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I didn't put my- you are a bitch. You ran and put on that half of the necklace. Cause you know- Where's your half of the necklace? You just ran and put it on! Where is your half of the necklace? And I know exactly what happened. When we were in the bathroom, you saw it on the barstool and you were like, I'm gonna fucking put it on so I could like say something mean. No, that's exactly- I just wanted to say that. You were gaslighting me. You literally go out of your way to gaslight me every single day. Wait, who was it the other day that you were- No, I was just literally just making a joke. You were seriously gaslighting someone and I was like, Drew!
But I don't remember who it was. It was probably you. I mean, I literally gaslight everybody in my life. No, it was like someone else. It was like Christian or something. But you were like fully... Christian was like, you did this. And you were like, are you kidding me? And you like actually started gaslighting him. And I was like, Drew! No, that's me. That's me as a person. I gaslight. And I actually...
practice what I preach. We've gaslit our followers into enjoy being gaslit because someone made a comment where it was like, I just don't feel like they're gaslighting us as much as in the last episode. Wow. And like, as if it was missed. Speaking of comments though, I posted a TikTok and someone was like, like, why do you think, bitch? Like, someone said, okay, why wasn't Enya invited to the Met Gala? Bitch, why the fuck do you think? Like,
I think it's beautiful that our followers like... Ride for us like that. Ride for us like that. But... And I'm not saying this as of like, tell me I'm important. But like, we are not important. No, literally, I've been struggling with that so much more recently. Yeah, especially the past week. Yeah, like I genuinely mean nothing to no one. Yeah. Which like I shouldn't base my importance on that at all. But like...
I do. Point blank, period. I do. And there's no changing that. And yeah, I'm just unimportant to the industry, which feels good. Yeah, I guess let's rephrase that. It's not that we're not important. Like, I know that for you guys, we are important. And obviously, like, it's one of the reasons I keep fucking doing what I do. Exactly. Because I know that, like...
I'm not super insecure. Like, I do have confidence where I'm like, I think what me and Drew provide for, like, the internet and especially the influencer safe space is... Safe space. Especially for the influencer space is very important. But yeah, to the industry, we might as well fucking fall over in that. They don't give a shit about us. Literally, they don't care. They don't care. And I was telling you this morning, I was like...
Like, I know in my entire life, with every fiber of my being, I will never, ever be invited to the Met Gala. Like, it's just not in my cards. I would say. Like, I don't have that look. I don't have that energy to give. Like, I'm not made for the red carpet. Whatever. But, like, I was like...
I was having FOMO. I was like, how fun would it be if I like got dressed by someone? I know watching it. I was like, stop, wait, we need to like go out to a really nice dinner or something. So I have an excuse to put on like my best dress and like get all like prettied up. We should hire a, um, what are they called? A dresser? Um, a stylist. Yeah. We should hire a stylist for a day to style us in really, really good. Oh, I,
outfits. I guess I can think of a few stylists that I'm like, I want you to put me in clothes because you're good at what you do. The girls who dressed us for the Mark shoot, they are awesome. They knew what they were doing. Chloe? I don't remember their names, but they are awesome. Everyone they dress on, wow. You do a good job of looking at the person and being like,
Yes, this is what you would wear. I can't stand a fucking stylist who's like, "Yeah, here's your fucking bingo-bongo fit." Like, and it has nothing to do with- It doesn't fit, it's gross, it's grumbly. Or like a stylist who is just like, "Alright, here's your like jeans and t-shirt, you slut, bye." But I guess like some people want that, so who am I? Some people want to be normcore.
But you being like, doesn't it look so fun to just like get dressed is literally like yesterday I went into looking at the Met Gala. I've never watched the Met Gala in my fucking life, but I literally watched it because Addison Rae and Emma were going and I like desperately, I was like, I need to know what they're wearing. I need to know. I like obviously, I like knew Emma would serve and she like looked beautiful and everyone, honestly, everyone looked beautiful. Everyone gave. Everyone gave. Everyone gave.
I wish they didn't put Addison in a wig or I don't know if they actually cut her hair like that I couldn't tell but like regardless I was like watching it and I was like who the fuck am I to sit here and be like You eating Cheetos in your bed being like oh, why are they dressed like this? Yeah, everyone does just look fucking good everyone sirs and you do have to take into account like
Yes, I understand the historical importance of the Met Gala, but at the end of the day, socially, what the fuck is it? It's a party. We are literally tuning in to watch celebrities walk down the hall in an outfit to go into a museum in an outfit and take pictures, and then most of them go and change into a different outfit so they can go to a fucking party anyway. They put their uggs on. It is actually the weirdest thing. When I was watching it, I was like, I'm literally watching myself
be not invited and be so unimportant. How are you hating from outside the club if you can't even get in? I can't even get on the carpet outside of the club. That's what the Met Gala is. It's like all of us watching and being like,
This outfit sucks. This gives. This lays. Honestly, like everyone looked good though. I was like, all of y'all look like you smell good. Yeah, it was like a weird theme. In my head, I was like, what would I do? Like people did old Hollywood. Like Billie did old Hollywood. Meg did old Hollywood. Yeah, Billie literally looked like a fucking Disney character. But like in a good way, like...
looked like a princess she looks like a disney adult in a bad way derogatory disney adult derogatory no bitch she turned it look like it was awesome yeah meg's meg's look was also like slaying um
looked good was giving old hollywood like i think that's like what a lot of people are doing dude barbie barbara i can never say her fucking name never in my life i'm always like barbie barbara barrera ferreira like ferreira roche you don't know why i don't know her name i think it's just barbie yeah i think it's barbie okay she looks good i like it i like refusing to say it i i
talk about celebrities I get really fucking uncomfortable and scared because I'm like they're gonna hear this they're gonna hear this and attack us not even they're gonna hear this I'm like I used to be a big shit talker so now I'm like scared anytime I say anyone's name because I'm like I used to be someone who didn't have a therapist and would like go on weird tangents but I'm a changed woman now so shut the fuck up she's grown up
Yara, I don't know anyone's name. I'm like literally trying to like find their name. I just know the dress they wore. Yeah, I just know the dresses everyone wore. But like there were certain girls who were giving. Like everyone looked good, but certain girls I was like...
