Chapters
Shownotes Transcript
Prescription products require completion of an online medication consultation with an independent healthcare provider through the LifeMD platform and are only available if prescribed. Subscription required. Individual results may vary. Additional restrictions apply at LifeMD.com. Read all warnings before using GLP-1s. Side effects may include a risk of thyroid C-cell tumors. Do not use GLP-1s if you or your family have a history of thyroid cancer.
If you've struggled for years to lose weight and have given up hope, did you know you can now access GLP-1 prescription medications through LifeMD? LifeMD is now offering eligible patients online access to GLP-1s, the breakthrough prescription medication that can help you lose body fat and weight. Listen to what people are saying. Probably the easiest thing I've ever done. The medication comes in the mail and it's very easy to use. I've been able to live my normal lifestyle and I've lost 20 pounds already and I've never felt better.
It changed my life. And here's the best part. Your insurance may cover 100% of the cost of your medication. So go to TryLifeMD.com to have your eligibility checked right now. Get started today at TryLifeMD.com. That's T-R-Y-L-I-F-E-M-D.com. Buenos dias, world, from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. Cancun. Don't remember doing this at all. I can only hold myself accountable. Cancun. I am Jack. I am Jack.
Look how good my life is. So what else? Animoja is cancelled. Welcome to the most iconic episode of the Cancelled Podcast that will ever happen. The icon, the myth, the legend, Trisha Paytas herself is on.
I love it. I'm shook. I'm shook. You're my first guest. I mean, that's the goal. If my lawyers let me release this after we talk shit. I know. I feel like this won't. I've done so many podcasts that don't get released. Really? Yeah. Like, I've done, like, three podcasts in the past, like, month that, like, don't get released. Dude, I swear to God, today I was like, God, what if we talk so much shit and my lawyers don't let me release it and then Trisha cancels me for being a fake bitch. Oh, my God.
Oh my God. I'm just like recording my phone recording this whole podcast. Please, please. No, I have to now. Every podcast I've been on, people like be editing it and stuff like that. I'm just like, oh my God. Not that I care. I don't really care, but it's you and you can edit me however you want, but. What's up when the last podcast may release just like chaos? The last one was the last frenemy. Like we filmed the whole last frenemy and it didn't get released and then like. She already said the F word. Yeah. And then.
And there was... Yeah, that's canceled. I got canceled right after that. Yeah, it was like everyone loved me for nine months and then boom, everyone hates me. That's why I was shocked. I was like, you know I'm canceled, canceled now. You are so convinced that the world hates you. But what I will say about you, we were talking about this yesterday. We are like cockroaches, especially you. You're my inspiration in that sense. No one is ever going to take Trisha Paytas off the internet. And shit happens, bro. Frenemies was...
so iconic. Like, you know what I mean? Like it was an iconic period of time. And like, I fucking love you. And I think you are the most polarizing, iconic, inspirational figure on the fucking internet. Like I just, I can't, I, when people said like, who do you want your first guest to be? I was like, Trisha or cancel the show. That's crazy. Cause I know you're, you're like really in right now. Like you're very trendy. You're in with everybody. No, you are.
Don't hype her up. Please, God. You're friends with all the TikTokers, the big YouTubers. Like, it's amazing. You go from David Dobrik to Bryce Hall in like one night and I'm like, that's amazing. In the same night. I can't even. I'm like, don't even remember and I'm like, yeah, I think I did that. It's like, just so I see a paparazzi photo, I'm like, I think I did that. I don't fucking know. Your text this morning was literally like, I'm alive and awake just so you know. I was like, okay.
No, because I knew that, like, I mean, obviously you've seen me in the past, even just like with Jeffrey videos, stupid shit in the past. Like, I'm terrible at showing up to shit and I wanted you to know, like, I wouldn't miss this for the world. Old me would have, for sure. Like, slept straight through it, but I care so much about this today. I was up with bells on, but so nervous, you guys. You were, you were.
Yeah. I'm sweating in the makeup. You're just you like texted me to you're like, I'm nervous. Like what? Like you're the one popping. I'm like, I need this. Bring me on. So ridiculous. No, you're an icon. This is that you're doing so much more. It's just us gassing each other up. No, right, right, right. Right. Trish and I were literally talking about everyone fucking thinks we like don't get along or whatever. And I'm like, we just really actually have an edge chance to like
super bond. Yeah. We had our moments, but I mean, like, you know. No, I remember your first bonding moment was at an award show, I remember. And I saw you in the bathroom. And you're like, oh my God, I hate this girl too. And I was like, oh, thank God. And I remember we like bonded over like hating somebody. I remember that night I was wearing just like a stupid IMG address and Trisha told me I looked good. And it was, I'm not even kidding. Like, good things happen that night, but that's the only thing I remember. Like, I can't even. You...
No, I know. I love you. And I hate that. I hate that people think that too. I'm like, oh my God. Because we've never actually been on video together. We've met, but we've never been on video. We don't have any pictures. We've never done a collab either. The last time I saw you was when I was pretending to sleep on David's beanbag and you were in the couch. Is that the last time I saw you? And you're like, I have a boyfriend. And they're like, who cares? That's all I remember. Better days. Better days. Things have really looked up from that perspective.
that fucking moment oh my god I don't I believe it I drunk me fucking who knows no you're everything you're and the fact that you're only 23 I was like oh my god you're only 23 I was like holy shit that's crazy really yeah she's lived like five lives yeah no you really have because I'm like that's Trisha
You can't even say I've lived five lives. You have lived every. I am so excited today to sit down and ask you all about your life. Like, I just have so many questions, so many things I want to know about. I can't even. I mean, you were one of the first people I remember fully like blonde sundial moment. Like I saw some of your first videos. Hunter is not like very like Internet person.
You know what I mean? Like, savvy. And it's crazy to me because it's like, I'm like, I'm obsessed. He walks in every day to me watching your shit. Like, I just, yes. You're the only one. You and 50,000 people. She's a fucking icon. I can't deal. But I mean, like, I'm so excited for him to hear all about your life today. I'm just, I'm so excited. I don't even know where I want to begin. I mean, I guess, obviously, just to accredit you, you are amazing.
You were one of the first people on YouTube. You've been on YouTube probably the longest out of like everyone. Yeah, I feel like me and like Smosh, like all those people, like 15 years. It was like Joey, Smosh. Yeah. My first episode was like 2006. Dude, and I swear to God, at like six, seven, I'm ready to tap the fuck out. I don't even understand like eight more years. And to just stay in the game and be someone that everyone is talking about and everyone is obsessed with. And obviously we talk about our like roller coasters of people liking and hating us. But to just be such a polarizing figure for
15 years like what I have like no other option it's like this or street walking like I literally was a street walker for like six years so I'm like you know let's just keep this going I'm not kidding that was the first thing I said I wanted to ask you about today was just everything you did like before this shit I always say if I I mean if I didn't do this I would be a stripper in Vegas it's not a funny joke I would have ended up fully like selling every hole you know I mean like is that sorry you
the coin now because no matter what happens like let's say you were like totally irrelevant tomorrow which will like never happen you could get the coin for being a feature dancer a high end escort you'll get money just for being you you know what I mean dude I really be seeing these like Instagram girls like making all their fashion over brand deals but then escorting on the side yeah and it's crazy to me I'm like dude have I ever fallen
have my managers back here like fucking shut up. But I mean like for real I mean like I don't even know that shit is crazy. Did you talk about getting a new manager already or no? Oh my. So we had the same manager for like a minute for a month. I love it. She's going right into the goddamn tea. Oh yeah. Sorry. I have never publicly
I mean, like I've said very PR nice things, you know, like I love David. He's the best manager in the world. Yeah. He found me at my absolute darkest place, like brink of suicide, just like terrible. And he's changed my life inside and out. But for a long time, you and I were managed by the same person. I'm scared to say anyone's name. Yeah, we don't have to say it. It is very crazy, though, to know like how much you've changed mentally towards your work, towards everything once you switch management.
