55: Tana’s Hinge date is harassing her (VOICE MEMOS) - Ep. 55
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By ghosting, you mean? Well, I've just never spoken to him before, but I feel like he should be speaking to me.

Today's podcast, I'm so excited for. I feel like we have a lot to talk about. Me too. I feel like we're like randomly in a new season right now. I know. It feels like fall weirdly. It really does. It's so nice out. The birds are chirping. It doesn't look like fall, but it feels like fall. Fall makes me weirdly positive. It's my favorite season. I love fall. It's my favorite season too. And I'm trying to get a boyfriend just in time. I only have like a month to do it. It's so cuffing season. I know. And I'm like, I'm trying so hard also to like,

someone and like attract someone good, like be someone good that attracts someone good. And I am just like, OK, but can I tell you something I just saw? What? I saw a TikTok of this girl saying like she was explaining why like

Or she was saying how everybody's like sick of this like three month situation ship and like having to do a trial and error period like over and over again for like three months at a time. And then they were like, well, how are you contributing to that? Like, are you presenting as something you're not? And then like it fails because it's like you you couldn't keep up with being like this imaginary person. And I'm like, yes, absolutely. Because right now I'm a horse girl. You are being. Can we actually just start with that? I was going to start with the Jojo Trisha ship, but we'll get into that. Yeah.

Your love life is so funny right now. And I feel like she's not going to be able to give all of the details. I can't give all the details because I'm not done with it yet.

yet yeah but they will prevail and I I just can't wait what can slash will you say I don't know so well I'm like talking to this guy kind of okay context he is a man that I have been in love with since I was literally 13 which is always just special like it's there's something about being with someone and I had very few people but I've always been like the same way I do now where I like

Like just get so obsessed with people. I've always been like that. But like before it used to be like literal characters or like celebrities. And so I was obsessed with this guy. I don't want to say what he does, but he like...

Like just imagine me being like so in love with him as like the 13 14 year old like I thought I was gonna marry this man And now you're talking 10 years later. I met him last night for the first time. Yeah, I like this journey for you I don't think you're gonna end up with this man. I don't either he It sucks because it's like I won't like in my head I'm like god like that would just be like so full circle and amazing but like

I'm seeing the signs and like historically I've ignored the signs. Yeah. And usually I would just be like, oh, no biggie. But like, I don't want to go through another three month situation shift. He got out of a very serious relationship like alarmingly recently. Like...

And I didn't even realize how recent it actually was until yesterday. He told me and I go, wait, there's just no way. Let's just say in a couple of days he was supposed to have a really big special event and you guys can put together, you know, what that may be. Yeah. Dun, dun, dun, dun, dun, dun, dun.

I don't know. I just had a situation. I talked about it on the podcast, but that guy who essentially called me a whore, the guy who I was talking to like a couple months ago or like a month ago or whatever, he had also just gotten out of a serious relationship and he swore it was like over, done with, whatever. And then...

That's what happened Spoiler alert He got back with his ex-girlfriend I swore I wasn't gonna get into A situation like that again I'm like listen I'm avoiding anyone Who just got out of A serious relationship It's hard though When you go on a date And you sit down with someone Who's seemingly single If you get along It's like you want to believe Yeah and I didn't do The proper Like we had set the date Before I had realized Like that there was a girl In the picture at all And like Yeah

And then I was like, but I have to do it for my younger self. You do. I agree with that 100%. He's so, he looks exactly the same. Just like honestly hotter, like manlier. Like he's so hot, so smart. Like, you know. Yeah. You woke up today to him reading the newspaper. Yeah.

Yeah. So if Brooke's reading the newspaper this week, y'all. That's an example of a sign that I would usually like. Like, I'm trying to do him a favor, too. Like, I know that that man is not going to end up with somebody like me. If I open my phone in the morning and it's TikTok and he opens the phone in the morning and it's New York Times. I completely disagree. Don't sell yourself short. Like, you're amazing. And I've met him. And I think, like, in a lot of ways, you are kind of out of his league. But you're fulfilling your... No, I... Maybe I'm wrong. I brought him to the J.P. Sacks, like, performance last night. And how...

of an idea was that for somebody who just got out of a serious relationship. I want to just like talk. Can I just tell you about my perspective? Yeah. It was the funniest night of my life last night. Our friend JP Sachs, he is a singer. He makes amazing, amazing sad music. He just dropped an album called Great Area. Go stream it. I have been. I've been literally crying to it. It's so good. And last night he had an event where he kind of like

played the album and talked about it at the Grammy Museum and I don't know why I thought like for some reason I was like oh yeah it's at the Grammy Museum and I got there and I was like oh I should not be here like I don't know why and it's funny because everyone else was very music industry like normal like suits you know and then it was just like all of us like that he invited because he loves us and it was super sweet but Brooke brought

And it was this man. And JP's entire album is about going through a very serious breakup of a three year relationship. And he was just talking about it all and watching Brooke sit there with this guy who like I didn't realize how much of the album was about that.

Yeah. And had I known like what the songs and the lyrics and stuff were going to be, I probably would not have brought like I was like, am I making him think of this woman? Like I was and we were laughing about it. Like I'd hear a lyric and we just like burst out laughing because it's like he knows I know. Yeah. Yeah.

And it was just completely funny and he was like a great sport about it and it was like super like sweet and funny. It was just funny for us, like your friends, to like watch you on this date. I also didn't know any of my friends were coming. So JP invited me and I was like, oh, this would be such a good thing to bring a date to. Not thinking like this...

is the guy like barely even hung out with at all. So it's not like I want him to meet all my friends right now. It was such a flex date. It turned out being like every one of my best friends was there and I just had to be like, yeah, so this is a guy that I've literally hung out with like twice. It was great for me to be the friend.

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But you are this I just want to get into what you woke up to this morning so bad. It wasn't this morning. It was last night. It was last night. No, I don't know. It's so canceled coded. Like if you don't talk about this, I don't want him to like think I'm mean. It's not he it was not that bad. But how about I say it so that if he ever sees a clip and I met him last night, I'll just talk directly to him. No, you are so directly. Yeah.

No, no, no, seriously, seriously. It was so nice to meet you. And like, I think you're great. And you know, like, I think we'll get along. We got along. We're going to be great friends. So just know that this is all in good fun. And my friend Brooke is so much nicer than I, and I just hate men way more than her. He played guitar at me. Ah!

And he was good. That was an important detail. He was good. If he were bad, I would have had to say something. And it's crazy because textbook like it is romantic. We it is honestly last year at like at the same time, like my last my ex, he he's a musician doesn't count. He would play guitar at me. And I was like, oh, this is so romantic. I love it. Yeah. It's something about him not being a musician and playing guitar at me. Here's what I'll say. Confidence. I'm bold for sure.

And he was good. Like, it wasn't even bad. There's no reason that I should have this as an ick. Honestly, if I hadn't seen the Barbie movie, I would have not even thought of anything of it. But when I realized how often, like, guys really have, like, played guitar at me, I'm like, why, dude?

Why do they do that? It's always at you. It's at me. I didn't ask for that. And it's like, you know, I was enjoying it. It was like, okay. I've been talking about this a lot lately. Like a lot. So I'll like keep it short. But I feel like societally, and I hate to defend a man. I hate that I'm even like saying this, any of this right now. But in my opinion, us as women have taken the ick to...

