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This episode of Emergency Intercom. I'm like touching your toes because I think it's a part of my body since it's like on my chair. And you don't need to be on my chair. No, this is like a staple of the podcast now. Like, it's the only way I can be comfortable is if my legs are elevated to your chair. I saw comments of people being like, oh my god, I bet Drew like internally like shakes anytime Anya touches him. We always touch each other. We're always touching. We're really touchy-feely people. Like, you'll get...

I was going to say, like, if you ever met us, like, you'd get that. But, like, no one wants that. Also, we're not touching, like, people we, like, randomly meet. But I guess when someone comes up to me, I do, like, before COVID, I would always hug them. Like, someone's like, oh, my God, I know you. I would go in for hugs. I'm like, why not? I literally hug everybody I meet. Yeah. I don't know if that's, like, a big no-no. But, like, it'll literally, like, it could be, like, a business meeting and I'll, like, hug the person.

I'll if it's like an adult like I'll shake hands yeah like I'll shake hands but yeah if it's someone around our age or it's like a friend of a friend I'm fucking hugging you exactly exactly like if you seem like a peer I'm hugging you and I go like that I hug and I go into the air and then they like give me a funny look but they like wink it off so it's new it's new with you

Actually, one thing I do want to update is I am so tired. I'm back to being like chronically tired as shit. Sleeping in until 3 a.m. But it's because you go to bed at like 5 p.m. every night. Or 5 a.m. every night. Yeah, I can't fall asleep, but it's because, I don't know. I don't know. I just like my electronics. We've just been overworked recently. We've just been working too much.

We have been working a lot more than usual because of my imposter syndrome. I've decided that like I need to be something like I need I need my roses like I like I feel like so useless and like I haven't given anything to the world, which I already said in the last episode. And people are going to be like, damn, girl, shut the fuck up. You're really harping on that, aren't you? Yeah, it's real. Yeah, I know. Because I mean, like, we don't fake shit. We hate ourselves. We hate each other.

Well, I was waiting for you to be like, what's new with you, Drew? Okay, okay. I need to finish. Sorry. I'm actually so bad at asking people about their day because I could just go on forever. Yeah. Me too.

That is an insecurity. Sorry to cut you off, but that is an insecurity of mine is like when I'm texting someone, I can make it somehow relatable to my life every single time and no matter what it is. And I will just be. The way that you didn't go when I'm just talking to someone, but you said when I'm texting someone, is this like, is this because you don't like interact with a lot of

people? I think because I don't interact with a lot of people in real life. But like if I if there's someone I'm like talking to or like just chatting with and like they're like opening up to me like and being like sensitive with me, like somehow my narcissism like takes over and it becomes genuinely hard for me to not make it about myself. And I don't know what that says about me as a person. But yeah, I feel that I don't know if I like

I think I'm pretty good. Oh, my God. You and your fucking funky water. Walkie. I think I'm, like, good at not making it about me, but I'm really bad at talking my fucking ass off. Like, I will walk away from a conversation and be so embarrassed because I'm like, I did not shut the fuck up for 30 minutes. And it's especially worse when you're speaking to someone who isn't, like, very talkative. Yeah. Which, like...

I should just be like, well, whatever. That's like, I'm very confident. Checks and balances, baby. Yeah, like that's how it's going to go. Yeah. But Azul just like ran across the floor. He's just thinkable. But I get so embarrassed because I'm like, oh my God, I am so annoying. Like I don't shut up for one second. I feel like I'm the person that doesn't talk too much. Like I feel like I'm opposite to tract.

That's what we are. That's why our sex is really, really good. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. None of that. Yes. How are you? What's up with you? How have you been? I didn't want to get into this, but since you asked, I have a bump on my face. Oh, my God. No, I thought you were going to talk about what we were originally going to talk about. Yeah, we'll get to that after this. But I woke up.

one yesterday morning and I had a giant lump on my face. Um, right on my, where my man do mandibular. I think the, the joint in my jaw, speak fucking English bitches by your ear, my joint in my jaw. Um, I woke up with a giant bump, um, on my face and it swelled really big yesterday where I was actually visible. Um,

And it's sore to the touch, but it went down last night, but it's still sore to the touch. So basically, I have a growth on my face, and I may or may not make it out of this. And that's what I'm saying. You guys don't realize how precious life is. And I may wake up tomorrow, and it could burst and infect my brain, and I'll never be the same. And that's... But you might be normal. Yeah.

It might make my brain normal. It spread to my eye, too. Like, my eye was red all day yesterday. Your eye was red because you took a fucking shower and you scratched the fuck out of your eyeballs. Yep, yep. You are so annoying. I just wanted to talk about that. Everyone's like, oh, Drew, it's probably just like...

It was actually so annoying. Kai was sitting on the couch and Drew went up to Kai and Kai was like, oh yeah, it's probably a cyst. They'll maybe have to drain it. But like, or it could even be like acne, like cysts. Like it might not be that big of a deal. And Drew is so annoying. He's like, no, you don't understand. They're going to have to like cut me open and like trying so hard to get Kai to be worried for him. Yes. That's literally. All we do is worry for you. No, you don't. No one worries for me anymore. No.

That's the saddest part about my life is no one's worried about me anymore. Maybe my mom. Maybe my mom is worried about me. But like you really are all alone in this life. And that's you. It's me, myself and I versus the world. Me, myself and I. That's all I got in the year.

That's what I found myself. And it ain't no reason why. What was I singing? I don't fucking know. I was singing me and myself. Me and myself and I till I die. No, that's just a fucking saying. You goddamn idiot. You were just singing it in the same tune as me. That's something we should do one podcast episode is me trying to finish or even replicate the lyrics to a song because I don't know. I just listen to the song for the way it sounds.

I don't care about lyrics at all. I don't understand when people say that because I'm like, unless you're... Because it makes sense, obviously, if you're listening to IDM and stuff because there is no lyrics there. So you're listening to the music itself. But if you're listening to a song with lyrics...

At the forefront of that song is the lyrics. I think that's why I fell so deeply down that rabbit hole in 2016 of SoundCloud rap. Because it really is all beat-driven. And I think a lot of music is beat-driven. And lyrics are just supporting. And I just listen to the beats.

And also part of me, like, you know, everyone in my like close circle knows like I can't read. That's not a joke. Like I actually can't read out loud. So I just think I have like a problem understanding words and songs.

