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What's up, guys? It's Sam and Taylor. And we want you to put your shoes on. Pop open that energy drink. And go. Hello, guys. Welcome back to another episode. I'm Taylor. And I'm Sam. This episode, friends. So we go all in on just how to have your most, like, powerful energy.

bad bitch relationship with sex and men and money and food and just feeling like your hottest self and like taking your power back. 100%. Like it was so empowering talking about the things we were talking about in terms of like sex, money. So stay around for this episode because I know you guys will enjoy it. Yeah, it's definitely a different take that we've brought on the podcast. We've never really, I feel like, talked about this kind of stuff, but...

It was freaking empowering. So stay tuned for that. It's a good one. And you'll probably laugh. It's a funny one, too. I really am starting to get more comfortable to talking about this stuff with you guys. So the more we talk about it, the more comfortable I'm going to get and the more I'm going to start to talk about in my personal life in terms of that aspect. So yeah, please. I like it.

If you like these kinds of episodes of these kind of topics, hype them up. Show your love for them because, guys, our family listens to these and we put this on the internet. We are exposing ourselves. We put this on the internet for you guys. My family listens to this and I full on don't care because I'm doing it for you guys. So please, if you appreciate it, show love with that five-star review. I know I've been a little bit annoying saying it, but it really does help us. And you guys...

actually kill it I feel like it's actually worth something of me saying it because then I go back and check and you guys actually do leave reviews and if you wrote something sweet I do read them sometimes I go really fast because I don't want to see a bad one and get upset but I try to go through the few positive ones that I see and I really do appreciate it but you don't even have to write something you can just do a little five star review on Apple and it really helps us a lot yes but with that okay let's talk about us first and a little catch up on our life it was Halloween it was Halloween and it

I want to say this right now. Halloween is so overrated. I've been saying I hate Halloween. I literally hate Halloween. I've never liked Halloween. I love looking hot in a costume, but I hate Halloween. I just think it's like I'm getting too old to care anymore. I've gone through the years of college of dressing up three times in one weekend and

I'm just like slowly phasing out of it. Like this year was like one costume that was it. And like I think next year is going to be slowly getting like less and less and less of Halloween related things just because it's so stressful. It's expensive. I think my ideal Halloween is a little...

get together with your friends wear a costume take some pictures and like not really expecting it to be anything crazy like just kind of like chill and like have a a little low-key thing i've just never been a fan of halloween i hate scary stuff um and i never have fun on halloween my halloween parties are like never fun going out on halloween is never fun i did i okay this is cap though like for what i'm saying i did have so much fun yeah last weekend yeah

you think so yeah like i was just being my goofy self i guess in terms of like me myself i we got home at 12 we went home at 12 30. yeah me myself i in my own body i had fun but in the space and environment i was in it wasn't fun you know i feel that i was having fun because we were just kind of with our little close friend group and like i was having a good time but it could have been anywhere anywhere anywhere yeah we were just a good time on our own but then we went to bed

I mean, not went to bed. We went home at like 1230 because our friends pissed us off. So we left. I'm not going to lie. I'm kind of mad, though. I exposed myself real hardcore on TikTok telling a funny story of what happened this past weekend while I was out. It did not pop off. I was expecting it to pop off and it did not pop off. And I was like, OK, I just fucking exposed myself for no reason. Not going to lie. I saw that. I know. LOLing that it didn't happen.

No, and I was pissed. I was like, first of all, like, I'm funny. Like, why is this not funny? Why does no one care? So I'm going to tell it right now to the amount of you listening to this podcast right now. What happened to me? Because it was so funny. And like, I literally made my friends like cry in laughter. But we were at like this rooftop. It's like a rooftop.

It's called the Hanover Downtown. It's like an apartment complex. It's brand spanking new. Like, I think the thing has been open for like a month. The elevators were still under construction. Yeah, they were... It was still under construction, but we went out to the rooftop and I would say we were probably like 20, 30 floors up and gorgeous view, but it was freezing. Like, the wind was blowing in and out of all the buildings, so I was so cold and there was a fire, so we were standing all around this fire and keep in mind, I'm a Love Island girl for Halloween, so I'm wearing a legit bathing suit outside. Mm-hmm.

And I'm freezing. So I'm standing with my back to the fire. There's the five of us standing around, but then there's some plus threes. There's like three random people also with us that I've never really met before. We were talking it up with them, having a good time. And all of a sudden the fire goes out and the person next to me, I wasn't paying attention to who was next to me, but they go, oh my goodness, like the fire went out.

And me being the funny goofball I am, I go, yeah. I go, yeah, because I farted on it. And then the guy looks at me in pure disbelief that I even said that to him. And I look over and I go, shit, you're not my friend. So I booked it away because his face, his response was so embarrassing to myself. I was like, fuck. So I booked it away. I ran away. Not really sure where I thought I was going because it's not like my friends were going to follow with me. I had to go back.

And I just look over and he's looking at all our friends like, did you just hear what that girl said? He was cracking up. She's like, that girl, what the fuck? Like, she just said she farted on the fire. Like, what the fuck?

And then I look over and then our friends like Hunter and Connor are dying laughing like crying like there's tears straight coming out of Hunter's eyeballs. And I look at him I go I'm so sorry like I thought you were one of my guy friends like I just exposed myself like I'm my face is bright red like tomato. It was like the funniest thing ever like I literally almost peed my pants but I was like you know this is what happens when you are just trying to be yourself and like funny around your friends and then there's like plus ones like around you.

I just exposed myself. So it was pretty, pretty funny. I'm not going to lie. Oh my goodness. Stop with that. The accent. Guys, we've been doing this accent for the last like 48 hours. I've been...

It's the love of British love. I just love the Love Island UK and Australia so much. Love Island Australia starts up this week, by the way, if anyone's interested in, you know, chit chatting about that on the side on TikTok, I will be sure talking about it.

um so other than that on the weekend i feel like the weekend was like whatever yeah it was like whatever but now my mom is here and she's downstairs waiting for me to be done uh working but my mom came in town because tonight wednesday two days before you're listening to this i'm going to the carrie underwood concert and i'm so excited because i've been listening to carrie underwood like crazy and then i saw on a billboard that she's coming here like

now it's today but at the time it was like a month ago and i was like no fucking way i need to go so i bullied my mom into coming with me and i bought us concert tickets so we're going to carry underwood and i'm really really stoked about it i'm so excited are you fucking kidding me i was just not thinking about it guys okay i got a new camera the battery life

is so trash it said a hundred percent yeah a hundred i had that camera is really bad i had it charging for literally over 20 it was a hundred percent full like 100 and we recorded one podcast and now this and it just died yeah i don't know what to tell you man that not that is bs

I don't know. Let's just get back into the recap because my mind is like twirling in a million different directions. But we can't even forget to talk about that we went to brunch for the first time. We did go to brunch. Guys, I have never been to... Actually, okay, that's a lie. I did go to brunch one time with my friend Maya when she visited, but it wasn't like...