Too far. Like, I saw this TikTok where this girl was like, my biggest ick is when a guy goes and gets a Frappuccino and it's like, as a man, why are you leaving the Frappuccino? And it's like, maybe he wants a fucking vanilla bean frappe. Like, I had some empathy there. Like, as a man, it's like, damn, bitch, I wanted a caramel frappe. You can't do anything. And I know, have you seen that TikTok of like somebody who adds to their list every time and it'll be like fucking 362 and it's like, do not drink Starbucks. It's so...

we've taken it way too far and it's like i know i've been with a man and like picked a vagina wedgie yeah and here i am saying you can't get a frappuccino that's the thing what did i do like what is he telling his friends this morning that i did that was an ick for him you know what i mean like did i play guitar at him like in some other way you know what i mean like what did i do that he's like oh no i can't this is not okay uh a guy last night told me that one of his biggest icks is seeing a girl on an elliptical i would never do such a thing

That's an ick for me too I don't even want to see myself On an elliptical Yeah it's The little The arms of it all It's just kind of crazy He said that's only For older women Sometimes I get like I get like Like caught up Like I don't really get That's what I mean Like it's like moving you Like you're like It's giving gumby Like it's just too I 100% So it's like you know It goes No It goes both ways Honestly

Who knows? I haven't spent enough time with him to figure out if I like him. Like I could be like completely wrong about him. But he also told me that Oppenheimer was poorly written and that was like a really big like red flag to me. I was like, I was like, I that's just pretentious. But like we can't like if we can't agree on like my favorite thing ever. It is your favorite thing ever. People have been bringing Brooke photos of Josh Peck and Oppenheimer to the tour. Like I have Josh. But like, can you surprise me with Josh Peck? I'm not even kidding. Yes, I will do that. I'm going to write that down. I'm writing his biggest fan.

But I would like to know so I could wear my World War II attire. You also had sex with this man two World War II documentaries. Yeah, because I'm trying to look like an educated woman. I'm moving up from the B-movie, everyone. It's so funny because I realized that...

When we talk about stuff on the Canceled podcast Like I Especially sexual stuff I And just in real life I tell you every single detail Of my sex life Like I could hook up with someone I would come home and I would be like Brooke smell my hand Like it's like Which I I'm sorry It just First of all I wouldn't smell her hands Even if she hadn't just had sex They smell fine right now But They're not supposed to smell To be honest My hands don't

smell frequently okay you get what I'm saying and I realize that you never really share details of your sex life and the other night in North Carolina I was trying so hard to get any details out of you I was like stage okay and in the hotel room and in the hotel room I was just like what position was it like do you talk it doesn't come naturally to me I don't really like it's shock I mean I guess I'm on the canceled podcast so I do talk about like my sexual escapades in

In like kind of detail but not like but not like not like me not specifics I don't like our friend as well like I feel like our friend group is like he like yes where he came like it's like just everything you know yeah not me and I was begging her for hours to tell me a detail she finally tells me a detail it was that they fucked to World War II documentaries but that is an upgrade from the B movie I know and I you know that's my favorite world I don't know which is worse actually it's your

Favorite world war It's everyone's Favorite world war It's either a great thing Or a really bad thing And I have no opinion I think maybe Maybe I'm gonna Just get smart Maybe this is gonna Be good for me I'm gonna come out of this On the other end smarter I'm gonna be just glowing Cause he's just so So hot That is very fair And something great Could come of it And we don't know yet You know And he can play guitar All he wants So long as he is

you know, showing up for me. That's true. In the ways that matter. Speaking of guys that play guitar showing up for you in the ways that matter. That was really specific. I think I got stood up. Oh no. And this has never happened to me in my entire life. And I just want you to tell me

What you think. Okay. Okay? Lay it on me. So, there's this musician. Do I know him? You know him. Is he someone I'm in love with? Because you've been doing that lately. No, I have not been doing that lately. Literally at all. You just made that up.

No, it's not someone you're in love with. But Hunter was on tour with him for like a while. Oh, okay. And Hunter's been on tour with a million musicians. I know him. I'm a fan of his. So don't go harass them all, please. And he's a great guy. He really is a great guy. And I want to say like...

Like nine, 10 months ago, him and I started talking because he was on tour with Hunter. Like I'd FaceTime him. I remember I was there the night that that was all happening. It was like Hunter was trying to set me up with one and you up with the other. OK, so, you know, exactly right. And we start talking and we're trying to go on dates and so on and so forth. But he's a very much so touring musician. Like he's gone like six months of the year at minimum, like on a bus.

Like just not fucking home literally at all. And it just didn't happen, whatever. And then we started going on tour and we have a tour manager. And our tour manager weirdly had worked with him before. And so he hit me up and he was like, oh my God, I love your tour manager. They're the best. Like what?

whatever and we start talking again he sees like peppa stuff out he said he's like do i buy this for you like all this stuff we start talking and whatever and last week he asks me on a date and he's like can we go to dinner this when we were in north carolina he was like can we go to dinner next sunday and i was like

Yeah let's do it And I'm kind of Clowning him I'm like I don't know You're too busy for me Like I feel like You're gonna bail You're gonna be on Another fucking tour Like blah blah blah And he's like No I promise you I'm just like Shitty up my phone Like I really want To take you to dinner Big red flag What did we say No one is bad At using their phone At all And like it just I whatever Especially if you're touring Like what are you doing Sitting on a bus Like fucking tell me

And nobody's home. And so he I'm just clowning him like this date isn't going to happen. Right. And he is doubling, tripling, quadrupling down like this date is going to happen. I promise you. And I'm like, OK, perfect.

And then the night before he's with our tour manager, he sends me a photo. Everything's good. Right. And so it'd been about six days since he asked me on the day it was supposed to be on Sunday. I wake up on Sunday to a text from him. Oh, no. Tana, I am so sorry to do this because I know we joked about bailing, but I am trying to be a good person. So right after we planned our date, I started seeing someone and really hit it off.

I think it might be best to cancel tonight because I don't want to put you in a weird spot and be in a different place. I just wanted to be honest with you because you deserve that. So I hope you don't hate me, but completely understand if you do. My apologies for it being so last minute. I just wanted to wait and make sure because I obviously think you're awesome and we'd get along great. Here's what I don't like about that. You fell for

No, he didn't. That's what I was going to say. What I don't like about it is he had to have already been involved with her and just didn't know how serious it was at the time that he planned the date with you. So he was already two-timing you before you guys even had a first date. I don't like that. I don't like it at all. And he's so nice guy coded. Like, I'm like...

No, but I mean, that was the nice guy thing to do. I would love for somebody to do that if they were talking to me, like if they were talking to me and had set up a date with another girl and then they like decided they liked me, I would hope that they would do that. You know what I mean? But that's true, I guess. That is true. I don't want anybody seeing me and somebody else. He's just like, oh, I was like excited because I feel like he's like what I need.

Like a nice guy, super successful musician. It for sure would have been way worse, though, had he gone on the date with you and you liked him. And then like he was still he ended up talking to somebody else. And you're like, how the fuck did this happen? That's true. I just guess I needed something for the plot.

We talked about this on the last episode, but I really am debating, you know, having a bit of a life in New York. So as I've been in New York, I've been like on New York Hinge. Like, you know what I mean? Like trying to even just let's say I go on dates with people and they end up being my friend. It's just like nice to like get myself out there in New York. Right. Yeah. So I put myself on New York Hinge and I receive a voice memo from

this guy. All right, Tana. Give it up for Tana. Tana sounds like it's short for something or she just likes the sound of it. I'm going to go through your profile for the first time since liking it a few days ago and let you know my

That's on my hand. Why? Hold on. Why?

