Perfectly Kelsey Part 2: Breakups, Broken Friendships and Babies
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So he immediately comes over and that's when he... Is this thing on?

- All right, gentlemen, coming to main stage next, this is Bunny. Get up there, she's got a tornado of titties coming your way. Get those dollar bills ready. She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox. So get up there and throw, throw, throw them dollars. - Dude, that is fucking iconic. - He punched me in the throat in the side right there and then like grabs me like, it was like a punch hit. I don't fricking remember. Grabs me up by my neck. I'm holding her. She's in preemie clothes.

She was eight weeks old, but she weighed like seven pounds. And I remember just clinging to her and him holding me up in a choke hold. And I get out of this. I remember I had scratches all over. I get out of this and I get to the other side of the bed and I'm just trying to protect her. And he comes. You guys go that way, so I go that way. And he comes over and he rips her from my arms. And I just...

I hate this one vision that will never go away. It's just her little head falling back. I just remember her head. We ripped her. And I was like, that's it. This can't... If we don't leave, one of us is going to die. Yeah. And I can't do that. I was like, I got to go. I got to get out. I didn't know how. I called his parents. Come get dude shit. So they come to help him pack. He's just taken...

like dressers and throwing them all over my room like just barely missing me like I'm just sitting in this rocking chair that's rocking that's all I did sat in this rocking chair for two months rocking this child but he's throwing these things all over and he's basically you're gonna regret this don't fucking call me when you realize you're gonna you know all that get him out and I just remember in that moment thinking like because I stayed because I thought I needed a man to show her how to love

you know, how she's supposed to be loved. He needed to show her how a man is supposed to love her by the way he loves me. And I remember sitting there like, oh my God, this is what he's going to show her. She's going to grow up and think this is love. I can't do that. And so that was when this new mission came over me where I'm like, I'm going to learn how to love myself enough for the both of us. I'm going to teach her that loving herself is the first and utmost important thing. So she never ends up here because that's why I ended up here. I didn't love myself.

And so that's what I started doing. And he was quiet for a couple weeks. Yeah. Because he thought I'd call. And then it didn't get bad again until I started dating. Oh, of course. Well, they always come back around whenever you start dating. Right. It's like you're like, where the fuck did you come from? Right. Stay gone. So moving on from that abusive relationship, how are you feeling? Are you...

liberated yeah just ready to finally fucking conquer the world i felt great how long after that relationship did you meet is it curtis yes could you meet curtis so i left him in 2017 i met curtis in 2020 okay gotcha so i really had my healing era 2018 2019 gotcha um and it was great i was doing yoga i was working out i looked great i was weightlifting my body looked

bomb.com. I was having the best time. I had a rotation of men. Hot milf on the prowl. I was. I had a rotation of four men. There you go, baby. I had a rotation. That's all right, baby. Listen, you came to the right show for that. That's why people don't think I'm vanilla because I used to openly talk about my rotation. Yeah. But I mean, it wasn't very impressive. I might call one here and there once a month. I don't think it was, it wasn't as glorified as I probably made it. But I was having a good time. I was dating. I was enjoying life. And then,

2020 happened. Pandemic. Right. And so our company shut down for a month and I was just at my house and I did, I opened my house to a few different clients to come in, but with, I was a beast. Oh, that was another thing. So during this time when, you know, Kobe was just born, I was studying for my board exams. So the entire first two months of her life,

I was in that rocking chair studying. That's all I did. That seems to be your common, um, ground when you go through something, you kind of like not so much study, but throw yourself into something else and kind of shut out the world. Yep. Yep. Absolutely. Um, working towards something else. Yeah, but it does. It helps like, um, nothing else is real. Mm hmm.

just right there. I don't know how to describe it. No, that's what I'm doing. I'm working through, you know, losing my mom by working, you know, like it just keeps you busy. You feel like you're accomplishing something. And if you can make other people happy, you can make yourself happy, you know, so you don't have to sit in it. Yes. Sitting in it's the hard part, which we get to. Yes. I had to learn to sit in all of it. Yes. Um, yeah, I mean, so I got on Tik TOK.