And the complete fucking opposite. Yeah, it is crazy. Like, sorry. I'm sorry. You're like fingering my fucking pussy on the podcast with your feet right now. I'm sorry. I just like was trying to. Is it the warm? Yeah, it was the warm. Okay, you can go under there, girl. But don't move around like that. You're like caressing me. Um, what were we saying? Oh, I was going to say like you can, um.

Like clock a sample from like 3 million miles away. It's like actually terrifying. I don't know why. But it's literally because my brain, it's perk 30, walkie slush. Oh my God. The thing is, that's only a visual gag. And everybody who's just listening, you always do these weird visual things. And nobody was, what's the red stuff in that drink? B12 or B-complex.

Oh, is it those little packets? No, it's a, I got a dropper of B12. Can I have some? I need some. I think I need like more B12 for energy or something. I don't know. My diet's all fucked up. I'm like fully eating like pork and like chicken and shit again. And like, I'm just like destroying my body. Just literally going off the deep end. Yeah, it's B12. And then I put some mushroom extract and that's my. I want to buy Lion's Mane tea. Oh, that pill was magnesium.

I want to buy lines made to eat because I saw someone make like chicken nuggets out of it and it looked so fucking good. But fuck, what was I saying? Oh, we're talking about like how my like sample brain. It's literally the same part of my brain that keeps like the Nicki Minaj files.

That I'm like, oh. The Spongebob references, Nicki Minaj vibes. You... I don't have that Spongebob reference thing. When people are like, this is a Spongebob. Like, everything in my life is a Spongebob reference. I loved Spongebob as a kid. But for some reason, that's not a cartoon like I think of a lot. A cartoon I think of a lot is Flapjack for some reason. Yeah. I like... I think...

You know what's fucked up? Like, this is genuinely, like, one of my darkest secrets that, like, I'm actually afraid to admit to the internet. And you know how we were just talking about yesterday, like, we can, like, keep some things to ourselves. This is one thing that I've kept to myself for too long, and I'm just going to out myself on it because it's actually, like, fucked up that I haven't done this yet. But I...

Never watched Adventure Time. Like, I don't think I've seen one episode of Adventure Time. Like, legitimately, I don't think... I think I've maybe seen, like, three episodes. That is insane. I know. And everyone always talks about it and references it. And it's like, Marceline. And I don't get any of it. And I just play along. And I'm like, yep, it was so influential. Like, yeah, like...

And I don't get it. I never have. Literally me when someone mentions the Beatles. I don't get it. Never have. Never will. I don't get it. Never have. Don't care to get it. Fuck the Beatles. No, literally fuck the Beatles. Across the universe. You mean the song by Fiona Apple? Yup. I saw a long ass time ago someone was like, um...

The only reason the Beatles were as famous as they were was because literally everyone was horny all the time because they didn't have porn and shit. Okay, here's my thing with the Beatles. You know how people are like, I know how to make film bros mad at the drop of a hat? That's me with music bros. I know how to make a music freak mad at the drop of a hat because at the end of the day, this music shit is just something I like.

actually have a love for and i'm not using it to shield my fucking insecurities which is what a lot of men do with their hobbies like they're like i love music and film but it's like more so because they have absolutely no confidence and a huge ego so they need something like that that they didn't actually make to shield them oh my god dude um i was just thinking about like some i can't i can't some freaks some freaks we've encountered um

But I know how to make those motherfuckers mad at the drop of a hat. Even film bros. Because, again, like, I don't love movies the way I love music. So I don't know much about movies. And I just be saying shit. Like... Yeah.

Okay, Quentin Tarant who? Like... Quentin Tarant poo-poo. Like, I'm just like, I don't, like, the fuck do you want me to do? Do a backflip for him? Like, I don't know. And music bros are so easily aggravated. Yeah, it's just like, like you said, it's like their shield. It's like, I own this. Like, this is my thing. Like, no, it's not.

Yeah, it's... I guess that's all across the board, especially, like, I feel like now on the internet because people are realizing, like, everybody's, like... And I have the same issue, too. Everyone's, like, individualistic egos being burst because they're finding out, like, there are a lot of people on this planet who you... Even though you think the thing you like is so fucking niche and only you know about it, if a thousand people know about it and you're on one side of the internet...

That's what I was saying. There's a chance that everyone around you is involved in that. It just feels a lot bigger than it actually is. It's just this small little echo chamber of just shit that is just repeated and sent to the same people over and over again because of the algorithm sees you interacting with it every single time. And it just sucks you deeper and deeper and deeper and gets you...

brain just addicted to the literally also like as you get older you realize like who fucking gives a shit like I don't give a shit I say that but there's still so much music that I gatekeep because I'm just like I am a gatekeeper preserving the culture

Or preserving. It's like keeping some things for myself. Like I don't have to share everything I like. Back to the Beatles thing though. Fuck the Beatles. No, literally. I like, I, of course I'm like, yeah, whatever. They did their thing. Like I get it. They're influential. They did the thing. Could the Beatles make Hotline Bling? Could the Beatles do Emily Montez? Emily Montez could do the Beatles, but the Beatles couldn't do Emily Montez. I do not know who Emily Montez is.

Yeah, I don't know who that is. We'll show you after the podcast. No, because now I need to know. It's just like impossible to explain without... It's like this... Is it like a meme? It's like an eight-year-old hyper pop. I don't know how... Oh, I know. Yeah, I know her. She makes hyper pop. Literally, no. Like, anybody can do the Beatles, but the Beatles can't do anybody. Yeah. No, it...

Like, I just... The Beatles... Yeah. They did some things back in their time, but like... It's just so fun to... It's just boring. It's fun to say shit like this because it makes so many people... I know there's going to be so many comments. Like, I... Okay. When people would be so fucking shocked when...

At the ripe age of 18, I was like, I've never heard a fucking Beatles album. Like, I've never listened. I never heard them growing up unless it was like in the fucking B movie. Like, I feel like they have a song in the B movie. Like, I never listened to the Beatles. I didn't hear that shit on the radio. People were like, oh, you didn't hear on the radio? Bitch, I lived in fucking North Miami. Like, you think I heard the Beatles on the radio? Like, why the fuck would we play the Beatles? Like...

maybe if I was still in like 3k and like it was nap time and I was like all right like time to put something like really fucking boring on so I die like I just I mean I

that and like there are a few songs that i listen to still regularly by the beatles but it's just so fun to like piss the people off because i know literally the only reason people are shaking the only reason i brought it back to that is because i just wanted to like pit because you were like it's so easy to make people angry and i just wanted to prove that point there is not see but you're not true to the word of fuck the beatles because there is not a single beatles song

on any of my streaming platforms that I listen to. Yesterday, I was listening to a really old playlist and there was a Beatles song on it that like a friend of mine had put it on. And I literally laughed out loud because I was like, this is so funny. Like... Actually, you know what? I take back. I don't think I listen to a Beatles songs. I listen to, what is it? That collaboration album between John Lennon and his wife or John... John and Yoko? No.