I think it's good to let them know about the Peppa thing. So you're like snorting on your Hinge profile and you're attracting nice, good guys. I don't know. Maybe they think I'm like fun and quirky. I don't... Here's the thing. I've been having this really actual real crisis. I was in New York City with Paige and I got so high. Like...

too high, like so high. And I just look around the room and it's like we're in New York City at Fashion Week and there's just peppa shit everywhere. Like coloring books that I've colored. Like it's not like I just look at it. Like I'm playing with these things.

Oh my God, that's so fucking embarrassing. Look at her peppa nails. My peppa nails right now, which are so cute. They're my favorite nails I've literally ever had. Oh my God, in my 25 years of existence. But I'm the weird pig girl, and I know that. And you know what I mean? You miss piggy hooves? Yeah, like, you know? And so I try to let people know. Anyways. I'm a pig. I know that it's a pig and it's a cartoon, but I don't really know the morals and the motifs of the story. She cannot ride a bike.

You mean to tell me you live in New York City and you've never ridden a city bike on the West Side Highway on Mali? Because I have. And we could do that together, maybe. Or separate. But it's a fun idea. I'll teach you. Alright, scrolling down. Bikini picture. Classic. We like it. We like a bikini picture. Another car selfie. Seems like Tana has a fetish.

Most controversial opinion, there's no way that Helen Keller flew that plane. Also on my hands. That's fucked up because Helen Keller was my great-grandmother, and bitch, she flew that plane. No one actually likes Aperol Spritz. I mean, a mirror selfie with a watch. Are you a watch girl? I find that watches have no utility, but this is still hot. She has great boobs.

obviously, and drinking pickle juice from the pickle jar. That's romantic. I love that too. Oh, this profile is long. He has too much time. The lizard on the head with the sunglasses. Maybe this should be your first pick. And then Russian vibes at the end. Yeah, she's hot. We should talk. I love you. I gotta go. I love you. I gotta go. It's hilarious. Okay, so he sends me this.

I think it's funny as fuck. Like you can debate if it's a green or a red flag. But to me, it looked green. Right. It depends on where you're looking at it from. And then so I give him my number and then I'm just thinking about this more. And I'm like, OK, but he I'm not the only person he's done this to. And imagine a guy doing that eight times in a night. That's what I'm telling you. He has way too much time. What was that? Three minutes long. Like that's.

It's just icky to me, the soundboard, like really actually thinking about it. Yeah. And so I make a TikTok about it. I'm like, I weigh out my pros and cons as we do with everything. It's like, do I want this to manifest into something great or do I just want to make it content and move on with my life? What means more to me? Content weighed out in this situation. We do it for you guys. And all the attention, seriously. So I make a TikTok about it and then get this.

All these people start tagging me and another girl had already made a viral TikTok green screening the voice memo from this man. Then a Pandora's box opens of like eight more girls who this exact man, like his name, he lives in New York city. I want him to do it to me. I want to know what he really thinks of my profile. I'll ask him. We talk. Um,

I need a man's review. He starts texting me and he asked me to take the TikTok down. He's like, and then, okay, I might go to hell for this. Why? Because, what, is his girlfriend going to find out? I'm like, I'll trigger it. I'm like...

And here's the thing. I'm just imagining his boys like seeing that and clowning him. And then I'm getting the double. Like I just. And so again, I wait on him like, no, I'm leaving the TikTok up. I don't care if you ever talk to me again. Like you did it. It's a public dating app, whatever. He texts me two days ago and he's like, so many people are texting me in my life. Like, who are you? All the shit. Like, you can leave it up. And I'm like, OK, so now you love the attention. Oh, no, no. And I'm like, this is a clout. Moving on. I'm wearing my fake Bottega earrings today. Bottega. Bottega.

In honor of our viral moment. You know what's so crazy about that? Is that we suddenly have imaginary beef with Madeline Klein. That's what I want to talk to you about. Okay, so... Wait, first of all, it really is crazy how you can just... One person can say some shit online and then it's just like the truth. I've never met Madeline Klein. And it's so funny because we do that. Like we say shit online and then it's just the truth. So I'm not hating, but...

I'm obsessed with her. It was not about her. We told the story about a fake L.A. girl who kind of was being a stupid fucking cunt to Brooke about her photagate earrings and, you know, just people being stuck up in L.A. in general. Everyone thinks it is about Tila Dunn or Madeline Klein. I don't think Tila Dunn would do that. She wouldn't.

I feel like she would get some Bottega earrings too She so would And honestly she's so sweet Did you see somebody Do the actual like Like breakdown of Cause it's costume jewelry Like the Bottega ones Yes someone did that In like honor of our viral moment It's so viral But it's They're gold plated the same They're literally like They have the same exact makeup Yeah the same So if you're buying the Bottega ones You're just financially Irresponsible

And so stupid Like it's I can't even get into that But it's funny Because the story is just about someone Who isn't in the scene at all Like it's someone that we like Yeah it's just like a random girl We kind of like half work with Or like work around Yeah And everyone keeps asking who it is And it's like no one would even know And it's just like

Telling It's way more awkward now Because like We're going to have to see her I feel like she's the type To like hit me too For what I said Can I tell you something Like Something horrible But I could take her I could definitely take her So don't fucking try Okay No but listen to something horrible That happened With her and I one time That makes me think That she might actually like This attention That she's going to get She definitely loves this attention I feel like she loves that But one time This is actually horrible Like this makes us Or me look really bad Not me but I was at a meeting And

with honestly Becca Moore Becca Moore her team and Natalie my manager and it was like a few of us at a table okay no cockroaches in sight no and and um she was sitting next to me this girl and Natalie put us all in a group chat like except for her and was like I'm sorry like she's just you know she's just this rich girl from like blah blah blah and like

Because she was kind of she was doing what she normally does, like boasting about. Wait, OK, keep in mind that you did not. I called her like a stupid fucking. It doesn't shut the fuck up and doesn't know how it needs to be hit in the fucking face. And it's a viral sound on TikTok. And now she's going to know. I want there to still be some deniability there, please. Oh, she's going to fight me. No, she knows. She has to know by now. Wait, but listen, you didn't you didn't hear the rest of the story. I know. But are we going to leave it in? Yeah.

Fuck. It's fine. It's fine. Well, this is okay. So Natalie, but she was just like, sorry. Like, she's just like this rich girl from like blah, blah, blah. Like it's fine. And at the time that Natalie sent the text, it's a group chat with every single person at the table, except for her. She had her, my phone in her hand. So it popped up for her and she just put it down. She goes, you think I'm rich?

I swear to God. And all of us just died because we were like, what do we even say? Like... Natalie Bowling has the historic, like, worst luck when it comes to, like... Well, like, don't do that. Do not ever drag me into some shit like that. Like, I don't want to, like...

Because I wouldn't be texting about somebody at the table. I never do that because it like scares me too much. Me too, because I'm so hyper aware of it. Like if I see that two people are like both texting, I'll be like, what the fuck are you guys talking about? 100%. I never, ever, ever, ever do it. Natalie did that in Turks. I think we talked about that. Like I didn't even see... She saw the message before I did. So I was just like, what was I going to do? And like what Natalie couldn't check to make sure that my phone wasn't in her hand. Yeah, that's fucking...

