in the snow at a lodge, bitch. Yeah.

Yeah, I'm okay, actually. Like, now that I'm looking at the water and the palm trees in the back, I'm getting a call. I should go. I'm going to fucking go. Hey, so nice talking to you.

I love you so much. And like, thank you for making this work. Yesterday, you were like, we've been going back and forth on the day and I thought you wanted to do yesterday. I was running out of the ocean like a wet rat. Bro, I fucking, I was dying. I literally was like, oh, why'd she get so excited about me saying tomorrow? And then I look and I was like, oh fuck, I said let's do today. I was like, no, no, no. Wet rat running out of the beach like, I gotta get on my Zoom. Get on our Zoom.

No, I love it. I got to talk to you. I'm fucking, I'm excited for this. This is about to evolve into something. No, I'm just so fucking obsessed with you. And I love that you are my whole for you page. I never want that to change. And I'm so excited for it to now be us on my whole for you page in a couple of days, but yeah,

This is the start of something beautiful and like actually fucking thank you for taking the time. Thank you for wanting me on here. Thank you so much. Bitch, I swear to God, I think not only did Brooke and I want you on Cancelled So Bad and again, we have to sit with Brooke, but like if I didn't get you on this Zoom, the comments, like...

I can't, I can't, I don't even know what they would have done to me. I was like, I got to give the people a taste of what they're going to get when I'm home. Fuck yes. I'm so excited. I'm so excited. I love you so much. I love you and Miguel so much. Thank you. I'm just so happy for you. You're out of the fucking villa with a phone, bitch, and some therapy. Here she is in all her glory. Right. And some more fucking Cavalli dresses and no overalls. It's Miguel. Stop. I love you.

I love you so, so, so much. I love you more and I'm so fucking excited to sit down and talk to you. It's going to be... I'm honestly calling you after this so we can talk more shit off camera. Oh, please. Please. Please. I love you. Love you, love you, love you. I actually don't know how to leave the Zoom. I do. Peace, bitch.

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All right, you guys. Clearly, we don't have our normal situation today. Tana is not beside me. She is in Hawaii living her best life and getting her ducks in a row. Okay? I'm jealous. So she, I believe, filmed her half already and she got Leah Kate from Love Island. I love her. Which makes me so fucking jealous. I wanted to do it together so bad. I was DMing her yesterday, like begging her to be my friend. But...

I have here in front of me one of our most requested guests of all time, which is Miss Brooke Baldwin, also known as Bebe. You know, a lot of people think that Bebe and Brooke Baldwin are two different people. No, I didn't know that. They do. I don't know because we like I use you like interchangeably and people didn't understand that it was the same thing. But this is my best friend on the entire planet, my longest friend in L.A. and I

The only person I would save if the world was on fire. Obviously, I would save Tana as well, but she would be second. Just kidding. I would save you too. Don't worry. Bebe, welcome to the pod. Thank you. I'm so, I'm honestly been so nervous. She's really nervous, but I like, we just went to dinner before this and I was like, Bebe, this is literally exactly what we're doing right now. You have a conversation except there's a microphone in front of you. You're not on a stage. That's true. It's okay. I feel better now that I'm here. First of all, I tweeted a bunch of things. Well, first of all, I tweeted like what?

What do you guys want to hear from Bebe? And they had lots of questions for you. But first and most importantly, they want to know how the fuck, where you came from. Okay. Where I came from. Yeah. How do we know each other? That's my favorite thing is like I see comments all the time saying like, she just came out of nowhere. Like, where did she even come from? I'm like, guys, I literally have known Brooke for like six years. We've been best friends for six years. Yeah. And like really openly too. Bebe showed up in my living room one day. So she was living in,

We lived like at the time we lived at an apartment or an apartment complex called the Ava in Toluca Lake. We lived, we have obviously the same name. We lived on the same floor in the same building. There's 26 buildings in this apartment complex. It's huge. Yeah, it has A through Z and we both lived in building U. We lived on the same floor, same name, same time. We didn't know each other until one day randomly. I don't know why and I don't know who brought you there. You were in my living room.

Brooke sobbed. I did. She started singing for some reason. She was like one of those who just like sang out of nowhere. Well, yeah.

Okay, singing out of nowhere is like actually crazy, but we both shared the love for Billie Eilish. Yes. And it was, what was that, 2018 or 2019? It had to be 2018. I moved in 2018. 2018. And I sang, what song was that? A Billie Eilish song. And I literally sobbed my eyes out. I do that every time someone sings to me. Honestly, even if they're bad, but you're lucky you're good. Was I bad? No, you were fabulous.

But we've been best friends ever since. I knew her before any of this happened, obviously. You've been my little ride or die with the exception of one really... Oh, God. Yeah.

I have to bring it up because honestly, it's important for the listeners to know about. Honestly, it's a big part of my lore. Well, listen, so especially since like, obviously they're up to date on my whole Clinton situation. We talk a lot about emotionally abusive relationships, which I'm not sure if you would identify your ex as an emotionally abusive person. But this is what I will say. Bebe was banned from seeing me and hanging out with me for...

a really long time. Why don't you tell us about that? Okay, so I dated a guy for a couple years and he hated Brooke. Hated her. They hated each other. It was really, it was on and off, really toxic, whatever. I moved across the country. I'm from California. I moved to Charlotte, North Carolina for this man. Okay, I moved there. I was there for eight months and

it was really scary they got a dog together more importantly she blocked she moved without a single word blocked my number and didn't talk to me the entire time she was gone to be fair because her boyfriend didn't like me i don't give a fuck okay but to be fair i'm not you weren't mean but i didn't like your opinion on it i just didn't and i was that i didn't fucking like your loser fucking boyfriend that's that was that's totally that i see it i see it now

I see it now. You were super valid. But also at the same time, I was like, I love this man. Yeah, I guess when you love someone, like, I feel like you wouldn't do it to me, more importantly. I actually just talked about this on another podcast, how I, like, regret how I handled it. Because, like... You're going to pretend like you told me you wanted to get back together with Clinton Cain and I wasn't mean to you about it. You're right. You weren't. And, you know, what's so funny about it is when she was going through the whole Clinton thing, because I was there for the entire situation, I told her, I said...