I want to wear that. I saw a TikTok last night that was so funny. It was like, I swear to God, Camila Cabello and James Corden or whatever his fucking name is, saw like a Hollywood executive commit like a gnarly murder or crime. And they were just given careers after that because like they give nothing ever. But like Camila, like you have to like,
To be the best, I mean, to be on top of the world the way she is, like, she has to be making something appealing to somebody, like the masses, so she's good at that, but like,
I'm going to admit, I kind of like her new song. I love her new song. Oh, Normani looked so fucking good. Normani is one of the sexiest women to ever walk the fucking face of this earth. And her, actually, now we can transition to the VMAs. We're becoming the fucking Buzzfeed. Oh my God. We're literally just. We're like.
being ultra like ah TV TV TV TV we just had the most like teenager week of my life that I've had like
- I literally said in the car I was like I can't remember the last time I gave the fuck about the VMAs But I think I said I had such bad phone. Oh, yeah, I never get phone and use like the last person to get phone I always have FOMO at literally if my friends hang out without me like I will jump off a bridge like I don't care like I will write them in my suicide letter, but not actually you don't worry about me I'm good
no i'm actually gonna fucking kill myself but like it's true whatever like um but you know what it is i think because now like because of the past year of my like new burning love for new york the fact that it was all happening in new york is what like made it fomo for me is because i'm like this is like a i one i just left and everyone then everyone got there so like it was like breaking my heart because i was like dude i like could have been like
hanging out with like a bunch of people i know in a city i fucking love yeah um so that was one and then like i just like love that city and i like want to move there at some point so i'm just like watching everyone like run around and have fun and do all these things and then i got but it was really weird because i never got it and it was like making me really upset because i was like i could never give a fuck what anyone's doing but i think that's specifically when it's in la because i'm like
That's embarrassing. Like, why are you running around? I'm like, why are you running around? And then New York is like, you're supposed to run around. So seeing everyone run around, I was like, I'm going to put on an outfit and go outside. That should be me running around. And a little cat. Like a little cat. But yeah, I was like, I don't remember the last time I cared about the VMAs. And then we got home and I literally like watched everything. I was like, why am I not there? Again, why are we not at the VMAs? We should be at the VMAs. The VMAs.
like weirdly embarrassing i don't want to go i don't want to go but i want to be invited so i can deny it that's what i'm saying it's like embarrassing to not be invited like i feel like at this point fgv is like yeah yeah whoever whoever whoever y'all just please put it on your story so we get ratings please please please please but like the i like i'm like why wasn't i there like specifically because everyone was there like yeah that was it i just couldn't give a fuck but i did watch all the performances and like
First of all, this is always... Wait, before we get into the VMAs, can we just say what we did instead of being at the VMAs? Oh my god. Okay, so literally, we are fucking actually weirdos. Like, all of our friends, all of our acquaintances were in New York at the VMAs having a blast. At Fashion Week. At Fashion Week, just turning up, turning looks, like...
just living an influencer lifestyle and me and Inya were literally at a fucking reptile convention like a reptile convention looking at lizards and snakes all day and I wouldn't have changed it for the world someone was like getting glam done and we were like driving an hour to fucking
and a knife to go to a convention and while somebody was walking the carpet I was literally holding a fucking skink which I genuinely wouldn't change for the world yeah no it was the most fun thing I've ever done in my life it was fantastic um I touched so many like animals I genuinely found my people like those are my people and like one day when all is said and done and
I get... My whole career is ended somehow. Maybe... You can go back there. I can go back to the convention and raise my lizards. You know what I just realized? Like, us being here, like, being like, we're not important to the industry, blah, blah, blah, blah. And then, like, I know our followers are like, y'all are, like, are important. We love you. Bitch, we saw some of y'all at the convention. That's why you think we're important. Because some of you motherfuckers are the freaks who are going there with us. Y'all are the weirdos, too. So, but that's okay. We cornered the weirdos of the internet.
We're just different. We're the wallflowers. We're all different. We're all different. We're the popular loners. Everyone knows us, but we don't want to associate. I like do so badly. Like I'm like, okay, I'm like 23 and I'm over being a loser. Like I want to be important. I know. We'll get it this year. Don't go yet. 2020 was supposed to be our year. You remember that? It's because I'm like, as much as I'm a fucking bitter hater, piece of shit, bitch. I feel myself kind of shedding that a little bit. And like,
Being like, you know, I really am like replacing the part of me that cringes with the part of me that is cringy. Like I'm letting go of being cringed and I want to be cringy. Yeah. I just want to have fun. Like...
Like I said in the last episode, the world is ending. It's time for me to have fun. I don't have any more time to hate. I've spent my whole life hating and now I want to have fun. Invite me. And they're not gonna. Because we literally just like, we're like, y'all are fucking inviting everyone anyway because you don't get fucking ready. We're just bitter. We're just bitter. Like, please invite us. Please, please, please invite us. Because I know one motherfucker. You know what it is? I know one motherfucker from NVT. NVT.
MTV is listening to this right now. Bitch, I know you hear me. I'm looking at you in the fucking eyes. They're like, I'm literally a free intern. Like, I can't do anything. Send us out. You're so annoying. You can't even see him. Drew's praying to Jesus that he got...
Her. I have such a bad time with animals. Like, I fully... I give them the gender I want them to have. Like, that I feel from them. Because they can't speak it. She's so fucking alive, it's actually weird. I hate it. You have to take her up to the camera. It literally looks like you're playing with fucking lint. And then everybody listening can't see what you're doing. Oh, actually, the funniest story about...
This, you can't see her. Why is it not focusing? You have to do like the beauty girls. Oh my god, you're pissing me off the way you can't figure this out. No, it's working. So there's my signing man.
So here's my spiny mantis. Her name is Goji. She's in her second stage evolution. One day this week I'll wake up and she will be a beautiful spiny flower mantis, fully mature. We've already built an awesome relationship. We love each other and I think she recognizes me. She's a bug. And she knows me and I give her her food and she loves me. Yeah.
That's my story. That's my mantis. But our friend Tavia got the same kind of mantis. She hit me. She wanted to touch me. No, you literally... They're scared of the shade and they'll start attacking your hand. But...
Our friend Tavia got the same mantis, and Drew and Tavia were told that because they're female mantises, they can't fly. And when we were at the convention, like, Tavia took her mantis, whose name is Rina, out. And she took Rina out, and Rina was fully fluttering wings, but they were like, oh, the Drew and Tavia were like, oh, she can't fly, though. And I was like, oh, okay. But she was fully fluttering her fucking wings. And...
when we left the convention tavia and uh tavia took her mantis out and had it on her arm and we were walking to the car and that shit literally fucking flew away it flew away in the parking garage and like flew directly into a wall and fell to the ground and we were like oh we were all in shock like we were walking and tavia just goes what'd she say she was like
I didn't think she could fly. I didn't know. They told me she wouldn't fly. And then we all looked up and we saw this fucking praying mantis flying through the garage.