She always does that. She did that with Ashley and Bella and Turks and a whole novel talking shit about them and they were in the fucking group chat. So hilarious. But she just... She was, like, flattered by it. She was like, oh, like, haha, you think I'm rich? So I feel like she would, like... Here's what I'm gonna do. And I say it to her face. I'm like, why are you, like, so adamant about, like, fakes? Like, and stuff like that. It's not a fake, but... She...

I'm going to talk direct to camera and say that you, this is my new thing. And just, just addressing the people like to the camera as we go. When I say you've never been hit in the face, I don't mean I want to hit you in the face. Like, I don't mean that you deserve to be hit in the face or anything like that. I think there's just an archetype of people who have lived a life where no one has ever really told them no. And I don't really know your story. This is an assumption, but granted there's a lot of stories that give me context to make this assumption. Um,

That you know No one's ever just told you That sometimes You should shut the fuck up And you shouldn't maybe say You know that Her bag is fake Just don't make other people Feel shitty about like Especially My number one thing is like If you talk to me And you made all your own money Or whatever And you're bragging about money Then that's one thing But if you are spending Your parents money And ridiculing other people For how they spend theirs Don't fucking talk to me Like I do not I just Every conversation I've kind of

had with her and again god I'm like fuck um like we we were just at um a friend's birthday and she was there and she was wearing this gorgeous John Paul Gaultier dress and I am obsessed with John Paul Gaultier archives it's like my favorite brand to like if I get a piece from John Paul Gaultier that's like from the 2000s or the 90s I'm gagged you know and so I see it and I'm like oh my fucking god like I need this dress like

And I'm just talking to her about it And she's very much like You can borrow mine And I'm like I'm gonna get it We can twin She kept saying You can't find it Yeah and she just Goes on this whole thing Like literally the only person Who's worn it is Kim Kardashian I think you can't find it And like I don't mean to be like I know I can fucking find that dress But like I'm good at it I love it I love John Pogolty I know I could find it And I'm kind of It was amazing She was just talking so like

What felt like down to me About the fact that I like couldn't And now I'm like I need the dress I'm gonna wear it in the next episode No imagine how I felt I complimented it And I didn't I didn't even know So God Imagine letting her tell me I would I just It was like so dehumanizing

It was like, I regret it so much. I'm never giving a compliment out ever again. I still want to be friends. Like, you know. She's actually, she's really fucking smart and she actually works really hard. It's not like she's just like everything handed to her and like whatever. But I just, I don't fuck with people who like shame other people for like money and stuff. 100%. And it's also like, what we think is going to go viral on Canceled is never what goes viral. Like it's always like just a random moment that you think is going to be swept under the rug and now it's like I have to see this bitch every week and it's like never going to. Yeah, whatever. We won't see her anymore. Okay, speaking of

Super rich out of touch problems. Oh, the craziest thing just happened to me when I first got one of my first really big checks My first big purchase was a Cartier love bracelet the ones that screw on and you can only take it off if you unscrew right and Kylie Jenner would wear like fucking 12 of them 12 of them and It was seven thousand seven hundred dollars, which I just didn't know

Should not have been Spending on that at the time But I was young And I wanted it so bad And I get it And after two years And these are You're meant to have These for life Like it's called The eternal love bracelet It's like someone You love is supposed To screw it on you And it never comes off Obviously no one loved me I screwed it on myself But anyways After two years It breaks And the screws Just start unscrewing And it like Fall off of me It's a really common Problem actually It happens to a lot of people Which

Which is just wild. Like it won't screw shut, whatever. And so I've just had it like laying around and then I got my watch. I got this little silver bracelet. I was like, it'd be so cute if I stack them all together. And like, it means a lot to me. It reminds me of like,

You know how everything started. Yeah. And so I send it with Robin, my assistant, to get fixed and at Cartier. And it's this whole dramatic thing. Like all the Cartiers are shut down for construction and we can't get in. We can't get an appointment. She finally gets an appointment at a Cartier an hour away. We finally get to get it fixed. It's gone for months. Like she's talking to Cartier like all the time and whatever. And.

So finally she wakes me up the other day and she's like, your Cartier bracelet, I'm going to get it today. And she comes back and she's like, I have a delivery from Cartier. And I'm like so excited to put it on. And I'm going somewhere cute. And I'm like, I'm going to wear it. I'm so excited, whatever. And I open this bracelet.

And it is a completely different bracelet. It is. Oh, man. It's not white gold. It's yellow gold. I sound like this bitch. I can't even. Now I sound like I've never been hit in the face. I'm like, I only wear yellow gold, so I'm just saying. It doesn't fit my wrist. You would have loved it. It was so tiny. It would have fit your wrist perfectly. I know. I have these thick'em wrists. I have cankles of the wrist. What the fuck?

me home with the wrong bracelet a cheaper bracelet as well have they sent me home with a nicer bracelet i would imagine they accidentally sent you like the iced out one where's my bracelet yeah who has your wrist that's like like it's eight thousand dollars like that's like mixing up a baby 100 it'd be so different if this was like a sephora mix-up or if this was like like yeah but it's like that's the thing if you have someone's then someone has your that's the price of a car yeah

It is. We call Cartier. They really don't give a shit. Like, it's this whole thing. They talk to Robin. And then they're like, actually, like, here's the voicemail. And she just has to leave, like, a voicemail. I'm like, a voicemail? For my $7,000 break? A voicemail? What? Yeah, what? So as I do, I'm like, I know how I can get this resolved real quick. I make a TikTok. You turn to the internet. Had no idea Cartier was on TikTok, really. You know, guess what I woke up to today? I was with it.

Cartier themselves dropping off a brand new bracelet The one I had A brand new one? Like or mine I guess But I don't believe that it's mine And it looks a little Looks like worn in It looks a little newer nicer I don't Then I think you know what I mean Maybe they cleaned mine who knows

And a present. The entire thing was also in Robin's name. Like she went and like she did it. You know what I mean? Like and it was in her name and all the shit. And the Cartier person comes and is like, tell Tana she's going to love the gift. Like they saw my fucking TikTok. Oh no. Which is just crazy to me. I'm really excited about my bracelet. I don't know. The story doesn't end that way. So now you have two? No, no, no. I gave the other one back. Well, actually, do you know what's funny? Is...

We had an extra Cartier lying around. So Robin gave them the wrong one that they gave us back. And then I had to find that one. I sound like the bitch who's never been hit in the face. It's like it's crazy. Yeah, I don't understand what happened at all. Aubrey O'Day messaged me. And who is she? She is the one from Danity Kane who went on Sophia with an F's podcast. And I thought that like the way that she was talking to her was like very disrespectful. So I went on a bit of a tangent on an episode. I saw that and she was speaking to her. Yeah. So that's what I thought.

A lot of people Sophia handled it well I guarantee it didn't affect Sophia at all Yeah But I think that's the point That she was trying So she sent me like Screenshots Of Sophia And her like Conversation And like I think Sophia really wasn't Impressed about it I think that she thought It was like fun banter And that's what

And it's kind of one of those things where you're pressed for your time. She sent me like a really long text just saying like, it's like a sister banter. Like, well, I don't appreciate your take at all. No, but she straight up called Sophia like unsuccessful and shit. And they're not sisters. It was just, it didn't, you know what? It didn't come off the way that you meant for it to, in my opinion. And so maybe, maybe I was wrong and maybe I misinterpreted it. But listen, my job is to interpret things.