Oh, we did go to brunch. It wasn't an aesthetically cool brunch. It was like a franchise type brunch. We went to Snooze Eatery. There's a billion of those. It was fire though. It was good. But we went to this cute place called Hank's in north of Austin and it was so good. I got a nice quiche with some caramelized onions and supposedly there was bacon in there but I did not...

Even taste bacon But it was so good I want to learn How to make quiche Because it was just amazing And then we went to Boot Barn Because we're going to Nashville Like we had said to you guys And we're going to

We didn't walk out with, you know, hats like we were expecting to, but we did walk out with some jackets because it was buy one, get one free. So yeah, I got the coolest, like authentic Wrangler. It's like this black leather Wrangler jacket with fringe all down the back. And it's a jacket that I could have got on like, they probably sell it on like Princess Polly or like anything like that. They probably have them at Forever 21, like just little fringe jackets. But this one is like,

authentic and real looking like it's so cute i feel like living my country dreams right now someone sent me look at my necklace oh yeah yeah this little cowgirl boot necklace and i'm like perfect so i'm going to carry underwood i'm going to nashville like i am so just like country girl these days like i was like i need this jacket for nashville it was 130 bucks

on sale so it was on sale for 130 and they're about one given free so i got two jackets for 130 and one of them is like it's a nice jacket like it's a very like i could wear it legit horseback riding like it's a very nice jacket no it is really nice i was really hoping i could find something while i was there but i didn't i only found like a denim jacket and like this like um what do you call it like what kind of jacket was the blue one um it's almost giving like raincoat but like yeah i know it's not like it's like a puffer rain

I don't even know but it's so cute. It's giving like your dad probably has one. Yeah, no. It's a dad jacket. It's a dad jacket. Nice oversized dad jacket. It's a nice jacket though. It'll probably keep you warm. Yes, it definitely will. I wanted to get a little bit colder here though so I can start to wear those because I actually like put it on me this morning. I was like, oh, like I'll wear this today and I was like, oh, nope.

It's not cold enough for that yet. Not cold enough. So yeah, I'm gonna wear tonight. I'm gonna wear that black dress you offered up in my boots. And I think just a little denim jacket because it's a little bit cold. They might be a little bit cold. So I'm just gonna bring a jacket and I'm gonna live my cowgirl dreams. Yeah. And then when we were on our way back, guys from brunch, we were driving past this Pupptopia. Yeah.

I forgot about this. There was this random ass Pup-topia going on and we were like, all right, park the car, get out of the car. We have macro with us already. Like, let's go to this Pup-topia. And we got out of the car and it was like $35 for this Pup-topia. So we were like, you know what? We're not going to spend $35 in this Pup-topia. God forbid, like we get in there and there's nothing really eventful. $35 is a fuck ton of money. No, that's what I'm saying. Like nothing,

We don't know what's inside so like god Forbid it's not even worth the $35 To get inside and we just waste $35 So we're like it's fine macro just got Didn't see like all these dogs on the outside Of it because there was like dogs coming and going so Mac had the time of his life but As we were leaving there's these two Scenarios I really wanted to like talk about because They made me crack up I don't Know what it is with like

People lately with macro But like We were walking and this other guy had a Frenchie And like Mac and the Frenchie were like Just you know like sniffing each other getting to know each other And the guy looks at me And goes

Just like in this exact voice. Have you done anything to solve the farts? And I just started crying and laughing because it was like a stranger and he was just so concerned about the French Bulldog farts. And we always make such a big deal of like the farts of our animals. Like one of them will fart in our house and we'll be like, oh my goodness, like who farted? But Taylor, you...

You said you've done better with Phineas's farts, right? He has like these little like... Yeah, so I give him these little toppers to his food. They're little pumpkin and something else little like... They look like little treats, but they're little like... They're pumpkin and pumpkin like helps with that. And I give him like two of them every day with his food and it really helps. Yeah, definitely has been doing better because I think...

max farts i can definitely smell like very significantly like i'm like oh he farted like it was 100 max fart yeah and it's so bad yeah you should like honestly start giving him the same thing because phineas used to fart like a lot like he'd be like in my room and i'd be like oh my god like and he doesn't do it anymore it's crazy and then yesterday i was walking mac outside and our neighbor has a french bulldog like why are all these scenarios with french bulldog owners

I don't know. I've seen a lot of Frenchies lately. Yeah, I have too. And both... Mac was next to the other Frenchie and they were sniffing something on the ground together. And the owner looks at me and his like...

He's like an old, like elderly man. He goes, oh, wow. Mac is chunky. And I was just like, why are we fat shaming my dog right now? Because then I looked down and Mac is like double the size of like the other French Bulldog. But keep in mind, that other French Bulldog was a female. So I was like, okay. Mac is like a big meaty.

And I look at him and go, he actually gets like a lot of exercise. Like I, Mac is like nonstop. Go, go, go, go. Truly. But these two scenarios, I wish you guys could have been there for them, but it made me crack up dying laughing for like 15 minutes straight after both the scenarios happened. And I just, I don't know what it is, but dog owners, they crack me up. French, French bulldog dog owners. They crack me up, but I don't really have much else like on my mind.

My list. My list was literally macros, farts and macros chunky. That's what I like. Macros, farts and macros chunky. That's great. Yeah. I don't really have anything else to say either. Except are you sure? Well, what do you mean? I don't know. It's just a lot happens in our life. I mean, I guess what I was going to talk about one thing that's happening currently on my second TikTok account. So I posted this just like hilarious TikTok to a Taylor Swift song where it's like a picture of me kissing my friend in the bar, whatever. But it's so funny.

I'm having the time of my life on this account because this one girl, what's her ad? I know she's already the first person here. Annalise Garcia. It's you, boo. But she, oh my God, she's leaving all of these like hate comments. She's just like calling me a whore and like being so nasty. But I'm having the time of my life because I'm like responding to a lot of them.

