“I was too ashamed to reach out and say, ‘Look, I don’t understand what’s happening, I think I’m going crazy…please help me.’”
**Producers: **Whit Missildine, Matt Volla
Episode Summary: Following early experiences of isolation and bullying, a man assigned female at birth finds a beautiful friendship, that soon descends into a bewildering cycle of gaslighting and obsession.
Today's episode featured Vel Ryder. You can find out more about Vel on Twitter and Instagram @whiskeyandspite.
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **suicidal thinking, mental illness, gaslighting, psychological abuse, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
**Music Bed: **“Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager)
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