I'm going to start saying that all the fucking time. Like, why did you hire me out on canceled? My job was to interpret things. She said, you don't know anything about me or my life or career, which you made clear from all the judgment and misinformation that I heard you speaking. I'm here if you would like to be a fully informed human. One thing about me is I do not want to be a fully informed human.

We should have her on We should like Zoom call her in She said And if she's your good friend And put you up to this Then watch Alex Cooper's interview Sophia did not put me up to this In fact she did not even And if she's your sister Why the fuck are you so quick To tell her to watch Alex Cooper's interview Watch Alex Cooper's interview Because she didn't sell me As her aggressor Oh She said And I wasn't Her name Or the same as I wasn't With Sophia She spelt it S-O-P-H-I-A Sophia With an F Yeah

I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Aubrey. Wait. Is it Audrey? Aubrey. I called her Audrey the first time. I know her name is Aubrey. I fucked up. I don't know. Aubrey, if you want to call in, it sounds so fun. I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings. That has to be the most disingenuine apology I've ever seen on campus. No, I do feel bad. She's going through something. Check this one out. Is it the face tune? Yeah. She's saying that someone is going through something because they're face tuning too much.

Holy shit. I dude, I went on a need to do that. She is very beautiful. I went on a deep dive the other day with Ashley Schwan of my old photographs that yeah, that's major and OG Tana on the swing. I'm going to edit it in but there's this photo of Noah Cyrus and I that I post. I remember vividly you post. No, I remember you posting the one that you posted the other day with the dresses that you and Ashley had matching. I think you were at like Playlist Live or Playlist Live next to the D'Amelio's. I had an entire year where like I actually literally wanted to look like Avatar.

Like I was using a filter That made my eyes blue I don't even have blue eyes Like whole thing I remember that too It was just like It also was I was on a lot of drugs Like I'm just gonna be So motherfucking for real Like I was on so many Pills and potions And I needed my Instagram Taken away from me Can we talk about that as well? I think

As I'm getting sober and older, I have delved into my addictions and all of the things that I've been through. And I do truly feel like I'm in a place in my life right now. And obviously addiction is not linear and, you know, things happen. But I feel like I'm in a place where I'll never be that bad again or that dark again or that addicted really to anything ever again. I guess like after I, you know,

got through a lot of these addictions especially pills and had like some scary close calls and shit I just kind of moved on I was like okay I don't do that anymore and I haven't like reflected on that time of my life and it's really crazy because like I don't remember it like at all I don't remember like three years of my life you know and sorry keep going actually what no I was just gonna I just keep going because I was gonna just completely like

Go on a tangent. Well, I want to know. Well, I've been looking into that therapy where you move your eyes. I want to do that. And it makes you remember things, right? Yeah, but apparently it can be really bad for some people. I feel like that might be bad for me. Yeah, I don't need to open. It's a traumatic process, I think.

I'm pretty mentally healthy. I do have a lot of trauma that I need to unpack, but. Me too, but like some of it's like, oh, I forgot. Oh no. And it, yeah. And it's kind of like, why do I necessarily want to unpack that? Yeah. I guess it could manifest in horrible ways. I think it does. I think it translates at least for me and like a lot of other areas, like where I don't like the way that I date in the way that I like, like my like self-efficacy and stuff like that is like affected directly by like.

Things that I haven't worked through Yeah And I guess I just don't Because I don't remember But I don't remember Like three years of my life Which I think is really sad And one day I'll be super sad about that But

I shot an entire reality show on Xanax and I don't remember it at all. Like I wasn't like shooting barred out. Like it was more so like I was taking so much when I was done shooting that it would like transfer into the next day and shit. Yeah. And then you just lost the whole thing. But like how crazy is that? That is really crazy. And I feel like we were we were friends at that time. I don't remember. Well, actually, you were so barred out.

Yeah. I remember at that time I like I had never even tried Xanax or anything. And so I was like traumatized. I remember you would try to get not try to get me to take it. But like if I was ever like in a panic, you'd be like, just take some. And I'd be like, no, it's.

It's an amazing thing In moderation And like now I'm prescribed And I take it only If I'm having a panic attack In a slight amount And I don't abuse it Literally at all Which is I never thought I would either I think you made it sound Like I abused Xanax On like an episode Or on the Trisha episode Because I talked about it But I I think it's because We just talk about it So casually Like I'm prescribed So I did like Xanax and Adderall I literally need them Like for like my fucking Chemicals Take them together

There was just a time in my life where, yeah, don't take them together. There was just a time in my life where I was abusing everything I could. You know what I mean? And I was dating people as well who did. So it just, you know, like made it feel easier. I don't know. Um,

But I want to do I want to react to MTV at some point either on the podcast or somewhere because I don't remember it at all. I don't know if you should. I don't know if you want to bring that back up for people. Didn't you have like a pretty like bad reaction public reaction to that show? Not really. Would you ever do another show? I think we kind of have been talking about this a little. I've always said no but like maybe. I don't know. It would depend on the control. Like MTV was just hard. I talk about it all the time but like it especially on MTV like the episodes end up

completely not how you feel like you shot them in my opinion they kind of they build the storyline like after the fact yeah and just a little like if you're in the bathroom and you're on the mic and you say something like they have full rights to like edit that into like a drone shot of Hollywood Hills like you know what I mean like that was such a fun time it's just I was on that you guys can't tell but I was in it you were in that episode actually the episode you were in is the one where I was like I don't know if I can do reality TV anymore I think that's also why I was

Why I was like trying to escape reality as much as I could because I don't think that it was made for me like that whole episode was like something that was written to have a girl's night and written into like Trevi's alcoholism. It was like written into it and all this shit and it just ended up the edit just ended up being not what happened at all or like what was agreed on between Trevi and I off camera and all this shit and it just like didn't.

Didn't look good And it made me sad If I were to ever Do a reality show I would want it to be Like the Kardashians Where everything is like You know beforehand Like what scene You're filming What the storyline is And you just have the Like the way that Like Stassi, Baby, and Kylie Sit down and they start Talking about like Their surgery Like they knew Going into that That that's what But that's kind of How MTV was Really? And then it's The Kardashians Just have full edit control You know what I mean? Well yeah They're the producers Of the show I had a producer credit But

No, that Tana wasn't producing anything. She wasn't producing shit. I would do it. I think that would be fun. I think we should have a canceled reality show. Speaking of canceled, not really a reality show. That was my worst segue yet. I was trying to keep it going. I don't know. I think you're still... People are mad at us. Oh, yeah. We just released a JoJo Siwa episode. And...

And because we were going on tour, we have been like severely stacking episodes because we'll be gone for weeks at a time. And even just with my like New York stints and shit, like I don't necessarily when I leave here and especially just with the stalker and everything that's at home, like I don't necessarily always know when I'm coming back. So we always want to stack episodes. And so like a while ago, I don't want to say like a number of days because I always get that wrong and then people get mad. We shot an episode with Jojo Siwa right around the time we shot an episode with Trisha. And...