How does it feel? I'm like, you're so lucky that I'm being nice and letting you, like, letting it run its course. Because honestly, you're not going to leave or you're not going to stop talking to someone just because someone else does. Like, you're going to leave when you're ready, realistically. Yeah, and that's how you, like, end up

Like hiding shit from your friends and stuff As if like if your friends are really hard on you about it I don't know I experienced that too Because like there was a certain point Where I wasn't even telling anyone That I was talking to Clinton Yeah Because I was ashamed of it And I knew my friends would like literally Like slice me open if they knew Yeah But not you Yeah no you told me everything You for sure told me everything And I feel like I was still supportive I didn't want you to do it But like

at the end of the day you're still gonna do it no matter what i like that you won't judge me same thing with this last situation ship i just had i'd be like yeah i'm with him again she'd be like oh shit i was i liked him until i didn't like him same so uh felt good about you shout out gracie abrams we love you we do love gracie we talk a lot on the cancel podcast about how bb has like odd jobs that's been a thing since i've met her obviously she's like

You'll do anything for a dollar, which is like very admirable. But like, what the fuck? We're hustling out here. I like the hat. I have to like. Can you talk about some of the jobs that you've had? So I can. During COVID, I learned how to make rugs. She had a rug making business. Yes. It was called Lovesick Gallery. And I was all about it. And she was lovesick, all right. I was sick. I was down. I was.

I was mentally unstable at that point. But yeah, I learned how to make rugs. That was fun. I've done tooth gems. I learned how to tattoo. But it's so funny because like, I don't know where I'll get followed by an account that's like tooth gems by BB. And I'm like, well, there you go. New business unlocked. The way that's actually my tooth gem account. When we were first, like obviously we were like,

Both really broke When we lived here Like first lived here Bebe was living In the living room With Lila That's also another Misconception Because Lila always says Like I was living In the living room With Brooke But that's Brooke Me I lived a few doors down In a bedroom But

We were really broke And I would drive around To BB all day long While she drove for Uber Eats And we would drop We would pick up And drop off All her orders We would go to Glendale In my little Volkswagen Bug We were We were hustling And half the time It didn't work It would just be like Smoking out the front And we were like Wait what is going on One time

One time I was with Lila and we were Uber eating and we were like almost back to our house and my car started smoking and I had it. I had like Burger King in my car. And I was like,

I called triple a and I had to cancel the Uber. Oh, they were probably so distraught. And I messaged him. I go, I'm so sorry. My car broke down. They probably thought I was lying. So I could eat it a hundred percent. But I feel like if you were going to steal someone's Uber eats, you wouldn't choose Burger King. I think I might. BB also worked. I do like Burger King a lot. Honestly, like let's not slander Burger King. Like chicken fries. She also worked as a paralegal. She called herself a paralegal. Paralegal.

That was like something like your mom got you into, right? Yeah, my mom was a paralegal and then she was a office manager at a law firm. So that's kind of how I got that job. And honestly, it was fun. I liked it. It was extra money. And I was driving down Orange County a few times a week to do that. It's so funny to me. And honestly, it's admirable because I don't like transitioning. Like I don't like change. So I don't like to have a new job ever. I want you to have a new job. I want you to be a full time lawyer.

friend of mine i want to talk about some things that are going on online right now okay first up ice spice and her poop fetish poop fetish you know you don't know about it no first of all ice spice is on my shit list right now i'll tell you why obviously we have the whole situation going on with central c and mads if you guys are not up to date mads was in a

He started posting with Ice Spice. They had a song coming out on his verse. He was talking about how he's a serial cheater and he loves cheating on his girlfriend and he loves cheating on her with Ice Spice. Okay? That's insane. And so then he pops out with Ice Spice at Chrome Hearts and it's a whole thing. Whatever. Mads makes her videos about it. She makes four videos or something. All of them have 50 million views. And for the most part, people are very supportive of her the same way they were of me. Very...

On her side Because like no one Likes to get cheated on No one likes to get lied to Yeah it's horrible Okay And I didn't like The situation Because I was not loving The way that everyone Was coming for Ice Spice Because I'm like We don't blame the girl We blame

fucking stench okay yeah until she started posting things that were she's definitely not a girl's that's exactly right so i'm over here like no it's not ice spice's fault like i loved ice spice i was such a fan of hers ironically mad or madeline and i went to her with you oh yeah to see her like that was our number one priority at coachella was to go see ice spice madeline even said it in her blog she was like

the only person we cared about this day is ice spice like we were so like we loved her we left billy eilish's set at the do lab to see ice and i i got my phone stolen i did not care because i was not missing ice spice for shit okay tell me why ice spice posts a video the other day doing three bad bad push-ups by the way not even proper push-ups caption mood when i steal her man's oh

That's embarrassing. It's fucking humiliating. She could have just sat back and everyone would have been like still liked her. Yeah.