I know I think I like wake up for shit and shit now because I'm not like a depressed piece of shit because you look great like when I saw you I was just like whoa like actually amazing like you were here like literally before me which is like on time and then you have like all of this you know what I mean yeah right because everyone always just says like I waited for Tana for like a whole day and she never showed up I was like up for so
long. I mean, literally, today I was like, Trisha's seeing me cancel on everyone in the world. Like, imagine she'd be on Twitter, like, Tana just fucking, like, made me get ready. Like, I will be there. This idiot is four hours late. Not even just that, I'm so excited. No, I would have been excited to be canceled on. Like, I thought you were catfished. Remember, I, like, you texted me and then I DM'd you, and I was like, is this your number? On Twitter, she literally, I texted her, like, please come on my podcast. I want you to be my first guest, and she DMs me on Twitter, like, I think someone's catfishing me. Yeah. No, because it was weird, because you're like, I'm so excited. I'm like, this doesn't sound like Tana. Like, you're like, because you kept texting me, like, every day. And I was like,
like this is so weird so then I'm like I'm like following up you're like this is not fucking Hannah seriously so I was like wait I feel like because you're like this is a new number and I'm like this sounds sketch like you know I get catfished all the time by people being like this is like you know Ethan whatever yeah it just happens really they just like yeah because you had tweeted about it so then thought maybe someone's like messing with me or whatever no I no I thought someone was messing with me I'm like Trisha's fucking she's not gonna show up literally until you said you were parking I was like she's gonna fuck
No, I was so excited. I wouldn't miss it for the world. I was like so excited. I felt you on OnlyFans. I felt you everywhere. Buenos dias, world, from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
Trisha, that's so crazy to me. I always say, I don't even know if I would have ever started an OnlyFans if it wasn't for you. Really, like, first of all, I mean, no one ever really talked about money on OnlyFans, in my opinion, especially in the influencer space, until you like, hey, I'm making fucking bread off this. I'm not monetized. I'm making bread. And I remember being like, she could do what I could do. Oh, you're writing 10 times more than me right now. No, no, but her issue, she doesn't ever post anything.
But it doesn't even matter. It doesn't matter. Yesterday she posted a photo shoot from Christmas. Oh, yeah. I saw that. July. You're like, um. That's iconic. I love that, though. You know what? I mean, as long as it's my, like, titties or asshole or something, people will buy it. You haven't shown the asshole yet. You haven't, like, spread it. The way she knows that. How do you know? I watch. I subscribe. I buy those messages. I unlock. Are you fucking kidding me? Yeah. I'm like, what if his only fans are locked?
lot like you actually like I really don't I watch people yeah I really like I don't look at people I will if I'm like being nosy yesterday this like TikTok kid put his asshole in there and I was like I have to buy this spread yeah fully I should find it for you it was can I expose him it was bad Zach Zach Clayton he's a good friend of mine I wanted to see the gooch pic that's giving promo actually so I want to check it out
Exactly. And I don't even know who that is. I'm so bad with so many people, but I look them up. Are you, do you still, are you like heavily into OnlyFans still? Yeah. I post like every couple of days on there. Yeah. I use them almost every day. I mean, it's just insane. First of all, you, have you done like everything? I've seen a lot of your stuff on OnlyFans, but again, I'm not like going down the timeline. So I'm not going to lie. Have you posted like pretty much everything? Like crazy, crazy shit? Yeah. I want to collab. Oh my God.
God. When you fucking fucked Lena, I was like, I want to fuck Trisha. I want to fuck Trisha so bad. Like, imagine if we fuck. I'm down. Sorry, Moses. Moses is off camera, like, trying to get her. No, he's like, he's like, girls are fine. But I never have that. He's like, girls are totally fine. I love a girls are fine guy. For a couple of months, I did that. Like, are you single? Are
you single or you're dating someone else? I'm dating someone. Trisha, I'm fully in a relationship. So you can't like, you don't fuck guys or anything on your, oh, you wouldn't do that? No, no, no. Would you guys do it together? I guess we would. I mean, I've never fucked a guy on my OnlyFans, but I have said, I would be sad in my career if I never had some sort of sex tape. Yeah, you need it. And the offers right now are absolutely fucking insane for a sex tape. It's that shit. Oh, why aren't you? I know. It's not gonna
It's not going to last forever. You know what I mean? You could be me at 33, like still begging for $5 for the open peanut. My manager's off camera like, do you fucking hear this? Yeah, I guess, yeah. I mean, but true. You're right. I guess I've just been apprehensive because it's like, I know it's a one and done. It's got to be like iconic. I want it to be like a Paris, like just psycho moment. Yeah, me too.
I can't even. I really do want to do a sex tape. It's so your brand. Jake and I were going to do one for a really long time. We were going to, we like attempted to kind of like get around filming it and then we were going to put it the way that both of us and I didn't, we didn't trust each other enough that we were going to put it into escrow and then like sign off onto it together and do it. Smart. And then we did. I kind of regret not doing it. I think it would have been iconic. It's never too late, right? That's what I'm saying. You can be somebody else.
somebody else. But even just for money, it's not like you're in love, you know what I mean? Oh, I don't think he would. You don't think he would? I don't want to fuck him, no, either. Oh, no? I thought you were all about it. He's not about it. Yeah, we're not on the best terms, but I mean, my boyfriend and I would definitely, I mean, I guess I would, I
I don't know. You have to. I love him. He's great. I just, I'm scared of like a whole thing. Well, you're like young, so it's like a kind of risky, but it's your brand. So it makes sense. I mean, true. It's like Paris Kim. Like you're on that level because you have like your own brand. So it's like, don't gas her like that. No, I'm going to go home. You know I hate everyone. I'm like,
No, I really do like hate everyone. I was telling you, I literally like hate everyone, but I like actually like love you because you've always been nice, like through everything, like, you know, the whole David, Jason, all that stuff. It's like you've always been like just so nice. So I was just like, I never had. I mean, there was nothing. I mean, you know me. It's not like I'm like a fake bitch. Like if I didn't like you, I would definitely be like, fuck.
her, but I've always liked you because it's like, I think that there's a lot of things about us that are so similar. We're both just like, we say what's on our mind. We're crazy. We're scandalous. Obviously, like in my eyes, you were entirely the better version of anything I could ever be. But I just mean like, I like, I fucking love you. I know.
I was like, no, you're the better version. You're 10 years younger, like hotter. She's so cap. Like the successful fucking rich icon. I can't do it. This is going to be us just gassing. I know, I know, I know. We should get into like dirt or something. Yeah, definitely. Oh, bitch, I'm ready for everything. Do we have, are you? Because I feel like you're so in now. You're like on top. Like you shouldn't like try and get into drama or like bring yourself down.
I feel like coming down to my level. I feel like I'm falling off. You're definitely on top, for sure. The way that she was just on the most viral podcast of this century. And it's like, you're on top. I'm like, I hope mine does one one thousandth of what yours did. That's what I'm saying. Within a day, I went to the bottom of the barrel again. You know what I mean? That's what I'm saying. You need to cash in now. That's more mentally for you. You felt like you were going to the bottom.
No, it was like legit. You were killing regardless. No, my channels are like 70,000 views. I was getting like, you know what I mean? Which is fine. It's up and down. No, but you'll have like eight videos in a day and everyone's like watching them all. And you don't edit them at all. I'm spamming. No, I wish I could not edit like you, but I'd just be like...
I'm not an icon. Like, I just stare at the camera for like eight minutes. Like, what do I, you know what I mean? Like, what do I fucking do? No, you're good though. No, I mean, obviously I think I'll always be in and out of scandals. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I don't even look at it right now. Like, I need to be good. Like, I just know it's coming. Like, it's like, you know what I mean? Like, whatever. But you know, like, I'm not a shit person. It's not like you're doing things that are illegal. You know, I feel like your scandals are always like you based. You know what I mean? Which is good. It's entirely her fault. Yeah, which is, I think that's good. You based. Yeah. They're always, always, because it's always.