I shoot the episode with Trisha and we're talking about like you know I've been telling Trisha this I tell her this every day I want to have your back I am your fucking friend I'm so sad that people have like done so much shitty shit to you and I guess right after we shot with Jojo she also went on Howie Mandel's podcast and I didn't know this but like she apparently said like

Is very close with Colleen Ballinger And I would have loved to talk about that on Canceled You know, like I didn't know about it Yeah, I didn't see the clip But I know that she like Yeah, she like publicly defended Colleen or whatever I'm not here to super unpack It's just not my journey I mean, everyone knows how I feel about Colleen Ballinger And how I feel about Trisha And how I feel about that whole fucked up situation And

You know If that's JoJo's journey That's JoJo's journey But A We probably Wouldn't I think the timing Was just really Shady We probably wouldn't Have had her on Or

if we did I would have asked her about it at least you know what I mean that's what cancelled is like I'm I'm down to have cancelled people on and ask them about cancelled shit or whatever it is and I don't necessarily know if Jojo's fully cancelled but I know that in the Trisha community she is you know and we put out this episode and people were hot like so fucking pissed about having her on and our friendship with Trisha and whatever and yeah we just didn't know and it was just horrible timing and it's really nothing to even like

Talk about Because it's like I commented back To some people I was like listen We didn't fucking know Also we I mean we reached out To Trisha to make sure That she was She knew that Yeah and I texted Trisha And was just like hey This JoJo episode's going live Like I didn't know All this happened And Trisha was just so nice About it and didn't give a shit She was like she's so sweet And it's not like This huge anti-JoJo situation But if If listen

I'm team Trisha every time it's always gonna be Trisha I am team team team Trisha we were just talking about how we want to start having Trisha on like once every other month as like a recurring guest everyone loved her so much and it felt so natural like she she's she's so good at asking questions she's just yeah really great I'm going to her house again tomorrow and I'm so excited she was like sending me voice memos yesterday like two minute long voice memos and I was so fucking gagged because it's like I listened to her talk for like minutes at a time like on TikTok and podcasting it I was like there's

No way Like Malibu's in the back I am like making it My life's goal To hear Malibu Barbie's First word She's gonna I bet she already speaks I bet She looks like a genius to me She comes out fast Talking like Trisha Could you imagine She's like reading already Like fast as fuck I don't know why This just reminded me of it But Me and Natalie Got in the biggest fight The other day Because You know how like

Well, Natalie just says the funniest thing sometimes. And sometimes I think Natalie just doesn't even know me at all. But I sent her... I sent her... Alexis just got like a... Like McDonald's reached out to her and sent her like PR. I sent it to Natalie and I was like, how am I not getting McDonald's PR? I talk about McDonald's every opportunity I get. And...

literally said to me she's like I've never seen you talk about McDonald's like I go I literally like I couldn't talk about McDonald's more I cosplayed a McDonald's worker it's so funny because I asked you for Halloween if we could be like the Hamburglar and like Ronald McDonald and you were so offended I have in every episode someone gifted me a happy meal I have a McDonald's rug in my house I eat McDonald's at least once a day every single day and like it was I was so hot at her saying that like I felt like she was like

Like trying to upset me Like What if I was like Amari is like Way more of a Peppa fan Than you Like Yeah that's so true I would I was sick And I don't know why It upset me so much But anyway McDonald's If you're listening I will do anything for you I would ask my manager For shit like that But he would just Straight up say I'm sorry sweetie But you're not getting Tickets to that show You know

I didn't even ask her, but I was just like, oh my God, like how have they not seen anything I've said about them? Like I say things about them all the time. All she did was make one TikTok about McDonald's. Petition for McDonald's to sponsor the canceled podcast. I don't even want a sponsor. I just want a gift card, dude. I spend so much money at McDonald's, which is like actually McDonald's is your Roman Empire. It is. McDonald's is my Roman Empire. I realized Helen Keller is mine. Yeah.

I do think about her a lot. So much. I don't know what I think about a lot. I think about Helen Keller so much. Do you think about the Roman Empire a lot, Eric? Like two or three times a week. I saw somebody. Two or three times a week you think about the fucking Roman Empire. What is the Roman Empire? That's exactly right. What's the Roman Empire? No, but seriously, like I think, I saw a TikTok of a girl saying this, but like guys aren't thinking about the Roman Empire. They're thinking about Gladiator. Like they're not, they aren't, they don't know anything historically about the Roman Empire. I'm not kidding you. Gun to my head.

What's a Roman? I'm pretty sure it was Greece. Royale? Yeah, what's a Roman? They were the biggest... They were, like, painted on the walls, I think. And they're, like, muscular. They were, like, the most successful civilization, like, B.C. And then they... Usually painted on the walls and muscular. I think. And I think that they, like, influenced a lot of our government. Were they mad at something? No, they were just, like, top of the world at one point. Why? Well, what was the fall of the Roman Empire? I don't know.

Yeah, I think so. Caesar and Brutus? It might have been, you know, Julius Caesar, the play? What? So the Romans are a bunch of big men named Julius and Caesar who were mad. Like we would have nothing in our modern civilization if it weren't for the Roman Empire. Yeah, she's right.

So like we wouldn't have like best buy? Yeah, no. Not without Caesar. There is no best buy without Caesar. A lot of people compare today to like the end of Roman Empire times. There's a lot of similarities. Like what? It's just, you want to get intellectual? Yeah, go ahead, go ahead. So pretty much back in the day, like when they were falling, they had like all these ideas of like,

really like big consumerism if i'm not mistaken not like capitalism and everything we have nowadays but so they were consuming like grapes well yeah like they just got like super into material life too many grapes um just physical things we can get like sex power everything they were i get that i get how that power today is there's no roman but it's like the fall of the roman empire was like the end times but what fell everyone was like you're done it was like a combination of a

of a lot like have you ever seen like the uh art piece of just rome on fire i think so it's a big painting i don't remember yet i'm convinced men don't really know about it either i think yeah i think they are just thinking about the movie gladiator but you think about it all the time yeah it's a pretty cool thing to think about man it's like you know what do i think about it's like i bet he's cheating you know i'm talking about what it's like i bet he's thinking about cheating or like thinking about another girl say it again those memes you know i'm talking about no

Oh yeah, I know what you're talking about. He's probably thinking about another girl or whatever. Like they're in bed and he's just like, and he's just like got some Roman Empire on his mind. That's actually a guy's brain, you know? God, that's crazy. Maybe not two to three times. Maybe like once a week. Shout out to the Romans and whatever they did. Pretty cool. I still don't know. I want to learn how to ride a horse. Are you going to play guitar? Brooke pulls up tomorrow on a horse playing guitar.

Listen, I'm willing to adapt. Okay, I have a fun segment for you. I'm calling back to what we were just talking about with like our ics. You know what I mean? Paige was talking about dating a guy and him eating spaghetti and having spaghetti stains on the corners of his mouth like they were orange when they left. Oh, that was a bad one. She was saying it's an ick.

and Isabella the other day was talking about a guy taping his mouth when he sleeps so that he is a nose breather and not a mouth breather when he sleeps. Oh, I should have done that to my... And...

I, again, I've been on this train where I'm having so much empathy for the ick because I think I'm a walking ick. Yeah, it's almost like the pendulum is swinging back because it's like we took it too far. Exactly. And so it reminded me of the fact that I dated a guy who every night would tape his mouth shut so that he wasn't a mouth breather. Who was it? And it was...

And I hate that. And I remember when I was dating him, apparently I also called him dumb on cancel and he called me the fuck out for it recently. But I don't remember that. I don't think you're dumb. I miss you, but you have a girlfriend. So whatever. He would tape his mouth shut every night. And I remember in the moment being like, I cannot handle this. I was up in arms over that. Like he would give me my final slug. He would give me my final kiss. Good night. And then he would like tape his mouth every night.

