“When I knew I was dying, I knew that I wasn’t going to have the anxiety or the OCD brain, it was just going to be over.”
**Producers: **Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: A woman with severe harm OCD encounters the many faces of death and dying but finds renewal in caring for others and ultimately herself
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **homicidal thoughts, harm OCD, death, sexual assault, mention of suicide, suicidal thoughts, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
**Music Bed: **“Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie
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