And they're getting actually a good amount of traction for my second account because my second account doesn't even have 10,000 followers. Like it has like 9,000 something. So it's like doesn't go crazy on views over there. But like what she doesn't realize and her little posse of other haters that are using her comments to like little posse like troll me even more.

like they're not realizing the game I'm playing with them. Like, are you not realized that my last three videos, you're like bumping up my views more than normal. Like, are you not realizing? And they're like, you responding to this hate comments just shows that you care. So guess what? I did responded to another one. And guess what? It's just like engaging content. It's like, you are engaging on all of my videos so much. Like you are running my engagement up on this account. And it's so funny because they think they're like winning by being like,

see, we're getting to you. Meanwhile, I like make a TikTok of being like, maybe it seemed like it's getting to me, but like I'm barely like, and they're like, see, it's getting to you. And I'm like, no, babes, you're just running up my engagement. And the more I continue, the more you run up my engagement. Like, how are you not seeing what's going on? So it's super funny. But this one girl, Annalise Garcia, she,

I don't know what her real name is. Probably not even her real name. But I mean, she just thinks I'm a whore. So sorry. But she would just so like, I mean, fitting for this podcast, because like, what a little like your misogyny is showing calling me a whore because I posted a video kissing one dude.

oh also like ew and then she was like don't put your life on social media and I was like it's my job so don't know what you want me to do about that my love also like us putting our life on social media it's like we're kind of stuck doing that I can't just stop but also like like do you not get like I posted that like for reaction like it's just like it's just like so funny these comments right now like

Like you're so easy to see through. Clearly not because what I'm trying to do is get you to comment and you did comment. So you're not seeing through quite enough because if you saw through all the way...

You wouldn't have commented. So I honestly totally forgot. I want to say this before I forget. But guys, I got contacts. Oh, I'm like so excited. So the blind Sam jokes are over. Over with. You're still blind. No, because I'm going to wear contacts every day or my glasses every day. And I'm going to see shit.

I'm so excited. So I got the daily. So all my contact people out there, thank you so much for the amount of messages and DMs I've gotten of advice and just like kind words because I know it's not like the easiest transitions or like thing to understand that like, holy shit, like my vision sucks and I have to like wear contacts or glasses. Sucks. Hate it.

But I will say that I did get the dailies. I just felt like that was the easiest option for me to kind of start with rather than getting like the weekly ones or the monthly ones and have to like constantly clean them. So we're doing the dailies and I need to order new glasses, which will be happening soon. I'm just waiting for Key, Quay, whatever the hell you want their website or brand.

Brand glasses company. However you pronounce it. I'm waiting for it to be buy one get one free. And then I'm going to get another set of prescription glasses. Because I need to update my glasses. Unfortunately.

It's expensive out here to be blind. Yeah, but that's really cool of you that you got contacts. I know. I can see shit. Like on like the computer right in front of us right now, I can actually see the numbers of like 590. Well, now it's 591 now too. But like I can see that and I wasn't able to see that before. Or when we were recording on the camera earlier and like the recording thing, I can see that. Wow, that's really crazy. I know. Yeah.

That's wild. Makes me happy. Makes me happy too. Because I was getting a little like anxious and like sad and like not feeling my best self and like just wanting to hibernate because actually, you know what? I'm going to talk about it real quick because I feel like, sorry, like if we want to jump in the episode, but I just knew I want to address this real quick. But like...

The way I was feeling is I felt so stuck in my own body and so like I just needed to curl up in a ball and not do anything because I was like, oh, I don't want to go out and get lunch or I don't want to go out and hang out with friends because I can't see. I would rather just scroll on my phone because I can see that if that makes absolutely any sense at all. But like I would have just rather like sitting on the couch, scrolling on my phone, not doing anything because I could see it. Whereas if I

Like we had a scenario like last week where Taylor went and hung out with our friends and I didn't want to go because I couldn't like I was just like in my head and like couldn't see shit. And I was like, you know, I'd rather just stay here scrolling on my phone because I can actually see that. And then causing like this whole like spiral of events in my brain. And here we are now. And I have contacts in California.

and I can see shit and hang out with people. That's good because I didn't know that's why you didn't want to go. No, yeah. It's just like I don't know how to explain it but if I or even TV too like sitting on the couch like I couldn't see if I didn't have my glasses on like if I couldn't see the TV it's like okay I might as well just scroll on my phone and get stuck using my phone and like looking and consuming things on my phone because I could see it. Right. So yeah. Well, I'm happy for you. Thank you.

Okay, now I think let's get into this episode. It's a really good one. Like if you want to just feel empowered to go like own your sex life and own your relationship with men and own your relationship with money, this episode's for you. So let's get right into it. Okay, guys, and now we're here with Tasha and we're really excited to do this and just go all into binge eating, men, sex, even a little bit of like money talk probably. So if you want to introduce yourself and how you got started into all of this in your story, that'd be great.

Yeah. Okay. So I'm so excited. Thank you for having me. So the way that it started for me, the way that everything started with my career and all that, it all started with a man. It all started with a man. And I think a lot of us can relate to this. And I found myself, number one, I was a lot heavier back then. So I was like 35 pounds heavier. And so the weight had me doing a lot of settling things.

And a lot of, you know, when we're, when we are self-conscious and insecure, we react in two different ways. Like we'll either shrink down and hide or we'll get really fucking loud and abrasive and like impulsive. And that one was me. So I found myself with my weight issues, like not feeling worthy of attention. So I would just get super loud, super flaunty, dance on the bar,

And I was using alcohol and food to kind of build the confidence I didn't have to say the things that I wanted to say, which basically landing me in the wrong laps of the wrong men. And eventually the love of my, my first love, he really screwed me over. Like he cheated on me a billion times. And I was like, I broke up with the man and I broke up with the fat. That's kind of how it all began. And so I lost the weight and,

But then I got super obsessed. And that's when the binge eating kicked in. So I think this would be a cool thing to talk to the listeners about because most of us, you know, it sneaks up on you. Binge eating is a sneaky little bitch. It starts off as like, I hit the gym Monday to Friday and then I party on the weekend. Or it starts off as a cheat day. And all of a sudden the cheat day is way out of control and goes on to the weekend. Mm hmm. Mm hmm.

Was it a binge restrict or just straight binge eating? Yeah, it was a binge restrict. So this is what I find with binge eating is it's followed by a period of avoidance, right? So you're avoiding carbs or you're avoiding sugar or you're avoiding eating.