But now I look back and like I kind of miss him. And I'm sitting there thinking like of all the things I would do. So, so, so hot. So hot. Crazy. That big day. Give me so much hope and hinge. Like when you popped out with him, I was like, oh, fuck. I'm not even kidding you. I hate the way hinges happen for me. Like I met this man who was so hot. Big dick. He would fuck me in the mirror. Make me watch.

That's my Roman Empire. So hot. That's my fucking Roman. Tape your mouth shut all you fucking want. Okay? Yeah. And honestly, if he's dumb, why would you even want him to have his mouth open? No, and he's not even dumb. Oh. And the thing is, is every hinge thing that I've happened, that's happened to me since, I thought all hinge would just be this. And that's why I was so fine breaking up with him. I was like, I'm going to get back.

Out there I'm gonna find another one Yeah that's the problem Is like once you have A good A positive experience Like all of a sudden You think that's just Gonna keep coming It's not the whole But I think you accidentally Like hit the jackpot On the first try I did and then everything Has been so sad from there But it made me wanna Decide to start a series Of telling you things That people I dated did

that gave me the ick and you tell me if it's ick or not slash you can guess who okay okay okay okay i dated someone that every night instead of brushing their teeth with a toothbrush and toothpaste they would brush their teeth with a washcloth and coconut oil you told you told me this one but i actually did that trick um on tour with page and she it wasn't coconut oil but i used a washcloth and toothpaste because i couldn't find my toothbrush that's yeah but not the whole time coconut oil last day

I'm going to go Mod Sun. Bella Thorne. Really close if you think about it.

And I just remember at the time being like... But now I'm like... I think that's like effective. I think coconut oil is... She was just so like that. Like she would like pour beer in her hair because it's good for your hair. Like conditioner type shit. Like she would just do so many things like that. Someone fact check that. For so long. Erin. That's like literally how like everything happened. And I, by the way, want to date a girl so badly again. Like I want to be gay again so bad. I would love to be gay. Like the problem...

The reason I haven't like really like tapped into it is because I just I love like a good solid Dicking Penis yeah I I want to date I like really want to date a girl again so bad like I miss it I think it's so fun but I just struggle so I've only ever dated two girls in my life really And like I struggle so hard I've talked about this before but every girl I date it's just like They almost have to be like on your level you said kind of Which I hate because then people call me gay for pay and gay for clout and gay for son

No, but I understand that. But it's just like when I date a normal girl, every time I ever have, I found that like they just want to wear my clothes and they want to be around me to get to like guys to date and they're like faking by or like to like. I don't know because I think I've said this before, like, but have you heard Miley Cyrus talk about it? How she likes to date?

Women because she's like going to be the breadwinner anyway So she might as well feel like a more masculine energy than being with a man and being way more successful than him That's true. I can't figure out if i'm like a top or a bottom because with bella I felt like I was a bottom but with noah I felt like I was a top and i've done both I guess with bella. I you're worse. I think I I don't know I'm worse. I dated someone that Everywhere they went in their bag. They would not be happy unless they had watercolor paints and a paintbrush mod sun. Yeah, obviously

I miss him. What the fuck? Oh, the serenader just texted me. What did he say? Doesn't matter. This one is just crazy. It's not even an ick. It's just like, I can't believe I was this close to the person. And it's weird because sometimes I like miss being this close with the person.

But like... And this person obviously hates when I talk about this because it's so off-brand for them. I don't even know how to explain this. We would like fart on each other. We would burp in each other's mouths. Like he would take my own finger and like touch my own asshole and then try to put it to my face. That's... Like... I don't like that. I feel like Chris Miles. Definitely. Yeah. But like I miss being that close with someone sometimes now. God, I wish...

I know we say this all the time, but I wish Chris Miles and you could just be like a normal couple because like that was... God, I love him. And I appreciate you saying that. Like everyone hates him so much and I wish I could express so much. I know, it's so crazy. It really is crazy. Like the public hates... Not public, but like the fans and stuff are like, no, boo Chris Miles. But like he is our...

Like if they met him, they would love him. We all love him. Like if they met him, they would love him. And like I was equally as toxic. It's so funny because Chris was telling me the other day that I've been saying I want to get a gun because my whole stalker thing and I'm like sober now. I feel like I could have a gun, whatever. Chris was saying that for my birthday, he like was about to buy me a gun as a gift at one point. And then he didn't. And I was like, oh, why didn't you? And he like it was all these other random reasons. But I was like,

At one point, we were so toxic that I genuinely, genuinely feel like if he bought me that gun, I would have pulled it on him. Okay. And not shot him. I would never have shot him, obviously. This is crazy. No, but it was like, it was really a lot of like...

And like Just The fights just got So so crazy And it was bad For our relationship Because I was like Triggered I felt like I was with Fawn and Sean It was Yeah it was so crazy And it's funny Because now we are like Literally best friends And we don't hook up Like actually And like we're so cool And it's like It's I

I hate that when I'm around him I'll always think like Why can't we just date Honestly Cut to her saying on the Like I remember the episode When you were like We just can't be friends It's impossible And I was so sad about it I was heartbroken about feeling that way And I feel like A big part of why we couldn't be friends I think was because I needed to be sober Like Because I would get drunk And just like It would like We'd go back into so many patterns And

And him I don't know what happened with him He woke up one day And just decided to He didn't want to be toxic With me anymore at all And now we're like Just so cool And like best friends And it's awesome Every time you guys are in like a healthy era And I'm so happy about it Because I feel like I don't ever want to go back To the way it was And I don't think we will And we're just friends I agree Do you think if he went in to buy a gun They would even let him I don't feel like he would go in To buy a gun I feel like someone Oh he would get it on like A little black market situation He would postmates a gun I asked him that the other day I said if right now I said I need a gun here How long do you think it would take For you to have a gun here And he said 25 minutes

He's so funny. He's a really nice guy. I'm going to make a list like this for you and I'm going to do it on the next episode. But it's going to be not guys I didn't date. It's going to be just guys that you know about. I dated someone.

Who had to fill their shower and bathroom mirror with paper affirmations. Mod Sun. No. Sorry, I'm like coming for his neck. Like 35 of them. And they would be like, I blank am going to do this, this and this. But sometimes I would like see my name on there sometimes and shit. Like I would like see like. Rusty? No. And like sometimes they would just be like so like I will be the ruler of the world. Like, you know what I mean? That type of energy.

I don't know this one. Jake Paul. But I like... I hate... Like at the time, I would be like, what? I believe that though. And you know what? How am I going to talk shit about that when he has had the success he has had? I think every single thing I ever saw on an affirmation that at the time I thought was insane came true. And I actually... Don't be surprised if you come over and I have like... I'm going to... I started doing that in my own like weird little ways as of recently. And I like thought...

Like a couple months ago I started doing even the shower I'll like write everything I want to accomplish that day like just on not like with writing like on paper like he would but I'll just like write it on the shower like I've been trying to do things like that and I remember thinking to myself the other day I was like I used to find this to like writing affirmations to be so corny and then it's like look at him go and like you know. Yeah. I believe in manifestation.