That's true. You're not hurting other people. Yeah, I don't want like children or anything weird. Who should we cancel? We're here like fucking, we're here. I don't know, Trisha. I mean, well, I want to just ask you about literally everything in your life. So you and Moses, that's what, I'm just interested in like the wholesome shit kind
of how are you guys? We're good. He's here today. Yeah. Are you guys ever want to do like a I know I know a lot about your history with like you. You want to have kids that there's like, you know, whatever, which I mean, like that's that's crazy within itself. Would you ever adopt? You guys want to do something there? I mean, yeah. Yeah.
- I would adopt. I don't know if they'll let me. You can't adopt if you have a mental illness. So I think there's a lot of evidence that says I have a mental illness. - It's really the way I've always wanted to adopt, and I think you just told me that. I don't wanna have kids. I can't. - No, you'll change your mind. - No, no, no. I mean, I don't wanna be pregnant. The idea of pregnancy terrifies me so much. - You don't wanna monetize it? - Like, what? - She's lying. - Just you? - Yeah. - Like right now.
No, but I would adopt. Like, I want to have like an Angelina Jolie moment. I want to go save the children. I think you need to do like, I think you're on the turnaround. So I think you'll be able to do it. Maybe don't do the sex tape if you're going to do that.
Oh, really? Because I think they look down upon that. I don't know why, but I do know they like look down upon like sex workers for some reason. I don't know why. That's what I heard. That's so crazy. I've looked into adoption and they're like so strict. Really? Yeah, they're like crazy. Well, damn, I know of her fucking rich ass. I can never, I can't. Trisha, that's another thing I'm so curious about is money because I think that, first of all, like, like obviously, you know, I like the flex culture. Like, you know what I mean? Like, you know, like I love rich shit and whatever, but when I look at me in comparison to you, I'm like, I,
Like she's so fucking you say that with everybody, but it's like you went to Jojo's house and said that but I was like No, you're fucking Richard. No, your only fans is probably making you like what like a million dollars a month or something, right? Yeah, it does on months where I'm good like for sure I could definitely make like a million or a couple million but then obviously sometimes I'll take a like I just never like to do things when I'm not super like into it cuz I don't want it to be too forced Yeah, I don't want to schedule content for only
fans with IG daddies like I'm like I want to take pictures of my ass when I'm in the mood yeah but now I'm getting back into it we're doing something really cool with it right now actually like a little Tanagon wild type feel oh look at it what is it like what are you doing like flashing people well obviously yes I honestly it's more just like shit I absolutely can't put on YouTube like the porny side of my vlogs the crazy shit like I'm excited though for like a little BTS is your only subscription or is it like it's a subscription it's like five dollars a month
That's what I'm doing. No, that's people can like buy on top of the wall. I have a free one too So that one's I'm doing like that's what I want to do is do it like this She told me the guy on only fans was like yeah, Tana's like free page like kills it I was like, oh I want a free page like I started it. Yeah So crazy that like how much you know like shit like I just I just I'm mind-blowing. Oh, yeah, it's like worth it. Oh
- You know what, I do, I do. Okay, like it's tame, like right compared to like, but it's also more risque than some people. Some people just aren't bikini or whatever. Like you are more risque. It's tame though. But I feel like, yeah, if you were like. - Going in. - Yeah. - But you can, you know, like. - You can, like you talk about it. So it makes sense. - Yeah, for sure. I mean, obviously I want to just get more and more wild with it over time. 'Cause I never want to be like stagnant and not give people what they deserve. - Buenos dias world from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. - And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
I'm curious. Do you, when it comes to, no, this isn't even that bad. Finances, do you say, like, are you, explain to me, are you spending everything every second? Like, what? I just want to know. Because I love this life. You can't die with money. Yeah, agreed. Don't get me wrong. Obviously, I'm being forced by a thousand people to be smart and whatever. But I mean, like, not forced, like rightfully guided. But I mean, like.
Like, I love the way that you live. Do you like, have you always been this way? Yeah, I love spending money. I love it. Like my last music video, I spent like $250,000 on just for fun. Yeah, I literally saw a clip on TikTok. It looked like the coolest video of everything in my entire life. Yeah, we just like knocked off My Chemical Romance. We did like this whole like army thing. I just love when you do whatever the fuck you want to. I love spending money. And the way that, I want to talk too, just to randomly transition, it just made me think about this, your gender identity.
I like, it is so cool to me that you, you just will be whatever and do whatever. Cause I'm pansexual. So I always have said like, I'm into whatever. And people always think I'm bisexual. I just let them go. I don't care. But I just mean like, I don't care what you are, who you are. I love you and whatever. And so I love that. Like you are just like, I identify as like what, you know, just, yeah, I love that work. I love being non-binary. If I had kids, I would have like no gender. Like I love having no gender, you know, like, yeah, I think like a human themselves.
You get to decide. It's your life. Yeah, I feel like people always criticize, like, especially young kids. Like, that's a boy toy. That's a girl toy. You know, like, you know, I hate it. Like, you know, I became, like, really femme, like, presenting because, like, you know, it's like it gets people to click and whatever. So I'm like, big boobs. You know what I mean? But, like, that's not me. Like, normally I look like, you know, I look like
like a boy like my nails whatever I'm like biting my nails all the time now like I just I love being that too so I like switched I'm gender fluid I literally love that I've been trying to like learn a lot more about that from like Demi too like the way that they're just like doing their own thing I love TikTok for that because like we didn't know non-binary like I'm 30
So like, you know, when you're like, when I was a kid, like there was like not non-binary. Yeah. It's all like new. I think everyone's learning so much right now. And as long as you're open to like learning and like growing, I think it's like so, so amazing. You've done so much for me too, to like, like show me like what, like how to, you know, how to call what people need to be called and their pronouns. Yeah. It's really, really cool. What do you identify as?
- He/him. - He/him, straight. - Yeah. - Yeah. - Love that. - He's the most normal, like, not normal, but I mean, the way I just began telling myself, that's not what I mean, I just mean. - I was like me, yeah. - Yeah, like, just like. - You're like the unicorn now because so many people are, you know what I mean? - I know. - Like, exploring everything, so that's like. - He really is maybe the only person in my friend group
- That like identifies. - Yeah. - Like I can't and I'm just like go off kink. - We love that too. We love straight people. Yeah, we love everybody. - I love all my friends, whatever they wanna be is so cool. - Yeah, I love it. I used to be like, oh, I hate straight people, but now I love straight people. I'm back to that. 'Cause I used to only like queer and now I'm like, okay, no, straight people I love too. I can't discriminate. 'Cause I would, you know, I hated like cis straight men for so long. I was just like, oh my God, they're the worst. - I mean, I don't know. Maybe I'm still on that. I don't even know. I'm kidding.
