54: THIS FIGHT ALMOST ENDED OUR FRIENDSHIP - Ep. 54
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Hello, and welcome back to the Cancelled Podcast. I'm like, a mouse! Ha ha!

We are so excited to be back. I feel like just the two of us. We haven't sat on this couch in a minute. We've been stacking episodes because of tour. But today we are back in it and ready to go. Yeah. We leave again in what? Two days? In two days. Dude, the tour life is getting crazy. Like I don't even, I come here. You know what's funny about it is it's like it really isn't like a tour. It like technically is because we're going like a lot of different places. Yeah. But it's like we come home.

We come home. But I've just been like not coming home. Oh yeah, that's true. You stayed... You went to New York. Yeah, I went to New York for like nine days. I want to talk to you about the fact that I literally think we need to move there. I would love to move there. I would love for you to move there. So then it's like, oh, I have to move to New York. It's work. And we have a studio. We know we could film that. I feel like it would be really good. Although now is not the time of year to move to New York. I know it's going to get cold and maybe I won't feel that way. But I've just like...

I'm so finally, I think, over L.A. Yeah, we had a long talk about this last night, actually. We really did. It happens to everybody. Like, you were saying you expected it to be kind of like a gradual shift. And really, it's just like you wake up one day and you're like, holy s***. Exactly. Like, I really thought it would, like, over time, I would get slowly over it. And I just woke up one day and I was like, oh, my God, f*** this place. And I think...

even the way that we've been touring in all these normal cities like just really opens your eyes to like nowhere else in the world is like this place at all and like it's funny because if you watch any place or any like movie or show that like shows la it's always like it seems like a parody vibe but it's like no that's really like what it's like here yeah we even were talking about that on the last episode a little bit or two episodes ago by the time this comes out like

with like a fake LA person and how people like are here. You know what I mean? Yeah. It's just like, I never want to see another influencer again. I never want to go to a TikTok party and have TikTok beef. Like I swear to God, I woke up one day and I was like, I'm 30. Like that's how I feel. You're not 30 and you're well, like a ways away from 30, but I understand what you're saying where it's like, I do the same thing. Like people would be like, do we want to go to like this birthday party tonight? And I'm like, I can't go there. Like I am 26. Exactly.

I've been here for 10 years It hasn't felt like that Until as of recently Like I'm just like Oh I live in LA Like whatever But like It helps that you're sober So you can see it For what it really is Versus like feeling like It's fun when it's not Yeah and I just feel like I woke up one day Like even just within The sobriety And I was like I need like a change of pace Like I feel like I've hit my like

ceiling here. Like I've done everything I need to do. It could also mean that you just like need some time away. Like maybe it's like, it's not that you're done with it forever, but like maybe you need a second to like try something else out. I say we go to Nashville for like three months. Nashville would be such a slay. I think the issue about the other cities that aren't New York, I'm really sold on New York is like, there's just like not enough work there. Like I would just be in Nashville, like fucking like husking corn and,

Like, type shit, you know? Well, like, I mean, if you think about it, like, what...

Like we just We could do this in Nashville We could do this in Nashville We could post a photo in Nashville We could post a YouTube video in Nashville Like really there's lots of work That's true But like just New York There's so many other I would love to go to New York I think that would be amazing God we should have done that Like right now So that we could be there For like two months And then come back in time For it to get like frigid Maybe we go right now I have to bring Murph Tana and Murph Really bonded last night Tana was like a little cat mom Last night You were so happy To see me and your cat Become like friends I'm really afraid of cats She's not scary She doesn't attack

I know, but did you... Could you even notice that if she, like, put her paw up, I would, like, jump? Yeah, I'm like that with other cats, too, because you don't know what another cat's going to do. But I know that she would never, like, bite or do anything crazy. Yeah, I've just been attacked by so many cats. I don't think cats... Because cats are, like... Well, cats can sense if you're scared, too. So then it, like, makes them, like, crazy. I guess that's true. And I feel like cats are mischievous and I'm mischievous. So cats are, like, no, fuck that. Like, I'm... I can... Like, I'm the only mischievous person. Oh, you think that's what it is? I...

Is that what it is? I just think I'm a dog person, but I was bonding with your cat. I haven't seen you really since we were on tour because I went to New York and we'll get into all of that in a little bit. But I got back yesterday. It was the first time I've seen you since our literal...

Biggest fight we've ever had. It's like actually really crazy. And I guess they'll like probably see it whenever like the tour footage comes out. So the thing is, is we're shooting a tour documentary right now. So not only did we have our biggest possible fight ever, but it was on camera.

And that's a little crazy Honestly I'm like ashamed Of how this went down Me too It was like really Like a little Like it's embarrassing It's We're really Think like screaming Slamming Running Crying Like whole night It was like Oh my god Like we both need to be Like think everybody At the House of Blues Like turning around And being like What the fuck is going on in there

Yeah, like we had a WWE Smackdown proper in a green room at the House of Blues in Cleveland. I will say, I think it solved... Like, I think it did what it needed to do. We always do this, dude. And that's how I know that we're insane. First of all, we get in this... I just... Words can't express how big of a fight this truly was. And an hour later, you come to my hotel room and you're like, look at this TikTok. And everyone was like... You'll see. It's like too much to really explain. But like...

The like catalyst of all of this was like some comments that he made about Tana's jorts that she was wearing. The fight was a real fight about real. And it was not about jorts at all. But like I kept throwing little jorts jabs in there. Like we were like, you know, we just got into it about some discrepancies of touring and

People don't realize how hard it is to tour together as well. It is. Like with anyone. It's literally like a relationship. Like you and I have to both have our standpoints on how we want to travel and how we want to do the show and how we want to do everything and kind of hit a 50-50 compromise in order to make everything work. And obviously there are bumps in the road with that and we're learning how to navigate those so we can tour forever. So yeah, we were fighting about some like real shit. I was using the jorts to like get my anger out about like something else. Yeah.

You know what I mean? Like I was using the joy, like they were disguised as jort comments, but really I was just fucking furious at you. This all just sounds so fucking stupid. We're like, we're so grown and then it's like grow up like hearing this, but we always try to kind of coordinate our outfits. Yeah.

For shows. And just so it's like, you know, because we can have really different styles sometimes. She'll come down in like a fucking floor length gown and I'll be wearing like a tank top and jeans. And I'm like, you couldn't have told me. Exactly. So we had a show where I was giving like Nessa Barrett core, like for love and lemons dress, like big leather boots. And you were like in jeans and like a corset or something. So I was like, hmm, maybe we like talk about it next time. And so...

I had shown you my jorts a couple cities. I can't even say the word. Like I never, I'm never on Jorts again. I'm never saying the word jorts again. But I'd shown you my jorts a couple cities prior and you were like, oh my God, like I have jorts too. We could match. And I call you from my hotel room and I didn't know she was mad at me for like something else. So I call, I FaceTime you and I'm like, should I wear my jorts? You're like, I don't give a fuck about your jorts. I'm going to drag you by your jorts downstairs. And then that was jorts comment one.

And then I shit you not, for the rest of the day, I think you made 45 comments about my jorts. Okay, but like, here's the thing. I didn't think it was like, I thought they were like lighthearted, but since you, like you were already kind of mad at me, I feel like you took them as like, okay, this is like, she's weaponizing the jorts. And...

And in my head, I was like, okay, this is like a lighthearted way to like, like fizzle out like the other aspect of this fight. Like, I swear to God, we'd be at the meet and greet and someone would be like, every time anyone said anything to me, you'd be like, and she's in her jorts. But when it finally, when it finally like, like came to like be an actual fight, Tana's like, and you can't shut the fuck up about the jorts. I'm like, I haven't said shit about the jorts. I'm like, I haven't said anything about those jorts. And then I go in my TikTok drafts.

And I had been making Like a day in the life TikTok When I tell you Every single clip I reference the Jorts In some way And this is just In the TikTok Like at a certain point You stopped calling me By my name You started just calling me Like Jorts is over there Jorts McGee Like Jorts McGee I changed your name On my phone to Jorts McGee And I don't

I've ever ever ever been the type of person to get mad over some shit like that because we always talk about that like we have certain we always make fun of each other like lip flip haha yeah we love to make fun of each other and we always talk about in our friend group and I wear jords we'll have a little bit you know what I mean like at someone and then they get so mad about it so it's like funnier to just keep fucking with them yeah so I'm I'm very much the type where it's like fuck with me I'm never gonna get mad and that was the first time I felt like Lila like I feel like Lila's the type yeah like how she's so sensitive over like like stuff that's

Totally a joke And I literally was like If you bring up My fucking jorts One more I can And I can never wear them again Like you actually Changed my outlook I love the jorts It was never about the jorts But I just I'm like you guys Just stay tuned And you'll understand Yeah you will see In the doc What our actual fight Was about But we had a heart to heart Yesterday And We worked out The little Kinks in the jorts Yeah

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It's just Yeah I can actually Never wear them again But we did like We just We had jorts gate And then we just Flew home And didn't fucking speak At all Because I was going To New York And you were going to LA We went to New York For nine days And then I guess We just pretended It didn't happen But like yeah Last time we saw each other We had like actually The biggest blowout fight We've ever had I think it was You and I are both The type of people Who work so much better If we have time To cool off though So I think it's almost good That we had that like space I have like some Emotional dysregulation That happens So I need a little time To like start to think It

Like, is it logical or am I screaming over jorts? Yeah, exactly. I get that. Same. I just needed to like calm down and then we like talked it out. But it's so funny, you guys. I need to get this off my chest, okay? Oh, no. I just want to walk around.