See, I don't even know these motherfuckers. Yeah, literally, I don't like, I was going to say John Legend and his wife fucking Christina Aguilera or Keegan. Yeah, I just, I don't fucking care, bitch. Like, I don't give a fuck if they were influential. They're okay. Good. They did their job. Just like some of you bitches say that about me. Like, I don't give a fuck about the Beatles. Like, it's a cycle. Like, we don't care who did what and where they were and who they were.

Because I got the thing I wanted at the end. So I don't give a fuck who did it. Like, I just don't care. But yeah, fuck the Beatles. No, I love when people are like, it reminds me of my childhood. I'm like, damn, your shit was boring. You had a boring ass childhood. Go touch some grass. Yeah, I can't believe... Like, I'm trying to imagine my dad playing the Beatles around me. No, it just didn't happen. But I guess also I grew up in a Latin household. And I'm like, we were listening to Bachata. Not Bachata.

Los Beatles. But yeah, I don't even know where we were going with that because this has nothing to do with the original topic of this episode. I just went on a tangent about the Beatles sucking ass. But the original topic of this, I mean, I guess I could tie it in like music was playing where we were. But... Oh, I'm so sorry. I have to say something. Yeah.

There are a lot of songs that were popular amongst like specifically white people that I do not relate to as kids. And every time it comes on in a club or a party, I just act like I know the lyrics. And I'm like, I have heard this song maybe five times. And each time it was at a party like this, where it was like a lot of white people who were like screaming it at the top of their lungs, having the time of their life. I can't even think of the song. And that's how I know I genuinely don't know it. It's like...

It's very like, that song was like, I just can't stop, it's killing me. Oh, yeah. Don't think I've ever heard that song in the daylight. Like, never in my life. Why does everyone know that fucking song? And everyone loves it. And I'm like, I can play and act like I'm supposed to. What is that fucking song called? Kai, what's that song called? I just can't stop killing me. It's killing me.

thing is i went through like an alternative phase so i feel like that should be on the docket of like i would i loved the arctic monkey so like i should know that we're just learned about music in other places because i couldn't under my ball sack i just have all of my files under my ball sack you know it starts mr brightside oh which is like a classic song that everybody knows oh i'm thinking of a different song i'm like mr

Mr. Blue Sky. Is that the Beatles? No, that's Yellow Magical Orchestra. Oh, no, no, no. Bring Me the Light. No. O.P. Mr. Brightside. Fuck, what is that? God, what is that fucking song? Mr.

Electric Light Orchestra. I was close. Yeah, I was like, Yellow Magic Orchestra, that's like that other group that I'm thinking. And I was like, I would know that if that was from them, but it was, they have a spaceship on there. But you know, it starts in my toes, let me

I do know that. I guess I'm like hella pushing off white culture. I'm like, hey there Delilah, what's it like in New York City? I'm a thousand miles away. Why doesn't no one put that on in the club? Because it's like sad. Exactly. We need a club when you're sad. Oh my fucking God. That's actually a great idea. That's called like a fucking dive bar. That's what that is. That's what a dive bar is.

It's literally one of nine bars and they have a jukebox so you can go fucking play the sad songs. Sad shitty music. Okay. Okay. Let's get into the topic of this video. My big balls. Or this podcast. So. I'm so sorry. One more thing. I just realized. Your big balls triggered a new thought. Yes. Because if I injected enough fat into my vulva, my lips would fall like a pair of balls.

Now, what if I slap the shit out of you? The roles have been reversed. Because what the fuck? What is that? Think about it. No, I'm thinking about it. But like, I mean, it makes sense. But like in... Okay. I'm itching. I'm itching. I'm itching. You're making me itchy. Okay. So the topic of today was our big night out. Yeah. And I guess I'll let you start it because...

I barely remember half of it. And also... It starts with me. Yeah, it starts with you. Okay. So, me and Drew have an issue where we get invited out a lot. Well, we used to get invited out all the time. But as we became hermits, we would just never show up. So, we stopped being invited out. And we fully fell out of that social activity of going out. And people don't ask us to go to parties anymore because it's like...

Bitch, we never go. So people would like invite us and then we just want to show up. So also it was peak pandemic, but another conversation. But keep going. But no, even before that, we had like stopped for a while. I guess before pandemic, we were kind of getting back into it, but we hadn't like made our footing yet as like we're back to it. So it's it as things started like opening back up, we weren't it was it was silence. It was radio silence and it was hurtful.

And you know who you are. And I'll never forget it. And all of you know who you are. Me like they're listening. I mean, if they were real lovers of us. They're not even inviting us to the party. They're not listening to the podcast. I have a burp stuck and it's like hurting. You need me to suck it out? I can help you. That was like vomit. Oh, it smells like toast. It was acidic.

I'm about to shit myself also. I'm about to shit and throw up. Okay. So recently, I've been way more social. Drew, shut the fuck up because it's like overpowering my words. Ew, that was so gross. You looked like a little kid. Sorry. And then you picked your nose. It itched. I didn't pick it. It itched. So recently, I've been a lot more social. Does it feel like life is in slow motion right now?

Like, the last, like, 30 minutes, has it felt like slow motion for you? Yes and no. It felt, like, very quick, weirdly, for me. I feel like I'm in slow motion. Shut up. Okay. You made me lose my train of thought, you fucking idiot. Oh, okay. So, recently, I've personally been a lot more social. Like, anytime someone invites me out, I'm like, I go, I go, I go. But there's one homie who, like...

has been inviting me out to parties and stuff and i always say no but it's usually because like the timing is awful like literally one of the nights i had like come home after a shoot and was like sobbing on the couch yeah and then i was invited to a party and i was like i literally can't go i'm like in a depressive state on my couch right now i'm like sinking into the abyss um but i got invited again and quinn also got invited so i was like you know what if quinn's going i'll go like like that is like

a safety friend who i'm like i know this friend who's going other than like if drew wants to go and at this point we i didn't know if drew wanted to go because we had both been running around and working all day so i was like there's a chance we don't go and i was honestly fucking dreading it because i was so exhausted like yeah i was actually surprisingly like the roles were reversed normally it's like inya does or wants to go and i don't but this time i was kind of like rooting for going out i was kind of like