Chris used to get so mad at me because and I used to get the ick that he would be so mad. I would be like, you don't understand me like you hate me. You're just so mean. He would want to watch a TV show like we'd get in bed and he'd want to watch a TV show. And I'd be like, no, I don't want to watch the show with you right now. I want to watch a show on TikTok in 500 parts. And I would sit there for two and a half hours. There's like entire movies on TikTok. No, I watch the entire show seasons of Why Women Kill.

on tiktok in parts and he would be like you're horrible to be around like like i'm sitting here like i can't see your phone as well you're better now with um your airpods you could do that by yourself but then why would i invite him over though so you know it's like why couldn't i just put it on the show and then like eventually it's just i put the show on and i would fast forward to only parts i hadn't seen on tiktok and he was like literally i hate being around you and i was like i hate being around you too and it was like tana

That's awful. My last one is just at one point I legitimately got jealous when I was dating Kevin because I felt like he loved his dog and cared about his dog more than me. I still feel that way. I get that. I would get jealous too. But like, you know what I mean? A lot of people are like that. You know, this is really bad. Can I tell you something? I sometimes don't like like if I see someone on a dating app and they like have like more than one photo of their dog. I'm like,

Relax. But I'm so obsessed with my cat that it's like ridiculous. It just got to the point where it was like I felt like across a 24 hour day with him, like he would be like, Duke, oh my God, like give the dog way more love than me. And he was still giving me such an adequate amount of love. Like, you know what I mean? But it was just like.

I was jealous of the dog. But I love the dog so much as well. That's got to be like a personal. I love the dog so much as well. When we broke up, I genuinely was like, oh my God, I'm going to miss this dog. You know how you can like promote an Instagram post? That's what I'm going to do for my dating life. I'm going to have to like boost. I've been debating as my backup plan, be all end all. Jeff and I talked about this for an entire episode of Jeff FM. But we've been debating on him just being my sperm donor and us just co-parenting as friends. What a sexy kid. Sorry. It'd be such a good looking kid. No. Fuck.

And like maybe I'm just not meant to like go into the sunset with someone. Like maybe it's like I co-parent with my best friend. I could see myself doing that. I could see myself being a single mom so long as I have like enough help. My problem is like I feel like that's more for people who have like family and stuff that would help them. Yeah. I would be like... I'm so grateful for Debra and Iraj, like Amari's family because I know I could drop that damn kid off on the doorstep. Yeah, I'm so jealous of people who are like that. I don't know why...

I don't have a kid So I don't know why I would be jealous I wish we could have a kid I know But mommy and mommy Would fight a lot Whenever I have a crush on a girl I always think about that I'll be like Oh how cute would that be And then I'm like Wait we can't do that I seriously want to date a girl again Can you guys leave Suggestions in the comments below Of girls that are Legitimately bisexual That you think I would be cute with Why do you want her to be I feel like you wouldn't date a lesbian

I would. I feel like I'd prefer... Well, actually, I know I would prefer a lesbian over a bisexual. But I... It's hard for me because I'm so bi. And it's almost like fun with... I don't believe in bi people. I'm just kidding. It's almost fun...

With a girl that's bi Because it's like We get each other Like we're like The same energy And like we almost Can talk about guys Being like cute and shit That's just scary Like I get scared I'm already insecure In a relationship I don't want to think That every single time They go outside They're just fucking People are coming at them From both angles Yeah I remember one time When I was like Breaking up with a girl We were like breaking up And fighting so much And we were the type That would like fight With really harsh words And she was like You just don't have a dick And I was like

See, that's a major, major deficit. Like, I need one. And you feel that way. We would also just, like, fuck guys still. So, whatever. That's also why I like dating a bi girl where you're kind of chill. And it, like, once in a while, you guys can just fuck a guy, get out of your system, and you're super happy, and you don't get jealous. We were talking about threesomes with the guy that I brought last night at the table. And he was, like, way too excited about talking about threesomes. I'm looking at him, like, a little sideways. I'm like, how many threesomes have you had? I've really never had a threesome.

Like I just And orgy counts Okay It doesn't matter If it's not a threesome A million foursomes But I just mean like There's something about a threesome Like where it's just like It's such an odd number to me And it's like either A you're fucking two people Someone has nothing to do

You know, you're fucking two people that are fucking. And as much as I like talk about having casual sex, I love to like play house or whatever. I don't want to fuck a couple or two people that are fucking and that I'm like the weird outlier. I don't like to homewreck. It just feels like that for me. I always feel like I just I don't feel like I've ever dated a guy that I really I don't think I have the trust in me to like like it's not that I'd be jealous in the moment that he's fucking her. It's that I genuinely don't think I have the trust in me to like

Trust him Like that I don't I just wouldn't I've never been in love With somebody who I wanted To like do that for Like I would not Well I'm like bi So I'd be into it as well I guess I wouldn't be like Fully doing it for someone But it's like I just wouldn't trust the guy To then not cheat on me In the future Or if it's in LA If they see the girl Like it's weird Or like So on and so forth I guess You know And like

And then it could just be like three people. Like, you know what I mean? It's like me and like two people who don't like really, they don't fuck and like whatever. But I've just never had that situation happen. So that's why I think I've never had a threesome. Okay. Well, you know, you're not missing much. I haven't really had a threesome either. I think I want to have a threesome. I don't know what I want. Well, apparently the man I'm seeing wants to have a threesome. I don't want to have a threesome with you guys. Just know that. But I wasn't going to say that. Okay. I'm just letting you know. And I would never let you touch him because he's like so special to me. Oh.

I don't want to touch him. I don't need a stand-in. I've loved him since I was 13. I'm about to go to Dancing with the Stars to see Lele dance. And I'm so excited. I didn't know Lele was on it. Lele is on it this season. Lele, your bestie? Lele. Brooke loves to... Because I'm always just doing shit with Lele that it like... You would do with like your best friend. Like me being like at her wedding or like me going to be her family and friends on Dancing with the Stars. But like... Or me like doing shit with her and Paris Hilton. It's just funny because...

You know, we don't hang out every day, but when we do something, it's such a bestie activity. But I'm excited to go support her. And I'm excited to see Harry Jowsey on Dancing with the Stars tonight as well. Me too. Let me know how he does. Can I tell you something? Sure. Once every like three years, something happens to someone that makes me feel so unsuccessful and insecure and inadequate. Would you go on Dancing with the Stars? Like, let's be for real. No, you would not.

I think I probably would as a bit and go off the first episode and maybe that's why it could never happen. But like I, when I had that life coach, he was always saying like, that's my goal for you to do something like that. Like dancing with the stars or a show like that to like really like show the way that you've like turned your shit around, like in a certain way, you know? And I've always been like, that's not possible. Like I'm too not brand safe. Like Harry's fucked on OnlyFans. Yeah. Think of Harry. I don't think about him as an OnlyFans person. I think about him as a very like Netflix person.

Just like family friendly. Maybe it is the Netflix of it all that like really does like help him in a way that I don't like. I feel like he's not like a sexualized character to me. Yeah. He's like, I mean, he's pretty sad. I mean, I have had sex with him literally. Well, I'm going to go see your boo dance tonight and your neighbor. I think you guys are going to do it. Tell him to come downstairs. Seriously. Honestly. Well, anyway, I miss you, Harry. Love you. Oh,

I'm kidding. Thank you guys for listening to this episode of Canceled. You know, I can't speak English. Thank you guys for listening to this episode of Canceled. Nothing means more to me than being able to vent my life out on this podcast. And Brookie, I love you so much. And I'm so excited for all of the tour dates that we hopefully will be announcing soon and merch and all the fun stuff that comes along with Canceled that we've been working on. But our favorite thing to do is just talk shit. We love you.