“I did have a hard time ever really feeling safe anywhere, and the problem was just that inside of me it wasn’t safe so it didn’t matter where I was.”
**Producers: **Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: After a brutal rape at age 11, a woman keeps her secret, only to be haunted decades later by events that compel her to confront her deepest fears
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**Content/Trigger Warnings: **rape, sexual violence, psychosis, mental illness, suicidal ideation, homicidal thoughts, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
**Music Bed: **Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho
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