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I missed the last two outings because I just didn't want to go. And now, like, I have this opportunity to go. Like, I'm kind of excited, but I'm not pushing it for it. But, like, I was like, yeah, I'll go out, which is, like, surprising now for me. But...

yeah yeah i was literally so fucking exhausted and i was like i don't want to go but i knew deep in my heart i was like this will probably be the last time i'm ever invited out before if you say no if i if i don't show up because every time i'm like no no no no and i made a comment to them i was like one of these days i'm gonna ask for an invite though and i fucking expect to get it even though i keep saying no but i obviously know that like

It's like when you hit up a homie who doesn't even reply to you, you're going to stop hitting them up. So I was like, I need to do this to show that I am the kind of person who will follow through on these social activities so that I'm invited. Also, we were kind of like, this is the beginning of our socialite era. We want to be little socialites. Yeah, I literally have envy of Quinn because I don't know how fucking Quinn does it, but Quinn is genuinely like...

To me, like, Paris Hilton status of socialite. Like, she's, like, always out. She knows everybody. She's always there. She's always on the scene. Yeah. Everybody's talking to her, like...

She knows literally everyone. And I'm like, wow, that's crazy. But also, like, I feel like Quinn was, like, kind of made for that. And, like, I'm looking at Quinn. I'm like, I want to be that so bad. But, like, I can't. I don't know if I have the brain capacity to do that. But we'll see. I'll push myself to do it. So, yeah. Whatever, whatever. I'm, like, ranting at this point. But basically, we go out to eat because we're like, this is very important. We eat. Very, very important. We eat a good amount.

girthy bowl of fucking ramen. Yeah, I do have ramen and I have like way too much sushi. I eat good. Like I eat a bowl of ramen, two pork buns. Like my stomach was full. Like it wasn't like I had an empty stomach. We had like a ready foundation for alcohol to be poured on top. And like I've said in an earlier video, I mean, I guess you can already understand, like you're kind of putting the pieces together and seeing where this is going. But like they go out

In purge. In purge. Like two, three, four times a year, like I go out and it's not fun. Like for anybody but myself. And even for myself, it's not fun. It's just like literally getting it all out. But I was like, no, like I'm not doing that. I'm just going to have a social night. Like I'm just going to be like...

a 20-something-year-old who doesn't fucking drink till they black out. I'm going to have a good time. Like, I'm going to enjoy myself. I'm going to remember the night. I'm going to drink lightly. We're not buying drinks at the club. We don't know if there's going to be drinks there. But I'm going to make sure that I'm not over-drinking because it's just... I don't want to feel like fucking garbage. Yeah, literally. Both of us were like, okay. Because also, like...

I've been going out often and I've like kind of perfected like that. If there is drinks, like I'm good at being like, no, I'll have like one or two and like, I'll be chill and I can like rest there. Um,

And that's even if drinks are free. Like, I had gone to an event, like, a few nights before, and it was, like, this open bar situation. I was like, oh, everyone's drinking. It's, like, a socially thing. So, like, okay, I'll have, like, a drink. Like, nothing too crazy. I'm gonna make it back home, like, sane and in one piece and, like, whatever. So, in my head, I was like, I can do that tonight, too. And we even took the precaution of we...

This, I think this is where we fucked up. We should not have pre-gamed here because we each had like three shots before we left the house. Which, and it was like within like 30 minutes. Like it wasn't, it wasn't like pacing ourselves. It was three shots in like 30 minutes. But in my defense, I am terrible in social situations. Like terrible.

I'm so unenjoyable and disgusting and really cannot communicate with people. And that is just exasperated by loud music and people that I am intimidated by or in love with. So the fear of going out

Without a shot in me, like, genuinely, like, I wouldn't have gone if, like, we were, like, no pregame. But, like, now, for now on, no pregame. Like, genuinely. Yeah, especially if we... There's a possibility of free drinks because we got there and we... I literally left my cards here because...

Drew has good self-control where, like, he won't buy something if he, like, set in his mind that he won't. I don't. Especially if I'm, like, drunk. I'll be like, I'll buy drinks. Like, drinks for everyone. I don't care. Like, everyone, like, let's go. So, I left my cards here because we were like, we're not buying anything. We get there. There are free drinks. And... Bottle service! And I don't know. It's just like... Bottle service in the club! And we just got too drunk. Yeah.

I personally don't think I got too drunk. Like, I've been told that even when I'm like, dude, I am so drunk right now that I handle myself pretty well. And it's like rare that I'm like to the point of like slurring words or anything like that. But that night I was drunk enough that in the videos I took,

And I like watched. I'm like, oh, I was like, I was drunk and I don't like seeing that I was drunk. That's gross. So I'll take over the story from here because it's kind of. Now it's your journey. Fucking rollercoaster. So this is my version of the story. We take three shots at the house before we leave. We get into the Uber. I'm feeling myself. Like I, I'm like. Before we got the Uber, Drew's like, oh, I'm not drunk yet. And then he opens the door to the Uber. He's like, hey. Hey.

Like it's fucked up. Like I'm feeling myself like it's naughty. It's not looking so good so far. So then I get to the club like we're waiting outside. I have like zero anxieties. I'm like yes, like my plan is working. Like I can communicate with people like whatever.

We get in. We get led through the fucking gross dance thing. I don't fucking know. To this like table and like immediately are served like a drink. And like I take the shot and I'm like, okay.

That's it. Like, I'm going to chill. I'm going to chill here. Like, please. And then for some reason, I just kept getting past drinks. Like whether it was like in your drink, like she's like, take a sip of this. Or like Quinn was like, I'm done with this drink, like finish this, like whatever. So I would just like do that. And then I became the garbage disposal of the night. Um, and like,

I'm literally so stingy. I was like, I'm not letting like, whatever, like this is like, whatever it's become this, like I can't control it. Like the train has moved, left the station. Like I'm going to just go for it. And I like really, I,

tried to withhold like i tried with all my might to just not let this happen but like it just i kept getting served drinks and then we're sitting at this other table like just being rowdy rambunctious like idiots like try i think i like try to embarrass myself in the club like i'm like y'all take yourselves too serious i'm gonna be the fool like the jester but yes so we're uh

drinking, or I'm drinking too much. I don't even like saying that because like I didn't drink too much. I don't know how it, I don't know how this happened. Like it literally like. Also to clarify, Drew has not drank in months. I think that's what it is. Like personally, I literally think because like,

It's not that I've been drinking a lot, but because I've been... It's not like I haven't drank in months. I've been having a drink every now and then, and a few drinks, and getting close to being drunk often enough that I can go past the point of being drunk and be fine because my body is like, I can handle this. But your body has literally not consumed alcohol for...

