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Is this thing on? Bonnie, who used to be a former sex worker, now hosts the podcast Dumb Blonde. Most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit. And I was like, I want to be super hot, make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife. That was my goal as a child. And here we are. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. Today, we're doing things a little bit different. I have a lot of shit I want to talk about. And I was like, you know what?

I fucking need an episode where I just talk about shit. I don't ever do that. No better time to talk shit than with your best friend? I'll probably get canceled 10 times, but I don't give a fuck. I'm about to speak my mind today. Here we go.

I told Mimi, I was like, I'm not allowed to have time off because every time I have time off, it gives me too much time to get into the shit. Yeah. Cause I don't get, listen, I will pull up motherfuckers. I'll pull up virtually. I'll pull up fucking in person. My husband has to stop me sometimes. Yeah, no, he's like, bunny, you're fucking 85. What are you doing? You're not going to go pull up on somebody and beat them and their mom up. And I'm like, yeah, I am. Imagine the G wagon. Literally. Yeah.

So anyways, hi guys. How are you? I'm good. I'm good. We have Haley's on the mic, but I wish you guys could see her right now because this is so fucking hilarious. Can we get a dumb blonde cam going?

She is behind the scenes right now. I look like Thomas the Train. She's behind the scenes. Doesn't want to be on camera because she doesn't have makeup on. Well, you just asked me five minutes ago. I mean, I figured you would have just joined in on this fucking convo. But I like her off camera better. It's fucking hilarious. No, I used to do that with Mimi with propaganda. And it's actually, I love the mystery voice that just comes from behind the scenes. I'll do it every time. Okay.

is she our new producer are you the new producer that gets gonna get paid 50 grand a year yeah she's like fuck dude makeup yeah no i'm not paying a fucking producer 50 grand a year that's crazy to me that like a month yeah it's crazy oh yeah 50 grand a month sorry not a year yeah no i was like that's cheap let's find one of those yeah i started pricing that i said yes to that yeah no some of these

People like this one girl, like I'm not going to name drop her or anything, but like I sent her the workload, like what it entails. She was like, that's just a lot. Excuse me, what? Can I just tell you guys the reason why we have kept such a tight circle is because anytime we try to let somebody else come in on the team, these motherfuckers don't want to work. Or they keep tabs. Right.

I had... Okay. That was... Okay. I had a photographer one time that literally when she would shoot me, she would start a stopwatch. Yes. And when she left, she would stop it and count that. Do you remember also when that other videographer would count the time she waited for you to text her back as work? Yes. Even if she was at the nail salon, if she was waiting for like two hours for a reply, she would count that as work. Yes. And then that same videographer wanted...

um me to give her best buy hours because she had was working at best buy and she did not want to work like when you're a creative you don't really have like a nine to five monday through friday but you do get two days off you know but and you also have freedom to like pick she wanted her schedule to be fucking nine to five i don't even wake up till two like what are you talking about honey anyone the whole point of like the creatives is it happens anytime yeah

Yeah. You're not clocking in and clocking out of a job like this. Yeah. So it's been needless to say, it has been wild building the Dumb Blonde team. And I don't like bringing anybody in because it just fucking scares me because people really don't give a fuck. It doesn't matter how much you pay them. And I pay everybody very well. Yes. And then they get mad at me when I fire them and they go and talk shit online. But it's like, I have a fucking business to run, dude. People don't understand that it's business. Yeah. It's honey. I love you and I love you. But

but if, and I love Jason, but if we bring anybody else in, you're literally dealing with Mimi. Yeah. And that's, and that's how my husband runs his business too. Exactly. They don't have access to Jay every two seconds. It's crazy. So like there has to be the divide between the two. Yeah. Well, and there can't be emotions in business. Exactly.

You know, you and I have had to have conversations sometimes where we're like, okay, Hey, look, we're going to have this conversation, but we're going to leave our emotions at the door. Friendship stops, business starts and we'll turn it back on when we're done. Absolutely. And a lot of people don't understand how to do that. Haley's learning how to do that now. I feel like the dark days is what,

Is what got ours. Yeah. Got us through it. Yeah. I feel like everyone has to have that though. Yeah. But like we've had those plenty of times, you know, and it's just, it's how you come out on the other side of it is how, and how it's handled during it is what matters. Yeah.

Mimi and I have a, I don't want to call it a come to Jesus, but we have a sit down every six months to just check in for sure once a year. But every six months we have to kind of come back to the table because the business is growing so much that we have to be like, okay, what can we do here? Like we have to, you know, make sure that we have that open line of communication. And a lot of people when you're running a business don't want to communicate and it's really hard. People don't know how to have uncomfortable conversations.

No, exactly. Without it being confrontational. Exactly. Like you have to learn how to talk to people without wanting to fight them. And that's been the bit that me becoming a business woman has taught me so much because I am from the streets, bitch. I'm ready to fucking let's fucking throw down with the hoe down. And when you become not like, you know, I'm not trying to throw this out there when you become worth so much. Yeah. You can't,

do that no because that person is literally waiting for that moment they're like here's my payday absolutely and also I would like to credit H because I am so much calmer than I was fucking 20 years ago yeah I was a piece of shit human 20 years ago I tell everybody that I'm like bro I was not a good human my husband is very vocal about how he wasn't a good human like you know fucking as you get older you grow

That's why like when I see these bitches that are fucking from my past in comments that I've grown up with, like, or even women that I've literally maybe hung out with once in my fucking 20s when I was snorting eight balls and shoving cocaine up my ass and fucking popping pills and like being a wild fucking hyena. They're like, yeah, she's her. She's a fucking terrible human. It's like, bitch. Yeah, I was 20 fucking years ago. How? What?

What does that say about you? Fucking 25 years later, you're in somebody's fucking TikTok comments talking shit about me. Show me you haven't grown, bitch. So yeah, we have a lot to talk about today. And bitches from my past is one of them. We'll get into that in a little bit. But I have a whole list. You've got a list. I've been watching you add to it. Yeah, I was like, you know what? If I'm going to do an episode like this, I'm going to do it right. And I don't think a lot of people get to hear me just actually talk about

our life and like be candid about it and i was like the podcast is the perfect place for that because i feel like i've built such a safe community with everybody and dude our patreon those bitches are fucking lit dude i i love them like that is my tribe dude you really know who like

goes hard for you in there. I mean, they are my babies. I will, I want, so I think what I'm going to do and I haven't, I'm going to bring this up to you on the podcast. Mimi hates when I do this. I was in the chat talking to the girls the other night because I am always in my Patreon chats talking to the main attraction and I talk to the ringleader, ringleader tier two because I love those girlies too. I was thinking,

On tour. Because I want to meet all the girls in the ringleader in the main attraction. And I know it's going to be impossible to get, like...

one place to put everybody together. They were saying, do BunnyCon, you know, like I thought that would be a cute idea way down the road. But I was thinking we're going to be on fucking tour. We're bound to hit a city near every one of these girls. We'll just put them on the list. The majority of them already have tickets and just bring them side stage and get to meet them at every show. Like, I think that would be so awesome because like, that's how much I love these bitches, man. They fucking ride for me, dude. They ride, bro. No, it's why. And they don't,

Their TikToks crack me up. Oh, I love them. And they don't have to do what they do. And they really fucking do it, man. And I'm just like...

I don't know how to accept that kind of love. It's kind of hard for me. I'm like the Grinch over here. It just makes my heart get bigger and bigger because it's just so sweet that these women are just, and men, there's men in there too. Dude, we've got a sprinkled amount of men in there and they're all about it, bro. No, they're great. Except for the one that keeps fucking sending the dick pics. Who is that guy? Why don't I ever see this? Captain Hook. You didn't see the dick pic? No. I'll show it to you. It's in here. I would like to see. Captain Hook. It's a big old curvy one. Oh.

Those are the ones that freak me out. The curvy dicks. Yeah. What are you rubbing? Like what's it rubbing?

Which fucking intestine is it yanking on? Poking you in the ovary. You can't be, you can't have a dick that big and have it curved too. Like a little one. That's cool. That's like a little toy in there, but a big one, like that's, that's raking out uterus. As the old. Why are we doing this again? Okay. All right. That took a turn. I listened. You want to see this picture? Yes.

airdrop it to me right now oh i have i didn't fucking save it it's in the um you know that there's like there well you have to approve it you have to approve it on patreon for it to be because he tries to send it in the chat yeah he was trying to show we're gonna nickname this guy the cuddler because he just wants everybody to see his wiener and i think he just wants to be cuddled you know is this like modern day like flashing you know like hayley said oh

What the hell? Yeah, modern day flashing. Yeah. A drive-by flashing. Yeah, you poke your eyeball out. That's what this is. All right, hold on. I got to find it. Moderation hub. It's in the moderation hub. Hold on. Got to put my bifocals on. I can't see. Hold on. Your eyes are so pretty. Oh, there we go. Ready? I'm ready. Turn up the brightness. Golly. And I'm the one who wears fucking bifocals? Wow. Wow.

I mean, props to you. I know. I mean, listen, I'm proud for him. But this literally looks like a forearm. It looks like a baby arm. I'd like to see the face. Well, his name is Hugh. Never mind.

All right. So yeah, guys, please stop with the fucking dick pics, man. Yeah. Um, but I wanted, that brings me to another subject I wanted to talk about. I have you guys, a lot of you reaching out to me talking about the sound on the podcast. I have crawled in Mimi's ass numerous times. I have threatened to fire people. Yes. And I have a team that handles the audio. Yes.

We listen to it on our phones also. Every day when it drops, I literally pull it up to make sure everything's okay. Sounds perfect on my end. Yeah. So we're not trying to gaslight here, but...

The problem is you. I'm just kidding. We're thinking that it might be the type of phone that you have. Phones or where you're listening it. Yeah. Or like what streaming platform you're listening to it on. Because I've like pulled up other podcasts too. And they like really hype theirs up. Yeah. Like I know there's one podcast my husband listens to. And he literally has to turn his volume like really down. Well, that's what people say they have to do with us too. Because it's squeaky. I don't hear it. Well, it doesn't listen on the radio. You know, there's a lot of static sometimes on the radio. So maybe...