Hit the wall, fell to the ground, and we weren't in a rush. We were like, oh, the bitch is right there. Like, we'll just walk up and get her. We walked over there, and she was gone. Like, she had fully disappeared. And we looked under all the cars, like, everywhere. And we looked for, like, 30 minutes. It was probably 105 in that parking garage. We were all sweating our asses off. Yeah, it was, like, fucking humid in there. And I was like...
No, like we have to find her. I was like, there's no way we don't find her. And then like literally 30 minutes past me, like, dude, the bitch is gone. Like she's fully, she's fully going to live her life in the parking garage. Like how sad is that? And then like literally right as we were leaving, Tavia like looks up at the ceiling at this like crossbar and she fucking sees her mantis just like chilling on this wall. And she's like, wait, is that Tavia?
that's her right and then i zoom up on the camera and i couldn't tell and she's like yeah that's literally it and so she like ran jumped on top of my car got her and now she's safe but like tabby made a good point like i got this because i thought i couldn't fly
fly. Exactly. Like, I don't want it to start fucking flying around my room and shit. That's kind of cool, though. Yeah, no, the the owner, I mean, the girl who was selling them at the convention was like, I just literally let my mantises like roam like they literally just like I'll let them free in my house for a week at a time and they'll collect bugs and then I'll call them or like be talking on the couch and they'll come back to me like they're literally like fucking dogs. It's so I mean, I wish I could understand like,
how alive this thing is. It like genuinely blows my mind. It's like sentient. Like looking at it, you're like, oh, that's literally a fucking bug. But like, no, it like looks at you and shit. It's so weird. And it like dances to music. You literally can't let it roam fucking free because Azul will start clicking and eat the shit out of it. Eat the fuck out of this thing. Azul is such a pussy though. Like, cause when Elisa had her lizard here, like actually Azul isn't a pussy. I think she's just like a freak.
sense that a cat would go after crickets instead of a lizard no i think they should eat lizards 10 out of 10 over crickets but elisa's uh gecko was
In its cage, we like locked Azul away. Elisa set up the gecko's cage and like locked it in there. And we let Azul out because we were like, dude, Azul's gonna freak the fuck out. And she literally just started laying by the cage. Yeah, she just like looked at it, smelled it and was like, oh, okay. Like no cat instinct. But then she heard the crickets and she was freaking the fuck out. But I think because she heard the sounds. So she like knew it was a bug, but she couldn't see it. She likes bugs, I think.
So we should give her your butt. No, that's my girl. That's my girl. Goji. I love Goji Um, but yeah while everyone was at the vmas We went to the reptile convention and then we came home and we continued playing mario kart for like an eight hour. Oh my god Love mario kart and mario party so fucking bad
I shit on you. I know. It's so... I shit on you. Playing games with Drew is literally... See, this is like when we were talking about how you can't play fucking Catan with you because not only do you cheat at Catan, you can't cheat at Mario Party. No. But you just fucking are the worst person ever. Inseparable. Drew winning is like...
I've never wanted someone to lose so bad. And I win every time. I don't know how. I prove my haters wrong. Like, my haters are my motivators. Like, literally. My motorvators? Exactly. They're my motors. But, yeah, I just, like, without a doubt, every single time, fucking win. What is this bitch doing? I was going to say, I think she's having a hard time getting on the other side. But.
But literally... So if you've never played Mario Party, it's a game made for fucking kids. So it's like...
really motivated to make sure everyone feels like they're having a fair game. Yeah. Which never fucking works on me, apparently. I played against all computers last night and still got fourth place. Like, I always get third or fourth place. I don't know if I need to change the character I use. I use Monty Mole. I don't know if I need to change that or what. Drew always uses Shy Guy and always fucking wins. I just know. Without a doubt. It's just like...
strategizing and literally not and you have to you just have to like let it ebb and flow with the game and like just let it be and when you win you brag and make everybody mad and then they start making bad decisions even when he's losing he makes me piss and he makes me like because at this point i know he's gonna win even if he's losing so i don't have an inch of hope when i'm playing that game literally literally i'll be like hopeless fucking portal of doom for me you'll you'll be like
ahead of me in the game, like winning. And I'll be like, I like, I just like, I don't feel good. Like, I don't even want to play this anymore. And then I come back and win. But every time you're like, you're like, oh, I'm not even stressed because I'm going to win. Or I'm like, like, I just like haven't even been trying this game. He makes you feel so stupid for winning too. That's what makes it worse is when you are winning
are winning he's like yeah i just like feel bad like why would i want to win a stupid little game yeah like at this point like it's so easy like i don't have to win anymore and he'll we'll get to the end and he'll have zero stars and like three fucking coins and i'll have like three stars and be like yes i fucking won and then he gets three bonus stars and wins i'm i almost just knocked your girl down she no she's she's good she can be upside down um but yeah i think like
We're just different. Some girls go to the VMAs and walk the carpet. Some girls play Mario Party for like the third hour in a row. I need to stream it. I'm going to stream it Thursday night. And it's also fucking crazy. I'm like, I'm going to stream Thursday night, guys. This is coming out on Friday. It's also crazy because...
For me, it's all avoiding reality. I realized... Oh, say. I fully realized that I am slipping. For once, we're both on the same path. Yesterday, I was literally like... I was like, it's because we didn't play Mario Party. It's because it hit 8 o'clock and I wasn't sitting on the couch rotting into the middle playing Mario Party until 1 a.m. No, yeah. I'm fully...
Fully slipping into this scary, scary depression. I feel good today, but yesterday I literally was rotting. Yesterday, you know when we're both in like a rut when all the lights in the house are off all day. Yeah, we didn't turn the lights on all day. Like we just existed in darkness. Yeah, it's... I feel better today though, but...
It's happening. You never know. It's happening. I know. I'm manifesting it. I was like, I could either be like slipping into depression or wake up tomorrow feeling fine. But like, it's always like in the morning, I'm like, if I wake up and keep myself a little busy, I'm like, okay, I'm okay. And then the second it is nighttime and I have nothing, if I'm not distracted, I'm like, oh.
Why am I alive? What's the point? What's the point to all this? The thing is, like, what's even more fucked up is I think about this a lot. And I don't know about for you, but something about...
I'm trying to think of how to word this. Because we were just talking about the past two weeks how we were like, yeah, I feel literally nothing. I don't feel anything. I feel very numb and I don't care. It's all avoiding that feeling. Yeah, it's all my brain. Our brains, without us thinking twice about it, I think going into almost...
defending mode of... Yeah. Like, avoiding that feeling and just being like, oh, like, I'm okay. I just, like, don't know. Like, I just don't care. Like, I'm okay that I just... Yeah, I'm not gonna put... Because for me, it's like, I don't... If I think about it, it'll become my reality. I'm just gonna push it as far away as possible and just, like, do my silly little task in my video games until it hits full force, which is just, like, the worst advice ever. Yeah. But, yeah, just... It's been...