For so long. Yeah. Like, hey, like, I'm sober, man. I'm sober. Hear no, see no, say no evil, man. That's my life. That's not the saying. Isn't that straight up? Hear no, say no, see no evil. That's what, hear no, say no, see no evil.

So, yeah, we're just clowns in the club. Like, I like making people look at me and laugh at me. Yeah, I don't care to look like a fool. Bitch, we're all fools. We're literally drunk. It's so embarrassing. It's like my way of getting the attention. Like, other people do other things, like look sexy, like do their makeup, whatever. Like, I make myself look like a monster. I put on a t-shirt and get really drunk. Yeah, so...

Like I was saying, I don't understand how I got here, but I ended up here. And in the club, like, I wasn't acting normal. Like, I wasn't, like, belligerent. I wasn't, like, doing stupid shit. I wasn't acting way too drunk. Like, I was holding my own. And then...

like the nights winding down like me and anya like we've said before chillers like we stay at the club or the like event until fucking the last second it's probably our that is the one thing i am embarrassed about about our behaviors we like do not take a signal to just fucking go home like we will hang until the very last moment but again it's because that's what we do in our friend groups like

all of our friends, we hang out till the fucking crack of dawn until like our eyes are falling out of our head. So we have the bad habit of in social settings doing the same thing, but it doesn't read the same because we just seem like we literally have nowhere else to be, which is the truth. I have nowhere else to be. That's why I'm here, bitch. Yeah. Um,

But we, like, showed up thinking, like, we're going to be there and, like. We're going to be in and out. We're going to be mysterious. Yeah, in and out. We're going to show face, be mysterious, leave. Bitch, no. No, on whose fucking accord? Not mine. Because then it's like, okay, it's time to go. And I, like, hand Daniel my phone and I'm like, call the fucking Uber. Wait, Azul's eating the. Oh, no. Oh, my fucking God. Because I know he was destroying it. Was he destroying it? Which leaf was it?

Are you going to leave the update of Azul? Yes. Oh, my God. Whatever. Azul just constantly ruins my life. Someone else commented, I literally can't tell if Drew's obsessed with Azul or wants her gone. Both. I literally love Azul with my whole heart. And that's my fault that it was there. But...

Yeah, I hand in the other phone and I'm like, oh, like, I'm feeling it. Like, I'm starting to, like, lose... He's back. Oh, he's evil. Can you just put it, like, some... Yeah, maybe just put it on the phone. Um... Dude, oh my god. He just, like, ruined the whole podcast for me. Um...

So I hand in my phone, give him like, I'm like, call it Uber. Like I'm starting to like lose consciousness at this point. Like I'm starting to like lose touch with reality. What's so crazy is you seemed so normal. Like granted, I was also like very drunk and I did see a video of both of us after. And I was like, I never need to see us that drunk again. And I'm like dancing on Drew. And I was like, oh,

Also, no wonder people think we're dating. We fucking grind and fuck each other in clubs. But it's just fun. No, yeah, it is. And that's how people in Miami, that's how we show love. You grind on everybody you claim to love. Exactly. But LA people wouldn't understand that. My Miami girl right here would understand me. Yep, yep. You shaking my hand off? Okay, so yeah, you... I get into the Uber. It's...

It's immediately bad. Like, immediately, like, I, like, collapse. Like, I, like, am paralyzed. I can't feel my limbs. I'm not in my head. I can't say words.

I'm sweating the most. Dude, so much. The most sweat I've ever created in my entire life. I'm like just out of every pore of my body, like literally dripping sweat. And I'm like getting cooled. Like I'm cold at this point, like because AC is blowing on me. Like.

it's fucked up. Like, it's starting to look really bad. I'm literally... Drew, we get in the car and I think it's fine and I go to get on my phone. And next thing I know, Drew's hand... Head is in my hand. Like, I'm literally holding him up. Dude. And my hand is getting covered in sweat. Like, my hand is wet from him. Like, all the alcohol is dripping out of his pores. Like, I think his body was literally like, get this out of here. Get it out. Get it out. And I was just holding him. Yeah, and...

I have no thoughts in my head. Like, I feel sick, so I'm like, I'm sick. But I'm not saying, like, I'm... Yeah, he's not communicating anything. Yeah, I can't speak. Like, it's looking really, really bad. Oh, actually, you know, now that I think about it, you did ask twice, like, how far? Like, how far? Like, you got, like, those words out. Because I remember going out loud and being, like, and looking forward and being, like...

We're, like, three minutes. You're okay. It's, like, three minutes. Like, you're gonna be good. Thank God for that Uber. Dude, yeah. That Uber was speed fucking racing because he knew. But, like, I think it was less so much about your safety but more, like, get this motherfucker out of my car because I know he's gonna puke everywhere. So we pull up to the crib and, like, light clock work. I open the door and I just projectile vomit all over myself. Like, literally neon red because we drank fucking Fanta for a chaser. And, like...

ramen just all over me. Like, I can't think. I'm not thinking. I just get out of the car and fall. Yeah, you fall out. And I'm, like, crawling behind him. I'm like, thank you so much. I'm so sorry. Like, no vomit got in the car. But he was like, no, it's okay. Like, please be safe. Like, it's okay. I understand. And I was like, I'm so sorry. And, like, I just, like, pushed Drew the rest out of the car. Yeah, so I immediately collapsed on the floor out front of our house. Like, it's 2 a.m.,

I'm dead, like legitimately dead. Like I can't move. I can't think. I can't speak words like genuinely so fucked up. And then I continue just vomiting. Like it was throwing up all over the place. Like it's it's really not looking good. And then I start like like starting. I'm starting to freak out. Like I've never felt like this in my entire life. Like I know what being too drunk feels like, but I have never felt like

this feeling before where like my

I'm like cognitive but I can't say words and I can't move my body so I'm starting to panic and I'm like begging for an ambulance. I'm like take me to the hospital. Please someone and then Inya calls Josh and gets Josh out there but Josh can't take me to the hospital and Inya can't take me to the hospital because she's too drunk and I'm like begging. I'm like please call a fucking ambulance. And I'm just like assessing and like me and Josh are just standing there looking at his dead body but also