And I'm happy for you, okay? I just want to say that before I even get into this. I'm so happy for you, but I just want to walk you even and the people through the feeling that I felt, okay? Okay. I get to New York right after George's Gate. Next morning, like, we fight crazy. She comes in my room and we have that little, like, look at this TikTok moment, which was just insane. Like, truly, like, both of us just, like, be mad longer. Like, you two look insane. Yeah. And then...

I fly out of Ohio to New York, you fly home. And so I get to New York and I'm getting ready. You know, I'm not really like thinking about our fight too much, but it's there. It's in my head, you know, and we're both mad at each other still, you know, and frustrated and upset. You text me and you're like, guess what just happened to me?

And I'm like, oh, what, Brooke? I met Adam Sandler is the text I get from her. And imagine you are so fucking mad at someone. And then like you went home and you met Adam Sandler. Like I will say like my dick literally got hard at the thought of like me meeting Adam Sandler when I was already mad at you. I can't imagine. I'm sure it was amazing. I swear to God, Brooke, I was speechless.

Like and you know This bitch has never Can I tell you something crazy Yeah Is at first I lied At first like I genuinely Was lying Like

I was at the Jonas Brothers concert and I saw Adam Sandler's two daughters. And so I was like, oh my God, what if Adam Sandler were here? So before I even saw Adam himself, I texted you and I said, Adam Sandler is here. And I was lying. I was literally lying. You fucking evil bitch. I was lying because I'm like, Tana is going to die. Die. And then I go to get a drink or something and I saw Adam and I literally was sick. I took probably 60 videos of him. I...

am never speechless and I swear to God I didn't talk for two and a half hours like it got to the point where like Paige and Jeff and like people around me were like can you put into words how you feel like you know do you want to talk about like how do you feel and I was just like obviously like if I can leave the current moment I'm happy for you I love Adam Sandler like you know what I mean hopefully my time will come but just like the

48 hours being like our biggest absolute fight ever and now like you're meeting our idol without me and you're like texting me about it i'm like i wasn't even mad i was just like shocked at the state of events like the timeline was just crazy and you know what adam was wearing jorts no honestly saying i even met him is kind of pushing it i honestly i i said hi adam he said hi that was it

I would stop talking To like people I'm like Very close with To experience that And that's Paige was trying to Like help me out You know being like It's not like they're having Like a full blown conversation Like she's just in the room With him She's just saying hi And I'm like I was just like Paige you don't understand Like that is my dream I was so distracted By it Could you smell him? After that I could barely No I couldn't smell him He was like He was still like Like probably two arms Length away Like I didn't like

I didn't like get to like really encounter him but it was just everything because first of all the Jonas Brothers concert in itself like that was such a like like inner child like healing thing I told this story on TikTok but like when I was fucking 11 years old this dumb Reina in my class she told me she had Jonas Brothers tickets she said she had an extra one so I went home I I sobbed I was so excited I got completely ready I fucking shaved my legs everything you do when you're 11 years old and a Jonas Brothers concert is about to happen yeah

And she never fucking picked me up. Okay? She just ghosted you? Raina never came. So... Were you still friends with her after? No. I was traumatized. I was literally sick. That's like horrible behavior. Where does she work? I don't... You're so bad. Like Cynthia. Um...

No, I don't know what happened to Raina. And honestly, like, I forgave her in the years following. But it was, like, really traumatizing. And it's, like, a candidate. So I was, like, oh, my God, I can't believe, like, Live Nation invited me. I got to, like, go to the Jonas Brothers and this experience. And then on top of that, which was already a high, Adam fucking Sandler's there. It's the best night of your life. Yeah, I had to tell you about it, honestly. Well, absolutely. I was going to. And I have high hopes that one day we're going to, like, really get to meet him and actually talk to him and stuff. I want it so badly. I want to, like...

God, I just... I wish, like, his daughters or something were, like, more accessible where we could, like... Like, this is gonna sound so fucking, like, stuck up and insane of me to say, and I don't mean it like that, but just, like, in my entire life, I have never wanted someone in the age bracket of his daughters to be a cancelled fan more. Yeah, and I can't imagine that, like, anyone's raised them to be a cancelled fan. At all. Like, they're doing perfectly fine. You know, they're listening to some shit. Like, they are far...

Not that there's anything wrong with being a cancelled fan But I don't think that that's the journey that they're on I wish it was But you know who was a cancelled fan? The two girls who were manning the little VIP section That Adam Sandler was in Super fans So did they let you Twins Is that how that happened? They let you in? Yeah and then Frankie was in there And I took a picture with Adam I'll have Oscar insert the photo But I took a picture like me pointing at Adam

And then I looked back on him later and Frankie's photobombing every photo. Please stop. That's everything. I love Frankie Jonas. He's so fucking sweet. He has Tana tattooed on his leg. Which I forget about all the time. If I actually like tally up the amount of people who have my name tattooed that I know, it's like a decent amount. And I just forget. Did he tell you he was doing that or he told you after? No, it was Christmas Eve. Do you think what kind of bet was that that he had to have lost? He posted something where he was like tattooing.

I tattooed something like snow, no offense, stupid on him. And I commented like my name next or something like something like that. I don't really remember. And I woke up on Christmas Eve. I was in Breckenridge, Colorado, and I was like in my little pajamas and it was snowing outside. And I saw that TikTok and I like lost my mind. That's so crazy. Yeah, I was like I was freaking out a little too hard. I think it was a little. I do wish you came to the Jonas Brothers. That was really something else.

I went to Beyonce, I think the day before you went. You got to go to Beyonce and you got to see the real show, which was Kylie Jenner and Timothee Chalamet. I never get some tea like this in real time. Absolutely ever. So...

So concerts have kind of... We've been going to a lot of concerts lately and it's been like... Just like by luck, like random people have just been inviting us to shit, but it's been helping me so much with my sobriety because it's like concerts are such a good serotonin. Yeah. Like actual fun, like sober or not, you know? So I've been trying to just go to all the ones I get invited to. And...

I get an email that's like, Boohoo wants to invite you to Beyonce. Like, I've never worked with Boohoo. So I'm like, what the fuck? Like... Huge slay. I swear to God, I think Tarte really did something for my, like, brand safeness a little bit. Like, I don't know what they did. That concealer is taking me fucking home, you know? Like, just more brands that I would usually never work with have been reaching out since Tarte. So I was like, Boohoo wants to take me to Beyonce. And I'm like, fuck yes, let's do it. And so...

They're nice enough to give me a plus one. And I was originally going to take Hunter. And then I go to the Boohoo showroom with Ari. And we're like, I'm picking out the Boohoo clothes to wear that night. And we overhear one of the Boohoo people reading the guest list of people who are going with Boohoo to Beyonce. And they're reading it off. And it is dead ass me, my plus one.

Deara and Ken Which are like a family channel The Boohoo staff And the city girls The motherfucking city girls That's it So it's essentially me One other like influencer And her man Boohoo staff

And the city girls Yeah so Whoever made that lineup Was like off of Perk 30 Yeah it was so funny I love when like Lucky accidents happen Like so Not that it was an accident And so Ari's there And he starts crying He loves the city girls So much Ari's like a city girl Super fan It would have been so wrong To not take him Yeah so I was like And honest to God Hunter in that environment Just sounds like the

worst thing ever yeah hunter is not a city girl so i was like ari let me make a wish you real quick i'm gonna take you with me let's go and it's so fun because like all the boohoo employees are kind of talking about like when they're gonna get there who's riding in what car like if jt and karisha are gonna ride together or not or if they're taking separate cars and all this shit happened ari's just eating it up you know what i mean because it's like just seeing like idols like move in real life fuck you for meeting adam sandler

It's like crazy. And we get there. So a suite at a concert is like relatively small. So it's like just us and the city girls and the boohoo people and like whatever. We're all like together. And I didn't really say any words to the city girls. I think I offered them like one of my chairs and they were like, yeah, I want that chair. And I was like, take it.

