Before my Surveillance System I Am Free
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Maybe, when I centre my movement, my life on what I see with my eyes but not what I know with my 'I' , there is surveillance going on building identification. Keeping me in a limited scope of knowing, seeing and belonging, creating .

But when I am not surveilling, when I am given to the truth of What I Am, when my heart , my breath, my feet my hands, my ability to think , my ability to feel, when all my ability is given to the core of What I Am , I am no longer a surveillance camera , building identification, building information.

Then this whole humanness opens to the light of That that I Am. I see myself and and know myself as infinite reality.

Some people call this enlightenment, but is more than life changing. When the light itself, realises itself on any level of itself, we call that self-realisation. It is the end of surveying to make sure I'm safe, to make sure I'm still moving in identification with polarity.

When I'm finally free of surveilling everything, of my surveillance system. My whole system belongs to Truth, belongs to Love, belongs to great Openness, belongs to gold, super gold.

It is very paradoxical because there are moments of immense wonder, when my ability to see and know anything in this earth life, extends beyond limits and I'm not 'in touch with' a limitless reality, I AM limitless Reality knowing itself.

And whilst there is still attention aware in this level of form...this level of form is, as it were, formed from infinite light and care and wonder. And even that's a paradox, in that there is ONLY This. There is nothing else. And yet the way that I function, the way that I live, the way that I see and perceive is changed by what I deeply Am, what I first Am, which is not a separate self.

So if we are on this kind of wavelength, we're going to give up, as it were, sorting our lives out from linear perception and history.

We turn our gaze around to the light of Knowing itself as our self. Not our self that produces sensation, not our self that produces thoughts and feelings related to some outside symbol. When in What I first Am, there IS no in or out. I am That. There is is no time or distance. There is only this fullness. It does not mean that I will experience this day to day, but my knowledge is: "This is the Truth." Then and is it our self that is true, that is Reality? Or is Reality what I first deeply am and there is no other or any thing else?
Do I need to stay with that or is that the simple and direct Truth?

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