Also, y'all are like, he doesn't need a fucking ambulance. Like, he doesn't need an ambulance. No, because listen to this shit. In the middle of all of this, what Drew's leaving out is that every few minutes, he would go, video, video. So we're like, you are the most annoying person ever. I didn't know. The reason in my head, I was like, I need a video of me like this so I can remember this because I was 1000% like for sure blacked out. And I was like, I need a video of this so I can be embarrassed by myself. So I never do this again because this is

in every sense of the word. He was like also

also like i wanna don't make it seem like we're bad fucking people because we i was just i felt in the moment i felt like it i was like i was like no and i was more cognitive than you because i was standing on my own two fucking feet and i'm the one who called josh because i was like when from my perspective when you got out of the uber and you fell on the floor i was like stop this motherfucker is about to die and i'm gonna have to kill myself on top of his dead stupid fucking body and i was so pissed because i was like i am too drunk to like assess this fully because i

I could either like go into full panic or I could like stay calm and be like, all right, let me like actually look at this through a non-panic like hypochondriac lens. And I was looking at you and you were like turning, you were like throwing up and I, bitch, also a round of applause for me because I fucking,

Yeah. Yeah.

But no one else was there. So I was like, I was helping you. I was making sure you didn't continue throwing up on yourself. I was like grabbing your head and like, I was like, put me on my, I said, put me on my side. I can't move. And then you're like, don't let me die. And I was like, I'm above you. You're not going to die. I'm begging at this point. I'm like, please like, don't let me die. Like take me to the hospital, like call an ambulance. I I'm like, I have good insurance. Like I know it sounds scary, but please like, I genuinely don't want to die on this sidewalk. And India and Josh are like,

oh, like, fuck, like, maybe there is something actually wrong with him. Yeah, because we kept trying to get him up and he literally, like, would not move and he would just be rolling and, like, groaning and, like, would take, like...

And like taking these weird breaths. We were like, stop, he's dying. But then I refused to call an ambulance. I remember I had this vivid thought. I was like, I feel so bad for Inya and Josh because like they're not going to take me to the hospital and I'm going to die on this sidewalk and that is going to haunt them for the rest of their lives. And I genuinely was freaked out. I was like, this is so bad. So then I started like being like, please, please, please, please, please, please, please. And then...

I did the staring thing, and that's what... No, that wasn't until we were already at the ER. You didn't stare at us. You were just... When you were on the floor... See, I don't remember the fucking timeline. See, yeah, when you were on the floor, you literally, like...

It was just really confusing because you were still like laughing because I think I was trying to I was trying not to scare y'all that I was like, I'm going to just put a smile on my face because I don't want them to be scared. But I need to be at the hospital. And then you and the other thing was our friend. This happened to them the night before that they didn't have like that much to drink, but they were literally vomiting like all fucking night.

And were completely like dying. Yeah. And the night before I panicked at that and I was like I think he needs to go to the hospital because he should not be throwing that up that much. I've like seen people really fucked up and

And never do I see them throw up that much. And you were throwing up the same amount. So in my head, I was like calm because that person woke up the next day and was like, I feel completely fine. Like, I don't know what happened to me, but I feel fine. So I was like calm in that aspect. And also I was like, bitch, I don't know much about insurance, but I know damn well your insurance is not covering a fucking ambulance fee. And I know Drew because there have been multiple times where he has been like call, like call an ambulance.

And then the next day I've been like, if you called an ambulance, I would be so fucking pissed at you. So I was like, I'm not calling an ambulance. So I was like, okay, who is like a reliable person who I know is awake right now and like is like...

and like can handle this and like is close and I was like I'm gonna call Kai and he's literally behind the camera like moving his fucking arms around so I called Kai and I was like and he I FaceTimed him because I wanted to see if the lights were on and shit and lo and behold the lights were on in his scary room and he was using his fucking iPhone to watch TV um and that's keep going

I was like, I just showed him Drew and I was like, you need to help us. Like, I don't even know what I said to Kai on the phone. I was like, we need help. And he was like, yeah, I'm coming. So Kai hung up and he's like driving over and me and Josh are literally just like, for everyone watching, this is literally how I was standing looking at him. Cause I was just like really drunk and had my boots on still. And I was just like, come on, man. So like I was being selfish. I was like, I was like,

I know he's not gonna die. Can we just, like, can I go to sleep? Like, can you? Can, like, the men handle this? Not on my watch. Not on my watch. Kai got there, tried to get Drew inside. Drew wouldn't go inside. Drew kept begging Kai to take him to the ER. Like, begging. I just didn't want to die. Like, okay, that's how I know that, like, like...

I'm not actually like, okay, I'm not actually suicidal because in moments where I'm gonna die, I have like still a fight for life. Like I still want to live.

Well also like to be granted dying like that would be so fucking embarrassing humiliating We get invited to like a club and there's free drinks and we don't know how to act and you fucking die I would blame it on them. I would write it in my note. No girl. You'd be dead Thank you, um, so Kai gets there and

He like they I run upstairs to like change out of my fucking silly little hoe ass outfit because I'm like literally standing on the sidewalk and like the shortest skirt and like a see-through shirt. So I like run upstairs change. I take my makeup off come back downstairs and I like grab a hydro flask full of water because I'm a good drunk and I'm like I need water because I need sober up like so I like run downstairs. I get in the car. Also. I'm drunk enough that I

Bitch, I took another L for you because I... It took... I don't know if Kai realized. I got so silent in those car rides because I literally had to put my head down and just like think about my own existence because I was like, I'm going to start throwing up next because I've seen so much vomit today and I'm so drunk and I was so car sick. And my vomit stank. And it was all...

over me from touching Drew. And it was all over. It just like it stained the air. It was like all over his face. Dude, no, it was it was bad. Like I was like foam like there was like foam on my fucking chin. Like it was gross and nasty. Like the photos after I was like, dude, like

This is... That was not chill. Like, I don't know what the fuck I was on, but, like, that was not chill. So they, like, take me to the hospital. We pull up. I'm still immobile. I can't move. I'm starting... I'm, like, cognitive. Like, I have, like...

No, no, no. At this point, there's nothing going on in my head. I'm just like a rag doll. There's nothing going on. Yeah, and we're starting to actually get worried because you would... I feel like usually when people are really drunk, as time goes on, they get better. After that first throw up, they usually start sobering up and getting back to normal. But Drew was not getting back to normal. He was continuously throwing up and just losing...

life behind his eyes. So we were like, oh shit, like he needs to be seen. And of course the ER is being hella fucking mean to us. Like all the nurses are being so fucking mean to us because we're like these 20 year olds who just pulled up and we're like, hey, our friend is like really, really fucked up. And they're like, from what? And we're like, okay, he was drinking, but we are- You should have just said I overdosed.