I'm just kidding. You have to say something to get canceled. That's the podcast. I'm so excited to see what you say on here because I feel like you have such a mouth. You know what I mean? For damn sure. But like you, you reigned it in lately. And so I was like, oh, you think so? Yeah. Wow. That's honestly sweet. I feel like the last like your tweet to like about Tristan was like the last like old Tana thing I saw. And I was like, well, I'm like,
Yes. Oh my God. My first podcast was like an apology to True. Literally. Oh, just true. Okay. Yeah. Like their kid. I was like, I didn't mean to drag the kid into it, but I couldn't fucking feel Chloe was coming for me. She just hung out with the Stan account that was like canceling me the other day. And I was like, you, you gonna just get lunch with this Twitter Stan that came from me. Okay. Now,
just starting it all over again one more time stop it probably has nothing to do with me i'm just assuming but that's weird like why who hangs out with children like that that's weird i don't get it just just interesting just funny i don't know maybe it has nothing to do with me i'm just being self-obsessed but when it comes to tiktok and the internet how do you feel like tiktok i mean do you like i never i didn't even ever think i thought you'd always be like fuck tiktok never even get on it you know i love it and
- And I love how present you are on TikTok. Do you like it more than YouTube? Do you like it? - Yeah. - Really? - Yeah, I love it more. 'Cause my YouTube, I just, I don't know what to do on YouTube. You know, I do the same thing, which is like eating, which is like fun or whatever. But like, I don't have ideas anymore for YouTube. TikTok's fun because like people give you ideas, you know, you just like- - Entirely. - Yeah, it's like just creating like your own memes. - Way more raw. You can just throw a video up and just let it go and do its thing.
visibility like way more people see it I just entirely they can just be anyone on your free screen yeah oh I live for it ADHD like I have such bad ADHD so I'm always like just like you know what I mean just a thousand ideas a thousand things at once it's so much easier obviously I'll always love YouTube because it's like you know like what gave me anything I'd ever have and shit like that you can't like leave YouTube I know
It's really just editing like in trying to like get it's just so much more I mean, I don't matter but just get an editor for you I'll cancel every person she does not she is so I have to go on talk. I'm psycho Yeah, I just feel like people don't like I don't know but maybe I'm just being too crazy It's not like I'm known for high quality editing
or high quality videos. No, yours is good. Yours is good. Like, yeah, I don't add it. I can't add it to say my life. But is it ever crazy to you to think about where you came from YouTube all the way to now to TikTok? Like, when I think about like, the way I first like really started watching you was your shit with like Shane and shit like that. You know what I mean? Like to come from now. Yikes, I'm canceled. No, I never even like,
Talk about change. And now I can't even deal. Like, I don't know that that time of life was very interesting. Yeah. Do you ever comment on it? Like your scandal, like getting Pete, like you peed on him when you were like 18 or something. I don't even know. Wait, really? That was like crazy. He texted me yesterday and was like, you fucking peed on Chando. So I was like, kind of. How old were you? I really don't. The way it's like, I don't know.
I don't I kind of do feel like I was 18 but let's say I was like 18 in a day I don't even know it's not on you though like that's what I'm saying like that kind of stuff is never on like of course you're 17 and you want to be like you love Shane and just like wanted you know what I mean like whatever my idol like yeah and I know like it is a strange thing to look back on you you definitely I was saying this to you before you I've always just lived my life very crazily I think we're similar in that sense like we just
grew up in a very crazy turbulent way and we live life so crazy. And then it's like, you kind of wake up one day and you're like,
maybe these things all weren't normal or strange. I'm not trying to cancel anyone for anything because I don't have any room, but it is very... No, but you so do. I like that you're coming around to this because you're actually still young to know this kind of stuff and realize it. But I like that you say something because you are known as being so wild. And I am too. When you're open and you're very sexual, people just think they can do and say whatever. And people really will. I've realized how much people will discredit
I guess trauma or just crazy shit or like whatever when you are wild. You really did like open my eyes to a lot of that. On Frenemies, you said something about like, I hope she doesn't like, you know what I mean? Like go so crazy and wake up one day and like be so broken or like something like that. You know what I mean? Yeah. It was a very like eye-opening thought to me. And then like it is wild. It's funny too because this.
I wish I could just say it. Should I just say it? It's kind of fucked up. Leap it, cancel it. Should I just say it? I guess we'll cut it out. But this YouTuber, I don't know if I was 17 or 18. I was like on the brink, but I was at a playlist live and they were like trying to hook up with me. And
I like, I just, it's something I never even like thought of again. You know what I mean? It was just like, and obviously it was like an older guy and whatever, but I mean, we're friends now. And like, obviously I'm not saying I should, it's right. It's not right. It's entire, but I don't know if I was 17 or 18 and I don't, I don't know if anything so bad ever happened to where it's like condemning them. It was more just like a, a flirty weird encounter or whatever. And a couple of weeks ago I got a call from.
that should I say it? That Gabbie Hanna was trying to sell to them that this YouTuber like hooked up with me when I was like underage and then it was fucked up and I was like what if this was my trauma? Is this fucked up to say or like what if this it was so insane to me I don't because after all the escape the night shit
I wasn't like super in it. Like obviously it was an experience and you know, I could have a lot of shit to say. Yeah, that's gross. I know. Well, I liked, I liked a Joey Graceffa tweet about what, you know, like, you know, just impertinence to like his video or whatever. Yeah. And then I get this call. Gabby Anna called me and said, this YouTuber was trying to hook up with you. Oh, I hate that. I hate that. Buenos dias world from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
I didn't even think about the fact. I was like, damn, well, now that I'm thinking about it, I guess that could be something that could be, but it's mine to like have or not have. You cannot bring someone else's trauma public. Like if you've never talked about it, if you're friends with this person, like regardless of how, like how wrong it was. Ew. No, hey, no, ew. Like, I'm sorry. They're like, there's like, I don't know.
I don't know. That's like the one person like I actually think is like a vile, like disgust. Like, you know what? Like, I'd rather like lick David Dobrik's nuts than ever see that girl again. Like, I would rather like she's vile. And then like hearing that stuff makes me like it really makes me just so upset. Like, I hate that. That series was a very interesting standpoint. I mean, I always will keep up and like watch like tea spilling crazy shit and shit, you know, but I don't I don't know. Like, I don't actually know a lot about your guys. It's like, what's her what's her problem?
Or should I not even ask? I don't know. No, I mean, literally the thing was that she told Jason I had, like, herpes. I never, like, we were not friends. But then her whole series was proving that we were friends, like, before she told Jason I had herpes. She told him I had herpes. You know she just has every text from, like, fucking, like, 2012. She does. She put it all out there. And it was just, like, me being nice to her from, like, till in 2017. And then me being, like, fuck off after 2017. And she's, like... And then I went on her podcast to try to be cool with her. But that girl, she's, like, delusional. But also, like, scary. Because, like, obviously with the Jessie Smiles thing, she used her R word. And then that is, like...
It's so gross. And you know, like, yeah, that whole, oh, yeah, I hate that. I need an update super. Obviously, Joey and Daniel and I were on his kid. That's really my only, like, you know, connection to the situation. Because we're just very different people, Gabby and I. Like, we had very similar online presences, but it's funny. No, girl. Not even close. Not even. Story time. You know what I mean? Like, just like. I think she wanted to maybe be you, but not. Not even. You.
You are not. No, but I mean, yeah. That was the first thing. And that's what's so funny. She thinks I talk shit about her, everyone. But like you were like, it was the first thing we talked about was like you just came up to me like, I hate Gabbie Hanna too. And I was just like, oh, okay. You know what I mean? This was right after I think the first Escape the Night and shit went...
Shit was just crazy. I mean, like, obviously you see both sides. It was just clearly like just not a hostile environment. I remember my first escape the night. I was definitely a piece of shit. I was late to everything. This was major depressive young ass. But you're 18. Like whatever. I mean, yeah. I mean, I don't want to make excuses because I could have been better. It was my first big production. But 18 on a reality show is like stressful. Were you probably younger? Or were you 18? I don't know. I think I might have been 18 because I remember a lot of the guys on the show trying to fuck me. So I mean.
Oh, why not? No, but I'm... No, people are... I guess they're... I guess a little more age appropriate if you're 18 and they're, like, in their 20s. No, but I remember actually literally crying to Joey. Like, shit's gonna... It was just... It was... I don't... I'm not trying to, like...