But now I'm like, you're weird as fuck. And so now I feel no guilt talking about her poop fetish. So what's the poop fetish? She can't stop talking about it. She mentions poo in every single one of her songs. It's giving John Mayer. It's giving John Mayer. I told that story one time when canceled. I didn't say his name, but now you know. Oh, sorry. Yeah. John Mayer has a poop fetish about he likes. This is what I've heard. I don't really know anyone personally, but.

Apparently he likes when girls shit on him. Yeah, or shit on tables and he'll sit below it. Ew. That's what I heard. I mean, hey, you like what you like, I guess. I think like, do you think like people in those scenarios, they just have sex with so many people that they just like run out of like things they put them on? Yeah, that's like Leonardo DiCaprio has to have sex with headphones on.

Did you know that? I get that, though. Maybe he's listening to the canceled podcast. Number three in the nation. I wouldn't blame him. We just came across a TikTok where... I think I touched on this a little bit in the last episode. Because people were accusing Clinton of fabricating the texts in his receipts. And he fabricated some stuff, but not the texts. Okay? I was unfortunately saying...

those things. Like one of the texts was like, good morning, princess, which I thought was like funny. Like that's like degrading. Like good morning, princess. I can confirm it was real, but I will not allow you to,

To slander me about it Because you unironically Called your ex-boyfriend Pooh Short for Pookie Okay I was ahead of the curve Okay We called each other Pookie Pooh for short It was a whole thing For years I would It'd be one thing If you were just like In the privacy of your own home Talking to him But it was like She'd be like Well I can't Pooh's coming over

like i would say it's so dead ass like embarrassing okay to be fair we started dating when i was 19 okay give me a break if somebody called me poo i would literally kill myself on the spot and i know we don't make suicide jokes he liked it but he ate that shit up that poo up he ate that poo jail i hate him so much keep posing in front of cars seriously thank you to my ex-boyfriend for my dog that's the only thing i have to say speaking of motherhood oh

I got another cat. She got another cat. What's his name? I got another cat. I named him mouse, but I need to explain to everybody how it happened. And maybe you can back me up on this because I did get my cat from a breeder. Okay. Which is like something I've been openly against. Like obviously adopted Murph. And that's what you should do. There are so, there are literally tens of thousands of cats,

If not more That need to be adopted And are not being adopted Because of stupid Fucking backyard breeders Okay And I know that And I've been like I've been so open about that Alright That being said I did accidentally buy A cat from a breeder And let me tell you How it happened We were We were spiraling That day I was spiraling It was after we filmed We sat down to film last time Bebe was here But we filmed It was me, Tana, and Paige Earlier that day I'd had a meeting A meeting at like My new agency And I like

It was an amazing meeting. It was all like really good news, but I, it really overwhelmed me. And I was in like already a phase of being like very overwhelmed. And I was talking to BB about it. Like, like I cannot believe this life is real. And it like really, it just, I just get so emotional over it and I like cannot handle it. And like, can't, I just, I can't ever handle my emotions generally. And every time you cry, I have to cry. That's the night we were crying at cheesecake factory. Yeah. And so maybe me and BB, she's just as emotionally unstable as I am sometimes more. Um,

So she was my girl. We went to the Grove. That's our happy place. That's where you see babies and you see dogs and you go if you're sad. So we went to the Grove. We're walking around and we pass...

Well, I didn't even see him. Yeah. So I saw a cat on the table and it was just sitting there like so perfectly. And I go, oh, my God, Brooke. Because first of all, first of all, I'm not a huge cat girl until I met Murphy. But I obviously know Brooke is. So I was like, oh, my God, Brooke, look. And it was a tiny little baby bangle kitten. So tiny. And I said on Just Trish, I was like, I wish I could get a bangle. But like people online would kill me. And so that was a bad setup for me, like stepping out all of a sudden with the bangle.

Because it looks like I like, it was premeditated. But I swear to God, you guys, it wasn't. I know now that this is like a scheme that they have going on. Like these guys sit with one bangle at a time at the Grove until someone buys it. And then they bring another one and another one. I didn't know that at the time. I was like, oh my God, this is their last bangle. Yeah. I have to add it. I didn't even know this. Yeah. Okay.

That's a thing They say it's the last one I know because Ari was at the grove The next day And he had another one And he had a different one You're kidding Swear to God That's so crazy But didn't you say too Like you're like I would never get a bangle Unless it was literally Just placed in front of me And it was Yeah well I said If it fell into my lap This one didn't fall into my lap I paid a lot of money for it But But it was still at the grove At the same time as us On the same day I was I was going through Such an emotion Like it was just so

like what I was already going through. And like, I saw the cat and for some reason, like the universe convinced me like this is a sign and I know it's wrong, but also where was that cat going to end up? Like someone had to get that cat. Yeah. He doesn't want to go to the Grove every day. No. And I think we were talking about this and it was so calm. We think that the breeder was sedating him to go to the Grove. I hope not. I hope not either, but he was so calm and then we took him home and he's not.

He's not calm. He's a bangle and he's exactly like having a puppy. He literally, I saw him eat an entire In-N-Out burger the other day. He ate all the Kylie Cosmetic crumble cookies. Okay, well, first of all, he didn't eat that. He's trying. I'm not a bad mom. No, he's so cute. And now he's my little baby. And his name is Matt. We have Murphy and Mouse. And they love each other. They're getting along so well. They're finally allowed to be alone together. I love them so much. I love Murphy. Kamala Harris used my sound on TikTok.