The happening. The happening of the depression. I literally, I do think Christian was just asking the other day, he was like, oh, do you guys think you have like seasonal depression? And I was like, oh, but then I thought about it. And last year, just like this year, around this time, it's always like I hit a wall and I'm like, why do I feel like this? And of course, there are always like little things that I could be sad about.
Whether it's like my fucking imposter syndrome attacking me or like any other insecurities. Oh my god, literally the imposter syndrome has been hitting. I know. I genuinely think that's why I feel this way. Like the past like two weeks is like fully just like not thinking highly of myself at all. Like seeing everybody do everything that I want to do and me not being able to do it because for reasons I don't understand, right?
also like just not being able to understand why i'm not in these positions is driving me insane i mean i understand like why i'm not because i literally don't do anything i know but then it's like it's like the idea where some people are like the only like thing standing in your way is like you and i'm like no because if i like think like that then it becomes a perpetual cycle of like i'm the i'm the problem i'm not enough and i'm standing in my way and it's like dude these are like
As much as I like to think that I have control over my mood, I don't. It's like genuinely probably going to be something I battle for the rest of my life. And that's not me being like pessimistic and being like, this will never end. Because again, it ebb and flows. And sometimes it's like harder to deal with. And sometimes I like am so like consumed by my day to day life. And maybe I am in a good state that it doesn't even cross my mind. And I'm like, oh, I could be like this forever. But that's like not.
true and I think even for people who are depressed like there's who don't deal with depression they have their own battles battle of something like that but it's just like a little more intense when it is depression because like
depression is followed by like insecurity and like lack of motivation, which fuels the insecurity, which fuels the depression. And it's like these like big, vicious cycles that are like much harder to get out of than you think. And then especially when you're in like a position where a lot of what you do is based on
Like you personally and how you portray yourself publicly, it becomes an even tougher game. Especially when you see people who are really good at doing it who maybe even express going through the same thing. Then it can even fucking double down on how shitty you feel because you're like, damn, I'm...
I know like 80 people in this business who talk about suffering from like depression and anxiety and all these things, but like how... And they're also not even medicated for it. So it's like, fuck. And they're still like doing it. Yeah, they're still on top of the world. And it's like, okay, so this is just what I'm meant to be.
I'm sure a lot of y'all have noticed we don't have many ads anymore and you're probably thinking, wow, oh my God, I feel so bad for them. They deserve ads. But we're doing our job. You're not doing your job. You need to fucking subscribe and engage with me or I will never do my job again. I can't believe I miss reading ads. I miss the taste. For lifers. Me and my depression are for lifers. Ah!
No, I had that thought today. I think I put it on my Finsta story last night. I was like... We both posted on our Finsta stories at the same fucking time. Girl, we were alone in our bedrooms in our fucking feels. I was like, please, god damn it. Like, I genuinely, like, this cannot be for life. Like, I literally, like, this, like, cycle of, like...
Like highs and lows, like not even highs, just baselines and lows. Like I just I really cannot go through this. I mean, I literally am going to figure out a way to fucking deal with it or it'll just like fix itself or I'll literally do the smartest thing and fucking medicate myself. But yeah, I don't know. I just like was really depressed.
I was... You just can't do the, like... The, like, dips all the time. Yeah, it's so annoying. But I was... Like, I think about this a lot because I find myself...
I'm craving being like 14 to like 16 again or like 13 to 16 again really often. Not because I'm like, I miss being a teenager or whatever, but I'm like, oh, because I felt like such intense emotions through those ages. But the intense emotions I felt weren't good. It was like really, really dark spots in my life. And I like crave those moments, but it's because like,
- You get addicted. You get addicted to depression. - Yeah, you get addicted to that feeling and also if you're somebody who's like really struggled with depression,
You have this false sense of what being happy is in your head. You're like, oh like happiness I'm sure when when I feel happiness I'll know it because I'll be in the moment and I'll feel so fucking good and it'll like last for more than like a day and like it'll be like For like months. I'm just every day. I'm happy and I don't feel like this and like this isn't a feeling I have to battle and
But then because like I think about it like a scale, like I like to think like the most intense feelings I've ever felt were sadness. And that's why it's really hard for me to feel good is because like my peak of emotions has been like this intense despair that most people, especially by my age, shouldn't have experienced before.
So then when I'm in a moment where I'm like, this should be happy and like the most fulfilling moment for me right now at this age, it's not nearly as joyous or like as intense as that sadness was. So it's easy for me to feel like those moments are nothing. Yeah. Which is fucked up. Like fully just being jaded to like...
Everything. Oh my god. Sorry. Sorry. I thought you caught a bug. Oh no, my phone is falling. But yeah, like, I find myself just like, when I get into these like, really low lows, like that I'm like starting to like, dip down into, like it feels like I'm just like,
I'm not experiencing life at all. Like life is experiencing me. I don't know how to word it. No, I know. Literally you're going through like the motions. I call it like survival mode. Yeah, exactly. It's like, okay, wake up, eat, stimulate brain, go to bed. And then that's like the three things that I like focus on throughout the day is like, okay, like I can't,
anything so like I'm gonna play video games all day and live in this fake reality all day until like I figure something out figure it out which is such a toxic cycle because you just like because when you're in when you're just not doing anything you're not doing anything to better yourself and like yeah and once you're like leaning into it it's easier for it to consume you but like
You have no motivation to not do that. And then again, if you're someone who's struggled, it like is almost appealing because it's just that comfort. I was about to say. Yeah, it's like when you're in a bad relationship and you know you should leave, but it's like, I have comfort here. Like I know this feeling. Exactly. I was about to just say like, and also it doesn't help that like, it's so comfortable to just like lay in bed all day and be sad all day. And like, it's just like, it's really is like an addicting feeling where like, okay, like I know that,
that like I'm sad as fuck and I know how it feels to be sad as fuck and it's just like comfortable to be there like it's just like it's familiar which is so fucked up like literally evil and I don't know it's like again it's like something that passes but you know what like for me is the like when I get into these like funks me calling my depression a funk I'm like when I get into these funks
But when I get into it, probably the worst part for me personally is like those false highs I get.
From like... Work. 9 p.m. No, from like 9 p.m. to like 12 p.m. It's like randomly I'll get this spike of energy where I'm like, that shit was fake. Like, I don't feel like that anymore. Like, I feel so fucking good. Like, I want to go out. Like, I need to leave the house right now. Yeah. Like, I like need to get dressed. I'm going to put on an outfit. I'm going to like... And I'm like in this like false, like almost delusion of it being lifted. And then...