Yeah. I think that, I think we all got on TikTok in 2020. Yeah. Right. I fucking rebuked it forever. I was like, I'm not fucking getting on this app, dude. And here I am. Right. Here we are. So you got on TikTok. What, okay. And then were you with Curtis before TikTok or after? Okay. So you got on TikTok and. This is where the juice is going to come. I know. This is what everybody

been waiting for. And I just want to give a disclaimer. I was telling Kelsey this before we got on the mic. I don't know. You know, people are like I've had people send me screenshots from the other site and they're like, she doesn't research or guess. No, you're damn right. Because I don't want to have a prejudged misconception about somebody. I am not a follower. I'm a leader. I fucking would. I want to make my own

you know, decision on how I feel about somebody after I meet them and I feel their energy. You can look at somebody on TV, on a screen, on fucking the internet all day long and you can fucking make your own opinions, but you've never shook that person's hand and you've never stood in their fucking, you know, energy. Yeah.

So I don't know any of the drama that goes on with you. I've tried to get into it a little bit last night. I made a couple notes. And then after this, I was like, you know what? I am going to let her talk about what she wants to talk about and address what she wants to address. I do, like I said, have a couple notes that I kind of did. But I went through like four videos and I was just like, you know what? My girl. My girl. I'm going to let her tell her side. So. All right. So you get on TikTok. It's 2020. Mm hmm.

I think my first viral video really was me giving my family's reactions to me being pregnant with my baby daddy. And I made it really funny. I exaggerated a bit in a funny way. Like my friends were excited, right? I was scared. My baby daddy was leaving to go cheat. Seems to be a common theme with that dude. My mom, I think I had a class. Not to cut you off, but is he better now or does he still cheat on everybody?

Okay, gotcha. She's like, I'm not going to answer that. I'm not sure. Yeah, no, we can definitely get into it a little more because he is seeing Kobe again. Good. And he is still supervised because it didn't stop after me. Okay, so did that happen in between 2017 and 2020? Yes. So he was in and out of jail. He was finally getting caught, finally getting charged. What was he getting charged for? Beating other women.

So everyone since, I think he's had, well, I don't know everyone, so I don't know who the hell he's dating, but there has been one every year that he's been in jail for. Wow. There is one that is the repetitive one, the one that was around that he was cheating on me with. Oh, she inherited that. Oh, she's still there. I think she made it to number one. Yay. And now he has all these other side bitches. She won by default. Yep. And then that was always the

Karma finds everybody. Yeah, so I don't know. I don't know. I mean, to jump ahead, he claims that that's finally done. He did let me put that legally in our custody agreement. One, she can have no contact with my child. She did threaten my child's life on two different occasions right after my kid was born. Actually, when I was pregnant and then right after my kid was born.

So I had protective orders for Kobe on this woman. Yeah. She said she was going to kill my bastard child, throw her in the road, kick my stomach. Like there's all kinds of threats that were made by this lady. Lady. This one was a tough one. This is special. We love Jesus.

I love J-Seth. But yeah, so he let me write it in our last custody that he will also have no contact. And if it is found that he has contact with this girl, he'll lose custody. Wow. He'll lose what rights he has got. So I thought that was a bold move. And so that gives me a little bit of...

maybe finally it is done. Right. Because that was a bold move to do because all it takes is one picture and he loses rights to his kid again. And I'm like, I don't know if he'd risk that or not. So I don't know. We'll see. But he is still supervised by his parents. She goes four times a year up there and...

We'll see. Right now, we're finally communicating. Yay. So we used to just go through the parents. Right. I've dropped all protective orders and him and I communicate and it's been really effective. His dad died this last summer and that kind of seemed to just snap something in his head. Good. Because he really, he really...

stepped up and realized like he's got one more parent. What happens when she's gone? If he's not talking to me, if he's out here doing X, Y, and Z, he'll lose her completely. Right. So I think it did something. Yeah. I hope it did so far. It's been okay. It's been good. We're all for the healing process, dude. You guys have been through some shit. So it's really cool to hear that, you know, that's come full circle and you guys are communicating and I mean, that's amazing for Kobe too. Yes. Does Kurt do Curtis and him get along? Um,

So they've only had one exchange. Okay. My baby daddy wished him a happy Father's Day. And he said it back. Well, that was nice. And I was like, this is wild. Who thought this was going to happen? Yay.

That's awesome. Did Curtis have, you know, of course, with, you know, many reasons to have a preconceived judgment against him? Oh, absolutely. Okay. I mean, he still probably don't like him. Right. But he's going to be kind. And he always speaks kindly about him in front of Kobe. Good. I've never heard him say a mean thing. That's very big. He just wouldn't be noticed in his place. And he owns it. And he's just, he's always very, he talks so kindly about him to Kobe. Love that. And that's been, yeah, it's been awesome. And Kobe's great. Kobe's like, I got two dads.