And not only my... Like, it's not just a regular sound. Like, Kamala Harris used me shading Clinton Cain, like, literally saying that he needs money for therapy.

In an attempt to shade Donald Trump Like on her actual like Kamala headquarters account I think Donald Trump and Clinton should be friends I think no I don't think Donald would even like Clinton I don't think anyone would like him But honestly I think that's like the final boss You know when you like don't even know what your real revenge plan is Until it happens Like that was mine Like that poor man had to see like literally Vice President Kamala Harris Like future president perhaps He had to have seen it right How

Someone sent it to him. You know what's so funny? He's, you know, he's like, in his series, he was like, six, I've had these friends for six years. Yeah, they messaged me and they were like, this is fucking hilarious. Obviously, Kamala herself is not sitting on TikTok and like making edits of herself. So I like, I can't identify that, but like, it doesn't matter. It's all the same to me. But she has to be seeing it too. That's hilarious. That's, that's an odd job that you should pick up is like being one of those like people who's behind those social media accounts. Cause like, they're like, I'm like,

Chili's hire me Seriously No honest to god Like the Empire State Building For example Has shaded Clinton Like six different times So funny The actual Like real social media Accounts of the Empire State Building Have posted in favor Of me like Five different times And then they Messaged me and said Do you want to come Tell your story At the top That's so funny

Social media is so unserious now. It's just like, it's so good. It is. And like, how do you explain this to your, like, imagine us even right now, like imagine us explaining this to our children. No, to ourselves in 2018. Oh, that too. To like, imagine me explaining this to you living in the living room. With my red curtain. It was a bed sheet. She had a bed sheet that separated her room from Lila's room. The craziest part is that that's when I had a boyfriend and he would come stay and it would just be me, him and Lila. Yeah.

Aw, that's their heart. Honestly, I loved that era. It was really fun. Have you seen the Ballerina Farms? Everything that's going on at Ballerina Farms? I saw something. I have no idea what it is. Like, I'm confused. I don't want to... It's a lot to explain, but a lot of people were asking us to talk about it on Uncanceled. Basically, like, it was this article that was written about this girl. I forget her name, but she...

Is a ballerina Okay And she had been Admitted to Juilliard On a full ride scholarship Which Juilliard is like Extremely hard to get into You get in like It's like a 5% 5 to 8% Admission rate That used to be my dream Yeah me too And I like For a while Like Brooke

Yeah. But I was like, I can't relate to that. I like literally have always loved music. I was a ballerina though. That's so cool. But I wanted to go so bad. Doesn't matter. She gets, she gets admitted and then she meets this guy and basically he like really persists. She

She wasn't interested in it first. And then he like coerced her. His dad owns an airline. Like he's, he comes from a billionaire family, owns an airline. And he like literally strategically planned to be seated next to her on a flight. Um, so that they would like get to know each other. And that was their like first date. And like slowly, but surely like they got to know each other. It doesn't matter. He,

Coerced her is the way that it is portrayed in the article to marry him. Okay. Okay. Doesn't go to Juilliard. Instead moves to a rural farm. Me coded. You going to North Carolina. I would do that.

I think we would do this. It's like why this is like interesting. So she drops all her dreams that she's been working toward her whole entire life and now she's living randomly on a farm doing like a full trad wife. Like does, makes everything from scratch. She's drinking like milk straight out of the udder. She has eight kids. No, Nora Smith is not a real trad wife. She just wears a dress. She's iconic. I love her. I love her so much too, but she's not on the farm. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But I mean like making things from scratch. I don't even know what trad wife means by the way. Oh, okay.

But it's kind of shitty because like the way that the article is written, it's like it's like the writer of the article had an agenda. So it's like they they're no matter what they were going to portray this to be like kind of like an abusive situation because it makes it like the reader feel like she's trapped. The ballerina is trapped and she has no other choice but

And she's Her life has been ruined By this man Who has millions of dollars Or billions of dollars And instead makes her Take care of these Eight kids on a farm By herself I'll trade places with her Because he's a billionaire He doesn't spend any money On her Guess who he got her For her birthday What Guess The people at home Are like she's never Gonna guess Guess

He got her a... All she wanted to do was go to Greece. Oh. The only thing that she wanted to do was go to Greece. She's been talking about it non-fucking-stop. His fucking family owns an airline, Brooke Baldwin. Guess what he got her? I'm scared. An egg apron.

An egg apron? An apron that holds eggs. So she can hold like 12 eggs at once in her apron. I was thinking like, I was imagining like eggs. On the apron. So was I. Yeah. I had to do my research. Like some yellow eggs. Okay. But it's kind of shitty. That's their family. Oh. Aw. Aw.

But this is like a good example of the way that I am a victim, like an extreme victim to like, I don't want to say propaganda. I like, I believe everything that I read online. Okay. And like, I can so easily be swayed either way. Cause like I read that article and I was like, oh my God, this woman is trapped. She's a victim. She, her dreams were crushed and ruined. And now she's like literally tied down to this stupid fucking farm. With eight kids. But then I started watching other videos about it.

And people were like, she chose to do that. No one's holding her captive. Like, I mean, she has eight kids. That's a beautiful life. Like, it's not like this whole negative thing. And like, she didn't know that the writer was like going to make the article seem that way. Like she kind of got got. Yeah. Yeah.

I don't know how I feel about it. Your life could be so much worse than having eight kids on a farm. My question to you is, do you think that that would happen to you? Do you think that a guy could get you to give up your dreams for your whole life just to go to a farm? Because I think if you would have asked me three years ago, I would say yes. But now, no. You don't think so? No, I don't think so. I think I still would. Oh.