I don't know. Like we made sure, like I literally came to everyone who has a hand in audio and I was like, everyone has to be at this decimal. I don't care who you are, what you are, where you're putting it. Cause you know, some ads that are like not us, uh,

like spoken ads yeah they can send it at whatever fucking decimal and i was like nope like you know in commercials when you you guys ever been watching tv like a super bowl or something hulu has the loudest commercials and it's to get your attention and i get it it's a shtick but i'm like i don't want us to be like being taking the heat for someone else who's just trying to like

get the attention of customers like that's not the fucking point like you're pissing me off so everyone has like a minimum now that they're allowed to send their audio in at so everyone has to be at a 10 decimal yeah no one can go over no one can go lower the audio in these headphones right now sounds crisp crisp crisp how'd that sound nice crisp so i can show you're awake

So, yeah. Maybe, I don't know, find a different platform or try to, like, I don't know. Like, stream it on something or, like, if it's your phone, it could just be your speaker on your phone. Yeah. You could have some crusties in there. Yeah. Suck the dust balls out, baby. Clean the makeup out of your speaker. Exactly. Like, it's...

I promise you it's all the same and I can't do any more about it. Maybe it's like, please stop getting me in trouble. Every time I get a fucking review or a fucking says something, someone says something. I'm like, motherfuckers. I'm like, what is happening? I will say though, like one comment about it out of the millions of. Yeah, for sure.

I was like, okay. But I still like, I still would like the people to know we listen to you. Like no matter how many people come to me about things, which as far as the sound goes, I probably had maybe five to six people come to me about it, but it's still like makes me go like, Hmm, like what the fuck is going on? Because if you know, I want to always make sure everybody has a pleasant experience with this podcast. So the bunny XO shows coming back, baby. Are you guys excited? Whoa, whoa, whoa.

How'd that sound on you guys' speakers? How was that for the speakers, guys? That hurt. Jason, we might have to turn that all the way down so we don't scare people. If you're listening to this with kids, I'm so sorry. They're awake now.

Yep. We're excited though. Bunny XO show is coming back. We're going to shoot it differently than meet the D forwards. Meet the D forwards is more vlog style. Bunny XO show is more. So we are officially making this.

season two or three. I can't remember two, I think, right? Or three. It might be three. I feel like it could be three because we did like the welcome back, but we did do as many interviews. I feel like I would like to love, love, love to make this a season two premiere because it's our same producer who did it the first time. We love Andy. And I feel like we could officially make this a season two and we wipe the other one as the meet the D Fords and everyone got to see our little growing pains between the two shows, but there will be a separation. Yeah. No, I love it. Um,

I always have fun with the Bunny XO Show because we get to control the narrative. So you guys tell us in the comments of this podcast what you guys would like on Patreon, what you guys would like to see as far as like episodes for Bunny XO Show. Because I think we do what? Eight to ten? We do eight. Eight to ten.

And if you guys remember like the first season, we went to like batting cages and I found out that I am have way too much PTSD for fucking batting cages. Rage rooms. Rage rooms. Oh yeah. No, I'm sorry. Not batting cages. Rage rooms. And what else did we do? Oh, we did do batting cages. Yeah. No, I actually love the batting cages. It was the rage rooms. I didn't like the rage room. Yeah. It was too violent. The shooting the guns. Yeah. Yeah.

What else have we done? Then we shot Andy when he was in the dinosaur costume. Oh, yeah, yeah, when he was a dinosaur. That was my favorite segment ever. Love it. You hit the car on the rock. Oh, you scraped the Mercedes. That I still haven't fixed.

What else have you done to the Mercedes? Then what did you do to it? I forgot. You jumped it. Oh, did you? I know. I remember. I was on the phone with my abusive ex because he had... God, I can't even believe I'm going to tell this story. He feels like I... His perception of our relationship was that he never hurt me. So... They never do. Yeah. This is... We're talking about a guy who slammed my face in a fucking...

into a gear shift, gave me a black eye and immediately looked at me and said, that's not for me.

You know, so he threatened to go on a podcast and like talk shit about me and my husband, which is whatever. Do what you got to do, boo. I'm like, nobody even knows who you are. I've never said your name. He's like, everybody knows who I am. I'm important. I'm the, and I'm just like, yeah, okay, dude. Um, so I was pissed off because I was just like, how are you going to fucking just keep minimizing the trauma you put me through? Like, this is fucked up. This isn't fair. And I'm driving with Mimi and Haley in the car.

And fucking somehow I missed an exit and ended up in the airport fucking pickup line drop off. And I'm going like, I'm pissed. And I'm used to driving my G wagon or the Bronco. And every time I get in this fucking Benz, it's like just so low to the ground. And I'm going probably like 55 to 65 miles per hour thinking it's still the freeway, probably 65. And we hit...

This fucking speed bump so hard that the car fucking flew and we all just sat there in silence. Turn the radio down. We were airborne for a good, I don't even know. All four tires off. All four tires off. And we hit that fucking ground, dude.

so fucking hard and i was just like i am i can't drive this car anymore man like this car is just not your rights have been revoked yeah literally i'm not a car girl i can't i don't know how i had the camaro for so long yeah which i still have the camaro i cannot fucking get rid of it does somebody want it just keep coming back this is car i have given it to two people and they won't take it like legit sign the title over to them and they just don't take the fucking car i'm like

Jason wants that car now. And I was like, give it to him. Give it to him. I don't care. We'll figure it out. We'll figure out something new. Like,

I'm fucking tired of it. We're going to sell the engine out of it right now, I think, is what we're doing. Just part it out. That's what you need to do. Yeah. This is like... Last time I did drive it, because remember when one of my cars broke down? Yeah. You got up to 40 and the whole thing went... So I did 35 the whole time. Listen, that car has been around. That car was with me before I got with Jay. Yes. It's literally like my abusive ex. She brought it here from... My dad had one. The new Camaro? Midlife Crisis Camaro. Oh. Aw.

Aw. We love fucking. Midlife tattoos, midlife chimeros. I love him. Yeah. We love him. All shaken bacon. We love Haley's dad. So yeah, that's what happened with that. But dude, we've had so much more shit happen since then. Like fuck. It's been, it's been a, you guys, it's only April. Yeah. And I feel like we've lived a fucking lifetime. Yeah. This year's been just the past three and a half months. This year's been insane. Actually. We almost fucking died in a plane. Oh.

I did not think it was going to make headline news. International news. Crazy, dude. Being an adult has its high points. Like you can eat ice cream for dinner anytime. Or if you want to stay up all night, you can. But it's not always fun. You also have to do your taxes and figure out what's for dinner every freaking night.

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it was so funny. I was on the canceled podcast with Jay, with Tana and Brooke. And it was the sweetest thing because I'm annoyed like every, and I love, don't get me wrong. I love the press. Thank you guys for giving us the time of day and doing what you guys do. But it like gets to a point where it's like, I can't post anything without it becoming a headline. And Brooke was like goals. And I was like, no baby. I wanted to tell her right then. Like,

no fucking way. Like it's not goals. Like it's really cool at first because you're like, Oh my God, you know? And then after a year of it, you're just like, damn it, dude. Like what can I post without it becoming a fucking headline? Yeah.

And, um, and I, now I'm learning more and more why people who are in the limelight don't fucking post and you don't know anything about their personal life because it's really crazy how much the general public just devours it. Yeah. It's wild. So I did not expect that to go fucking nationally viral. Even my husband was like,

I'm getting interviewed and I'm being asked about the airplane and I'm like, Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Now my new thing is with the J and I, he'll be like, let me know what you did before I hear about it in the news. Cause I beefed with some fucking Ewok on fucking, and I didn't even beef with her dude. We'll talk about the Ewok in a minute, but yeah. So he was like, let me know what you did before it fucking becomes headline news. And I'm telling you today, I'm just going to lay it all out there. I'm not going to fucking, I'm not, this is no holds bar. Like I've,

Been very politically correct for a long time. Mimi's face right now. She's so stressed out. But I got some shit to say. And I'm just tired of certain things. And I think it's okay for me to vent. Yeah, it's your purpose. I rarely ever do this. So, yeah. But anyways, we almost died in this fucking airplane. Literally, we're on this plane. And I already had a bad feeling about it. I just...

When Jay told us we were leaving at seven o'clock the next night, I immediately told Mimi, get us other flights because I don't for some reason, just something gave me anxiety. And I was just like, oh, I don't know. Like that just I don't normally get anxiety like that about flying. But I was just like, I don't know. It's too late. It was what was the excuse I was using. But I just had like butterflies in my stomach.

So me and me found us flights and stuff like that. But then I was just like, when I woke up in the morning, I was like, I'm tired. It's just, I hate going through the airport process. Checking bags in. And the only flights out of there were LAX through one airline at a very specific time. It was so difficult. Like damned if you do, damned if you don't. Right.

So I was just like, fuck it. We'll just fly with them. And when we were driving there, we pulled up and Haley was like, oh, look, it's a rainbow. It's beautiful. And I was like, yeah, that's a good sign that nothing's going to be wrong with this airplane. And I never say shit like that because I'm... Yeah, because I literally, I never say shit like that because I am such a words are spells kind of person. But I just...

I'm not a fucking weird anxiety bitch

We get on this plane and the feng shui of the plane is already off. Jay said at the minute he stepped on that plane. Yeah. My husband walked in the plane and he was like, wait, what? My seat is the seat that he normally always sits in was on the opposite side and he just felt weird. And then the staff was not that great. They were not terrible snacks. Yeah.

Besides the snacks, they just weren't warm and welcoming. And before you're about to have your life in two people's hands, you would like them to be fucking warm and welcoming. And they just weren't. And I just put my headphones on and kind of like laid down in my seat. We take off. And when we take off, they keep like, if you've ever been on a jet, you can feel when they break. And we're like elevating, elevating. And then all of a sudden we just break.

And then it's like, it was so weird because it got like eerily quiet and it was just like, we were all taking pictures of the sunset too. Yeah. Everybody was taking pictures of the sunset. And then I have my headphones on and I see Boston, our, um, our security run up to the pilot and,

And when he runs up to the pilot, I can see him talking to him. And then he comes back and he looks like he's seen a ghost almost like he looked really flustered. And so I moved my headphone thing to the side to hear what he was saying. I said, what's going on? And all I hear Boston say is something's wrong with the plane. We have to emergency land. She just goes, well, Tom, sooner than later. And I'm just like, bro, like, first of all,

Tell us to put our seatbelts on. They didn't make any. They didn't even. They made no announcement. They just fucking told our security who is the worst human being to fucking give any sort of news like that to. And if I can, let us just sit there. Oops, sorry. Hold on. Oh, let us just sit there and fucking silence.

