The speaker broke her phone twice due to extreme emotional outbursts, once after a breakup and once due to frustration with podcast recording perfectionism, both stemming from deep-seated emotional and psychological pressures.
The first meltdown taught her the importance of breaking unhealthy cycles, making hard but right decisions, and understanding the value of delayed gratification and self-improvement.
Cancel culture instilled a fear of making mistakes and being misinterpreted, leading to extreme perfectionism and anxiety, particularly in her podcast recordings, where she obsessively re-recorded intros to avoid any potential backlash.
The second incident was a wake-up call revealing the toll of her perfectionism and fear of cancel culture, prompting her to realize she needed to let go of controlling every detail and accept that not everything can be perfect.
Her loved ones reminded her that occasional outbursts are normal and encouraged her to focus on the underlying causes rather than immediately diagnosing herself with a mental disorder, helping her see the situation more clearly.
The speaker wants listeners to understand that meltdowns are not something to be ashamed of but are instead valuable signals from the subconscious indicating that changes or attention to certain issues are needed.
if i had a dollar for every time I got so angry that i threw my phone at the wall and shattered it, i would have two dollars. i’m not an angry person, so it’s extra disturbing when i have some sort of outburst. it's like a wake up call. but i’ve learned so much from these meltdowns, and maybe you can learn something too.
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