I think I still have like farms. No, not even just the farm of it all. It's like, you could tell me like you're taking me to a spaceship and I'd be like, yeah, I love spaceship. I think it depends. I think if it was like a healthy thing, like yes. And like, I wanted like peace and quiet then maybe, but I don't think as of right now as a 25 year old living in Los Angeles, she loves the city. Every time she goes to the city, she'll be so excited. She would vlog and she'd be like, I'm in the city. I'm so happy. Yet again. And then the very next clip would be like,

oh we rented a farmhouse outside the city because like oh that's sad like he doesn't like to be in the city but she does it kind of reminds me of my mom i mean i feel like most people just kind of like settle and that's what i'm scared of like personally i just don't want to like i am too i'm like i'm not exactly like excited about like that's really sad i would much i just saw a clip of like julia fox and um drew barrymore she's talking about like

Drew's like, what if you end up like me, like my age and you're still single? And Julia's like, yeah, and you're happy. She's like, oh, right, I am. - You're so right. - Like most people are like, no, I don't wanna say most, but a lot of people who are married aren't happy. - Yeah, that's facts. - And so it's like, we aspire to that, but I know way more unhappy married people than I know happy married people. And same thing with relationships.

I know way more people who are unhappy in their relationships than I do people who are happy in their relationships. But why is that the number one thing I strive for? That's why I said I said one time that I have the best kind of relationship that you can have, which is a strong, perfect, flawless, amazing female friendship. Quite unfortunate. And she would never leave me for a man again. Now, would she? I would never. I think hands down would never do that again.

I didn't leave you for a man I was like I was down I was down bad okay I like for a man who poses in front of cars okay that's my like one like biggest ick is like a man who poses in front of cars and it's not even your car hey he's happy now it's fine whatever yeah he's happy I'm better off he's better off do you watch Texan City

I have watched a few episodes and I'm gonna tell you that I did not pay attention. Okay, well you need to start it. And I know I said this to you about... Yeah. I do know that. I'm Carrie and like not in like a stylish like way or like good writer way. I'm Carrie in the like I can't shut the fuck up about my own self kind of way. Can't stop talking about myself. Can't stop talking about my problems and my men. That's my... And I notice it about myself. I'm definitely Carrie, I think.

You would love the show though But what I'm I bring it up because They are all like a lot older than us Like even at the start of the show They're a lot older than us And all of them are single And that's like a thing in New York I feel like in New York It's like kind of similar to LA Where everyone settles down a lot later But it's hard Like because you see the people From your hometown and shit And you're like Why do you have four kids already? But also like I see people From my hometown That are married and divorced Already at 25 I'm like I'm good I'll pass Yeah it couldn't be me But also they Like they seem happy though too Because they have like a little

child running around and they're happy whatever but personally could not be me i guess i had one of so i like you know this about me already i have like literally like seven people that i can name on my hands that i've like been obsessed with in life like because i've always i always have to have somebody that i'm like like painfully obsessed with debilitating like to where i cannot function like there's always somebody there's somebody right now there was somebody last you know what i mean like there's always somebody

And one of the, my seventh grade, like, like love of my life. Like it made me so sick. I would like throw up about it. Asked me if he could come to our Arizona show. Oh my God. Is he coming? He's coming. You're coming backstage. You can come. You can come to the meet and greet.

I can't help it. No, I'm the same way. Yeah, you're like psycho like me. No, I'm the same way. I had like this crush in high school that was like actually, like it took over my life and we were family friends and I was just so in love with him and I remember being so excited about like fifth period because I had photography class and he was in band class at the time and I had the power because the band teacher loved me so I would go in there and be like,

Hey, can I borrow da da da? And he'd be like, yeah. And so then me and my little crush would go run around and he used to drive me home from school and I was just like so happy about it. And now, and he didn't want anything to do with me. Okay. Well, I think he had a crush on me, but you know, in high school, like,

He was He just wasn't gonna date me He was dating like Five of my friends At the same time Mood And now He hits me up all the time And is in love with me And literally Doesn't leave me alone So It's very like That's so satisfying Validating and satisfying But I was just like that too Where I'd be like Oh my god I'm gonna see Fucking Christian Broadus On the way to 7th Street That's such a bad example Like But like

I would, I love having a crush. Like it's my fucking favorite thing on the planet. We were talking about this at dinner, but like I like nothing makes me more excited than having a crush. Like literally, I don't care if I'm fucking 27 years old. I want to, I have a crush right now. You know, my crush. Yes. And it's like, it literally, I, that's what I think about like morning, noon and night. And I don't know this man at all.

And I'm just thinking like everything I do, everything I post, everything you guys have seen me post lately is with intent to get this man's attention. Just know that. And it has not worked. She's over here posting on her Snapchat story. Wait, that's a different one. Oh, God.

No, I do have. You know which one's the athlete? Because he's got me posting on fucking Snapchat. Well, my crush had me downloading Snapchat about a month ago. Who is this? Oh, you know. I mean, you don't have to like say say. You know, the one that like broke my heart.

Just yesterday? Yes. Oh, okay. Yeah, no, he had me downloading Snapchat about a month ago and I purposefully Snapchat him every day. I don't Snapchat a single other person. No, I don't even have like...