I, like, just crash really hard by midnight. And then I'm, like, back into it. You wake up and the first thoughts are negative. Yeah. That's when it's fucked up. That's when it's fucked up. It's, like, literally when the very first thought in my brain when I wake up in the morning is just negative. It's, like... Like, I always used to, like... When I was, like, struggling with, like, my mental health, like, in high school and shit, I was always, like, girl, like, shut the fuck up. Like...
like the first, like, I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. Like, no, that's just corny. Like you have to get out of bed. But genuinely, like these past like two years, that's like been like a very big part of like my depression is just like struggling first thing in the morning. Like the very first thought that enters my head is just like,
Like it's just like it's either like negative like about my life or negative about like what I'm doing today or negative about the people around me or like just something like that. Yeah, like wanting to flake even if it's important and being like I don't care. Like I don't care if this doesn't work. Like the day we went to the reptile convention. Sorry. Sorry.
I literally woke up and I was like, I don't need to go. I'm doing this for what? I don't want to leave my bed. I don't want to leave my room. And then you know what's a fucked up thing that I feel like
like depression can do to you is convince you that this is like a symptom of being like overworked or exhausted. So like your brain tricks you into being like, you know what, tomorrow I'm just going to spend the whole day laying around, not doing anything. I took a photo today.
What? Just like literally like it's like you haven't worked at all. Yeah like I haven't been doing anything. If anything I like I need to like I need to find motivation to work so that I can have all these things that I like dream of but
It seems like such a big task. And then I like exhaust myself mentally from that weirdly. Or I don't know. It's like my brain is like, you need to rest. And I haven't done shit. I don't need to rest. Like I rest all night. I don't fucking need to rest. I don't need to spend a whole day resting. But like...
like i get tricked by myself into doing that and then it like spirals into something and then next thing i know it's been five days and i like haven't showered for three days and i'm like sitting around like barely eating and i'm like oh oh this is this is i fell for it this is like you got me you got me it's depressiana depressiana grande got me again depressiana grande
It's Ariana Grande's sister. Depressed personality ego. Her other ego. It's like how Beyonce has Sasha fears. Depressed Ariana Grande. Depressed Ariana Grande. It also doesn't help that my fucking therapist isn't in town. I'll be a therapist. Shut the fuck up.
I'll be here. Come on, talk to me. Come on, talk to me, please. Open up to me. If a therapist did that, they would, like, be arrested. Can we do, like, a fake therapy session where I'm your therapist? But don't talk about anything real. Yeah, okay. You want to know how they always start? What's on your mind? No, that's not how it ever goes. It's like...
I just like obvious sides to someone who has not been in a therapy session. No I have been to therapy in my high school years. Not as an adult. Just had a gnarly situation with that so I just avoided it um but yeah. Therapy is the best thing I've ever done for my life. Like literally I buy so much stupid shit and like I was thinking about this morning when I was putting my shoes on I was like this is one of the best like
purchases i've made because i like didn't really want it but like i wear these shoes every single day and that's exactly how i feel about therapy is this one of those things i was like i didn't want to do it people were telling me to do it and i really didn't want to do it but i did it and now like i literally cannot i genuinely don't know who the or where the i'd be right now if i didn't start therapy six feet under oh you'll be in the grave
You'd be dead. No, but I was like really bad. Like I needed one so bad. Like I was, I wasn't like a bad person or anything, but like, I can't believe I was functioning like that. Functioning without one. Yeah. I was like, so whatever. That's a different conversation. Um, but so they always go like this. It's like, hi. And I'm like, hi. And then it's like a moment of silence because I literally never know. I've been doing it for like almost three years and I never know how to start. She's like, hey. And she's like, hey. How are you? And I'm like, uh.
I'm good. This is, this is, this is like, and then I just like say all these like things. Yeah. And then she like is I did. I talk so much in therapy. Like it's always like, actually go ahead. Like speak. Cause, but I do that in every conversation. I like always I'm talking. It's like actually something I'm so embarrassed of. You got a lot on your mind. No, I just have a big fucking mouth that I need to shut the fuck up. Like, especially in our podcast scenario, I find myself and I'm like, I'll literally be like,
and realize I've been talking for four minutes straight and Drew has not gotten a word in. And then I'll just like get really quiet. But I'm bad at picking what time to get quiet. Yeah. Like right now.
I don't do a good job of passing over the conversation. I fully go through every single thought that could be had about the topic. And then I'm like, and then you take my topics that I wanted to talk about and then run 14 miles with him. And I'm like, Oh, you know what it is too, is because we plan out the topics and then my brain is like on full, like, remember to say it, remember to say it, remember to say it. So I have to say it because if I don't like it will be gone forever. Yeah.
Hi. Therapy bit. Go. Hi. Hi, how are you? Are you the therapist? I'll be the therapist. We have to train Drew into going back to therapy because he's had a traumatizing event with therapy. And you need to know that it can be a safe space. But that's probably the only time in my life I've had luck is getting a really good therapist on my first try. You got Azul. He's a pretty boy.
He was a piece of shit for like a year and a half. He was the worst cat ever. Okay, I'll be the therapist. Wait, is this our first session or like have we been like doing this for a while? This is our first session. Okay. Is that how you would say hi in your first session? I'd be like, what up? I'd be like, what's up? Hi, you sound straight. There's a lot to unpack there. There's a lot to unpack there. Should we go in there now or what? Should we do it now or what?
Should we start now or later? Alright. Hi. So what brings you in? You said in your email to me that this is your first time coming back to therapy in quite some time. Was there anything that maybe sparked that interest? I just don't believe in therapists.
You know, you may find that a lot of clients of therapists walk into it with that feeling because there is such a harsh stigma on therapy and there are many people like yourself who have had negative interactions with therapists. But I would like you to know that a part of this journey, it would be my job to make sure that you feel comfortable and safe in this space that we're creating together. Well, I like being touched. Yeah.
I like being held and comforted physically. Can you do that for me? Sadly, um, that is not something I'm capable of doing. Okay. Um, he obviously is a narcissist with like self-loathing. I just,
I just start saying random shit. - You start talking to the therapist, starts talking to herself. - Dude, I literally, I was actually talking to my therapist about how I think the words being thrown around on the internet are so funny because it's like a 14 year old being like, actually, I believe that this is like signs of being a self-loathing, narcissistic, like, - Yeah, y'all shouldn't know that. Like literally get off your goddamn iPhone. Get off your iPhone. - Put your iPhone down and just like text your back. - Go to a high school football game, right?
Like, enjoy yourself there without being so introverted. Not introverted, but, like, introspective. And, like, thinking everyone is looking at you because no one gives a fuck. Literally no one gives a fuck about you. Like, I was that person in high school that, like... Not in a way that it's, like, you're useless or anything, but, like, literally it's, like... You know what it is. People spend more time thinking about themselves than they do thinking about you. I was about to say...