Take the chair. Like have the chair. But I realize that where our suite is, is directly in front of like where Beyonce's guest list enters to like,

see Beyonce. You know what I mean? Like the people. So like when, like how, when we went to Zach, Brian, like there's the area that's like literally in the middle of the crowd that like, if you're on that artist guest list, like you watch it from like there, you know? And I realized that our suite is directly next to that. And I realized that because I see Justin Bieber and Haley like entering and walking up and I'm like, Oh my God. And you know, I'm just the believer in these gag. Yes. They just celebrated five years. Congratulations. Sincerely.

And I realize that we now have this front row seat to just see all of the celebrities like going. And that's like the best too. Cause it's like, what you can't, how are you going to get in if you don't pass me? Exactly. So I'm just sitting there like watching and I see Zendaya and Tom Holland. She's like towering over him. It's so changed my whole perspective on he's like on her back. Like it changed my whole perspective on like,

Short king of it all. I would be with the short king. I don't even care. Like, I think that, like, maybe after seeing that, I'm kind of okay with that. You know what I mean? Like, just... It's kind of sweet. And then I noticed that there's, like, 15 bodyguards, like, surrounding, like, three people. And I'm like, what the fuck is going on? Who is it? And I'm, like, freaking out. And it's literally, like...

10 fucking inches from me and i look up and in between all of the bodyguards is kendall jenner holding hands with kylie jenner and timothy just walking with them and i'm like oh my god i'm literally getting a front row seat to their like debut right fully fully yeah because that was the first time that like wimbledon or whatever not wimbledon the u.s open hadn't happened yet so this was like their debut as a couple so i'm gagged boots i literally thought timothy was like a videographer though

I'm not even gonna lie Like it I Yeah cause if you see Kylie in front of you I don't think you can even Really see anything else And he was just in like All black in like a hat Like he kind of blended in With the security And then I was like Oh my god That's literally Timothee Chalamet So fucking hot And what was funny Is this whole That whole group Was like moving Like secret service Like up to the fucking Beyonce guest list And then trailing behind them Like three minutes later Is just a lone Travis Scott Oh my god

Alone Travis Scott I was like there's no Poor Travis He's better than I Like I could never like I wouldn't come within one billion miles Of my ex And especially if my ex had a new sexy Sexy sexy sexy part

I think Travis is so sexy too They're just sexy in different ways And obviously the co-parenting of it all Probably changes people's perspectives On being able to be around you Do you think that they co-parent though? I can't picture Travis picking Stormi up I don't know I don't know either I won't let my moderate to severe plaque psoriasis symptoms define me

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Before treatment, your doctor should check you for infections and tuberculosis. Tell your doctor if you have an infection or symptoms of infection including fever, sweats, chills, muscle aches, or cough. Tell your doctor if you had a vaccine or plan to. Emerge as you. Learn more about Tremfaya, including important safety information, at Tremfaya.com or call 1-877-578-3527. See our ad in Food & Wine magazine. For patients prescribed Tremfaya, cost support may be available. Tremfaya.

But Travis comes over to talk to the city girls. So I'm like watching him talk to them and I'm like trying to get the tea and like whatever and like listen. And it was just, yeah, I don't want to like.

I'm walking a thin line right now. Like, I get scared when I actually feel like I'm exposing some real celebrity tea and, like, they're gonna walk up to me. Yeah, I think it's better sometimes to stick to what, like, the public already kind of knows. Yeah, but I... Because otherwise people are gonna be scared of us forever. I spent the entire concert watching Beyoncé through Kylie and Timothy's eyes and it was just great. I love that. I remember...

I saw a concert one time that Kris Jenner was watching too And I was trying to experience it as Kris Jenner Exactly like when we went to Billie Eilish And Justin Bieber was there I literally don't think I looked at Billie one time I just watched At all and they were all cuddled up I love how much people would talk about How Justin hates Hailey Did you see what he posted for their 5 year His caption like how sweet it was And like the words he chose I think they're perfectly fine And the world just has so much to say Do you think they just laugh about it

I wonder. She's so much better than me. Someone says like the most minor thing about me ever. Like, and I'm like,

Yeah, like I'd be like actually like questioning my man. Me too. I'd be like, why don't you look at me like that? Yeah, that's fair. I moved into a new apartment. Finally have windows. Finally have light. Murphy can see outside. And that canceled revenue is a banging. I went to your apartment yesterday and my job was on the literal fucking floor. It's so nice. It's a very nice apartment. I'm very excited about it. I feel so happy there. But I did have like a funny realization the other day as I'm driving through the parking garage and I almost get hit with a bright orange Lamborghini.

And only one motherfucker has a bright orange Lamborghini. Just like the funniest person to accidentally live in my building ever.

Harry Jowsey Harry Jowsey is your neighbor What do you think is going to come of that? Probably nothing Imagine I'm like come downstairs That would be such a slay Living in an apartment building With people that I could Oh my god Yeah that was like Honestly brings me back to the dorms Like oh that used to be so fun Being like okay yeah I'll be up in 20 Yeah that's a slay It was so fun I keep saying to Tana Like I wish everybody could move All into my building And then we could all just live there And have our different places I think after this house I am going to become an apartment girly

Like just because the security outside and the stalker of all... Just to have to pay for your own security versus just like that coming with the apartment is crazy. Yeah, like it's just... It would save me a lot of money and stress and just living in fear 24-7. I feel so safe. I can watch anything I want on Netflix now without having to think about like, is someone going to murder me? That's so true. My last apartment... Actually, I never told this story on Canceled because I was scared. But I got literally attacked in the elevator at my last apartment by like this...

stupid fucking idiot steroid fucking stupid guy what happened you know you don't know this story he he's like something's definitely like a little off i remember when this happened but i don't remember the story i would always see him like following me like if i got out like to check the mail or something like i would see him like linger and wait around for me to get in the elevator like he would like not go up to his apartment so he would always like hang around and be watching me so it's already like kind of weird um

And then one day he like pulled into the garage and I pulled in behind him because it was open, obviously, because he had just pulled in and he stopped and he's like waving out the window, like looking at me funny. And I'm like,

What the fuck? Like, so it's just weirded out. And I went, I was parked all the way on the bottom floor of my old apartment. And so I waited in my car for like 15 minutes because I just had a weird feeling. And I was like, I just don't like want to encounter him in the elevator at all. So I waited until I knew he would have been in his apartment. He was on P2. I was on P4. I was all the way on the bottom. There's no reason we should run into each other in the elevator. Yeah. The elevator opens and he's in it. And so he like waited in the elevator. Yeah. He waited for,

15 minutes I sat in my car So he just went Up and down And up and down Until I finally called it Down to P4 Immediately I just went crazy I was like Why the fuck Are you in the elevator Like I just waited 20 minutes To avoid you Cause like I was scared I was like Why did you wait for me I said that I was like Why did you wait for me He starts freaking out Saying you don't Fucking live here I'm like

This is my garage opener. That's my car. That's my parking spot. This is my apartment. Like, what do you mean I don't live here? Good for you for like... Because I always say that like when guys are staring at me or guys make me uncomfortable, it's so hard and scary to like stare back or confront them back. But like, it's what you do. No, I had to. I'm in the elevator. So then I tell him too. I'm like, don't pretend you don't know I live here because I've seen you following me. I saw you do this. I saw you do this. I've seen you a hundred times being a fucking creep. Which is a terrifying encounter just alone in an elevator. Yeah. So then I immediately I call like...

My building manager In the building I lived in Was like not secure At all Like there's one girl Who works there And I'm not kidding She's had so many Family emergencies That I can't imagine She has any family members left Oh my god Like she has never Ever I could literally tell her Like someone just smashed All four of my windows in And held me at gunpoint And she'd be like Okay well I'll see what I can do About it later Like

It was so bad So I told her about it And she was like Okay I'll have a talk with him I go what do you mean You're gonna have a talk with him He just fucking screamed at me Scared the shit out of me I went into the lobby Because I didn't want him To know what floor I lived on And he followed me Out into the lobby He's like wait Like he just was like Freaking out I would have called the police That's terrible Yeah no so she was like I'll have a talk with him I go what do you mean Have a talk with him

So then another... Well, it's crazy because LA police, I always talk about this and I'll get into this in a second because I have a whole tangent, but they just don't care. At all. Unless like somebody literally shot you, like they're not coming. Yeah. Another girl in my apartment complex has another, has an encounter with him like that, but he literally shoves her in the elevator. And because like something, like she was like, he said she was being rude or something. He...

They have this whole altercation. She tells the building manager about it again, just says, oh, I'll have a talk with him. Then he keys her car. Nothing doesn't get evicted. And then on the day that I'm moving out, I have my movers come and I'm letting them in. It's like three movers and me.