Yeah. Like she brags about it. Love that. Yeah. So she's, she's happy. She's,

She's in a good place. I love that. And all parties are effectively operating in a good place. Even the ex-wife. We're all right now. Everything's very cordial. Very nice. I love that. Yes. Harmony. So 2020, you get on TikTok, you went viral and take me from there. I just keep going viral. Right. And you can tell at that point, it did start where it was like this overwhelming love and support.

Like, just an insane amount. Like, people just, like, would go hard for me. Like, if you came at me, they called them my minions. Yeah. Like, this is crazy. Like, they loved me. Yeah. I've never been loved except for Kobe. Like that at that point. I was in fear. Like,

just it was it was like literally living in a state of euphoria like last year like I everything changed overnight and it was like this whole new bright shiny bubble of something new and it was crazy and it was wild and I started there was like there was this other guy on TikTok that I dated first I didn't even like him but

Like I met him. Did you meet him on TikTok? He was 5'4". He told me he was 5'9". What is happening? I met him. He might have been 5'6". I don't know. Not that we're shaming dudes about height, but come on, be honest. I'm kidding. I'm in trouble. I love that. But I mean, just be honest. They harp on us for everything, you know, like don't lie about your fucking height, homie. But I mean, I wouldn't have met you. Yeah. Yeah.

I mean, but my nine was cutting it. Listen, I won't date short dudes either. I dated one and he was abusive and look how that fucking turned out. So now my husband is 62 and I'm just like, my baby daddy was 60. So I can't really speak on that. Yeah. But I met him. He had a big following. I'd be at this point. I think it was like 200,000 each. Like we both had that. Um, I, we meet up.

And I remember going down there with a fuckboy mindset. I'm going to go fuck this dude and go home. Like I was very much living in this. I have your vanilla ass was like, I'm going to fuck this dude. Right. I was trying to be something. I definitely wasn't. But I get down there and I didn't like it. I remember even telling him like we had put on this show. Right. I remember even telling him like, I think we're going to make great friends. Yeah.

But then we came back and he did like me and he had already told the internet he loved me. Yeah. Like literally the second day I met him, he told me he loved me. Oh.

told the internet it as well and then there's just all this attention and there's all this pressure and so I'm like that's my boyfriend and we were together but then eventually I did I did catch more feelings I did like him it was only last like two months right and then he ended up breaking up with me and I was like you're like excuse me motherfucker I didn't even like your ass I was hurt

in a way that he love bombed you yeah and it was so I was like what the fuck just happened yeah but I can absolutely admit like I did it for attention so I deserve it I love it I love that you own it you know you have to fucking respect it like I was getting a lot of views I've got I mean in that two months it went from like 2,000 followers to 600 I was getting a lot of views 200,000 to 600,000 yeah and like a month and a half two months so I was like try like

I'm gonna chalk this the hell up yeah well you never jump off you never jump off a winning horse what'd you say I said until he broke my heart and I was like he didn't break my heart yeah yeah don't want to jump off a winning horse I mean maybe scratch the ego but not breaking the heart exactly yeah so I was like well I did cry the night he broke up with me so I was like well let me film it I

I love it. So I stuck my ass in a bathtub and I cried. And I was really crying. I mean, that was real. But the setup of the camera, looking back, I'm like, hey, you knew what you were doing. Yeah. It did great. Views, wonderful. But that became his reason to hate me. Because now I was sending him hate. And I'm like, so I can't be emotional on the internet. I can't say what's happening. Are you allowed to say who the guy is? Do we know him? His name is Matthew. Matthew?

Girl, who cares, right? I'm like, no. He's no longer on TikTok. Okay, gotcha. Because remember, I have minutes. Gotcha. And he broke my heart. Gotcha. And they were like, absolutely not, sir. Yeah. And that's my fault. It's not, but the world says it's my fault. Gotcha. Now, don't get me wrong. I did make a video once where I was like, remember that one time I canceled a dude off the internet? Yeah, that didn't go well. Apparently, that was bullying. I was like, it's the same. It's almost like you can't have a personality and joke about things. I'm trying to be funny. Exactly. All the things I did. Yeah, all the things I did. Because then the next video I put up,

I talked about how I got pumpkin. I can't even remember what it means. But I was like, when it's a guy comes and he like guts you out from the inside and fucks your life up or something.