What it is, is especially... I don't know if this is for everybody, but for me, the reason why I was so goddamn insecure was because I was the person judging everybody around me for what they did. Like, everything, every move that someone made, every...
thing someone said, like, whatever it was, like, I was the judgmental person. And then that made me believe everyone was doing the same thing to me. When in reality, no one is looking at you and having these thoughts. And if they are, that's their fucking own problem. So, like, literally, I don't know. Take with that what you will. Like, stop being so judgmental and you'll stop being so insecure. And that's what worked for me, is I stopped looking at other people and giving a shit. And that's perfect. I think it's literally just also, don't...
Unless your life goal is to be like a therapist or a psychiatrist or work in the like that department, you're going to have a very hard time going through life if you look at everybody and start throwing on these labels. Diagnosing them. And yeah, and diagnosing them. When in reality, like...
Most people you meet will have flaws. Everyone you meet will have flaws. Not saying that like if you genuinely believe somebody is like an awful person and like doing bad things to you that you should like butt through and be like, well, they had a hard life or whatever. Don't do that. Yeah, don't give them excuses. But don't look at your high school friends unless they're like genuinely being like morally corrupt to you and like hurting you. If your high school friend is like maybe...
Not super open about like their feelings or like doesn't like give the most in a friendship. Like y'all are still high schoolers. I was like, I personally gave nothing.
Yeah, no one knew nothing about me. Yeah, like I literally not even until I moved to LA did I even start to kind of open up to my friends. This just sparked a crazy thought in my brain. But like I see a lot of comments like on whether it's our videos, Josh's videos, your videos, the podcast, Dana's videos, whatever it is. Like I wish I had friends like this. Like I long for like friendships like this. Like when I was y'all's age, I didn't have friends like this. Yeah, we did not have friends like this.
Just like literally like as you mature and get older you start developing these relationships with people that have similar interests to you and like there's always time to make like fucking long-term relationships, but like I only fuck with
two people from my high school experience like and that's Hunter and Tag like those are my ride or dies like those are the two like people from high school that like know almost everything about me like those are the two people but we didn't start getting close until after high school like I was friends with them in high school but we didn't know each other until after high school and I think that's just like
a thought to have in mind. Like, obviously don't stop putting yourself out there and like trying to make these connections, but... Yeah, I like... I can't speak from experience because I didn't have... I can't speak from the experience of what having close friends in high school, how that can benefit you, but I didn't have that. And I never... But I guess the difference was it never bothered me because I...
I knew I wouldn't be able to because like I had such a busy and like strict home life. Like I like didn't get to go out with friends because like my dad was just like always worried about us getting involved in shit and like he didn't want that to happen. And also on top of everything, like we had younger siblings and my parents worked all the time. So I was always home watching my younger siblings. Like there was so much happening in my personal life that I like could
make time for that and I also did not crave that at all for some reason like I was I think I've always been like a really funny mix in YouTube of like being very extroverted but not actually like it's like this like facade of like I guess maybe it's different for us because like I think I've
I don't know how to say this without being mean, but, like, I think we work really well together in social settings, but I think apart, maybe I, like, can be solo in social settings a little better than you. Yeah, 100%. And, like, I've always done a good job of, like... I think that's why I like Marvelous Mrs. Maisel so much is, like, I, like, see myself in that character a little bit of, like, being able to get in front of a crowd and, like, really...
off of like attention and making strangers laugh and like talking to random people and stuff like that. But I would never go out of my way to do that. Like, and I've never been like that. I've never been someone to go out of my way to be put in a social setting or like social situation as I've gotten older. I've tried to do that. But as a high school, I literally could not give a fuck about having friends because for me personally, I was dealing with so much like mental, so much mental like
And, like, my depression and, like, family life and all this stuff. That the last thing I wanted was, like, to, one, get a random high schooler involved with my life. Even though I was a high schooler. I didn't want to get anyone involved. And, like, I wasn't a very open person. So, I was, like, all of my friends were very...
And even in school, I wasn't very social. Because again, I just couldn't give a fuck. I'm like... That's another thing to be said. Is like all these like friendships and relationships you have now. Like I'm only speaking to like...
younger people because it is a completely different and also it's a different experience for everybody but like these relationships that you have now are kind of like forced upon you like yeah like they're just circumstantial friendships and whatever and like you'll find your people like when you start living life actually
whether that's like before college after I mean during college or like even after like that's when you'll find even in college you're still in a position where like these are people who are like available to you and you make the best out of those situations and not to say you can't find good friends out of those situations because I have like Cyrus, Sakaar like I know a bunch of people from high school who I'm still like
Not the closest to, but I like still like hold those relationships close to my heart. Cause I'm like those people, but even that was different. Cause like, those are like some of the people who I actually was emotionally vulnerable with. But even that was after high school, like after high school, I built those relationships. And like, after I had myself figured out a little more, I was able to turn back and be like, these are relationships that I like love and like want to cater to. It's just like, dude, you're a kid. Like you don't,
You have all your life to make friends. And I know that maybe that's not... What you want to hear. What you want to hear, especially if, like, the one thing you're craving is that social, like, connection. But it's also just, like, harder when there's social media involved. Because when we were 15, we weren't seeing, like, groups like ours. Like, we're the same age as most of the other, like, friend groups on the internet right now. So, like... And I think a lot of people...
Because we look young, it's easy to like... I don't know. I guess I don't know how like our viewers view us. But in my head sometimes... I feel like most of our audiences are age. I feel like most of them... At least like the analytics on my video say that they're like older. Which is awesome. Yeah, I feel like maybe because it's like... Like they grew up with us, which is so fucking cool. Yeah. But what I was trying to say is like it's easy to...
To like...
that you guys should have friends like we do, but you also have to think about the odd fucking circumstances me, Drew, and our friends fell into. It really is not common. And it's also really not that common to have friend groups like ours. No. It's just, it is a very, not to be like, we're so fucking special because we all have our issues and shit, but I've met many, many people who are in friend groups who do not function the way we do, and we just like...
Josh said it perfectly one time when he was like in a weird way. I think we were all like without realizing it looking for the same thing in a group of people and we just got lucky and like fell together. Yeah. Um,
So really don't even like think you can have this. Yeah, it's unobtainable. Like we're unobtainable. Like everything we do and say is just like you can't have it. And that's why we'll be hosting the Emmys. Yes, that's our announcement for this podcast is we're hosting the 2022 Emmys. So excited. We're being dressed by Derek Glasgow. Okay, Derek. Okay, why the fuck hasn't Derek hit us? I know like.