And I had had like one interaction with him after our like first really bad thing where it was just like kind of pleasant. I just like gave him a head nod. He gave me a head nod and I was like, whatever, I'm just not going to like deal with this guy. So I was like, you know what? I'll just be nice. I got in the elevator. I go, excuse me. And he goes, do you not fucking know elevator etiquette? Why the fuck are you getting in if I haven't even gotten out yet? Like what? Like why the fuck? Just like starts going crazy. And he's like,

He's just the weirdest How old do you think he is? I don't know He's like This gym guy Like so clearly on steroids Like something's like So wrong with him And my movers are with me And he's screaming at me And I go What the fuck So I texted The building manager It was my last day So I had nothing to lose I go

I promise you, if I don't find out that this guy gets evicted, like I'm literally going to personally like smash all four of his windows and keys. 100%. Like everybody is unsafe. Like all the girls who live in that building are unsafe because he's attacked. He's attacked me, another girl, keyed a girl's car and hasn't gotten evicted. What the fuck do you mean? That's actually fucking awful. Like she just does nothing about it. And so I was like scared to live there, but I didn't want to talk about it on the podcast because I still lived there.

Have you ever on the podcast talked about your weird stalker? No, but I'm still a little freaked out about that because she I know she watches the shit. Are you ever going to see her again? Probably not. I guess I can. This story to me.

Is fucking mind-blowing I just want to say that This apartment in general Like this apartment Like it was such a nice apartment But the whole Like everything about it Was just like a little Like something was off Yeah And I had met this girl Like she was moving in And I met her outside And so she was like Oh I just moved from out of state Like I gave her my number Because I was like Oh you're new here Like I just wanted her To have like a contact Or whatever Yeah

She started like texting me Constantly and stuff And I was just being nice To her or whatever Yeah She would text me randomly She had a cat So she was like Oh I got like this For your cat Like can I come drop it off And she'd come over And like stay for hours And I was just like Oh like Okay like whatever Yeah at that point It's still just kind of like Oh maybe she has Yeah and she was so nice Like it was fine But then she would like Randomly say stuff sometimes Where I was like

Like you're lying What was the first one? Like she would like Make up stories Like she'd be like Yeah Like I saw Noah back today I literally saw Noah back today And he like asked me For my number And I said no And then like Like just like all this stuff That I'm like That didn't happen Wasn't she like low key beat?

No yeah and no like Noah Beck didn't ask for her number Yeah the only reason I'm saying that is because of what you're gonna say that like proceeds She was nice and like honestly harmless I never like we didn't really get to know each other it was just very much like she's my neighbor whatever And one time I'm leaving and I'm like I usually have the other Brooke watch my cat because that's the easiest But she doesn't live like nearby so it's like hard and I want Murphy to have somebody who can just like come down and check on her easy Yeah

So I had this girl watch my cat and I was like, can you just like come downstairs, feed her, you know, like that's it. Like she lives upstairs. All she has to do is come downstairs, feed her, maybe play with her for like a second. Some neighborly shit. Yeah. I was only gone for a couple of days. Yeah. I come home after being gone and she, first of all, the cat doesn't have any water. And I'm like, that was literally your only job was to give her food and water. And weren't your like clothes? No. Yeah. So then I go, I'm like, that's kind of strange, whatever. Yeah.

I go upstairs and she had tried on my clothes because like the way that I like I know where every single little I know every single pair of jeans I could close my eyes and name them all in order like

I know Everything about Your denim rock means a lot Yeah And so like They were like rearranged And I was like Oh did like She tried on my clothes And so it's like Kind of weird Yeah Really weird No that's That's it for me That's where I'm done So then I'm like Oh like that's kind of awkward But whatever Like maybe she wanted Something to wear And it's like whatever She's watching my cat You can wear a fucking outfit

So then, but I had a two-story apartment. There's no reason she should have even been upstairs. Yeah. So then I come downstairs and I turn on the TV and my recent YouTube searches are Brooke Schofield drama, Clinton Cain, Brooke Schofield. Like she was searching me on my own TV. And you're sure that wasn't you off of Xanax? I know, I'm positive. I forget where I was, but I was somewhere, or I think I was in,

No It was like We were on I think we were on a trip somewhere But it's like There's no reason I would never Search those things No I'm kidding And so I was like First of all How does she even know My last name Like Yeah I've never shared Any information I didn't tell her I had a podcast I didn't tell her Social media Like she knew nothing about me Also like clear Your search history If you're gonna do that Yeah And so I was like That's kind of strange And I was like You're searching me In my own house Whatever Then I go to drive my car

I can't reach the pedals. And I'm like, this bitch drove my fucking car. She has the nicest car too. There's no reason that she should be driving my car, but she drove my car and my cat will push things off the counter. So I had my keys like tucked away in a drawer, meaning she had gone through all my drawers, found the keys, drove the car. And at this point, I'm telling you like file a police report. This girl wants to wear your skin like a fucking onesie. She's a murderer. I think just, you know how I am.

Like the level of paranoia. Like if I see two, if there's two stalkery red flags in a row, like that's it for me. Like I think this person is going to kill me. Like whatever. You continue to engage with her. I know. But because again, it was another thing where it's like, okay, I still live in this building. I run into her constantly. By the way, I've never seen hardly at all another person who even lives in this building, but I see her constantly.

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Didn't something happen with like Dior or Chanel and then you went to her apartment? Oh, she told me she was like, yeah, someone had broken into my car. This is crazy. She's like someone broken in my car. They stole three Ramoas. They stole my Dior bag. They stole this, this and this. And I'm like, OK, that's crazy. She would like tell these elaborate stories like to get me because I never would respond to her. And she would get like say things that I had to respond to. She'd be like, oh, my God, I just got robbed. And I'd be like, oh, shit.

She did get robbed. She sent me a video of her getting robbed, but I'm like...

Ramoas Dior bag I happen to remember That she had sent me A photo of her apartment And she had No furniture Like just a mattress On the living room floor And our apartments Were like really nice Apartments There's no reason That she should have No furniture And that's like Serial killer to me Like I don't know Not having no furniture I'm not saying Having no money Is serial killer But moving into This nice ass building Having only a mattress On the floor And not even bothering And she had told me Like random stories Like she told me How all of her exes Had restraining orders On her Which is already like

And just like weird vibes. So then like even after this whole car driving thing, she asked me to watch her cat. And then I was like, perfect. I'm going to go through all her shit.

I'm gonna go through her entire apartment. I'm bouncing it off. Like, I have to, like, let the way that this makes me feel, like, out physically right now. And so I was like, because she had gone, like, she had, like, been so invasive in mine. And I'm like, okay, like, perfect. I want to go see what this girl's about. Which is just crazy that you went, like, how to catch a killer on this bitch. Like, get the fuck out of her apartment, bro. No, but, but, Tana, I...

I go in there. When I tell you there is not one item. She's lived there for six months. Not one item, but a mattress. Nothing. No clothes. No nothing. Her cat does. I texted her. No wonder she was trying on her Aritzia jeans. I was thinking about stealing, like taking the cat, honestly. And I know that sounds so horrible, but I was like the cat.

like the cat had not one toy nothing to scratch cats like get whisker fatigue and they can't like eat out of certain bowls like they have to be like she just the cat was suffering and i was like oh my god it cannot live in these conditions like there's no there's nothing for it to jump on there's no furniture nothing it's just a mattress how the fuck have you lived in an apartment for six months with no mattress and who the fuck stole your ramoas and dior bag if you don't have a couch

So I didn't even have anything to go through because she had nothing in her apartment except a cat and a mattress. Now have you like, it's at bay, right? Like, like, are you like, do you talk to her? Like, it's like, I don't know. I would still run into her and say hi. And like, I feel like something definitely is like maybe wrong with her a little. Like, I think she's just like socially like a strange person, but.

It just really weirded me out I was like And I try to have empathy for people that are like that But those people to me are the people who end up being stalkers Yeah that's the thing And I'm the type of person that end up getting skinned alive Because I have too much empathy for the people Who gave me all the signs Like if she's fucking wearing your clothes And searching your name and driving your car Like why are you engaging with her But I was just so non-confrontational And I was like I knew I wanted to move out anyway So I was like I'll just ride out my lease

And now I'm fine. But she's asking me like, yeah, where are you moving? I'm like, I don't know. Can I tell you what this just reminded me of? Yeah. That I've been meaning to talk to you about. But I've just been internalizing it because I'm not even kidding you. I do not possess the bandwidth to allow something else in my life to make me paranoid or stressed or...

Or anything of that sort, right? Like, I'm not kidding you. I've been just like pretending this isn't happening to me. Right. With my stalker right now and what's going on right now, like I am at capacity. I will get into that in a second. Yeah. Because a new development happened last night that I just really don't like. A couple months ago, you know, I was really struggling with my relationship with alcohol and...