Like I don't use Snapchat No shade to Snapchat But like Snapchat was like My college thing You know what I mean Like I haven't used Snapchat since then So it's so funny Because I'm like Like why am I Logging into Snapchat Yeah I deleted my Snapchat Four years ago And I'm like I'm that down bad That I'm downloading Snapchat for my crush Like is everyone okay I'm like anything to talk to him But that's my second crush He's second on the Second on the lineup right now Oh But at any point He could be bumped up to first Okay Wait who's the first one Oh Oh oh oh

I don't know why that went over my head. I have a story that I want to tell on Canceled, but I don't think I can tell it on Canceled, but I can tell it on Patreon. I can tell a story really quickly about something horrible that happened to me. Bebe and I went to a role model concert the other night. And after the concert, we got pretty drunk and we went to Mel's Diner. Trigger warning, Mel's Diner. We stayed for an undisclosed amount of time.

It's really unclear and I'm careful not to state that these days. We go to Mel's Diner, we order everything on the menu, it doesn't matter. We're having the time of our lives and I'm fucking blacked out. So I'm just feeling, I'm feeling spunky on Instagram. And I see one of my old crushes, like a guy that I had a crush on probably two years ago, post a story and I'm like feeling funky. So I'm like, you know what? Let me slide up on this story. And something subtle, I said,

I am in love with you. Okay. Which could have been smoother than that, but I chose not to. I said, I am in love with you. Aaron, would you like to know what he responded to me? You're going to die? He said, Brooke, on a rest in peace story.

He was getting a tattoo for a loved one that just died. It was a rest in peace story that I fucking responded to. I literally slid up thirsty as fuck on a rest in peace story. I'm not kidding. I've never been so mortified in my entire life. I was like, there's no fun. I literally shriveled up. I'm never having sex again. I'm literally like no longer even like I have no crushes ever because I'm

how fucking disturbing and disrespectful it was hilarious but to be fair though like it was it was not clear to be like it was literally like love you so much yeah he's getting a tattoo angel hilarious though it's not funny of course it's not funny but like just the fact that that happened to me i was like

I was so mortified. I could not believe it. He ate it up. And that was only one of two horrible things that I did online this week. But the second story, I do think I have to stay for Patreon because it's pretty like... Yeah. It's bad to say it last. They want to know...

The pressing question is your favorite thing about me. Oh, my favorite thing about you. Oh, wait, that was cute. You were ready to answer. Yeah, I have a lot of favorite things about you. I don't really see much wrong with you, if I'm being honest. But I have always loved how emotional you are. And like you cry at the same things I cry about. And like you're just so grateful and just like really genuine. And I like that you also...

Wait, stop. I'll cry right now. Don't cry. No, I don't know. I feel like we just have similar like morals and you're just very cute and happy and sweet. I love you.

That's my favorite thing about you too, I think, because sometimes I feel crazy. And I know if I come to you with something, you're going to just be like, yeah. But also, I like when I come to you and I'm like, am I being crazy? And you're like, yeah, you're being crazy. But I'm like, you would do the same thing. Yeah, but that's how I know. Yeah. I can identify it because I've seen it in myself. But you're just, you're very supportive and don't cry. I won't. You're very supportive and like, yeah.

Like, is this going to be a fan edit of us touching toes? No, you're just really supportive and you're very vocal on like how much you love people around you, which I really love. That is so nice. I don't know. I just love you. I think you're the best. I love you. That's so nice. She's my favorite.

I mean it. Oh, that makes me really happy. Okay. Wait, what about me? My favorite thing about you is you're the best friend ever and you don't ask for anything in return. Like, I feel like you always like go above and beyond and like do things differently.

For me that like I would never even first of all even ask you to do and second of all like just nobody would just like do out of nowhere. Like you know what I need before I need it. And you're like I don't know you're just the best. And like you said so emotional so like I can I can count on you like meeting me there. Yeah. Oh I think it's just mental illness. I don't know. I think it's like but I think it's something different because it's a positive thing. Like I love to be as emotional as I am. I think we also have like some kind of like soul connection though that like

makes us like like when you cry i cry like there's just like no way that you're crying i've never like i've genuinely never felt i always say this but like closer to a person because i like

I don't know. I've just never had a friend that I feel that close to, but I like, it was immediate. Like, you know, do you remember the first time we ever, like, I'm pretty sure literally the second time we ever met, we had a sleepover and just cuddled the whole night. Was that my house? Yeah. Yeah. In your living room. And like, I had a room, like, why were we sleeping in the living room? I don't know. You had the master bedroom. What were we doing? But we were just like already in love. And I just have loved you ever since. Oh, I love you. Let's see what else people want to know. You can ask me that question again.

people want to know what's the status on you and bobby um i love bobby he's cool comment down below if you ship bb and bobby oh god i do i love bobby i love bobby bobby's a cutie and i like his big baggy pants yeah he looks like paul walker he does look like paul walker rest in peace rest in peace what is your craziest hookup story oh god

My craziest hookup story. It's not really like a hookup story because I didn't really hook up with the person, but I one day was, I was hit up by this musician and I was out with this girl who was a really good friend of mine and he wanted to Uber me to his house to hang out. And I had previously hung out with him like a year and a half before this. And so this girl that I was with at the time was hooking up with his childhood best friend. Right. Okay. Okay.