Like, I don't remember what it was. I can get ghosted. I got pumpkin. I can't even remember what it was. But it was like a meme. And I just made a video and said it. But it's really dogging myself out. Yeah. Like, it was literally dogging me. And people got mad at you? People got mad. And I'm like, oh, Jesus Christ. Do people, I mean, people get mad about everything. Literally everything. But they like think I was bullying them. I'm like, let me laugh at my own downfalls, please. Because if I don't, I'm going to cry. And I don't want to cry because when I cry, I beat people up. Oh.

Absolutely. No, I understand that. That speaks my language. I want to fight when I cry. Do you feel like the internet just misunderstands you? Oh, my entire life I've been misunderstood. Right. I'm the most, one of the most misunderstood. I mean, if you look at my star chart, you'll be like, oh, bitch. I think you posted it and it actually gave me anxiety because I was like, oh my, that's like your blueprint and you never want to post your fucking birth chart. I know, I know.

But I didn't know you well enough to be like, hey, baby, don't do that. Somebody luckily did. But I thought if my head was covering most of it, and then someone was like, no, no, no, we can still see. People can still see what they can see. I was like, oh, shit. Take it down. Yeah. I thought I was covering enough. Yeah. No, I saw that. And I was like, no, no, no. And then someone messaged me. And I was like, oh, good. I didn't want to, you know, I let people live their lives. So I'm not going to be that person. But also, you can mess with me, anything.

No, I will now. From now on, I'll be like, just like you corrected me yesterday. You know, like I'm still learning what can. You've been taking that nicely. I sweated. No, I mean, here's the thing. I grew up in a generation where we were way tougher and just like things didn't mean what they do now. Yes. You know, and. 100%. I needed that because. I got in trouble the other day for saying dementia. Why? We'll get into that too with the tea.

because well when i get into it i'll tell you how okay okay yeah yeah we'll go let's get back on track we got off yeah no right all right so 2020 you got your heart broke and you're in a bathtub crying yeah oh what's good and making fun of the situation so it's like this and he ends up deleting his tick tock because of people coming for him yes okay sorry uh he's probably watching this now doing hexes at home

Okay. Somebody did put a hex on me. We'll get into that later. Oh, goodness. Because I'm outing her for that one. Yeah. You just don't play around with witchcraft. Oh, please.

I'm like, I've never in my life done a dark magic. Nothing. No, you can't do that. I'm a healer. It comes back. It comes back tenfold. Yes, it will. So everything's, you know, it took me about two weeks and then I'm back on my feet and I am glowing. Right. I look great. Growing and glowing. I remember those videos. Oh, I'm having the best time. But at this point, I do want to touch on one thing because we talked about the racism stuff, right? So in September, I did have a video where I was like, I've been invited to the barbecue. Cringe. Cringe.

It's the cookout. I said barbecue. Dumbass. But like, I'm just trying to say like, I've been involved in the black community. Like, and I, in my, what I was trying to say is don't judge a book by its cover. That's all you said? No. Um, I was like, okay, this is getting fucking ridiculous. So I got told, stop acting black. Stop talking like you're black. Now granted, I didn't do any research. I didn't go to see who this person was. I didn't, couldn't even find the comment later. I remember I had a screenshot of it. So I used that. So I never actually looked at the person's profile.

But I come from a place where... I don't look at people who hate on me as profile. Yeah. Unless I'm going to pick them apart physically. Right. Which I can't do because then they're never making it. You molly. But like when this situation like I came when I grew up like biracial was black. Right. That's just how where I grew up. And honestly, I think that because the black community is 10 times more welcoming and accepting. And so I didn't realize there was now this huge...

divide white, black, biracial. I did not realize that's where the racial ignorance definitely comes in here because I just thought biracial black.

Because that's just what I remember seeing growing up. Right. I was always, almost always the only white person in the room. But every biracial kid was with all the black kids. Right. Like, and that's just, that was just a group. And it was, and again, I think it's because the black community is so welcoming. I think that's also why I felt like I was damn near a part of it. Because all my life I was just welcomed with open arms. That's your childhood though. And you should not have to apologize for what you grew up in. Like, to me, that's crazy. It's like people get mad at me for saying I'm white trash in trailer park. Yeah.