Why hasn't Marc Jacobs hit us up again? To send us. Yeah. To send us out. Mr. Marc. Marky Mark. We're thinking of you. We're the Marc Barbies. Like, did you forget about us? We're going to have a picture of Marc up on the wall for the next episode. And someone from the team is going to send it to me. He's going to be like. No, no, no, no, no, no. Mm-mm.
Take it down. Blow them up. I'm literally going to go to heaven and steal one of the pictures of him. Just from under the glass and like put it up. Like how the fuck do they have that? Why do they have that? Derek Glassblow. That's not his name. No, it's probably like Blasberg or some shit like that.
From Louis... Or Fashion YouTube. Derek. Let me know. We act like we've even, like, touched on Fashion YouTube. That's why we're not... No, that's... Me this entire week, I'm, like... I'm struggling with, like... Okay. Like, I want to be there, but what if I contributed to the fashion space at all? I mean, I'm serving looks today. Like, I'm giving, like, what was supposed to be gave. Like, I hit the... Yeah, I think what it is is because we both, like, are...
like feel confident about the way we dress so we just believe we should be there but that's literally everybody on planet earth like we are no different like i don't think you should be like i should not be in any of those spaces but bitch you have influenced the younger generation of fashion like
So much more than any... Like, I will say it with my fucking chest. Than any other fucking person on the internet. Period. What happens is these other bigger creators and influencers see the way you're dressing. Mimic it. Tone it down. Take it for their own. And they get the credit. But, I mean, that's just my point of view on it. And I'm biased because I love you. And I don't think you get the credit you deserve. But...
Thank you. You don't have to take that. You can completely deny it and be like, yeah, you're completely wrong. I don't know. I think like at this point, I'm just like the internet is so big and I don't. It's gone beyond. It's beyond me. So I don't know if like I have.
I don't know. It's that weird thing of like, I'm not trying to sit here and be like, I do things. I don't know. I just think I don't fucking care. I just like, and I don't know that I care about wanting flowers for anything because a lot of shit I do is like, I'm not doing it with the intention of being like, of course, sometimes when I post something, I'm like, oh, I just got this. I should post it so that like, I don't know, like that's part of being an influencer. It's like, yeah, you like, you do a lot of,
I don't know. That's a whole other conversation. I get very nervous about talking about this because I think like every big influencer is like doing their own thing in a way. But like, obviously we're all being inspired by very similar things and then being inspired by each other even. Um,
So it like kind of bounces off, but then you get into like the thing of like everybody wants to say who did this and who did that. And then it becomes like this weird anger thing. Like it's no longer a thing of like, I got this from this person. It's like,
Someone could be like, oh, I got this from Enya. And then someone who doesn't like me could be like, fuck her. Like, I didn't get it from her. Fuck her. Like, it's just like all this like rage. But thank you very much. And I like am very like flattered when people are inspired by me. But yeah, I don't know that I'm like necessarily catering anything to the world ever. So I'm just like, I don't like...
I just want to be places. I just want to go out. Just invite us. Just invite us. Just invite us. We're like, just invite us. And then every time we talk about going to an event, we're like, we got belligerently drunk. We stole something. We're evil. We're obnoxious. I'm a demon. Kill me. Slay me. Slay me. To the moon. Bitch, let me go. Here I go. Here I go. Bitch, here I go.
What else is there to talk about? I was going to say something else and then I completely forgot. But I think we... I don't know. Is this our first, like, serious episode where we talk about something like that? I don't know. We should put a trigger warning in the beginning, though. We should be like, um... Depression. Depression. Depression. Yeah, it's always like... Like, I never...
I've found, and I talk about this in, like, a YouTube video that I want to post, but I find, I'll say it here, too. I find that, like, as I, I don't know that I'm necessarily growing as, like, an influencer anymore, again, but that's, like, my...
imposter syndrome I like literally think by each year I'm like less and less important and hopefully by like the age 25 I'll just be like nothing to everybody and we can move away and I'll go like live in the fucking villages I'll go live in the pilgrimage um I obviously don't actually want that I would like to be successful and like be like an actress or some shit at some point but whatever um as I like
get older on the internet. I don't know that I've ever been super, super open. Like I think I've done a good job of being like very expressive and serious about where I'm at in my life and the things I've experienced without being so vulnerable that I feel like everybody knows everything about me. But as I got, I've gotten older, I've realized that I really cling on to the idea of privacy because I,
I am not that as open as I've become. I'm not that open of a person and I don't like people knowing everything about me. Even like people I'm very close to like I like I like save a bit of myself and like every interaction I have. And as I get older, it's weirdly harder to be a person on the internet for me because I feel like I'm like giving less and less of myself, which makes me feel like
People are less and less intrigued with the idea of like keeping up with me because the thing I used to give was like myself. Yeah, that's like something I've been like over the last two years just like completely just being Unrelatable like not on purpose. I just like or kind of on purpose Like I don't want people to know to know these things and I think that's like a huge part of being an influencer though is being relatable and like
being vulnerable and whatever. Yeah, I just like... Yeah, I have a hard time with that now. I just want to be uber A-list celebrity. Everyone knows everything about me, even if I don't want them to. But I also have $80 million and can retire for the rest of my life and never say anything to anybody and just let people's opinions fester about me. See, I want the complete opposite, but kind of. I just want to be like...
enough in grounding and in life and feel like I can do whatever I want. Oh, I don't want that. I was like, I was like, that was really off the wall and like probably the most like I was like, we learn something new every day. No, I genuinely don't.
Want to win the lottery and disappear. That's my goal. I just want to be able to like create. Oh my God. I haven't been manifesting that recently. Actually, I need to start manifesting that. You were trying to manifest you winning the lottery since 2018 and you did it for two years and it didn't happen. I just haven't been buying lottery tickets.
That's the thing. I don't know if y'all know this about me. But in my lifetime, I will win the lottery. And there's no way around it. It will be... It's just in my cards. I truly believe that it's in my cards. And eventually it'll happen. It'll become a reality. And I'll be rich overnight. And y'all will never see me again. I'll just move away. And yeah, that's going to be my new life. I'll probably buy...
Like, I don't know where. I'd probably live in a French prison countryside. I'd probably buy a chateau out there. You always say that and it pisses me off because I don't want you to live in France because they're time different and, like, how long it would take me to get to France would, like, destroy our relationship. If that's what happens, that's what happens, man. For anything for my sheep. Anything for my sheep. My sheeple. You're a fucking sheeple. Damn, all the people getting vaccines, y'all are sheep. You're Sherpson. Y'all are sheep. That's a sheep person. Um...