And stare at each other. Yeah. So for like 20 minutes, we're just in this fucking airplane. Not one person saying a word. We're just all like looking out the window. Texting my family goodbye and that I love them. I literally was texting Kayla and I was like, oh my God, they have to emergency land this plane. People think that we're being dramatic, but it was like really scary. Let me just tell you guys, you're going to be able to see all this go down on the Bunny XO show. Yeah. We videoed all of it. Yeah. Yeah. Andy was there. He got all of it. So...

um yeah come to find out the computer malfunctioned and when a computer malfunctions on a plane the screen that they have to be able to see everything around them other planes other planes fucking ufos anything fucking is completely black so he was blindly driving the plane yeah he manually ended up landing this plane and like here's another thing when he landed us you guys

i've never come to that heart of a stop in my life yeah because i was uh sitting in a backwards seat yeah so my whole body was being pushed forward and i'm like holding on to the table in front of me because i'm like dude it's not stopping yeah it took so long for him do you there was sounds too when we were up there there was like this beeping sound that kept coming on too i kept hearing it but i was like it's fine yeah yeah

It was crazy. And the only reason Boston knew to go up there is because we were all taking pictures of the sunset. And then all of a sudden the sunset was on the opposite side of us. Yeah. And he was like, the plane was circling. Yeah. He was like, dude, we just turned around. And so they had already turned around and we're heading back without telling us. Yeah. I'm like, you couldn't have fucking come over a speaker and just been like, yo guys. Yeah. Everyone buckle up. Yeah. Something like a, just a warning, you know? Yeah. Would have been great.

But I don't know. Everything worked out and we ended up having to fucking... It was crazy because I got offered to do the CMT backstage correspondent gig a few weeks ago. So we knew that we were heading there to get there the night before so that we could be there on time. And then Jay also had rehearsal the same time that I had to be on set. So we ended up having to stay another fucking night in LA and...

That pushed us to being late to my first fucking gig, which I was so nervous about. But I was so thankful because it turned out to be awesome. They were amazing. The women that we worked with were so cool. I love the women team that we had. Oh, my God. They're just so awesome. And CMT has been so welcoming and out of all of the fucking networks.

CMT just absolutely loves our family. It's a warm hug. I love it. They are just the sweetest fucking humans. They're the most nonjudgmental humans. And they like gave us a chance, dude. And it's just like, I still can't believe it. Like, it's just mind blowing. And the whole experience was so cool. Getting to interview Keith Urban. Like, come on, dude. Right. Keith fucking Urban. He told me he liked my hair. He's hot.

I never understood the appeal of Keith Urban. I'm sorry. I just cut you off. Go ahead. Go ahead. It's all right. Let's talk about you guys. Let's talk about your hair. Go ahead. I said it already. My conversation was done. Sorry. I've never understood the appeal of Keith Urban until I saw him on stage. And I was like, God, God.

Got it. I was like, he was dressed in all black, had his little sneakers on. Someone else said that they're like, I watched him play the guitar. She was like, Oh, that was it for me. Yeah. We all went out there and watched it. And we're like our girl from MTV. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Jamie. Yeah. She was fucking, she told us that. And I was like, I don't know, seen Keith a few times and I just never saw the appeal. And then I saw him on stage and I said, I was like, yep, you're right. He's fucking got that rockstar thing with him. Yeah. I'm super sweet guy though. Um,

Kelsey Ballerini. I am now known as Bunny Ballerini. We're more best friends and I love her. No, she's so sweet and that she's so professional. Yeah. She knows how to work a camera. She knows how to dodge questions. She's like so PR trained. It's amazing. But such a sweet, fun loving soul. Mm hmm.

You know, like she really is just a doll. Can we talk about the fact that you threw in? You said bring it on home. Bring it on home, John B. I don't even know what that means. I've just heard so many people say it. You gotta watch Outer Banks. Yeah. And so then like we dared her to say it during the interviews. She was like, okay. Yeah. And she

She throws something. She's like, Oh, bring it on home. John B. Well, cause she was talking about her boyfriend. She's good, bro. I was like, all right, well, here it is. I also told her that they cut this out, but I had asked her, she had told me that there's tequila in her dressing room. I don't think she knows that I'm sober. Um, but I, I was like, you know, does tequila make your clothes fall off? And that was the first time I saw her get a little flustered. And she was like, but she dodged it and answered it. Perfect. And then I was like,

I don't know. I just have word vomit sometimes. And I was just like, well, if you ever want to see a naked jelly roll, tequila makes his clothes fall off. Because my husband had just streaked the night before or did something, you know, but she didn't know that. So she's probably thinking I'm offering my husband up on a platter. And I'm just like, no, really? My husband just gets naked every time he fucking drinks. He was in a fountain outside of the forest. He was on a fountain outside the night before. For the iHeart Awards. Yeah. So...

So sweet. And then who else? Oh, Megan Maroney, my daughter. That's my daughter. I love Meg. She is so fucking... Dude.

she's so pretty she's so pretty and she's just so cool she's like so down to earth versatile too because i feel like her little like look while you're interviewing her versus her stage we're just like i love that she can embrace like each look and just like switch it up she's like a little chameleon yeah no and she's a doll baby like she doesn't take anybody's shit and that's one thing i love about her and i don't think people realize that about her like she really is like

Runs her own ship. She's a boss. She's a little boss baby. But I mean, she's my daughter. So, of course, she's going to be a boss. And she's just cool, man. And can we talk about the phone call? Can we talk? Are we allowed to? Oh.

they cut this out of our interview but we called another country singer and it was the funniest thing he's like is she showing her tits like it was so funny dude like I we thought we were prank calling him yeah yeah we thought we were prank calling him and it just to say that she got arrested yeah and I was like I'm the arresting officer and he's like oh that's hot and I'm

like or something like that or that sounds like a good time in front of everyone yeah this is in front of like all of this and I was like all right we're gonna let you go before you incriminate yourself all right goodbye hang up the phone right now hang it up right now but no that was so fun but yeah and then I got to interview daddy we got to watch his uh

his performance and I had a megaphone where I got to go around and yell at everybody but you know what is really cool all the workers were such good sports yes I got to run around and hug all of them and like take pictures and like it was so fun like I had a blast and I really hope that maybe next year I can come back and I don't know host the show or something no I'm just kidding but I would love to do the backstage thing again I think that's so much fun and CMT if you're listening I'll do it for free no I'm just kidding

dude what's up with Billy Bob Thornton though King literally right like I love that he liked your hair again okay off he did like my hair he approached me thank you I know I watched it uh yeah but him and I exactly who you were him and I literally turned and locked and it was like for a moment I forgot I was married

And I was like sashayed my way over to him, like just a fucking little dork. And I was just like, such a pleasure to meet you. Oh my God, Icon. Like I was like, this is amazing because he's literally the only person I wanted to meet the entire time I was there. I know you went through all the chairs and then you're like, Billy Bob Thornton. Yeah, I was so excited. Like I love all the country music singers too, but I've met all of them, you know. But to see like Jane Seymour and Billy Bob Thornton, they're like, they're fucking icons, dude. Crazy lineup they had of like...

Jane Seymour I'm sorry should I just give it a go you don't know who fucking Jane Seymour is Dr. Quinn medicine woman give it a go give it a go she's been around for a long fucking time she's done so much more than Dr. Quinn medicine woman but that's normally what such an iconic people know her from and I actually didn't get a chance to meet her she was in front of me but I just didn't want to bother her you know and be like Jane huge fan but yeah yeah and she's gorgeous

Bro, how old is she? She has to be in her 70s. She is 73. Yeah. Really? She looks 50. Yes. Like she looks so good. Would never guess how old she was. Would have never guessed that, dude. I hope that's me when I'm fucking 70. I want people to be like, oh my God, she looks 45. I don't know. Okay. Well, you need to catch up. You need to catch up on some movies from the 80s and 90s.

yeah i wasn't alive i always forget that yeah so yeah meeting fucking uh um billy bob was the highlight of my life yeah for sure i thought about him for days afterwards i love him i love him he's a fucking badass sweet he was so sweet just i feel like you know you do meet a lot of people and some people are like

on their go and they're doing all this kind of stuff. And like the fact that he like takes time to like, he speaks to you, you know, like you meet so many people and you feel like as if they're just speaking. Yeah. And, but like he really spoke to you. Yeah, absolutely. He's a sweetie pie. But yeah. So being the backstage, uh,

Correspondent was awesome. And then I got to Kojo too. Oh, I did. How could I forget Cody and his wife? I fucking love them so much. Kojo. He was such a good sport. Good one. He's hilarious. He's funny. So funny, dude. Him and Brandy are just salt of the earth humans. Literally. And just so cool. And I was so happy that I got to actually see them not like doing something for the first time. Cause every time I see Brandy,

I have such bad anxiety that when I'm around, um, when I'm at award shows, I kind of black out. If that makes sense. You've got like a screen up. Right. It's just, yeah. There's a lot going on. Yeah. And there's a lot that goes on. And I accidentally did it to Flava Flav's wife too. And she got her feelings hurt and I had to grab her cause I heard her say, she didn't even say hi to me. And I had to grab her and I was like, Hey,

At these award shows, I am riddled with fucking anxiety. So please just get in my face and be like, hey, bitch. You're also blind as fuck. Yeah. People don't realize. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You don't have your glasses on. Yeah. You don't know who that is standing fucking 10 feet away. Yeah. So...

If I ever see any of you guys out and you guys think I'm giving you rest in bitch face, I'm not. I can't see you. Like literally if I, but I'm hoping to fix that problem because I wore contacts the other day and it was a game changer. So I need to go get my prescriptions filled. But yeah. So in the comments of, um,

The fucking, you know, the maybe in the CMT correspondent, I got so much love and it was so cool. But of course, there's those few people that are like for somebody who doesn't like attention or swear she has anxiety. She loves the attention. And it's like, no, I love building my career.

There's a huge fucking... I'm not going... I'm not going to be one of these people, and I've said this a million times, who lets their fucking anxiety control them. And for one, my mom did that. And look where it got her. She died at 62, a fucking agoraphobic, and had a vast amount of health problems. You can't say, though, that like...

How many other people's celebrities have anxiety? Yeah. Like there's, you could list off most of them. Most of them. Yeah. I was going to say most of them have anxiety. Yeah. That's why we mask. Yeah. Anytime I see like someone's opinion of a celebrity or whatever, if they had one encounter, I don't judge them based off that one encounter because they could have been having a bad day. They could have had anxiety. They could have been having a panic attack.

And then that's what people base him off of. And I feel like that's, I feel bad. Cause I feel like I was prejudgmental like that until we got into the industry. And I was like, man, those people have bad days too. Yeah. You know, like it just, it fucking happens, bro. Yeah, it does for sure. And I don't think a lot of people realize how much we mask at award shows. I have literally had to go in a bathroom and fucking do breathing exercises at award shows. I've had to leave. Yeah.

