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314: What if you harbored an unrelenting fury?

2024/4/9
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Amy Ronhaar: 我在10岁时失去了整个家庭,随之而来的悲伤演变成了自我毁灭的愤怒。在经历了失败的医疗、惩罚和康复体系后,我不得不自己寻找治愈之路。我的愤怒源于失去家人的痛苦和对安全感的渴望,这种愤怒在失去家人后几乎在一夜之间爆发,并持续多年,我将愤怒发泄在周围的人身上,与家人和朋友的关系恶化,并最终导致我被送往类似监狱的场所。在那里,我经历了监视、控制和虐待,目睹了其他女孩遭受暴力,这加剧了我的恐惧和绝望。我意识到没有人会来救我,我必须靠自己生存。我将悲伤和愤怒转化为一种内在的力量,支撑我度过难关。离开那个场所后,我仍然面临着适应困难和新的挑战,包括被强奸和两次自杀未遂。在经历了无家可归、吸毒和多次被强奸后,我最终在25岁时开始重新评估自己的人生,并通过心理治疗和迷幻药物体验,获得了新的视角和自我认识。我意识到自己不是受害者,而是拥有力量的幸存者。从那以后,我戒毒,接受治疗,并过上了积极的生活,我成为了一个牧师,并开始写作,分享我的故事。我的治愈之路漫长而艰难,但最终我找到了平静和自我接纳。 Witt Misseldein: 本期节目讲述了Amy Ronhaar在失去家人后,如何从自我毁灭的愤怒中走出来,并最终找到治愈之路的故事。她的经历包含了创伤、愤怒、康复、精神疾病等多个方面,提醒我们关注心理健康,并寻求专业帮助。

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Amy's life drastically changes when she loses her entire family at the age of 10, leading to a profound shift from innocence to a deep-seated rage and grief.

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After losing her entire family at ten years old, a woman’s grief evolves into a self-destructive rage, and as systems of care, punishment and rehabilitation keep failing her, she’s forced to create her own path to healing. 

Today’s episode featured Amy Ronhaar. You can find out more about Amy on her website, www.amyronhaar.com), and you can read more details of her story in her memoir Raising Amy: A Daughter’s Memoir on Book Baby https://store.bookbaby.com/book/raising-amy1) If you’d like to contact her, you can reach out over email at [email protected]). Amy’s story was also featured on the podcast Bunny Hugs, by Todd Rennebohm. 

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**Producers: **Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz

Content/Trigger Warnings: death, domestic abuse, self-harm, suicide attempt, rape, sexual assault, drug use, explicit language

 

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