You're avoiding saying what you actually want. You're avoiding this and this and this. And you can only avoid it for so long. And then all of a sudden you can't avoid it anymore. And your body's like, I need release. And then you have the binge. So for me, it was a lot of avoiding what I really wanted in relationships with men. And because I couldn't say it, I would literally fill my mouth with like,

food and dicks like overcompensating so much sexually like okay i don't believe my personality can win this guy so like i'm just gonna give him an unforgettable blow job and that's gonna be the thing that makes him love me right so that root of it like i gotta get skinny so he'll love me so he'll marry me

Right this reminds me which I don't know if you were gonna say of like your yeah my my situation is kind of similar to this and I honestly never really thought of it in that aspect until now until you started speaking on it but I was in a really really bad relationship four years ago but I didn't really think of it in the sense of what you've been describing until now I was in a relationship that was super restricted I didn't really eat that much.

And I did an excessive amount of cardio because I wanted to please him. I never felt like I was small enough. I was good enough. And then finally, when we broke up and I was in that breaking point, it spiraled into the complete opposite where I was binging. I was overdoing with the alcohol and everything. So it was just a complete 180 overnight through that breakup.

Yeah, I know. Same. And here's the thing. It's like, you know, when you're doing all that cardio, you were quite literally chasing him on the, and that's what you were doing. You were chasing his love. Exactly. Yeah, no, it was, it was the way I was doing cardio is always for somebody else. It was never really for my myself. It was for somebody else's self validation. And, um,

it was extremely bad. And I, I'm honestly happy that I went through that period and I'm sure maybe you can relate in a sense of like, it kind of was a self-development stage. Yeah, exactly. And here's the thing is we're making up with food, what we're not getting from a man.

And some of us have to dig a little deeper to find that pattern. And some of us have it really obvious. But when you were eating that food, what you were doing is you were giving yourself the pleasure and that moment of satisfaction that he wasn't giving you. You were giving him the sweetness or you were giving yourself that sweetness and that like, oh, I'm going to treat myself when really you wish that maybe he was taking you on dates and treating you.

Because when I was like, you know, the man who kind of started the root of all this, because it does go way back to even like daddy issues. But the guy who did this to me, like he never took me on dates. I paid for every fucking date. The binging is an example of impulse control. So here's what I find is people who find themselves binging. There's the good girl and there's the bad girl. I like to call these two different things. So like the good girl avoids.

So that's the not eating, right? She's avoiding food so that she can be loved. The bad girl is impulsive. She's breaking rules because she's following too many rules somewhere else in her life. She can't do the whole rule thing anymore. So the good girl shrinks and gets quiet. The bad girl gets really loud and impulsive. And if you're impulsive with food, you're probably impulsive somewhere else. So this is what I found is like, I finally healed it with men. Like I've been happily married with kids now for over 15 years and

And I healed it with men. And then I started doing it with money. I started binge buying. And this is, we'll heal it in one area and then we'll just kind of ping pong it onto a different area because we're not actually addressing what's going on deeper, like with our soul, you know? Right. Yeah. That definitely makes sense. Like that binging kind of the actions in the mindset, like it kind of has nothing to do with like, let's say food per se. It could be anything, but,

Like the food is just a way of it. Like, um, the coping. Yeah. Like, and like bringing itself to life, but it could be anything. And I think the other things are less talked about and like people maybe don't want to say that people are like, you know, binging on like sex with a bunch of different guys or like binging on like spending. And that's not really like talked about as much, even though it comes from the same issue. So I think that's really interesting. Yeah.

Yeah, and this is where impulses really show up. This is where they showed up for me. So I find that when we're on an edge of change, right, we're on an edge of maybe we're supposed to be leaving a relationship or we're on an edge where we're entering a new one and we're on like a first date or something.

there's this space of like, you don't know what to do when you're in the middle, when you don't know when you've been on the date, but you don't really know if he likes you. So again, you either shrink down. But for me, what I would do is I would puff up and I would throw myself over the edge. So like when I would be in this space with a man of like, does he like me? I can't tell. Am I hot enough? I can't tell. Well, what would I do? I would just put on a performance in a show, sexually dancing at the bar,

a blowjob a really good bride like the sex wasn't for me i was not having orgasms i was not having a single orgasm like all these blowjobs were a complete scam yeah right no i can definitely relate in a with all of this in my previous relationship it's bad now that i'm thinking about it it's like eye opening i know when you're doing it till you're older and you look back and you're like oh

And in your mind, when you're going through it, you just think, oh, I'm just not hot enough. I'm just not skinny enough. I'm not motivated enough. I'm not disciplined enough. You're binging for a reason. You guys aren't back for a reason. This episode is brought to you by BetterHelp. As mentioned a lot in this episode, mental health is extremely important to us, probably

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Learn more and save 10% off your first month at betterhelp.com slash f-word. That's better h-e-l-p. That's betterhelp.com slash f-word. So what like was there a certain instance like when it clicked and you were like this is fucked up it needs to change or was it like gradually or was there one like pinpoint? Yeah there was um

Listen to how crazy this is. So this is how fucked I was in my mind. Number one with the man, I was like, okay, well, we're just gonna get married and I'll just he'll just cheat on me. And like, I'll always be the wife, always be the first chosen the one the one that he comes home to, like, oh my god, brainwashed. But then on the binge eating, finally, I got to this point where I was like, if I could be fat and happy, I would literally.

Like I can't do this anymore. It's not normal to wake up and think about food the second that you wake up. It's not normal to go to a movie and be thinking about the popcorn that you're not supposed to eat the whole time. This is not normal, you guys. It's not normal to be eating breakfast and thinking about what you're going to eat for lunch unless you're thinking about it in a healthy way. Like, oh, I look forward to this. It's not normal to be like, oh, I can't wait till I hit 133 pounds so I can eat again.

Like that shit is so toxic. So my, and I used to say this prayer, I used to say this prayer to God, like, God, just let me not eat tomorrow. Like, let me be skinny tomorrow. Help me not eat tomorrow. And every day, the next day I would have a binge. And it was like, I had to get better before I could get worse. So many times that I stopped saying the prayer, I was like, oh, I can't say that prayer anymore.

So I just had this point of like, actually what happened was it was, I was, I had met my husband by now. I was really deep into my eating disorder. I had met my husband and we were kind of thinking like, well, maybe we should get pregnant. But the problem was I wasn't getting a period because of my habits. And I couldn't understand like, cause I wasn't super skinny because I wasn't anorexic. Right. Right. I wasn't getting my period. So I couldn't get pregnant. Right.