I had to remember I had to leave the ACMs last year because it was so hot. It was triggering me and I, my blood pressure was skyrocketing. My heart was wonky. I was spilled a drink on you. Someone's Bailey Zimmerman spilled a fucking drink on me. And that fucking, uh, triggered my, um, OCD, um,

And, you know, like there's a lot that goes on that you guys don't see just because I'm smiling on a camera and I'm just trying to fucking be the best version I can be. Just because I'm, you

you know, trying to better my life doesn't mean that I don't have anxiety, but I am trying to be a better example for people who do suffer. Yeah. If anything, you're a testimony trying to be. Yes, for sure. I mean, you are though you've defeated odds of like people saying you couldn't go out and do those things. And you're like, fucking hold my beer years ago. I would have never been able to do that. No, I almost turned down the CMT thing because I was riddled with anxiety. I was like, what if I fail? What if I don't do good? Um,

just having to, you know, meet new people, having to interact with and do interviews on the fly with people was extremely hard for me because even though I do my podcast, it's definitely planned out. I know what I'm going to talk to them about. I know the talking points, like these people, I didn't know any talking point. Like I literally just had to do it on the fly, which helped me because I realized that I can handle stuff like that. And I just, and I want to learn more and I want to grow, you know? Um,

So, yeah, when I saw comments like that, I was just like, I need to address this on the podcast because it's just to the point where people just say whatever the fuck they want. Yeah. And it's just fucking wild to me, man. Bandwagoners. Bandwagon haters. Country music fucking fans are insane. Some of them. Most of them are so loving and accepting, but there's that one batch of fucking hillbilly hobos. He's not country.

god it's crazy but daddy swept the cmt awards which was amazing two years in a row two years in a row bro man that's so cool crazy and then fucking did the iheart music awards which i loved the iheart of music awards they've got their shit together yeah that was a vibe they know what they're fucking doing yes yeah i mean the carpet so short quick you're in you're out let's maybe put some covering

Yeah. Not direct sunlight. Yeah. It was rough. It was scorching. Yeah. A little tent or something would be nice. Yeah. Especially that LA sun. Yeah. You were in, you were out, you sat down.

The award show was only two hours. Yeah. And it was entertaining and fast. Like they kept it going. Dude, Beyonce was there. Crazy fucking Beyonce, man. And she has, you know, people give her so much shit online, dude. And they say like, she's like this evil person and she's this and she's that. But when you're in her energy, she really has just a very soft, sweet energy. Very soft. She's not aggressive. She's very just like almost shy. Yeah.

You know, like she doesn't, I don't think she even realizes, you know, who she is. Do you think Beyonce knows she's Beyonce? Yes. He said yes. Yeah. I don't know. I feel like Jay carries the, the, um, I think they're like yin and yang, you know, like he's the outrageous Sagittarius and then she's like the shy, quiet Virgo. Is she a Virgo? She's a Virgo. I love SZA.

She was so sweet. So fucking sweet. And so hot. Oh my God. First of all, the shitter on that critter. God. Fucking amazing. She's beautiful. Her face, gorgeous. Just... She is everything that like...

She just embraces so much feminine goddess energy. Like, it just oozes out of her and she doesn't even fucking try. She just walks. And it's just like, okay. Like, when you see SZA walk, you understand why her music is so sexual and so sensual. Because that's just who she is. That's who she embodies. She is a fucking...

Just cute little nugget. I love her. So sweet. She got a lot of awards that day too. She did. She did get a lot of awards. Yeah. Yeah. I'm proud of her. And you met Green Day. Oh God. I love Green Day. Green Day loves you. I asked them to come on the podcast. Listen, I don't have a lot of starstruck moments. Billy Bob was one of them. The next one before that was Green Day knowing, knowing who I was. They're like, Oh yeah, we've seen you online. I'm like, Oh,

Me. A little old me. I was like, oh my God. Like, it's just crazy, you know? So I asked them to come on the podcast. So I'm going to keep hounding Billy Joe. Yeah. Yeah. I love that they knew who you were. Yeah. Their guitar player is awesome too. He always, every time he sees us, he's like, hey guys, what's up? Just always so sweet. Me and you were like fucking getting down.

Our little teenage hearts during their performance. She's behind us like recording. We're just fucking going to camp, bro. Our little emo girl fucking hearts. We're just so excited. I mean, that's Green Day Dookie.

god when i ran away from home fucking i had that fucking soundtrack our album on fucking repeat dude i was like the soundtrack to my life i love how our childhoods are like coming back right now like yeah just did bam yeah and then we had green day and i'm like what is happening mob wives mob wife billy bob though like he he's such an icon through my life dude he was with angelina fucking jolie they were the ones who originally wore the blood smell her on him i tried i

I tried. It was a deep whiff. I whiffed his soul whenever we hugged. But yeah, good old fucking Billy Bob.

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Sign up today. So there was a clip that was posted of Lainey and I, and this kind of ties into this little tangent I'm going to go on right now. With social media is an amazing outlet to have. But at the same time, there are so many people who just want to tear apart happy things and

And a clip of Lainey Wilson and I were posted and somebody was like, Oh my God, did bunny say, well, I don't love you is a clip of Lainey Wilson hugging me and me thanking her for the flowers, telling her that she's a sweetheart. But, um, I forgot who posted it. I think CMT didn't catch that part, but they caught the tail end and Lainey and I were taking a picture together and she said, I love you. And I said, I love you. I said, I love you so much or something like that. Or, you know, I love you or something like that. And people were like,

Bunny said that Bunny's jealous Bunny said that she doesn't love her First of all Who the fuck is gonna look at Lainey Wilson When Lainey Wilson says I love you And look at her and be like I don't love you People are weird Like people want to hate on me So bad That they make up shit People who leave comments like that

Kill butterflies. No. Kill butterflies. Literally. Yeah. You butterfly killer. That's literally what I think. I'm like, you see something so precious and beautiful. Yeah. And you stomp on it. Yeah. No, it's crazy. So I just had to address that because I fucking love Lainey. Lainey is my sister. We fucking have... When they came out with that article and it hit the news and it was like, Bunny XO is jealous of Lainey Wilson and Jelly Roll's relationship. And she makes a comment and was like...

It's actually me who wants her. Yeah. Like there was no better way to shut down a media source than to be like, no bitch. It's me. Literally fucking Lainey is my baby and I just love her. But you know, happy hoes ain't hating and hating hoes ain't happy. You know what I'm saying? And be sure.

We should make that some merch, dude. It's a quote that I've fucking seen all over the Internet. But it's so real because, you know, I just was left to my own devices these past few days off. It was rough. I ended up in somebody's live because I don't have a problem with TikTok gossip channels. There's a difference between putting up an article about somebody and discussing the article and the situation at hand differently.

and then adding in your own personal feelings and opinions to manipulate the masses.

That is completely different. You know, so there are a lot of these gossip channels will be like, oh, you know, Bunny did this and she's done this to me. And like, that's personal. That's not you're not you're swaying from the entire subject here. Now you're making it personal. And that's what I have a problem with is don't fucking lie to get views and to and to get monetary gain off of my name that's trademarked or I will lose.

come after you and i have that right because i have worked my fucking ass off to fucking make a name for myself and i'll be damned if i'm gonna let some little fucking tiktok quote unquote journalist talk shit about my family and bully my husband and like you know there's just so much shit that goes into it so anyways i posted this fucking uh

I posted this fucking clip about OJ Simpson, which it's true. And, you know, it's a part of my past. I've never been ashamed of my past. And this other lady who has, um, we'll call her Ewok, this other Ewok that has a fucking tick tock journalist channel doesn't have a lot of fucking followers, um,

duetted it and I thought it was cute. You know, I thought it got like 2.4 million views and I thought it was a cute post, but she kept saying, is it Robert Kardashian? She put it across the front of the video where I had clearly stated in the comments and you know, if she's a TikTok journalist, she went through those comments, but she saw an opportunity to get views. Cool, baby. Do you do not care? I put myself out there. I, I,

I knew that was going to go viral. I didn't care. Um,

So in the comments, I just replied to her. I said, it's not Robert Kardashian. I said it in my comments 20 times. And I said it just like that. Like I've said to other people who have posted it. And then she had picked a fucking picture of me that was, I didn't like that. I thought was hideous, but I was like, damn sis, thanks for posted. I could, you have picked a better pick or LMAO or like laughing, you know, completely being a smart. Don't choose the worst photo you can find of me. Literally completely being a fucking smart ass being facetious. And that's anybody that knows me.

knows that that's how I am, right? Well, apparently my crazed following, I love you guys, but you guys got, please, for the love of God, I love you guys. Do not bully people. Do not threaten their lives. Do not attack them. You can defend me without

making somebody feel like their life is being threatened. And I guess this lady was getting a bunch of it. And I completely understand that. But instead of coming to me and saying, Hey, DM me, you know, you want to talk about me fucking DM me. I don't understand why motherfuckers don't know how to pull up.

That is what I don't understand about any of this online world because I'm different. Like if I have a problem with somebody, I'm going to go directly to them. When Holly had an issue with the Shanna Mochler podcast, I went directly to her as soon as I got home and fucking figured out that she was upset about the podcast, which Holly and I have talked and she heard my point of view and I heard her point of view and we came to an agreement and I absolutely fucking love Holly and I adore her because that's what women do. You fucking talk.

Talk about shit and you don't have to talk about it online You good? I just want to make sure she checks periodically So that's what real people do You don't have to talk about shit online This online world like does anything for clout And I don't understand that because I will shut shit down in a fucking heartbeat And this lady made like two more videos And she's like

You know trying to shame sex workers, which for one come on, I don't care, you know, don't shame my girls I don't care if you want to come to me, but don't Try to shame sex workers Don't fucking try to do low blows because that shit is where it gets again personal and it's like you're you're not sticking to the facts Now you're letting your emotions override your business and that's not good, honey, you know, so

She's in the she's like, maybe Bunny isn't this icon idol that you think she is. She's threatening my life. No, I didn't even know this was going on. I had no I was in my own little bubble fucking in my backyard meditating, just having a blast on my days off and fucking had no idea this was going on. I climb into bed. I have no fucking pants on, just a fucking T-shirt.

And this lady, I have 500 people messaging me. This lady's talking shit about you. And I'm just like, Oh God, let me go fucking see what I did now. You know?

And I'm sitting in her live and I'm just watching this lady for an hour, pretty much call me a predator, saying that I financed my daughter's truck, which one, I pay cash for everything. Two, not that you guys need to know that. Two, I have outright bought strangers vehicles. Do you think I'm gonna just finance our daughter's car?