You should have been like... I know, we should have fucking lied. But I was just like... Oh my God, imagine they like shot me with fucking Narcan or something. And they were like, okay, he's good, go. Send him away.

Send him home. But we were insinuating. We were like, we weirdly feel like it's something more because he's not, we've never seen him act this way or whatever. And they're just like rolling their eyes at us. They, I fill out all his shit. They're like, you've been here before. And I'm like, he's been here before. Like what hospital are we at? Like it was the most random hospital ever. Um,

I'd just be going to the hospital. I know. You literally just go to the ER. Like, you do it all the time. I don't care. I don't know anybody who's gone to, like, emergency care more than you. Like, you've gone so often. I go, like, twice a year. What? I would argue three. In 2019, it was a lot. I'm just, like, scared of my health.

But two of the times in 2019 were literally because my shit was impacted from constipation. And I needed it to be shoveled out. You couldn't pay me to go to the ER. I'd rather be borderline dying in my bedroom before I get taken to a hospital. Imagine this. In 2019, two times out of the year, Drew laying on his side, doctor going in with shovels scooping shit out so I can spray shit out of my ass because the magnesium didn't work.

That's my life. So we, like, I fill out all his shit and, like, dude, there's the funniest picture that we need to put and Kai took it. It's, like, me, Josh, and Drew. Like, I love that picture so much. Like, me, Josh, holding the bag, fucking angry because he was, like, having, like, such a peaceful night. I know. I'm throwing up into the bag. Inya's filling out my paperwork. It's an iconic photo. So we're, like, in there, whatever, and then...

They keep trying to talk to me and I'm also so drunk. I'm like, he needs help. Like, I don't, I don't know what else to say. I don't know if Kai spoke to them or what. Like, I kind of don't have like pure recognition of what I said, but I was like, he needs help. He won't stop throwing up. Um, and I, dude, I kept, I fully forgot that we had eaten. So I kept going. I remember that you were like, Drew, when did you eat last? Drew, when was the last meal you had? Like, Drew, like, tell me, like, when did you eat? And in my brain, I was like,

I ate ramen with you, like, four hours ago. I totally forgot. Because I was drunk, so I was like, oh, my God, my friend. Like, you need water. Like...

Like he needs food. He needs hydration and food to soak up the alcohol. And like, I just kept saying that. And I was like, I don't, but I told him that I was like, I don't know the last time he ate. I don't know if he's had enough water. I don't know if he's like suffering from alcohol poisoning, but he won't stop throwing up. Um, we tried to get him in the house. We, he like is fully immobile and we don't know what to do with him. She just looked at me and she was like, well, it's five hour away. And I was like, are you kidding me? And she was like, yeah. And I was like, even if he's sitting here throwing up constantly, like,

Because also, bitch, if you were dying from alcohol poisoning and you were sitting behind me continuously puking, you would have died in the goddamn lobby. Yeah. Granted, there's like motherfuckers like hobbling around with one foot in there. There's gunshot victims like walking. They're like a fully healthy 23 year old who had too much to drink or like the lady who like is about to lose her foot. Give birth in the lobby. Give baby. Which one?

But yeah, and then they were like five hours and Kai and me and Josh all looked at each other and we were like... Sidebar. We're gonna take him home. We're gonna put him in the fucking bathroom and if he lives, he lives. If he dies, he dies. And we were like, we're just gonna take him home and we're gonna watch him. Because like originally we were gonna leave you at the hospital and be like, all right, we'll come back. Like we can go to sleep and like come back and he'll be like alive. So we're gonna leave me in the lobby? I don't know what the...

like actual plan was no not leaving you in the lobby in my head you would get checked in and they would start taking care of you and then I'd be like we could go home I could go to sleep wake up in the morning come make sure he's alive and they would tell me if he's dead but

now what was happening was we fully had to fucking sit with you until goddamn almost six in the morning and like make sure you were breathing. And Drew was so dead. Like when Kai went to go get the car, there was a moment where he, this is the moment you remember and we were talking about. It's like there was a moment he had like his eyes were not glossy. Like they weren't even glossed over. They were literally like

fogged over. Like, you looked like you had that, like, disease old people get when they're, like, starting to lose their... You look like... And I was like, is there vomit in his eyes? Like, why is... And, like, me and Josh were just staring at you, like, in this wheelchair, like, dying. And you're, like, literally, like, like this and, like, looking up at us. And we were just, like, staring at you. And me and Josh literally were, like, two people who aren't in the right state of mind to, like, fully make...

like a good solid grounding of if this person is going to live or not. And we were looking at each other and we were like, I think he's going to be okay. And we were just looking at you and we were like, he looks fucking dead though. And you were just staring at us, not saying a word. Like you were just staring at us like...

and just looking at you like there was genuinely a moment where I was like my best friend is going to die tonight like you kept saying I remember you said you're like Drew like you can't fucking die because like the podcast the podcast relies on you I remember you said that out loud and I was like oh like she cares about me that's how I just shows her care I'm like don't fuck with my money bitch me don't fuck with my money yeah what money um

Also, wait, this is such a tidbit to throw in there. Why the fuck did no one tell us that we accidentally had 20 ads on the goddamn podcast? Yeah, y'all were watching 20 fucking ads an episode. Like, are you deranged? Like, it was automatically posting it on the episodes, like all the ads. And we went to go look because we were like, oh shit, we finally got monetized.

Every single episode had 20 ads. Psycho. But yeah, I made it home. They carried me upstairs. They put me on the floor of the bathroom. Set me up nice with like a lavender scented trash bag. Like I was continuing to vomit and dry heave on the floor of the bathroom. And I just knocked out and everybody left. And...

checked on me periodically and I woke up the next day and I felt amazing. That's the craziest part is I was like maybe 3% hungover but then night time came and I wanted to die. I felt like I genuinely... Well also we were like we're not eating like correctly. We like ate like fucking monsters. Like we should have had a proper good meal that next day and we literally each had half of Chipotle and then at night came together and had one half together. Yeah. And ate um

really really dry overnight oats with that yeah and then mcdonald's french fries for dinner i woke up the next morning actually and i felt so good that i hopped in the bath and i took a bath i know when i woke up at like noon kai texted me he was like is he alive and i went and checked and there he was just like snug as a bug yeah i i i woke up at like 7 a.m and hopped in the bath

chugged some water and went to my bed and slept till 1.30. Dude, it was so insane. Also, I literally showered over Drew's dead body. Oh, yeah. Because he was in the bath

the bathroom and we couldn't get him out of the bathroom because we were like we we didn't want to move him to the bed because we were like we don't want him to throw up all over his shit so he was in the bathroom and we would check up on him for like an hour at this point it's like 4 a.m and we're like checking up on his dead body and he's like we're like he's alive we go and like stare at him and like see if he's breathing and dude we would be like drew true dead like fully out knocked out um and

I needed to fucking shower. I was not going to sleep covered in his goddamn puke. So I was like, you know what? What's the worst that can happen? Drew could look up and see my fucking coochie. Like he's so drunk. He wouldn't remember seeing my coochie anyways. It was one of the most magical moments of my life. Oh, you saw? No. Shut up.