But yeah, I literally, I don't fucking know, man. I could talk about this forever. But yeah, I guess also, I've said this before, it's like, I got a therapist now. So I'm like, I don't feel the need to like, express myself like that openly. Although I know like, it was a safe space for people. But I don't know, as I've gotten older, I'm like, that's not my job. Not even that, because I like doing it. And not that it's like become embarrassing. But I'm just like, again, I like to reserve things.
that for myself. And I also, I never want it to be like a situation of people who look at my life and maybe want to be where I'm at. And like people who maybe look in and feel like I have everything they want and see that I'm still struggling mentally. I don't want that to be ever, um, like what's it called? Not disappointing, but
Like like just them being like if she can't have it all if she has it all and like still feels like that What's the point of me going on? Like I never want that to be like the way it's oh, that's literally just like brain chemistry shit Your brain is off. Not everyone's is Come on girl, everybody feels like this man, but yeah, I don't know but again I also understand that seeing someone like in me and Drew's position and knowing that we still struggle could also be like
for your brain and feel good. Drew's literally getting ready for his fucking media and that's why he's like not saying anything because he's looking through his goddamn letterbox right now. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Stupid. All right. With all that being said. Woo that was a doozy man. I know we started off so fun and then it got like kind of quiet. Deep episode. Let us know if you like that.
But if you don't like it, don't fucking say shit because I'll slap the fuck out of you. Yeah. Keep your negative criticisms and thoughts to yourself at all times. I genuinely believe that. Like if you don't have something nice to say, don't say it. No, sometimes I like to be told if something I'm doing is stupid. I like need that because I like, oh, maybe I don't because I always think what I'm doing is stupid. So maybe the last thing I need to be told is like, yeah, reinforcing that. Yeah, you're right. You're dumb.
Are you gonna go first or are you gonna fucking like sit there forever, bitch? I don't know. I haven't watched anything. I don't have anything. We watched The Arrival together. Oh, yeah. Arrival. Yeah. Wait, did we talk about that in the last episode? No. Maybe we did. We did. I think we did. Did we? Okay, I'm gonna say... Dude, I think I like said these movies in my last fucking... The last episode. Yeah, because I talked about The Farewell. I talked about Arrival.
I don't know if I talked about Letter Room, but I need to watch Marriage Story because the guy from Letter Room is in it. What's his name? Adam Driver. Elvira? Adam Driver. Wait, is this the same guy? No, not... No, you're thinking of Marriage... Oh, did I already said Marriage Story? I meant to say, like, it's like... It's... Fuck! Sorry, I'm like... I can't think of the name of the movie. Girl, what? It's fucking... It's like a look into a marriage or something. It's like not... It's Marriage... Story? No. No.
Bruh. Are you fucking kidding me? I can't think of the name! Wait, guys. Marriage HBO Max. It's like on HBO Max. Scenes from a marriage. I need to see scenes from a marriage. Okay, no. Oscar Isaac is so fucking sexy.
Like he literally is so sexy. Yeah, see, Oscar Isaac is in this, is in The Letter Room too. He looks so fucking sexy in it. And then he looks so, he's just sexy. But I need to see that movie. But I saw The Letter Room and he was in that. And not only is he sexy, but it's good. And it's a short film and it's like 30 minutes long. And he's so sexy. And it's like specifically just him in the whole movie. So it's just watching like a sexy man be sexy. Ooh, nice, nice, nice.
Nice, nice, nice. Oh, and I started Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and I literally fucking love it and I'm already on season two and they're in Paris right now. Spoiler, but I want to go so fucking bad and I'm gonna die. Marc Jacobs, fly us out to Paris. Shut up. Go. Go for your thingy. Okay, well, since I didn't watch really anything, watch... I just have a bunch of movies and some I don't feel comfortable suggesting because they're really gnarly. Um...
Do you want me to say my music? Yeah. Okay, here's my music. Oh, fuck. I literally can't remember what I said last week, so I'm scared I'm going to repeat. But City Moon by Flux. Yeah, City Moon by Flux. That whole album is really fucking good. I'm just so different, and I listen to artists on Spotify with no fucking followers. I'm just really different. And then...
I like... I'm still such a bitch and I'm like gatekeepy as fuck and it's so annoying because I don't want to do that. But I love Blossom Deary so fucking much and I...
As I was listening to Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, they used one of her songs and I was like, oh my God, I love this so much. And then I realized that Marvelous Mrs. Maisel uses like a Blossom Deary song in every single episode. And it's literally everything I've ever wanted. A show about a fucking female comedian. Remember when I told you to watch it and you ignored me? Yeah, I know. And sometimes like I just ignore people and it's good for them. Like it's good. It like reinforces you that the things you say as a man are unimportant. And that's why I do it.
Wow. Seriously? What the heck? What the heck is wrong with you? So yeah, any Blossom Deary song, but Baby You're My Kind and Hey John are my favorite right now. Saving All My Love For You. Was it like In My Shadows? Everything on the Blossom Deary Sings album is so fucking good. You have been listening to that so much. Yeah, I know. Sunday Afternoon, I'm Shadowing You, Somebody New. Is that Sunday afternoon? Mm-hmm.
And yeah, I'll stop there with music. Packed My Bags by Rufus and Chaka Khan. And like, because I've been re-listening to that. But yeah, I could go on about music forever. I'm kind of a nerd. She's a music nerd.
Okay, so my movie that I say that I want y'all to go watch is House 1977. Work it, the house. Oh, let me see the cover. Is this the one I'm thinking of? Yeah. Y'all, it's work it, the house. I think it's like the perfect horror movie ever made. It's like kind of campy. It's like...
It is awesome. It's just really, really good, and it's like a great start to October. Spooky. Yeah. It's spooky season. I was just about to say. And, yeah, it was just done really well. And, I mean, I'm sure literally everyone listening has probably seen it because it's, like, so known. But go check it out if you haven't. It's House 19—the name of it is House, but to find it, put 1977. Okay.
And then my music for the week is Less Talk, More Rock by Freeze Pop. Botanic Panic by Christopher Madigan. It's from the Cuphead soundtrack. I literally didn't look at what you were looking at. Touch It by Busta Rhymes.
Because I love the intro. Touch it, bring it. Oh, is that it? Touch it, bring it, bring it. And it's a-pho-matic. That's my media for the week. Go put it in your playlist. Put it on your watch list. Get into it, yeah. Get into it, yes.
Also, final note, Doja Cat is a fucking born-to-be pop star. She is the next... I mean, she's already the it girl, but she will be solidified in human... In human history. Yeah, she'll be around forever. She can perform. She can make a fucking hit. She's funny. There's not many people out right now that I can say that about, but with my whole chest, Doja will be iconic forever. She's full pop star. Like, fully. All right.
Peace out.