And so we started going through like IVF and all this. And to be honest, I didn't want to be pregnant. I just thought like, oh, my body's fucked. I'll just have a baby. And then I just realized like this, I was sitting there and I was actually reading a magazine. This is how it happened. And the magazine said signs that you have an eating disorder and every box was ticked off. So I got home and I Googled eating disorder clinic and I enrolled.

Oh, wow. Wow. Yeah. I know. To do that at like 23, to be that smart is pretty like, I'm like, how did I even do that? Yeah. Well, I think what you said in the beginning of that story was really, really interesting is that because you weren't anorexic and looking really skinny, like it doesn't seem like you have an eating problem. I think that's like huge that like gets misconception a lot that the only people that have eating problems are either like

I guess like really on the far ends of the spectrum, like either both ways, like really, really skinny or like very, very, very overweight and not like presumably maybe healthy looking to like the average person. So I think that's really interesting. Yeah. And back then it was my dream to be anorexic. Literally, I was like, oh, I wish I could just be anorexic and just not eat. Like, how do they do it? Mm hmm. Mm hmm.

It's really messed up. But here's some really good signs for you to know is number one, anytime you're eating and you feel out of control, that's a binge. And sometimes it's milder than others. Like, oh my God, this cake is so good. And all of a sudden, like you meant to eat one bite and then you ate like three pieces.

And then the guilt after it, like I would cry on the treadmill. Literally, I would cry the next day, like, I've got to get it off faster because you have the binge and then it's so much guilt that you're like, okay, if I don't, if I just eat like, you know, vegetables, right?

For three days, I can lose three pounds in a day. That's how drastic it would be. And the other thing is the hiding of the food. I would do that a lot. Like I would sit in my car and like even cry while I eat or like have a binge and like hide the garbage. And eventually it got so bad where I'd wake up in the middle of the night. The cravings would be so bad and I'd wake in the middle of the night and eat. Mm hmm. Mm hmm.

So what I want to like touch on these two things that I saw a lot on your like Instagram because I'm curious because I see these words like thrown around on your page like she's like becoming a healer and like becoming a channel like what does that mean?

Yeah. So this is really cool because there's the human reason, like the brain reason why you binge, which is I want to treat myself. I deserve it. Fuck the rules. Fuck it. People can, people can love me how I am. I'm sick of losing weight. That's like the brain reason why we binge, but there's the sole reason. And the only way I was able to discover the root with like men was

was because of the soul reason so when I'm saying like healer and master channel one of my specialties is that I help people go into like where the feelings are locked inside of the body

So, you know, when you're having a thing and you're like, why do I keep doing this? Why are the men not calling back? Why do I keep spending all my money? Why is it that I'm stuck at this weight? Why is it that I'm stuck at this income level? It's beyond the brain. It's something unconscious, right? So what I do is I kind of tap into people's bodies and like, where are they holding that? So like for you, I see it in your throat and then down in your uterus and your hips.

So that's where there's kind of like vibration stuck in our body. And then I with removing it there.

So for you specifically, like what I'm picking up in your neck here is rules and regulations and masculine energy and having a choke hold on you. Like it feels very much like a choking feeling of like, I can't say it. I can't say it. I can't say it. And that's probably where the eating stuff came from. And it might be something you've healed already and moved on from, but it's still stuck. It's existing in there because I can see it.

okay so interesting that's so interesting wait who is that for me yeah yeah okay what about her yeah do me right wait say that again yeah i just used you as an example because you mentioned the ex and although you've healed from him and moved on in your life it doesn't mean that he's not trapped in our body so here's something really fucking cool

So when we're having sex with a man, right, and we're not saying the things that we want, we're not telling him, okay, I want you to lick my pussy. Like, why are you not? We're not telling him, I want you to snuggle me longer. We're not telling him, I want you to pay for more things. I want you to hold more things. I want you to make a relationship with with my parents more.

We're not saying those things and we're just having sex with him. Right. We're literally like when he's blowing loads, like you just become a cum dumpster. That's all you are. Like he's releasing his sexual energy on you and you're just the dumpster that he dumps it in. So like you're taking all of that in. You're avoiding all the things that you have to say. And then that energy just gets like locked inside of there. Mm hmm.

So what is the difference in like so how is your like sex life and stuff like different now compared to then and like I feel like there's a lot of girls that struggle with like that kind of line of like but they want to be super open with their sexuality but it leads to just that instead of like the healthy way so like what's like the key differences do you think?

Yeah. Oh my God. It's so different. And here's the crazy thing. Like, like I said, I've been in a healthy marriage for 15 years and I only started having soul sex about a year ago. And that was when I really healed my relationship with men. And like, we can, you know, when you've maybe have a man and you know, he loves you and this and that, but for some reason,

you still feel weird about saying certain things or you still can't like speak up and feel safe even though irrationally you know you can so

This is the difference. Okay, so there's slutty sex, there's human sex, and then there's soul sex, and none of them are bad. We're meant to experience these different kinds, right? So like, slutty sex is when you're kind of just throwing your body into a situation and you're having orgasms and you're getting off, or maybe you're not having orgasms. It's very much like, you're just kind of slamming private parts together. But you're not really anything too crazy. Right. And

But I used to be like, I was like, I don't understand the big deal about orgasms, you guys. Like I've had, I can have five orgasms in a row. Like what's the big deal? And it was because I was having body orgasms, not soul orgasms. So this was the difference I found because my sex drive was going really low. And back in my 20s, it was really high.

Why? Because what was driving me was to impress. Like, you know, I'm going to go out and have all this sex so I can impress the guy and get married. And then all of a sudden I got married and I didn't have to impress anyone. And then my sex drive came down. So I realized like, okay, well, I still like masturbating. So like, what's the big deal? And what was missing was the sensuality with the sex with my husband and

So this is what soul sex is. You guys, it's amazing. And you might have experienced this in like Pilates or on a run or on a yoga. So soul sex feels like now when I'm having sex with him, I can see visions. I can see colors. I can feel the air going from my heart into his. Like I can inhale and exhale. It's like a back and forth. Like it's a very soul connected. Like our energies are one versus, okay, this.

His energy is there and I need to like suck a cap right off a dick in order to get him to stick around. And I need to like go all reverse cowgirl for this and this. And soul sex is like, it's like inhale, exhale. Like it's like this constant moving flow that a lot of us can feel on a run or when we're in yoga. It's like that, but with the man, it's fucking amazing.