But yeah, I literally like his dead body was like kind of like there was a corner where his back was turned and I just like stood behind him and like got undressing through my clothes and like was in the shower and was washing my hair and like would look down and there he was like dead. I genuinely have zero recollection of that. I know because you were genuinely so knocked out. I was shocked that you couldn't hear like the water fucking smashing on the ground next to your head. It was probably splashing on me like genuinely 0% remember that. It was probably soothing the sound of water.

But yeah, and then I went to bed and I was fully fine and I was vibing. Woke up, ate, had the alcohol shits. And yeah, that was our night. That was our big night out. And that's why...

We need to go out more so that when we do go out, it doesn't turn into that or not me. I've, I've been living my social life. Like I've been a social girl, no more staying inside for Enya and he's going out. I say that like I didn't commit to being a hermit for the rest of this week. I was like, I can't do that ever again. That is the story of how I lost my mind. I'm still not fully recovered. Like I have had like a brain fog hangover for the last four days. Um,

That's why you need to like go and experience social settings more often so you don't like fully... So I'm constantly in a brain fog. No. So I don't know the difference between... Because this is what happens. You get... You finally are like, fuck it, I'll go out. But because you haven't been out in so long, you're like purging and then you purge and then you're like in like fucking ketosis, like zombie land, right?

For like four days. Yeah. And then you're like, I'm never doing that again because that's what it leads to and I can't experience that again. But I'm like, girl, if you went out, when I went out, when I invited you out, we would go out. It wouldn't be that bad. Sometimes it's like socially overstimulating. And then although this is like awful, I feel bad. I don't want to like be the person who's like, what's it called? Like...

I don't want to like make it seem like you have to have a drink when you're like socially anxious because I know that can like lead people down a bad path and you do not have to rely on that because sometimes that's literally why I don't go. Sometimes I just bite the bullet and I like get through like the first like 20 minutes of like social anxiety. But then once you're comforted and grounded in the space, you're like, oh, this is fully fine. Like I've done the DDing and like.

been out with friends and like where i'm fully sober and i'm like there and i'm like this is very overstimulating and i can't carry a conversation and i'm screaming over the people i'm talking to and not letting them talk because i'm so nervous and i don't want to be silent and make them think i'm panicking so i'm talking way too much um but then once you've done that to like three people and harm three people mentally like that you can move on for the rest of the night and be a normal person emotional terrorist um for me i'm

I like my purge. I know it's not fun for everybody. It's only fun for me. It's fun for me because I still had a good time. Yeah. But I do my purging once, twice a year. Probably never again. And I'm good with that. We want you in social settings, girl.

I'm a hermit. See, but the thing is, now I go out and I get my stories and where are your stories? Well, I think that's the episode. The moral of the story is... Me and you are going to have the nastiest, sloppiest sex tonight. Just be careful.

With who you surround yourself with because they will let you down the sidewalk. We didn't though. Like we didn't, I called, I called Papa Kai and he came and he took care of me. No, I am so grateful for the friends I have because, um, I would have slept on the sidewalk and probably been kidnapped. Um, had they not been there and been genuinely kind people. So thank you guys for, um,

Making sure I was alright. Because you know I'd probably do the same for you. Probably. I would 1000% do the same for you. See, the thing is, I can handle my liquor and I would never be on the fucking sidewalk somewhere. That's the difference between people like me and you. Like, I can get fucked up and I make it in the house. I... Whatever, man. You're just like...

I've literally only been that blackout once and Orion carried me to bed like, mommy. Mama. Mama Orion. Let's do media. Yeah, we have to hurry because I'm actually about to shit myself. Can I go first so I can go shit and you can finish the podcast by yourself? Like, I'm actually about to shit myself. I want to sound cool and be like, so this is what I've been listening to this week. Like, here are my little things.

But I've been listening to so much Drake the past week. It is crazy. I've been listening to Drake, which isn't inherently not cool, but compared to me sitting up here and being like, here's this underground random artist. Go learn a little. Go learn something. I'm like...

I've been listening to Drake. I've been listening to a lot of Bryson Tiller. And then I've been listening to like two of the most popular fucking artists in the world. I'm like, go take a gander, like go listen. And then many times by Dijon and superstars by Eve's Tumor.

Those songs back to back make me feel like I could grab a human and rip all of their fucking bones apart from the cartilage. Like it makes me feel so powerful driving and that and screaming it. And I be hitting the fucking ceiling and I'm like screaming my goddamn lungs out. It's awesome. Yeah.

Drew hears it. Yeah, to watch what happens. Yeah, and watches it because I don't let anybody get away from what I'm listening to. I literally opened Robin Hood instead of Letterboxd by accident. And then I haven't watched any movies, written any books, and I'm going to go shit. All right. Bye, guys. I'll carry it. I'll carry it to the end.

So nice. Um, okay. Now that my feet are exposed, um, my media for the week, my songs are gango by BK. The ruler. Great song makes me feel like location by playboy. Cardi. It's just so beautiful. Um, and happy. Um, and then, uh, you want to see me dead cause of my house by Viper. Uh,

Really just depressing song. Awesome production, but just like really repetitive. Whatever. It's awesome. Just go listen to it. And I'm Possible or Impossible by Figurine. It's my newest video, but it just makes me really happy. It makes me happy to be alive. And then also go watch Squid Games. It is legitimately so fucking good. I mean, like, I feel like it's kind of predictable, but like also...

It's just fucking awesome. And I know I'm preaching to the choir at this point. But yeah, it's fantastic and was very, very refreshing and just ripped my fucking heart out 36 times. See, I love when a TV show kills people you love because I like feeling the pain of that. But that is Emergency Intercom. Leave me the fuck alone and never speak to me again. Thank you.

Oh, my God.