Even just relationships with certain people and environments I should or shouldn't put myself in or so on and so forth. Right. And there was a day where I had just made a array of horrible decisions. Like I just went out all night and this was kind of at the very end where I was like, OK, I'm going. I'm not drinking. I'm going sober. Was this the pony?

This was, yes, it was within the same two days of the ponytail where, you know, the ponytail is a crazy way of putting this, but essentially I was out all night. I made horrible decisions. I came back to the house at 2 p.m. No sleep, like clip on ponytail in my hand. It's the night of the Turks episode. Like, oh, we shot the Turks episode. Yeah, because that's when you had that pony. We shot the Turks and Caicos episode. And obviously I was going through it. I cried in that episode, like whole nine. And that night I went out and just like,

When I'm going through a lot, like when I'm going through a lot, I know myself. I'm very like I can either be super straight edge about it and like smart about it or like I'm abusing substances and I'm awful. And that I that was just the I'd really hit the ceiling of everything I was going through. And I just really was not good to myself like that night. Yeah. And I know that. And I came back the next day and I had Trevi over.

And I'm really, really, really grateful for Trevi because I, like, I was at the point where it was like, if I stopped drinking cold turkey, I felt like I was going to, like, have a seizure. And, like, I was just shaking and, like, withdrawing and, like, just a lot of really dark shit was going on that, like, week or month. And I was like, okay, I'm, you know, I need to be sober. And I have Trevi over. And we're just having this deep conversation. And it's crazy the way our relationship has come so full circle, Trevi and I. Like, everything Trevi went through with her struggles with alcohol. And we were just really talking about it. And I just...

I look up to her so much and I really like resonate with people who struggle with substance abuse and I always want to be there for people like that but I found myself in that situation kind of needing someone to be there for me and I decide in that moment while I'm talking to Trevi I'm like I'm going to get an IV right and this IV nurse comes over and

and she's giving me an IV, and I'm talking to Trevi just about, like, I think I want to be sober for a while. Like, I just want to really get my life on track and, like, raw dog all these feelings and work through them. Yeah, instead of, like, drowning it out. Exactly, and just asking Trevi questions. Like, you know what I mean? Like, do I wean off of alcohol? Like, what do I do here? Like, what's your advice, you know? And Trevi's just giving me advice, and the IV nurse starts kind of,

Like giving me All this medical advice Of like what would happen If I went to the hospital For it or if I wanted To do it at home Or you know All this just Vulnerable ass advice And in my head I'm kind of like Okay like I appreciate this But it was kind of A conversation I was having With just you Yeah it's kind of One of those things Where you'd rather Somebody just not be

But I am like crying and I'm down bad. So at the same time, maybe she was just trying to be helpful. She's very motherly and I'm like appreciating this at the same time. And I'm like, what a nice lady, like so on and so forth. The conversation eventually turns into her telling me that her husband had just died like a year ago from alcohol withdrawals. Like he went cold turkey and he sees and he died. Well, that's not a good thing to say to somebody who's afraid of withdrawing. And it's just a crazy coincidence.

Like, what are the odds that I'm having this whole spiral? And she happened to. Yeah. And this is the whole coincidence arc that we'd already talked about. So I was like, this is so interesting. And then she's like, I have a podcast about it, like with my son. And I'm like, that's awesome. That's really amazing that like you and your son are making a podcast about how, you know, losing your husband and father affected you and whatever. And we just have this like two and a half hour conversation. Like the IVs done. Like she doesn't leave. Like so on and so forth. I'm like, oh, I have a podcast. Like blah, blah, blah, whatever. Yeah.

And this has never happened in my life Where an IV nurse is like We exchange phone numbers and whatever, right? And I really appreciated her No, I didn't fuck her Which we'll get into in a second I happened to have sex with another nurse of mine That's another story God damn it I'm good now I just want to say that I'm good now This was a dark couple months, okay? I give her my number

And she starts texting me about it And I respond a couple times Because I'm like You know I just had this Three hour conversation With this woman You know I text her my name And whatever Oh no I just want to show you The scrolls And I'm responding still

But it gets to a point. Yeah, it's giving psycho neighbor. Do you see these novels? Oh my God, that's like bad. I hate when people make me regret being like nice. And that sounds so bad because obviously you want to be nice to everybody. But like when you know, when you like really are nice to the kind of like strange person and then they end up like making you regret it. Can I read you this one that I haven't even ever read until right now? I'm a little high from my nighttime sleep meds, but I was thinking about lunch. Do you want to do lunch for reals?

If you were serious I know you have a busy calendar We should actually put something down on the calendar So I'm down for any type of food I'm a night owl so later It's a novel it's a text so big you have to click to open it About lunch Oh maybe she's alone I know and that's where it's like a long thing I know but you have to have some sort of professional boundary I think And then the other day I noticed that someone in my TikTok DMs Is sending me all these TikToks Oh it's her And I'm just like

Obviously I know I'm easy to find and she has my name and so on and so forth but like and I want to be nice but it's just I don't have the bandwidth for the capacity of this potentially being like it's also just overwhelming like she knows you're already going through it like that's a whole additional now like thing you're thinking about.

I don't know. I get like a lot of pressure from like feeling like I have to respond to people and like feeling like bad that I don't sit. Like I feel like with that neighbor, like even though she was creepy as fuck, I felt so bad. And like she would, she would text me and be like, oh, I bought you this. Like I'm leaving this for your cat. Like I'm like, get your cat a toy, please. Yeah. She got me a gift card, like a really, like a big,

Big gift card And I was like Thank you Like it was She was nice That's why I felt bad I just get scared Cause that's how things Can just go so awry I don't know So like I'll keep you posted On the IV nurse Yeah See you're never Gonna get skinned alive I might I don't know about If I am Or if I'm not anymore

I do So I mean I've like alluded to it On this podcast A million times About how I have like A really fucking serious Stalker right now And it's like The first time in my life Where it makes my OG stalker Genuinely feel like A piece of cake Like I can take him Like in comparison To this person And their build And the things They've been doing And

I don't know how much I've told hardly anything about like this. This stalker started four years ago, three years ago when I lived at Weed Lake, like when I lived in the big like hype house, clout house, like fucking those houses when I lived there. And I totally know that with OnlyFans comes the ability of people talk to you all day, every day, and they think that they know you. And if somebody maybe isn't mentally fully well educated,

They begin to think that they... Have like a real relationship with you. That they're really dating you and that they can show up to where you are and that they whatever. And I know, like I feel bad even bitching about it because I think that is unfortunately one of the prices that you pay with something like that, you know? And it started with him really doing that to me and Ashley and messaging us like...

i know that ashley went to some korean barbecue and he sent her a photo of her across the street and was like i saw you at korean barbecue like how are you i did not know that and so like a couple days later or whatever

He sends a photo of him hiking the hill that our house was on with like a knife, like knifing at like some rocks to like get through to where our house was and just sending photos of him like in the hill, like dirt all over his face, like scary. Like, you know what I mean? Like I'm, I'm by your house. Like, and I'm by your house is crazy. It's one thing to be on the street and by our house. It's like you had to like- I'm by your house in the bushes. In the mountains. And there, it's not even like a hiking trail. It's like really getting there was like actually like you're in the fucking mountains.

Like I'm the mountain Scary And So that's I hire security At that point And then we have All these encounters Where he just keeps showing up To like where we are And so on And I've noticed this pattern With every stalker I've ever had Where they like go in waves Like they'll be doing A bunch of shit like that And then go radio silent I would almost be scared When they're silent It's like where are you No and it's

exactly it's like and then they come back and they start doing it again every time I've moved within the first month of me moving this person makes it so known that like I know your new address and I know where you are like when I was living in David Dobrik's house for like a little bit he like left a letter on the gate and like I remember that and I'd only been in Dobrik's house for two weeks from like

Where I just moved to Yeah that's the thing Like how the fuck Are you finding that out What was the Oh the pizza's here And I know that David's house is like That is like Yeah you can find that But even that Like there was a security camera Outside and he perfectly Like walked and weaved To set the note Like right where

Where it like wasn't in the eyeline of the security. You know what I mean? Yeah. Of the cameras. Then I moved to the next house. Same thing. He shows up immediately. And that one is like nowhere to be found online. Like, and I like do all this shit with my like people, like with my team where I put my house in like an alias. So like if you look up like Tana Mongeau house, it's not on like white pages. Yeah. Or like shit like that. So it's like I'm doing all these precautions and he's still finding it immediately. And like that house I hadn't even posted. Yeah. It's almost like he's like looking at the view, like looking at like.

