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What is your one regret in life?
James Mpole, A Kenyanteller, realist, and seeker for knowledge
My biggest regret is the firstday I set my eyes on porn. At first, it created that excitement that I couldn'tget over, it was such an obsession since I was in my early teens (around 13 or14). 10 years down the line, I'm still hooked on it. I don't enjoy it, I'm justwired. I can go may be 6–7 days without it but I've never gone past 2 weeks.The best I tried was 10 days and withdrawal symptoms were so intense.Restlessness, irritation, hopeless, so much sexual arousal. I've triedsalvation, exercise, meditation but I've never gotten the willpower to get overit. The tricky part is that i cant do without the internet since I'm afreelance writer by profession. No one will pay my bills off the internet.Plus, I believe that hiding my head in the sand doesn't really solve theproblem. Anyone who's ever been curious to try porn, PLEASE DON'T! I'm proofthat all that excitement is just an illusion.
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I neverwanted to get into the finer details but I'm compelled out of the drive to savean innocent and naive soul out there. Porn, just like marijuana, is a gatewaydrug. You feel compelled to try more stuff that will give you a stronger ofdose of pleasure. I shifted from normal sex scenes to the awkward ones (I can'tmention here but picture gross scenes). Fapping is a likely outcome, which Igot addicted to 6 years ago. Although I function normally and fulfill mypersonal obligations, I always feel that I lost a personal touch with my naiveself. It may seem awkward to get addicted to porn and fapping, but once you'rewired, damn! It's hard to come out. Every week I promise not to engage in anyof the two, but I get intense withdrawal symptoms and the only way out is togive in.