I'm scared of getting sued by Gabby. No, don't worry. She's not doing anything. She's like struggling, you know what I mean? Because it's like the truth though too. You know what I mean? Like I hate when people are like, I'm going to sue this person. Like, you know, if it's the truth, you know, it's the truth. It's just what it is. I was really like in YouTube for so long. It really, honestly, I'm not even going to lie until you were on frenemies where they just
unafraid to like talk your shit about people yeah it almost reignited a new fire in me to be like i was so afraid for so long of like just telling the truth about shit it could be the cold hard truth but i'm like a people aren't gonna believe me i'm tana fucking mojo i'm psycho b i get so scared of people like where it's like i could say like you know gabby and i didn't have the best time on escape the night we you know there were moments where we were friends i'm not gonna lie like we i'm not gonna sit here and act like we were never friends but i'm saying like
Yeah. Like I was scared to even just like say something like that because I'm like, what if she finds our text on 2015 and can't believe anyone in that case? I just, I was so afraid of that. Even just not doing a podcast for so long. I was like, I'm going to talk my truth about so much and I was so afraid of so many people. Yeah. Even if you're telling the truth, you still feel like wrong by saying it. That's what's fucked up. Yeah. But that's what,
so sad and i'm glad people are like saying like the truth and stuff like i'm coming forward because i think like people are so scared i think it just comes especially because you are young and you are in that world still like you know what i mean like i'm 33 like i'm not in that world i can say this stuff like who fucking cares but if you see these people at a party it's like awkward it's like weird you know what i mean but also like yeah that's true i mean i guess everyone's like even more down to say anything because you're like i'm not gonna see this person yeah right me just like no i'll stop talking
I saw myself there and my lawyers off camera like, good job. You're doing, yeah, no, yeah, it's so good. No, but I think, like, overall, I think you have a pretty good people around you. I feel like I got super broken. Like, I developed, like, schizophrenia when I was, like, 31, which I, like, never had. And I think it's because, like, I was the same. Like, at six years old, I was, like, molested by, like, a teacher. You know what I mean? Like, full on. Really? When I was in high school, yeah. So, and then. Yeah, Hunter and I have, like, talked a lot about that. I, like, it's such a crazy thing to me. Obviously, I've been, like, taken advantage of by people. But at such a young age, the way that can shape your brain.
Yeah, and you think it's... You didn't realize until later along. I thought it was fun to me. I thought the same exact thing. You're like, this is cool. Yeah, I'm like a kid in high school. I'm doing my thing. It's chill. Yeah, I'm just like... And then when people start being like, yo, you know what's actually not chill? That wasn't okay. And you're like, no, it was fun. I'm still in therapy. I'm like, I seriously have no trauma from it. Wow, I need your therapist. Oh my goodness, now you're deleting trauma. My nightmares.
nightmares be going dummy no but that's good you like recognize it as trauma for me because even like your age even 23 you know I was just doing like the most with the most people and thinking like everything's cool like whatever you know what I mean it's just but I still catch myself being like that but now I will look back at a lot of shit from like 15 to 18 and be like that a lot of that wasn't true yeah like you know what I mean and it's good yeah it's good to recognize it for you and it's also good when you talk about it because I think just more people see like I remember you did a TikTok talking about it and I was like oh this is so cool that like she can like
see it you know what I mean it's hard for every person to realize that it's so late or at different times yeah and like once you're able to start coming to terms with like this wasn't okay this was like you know whatever it is then you're like able to start healing from it but until you get to that point oh yeah I never was in therapy until I was like 29 I had to go to like a mental hospital before like I had to be like forced into therapy and medication therapy is so hard too finding the right therapist is the whole thing and reliving the trauma is like that's like that was that was always my biggest
You know what I mean? I was just like, God, I already went through it. I don't want to relive it. But it's like you have to to like kind of get past shit. You know what I mean? Yeah. Like I don't know your full story, but I know like you talked about like just stuff with your parents, stuff like that. And I was just like, okay, like I feel like especially your childhood and stuff like that. I know there's like dark shit there. And I was just like, damn, she really did good though. You know what I mean? And you're really doing good. Well, I love you. Yeah, I'm still really trying to process the childhood like demons. It's still so hard for me because it's so weird. I don't speak to my parents at all at this point. So it's kind of like –
You know what I mean? It's a very interesting situation trying to process that. Just all of that kind of stuff. That's hard on to itself. I went a long time without talking to my dad. I was angry at my mom in high school. Your mom's an icon. Sorry, that was probably not a good time. Your whole family is such a fucking icon. Now they're icons for sure. There was a moment when you go through it. I love that. It's so dope that you were able to get to a point where you do shit with her. I love it. You never know. You could get a relationship and then you might not.
You know, it's up to you. You never know. You never know. Whatever. I think no matter what happens, it'll happen. But you don't have to either. You know what I mean? If they're awful, then. But they can change. You never know. My dad did a 180. He used to have like a huge anger management problem with all this crazy stuff. And now he's like that goes to church like a saint. Like it's just weird. That's awesome that he like took the step to, you know, want to change. So that's, that was always kind of my thing is I, one of the things I just feel like the biggest life lesson for me was just like, you cannot change someone who does not want to be changed.
You know what I mean? Oh, yeah. They have to take that step. Obviously, it's a very just like corny, generic life lesson, but it's the truth. Like no one, you know what I mean? You can never force someone to make that. But also, even if he's changing, it doesn't mean you have to like, you know, forgive. Exactly. Like that could be entirely for them. Like my dad, I don't talk to either. And like he's doing the same thing. He's going to church, doing that. Right. I'm like, yeah, he's still not a good guy to me, in my opinion. Yeah. Good for you, but like not worth it.
that we're good here. You don't need to forgive anyone. Yeah, exactly. A thousand percent, even if it's your parents. Buenos Dias World from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
So, I mean, as much as reliving all of our childhood traumas, great. I, this is, there's something on this table. That means so much to me. I'm so excited. Okay, yeah. So, Hunters, you can just tell. You don't know what this is? He's not a fishy. Oh my God. Like I. Oh my God, fishy. Like 2009. Trish like fish. Okay. I'm a fishy. You're a fishy now. I'm a fishy now. I don't think I've said this since like 2011. Why am I like,
But Trisha eats these. Tell me specifically what they are before I have some scandal for just fucking this up. Who even knows? Right. They're Korean fried cheese. Like they're Korean cheesy dogs. And a lot of people do ASMR. You can like bite into it or you can just go away from the camera if you don't want to be like annoying with it. Yeah. I mean, I think we both accept being like this girl is kind of dating and she was doing something with like ASMR. She does full ASMR. It's iconic. Hunter fully was like fucking ASMR. Oh my God. Is she popping off?
Bad people I feel like that's why I'm a thing on Friday. I get there bad people or like at least you take accountability Maybe they're not bad people many people not called out like then you can I mean, I love that entirely anyways I
changed I feel like we used to call him out in front of me and then I feel like he kind of like I see you hang out with him I'm like I feel like you kind of changed a little bit I'm just like with him and she somehow like likes me which I don't even know why and she's like he's changed no I'm kidding no because he DM'd me once to like call him out in front of me and I felt like he was
I mean, yeah, I fully I was just telling her this off camera. I fully there was I mean, obviously, at the time I was being hypocrite. I had no room to try to condemn anyone, but I fully tried to cancel Bryce Hall. I was like, he's the worst. But then, I mean, we were just young and like dumb and like, you know what I mean? And then I got to know Bryce and a lot of the shit. And he's he's had a harder life, I think,
than a lot of people. Obviously, they just see, like, the Addison Rae shit and they assume he's just, like, this TikTok guy, but he's actually been through some shit. Yeah. And he's pretty smart and, like, I like who Bryce is lately and now and, like, whatever. And you can condemn, you can cancel people. Just because you're canceled doesn't mean you can cancel people. See, that's the advice I need. You hold people accountable. If anyone knows who should be canceled is someone who's canceled. You know what I mean? Like, I see my behavior in people and I'm like, they need to also be canceled. Like, I did this and you do this too. Should we eat the Jersey Corn? All the time, Trisha's never, like, canceled me for some dumb ass shit. She's like, I see that. I see that.
But you know, I feel like with you, I've always just like seen me, you know what I mean? Like with all this stuff, like, but you're doing it 10 times better. Like I was like fucking like D-list celebrities. You're actually going for like TikTokers, rappers, like, you know, the thing. I've had my fair share of D-list. Don't you worry, Shorty. Don't say that. They're like names, you know what I mean? Like I feel like. You should see the ones that aren't names.