And I hadn't even posted that house. Like Ogden. Like I hadn't even posted it when he found out. Oh, right. And then, so I'm just hiring 24-hour security, which is so upsetting because it's like fucking 30 grand a month. And so fucking expensive. And if you tally it out, it makes sense why it's that much. You're paying someone 24 hours a day to sit outside of your house with a gun. Like it's not like I'm being like overcharged, but it's just so frustrating. And so then when I move from Ogden to the next house...

And everyone's like, you move so much. Yeah. Like, duh. And I specifically choose this house that is on a hill. Like every celebrity lives on this fucking specific hill. It's very like hard to find, hard to get to. Yeah, very like weaning and winding. Yeah. And I pick this house with no backyard.

No separate entrances. No like windows. Like there is one. No service. No service. There's one front door. Like I'm not even kidding you. If I was in that house and the house was burning down.

I would have to like jump off the balcony. Like, like I'd probably die. Like there was no other like entrances. There was just this one front door. And I specifically chose this house for like that reason. Like it just felt like Fort Knox, like the way it was. And then within like a week of moving in there under my alias, there's flowers to my door.

There's a big fucking thing of flowers. And at this time, I'm like talking to this fucking TikTok boy. And I'm so excited because I think he's like sending me flowers and all this shit. I'm trying to figure out who these flowers are from for like days. And I'm just like, this is so weird because it's like an abundance of flowers. Like I want to know who they're from. And then I text the wrong boyfriend and be like, thanks. Honestly, maybe you do. I think I would have sent them to all my boyfriends and be like, oh, my God, so sweet. So they feel threatened. I don't know how to say this, but this person's initials.

Is a really common acronym that you text Like really, really, really, really common LOL, wait what's his name, I forgot It's something that you say all the time To the point that I thought it was like someone using this acronym Oh In the thing, you know what I mean And then one day it just clicks to me And I'm like there's no fucking way this motherfucker already found my house, whatever Next day, a jar delivered to my door

And the jar is filled with all of these folded in half notes that are like reasons why I love you and like reasons to be happy. And like there's like a thousand. And I film this. Eventually, if I ever want to put it out there, I film myself like opening the jar and the notes, whatever. I call 911. I call the police. The 911 operator is so fucking mean to me. I will never forget this day in my entire life. Like I call and they're like,

It's not a crazy boyfriend. Like, are you sure it's not? And I've had police. I, in just the dismissiveness. Oh, it pisses me off so bad. I've had that kind of thing. Like the police are just straight up grilling me on the fact of like, are you sure it's not like a boyfriend? And then they find out what you do for a living. And they're like, well, it's your fault. You put your whole life out there. Like,

You know what I mean Like blah blah blah And I'm like What do you mean And so then I'm like Can you guys come by Can I file a police report And they're like Yeah we can come Tomorrow between 5 and 9pm And I'm like Oh I have to leave Like I'm getting on a flight You know like Is there any way You guys could come now Like they just dropped it off Like right now Yeah like he knows Where I live fully Is there anything I can do right now And they're like Well it seems like You don't really care about it

It seems like you don't really like what I'm like, what do you mean? I don't care about it. Like I'm just, you know, like this whole thing. So when I hire security full time again and it's so expensive and the head of my security is kind of like, Tana, I'm sorry, but no one's ever going to care, especially in L.A., unless there is a body or a weapon. And like that's your truth. And that's just unfortunately the life you have to live. And then I post on my social media a couple of days later that I'm really craving mango with chamoy and tahini. But I don't have chamoy.

And a couple days go by. And I'm getting my makeup done. I'm sitting in the glam chair with Alexis and Chris Miles is over. And I'll just never forget this because doorbell rings and it's an Amazon delivery. An anonymous Amazon delivery. And it is enough chamoy for a hundred people. I'm talking... Honestly, really sweet. Leaders...

Everyone makes that joke and it makes me sick. Like Hunter was like, Tana, you might be the one. I know, it's not funny. I'm not even kidding you. It's like 25 bottles of Chamoy like this big. And I'm sitting there and- See, that's why you're so different than me because I would have been like, oh. But if you see this man- But it is, you're right. It's scary. And everyone is like, Tana-

Your stalker did not send this Like you were on Xanax And you ordered Chamoy on Amazon Like get a fucking grip And I'm like You guys I did not And they're like No like This is so you coded And it really is Like I love to just like Order some shit on Amazon And then show up I'm sure there's been A couple things like Oh

Throughout the years That you might have like Accidentally done to yourself Absolutely But just no one believes me And I'm like I want to call the police And Chris Miles is like What are you going to say Call 911 and be like There's a whole lot of chamoy Also like Honestly so true Like oh my god There's chamoy on my doorstep Yeah like no one's Whatever Stalker messages me A couple days later Like did you get your chamoy And I'm like Fuck everyone Fuck you guys No one believed me So on and so forth This keeps happening now With like snacks And Amazon deliveries And we go into trying To get the Amazon Like

Amazon and like try and the flower companies and trying and all of its anonymous and they can't track anything without a police report and so on and so forth and they can't or try anything without a restraining order. I can't like give information out about and I can't get a restraining order filed for life and because this person also doesn't have a place of residency they live out of their car and it's this whole thing and then my security keeps saying like we think we're seeing this car drive by and we've tried to stop it down but it just drives away like whatever and like the police are never going to serve a restraining order to a car.

Like that's, it's just not a thing. I've tried so many times, so on and so forth. I move into this house. This is right around the time of the IV nurse. I'm really going through it. And-

I decide that I'm going to get an Airbnb. Like I've lived in this house for like three days and I decide that I'm going to get an Airbnb in Malibu and just get the fuck out of LA for a second. Like as much as I can to my ability because I'm just working so much. I really want to be sober. There's so much going on around me. Like I just needed no outside influences, you know? And I just needed to like be alone myself in like a little beach house and just like have a couple days to like think and breathe. And I'm about to walk out the door.

To go to this beach house in Malibu. And I notice that on the doormat wedged into the doorknob, wedged into the front gate's doorknob and on all over Paige's car, Paige's car that was parked outside are these business cards with the name of the person who has been

Bothering me. Damn. How do you have business cards? He's saying on the business card that he's like a handyman and this is like his phone number and so on and so forth. I know for a fact he's not. And I think that this was his goal to get like maybe like I just hired a

A new employee Robin Like maybe to get Robin To see it And think you like Need one to like Let him in or something Or like something like that I don't know Yeah Right All these business cards And it's also again Just him saying like You've moved again And within the first week I know where you live Like how are you finding out How are you finding out So fast Whatever I go to the beach house In Malibu

And it's scary out there. Like there's not a lot of service. Like how are you gonna have all that money and no service Malibu? And like it's dark as fuck. Like it's just like whatever. Like I'm out there. And within my like first eight hours of being there, he messages me drone shot photos of the beach house I'm staying in. Yeah, that's fucking crazy. And he's like, it looks amazing. Like the view. And that's the thing. All of this is like,

The way he's like Saying everything Is like from a place of love Like he's like My boyfriend Like looks amazing Are you enjoying the beach Yeah that's the thing He's not like threatening In any way So that's why It's also kind of strange Because it's like He maybe like Maybe just thinks He's being like nice And doesn't realize Like you know That we don't know Each other personally And it's like scaring The shit out of me Obviously and that's where It gets into like The whole thing whatever And so I'm like Are you fucking kidding me Like I just want Three days of peace I just wanted to like Get away from my house And like hope nothing happens And like

You know like Are you fucking kidding me Yeah So we all leave the house And we go to dinner And we're at this dinner In Malibu It was like me Amari Ashley Like everyone had like Come out to the Malibu house And we all decided To go to dinner And in the last minute Amari was like I don't really want to go to dinner I think Ty was going to dinner And he was like Fighting with Ty Or like whatever And he was like I'm just gonna chill back At the Airbnb Like and sit here whatever We're at the restaurant And Amari calls us And he's like

Someone just rang the doorbell. Like, did you guys order anything? Did you guys order Postmates? And I'm so on edge about this stalker as is. You know what I mean? I'm like, no, Amari, call the police. Lock the door. Like, do whatever. And Amari goes up to the top balcony and looks down...

into the road and fully just like sees the stalker in his car like we all know what he looks like we all know what his car looks like he's just sitting outside like he came and rang the doorbell amari like went to the doorbell and was like hello and could see feet under the door and he just said nothing and got back in the car and whatever and i'm like i have to get out of this airbnb immediately this is so fucking annoying i paid so much money to just have like a couple days of peace before i go on tour and like relax and like whatever so we come back there i call my security to meet with me we pack up the airbnb and

And I get home to my doorstep and I feel like I get a notification that the doorbell rang. I'm trying to connect to the camera. No one's on the camera. So it's like someone carefully rang the doorbell, like not in front of the camera. And I get home to like six heart shaped pizzas. Yeah. I saw, I remember the, cause you left them outside and I saw the heart shaped pizza. So I'm like, what the fuck is this? He messages me like, I hope you enjoy your pizza. And so it's like,

What? It's like, oh, that's so scary. I'm hoping it isn't scary and he is just like, he really thinks that you guys are in love.