I mean, I'm not just talking about just you, but just people I haven't even met on fucking TikTok. I bought them cars. The lady who runs our Facebook group, I fucking bought her a vehicle. You know, like I could go down the list of all the good shit I do for people, but I don't do it for clout and I don't fucking record it and I don't post it. Just outright lying. And so after an hour of this, I popped up in her live and I said, you're a liar.

Let me on your life right now. And that lady shut the fuck up. Her energy went from fucking talking mad shit to fucking stuttering. And I'm standing on business when I say that. This is how everybody on the fucking internet is. You guys are talking shit, but are in your DMs. Yeah. A couple of weeks before. Literally. We love you so much. Literally. There's a fucking lady who's talking about my energy is bad and blah, blah, blah. Because I fucking don't.

obviously because I didn't respond to her or something. I have no idea, but telling, saying that I had a baby or Jay had a baby on me when he cheated on me. Like this girl has our entire fucking timeline fucked up, but I don't even care. She's got like fucking, I did some research on her and she's got a lot of hurt in her, in her life. And I don't,

you know, I've realized a lot of these people that are online talking shit about people have so much shit going on in their own bodies that it just makes them feel better when they tear somebody else down. It's really sad. No, it's really sad. And that, that girl who is talking about how my energy is so bad and everything was literally just in my DM talking about, and these are two separate people, um, talking about how me and Jay are a sacred couple and we have to protect ourselves and we're light. And like,

You know, but she made three videos talking shit about me. And then she made one where she's talking about don't don't call. Don't talk shit about Benny being a sex worker. I was a sex worker. It's like, well, what do you think people are going to attack me for? That's the only thing that they can say. They can say my vibe is off. They can say I'm a bad human, even though they've never fucking shook my hand or been in my energy. And they can say that I promote being a sex worker, which I've never promoted being a sex worker. You've talked about your truth. So back to the Ewok fucking I'm in her live and.

You can see it on TikTok. Feel free to go look. I'm just like, bro, like what is going on? Like, why are you always talking about me? And she's like, I'm not always talking about you. And I'm like, I just sat here for an hour and watched you fucking talk about me. And really what it boiled down to and why this woman is so fucking mad at me is because she left a comment and I didn't see it because I get tagged.

And fucking five million. You don't even see mine sometimes. You don't see mine. Literally. And I told her that. I said, all you had to do was slide my DM. I said, what could I? And she said, I didn't like your tone on the comment that you left me. You can't hear a tone. The tone that she repeated in her own head. Right. That she read to herself. She said, you're talking down to me. Can you talk to me like you're my...

like I'm your equal. I said, honey, I'm in your life. I'm treating you like an equal. I'm like, what are you talking about? And then I realized that this woman just literally wanted to play victim mentality. And I told her, I said, well,

What this boils down to is you're mad that my fans are attacking you and defending me because you're talking shit about me. I said, if you're going to do this pop culture thing, you have to make sure that you I don't know my exact words. I don't want to misquote myself, but it's online. I said, you have to take what people say with a grain of salt. I was like, because if not, you're not going to get very far.

We had a fucking conversation. She tried to get me on the phone. I was like, absolutely fucking not. I'm not doing that. I could tell just from her victim mentality that we weren't going to get anywhere. I get off the live.

This girl continues to fucking stay on live and fucking says I threatened her life. She said, did you hear that? Bunny said, I'm going to be canceled. The internet can say whatever the fuck they want about you. And they say, well, you're a celebrity. You're supposed to be able to handle it. No, the fuck we're not. No, the fuck we're not. Do you know how many people you guys being fucking humans? Do you know how many people kill themselves from being bullied a year? Literally.

I'm sorry. I'm going to stand up for all the fucking underdogs. You're never going to bully me. You're never going to lie about me or my family. And I will fight till the end. That's who I am. I am all for justice. I'm all for standing up for what's right. And I'm never going to let people just fucking keep shitting on people. It's not okay. And you guys that are online trolls need to fucking...

Take a look in your own lives. Why are you so fucking sad? And why are you so fucking miserable that all you want to do is spew toxicity on a fucking keyboard? It's the saddest existence ever. It honestly, like when you think about it,

These people truly, like, this is their whole lives. It's their whole life. They get a rush. Yes. And we talked about that this morning. Yeah. We were kind of discussing this situation. I told her, I was like, because she got that...

bit of attention she's gonna live off of this for so long oh yeah no she's gonna make it her whole personality yeah oh she it's been three days and she's still going now her thing is is bunny was only nice to me because she was being screen recorded oh my god like no i am who i i love when people are like bunny is a bad human just wait and you'll see i've been on the internet 15 fucking years when are they gonna see

I'm waiting. Yeah. Like, what you see is what you get with me. I don't fucking pretend to be something I'm not. And I fucking...

all you got to do is just leave me and my family the fuck alone and you won't get called out or you won't get fucking your videos taken down you are like the realest person on the internet sometimes a little too real you will literally say mimi gets mad at me i'm like really bad but like how do they expect it to be any different in like any aspect yeah if you're willing to put that on the internet

What do you think is happening behind closed doors? Yeah. You literally have put it out there since day one. No, it's crazy. And now another thing that I'm catching heat for is because I'm proud of fucking all I've accomplished with Bailey. Bro, that to me is the wildest shit ever. It blows my mind how people are like,

can one minute be like, you know, oh my God, you're a great mom, which I don't live for those comments. Cause that's not, that doesn't do anything for me watching how much Bailey has flourished does. But now people are saying I'm exploiting Bailey or, and first of all, I don't make money off my daughter. I'm not exploiting her, you know, to I, this little girl and I have been through fucking hell, hell together. Um,

People say that you're exploiting her when 90% of the internet thinks me or Haley is Bailey. Yeah. It's crazy. What the fuck? They don't even know who your daughter is. I'm like, you literally don't show her often enough that people are stunned when she comes on camera because they're like, damn, she's grown up because she's not in every video. Yeah.

She makes little appearances. Literally. She'll do like comedic skits with me here and there. That's it. And then they're like, all she does is bash the baby mama. Actually, no, we stayed quiet for almost a fucking decade. And after what Bailey's mom did to her last year,

fuck her. She deserves for everybody to know what a piece of shit human she is. And I fucking stand on that dude. Any mother that shoves drugs down their child's throat, hoping that they end up just like them and is it, and is jealous of their own daughter does not deserve to be fucking protected ever. I don't care who you are. And if you think so, then you don't need to need to fucking be following me. Mm.

If you think so, you were just as bad. My mom lost me because she was a fucking drug addict and she never deserved the forgiveness that she got. But I gave it to her, you know, and hopefully somewhere down the line, Bailey will be able to forgive her mom. And I hope and pray that one day Bailey's mother will fucking become a better human just for Bailey, not for anybody else, but just for fucking Bailey, because Bailey deserves that.

But as of right now, Bailey wants nothing to do with her mother. And if anybody listened to that fucking podcast with Bailey, Bailey is standing in her convictions, man. Yeah. And I know you guys are like, oh, she's only 16. You know, she doesn't know what...

Bailey knows what the fuck she wants and we're never going to force her to ever have to have a relationship with somebody who abused her. You also, behind closed doors, asked Bailey, and I can contest to this so many times, are you sure you want to talk about this? Yeah. You never once were like, you're going to sit on my podcast. No, she begged. Like how many times she would come up to me like...

So when can I have an episode? Because she wanted her story because one, she knew it was going to help other people who are in similar situations. And two, she deserves to tell her truth. Absolutely. And I think people mistake us being open and honest about our shit because we want to help other people as exploiting ourselves. And it's like,

I've exploited the fuck out of myself then because everybody knows I'm a hooker and it drives me crazy because everybody will try to use my past against me. But you motherfuckers would have never have known my past had I not fucking told you. Yeah. No one's come up with any receipts of your past. All they go off of is what you've literally said. Yeah. And then there's some people who are like, I don't really believe her about her past. I'm like, if I was going to choose, I would have said I was a doctor.

If I you know I would have said I was a fucking doctor Not a fucking hooker dude In Vegas When people say you lie about your age And you're like Why the fuck would I choose to be in my 40s I'm like why yeah I'll be eternally 37 You know like Come on dude But yeah

So, and I know that we have spent a big chunk of time on this, but I really think it's important to clear the air and just talk about things because I don't talk about a lot of shit on TikTok because one, I know it'll go viral. Two, I don't want all the outside opinions because I know I stand in my convictions. I know who the fuck I am. And I think what makes people mad is that they can't waver me or shake me because I've been being called a fucking bitch.

since I was fucking 18 years old, you know, like that, it doesn't, it doesn't hurt me, you know? And I think people try to come up with new shit to try to hurt people. But what I do want to focus on is there are a lot of people who are not as strong as me that are on the internet and they don't deserve to fucking be bullied. Even if you guys are defending me, don't bully people because you never know where they are mentally. Yes, absolutely. That just happened to me with my car.

What happened? When I posted my video and it got a million views and someone literally rolled up to GMC and was threatening the employees. Don't do that. Please don't. I was just frustrated at the moment and I told my truth and it was saying...

bro, I appreciate whoever rolled up and threatened employees. Yeah. Like you're a motherfucking G, but don't do that. Please don't. Yeah. Like we love you. I'll call you when I really need you. I will pull up too, but let's talk about it first. You don't got to be alone next time. That's cool. Maybe message us and hey, and tell us what you think. She said, it's cool, but stop.

Yeah, yeah. No, we thought it was great. Yeah. But don't fucking do it. Give me a heads up so I don't get a call from the owner of GMC who was like, can you not have your fans coming in and threatening my employees where we have to call the cops? And I'm like, oh, sorry. They were like, they also leaked the co-owner's home address and he's been getting death threats. Oh, when you dox people, everything's fine. But when my fucking following doxes people, I'm fucking Satan. Yeah, I was like,

We cannot control what these people do. All we can do is ask them to not do that. And I've never once doxxed anybody. I've never condoned doxxing. The whole thing that happened with that dude who wrote a song about my husband. If that dude would have came to me and been like, hey, your fans are doing this. And all I did was leave a comment. I never fucking even said anything. All I did, this man made a song. Apparently this is what he does for a living and I'm fucking whatever about it. Do you? Do you?

But it was at the expense of my husband's weight. My husband doesn't show it to you guys, but I'm going to have a very vulnerable moment here. It hurts him. It does. That's why he's been off the internet for like fucking what? Three months now. Beginning of the year. He always switches. He got, my husband got off the internet because he is so tired of being bullied about his fucking weight. And like, that makes me want to cry because he is the sweetest angel baby and

And so when this dude came out with this song, it was just ill timing. And I left a comment and I said, this is, um, I forgot what I said. This is vile. That's all I said. This is vile. That's it. Didn't fucking report his video. Didn't fucking send people his way. Did nothing. But what do people on the internet do? They do everything for views.