Mine's like zealous like nobody knows. No, literally. I'm like you look like you eat cigarettes. Fuck me right now. I'm terrible. I'm joking. My boyfriend's gonna kill me. So what are these flavors here? What are we doing? Trisha eats these so iconically. I've never really done an ASMR eating moment, but I want you to teach me like the like
Like I want you to teach me right now how to like eat this shit like a hot bitch. Yeah, let's do it. Is this hot Cheetos? I've actually never seen this one. Is it the hot Cheeto thing? It looks like hot Cheetos. Yeah. So this is, this is mozzarella. This is. Is this like cinnamon on the outside? That's.
That's like powder sugar. Oh my God. And then that's like potatoes. And I guess that's like a hot Cheeto. I don't know. I've never seen this red on it before. Or maybe it's not. Maybe I'm just like on. Should I put it here? All right. Sure. Are these sauces for it? Do you dip it in the sauce? Oh, I've never seen that one. You don't like sauce, right? No, I don't eat sauce.
I don't eat sauces, but like go for it. She eats her burgers plain. I know so much. Yeah. Like she literally eats her burgers fully plain. I know. I eat everything so plain, but I just, I mean, I love food. I'm like a mustard and ranch whore. Really? Everyone grab one. I love hot Cheetos. Okay. Okay, ranch. You don't like ranch? No. That is so funny. I wouldn't take you as a ranch girl. Really? All right. No, I die. I die. Wait, I'm so excited. Okay, see that? It's the noise she automatically makes. It just comes out of her. Wait, okay, but I want to try it. Oh my God.
Get close. Okay, wait. I'm just getting close. She's teaching me a lot. She's making me a lot of money. She's making me more money than you. I feel like if they were hotter, it definitely could be a little bit better. Yeah, when they're warm, they pull. Yeah, so you're not getting a pull, but they're still there. I love the terminology. Wait, oh my god.
It's kind of like a very boozy version of course it is because Trish is boozy. I have like a mozzarella stick on a stick. Yeah, that's basically what it is. I'm learning. I've only ever just been obsessed with watching people and I wanted to wait. They're really good. Is this like one spot in LA that people go for this? There's a chain now. Oh, beautiful. Because of Trish. She's my guy of equity.
I should, honestly. No, but like if you eat them in the car when they're like piping hot, they're like, that's what I eat. I die. That's literally, oh my God, I can't with you. Everything means fucking Domino's Swarovski. The other day I was showing my man. Oh, the VIP Domino's and live for Domino's too. I just love food. I die for Domino's. Good thing we didn't have it last year. I've had whatever. This is so cool. I'm sorry. I got really excited.
I'm so glad you're here. No, I swear to God, like, and I'm not trying to, like, make fun of Pete. Like, obviously, I have schizophrenia, too. But I swear to God, sometimes I hear voices. And, like, literally, it's like, oh, you're here. And I was like, yeah, this is so cool. So I, like, heard a voice right there. Wait, I kind of love that. Hi, Trisha's voice. I'm on medication for him. Sometimes I still hear voices. And they're like, oh, you're here.
yeah, I love it. Trisha, for you? Sorry. No, why? Sorry, I don't mind. I love you for exactly who you are, so please don't ever. But beyond that, at the same time, I think that obviously there's the fun side of it, but kind of battling that. Like, while you're in an entire online presence, like, you know what I mean? Like, here, obviously, like, I fucking love who you are, but if there was ever a moment, like, you know what I mean? What is that like? Like, battling that on a day-to-day basis? It's new. It's so new. Really? Mm-hmm. And, like, I developed it at a time when I, or it came to light at a time when I was, like, so happy and content. Like,
Was like on the internet I was making money I got engaged like everything was going good I mean like the voices are getting like worse and like they changed from Yeah, oh Spicy stuff on it sounds like a little nervous. That's good So you said it came recently in like the cobit time or like I
When you're like at home, like kind of dealing with more stuff. Yeah, like in January. That's the worst one. Sorry. Oh yeah, no, you're good. My ADHD is jumping out. Well, my voices are jumping out, so I'm listening to that. But at least we're not using them to be shit people. Right. Oh my God, yeah. Oh, you have ADHD? Crippling. Oh my God, and then Gabby over here being like, I'm on ADHD, that's why I was such an asshole. I was like, really? Because Deanna's always been sober.
I didn't know you had ADHD. Well, I mean, I've been an asshole in the sense of my ADHD making me late and terrible and not motivated. That's different, though. You're not like a vicious person. You're not like vile, like trying to ruin someone's life. I hate you. It's my ADHD. Yeah. You're not like exploiting people's traumas and all that stuff like that. It's truly kind of crazy. But to circle back, Trisha, I think that, I mean, there are very few people who are open about battling schizophrenia on a platform. And I just said to you, even like,
you being so open about traumas and stuff like that and about things not being okay truly inspired me to be able to be better about that and to be open and shit like that. But for you to be open about something like that too, it's just like, it's crazy. Do you ever meet fans that go through stuff like that too? Oh, yeah. Like a lot.
a lot more people than you think. And again, TikTok, like not to be up like Gen Z's ass or anything, but like TikTok is really good with that kind of stuff. You know, people talking about non-binary borderline, like all that stuff like that. It's like, it's really, really cool because like no one talked about it before, you know? So I thought something was just like wrong with me. And then I was like, oh, you know, but like it's, I was untreated for so long. That's why I talk about it so much because yeah, like you can have like really bad case of ADHD and it can cause you to, but you have to get it like treated. Like you can't just blame it. You know what I mean?
you have to get help. It's also really cool when you're able to start speaking about, like I speak about mental health as well and I think doing that just changes the messages you get as well. Now people are more comfortable talking about what's going on in their life. I think when you really start being crazy open about all the like, sorry. Yeah, no, perfect. Exactly what you're saying. No, but it's true because
- You can be both. Like, you know, you can be like a mess and have it, but also like coping with mental, you know what I think it's like good. Cause I think, you know, if people are more open about it, I think it's a good thing. - My favorite thing about Trisha is the speed that she talks at. I watch every single YouTube video at two times speed. And right now she's like talking and I'm just like,
I just want to take it all in. I liked that you always kept it real about who you liked and didn't like on front of me and stuff like that. I hate when people think I don't like you because you're like the one person that I can't judge because you are so open about things. And that's why when like, even to that Instagram versus reality thing, anything when people are like, oh, her angles here. I was like, she's so honest about like, all this stuff like that. Like, I just...
I appreciate that from you because obviously I've had my moments where I look back and I'm like, I could have been more honest. But I'm not going to lie when I look at, because I mean, like we were talking about earlier, like there's so many times where people think that we like hate each other or whatever. And I'm like, no, dude, Trish is just fucking brutally honest. And if someone's doing some lack shit, she's going to call them out. And there are times that Trish has called me out for some shit like face tuning, creating a false beauty standard. I did not call you out for that. I defended you. Ethan did. I was like, she's honest about that. No, I would have never.
I never. No, but I mean, but even just it being like brought to light and you always being honest, like I'll always kind of look at it and be like, I love that. Like, I think that whenever you talk about me, you make me better. It was funny. Even during like COVID shit, you were like, you drove by Saddle Ranch. You were like home of the douchebags, Bryce Hall, Tana Mongeau. And I was like, I should, no, but I swear to God in my head, I was like, maybe I shouldn't.
