“I was asleep. Everything I was going through was not real, and it’s just this very convincing feeling that you’re right about this”
**Producer: **Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: A woman develops a severe eating disorder that lands her in intensive psychiatric care, where an extreme treatment program traps her in an alternate reality from which she cannot escape.
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **mental illness, eating disorder, psychosis, child abuse, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
**Music Bed: **Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho
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