And he was like, I'll call you an Uber. I was like, okay, cool. And you like love this guy. I don't love this guy. Yeah. But like, but you're like excited. Yeah. I was excited about it. Obviously. Like it was cool. Like whatever. But every other bitch is excited. You know what I mean? Yeah. So anyway, so she was like, and I was deep in the Valley at the time. And my friend was with me and she was like, do you care if I come with you in the Uber? Like I'm going to Uber from his house. So it's closer to my house. And I was like, yeah, of course. Like no problem. And so we're getting closer. And she was like,

I have to pee really bad. Like, do you think I can come inside and pee really quick? And then I'll leave. And I was like, like, sure, I guess like kind of weird. Cause I didn't tell him that she was with me. And so she comes inside, we're hanging out. She pees. She doesn't leave. I'm like, okay, like, that's fine. Whatever. We're vibing. Cause we're playing guitar and like singing and stuff.

And then we all go into the room, me, her and him. It's him, me in the middle and her. I fall asleep for about 45 minutes to an hour. And I wake up in a panic because I'm like, oh my God, where am I? By the way, it was like probably seven or eight in the morning. I forget. I wake up, she's gone, he's gone. So I'm like, where am I? I get up, I run into him in the hallway and he goes, oh, she left. Like, let's go lay down. I was like, okay, cool. So him and I go lay down.

and he starts kissing me and i'm like okay i'm confused like because originally i thought that's kind of what the vibe was and then it like wasn't that vibe and then it was anyway and then he gets up randomly and was like i don't feel good i'm gonna lay in the other room whatever and i was like okay and so i go check on him he's sleeping and i'm like what the fuck so i'm like i'm gonna uber my ass i'll like see you later okay and i tried to wake him up and i was like concerned honestly it was like is he breathing i'm like checking his pulse

And I'm texting her and I'm like, I can't get an Uber to save my life. I'm like up in the hills somewhere. And she's like, oh, I'll come pick you up. Long story short, two weeks later, I find out she comes over and she tells me, hey, I've been meaning to tell you this for a while. I felt so guilty. No, I fucked him.

She fucked him while I was asleep in the bed. And then he proceeded to invite you into bed. Yes. Hook up with you. Made out with me. Thank God I didn't hook up with him. Like I just made out with him. That's it. Didn't go any further than that. That is the biggest blessing. Death.

But also so disgusting. You just literally fucked a girl in the same house that I was in. First off, you invited me here. You didn't invite her here. Yeah, what the fuck? So, but the whole time she obviously was trying to weasel her way in. And by the way, literally two weeks before this. Talk your shit, BB. Talk my shit. Two weeks before this, we were at his fucking show at the Greek Theater in

While she's hooking up with his childhood best friend, his childhood best friend brought us to the Greek theater to see him. Oh, she hit the whole team. And so, but I think that was her plan all along.

Like genuinely. Like she was doing that to get to him. Yeah. Thousand percent. Ew. What a. Ew. I hate that so much. So weird. So crazy. Honestly, it broke my heart though. Cause like I would, I consider her to be one of my like closest friends and I didn't think that her out of like anyone would do that to me. That's so fucking terrifying though. Like,

I can't imagine like if I knew you were into somebody and like even if the guy was like making any like or maybe he was like interested in me or whatever I would just shut it down immediately you know what I mean like yeah and that's happened to me before remember I was like I was hanging out with um you know this story but I had a friend for a while like she was like a close friend of mine but like it would happen often where like I would bring her around guys that I liked or like I was talking about or whatever and like they would take interest in her because she was like perfect and gorgeous and beautiful and

And she would like feed into it so hard. And I'd be like, wait. It's like, why are you, why are you entertaining it that much? It's crazy. I remember one time I like, I went to go meet up with a guy and I brought her with me. And she was like, oh my God, you guys would be so cute. Like, this is everything. Like, I'll come with you. I'll ease it up. Like, I'll make it less pressure, whatever. Comes with me. He's sitting on his lap. Like, no, it has to be like an insecurity thing. She started fully dating him after that. Yeah, that's crazy. I was like, I mean, oh.

I give her the credit of like her coming to me and like telling me the truth and like... No, but that's too late. She picked you up that night? She picked me up. She fucked him and then left and went on a hike, then came back, picked me up, and then let me talk about it for literally two weeks. That's what gives me like... I hate that. You're gonna let me talk about this guy and like...

Oh my god That's also like It just goes with like Anything Anyone who knows something That you don't It's so embarrassing It's like If people know you're getting Cheated on or something And you're like Yeah and you're like Posting the person Like I'm just so grateful I didn't hook up with him And I Not only did I feel Like It had nothing to do with the guy First of all I can name five people That he's given chlamydia Me too So we're gonna say We're gonna go ahead and say Me too

I dodged a bullet. You did. He's a nice person. And we are going to see him this weekend. Yeah. We're going to see him this weekend at two separate festivals. Oh, me and Bebe are going to Canada this weekend. Yeah, I'm so excited. I've never left the country. We're going to Montreal. Wait, how do you say Montreal? Montreal. Montreal. Montreal. Montreal. I don't know. I said it in my video and everyone was like, wrong. Montreal. Montreal.

Montreal? I don't know. Montreal. But we're going to Chicago. We're going to Lollapalooza. We're going to Lollapalooza for one day and then we're going to Oceaga Festival in Montreal for three days. So we're really excited. It's going to be good. The lineups are like pretty similar. I'm so excited. We're going to see Rene Rupp and Chapel Roan. Chapel Roan. You don't like Chapel Roan. Like I like Chapel Roan. I do. Knee deep.