Interesting. And you will start to get visions even. Like I've seen like my husband's past lives and stuff pop up during it. It's really cool. That's kind of crazy. Yeah, I need to find a man first to experience that. That's kind of crazy. So you said before like your sex drive was high because you wanted like the validation or, you know, all that stuff. Would you say that that was really like sex drive or was it just like your drive to be like

noticed and to be happier? Looking back on it, do you think it was real sex drive? No. No. I might feel horny, but the horniness was coming from a craving. Here's the end between soul sex. Soul sex is like, I'm hot on myself. It's like, I'm turned on already. Do you know what I mean? I'm turned on by my own self. Horniness is like,

I need a dick in me right now in order to like satisfy a gap. Right. Right. So it's like, I feel like it all just comes back to like being happy and content on your own and like knowing, like it's all about just knowing your worth. I feel like is the gist. Totally is like your puss is worth it. And your orgasm, ask for the orgasm for fuck's sakes. Like direct if you have to, like your orgasm matters. Did you have to do that with your husband? No.

No. And you know why? I think it was because I had changed the pattern. I think that was why. So for example, my old sex life, it was all about him. It was all about the guy. Like it was all about me performing in this and that. My new sex life, it's all about me. I don't give blowjobs anymore. Don't tell him about all the blowjobs I gave because I don't give them anymore because I'm

I've got blowjob trauma. Like for so many years, I was the blowjob girl. And just like, and this is something I need to heal on my myself. For so many years, I was the blowjob girl. And like what it represents to me is nothing pretty. Right. And it's like I was putting food and dicks in my mouth to feel loved. Like it's just like a no for me. So now our sex life now is like his pleasure is my pleasure.

Like me, as them. So what it usually looks like you got to you got to set a standard as well for what you receive in bed. And I decided mine is like three orgasms. Because after you have the first one, the second and the third are like, well, you might as well go there. Do you know what I mean? Like, they just come easier and easier after that. And I just told him that like, I was like, I need at least three orgasms before you have one. So that became the new standard.

yeah wow that's i love that energy like that's amazing no it is i think i think i think people underestimate how much like your sex life takes an impact on like your mental like being in your self-worth like i think it's kind of i think it's just very sensitive and thrown around and it really does like impact your self-worth like a lot like to have that like literally in your head even to for like blowjobs to be like a

Like almost like traumatic type thing. Like I don't think enough people really look inward and say that kind of stuff. This is the first time I've ever heard it. So I find it really interesting. It comes from somewhere. Right? So we will have resistance. Like maybe it's like you hate doggy style. Maybe it's you hate riding. And that can be for reasons like, well, maybe you don't like your boobs or you don't like your cellulite or the way, you know, when you lean over and you're riding and your boobs go and they like cone out. Yeah. So.

positions for certain mental reasons, but there's other reasons why. So like, okay, listen to how deep this is. I, for a long time, I didn't like doggy style. Like it made me feel kind of like dirty and used. And when I really tracked it back, I found it was because I actually caught my parents having sex doggy style. So wing it like I seen them.

And I, and it was just gross. Like I seen them having sex. And so like, I wouldn't allow myself, like it felt gross. It felt dirty. It felt shameful. Like I'm not supposed to see this. And then I realized going forward, every single hookup that I had that I felt guilty about, like maybe I hooked up with someone who my friend liked, or I hooked up with someone while I had a boyfriend, they were all in that position. They were all in the position of him behind me.

And so I finally started to like heal that. And then I was open to that position. So these resistances, like the positions that you like, yes, it's because of orgasms, but there's different reasons. And like the blowjob trauma, this is like, let's, this is like going really nasty. But one time I haven't put my earmuffs on my husband. I literally gave this guy a blowjob in the alleyway at a bar.

like I don't know why I did it I just fucking did it and I came back inside and I told my friend and she was like are you at least gonna like clean your knees off and that was the shame boom and then all years of blowjob trauma yeah dang I think I think being open about it in this way is something that's very very like

cool and things a lot of girls need to hear because what you're saying isn't like don't have too much sex or like don't be sexual it's just be sexual in a way that's actually benefiting you like and it's not about like too many people or too little people or it's just like have it be like almost like be conscious about it instead of doing it like unconsciously

Yeah, I feel like for so many years I was, you know what it really is because we all, here's the thing I'm just saying out loud what a lot of women have done. That's all. Like, there's nobody, there's not that many people on the planet who haven't had a slutty face. And what does slutty even mean like get over it.

So here's what it is, is it really is like those phases where we're having sex with men or we're giving sexual favors. We're just exploring our sexual power. That's all we're doing. So here's a really cool thing for the listeners to do. Like literally list out a list of like every man that you fucked or gave head to or gave a blowjob to or whatever. And then pinpoint the ones where you feel like bad about it. And then notice what's the common theme.

why do you feel bad about these ones specifically? And here's what I realized is the ones I felt bad about were the ones that I didn't get anything back. I didn't get a call back, but the ones that I ended, yeah, I didn't have any shame about those, whatever. Do you know what I mean? And so look at the ones that you have shame around and decide how you actually were in your power. Cause there's something about you that feels like you weren't in your power or

So when I looked at this one in specific where I was like, oh, this guy, I just went in and I gave him a blowjob. What was I doing? What was my soul doing? My soul was deciding I can have whatever I want and I can eat any amount I want right there, right then. Boom. That's what my soul wanted. And that's exactly what I got. So my intention wasn't to like get him to be my boyfriend. My intention was to get what the fuck I wanted and to feel in power. And that's what I got.

Interesting. That's kind of how I power back. Actually, I wasn't in my weakness. I was just exploring how good I am at this particular task. Right. Can we just laugh about it? Honestly, it doesn't have to be. And we take it so seriously. Yeah. And I think when I'm like, yeah, so I gave 100 blowjobs. Like, get the fuck over it. Yeah. Right. I think that's another thing, too, is like,

Not necessarily like body count, but the amount of guys a girl has been with is like so shamed on in comparison to men. And I just don't, I never really understand why that is the case. And I just think it needs to be more normalized and talked about like that the number doesn't necessarily matter. It's all about exploring, figuring out what you like and getting more comfortable with it. And I feel like at a younger age, like I was so shamed on like everything.