But I mean I would be scared too But it just like It's not sustainable You can't be paying Three or thirty thousand dollars A month for security Like he needs to be arrested Or at least like Because of police I'm trying so hard Not even arrested But like somebody Just needs to like Reprimand him in some way And be like listen This is not You can't do that And there's obviously Like illegal ways To go about that Like I could have my security Like stalk the stalker And like show But that's like a whole thing Where it's like You can't do that And so I hired a private Investigator to try to like Find him and I'm spending All this money and time On that as well Which is just so frustrating Like

I like have Because the police Care so little That I'm having to get A private investigator To like stalk him down And catch him Stalking me down To get the police There and that So that you have evidence So that they care yeah Yeah which is just Fucking insane That like I can't Just get a restraining order On this person And it's like They don't care And it's so hard Yeah but it is hard Because how can you say Like oh no He sent me chamoy And flowers and pizza Like but

Yeah, they don't care. It isn't that way, but it is. And so last night, he sent me photos of this, like, little shed he built. At least he's moving up. But, like, where is the shed? Am I going to end up in it? You sent in the group chat, right? Literally today, he's messaged me, good morning, basic dance steps, hope you had a wonderful day, my love. I love you for being you. He sent me, like, weird sexual shit. Yes, yesterday, sleep well, Tana Marie Mojo. We...

It appears that the shed is in the house or in a backyard. Does he have a yard? And like, so maybe that's what he does for a... Oh, he unsent those. Did he? Why did he unsend them? I have it here. I send them to Amari and all he says back to me is, have you ever seen the movie The Lovely Bones? Okay, why would he say that? And I literally, I was sobbing last night. Wait, I want to look at his... Why would he unsend them? Can he see that I like...

looked at the message like do you know what i mean like when someone sends you like image sent and message requests are covered tap to see blurred image like can he see that i tapped no as long as you've um never accepted his message request oh he follows me too i wonder if he's ever messaged me why would he just the shed of it all he does what did he say to you why does tana appear as though she was edited into this photo

Sometimes he'll send random digs at me too. Like when I put the brunette hair on my story, he like randomly was like, now that I'm seeing it in the light, you look like a five out of 10. I was like, so like. Do you love me or do you not? I don't know, dude. I don't know. It is. The shed is just really sending me over the edge. Like what? See, this would never be a problem if you just moved into the penthouse in my building and you just lived your little apartment life.

And it just sucks so bad I'm so safe now Because I like love having a house And I just don't think I can At least in LA Ugh I want you to do New York I want you to do New York So then I have an excuse To go to New York For like a month I have to bring the cat though I'm learning Or teaching her to learn Or to walk on a leash

She's brilliant Every time I talk about it I get so stressed out And like paranoid To live my life Which I absolutely hate And I hate It affects everyone else too Like Paige was freaking out About her car And like Yeah wasn't he really creepy To Ashley too Really creepy to Ashley Like it's been like To me and Ashley For the most part Which and now we like Live in the same house So it's like I feel like he's like

Oh my god yay Double homicide Because he was sending Her hella mail to her apartment too At the time that he was Sending me stuff So now it's like Oh I can just do it all At one address Like my girls are there And it's like oh my god I don't know Oof I just really want him to stop I don't know

Do you remember on the last episode we shot together how I was telling you a story about how I saw a guy that I literally fucked at the gym and like he didn't really recognize me without makeup or whatever and I don't know if I had said that like I would hook up with him again but like at the time that like that all happened I was saying in real life to like Paige and I think you I was like I would hook up with him again like I saw him at the gym like yeah well obviously because otherwise you wouldn't have hid from him so I tell you the story right and I

Again, I'm on my weird coincidence shit. I was like, it's so weird that I was talking about him and then I see him at the gym and all this shit and whatever. And then the next day I woke up to him...

And keep in mind, this man is not an influencer at all. Like, he is, like, a childhood friend of one of my best friends. Like, that's how I met him. I met him in Vegas. Like, very much Vegas friend affiliated. And then he ended up moving out here. But he moved out here not to, like, be in the scene. But then I think he, like, changed his mind. He's like, I want to be in the scene. I want to be famous. Like, whole nine, right? He went online.

On another one of It's Ari's childhood friend He went on Ari's childhood friend's podcast And told a whole And This podcast gets like

100 views. That was the guy? Yes, he went right after I see him at the gym, like randomly coincidentally had gone in that same week on a childhood friends like podcast and told a whole story about hooking up with me with like all these lies. Yeah. And you know, what's crazy is a girl that I know commented on it and was like, this is embarrassing or like something like saying something mean about you. Yeah. Like saying that it was like, yeah, she's like some Vegas like ****.

Sorry I met her I met her when we did I did the like Eva Longoria thing in Vegas Yeah like she's just Some like micro influencer In Vegas Who apparently just Doesn't like me I don't know her at all I don't know why she was Like publicly mean about you I'm like God at least do it In the messages I think she fucks him

oh so she was like no i think she's a boyfriend or she used to i don't i don't even know i just thought it was crazy i was like damn he goes on this podcast in the same week like it had to have been before i see him at the gym randomly and tell do you think he was like yeah and tells this whole story about hooking up with me and says that i left my hair extensions in his bed now and i know we just sold the whole clip on ponytail story but here's the thing i've taped in extensions

They're very hard to get out Unless I'm like in Turks and Caicos Underwater for a week They're not just coming out Flying out The sex with this man No I'm with him on this one

I can't express to you enough how painful it is to me that he said this because it is a blatant lie. I get my taping out in Las Vegas and dry ass weather would never happen. The sex was not giving Paris, not giving, not giving pull your hair off, pull my hair. If I left it, if a tape and extension did come out, I would write that in there, like put it into my purse or throw it away. I would never just leave it in someone's bed. Yeah. And like, you're not an animal. I think it's one thing.

maybe for an influencer to say they hooked up with me and they already, but to like make that be like the start. You're trying to jumpstart your career like that. Yeah. That's just embarrassing. It's,

Embarrassing in general to go on to a podcast and be like, yeah, I fucked this person. I guess we do that. Never by name. No, we don't. Never by name. No, we don't. I'll tell a story about someone. I'm never going to say their name. I'm never talking about someone I hooked up with. I said this to Dave Portnoy. I'm never talking about someone I hooked up with unless they bring it up first, whatever. And it was just like so... And Ari was so mad and like defensive because Ari like knows him and grew up with him and was like, you're not going to do my sis like that. Like, what the fuck is wrong with you? But like, how weird is it that like...

As I was talking about Seeing this guy on the podcast It sucks It sucks that that's Such a believable story Mm-hmm Mm-hmm Mm-hmm Cause like You know I would've watched that And been like Yeah This checks out I'm There I'm not Maybe I would leave A hair extension In like Chris Miles' bed Yeah But I would never Leave a hair extension In a stranger's bed

We hooked up like years ago One time Yeah So like what are the odds That like the same time That he's moved to LA It's been years later And you just happen To run into him In that same week That he happened to have Gone on the podcast And happened to have Talked about you And my biggest fear Is like my Vegas ex-boyfriend

Whomst I adore Seeing that And being like What the fuck Like whole nine So like he deleted it I just thought it was A weird coincidence That I would like Touch on That is a weird coincidence Ari and I went and Grabbed a drink before this And I was like Literally making Ari Like drill me Cause I don't I hate going on dates

I have to drink before a date and I know that's so bad, but I literally have to because like just the mechanics of it. Like I can have a conversation, but like the actual act of like physically getting there and meeting somebody for the first time and like all of that like makes me so nervous and anxious. Like I cannot handle it. I'm going on a date, but here's my issue. I just recently told a story about this like stupid idiot rat on this podcast that ghosted me and I

I realized don't talk to a guy who just got out of a relationship. Okay, that was a new rule I made for myself. And then I set a date with this guy and find out that he just got out of a relationship. And like a very serious one. So I'm like, God, am I going to just set myself up for failure again? I hope not. I really hope not. Can we say what he does or like anything like that or no? I've had a crush on him since I was 11. Is he the park guy as well or no? No. Okay, just checking. I'm trying to like...

Keep up Honestly yeah I don't want to sabotage this You and I are really trying to be in our era Where we stop airing out Like our dating lives And talking about everything as much And try to rebrand and grow So I think you just go on this date And you say Should we role play? These are my major concerns I'll tell you what

Being an influencer. I don't feel like guys like you to be an influencer. But that's my job. But like nobody, like it's like, can I, what can I say that's not an influencer that's like not technically lying? I've been trying to figure this out for my entire life. Like you can say a lot of things though because you're like technically like an entrepreneur. I'm not. You're a host? Yeah, should I say that? Like, but then it's like, what do you talk about? Yeah.