So instead of him coming to me and my husband, cause he said he was a fan. Instead of him coming to be in my husband and letting us fucking say, Hey man, don't fucking do this. We love this guy. I just thought the song was vile. This motherfucker makes a song about me being a hooker, which it was a great song. I loved it. I actually put it. It's on my playlist. Yeah, it's cool. But stop. No, but it was a great song. The dude's fucking talented, but he fucking does the song. But before he does the song,

He does this whole fucking intro where I told my following to dox him and he was getting death threats. I didn't know anything about it. Exactly. You know, and as soon as I heard about it.

I was like, what the fuck is going on? That's the worst way to hear about it. Literally. Just give like the GM guy calls me adult conversation. I immediately removed the video. Absolutely. You would have removed your comma or whatever, but it's, or I would have posted, but by the time, but he had already fucking lit that fire. So guess what, dude?

Do you? No, do you? Like, I'm going to let you have your 15 minutes. You know, I did a Kanye. I was like, you know, fuck it. I'm gonna let you have your 15 minutes. But Beyonce had the best album. I'm just kidding. You know, but like by that time, it's like one, you don't want to help somebody who's lying and fucking trying to fucking turn his fans on you. And,

You know, it's just, I don't understand the internet. I hate it because I really like some of that guy's music too. It just shows like you can like someone's song, but the person can be shitty. Yeah. You know what I mean? Yeah. It's a true character of the person. I'm like, man, like you, if you just shut your mouth and had an adult conversation. Yeah. This could have been you. Pull up. Say something. Literally. Like, I don't know why people are so afraid to have one-on-one conversations when it's solved. Yeah.

it would solve so much shit instead of fucking tit for tat. And then I can't fire back because my fan base is way bigger and that'll just cause fucking complete catastrophe. So it's like, I have to just sit and take it. And I've been doing this for fucking 15 years. And I've, this is the first time I've ever really gotten in depth and really spoke about it. Anybody that's followed me for a long time knows I'll say shit here and there, but like,

You know, like enough is enough when I see it affecting my husband at home, when I see that I can't even no matter how good I am to people, no matter all the good I do, I could fucking donate to charities, which I do with my husband. I could I don't document every fucking good deed that I do for people because that's not why I do it. I literally fucking cash out people money all day long. My fans that are in my fucking DMs asking for help, dude.

Remember the guy who pulled up to the photo shoot? We've never talked about that. Bro, and you were just like, what's the highest tier I can pay you? Like the magazine salesman? Oh. I'm like, dude, you could have easily made content out of that. And all of us just sat back and was like, no, because that's not the point of it. No. Not at all. Yeah. And I even tried to get that dude to keep the money himself and not give it to the business. And I just send it to you. And he's like, no, it's got to go to the business. And she's like, but I'll send it to you.

yeah i'm like i'm about to send you a fucking twelve hundred dollars bud what do you want or a thousand i forget how much it was i was like 15 but yeah and again not tooting my own horn but it's like my husband and i really try to make such a difference in this world and it's like the more love we try to put out into the universe it's like the world is so angry and so heavy and it's just not okay and i want to speak up about it

I want to find a charity that I can work with for bullying. I have been in contact with the owner of Cyber Smiles, but they are in another country. So it's kind of hard to like team up with them, but they actually want to do it. But like America is also a place like you start where you are. Right. Absolutely. And then you work your way out. Just like Jay, you know, he started his at the...

uh juvenile detention center that he was at that's where he started and i know his efforts are to eventually grow and stuff like that yeah but same thing with you starting here and yeah you've been through it with bailey and like i just feel like that's such a swept under the rug issue i don't want to sweep it under the rug anymore no it's not it's time to bring it to light because i am so fearful that my child has to grow up in this yeah and i hope she's strong enough i truly do that olivia is strong enough and

I don't know. I'm worried about cash. Olivia. Cash will be the bully. Yeah. Okay. Uh, but Olivia on the other hand, she's such a sweet little angel baby. I'm like, God, please don't read a hateful comment one day. Like she did recently get bullied at school and someone told her that she looked like she was pregnant. Oh,

Are you kidding me? She's in first grade. It starts young. It starts young, dude. I literally caught her. Bailey went through it. We were trying on shorts. That same day it happened. We were trying on shorts. And I watched her pull her dress up and look at herself in the mirror. And I was like, no.

Nope. I said, we are done. We're getting out. And I'm literally, whatever you want to buy, we can have. I know that doesn't fix the issue, but I was just like, we had to have that talk. That makes me want to cry. Oh, bro. I literally wanted to throw hands with a seven-year-old. So bad, bro. But you know that's learned from their parents. Exactly. And it's because people don't speak up. People are like, you know, Bunny...

Don't waste your time. Is it wasting my time? If maybe somebody who's getting fucking bullied gets to hear this podcast and hear all the shit that we're going through, is it really wasting my time standing up to people who are fucking liars? Yes. Absolutely fucking not. If this can make a difference in fucking one child, human, grown up teenagers, fucking life, anybody dude that can take this fucking podcast and know that there is somebody out here who fucking

three people out here who are advocating for against bullies. And one of the main reasons I do advocate against bullies is because I used to be one.

I was bullied as a child, dude. My first bully was my stepmother. You know, I got my ass beat from the time I was fucking five years old until I left home at 14. You were literally bullied within your home. I beat up people because I was hurt and I was angry and I fought for all the wrong reasons. And it's like now that I've grown, I didn't change who I was until after I got my ass beat again by my fucking ex.

And I went through that entire relationship. And when I got out of it, I was like, I thanked God because I was like, I needed that dude. I was a force to be reckoned with. You couldn't tell me shit. I treated people fucking horrible. I have been so vocal about that. And the minute I got out of that relationship, I wanted to make a difference in the world. I was like, I'm never going to let somebody bully me again. And I'm never going to fucking hurt people like the way I have. And that's why I stand up to these people.

A story that you fucking just to tie into the one with Olivia Bailey was sitting on the back. It was at Sonic with all of her fucking friends. And she's sitting on the back of a fucking truck and with her and these car full of guys drive by. And they're like, you're all too big to be sitting on the back of that that truck on that tailgate. You're too big to be sitting on that tailgate.

And when Bailey got home, she told me about it and I could tell it bothered her. And I was like, baby, I love you. You're beautiful. You know, I always tell her if you want to make meal preps, you want to work out with me, let's do it. I'll give you a workout plan, whatever. The next day she came home and was like, I was like, have you eaten? She's like, no, I'm fasting today.

And I said, what do you mean you're fasting? And she's like, I haven't. She's like, I just I need to fast. And I said, Bailey, you are fucking 16 years old, 15 years old. She's about to be 16 in May. I'm like, you're fucking 16 years old. You don't need to fast. I said, at your age right now, your body needs food. And it's just to see what she goes through. And Bailey gets the fuck bullied out of her online. They come for her teeth all the time. Like, it's so bad. So saying all this.

I will always fucking protect my family. I will always protect all of you who are my fucking following, who are my family. I will always stand up for what I can and what's right. I also feel like you're a perfect person because of what you just said is that you used to be the bully.

Absolutely. And you are the absolute, absolute perfect picture. Perfect example of you don't have to stay being the bully at all. Like so many people get stuck in their ways. And in reality, they're like, I just don't know how to be anything other. Mm-hmm.

So for you to advocate and hopefully maybe if a bully is listening to this or watching this, they take that into consideration that like you don't always have to be the fucking bully. No. That's not what people are saying. And at any point in any time of your life, you can literally change. Yeah. Just because you feel like this is who you are as a human, by no means is that who you have to be the rest of your life. Absolutely. I used to think that about myself. I used to think certain ways. And at one point I was like...

How can I be better? How can I not be like this anymore? And then I had the realization of like... Well, fuck. I wasn't born knowing how to walk. I wasn't born knowing how to drive a car. All those things were learned. So why can't I learn to be the person I want to be? And that's exactly what you did. Was... Hey...

I'm this person that I don't like right now. And in your head, you were like, how do I become the person I want to be? And that is a learned trait. That is not something you are born with. That's not who you are. And it's not in your fucking DNA. You have to be sick of how you're feeling. You have to be sick of the same shit happening. You know, if you always did what you did, you're going to get what you got. And it's like, you have to change who you are. You can't change without help. And if you can't afford a therapist, no.

go online, read shit. I have taught myself so much shit by just researching and applying it to my life. You don't need somebody to hold your hand if you really want to change your life. Give it a gook. Give it a gook, baby. Gook on. I'm telling you, it will fucking save your life. There's so much stuff that I have learned through the years and applied it to my life. Fucking even breath work. Nobody taught me that.

I fucking started meditating and learned it. You know, like you have to want to, you have to have a thirst for knowledge and I'm an information junkie. So I just consume, consume, consume, and I love to learn and apply. And that's really what you have to do in life. And if you want to change, the first step is to just say, Hey, you know what? I don't want to be like this fucking human anymore. I want to be a better person. It's the want to change literally. And then just start making small changes before you leave a fucking rude comment.

don't do it type it out type it out but don't delete it yeah there's so many times i go to like snap back at someone or say something and i know that i need to say it so i will type the whole thing out i've done that and then so i'll delete it but it got it not me i say it she hits send i mean there's sometimes there's sometimes i hit send because i gotta

But it is. That's against standing up. I clap back nicely, though, now. But you don't have to do it all the time. I normally just send them a picture of themselves zoomed in.

I do that on Facebook. That's my favorite thing. That's what I do on Facebook. It's the people who are like, oh, this big old girl don't need to be wearing that. And then I zoom in on their profile picture. So if you're listening to this right now, do not do what Haley does. Haley is still learning. It works. OK, can I tell you guys the story of what happened the other day? And I feel so bad for this girl. I'm going to show you guys this picture. This is bullying, right? This totally ties into what we're talking about.

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I feel really bad. Shout out to Hooters in Murfreesboro because they did not deserve this. Aw. This girl innocently posted a picture of herself and all they were doing was like, hey, come in. This is her, right?

She posted it on the Hooters account? No, they posted it in our local Murfreesboro, like, community. Is it just her with food? Yeah. It's just her in a shop, right? Okay. And it just says, hey, we have UFC in, right? She's a cute girl. Yeah. Like, she's adorable. Yeah.