All the experiences I was going through but now looking back on it It's like why the fuck does any of that matter? Like why was I so in my head about? Being shamed about like the slut phase. I went through for such a long period of time. Like it did not matter at all Yeah, I also think about like the kind of saying what you want and being open to like

be the one in power and like say what you want and get what you want. Guys are so easy about doing that. Like guys will do that every single time. Like get what they want when they want it, tell you what you want. And then they're the ones to end it or keep it going. They will do it zero questions asked and be the one in charge. But it's so hard for girls to do it.

I know. And here's the thing is like the way that you ask for an orgasm is probably the way you ask for money and the way you ask for anything in life. You know, especially for you guys, like being really amazing entrepreneurs. Part of that is selling things, right? It's like the way that you might ask for an orgasm in bed has a lot to do with the way you ask for anything. So if you can't ask for the orgasm and you're like squeezing it out and like, like, I can't say it.

you probably have it, find it difficult to be like, hey, here's this t-shirt. It's $35. Do you want to buy it or not? Yeah. Yeah. No, 100%. I feel like this is kind of like eye-opening. Yeah. I feel like in power. Oh, definitely.

But I wanted to, that was a good segue because I wanted to touch on the money stuff. And I feel like you just segued in to the money stuff. I saw on your page again, because I was like, obviously just kind of creeping that you talked about your money blueprint and like healing your money blueprint. Do you want to discuss what that means?

Yeah, so this is really cool. So your money blueprint, like money is nothing. It's something humans design. So like our soul doesn't want money at once what's underneath it. But like, making money is how we receive. Somebody pays you and you receive the money. Having an orgasm is something you receive. You know, somebody rubs your clit and you receive the orgasm.

So the cool thing is, is we have a way, we have a blueprint in our mind of like, what do we need to do in order to receive? And everybody is different. So you might have it like, I've got to work really hard. I've got to prove myself. I've got to show how hot I am. I've got to show how smart I am. I've got to show how valuable I am. And that is what makes the people pay me. Everybody's different. Maybe it's, I've got to show how friendly I am. I've got to show how funny I am.

how this and that and that's the thing that makes me be able to make the money. So like, this is something cool to do. Everybody can imagine telling the man like, go down on me, go down on me right now. And imagine him going down on you and you do nothing back. You don't fondle a ball. You don't give a make out. You don't give a thank you. You literally don't do anything like how does that make you feel?

like literally just to receive the orgasm. But this is going to tell you a lot about how do you receive the money as well. So do you automatically feel like, Oh, no, I got to do something for him. Like, I gotta say thank you. I gotta run away. I gotta like, how are you responding to that? Your body has codes, right? Do you have a problem even saying go down on me?

Oh, I'll say it any second. Do you have to turn around a hundred corners before you say it? Do you have to avoid saying it and just try to push his head down there? Do you have to avoid saying it and just put his hand down there? Can you say, I want you to suck my nipples right now? Or do you wait for him to pitter-patter around? Yeah, that's a good... I definitely wait for the...

you wait around oh no i'm like the first one to say it i'm like this is a great podcast i just got out of a three-year relationship and i'm only 21 so i'm like just in that like phase of life

Yeah. So again, we have like these blueprints. So now going more over to you, for you, it feels like your pattern is more around like when the relationship isn't really perfect.

when it's not really airy, when it's not a lot of like, you know, you're so beautiful, you're so this, like, it feels like you really love compliments. And when that doesn't happen, that's when the discouragement comes in. So that's when the, okay, I'm not good enough. That's when, so when the relationship isn't going really smooth and you're not kind of being like worshiped and whatnot, because maybe, maybe your dad, like, you know, gave you a lot of attention and stuff like that, whatever the pattern be, that's when you get like disappointed. Yeah.

And then that's when you start showing up differently. So that's kind of like the pattern in you. And I would see it like actually in your boobs. Oh my goodness. That's like actually like maybe not wrong. That's like maybe not wrong at all. Like I, cause that's no, that's actually really funny. I never like thought of it like that, but I did grow up and still do with like,

My dad like text me every day, like how he's so proud of me. And I'm like the most amazing person ever, like daily. Exactly. And that's what I was saying to your dad. So here's the thing, you guys, it always comes back to the daddy issues. Maybe you had a dad who treated you like gold.

You're the fucking princess. And then when the boyfriend doesn't treat you like that, you're like all upset about it. Right. So when the boyfriend doesn't praise you or tell you how good you are in bed or how hot you are, that's when you get disappointed. And then it makes you not want to speak up for yourself. And you start like walking out like, well, he should know. And then where as you on the other side, we all have different types of dads. So like maybe you have a type of dad who doesn't give that to you.

Right. And so what you do is you just get louder. You get more abrupt. You get louder at saying what you want.

Yeah, spot on spot on spot on, you know, it's it's funny I hope they're not listening to this podcast, but no we're far into it by now. They're probably checked out already it's just funny because I haven't been in a relationship like I said in like four year four and a half years and My sex in that relationship was horrid horrible So the last four years i've been just kind of experiencing like what I really really like and like what I want and

kind of claiming my dominance in sex through not necessarily strangers but just people that don't really have like much value to my life in terms of like a boyfriend or significant other so that way down the road when i do have a significant other it's so much easier for me to like hopefully get that soul sex and like be more in tune with my own body so that way when i introduce like that significant other into it it's so much easier and better mm-hmm

Yeah, and without knowing it, I'll tell you what you're actually doing is you're learning how to care less. Yes. Like, now that I say you're that, you're like, oh, yeah, that's what I'm doing. Yeah.

How for it not to be this whole thing of like, this is the man. This is the man. Yeah. It's empowering the he's got to choose me by not caring. But I'm going to tell you there is an avoidance piece in there as well. For sure. I can feel that there's also an avoidance of like, because what you really want is to be cared for. And it's like, well, if I don't care,

then I don't care if I'm cared for. Like, that's kind of the thing. That would be the next healing piece. Gotcha. So when you guys kind of ask me like, what's a master channel? This is exactly it. Like, I'm not just basing what you're saying. I'm literally tapping into your body and your blueprint and what's going on. And like, now I see your dad and I see this and I see that. And like, for you, I see a big black shield across your chest.

And there's a purpose for it. It's not bad. It's you can't handle caring so fucking much. Like it's exhausting.