I'm like well right now you um culture yeah I've been getting spunky on hinge I've been telling people I'm straight up like a professional soup tester I'm not even actually kidding like I made that up oh I wish that sounds so good I love soup so I just have been saying that to people I've been like really because I'm just trying to find out if I'm self-harming by purposefully getting into a situation with another guy who just got out of a relationship feels like self-harm look at Brianna and Zach Bryan

They're my like Everything right now Like I'm just like Yeah that feels like A little bit of an anomaly You never I mean at the end of the day He's on a dating app And he's going on dates And if he's not Emotionally ready To be in a relationship Then he shouldn't be doing that And that does fall on him And not you Well that was the last guy too But it didn't make Or it didn't make it Like less upsetting For me in the end Yeah I think that's Such a weird thing That people do Like I'm not gonna go on dates If I'm not ready to date Yeah I'm

literally working a seat filler job right now where I like literally I'm not kidding you know at award shows when like somebody gets up to like present or something and someone else's job is literally to just sit in the spot until they come back that's what I feel like I've been doing for men like literally like oh you your girlfriend's gone I'll seat fill until she comes back which is also just like

It blows my mind that people can be like 25 plus and not have the emotional maturity to be transparent about if they're in that place of life. Yeah. Like it's like on a first date, then say like, listen, I am just trying to like get myself back out there and get to know people. Like I just respect an honest person so much more. Me too. I would so much rather know. And then I can just like operate accordingly. But like, dude, it took me like fucking a year before I even like looked at another person after my breakup. And then it's like,

Maybe it's just the difference in like girls and guys. Yeah, I feel like guys get like, it's easier for them to just get back. Yeah, I have this guy like recently, like not recently, like a couple of months ago, but you know, it just, it grinded my gears so the wrong way. He was a really good friend and I started to develop a crush on him and we end up hooking up. And then after we hook up, he tells me like,

I don't think I can handle being with you because your life is so public and your life is so whatever. Yeah, but that's something that he knew before he hooked up with you. So he should have set... He should have decided that before then. And then I was like, okay, whatever. And then we hook up again. And then he's like, listen, I'm not in the place to be in a relationship right now. Oof. And I'm like, that's fine. Like,

I get it And I can't date you Anyways for so many reasons So it's like We need to just go back To our friendship And I'm like trying To revert back To our friendship Come to find out A couple weeks ago He has a fucking girlfriend That's how it goes He has a fucking girlfriend I think I've seen This film before And it just like Really frustrates me Because it's like Had you just been transparent And stuck with your Just say you don't want To fucking date me Yeah literally like Why can't men just be like Listen I can't date you

Like what like I know but then it's like would I rather somebody lie to me because sometimes I'm like oh like I would rather just like know and I'd rather than be honest but then it's like if they were honest I would have been like I wish you just ghosted me. No I would rather someone be honest tenfold but then again I think about it and if I was them I couldn't be honest so I guess it's just like the discrepancies of dating. Same thing yeah no I fucking hate that. I'm done dating in LA. Natalie you know how Natalie will like give like the funniest like delusions just like support you. Yeah. Natalie has this theory like

One of the guys I was like really just like so into like earlier this year has a girlfriend now and same thing. He like told me he couldn't whatever. She has this like she adopted this like major big theory that his girlfriend does exclusively anal and that's what put her above me.

In this situation And she's like But she's dead fucking serious She's like I know it Like that's That's the only thing She has like On you is anal Like she does anal The whole time Did he want to do anal And you didn't No But she She adopted that by herself And just like decided That that was the truth

And so now I'm like, yeah, there's his anal girlfriend. Natalie is so funny. In New York City, we got this fucking, and I've never seen anything like this happen. Just this Fashion Week, this just happened. We were eating at my hotel. And this hotel is like, if there was such a thing as a six-star hotel, this would be a fucking six-star hotel. It was so nice. Shakira was staying on my floor. Matthew McConaughey was staying there. All these people. And it was for Fashion Week, and it was such a vibe. And we decided to go eat in the lobby. And the restaurant in the lobby was,

Only serves like caviar. Like it's like you can't even get some like fucking normal shit like at all. And so we sit down and we're eating caviar and we have and Jordan Woods is sitting one table over from us. Natalie's like screaming the whole time too. I'm just so mortified. Like bless her heart but oh my god. And our waiter comes over and he is like

The rudest waiter I have had in so long. I feel like I'm really lucky. I always get like really nice waiters and I like bond with them and it's like a whole thing. And this waiter is so fucking rude. And the service is, and I like a slow service because if I'm going to sit down, like I want to like. Like literally take it all in. Yeah, but it's like I ordered an iced tea an hour and a half ago and like it's not here and you've told me it's coming six times. And like, yeah, it's just the service is just like horrible.

Like horribly slow. And it's not even packed like that. So I'm like, what the hell is going on, you know? And the waiter's just being so fucking rude. And Natalie orders a glass of wine. And he's like, can you pick it up? Like, can you pick it up so I can pour it to you? But it's like super rude. Like it was like on the table and he didn't want to pour it. So she picks it up. And it's like a big ass wine glass. And it's not like he's pouring it for her to like taste it, you know? Like he actually just pours her like a tiny, tiny like sip of like a little more than like a tasting amount.

You know And she's like Could you give me a little more Like it's It's not a glass of wine at all It is like a fourth Of a glass of wine And other people have wine On the table that's been poured He poured it normally Like it's just weird It's not for her to taste it It's like whatever And so she holds out Her glass for him to pour more And he goes Excuse me What did you just say to me Like and like snaps at Natalie So easily

Heavy You know what I mean And so then I like interject And I'm like Hey can I Should I go to the kitchen And get like what I Like ordered Like since it's never Gonna come anyways Like whatever And you know He's like I'll get it I'm sorry we're slow Like whatever He walks away And he comes back At the end When he brings us the bill And he's like

And he like sits down towards Natalie and he's like, I just want to apologize for snapping at you. I've never honestly, at least he like acknowledged it, but I've never in my life had a waiter like die on that hill. Like at that point, like, like, yeah, I don't know if I could admit fault in that situation. Like I, that just would happen to Natalie Bowling. Like she gets a fucking waiter that like apologizes to her. So funny.

It was just the funniest thing in New York. I don't know why it came to my mind, but fuck him for real. He was horrible. You got me hungry. I am hungry. I have so many more stories to tell you from New York, but I think I'm going to save them because they all involve major celebrities and I don't know if I want to get myself in any more trouble. Probably for the best.

I just went on a first date and within the first minute of sitting down, the guy, we somehow started talking about sign language because it was super loud in there. And for some reason, I thought this would be like a funny thing to say. I was like, oh yeah, I don't really know sign language. I only know tree. And I did this on the date. Is that tree? This is tree. I feel like there's got to be an easier way to say it. You just say like...

I don't know. I don't, but I guess that's house. He brought it up on like our second date. He was like, yeah, on our first date, you literally did like, like I do the most embarrassing. So do I. And then I think about it so hard. That's why I have to drink before because I don't, I,

This is a real concern I have too. It's like, am I actually making my personality better by drinking or am I just not noticing how awkward I am because I'm drinking? Whoa, I don't know. Like, is it actually like me having more charisma all of a sudden or am I just suddenly not as hyper aware of how incredibly awkward I'm being? I will never have the answer to that, but let me know if you want to come...

Me to come spy Like I will spy I already said the same thing But I'm gonna be like So And like I did that I have lilac He's so hot too I don't like going out With hot people either Because then it's like Then that's what I'm thinking About the whole time Yeah like Well you're so hot He's so hot I think it could be a slay And this You might find love I'm trying to find love I'm shooting higher In the age range I've realized I think that's it If I'm dating in LA at all I need to shoot higher In the age range But

But I think I'm done dating in L.A. And that's a big reason why I want to move to New York and find love. Yeah. A whole new pool out there. Just completely different genre. I am just I cannot date another person who is on social media, who's been on a reality show, who's done anything that's like in my realm. Like I'm just done. I'm disgusted. I'm celibate. I agree. Well, same. I'm I'm like my boyfriend's a farmer. My new one. Farmer boy. Brooke's been trying to look up horse riding lessons to get this man to really fall in love.

I have to leave and go on Hasan Piker's podcast and all he does is talk about politics and I don't know anything about him and he might really hate me but the only reason I'm going on is because he's kind of sexy so we'll see if something goes he is hot as I'm saying I can't date another influencer bye guys hopefully we don't get killed