First of all, why are you in the Hooters fucking support group? No, it's not. No. Oh. It was in our local community. Oh, okay. Someone, I'm guessing either was manager or host. Oh, they're the worst in the community fucking pages. Bro, this dude just. It's always men too. I'm talking these comments are all hate. It's because I secretly want her to know that she probably doesn't want that. I went on Mr. Joseph's fucking profile. First off, he uses filters.

They all do. Yes. His main profile picture has a filter over it. And it's just, I mean, tearing this girl down to the point that like other girls got in that and was like, shut the fuck up. Yeah. Like, why are you guys coming from this girl literally doing a job? That is our prime example of what society has become. Yes. It is so sad. It is so hurtful. It doesn't matter. Literally saying we have UFC on at Hooters. Yeah.

It's crazy. It doesn't matter how good you are. It doesn't matter what you do. Stomping on butterflies. Yeah. Stomping on butterflies. That's such a good fucking analogy. I saw a butterfly on my leg and I'm like.

gonna fall literally i have a fucking tramp stamp butterfly yeah but like that's what i feel like is like they're so delicate beautiful creatures and there's always going to be that one little fucking kid who steps on this but it's gonna be that one caterpillar that hasn't gotten his wings yet that just wants to fucking shit on all the other ones this is i'm growing butterflies this is why i'm gonna grow butterflies she says she's growing butterflies so i hope you guys can take the lesson in what

You know, I had to use real life examples so that you could see the shit that we go through. And, you know, hopefully you guys can apply this to your life and moving forward because kindness really goes a fucking long way, man. Like just telling somebody you love them or that they're beautiful or, you know, even if they're rude to you, like that girl who fucking left all those fucking videos about me. I told her, I said, I love you and I hope you have the best day. And I really mean it. Mm-hmm.

because it's just like clearly you're hurt yeah clearly well she posted a tiktok where she said she has no friends she has she couldn't get sad she couldn't get hugs from her mom so she became a sex worker because she knew at the end of sex that she would be hugged and that really hurt me and like i wanted to message her and be like man i love you and i want you to know that you're not alone and i am your friend even though you're over here talking shit about me like

That shit fucking hurts me. And I don't know how people can, you know, look at people like that and be mean to them even when they're being mean to you. Yeah. I mean, I don't mean to ruin the mood, but do you really get hugged after?

I was not for the hugs. Okay. Was that offered? What about a handshake? No, I used to have some tricks that would get mad because I would get up and leave immediately. What'd you say? Like a handshake. Do they dab up after or what? I would always just hug them on the way out. I would hug them. Oh. Thanks. Good game. You know, like high five. Yeah. But I mean, some girls there are, this is a whole nother subject, but there are girls who do a thing called GFE, which is girlfriend experience. And.

And you get the end. They like fuck them without condoms and cuddle. And I was never into that. I lied and said they would get girlfriend experience because I could charge more. But when I got there, it was a whole fucking shuck that I ran. You know, do you know they have websites that write reviews on hookers?

Did you know that? Did you help for hookers? Literally. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. They do. I want to read these. I wonder if our girl's on there. Who? The one we found in Vegas. Oh, I love her. I love her. I know. Where's she at? I hope she's okay. I love her. I know. I follow her. I forget her name. I should say hi to her and check in, right? Yes. Yeah.

that was right before she's our fucking adopt we adopt a hook adopt a hooker yeah that's right before we went airborne yes i was after was it yeah that was after because i was like i've just had such a shit day i'm like i want to do something good sorry my brain was a little discombobulated your brain is still fucking rattled i'm pretty sure you hit the roof i i might have

I would also like to say Mountain Valley Spring Water. Would you guys fucking sponsor me? Because I have turned so many people on to this fucking water and I literally deserve it. Whether you just give me free cases every month, I'm fine with that. We can finally set it up on the desk during the podcast and not hide it. Yeah. Do you hear that? Do you guys dream things?

When you dream, do you dream during the day or at night? Both. Are your dreams during the day or at night? The dream itself. Yes. On my one last night where I was pissed off at both of you guys during the day.

I rarely have during the day dreams. And that scares me. I've never thought about that. Mine are a lot during the day. Mine are a lot during the night, actually. I would love for mine to be during the day. You guys left me. I honestly don't feel like I look at the sky. I feel like there is no sky in mine sometimes. Mine are always in like dark, seedy, like it's never a cool vibe. I don't have pretty dreams. Can somebody who is a listener dissect this for me? Maybe I'll ask Sloane, Bella, whenever she comes on the podcast.

um, I, my dreams are always dark and like, they're not happy there. That's always like just a nightmare. No, it's not a nightmare, but it's just like, I don't know. It's like if I'm in a house, it's a trap house, you know, like, Nope. It's so weird. I don't have bright, happy, vivid dreams. Sometimes mine's like my for you page.

that's how you explain my dreams it's weird I've seen your for you page I'm so sorry it's weird yeah weird and random yeah yeah yeah all right well I just wanted to see if maybe I was just something was wrong with me have you guys ever seen had your phone in your dream yes no I was so mad at you guys I've never had my phone I always have my phone and I know I can wake myself or I can become conscious in my dream if I know my phone's not working last night when I was you guys fucking left me

I couldn't find your location. And because my phone wasn't working, like because I physically couldn't make the phone work. I knew I was dreaming. I was like, I knew these bitches wouldn't leave me. I had to return a scooter. Have you ever had sleep paralysis though?

Yes. That's the worst. That happens to me all the time. One time it happened when I had a roommate and she had got a new mirror from a vintage place. Oh. And I had sleep paralysis three times in one week and they were all so evil and negative. And I said, get rid of that mirror now. Yeah. As soon as she got rid of it, I didn't have it again. I had an orgasm one time during sleep paralysis and I could have swore I was getting like banged by a demon. Yeah.

You liked that. What? Yeah, I'm sure. I didn't mind the orgasm. Was that in the cemetery? No, it was in my bed in the middle of the day. It was fucking scary. And you can like hear like a growling sound. It's crazy. I've heard scratching next to my bed. Yeah, I've heard growling. Mine, I just can't breathe.

Like I wake up to breathe, but I can't talk. But then it just puts me right back to sleep. Like I physically cannot get myself out of the sleep. I haven't had a sleep paralysis dream and probably two years and actually maybe a long going to go home. I know. I hope not. I'm wondering what I'm doing different that I, why I don't have them anymore. You're not taking vitamins like you used to.

I don't want them. So you think vitamins cause sleep paralysis? Well, you were overdosing on vitamins. Yeah. And then before that was drugs. You had a chemical imbalance every single time. You've been clear these past two years of everything. It's because I love Jesus. Yeah. All right. Well, you guys, the time has come to tell you what Bill Cephas has done. As if my father has not caused enough trauma in my life.

He fucking wanted to go out with a bang and fucking just add one more piece of trauma on his way out. So fucking Bill, man. So Bill and his fucking wife always fight. But that is my dad's love language. He loves to fucking fight.

Fight and make up, I guess. And I get it because I used to be the same way when I was in my toxic relationships. And I stay out of their relationship because if I do anything to offend his new wife, I will not be able to have a relationship with my dad, which has been the story of my life. Mm hmm.

And, you know, she started making me question how she was at Christmas because my dad wanted to stay and hang out with the family. And I look over and my dad's watching the, you know, the karaoke that's going on. And she is in his ear screaming at him. I mean, throwing her body into it. You could tell she was just Christmas or Thanksgiving. And you could just tell that she was just fucking losing it on him.

And it was all because she wanted to go home and my dad wanted to stay and hang out with his family. I don't know much about his ex or his wife. So I'm going to be completely honest because I think that she's a great woman for taking care of my dad. But I think she's doing it for alternative reasons. My dad is a slumlord.

Bill has somehow acquired a bunch of fucking shitty ass properties. And I never knew how they met, but I did know that she was like living with some really, uh, some really like overweight guy who couldn't take care of himself. And she was like his caretaker. And then my, she jumped ship and ended up getting with my dad. That's what I was told. So I've never really known how they've gotten together. Um,

The past few weeks that have passed, they have been fighting like cats and dogs. My dad got news from Vanderbilt that they couldn't do anything for him anymore and that he just pretty much had to wait it out and was going to die soon. So I told my dad, make a bucket list. Whatever you want to do, I'll pay for it. Let's make it happen.

And all they've been doing is fighting and it's just been breaking my heart because I feel like if I was on my deathbed, the last thing I would want to do is be arguing with somebody like that is not what, how I want my life to end, you know, but I stay out of it because it's none of my business. I went over there one day and there was broken glass everywhere and I couldn't figure out why there was broken glass everywhere, but I didn't ask because again, don't ask, don't tell. I don't want to know. Um,

I get a phone call from his wife one night and she's like, I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm leaving your dad for the night. I need to go somewhere and reset. Mind you, my dad is in a wheelchair, cannot fucking take care of himself at all. But I thought that he was in the hospital because he had to get like some blood work done or something like that. So I was like, OK, go take, you know, go take time, you know, whatever you need. And I'll just go. Yeah, he's under care. So go go do what you got to do.

She was mad because this lady has been helping my dad with this device that he has for like the past six months. And it's like this device to heal cancer. And she was giving him protocols. And she's like, he doesn't need me. He just wants her and blah, blah, blah. Being jealous of my dad trying to heal his body. And I was like, all right, Suzanne, whatever. Go fucking do what you got to do. And so anyways, I call my dad.

she wants me to call this lady, his wife. So I call the lady and I'm like, Hey, you know, she's like, I don't understand what's going on. I'm just trying to help your dad. And I'm like, I, I'm like, they've been fighting. I'm like, you know, until I call you back, let me figure out what's going on, you know? But until then, maybe don't call my dad. Cause it's causing fights right now. Just getting her side. You know, I call my dad and I have this recorded. Like I, I record all conversations with my dad because, um,

Jay told me you're going to regret never hearing his voice. So anytime I talk to my dad, I just record his voice because I just always want to have those memories. And I called my dad and he's crying and I'm like, dad, what's going on? And he's like, you know, I have never told you this because I don't want to burden you and I don't want to, you know, have to put this on your shoulders. He's like, but, you know, Suzanne was homeless when I met her and I took her in off the street thinking that I could help her.

Which infuriated me instantly because when my dad, I first found out that my dad was married a couple years ago, I freaked out on him. And I was like, dad, you don't know this woman. You just bought a house with her. I'm like, what the fuck is going on? And he shut me out of his life for like a year because I would not fucking accept his new wife. You wouldn't accept their...