In the passenger seat And you're eating me out Is it casual? It's never casual That is my favorite song And I showed it to this man Who was ruining my life recently And now I know He's probably showing it To some other bitch You know what's really funny? So my current situationship That's happening That's like literally Ruining my life I don't know

I called my ex-situationship The one prior to this The one who lives in a garage The one that lives in a shack Of course We love him though Honestly She didn't tell me Until a year in That this man lived In his garage Not that It's like no shade Living in your garage But I feel like That's something You tell your friend He's saving so much money Yeah I mean No and he shares it He shares the garage Oh

it's like there's no shame in that but it's just something i would have liked to know from the beginning he's so funny though like i just love him like i just love him as a person so like whatever but i'm over here calling my ex-situationship about my new situationship being like what the fuck is like what is going on well that's honestly like a really smart idea because it's like if anyone knows what's going through his head it's him yeah and he told me because he lived anything to do with me oh that brings me to a subject he doesn't know anything

No, I literally go, you're delusional. I'm like, I think I'm the delusional one. But that brings me to my next topic. Topic.

the almost girlfriend and i'm the queen of the almost girlfriend i am too i think i fear we um we stand on that throne together we're good luck charms for our guys it's called yeah what is what do they call it good luck chuck when you're like the person somebody dates before they end up in a like committed relationship that's what happens to me every time too every single time without fail i am always the girl right before a guy gets into a relationship and it's always like

I'm just not ready. I like, I don't want a girlfriend right now. Yes, you do. You just don't want me. Yeah. That's what just happened to me. Are you kidding? I go 11 months. I'm not ready for a relationship. And the second he's ready, he's got someone else lined up. Yeah. A thousand percent. I mean, I was talking to ex-situationship and he was telling me about this girl, how he's so heartbroken over and she's fucking with him and like seeing other people and like sleeping with other people. And he knows about it. And I look her up and she's the complete opposite of me. She's literally like clean girl, blonde.

like you're hot thank you no but it's just that's not the point she's still hot but like

it's just the point is is exact opposite of like was i not i i guess that helps though like i it's so much better in my opinion for like to see a guy end up with somebody who's no one nothing like you then some like end up with somebody who's just like me and like and then it's like why was it not me then exactly no yeah i would i would rather it be someone so complete opposite from me because it makes yeah like i want the bitch to be doing sound baths yeah like you know what i mean i want like going on hikes you know what i mean like hey i hike

I hike. You go to Alo. I hike. I literally wrangled a snake yesterday right off the street. That was crazy. Was it a garden snake? No, he was a bull snake. Call Rob. Hey, Rob. If I see a guy, that's happened to me a few times where like a guy will end up with somebody who literally is like just like me or does the same thing in the same field. And like, I'll be like, wait, okay, then it must be me. My personality just sucks. I don't think your personality sucks. I think what it is, because I also have that doubt about myself, but then I'm also like,

I low-key am that bitch. Like, you know what I mean? Like you, it's not low-key. It's not low-key at all. I am that bitch. But I think it honestly has to do with like men not being able to handle like a big personality and like them being insecure and like weird. I know, but then it's like our,

Are we one of those people Who are like They just We're just too much for them We're way too funny And smart for them I'm gonna choose to believe That that is that I know but Am I living my life in delusion Like we Don't answer that Okay yes Literally don't answer that We are but honestly I'd rather be delusional Than have my feelings hurt All the time Yeah that's true I don't like to feel insecure And I honestly don't feel insecure That's the thing like I have transitioned into like If a guy doesn't want me I think it's a him problem I think he has bad taste It's a Yeah for sure Has bad taste I think it's a him problem I think There's nothing wrong with us

At all. We're perfect. Literally at all. But I don't know. Yeah. I'm always almost girlfriend. I'm used to it at this point. Or it's like I'm in a situation. No, but do you ever... How many... Okay. Look at...

that guy for example that we were just talking about you're not your last earth situationship but the one before it you look at him and you're like god thank jesus lord that i did not end up with him i look at every single guy i've ever talked about on this podcast and i think that same thing like what was i thinking like i would never want to end up with that guy yeah so i feel the same way about the guy that i just ended things with i know that like in fucking six weeks you're gonna be like i'm gonna be like

Hopefully less than six weeks Honestly I'm gonna be What a loser I made a TikTok about this Like a couple weeks ago About how Grateful I am That every guy That I ever wanted to date Didn't want to date me Like I'm so grateful for it Yeah cause god forbid You waste two years Of your life on some dude Who like fucking is Like you're not gonna marry him No And I have I always Like all these guys Have been guys with qualities That I would never

never ever accept in a husband so it's like why would I waste why would you like you see the you know the TikTok trend right now it's like when you see him doing this and it's like you immediately know that's not your husband like your husband would never do that my husband would never make me like yeah yeah your husband would never make you like sweat about like

I don't know, being somewhere he's not supposed to be. Like, I don't know. Some stupid shit. Some shit your earwax would do? Some shit Pooh would do? Something Pooh would do. While he's posing in front of some crowd of zombies. How's Pooh? Is he good? Pooh, sound off in the comments. He has a new girlfriend. He's happy. Well, I don't know. I'm sorry this wasn't our traditional format of episode, you guys. Tana and I are working together to do it right. And sometimes it just doesn't work out. But...

She'll be back in the stew Pretty soon And we'll have a Tana B.B. Brooke episode And Paige And Paige I think the four of us Would be a fun group I know Paige wanted the week off We wanted to have Paige on with us And she's She's taking a breather Yeah Cause she's She's sitting this one out Yeah She's been doing a lot of Canceled She went to Barney's Beanery last night Did you know that? Where you belong I was jealous

I love it. I lived at Barney's Beanery. That was like my second home. We know. That's what BB stands for. Well, we love you guys. Love you. Thank you so much for listening. We miss you. See you next week. Bye.