No, no, no. Okay. I swear to God. I genuinely appreciate your realness. I think that's so much better than fake influencer bullshit. I feel like that kind of stuff because people do. I realize some people do take offense to it. I was like, oh my God. But the thing is, when you're old, when you get old like me or like Wendy Williams, you have to talk about young people because that's what's relevant. I couldn't give a fuck who's at Saddle Ranch, but it's like, okay, this is what everyone's talking about. Let's talk about it. I get more offended when people think they invented Saddle Ranch. Zayn and Heath are like, we invented Saddle Ranch. I'm like, no, Bret Michaels did in 2007 with Rock of Love.
like people were doing yeah they had a reality show all pop culture oh I watch I hate watch so many podcasts and I watch the same he's one of the literally like yes we were with Saddle Ranch before it was cool I was like no you weren't like I hate that so much
I only ever hopped on the Saddle Ranch trend, to be fair, when it was cool. But I'll say that I'm a little fucking clout whore. I'm like, I love it. You know what I mean? No, it's everything. I could never go to Saddle Ranch. I used to love Saddle Ranch. I used to love the food, but could never go there. I would fucking die. No, it is. It's actually so anxious. I mean, I like going there, and I'll just drink through the anxiety of it, obviously, which isn't good. Sorry, guys. Coping mechanisms. Working on them every day. I'm not the best coping mechanism. But...
No, it is crazy. Saddle wrench is like a full on meet and greet. It's like going like every TikToker in the fucking world. But pop culture wise, I just brought this to my attention. One thing I wanted to talk to you about randomly. I brought it up on the last podcast, but I feel like you might have some insight on this that it would just interest me. I think I'm just a Trisha fan and I want to know free Britney. Tell me your mom, Trisha.
- Oh my God, yeah, I've been on the Free Britney movement for a moment. I love Britney so much. I mean, that's another good example of someone that's like, "Oh," like this is what I hate when people like label someone like crazy or they look at someone crazy because she had a mental breakdown and so now people use that against her for life. And I feel not to like bring it back, but that's like kind of like you, if people like label you as just one thing you think, "Oh, I can't talk about it, I can't do this," because they label you as this. And so then when you do talk about it, then you're under a conservatorship or now you're crazy, your kids are taken away or something. For something you did in your past,
did in your past and like she just couldn't control and now she's still and she's fully mentally aware like when you were listening to the audio like she's fully like there and mentally capable she went on tour she did all this stuff it's like first of all yeah if you can work and make millions I said this last time you you are far well like capable of doing whatever the fuck you have to do but her voice and the way she talked on that recent fucking what's that called like a
court hearing. Yeah, something like that. Like the way she... I don't... I don't know either. I don't think we're down here trying to be like Webster's Dictionary. People don't expect that of us. But...
It was crazy to hear her be so like, you know what I mean? Just like smart. Coherent. Yeah. Like insane. I was watching her listen to it and she was just like crying. Like so much emotion because I think that like you're able to identify with certain aspects of, you know, things. You and I resonate hard with you, Brittany, because people probably tried to do the same thing to you. Take your money. Like, yeah. Take, you know what I mean? Your freedom. You're like just everything.
Like, still to this day, yeah. I mean, even, like, with the last, like, front of me's blow up, everyone's just like, oh, she's just crazy. This is what she does. This is her pattern. Even if I'm, like, completely in the wrong or in the right, which I have been proven to be in the right with so many situations. And they're just like, no one wants to even listen because you have that reputation. And, like, you know, that's why I feel sad when you're like, oh, I don't want to talk about anyone or cancel anyone because who am I to talk? Or, like, even talking about, like, stuff that you felt uncomfortable with. Like, you're allowed to feel uncomfortable even if you participated and you were willingly participating in it. You know what I mean? Validating 10 hours over one hour. But you know what I mean? Because, like, I know, like,
no, like for instance, the pee thing, not to go back to that, but like the pee thing is specifically like that. I did, I did so much of that stuff when I was like 18 and younger, 17, 16. I would like do the like craziest shit. Like let people like show me, PM, all this crazy stuff. And then I was just like, you know, I was like, Oh, I liked it, whatever. But then like realizing it, like actually like hated it. It made me feel so sad or whatever. But like you didn't, don't process it. Cause at the time you're like, no, it was cool. It was fun. And then you're like, Oh no, this was like a fun fucked up. Not that,
Not that it's in your process of how you want, you know what I mean? But I mean, yeah. I mean, there's just so much. I can think of a thousand instances in my life where I can just, you know, things were like, you know, they were dope and normal. And then I was like, oh, that's great. But if you loved it too, some people love peeing on people. And if you love it, then that's fine too. I'm not trying to. I still get peed on. Yeah.
I was going through a phase the other day with my boyfriend where I think I just wanted to feel something. I was so bored. I was like, what do we do? Yeah. Let me fucking kill me. And then when I was like, babe, take a breath. No, it's hot. I mean, it's either hot because you have trauma or it's hot because it's hot. Because I used to love it too. But it's like a degradation thing. It's like being degraded. You like love it. I love a good degrading. But I think that. Who literally asked. And I was like, it was the first time I've ever had someone like want that.
Yeah. And I was like, is this a degrading thing? Yeah. Like, you're more than welcome. You're valid. You are. And I like turned her off. You're like, no. But then I did it. And I did like it for so long. But then you're like, oh, I don't know why. Then you didn't like it. You know, you're fine. You can like it and then not like it. I'm fully going to tattoo. It's either hot because you have trauma or it's hot because it's hot. That's the best quote I've ever heard.
- You never know, you know, it's kind of like whatever, but. - Buenos dias world from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. - And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
I mean, honestly, like, even though I joked about it coming to an end, I really thought it would be forever. Because, like, obviously I'm marrying, like, his brother-in-law, you know? So that, because I can't imagine him doing, right, like, you can't really do that with
I know, literally. No, we actually like started dating. Like, I mean, he knows this, whatever. We actually started dating because I was like, I was always on their podcast. And like, Ethan was always kind of an asshole to me. And I was like, oh, it'd be like so funny if I like fucked Hila's brother. You know what I mean? And like, he knows that. Like, you know. You and I have so much in common. Yeah. I swear to God. The way I would spite fuck someone's brother because they were talking shit about me on their podcast is just dark. Oh, yeah. I was so excited to go back and talk about it and stuff like that. So we like took pictures like on the first date kind of thing, you know, because I was like, well, I want to show this. You know what I mean?
Like you want to be. Yeah. So I feel, I feel like that's like where that all started. But yeah, I thought it would be a long time because we were like, cool. You know what I mean? But yeah. Yeah. I think the ending like honestly wasn't my fault. And I'm just going to say that here because everyone's like, oh no, it's really your fault. But yeah. I don't know how vindicated you're going to be when you're vindicating yourself on 10 a
on this podcast? No shit, bitch. No, but like the last podcast he like admitted to like, oh yeah, because he like, you know, whatever. It's like a whole thing to get into. But he like screenshot my text, sent him to his staff. He's like, yeah, I probably shouldn't have done that. You know, basically like saying that I wanted them fired. And I was like, show me a text for it. So you basically like lie, whatever. And I think he ultimately couldn't continue the show because he was the one that was like at fault. In the past, it was my fault, right? Like I called his like wife like a secret. I did all this like horrible shit. No, horrible. Like I was not laughing. I was unmedicated. I was like, not that this
excuse but I was I was it was bad I did horrible shit but like they would always continue the show you know what I mean so this was like something that wasn't that horrible but because he was kind of like in my opinion I was like oh he's in the wrong of this and he can't like face it because he like lied about like me when he fired the crew it was a whole thing to be fair listen to it you know what I mean still jacking off to the two times speed I just can't with you I know I'm obsessed it's ridiculous but I need I need to educate myself more obviously I only I did a take out to the sound like I haven't I need to fully watch that last episode okay
I brought hunter on the podcast and I was like should we have a podcast and you commented like you guys should like something like whatever and I was like I was freaking the fuck out no I don't remember I
I know I comment. I just didn't remember, like, which one. But I know. For sure. I look. Because I always. I never knew what you guys were, like, dating. Not dating. Just a couple of bros. Just a couple. But you dated. I'm brother now. Left you hanging. No. Straight. Straight. Straight. I just got brothers on. No, I'm just kidding. I have a full boyfriend. So, wait. You guys did date? No. No. No. We never dated. Like, never official. Oh, okay. Just cash. Never. Never. No. Okay. No. You're right. You're right. I don't. I mean.