So what you're doing is you're creating a shield of like, okay, I'm going to care a little bit less, but here's the next vulnerable thing for you to do is can you connect and still care and be okay if it doesn't pan out? Can you care and be okay with someone leaving or you leaving and it not going anywhere? So that would be like your homework. Interesting take.

yeah she just kind of smacked you in the face there yeah she did smack me in the face this is like therapy i know i feel like i'm gonna go cry later i know that's yeah i don't know i feel like it's just really eye-opening to actually feel like

like empowered over sex and like women have like a voice and it actually matters because i feel like so much of the time it just like i don't know i feel like you're just taught to like not care about it yeah

I know. And it's like, it goes back to high school too. Even when you think of the word like virgin, like, oh, she lost her virginity. Like we lost something like a man took it. Like that shit is so dumb. Oh, I hate the term the man took it. Like what? I don't understand that. Actually, I decided you could like have a snack on it. That's what happened. Yeah. Yeah.

And it's like, it's like what people say, like, if only, like, if he came and you didn't. It's like, I fucked you. You didn't fuck me. I fucked you. Yeah. We need to stop apologizing for, like, who we did this with and who we did that with. And we just need to want it, own it, and rock it. Even the quote-unquote mistakes, like...

Like I said, get over it. Everybody's doing it. Everyone's just keeping it a secret. Yeah. And it's not really mistakes. It's just like learning learning curve. So that way, like when you're at the point like you like married for 15 years, like then it's like you don't want to be panning out those situations like when you're already married. Yeah. You got to get that out. Like our sexual energy is made to be placed somewhere.

So here's the thing is like with bad girls. So, okay. So like the bad girl likes to push edges. Like she likes to see what she can get away with, you know? So maybe it's, I'm going to have sex with this guy and see if I can get away with, I'm going to be the one who doesn't text him back. That's a way to take your power back. It's maybe not like the most therapeutic way, but it's a way it's all healing.

So that pushing edges, which is related to binging, like the breaking rules that usually comes from, again, our parents. Our dad told us don't do this or don't do that. So what do we do? We purposely go and go against it. So now being a married woman, I still have edge pushing in me.

Now, I'm not stupid enough to like go and destroy my marriage and cheat or something like that. I would never do that to my husband. But my sexual energy somewhere and sometimes needs to go somewhere that like is new, is fresh, is exciting. So how I do it now is I channel that sexual energy. So this again, this would be a cool thing for everyone to do is like when you get that urge of like, oh, there's the fuck boy. Like I'm just going to devour him just because.

What you can do instead is like go to a hot photo shoot, devour the photos, devour yourself. What's happening is your sexual input just wants to come up out of you. It needs somewhere to go. So we put it on there because we need where to put it. Like we have temptation. So where else can you put your sexual energy and like, can you turn it into money?

This is why I actually love OnlyFans for girls, because it's actually a spot for them to express their sexuality and get paid. We do OnlyFans. Oh, you do? That's so cool. It's a spot for you to put the energy in a healthy way instead of fucking a random guy. It's a way for you to be seen, to feel like all eyes are on you, to have attention and get paid for it.

Well, the also other reason is like when you're on the Internet publicly, the eyes are on you anyway and they're thinking that shit anyway and they're saying shit to you in your DMs anyway. So you just might as well monetize. You might as well be the one in charge and make money off of it because they're doing it anyways. Totally. And that's juicy. I'll have to talk to you guys about that later. But yeah.

nude photos. And I used to just put them on Instagram and just put like flashes over the nipples and whatnot. But I just constantly would get like banned and stuff like that. So I kind of just had to scale back on it. And I've been trying to decide like, huh, I really want to express myself in nude photos. So where am I going to do that in a way that also doesn't sabotage? So the point is, we're sabotaging in our businesses as well.

Like for a long time, I would share my nudes just to prove that I could to like piss people off purposely. Right. It'd make me feel like, ha, got you. But at the same time, you know, then my Facebook gets banned for 30 days and that's where I make money. Yeah. Like where are we pushing edges and where is it sabotaging us and where is a healthier spot to put it? So that's a really cool thing for everyone to ask themselves. Yeah.

Yeah. Is there anything, because it's been almost to the hour mark, like almost 50 minutes. Is there anything you want to like, one last thing you want to like leave the topic on, like one last little topic you want to leave the audience with? Yeah. Okay. So I think it'd be cool to like give the audience some homework, like something that they can work on for themselves. Yes, let's do it. We talked about something that you can do to like kind of hack

and realize and get connected to how you receive is like bring yourself into the situation of the man going down on you right and and notice what comes up when you've received the orgasm and like what do you do after the orgasm do you then feel like oh I gotta text him I gotta do this I gotta do that I gotta now cook him a dinner so that would be a cool thing for people to look at

And then the other cool thing is, um, the way, how do you receive orgasms and how is that the same as other areas in your life? So if sex for you is like, hurry up and get it over with. If sex for you is like, Oh, I need this to be this like long, dreamy, beautiful thing. If sex for you is, I want it hard and fast is sex for you. I want it soft and gentle.

Where are you not receiving that in your life? Because we're overcompensating with the sex. So if you if your fantasy sex, like what's your dream sex? Is it to get like fucked under a waterfall hard and fast? And if so, where are you not getting hard and fast results in your life? If your dream sex is like this really romantic, steamy, slow makeout session,

Where in your life are you not allowing yourself to like slow down and take your time and be committed to yourself? If your fantasy is like the guy worships you all day long, like, oh, God, your ass is hot. I love your tits. Like the body worship and sex. Where are you not giving yourself that in life? So what we're going to do, start filling the gaps ourselves and giving ourselves the things that we want out of sex.

except for we do it for ourselves. So that'd be a cool homework assignment for everyone.

Yeah, I love that. We never give our listeners homework, so they better do it. Yeah, everyone better be like taking notes and journaling about it and figuring that out. I really enjoyed this conversation. I thought it was really fun. I thought it was really different and stuff we've never talked about on the show. So I think it could be really eye-opening. And I almost totally forgot that this all started with binge eating on food. But every time we talk about different eating disorders, we keep it centered around food. So I think it was really interesting. Yeah.

to kind of talk about binge eating and maybe what other issues around food girls might have and like another area in their life that could be causing it. Yeah. So I think this might resonate with people big time. Do you want to tell us where everyone can find you? So my Instagram is at Tash wall fit and my website is www.tashawall.com. Perfect. Amazing. Thank you so much for coming on.

Yeah, yeah, it was amazing. Okay, awesome. Bye, guys. Bye. See you on Friday. Hey, guys, it's Brooke. And Danielle from Gals on the Go podcast. It's very minimal change, but basically what I did... Wait, can we talk about the TikTok? Because I saw you deleted it and I need to... You're bringing it up.

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