There and you wouldn't have a relationship. Yeah. He was trying to force me to have a relationship with her. And I said, I will be nice to her, but I'm not going to fucking call her mom. Yeah. And I'm not going to fucking have a relationship with her because I don't have to. My dad shut me out for a year. And then the time, the one time I did finally see him again was when I found out he had cancer and I flew to him. So that was me seeing my dad after a year.

So anyways, I didn't say anything and I was just like, okay, well, I was like, that's kind of crazy, dad, because you made her the executor of your will. And he's like, well, that's not going to happen. And I'm like, what's not going to happen? He's like, I'll take her out of the will. And I was like, well, dad, what do you need me to do? I'm like, you're at the hospital right now. And he's like, no, I'm at home. I'm like, you're at home? I'm like, she left you. Yeah, I'm like, she left you at home by yourself?

And he's like, yeah. And I was like, okay, well, I'm going to come over. But before that, he had told me that she was getting really violent with him and that she's breaking stuff. And that breaks my heart because my dad is so fucking like fragile and in a wheelchair. And granted, Bill is a fucking dick and he says mean things and I get it. I understand that. But yeah,

It just all came together. The broken glass. Yeah. The broken glass that I had seen and all that stuff. So, and just, it showed me her screaming at him at fucking Thanksgiving. So it all kind of came to a head and sat back and I've watched how she's manipulated things. And like, she's a liar straight up. She's a fucking liar and she manipulates, but my dad has a type, so it's whatever. And she takes care of them. So I'll give her that.

He also said that like she'll lock up his medicine and won't give it to him when he needs it. Granted, I have all this on fucking recording. So I race over to my dad's. I tell Kayla and Blake, I'm like, hey, we're going to go get my dad. We're going to move them into our house. And they're like, cool, let's let's go. So I get to the house first. I walk in. Guess who's fucking there?

Suzanne, she's there with my dad. And I'm like, oh, fancy seeing you here. But by this time, I'm already fucking pissed because I'm like, you're being violent around my dad. Like, I will toss you up like a fucking rag doll, you know? And but I didn't. I calmly and collectively sat down and I have this entire fucking conversation recorded.

And I said, we all need to have a conversation. And my dad was like, well, I'd like to talk to you alone. And she's like, Bill, do you want to talk to her alone? And my dad's like, yeah, but you know, is there anything you want to say? And of course she wouldn't fucking leave because she knows that my dad will tell me the truth about her. And I saw that she wasn't leaving. So I was like, we need to have a conversation, all of us. And we all need to be fucking real. I was like, dad, if you don't want to be with Suzanne, I will send her back to fucking Texas right now and you can move in with us.

And I just saw Suzanne's face fucking like she couldn't believe I said that to her. But I'm like, I'm thinking this lady's fucking throwing shit, being violent with my dad. Like, you know, I thought I held it together pretty fucking cool. I said, Kayla and Blake are on their way over right now. I'll move you right now. And my dad's like, well, I'm

You know, if we can work things out and need a there, we need a therapist. But if we can really work things out, then I'd like to stay with Suzanne. I said, yeah, but if she's fucking throwing shit and being violent with you around like that shit fucking infuriates me. This woman starts screaming at the fucking top of her lungs so bad that Chachi got up and chased after her because it was like the shrillest sound. And I can't handle that because I grew up in a fucking house where there was nothing but screaming.

She's running around the house. Bill, you're lying. I didn't do that. And then my dad looks at her and goes, I'm sorry, honey. I shouldn't have said that. Come back. And I look at my dad and I go, dad, is she throwing shit? Is she being violent? And he's like, well, I heard a noise. It like a battered woman, you know, like he's covering for her.

And I'm like, what the fuck? And Suzanne is still fucking screaming. So I said, Suzanne, shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down. You two are acting like children. I was like, I can't fucking handle the emotional shit, dude. I was like, let's just get through this and figure out how we're going to get through this. That's it. That was the whole conversation. We ended up talking for like 15 more minutes. They made a game plan to get a counselor. Everything was good. I had to leave to go to the award shows.

I thought everything was fine. I text Suzanne later that night. I said, hey, I'm sorry for yelling, but I can't. I grew up in a house where there's nothing but screaming and that shit triggers me. I said, but I love you and thank you for taking care of my dad or something like that. She texted me back. Everything was fine. I get a text message. I hadn't talked to my dad in a couple of days because I had to do the award shows, the CMTs, all that stuff. Or no, no, I'm sorry. We had done I heart awards and we were on our way to the CMTs.

My dad texted me at 5 o'clock that morning before I get on the plane after the night we had of almost dying on the fucking plane. Almost goes down. Yeah. And says, hey, I moved back to Texas. Thanks for everything. And that's it. That's all he said. And I said, what? I said, you moved back to Texas without even talking to me? And he was like, yeah. And what had happened was...

His fucking wife got her feelings hurt because I yelled at her because she was fucking screaming like a fucking banshee. And then she also saw that she had no control. Like if I really wanted to separate her from my dad, I could, which I never would. But if she's fucking being violent, of course I am. So she this woman loaded my dad up.

in a wheelchair, in his van and drove him back to Texas and did not tell me. They left me in a lease that I have signed for a year, $2,500 lease. They left me with a house full of furniture. I had just bought my dad a fucking $5,000 bed a couple weeks before that. My dad, the entire month, the entire fucking time that he's been here has not fucking paid for one thing.

So, yeah. And I just told my dad, I was like, that is extremely hurtful for you to do that. And I mean, it made me cry. It was so fucked up that I couldn't believe that even in you, the fucking end of your life, you will still abandon your daughter who has done nothing but try to be there for you.

For another woman. Like, when do you stop hurting me for another woman? She's lucky I haven't filed a complaint yet for elder abuse. I was going to say, all of us immediately were like, is it really your dad texting you? Yeah. I feel like she kidnapped him. That's literally what I told Jason. I was like, yo, so Bill got kidnapped. And he's like, fucking excuse me? I was like, I mean, not literally, but kind of. I was like, he...

left he's gone and he's like to where and I was like he's in Texas and he goes do you know how long of a ride on someone's body that is yeah he's not gonna make it much longer out there he completely changed being out here and flourished so much he did he gained some weight when I got him in Texas he literally was dying yes here's my thing my anger is with Suzanne because she's a snake and I know that

but my dad allows it and that's why i haven't intervened yet because i'm not gonna put my dad's last few months that he's alive through hell be with her love her you guys have a blast yeah and you said it that night too you said you guys should be spending these last days together doing and loving each other like doing things you love and

just loving on each other. Like, why is it right now that you guys are just screaming? Yeah. That's not how he should be living his last days. My, I told my dad, make a bucket list, whatever you want to do, I will scratch it off. And my dad is so concerned with trying to live that he's not living. He's trying so hard to stay alive that he's not living. Yes.

And it's fine. I feel like I have cleared all my karma with my dad. I love him and he's always going to be my favorite human in the world. But it's not okay for what he's done to me and how he's treated me. And that's not me having a victim mentality. That's me putting up boundaries. And I will probably not talk to my dad again because of this. And I feel like it's her fault. And for that, I will never be able to forgive her.

And I don't think I should have to. She has isolated him from everybody. My other sister, you know, just everybody. And she even isolated me from my sister because she told me a bunch of shit my sister said about me, you know, which she did say the stuff and then she took it back. But it was just like the shit she said was so hurtful that I was just like, bro, I can't let you in my life because you're a fucking liability. I can't trust you. You know, like I...

It's so sad because every person in my family, I cannot fucking trust them. The only person I could fucking trust was my mom. And I didn't treat her great. And that's because I had so much resentment against her. But yeah, so there you have it, guys. Good old Bill Schneeps. There's your Bill update. There's your Bill update. Old fucking old...

Old fucking Wild Wild West. Wild Wild Bill. Wild Wild Bill Hickok.

But yeah, so that's what happened. And you guys let me know your opinions because I'm really just kind of venting in this podcast. And that's another thing. My dad was like, you know, she only needs like X amount of dollars. I think it was like 40 or 50 grand to pay off what I'm leaving her. Yeah. Yeah. Bill's a slumlord. When I say he's a slumlord, he's a slumlord. And he's like, you could loan that to her. And I looked right at her. I said, I'm not loaning her a fucking dollar.

Like I was like, that's not happening. Love you, but not fucking doing that. Yeah. Like it's been crazy, dude. It's been wild. My I'm an Aquarius. We love justice. You know, we love to fucking fight the good fight.

and i don't know if this is the good fight and that's why i need you guys to tell me am i wrong for how i feel no no because you guys in the comments tell me i would have already gone for her yeah i know we were headed to texas and i was like how far are they yeah like i really would love to but i'm not going to make my dad's last days fucking horrific you know like he's already fucking going through a hard time yeah

He doesn't have a long time. I even told him that. I said, dad, I don't mean to be rude, but your days are numbered. Why do you want to fucking use each one of these days just fucking being miserable and fighting? Like, that's not fair. It's not. Honestly, he also hasn't come to terms with his life.

Oh, yeah. My dad will tell you he's not dying. No. Yeah. He does say that a lot. And I'm just like, I love you. And I'm a manifest queen myself. But I mean, you fucking you can look at Bill and just see that he's not. Yeah. And the doctors had just told you like, hey. Yeah. We've done everything we can. We've exhausted all resources. He was given three months when you moved him here back in September. Mm hmm.

That he's already lived twice as long as they say that he was going to. Yeah, for sure. So we'll see. Let me know what you guys think in the comments on Patreon, because I would really like everybody's perspective on it. Because, you know, I'm mad right now. So, of course, I'm going to fucking be ready to ride. But, you know, you never know. If Bill makes it another year, I might be calmed down by then. I don't know. We'll see.

But right now I'm just like, and I think it just triggers so much childhood trauma because I went through this with my fucking stepmom. I ended up having to leave home at 14 because of the woman that my dad chose. Like this is, and then the last girlfriend he had fucking was a fucking tyrant dude and literally fucking was just so mean to me and my sister. And it's like every woman he gets with treats us like shit and he allows it.

Yeah. You know, so it's just like, what can we do? Well, I love you guys. That was a really therapeutic podcast. We got it all out there. How long was it? An hour and 53 minutes. We might not drop this. I mean, I said a lot of shit.

we might have to listen we got to listen back to it listen back yeah listen back we'll listen back and if we if we drop it just know we probably cut out a lot of yeah we probably did yeah but you feel better so that's all yeah this was writing your comment and deleting it yes literally yeah that's exactly what i did yes wow proud of you

I love you guys. You got anything you want to say? No. You got anything you want to say? Don't stomp on butterflies. Don't stomp on butterflies, bitches. That's a good shirt. Are you going to make it or am I? You. Okay, bye. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.