We have different perceptions of it. Yeah, right. Oh, I've dated so many people that don't claim me. No, we actually didn't date. I was just vibing with Hunter. You wanted to date him? It was before we knew who each other were. And we were just becoming friends. And it was just like casual. Yeah, I would almost look at it as like a...
I don't know. Man, my God, we're so awkward with this. Yeah, seriously. No, it was gone. Yeah, I don't know. I mean, and there was a point in time where I was like, Hunter's such a good guy. Maybe I need a good guy. And I convinced myself I needed a good guy. And then I was like, this is like, I don't know. And then she's like, fuck this guy. He's a fucking asshole. Really? Cry me a river. Play the video. No, roll the clip.
How many like how long ago it's crazy like 2017 okay? No, but I but I do remember it literally waking up one day and being like this is you know what I mean like yeah when you're really attached to someone and you care about them or you're in a dark place and you're like I've always been very wild with just hooking up with people and yeah, I like everyone I hook up with all my friends Yeah, I literally fall in love with someone just because they're you know I and I was way worse about it in the past You know what I mean?
And I just like loved Hunter and what he did for me so much. But then I woke up one day and I was like, I want this person in my life for life. And like their life, like the things we've been through, you know what I mean? Like we're just so like family. Like it's absolutely, I sound like someone who got friend zone, but I swear. No, no. I think what she's saying is like she typically will just, she does the sexual aspect to so many people and just like will hook up with them and then like will go.
away yeah like listen i care about her as a human so much more and i'd rather just keep the friendship and keep her as a person in my life because she needed that yeah i need you even was even aware right yeah you're not used to that like i was busting it open for him i would for sure get psycho and lose him so i need so much that i have so smart years ago to absolutely not when you're honestly one of my only friends i haven't but you need that because i'm like so open to like yeah have sex with everybody but i think you do need people that are just like not sexual in that way because then you're you get like you as a person get confused because i was like that too i was like oh
I had sex with him. I'm in love with him. Why don't they love me back? It's like, no, entirely. Exactly. Exactly. And he's honestly one of my few friends I haven't fucked. Like, I'm so grateful. Yeah. Yeah. That's good. Love that friend. Yeah. Hey, guys. Clarified right here, right now. No, I love it. And then you feel like more stable and you feel more secure. And I think that's good. I think that's awesome. And she's like family. Like, I'll literally do anything for her.
her. That's amazing. And like after someone rides for you for so long with nothing to offer them, you kind of realize like they're there to ride for a while. Yeah. You're there in like the lowest points and the top points. And I think very often you see so many people there when you're at your peaks and not people that are there for you when you're in like your low spots. That's so true. It's really hard. I don't think I have anybody. I'm trying to think. I'm like, do I have anybody that's been there for me at my low? Oh my God. Stop. That makes me so mad. I told Trisha today that after this podcast, I was going to be like so up her ass. I don't want to hang out. You can hang out with us anytime at the podcast.
Anytime you want. Are you coming to Saddle Ranch? No, I won't take you there. Showing up to David's house? Stop it.
- Oh my god, I can't, let's do it, let's do it. Come on guys. - I also am just the worst friend, like I will say that. I'm just so bad at like, that's why when people say they're my friends, I'm always like, "Gabby, whatever." I was like, "I don't have friends." 'Cause I just don't hang out with people. I'm the worst friend. I'm really bad at texting. I'm just like, I never leave my house. - It's okay to be that though. I don't think that makes you a bad friend. I think it's about finding people who accept you for like who you are and vibe with you. - I'm like a texter. Like I'll text you and be like, "Hey." - Oh my god, let's text. I'm just texting her. She's gonna ghost me, watch. - No!
I mean, I have definitely got canceled for ghosting people for sure. Me too. Are you kidding? I know. I don't think there's anything wrong with ghosting. It's like an anxiety thing. Like if you just can't text someone back. I know. I take no offense to being ghosted. Same. I don't know if it's because I'm a ghoster though. So I have the other aspect of it. You know what I mean? But yeah. No, because I'm the same way. Like people are like, you should just tell someone how you feel. Like you don't like them or whatever. Like when I was like dating, if you tell someone like, oh, you don't. But I'm like, no, I'd rather just be left on read than be rejected. String it along forever. Yeah. No, I'd rather. String it along. Because if you text someone like,
like three or four times you get the hint and if you don't then you're like there's something wrong with you you know what I mean so like if I text someone three or four times and they don't respond I'm like okay they don't like me like I'm gonna like get over it yeah I know entirely look at our social cues just on fucking yeah you should know that no I can't I mean Trisha I just looked at a little list I made of everything I wanted to talk about did you have a list oh my god I love this well I mean just you know I just wrote I mean you're keep in mind your life is a lot to keep a portable charger guys it's literally the way that that's literally
so heavy. I know, but with the outlet one, this is not sponsored by my church, but oh, this shit is the best. Oh yeah, that's everything the outlet does. No, right? You just put it in the wall, a little lightning cable in it. That's huge though, but I love it. So I know, I take them everywhere. It's like, it's more a part of me because I mean, keeping my phones dead, ghosting people, getting condemned. So I'm trying my best, you know? Yeah. I mean, I feel like I, we hit everything I could have wanted to possibly hit. Like we fucking killed it. Okay, one final question. Why'd you get rid of Jordan?
We shared him as a manager for like a month. Why don't we just ask? I'll ask you a question that I think we both have the same answer to. And then I'll have a few fun questions for you. Are we owed money by him? No comment on that. I have no comment. You both are just like not. No, I'm kidding. Professionalism in a manager is beautiful.
Right. And appropriate nature. I mean, look, your new manager got you this whole thing. He does everything for me and he's the most professional fucking dope icon. I love him. That's it. It's really funny because everyone does ask me. Obviously, I was with Jordan for six, seven fucking years. Yeah. You know what I mean? And I wouldn't change over the world. I learned so much and it was a big part of my life. Hunter knows he was there and whatever. But sometimes people outgrow one another. Sometimes you also, you know.
I don't know. I grew up and I realized what I needed, I guess. And it was just a different relationship. And I wish him the best. Right, right, right. Okay, we're done. We're done. My lawyers all just came in and started yelling. So I think with that being said. That's how you should end every episode. The lawyers coming in yelling. And you are so inspiring in so many ways as well. So many things we talked about across this episode. I'm just so grateful to you for being here. Oh, thank you.
- Thank you. - Do you have anything? Is there anything? I just feel like I need to let her promote anything, get some Trish skin, get some stream the music. The $250,000 music video you better get on Spotify and stream that shit. - Get like 70,000 views. I spent so much money on it. Yeah, I don't know. You can find me on what? OnlyFans? - OnlyFans? - Yeah, OnlyFans. - Should we fuck? - Come on soon. I don't even know what Trish is. I love you so much. - You need to do a sex tape. I do think that. Okay, I love you too. I know we just fucking. - My sex tape's gonna be with Trish. Thank you so much for coming. - I'm down. I need that clown. Give me that clown.
I'm in. I think this was everything I've experienced now. Like, I know how to do like, like lesbian sex on camera. It's different than lesbian sex in real life. Wait, really? Wait, the way I want to end this podcast. I'm sorry. God, I actually want to know. Tell me all about that. What's the difference? You know what, guys? Fuck it. We're leaving. Hopefully Trisha will come back. Oh my God. Yeah. I love you. This is the new friend. Sorry, Ethan. Please, I need a new friend.
Oh my God, please. Do we? Okay, I need to fuck off. Trisha, God bless you. Thank you. Bye guys, stay canceled. Tanimoja is canceled. Buenos dias world from the San Diego Zoo Wildlife Alliance. I'm Marco Wendt. And I'm Rick Schwartz.
And we're your hosts for season three of Amazing Wildlife, a show from iHeartRadio Ruby Studio and the global conservation organization behind the San Diego Zoo and the San Diego Zoo Safari Park. Listen as we dive into the efforts here in San Diego and spotlight the heroes working worldwide to care for the species you know and love. Listen to Amazing Wildlife on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.