I'm like how the fuck can you tell me about me and I'm never gonna back down I don't give a fuck what anybody says that's where the fuck I'm from you know like I don't give a fuck what you think about me that is my childhood and I'm not gonna correct myself right to make you happy yeah you know like I'm just so tired of their bullies yes people on the internet are fucking bullies but I did want to you know listen

like there were black women telling me things and i did think it was a part of my responsibility to listen right well if they come at you in a respectful manner and it's you can learn from them absolutely anybody just respect respect is always fucking so important reciprocated right you know it's it's your delivery and i'll listen to that when you like if anyone like comes like bullies on the internet like they come full throttle like when you attack me i'm like first of all who the

fuck are you like i'm gonna listen no absolutely anybody anybody coming at me like that i'm not gonna listen to but there were some amazing women during this time and the next one because it didn't stop at our first kelsey what the fuck what the hell is going on just stay with me just stay with um some amazing women who did help me i mean i mean renee obviously yeah first person i called like what the fuck did i just do uh jabril i showed the video too and he was like yeah video's great

Oh no, set you up. Totally set you up. Oh, I'm sorry. It's not my guy anymore. Sorry. They changed their pronoun.

um i think that was offensive so i do apologize what happened i said my guy oh it's not my guy anymore i say my guy is that you're not allowed to say that um uh they are non-binary now okay them so i don't want to offend i said my guy just in general i probably said that with you yeah but i just want to correct myself because i'm learning there too i really suck when it comes to grammar no i suck when it comes to all of these fucking new fucking labels i cannot it's a

change. I think I'm not and I want to learn. I'm never trying to be disrespectful to anybody but you guys have to show people grace because this is all new shit and if we don't practice it like if it's not our lifestyle have mercy on us because we

We're learning. We're going to make mistakes. I think what people don't realize is with behavior, however long you've been doing a behavior, this is just science. It takes that long to actively change. Absolutely. And so I think that's the hard part for me. But I will get the benefit out where I feel like at one point in my relationship,

They were my best friend. Right. I think I was... I gave more energy to excuses than actively trying. And who is this person? He's another... They're my best... Oh, I... That was my person. Yeah. So they came in my life...

2014 okay um and they're very spiritual um so that's what introduced me to like tarot cards and tarot readings and if it weren't for that person i don't think i would have got out are they on tiktok okay they're very private life we are no longer friends because of my stupid choices we're about to get into my energy was placed in all the wrong places i became a bad friend because i was so hyper focused on tiktok and this new life and all this and

It's easy to get sucked in. Yeah. And I just really failed in my friendship with them. I did with everybody. With them, I was also failing in the pronouns. I was struggling to pick it up. And when I say struggling, again, like I look back and I'm like, I probably was more, I gave more energy to making excuses why it was hard than actively trying. And I mean,

We've talked, we're good. Like they know that I am like deeply apologetic and we're good. But that, like if you wanna talk about losing something, like that was a piece of my heart. That was probably the only person in my life that I'm like, I fucked.

up yeah and hopefully one day but i don't know um that was like they raised kobe with me right like that was my person they were there always so it's one of those um is he snoring i know i was looking she's got the headphones on i'm like i'm over here shaking his head oh chachi wake up um so i'll get emotional with that one no i saw they're great they're a great person um but

But they did slip up by letting me post that. Yeah. So that was the first. That was the first one. And what it was where it definitely got taken away. I didn't mean for it to because the comment was like, you know, stop acting black. Stop talking black. Right. And again, I didn't look at this person profile and I'm thinking biracial is black. That's just my mindset from where I was coming from. Again, racial ignorance.

uh can may i ask what biracial is considered biracial okay so it's not black okay and this is new this was new to me at the time i really did not and i didn't know you just taught me that i didn't know yeah so it's it's a and i do think it's new um overall like again i have an entire degree but didn't they don't they call biracial like mulatto or is that completely different too

Oh, look at her. I don't know. She don't know. I don't know. No, I don't know. No, I don't know. I don't know. Yeah. Like genuinely, I was only asking because I know the rapper mulatto had to change her name because big lotto used to call herself mulatto and she ended up having to change her name to big lotto. So that's the only reason why I was like, okay, is this offensive now? Like, I don't know what that is. Yeah, that is.

You do. You've heard it. I do. Okay. What is that song she sings? I could be your fantasy. I could tell you got big dick energy. Oh, okay. Okay. Okay. Yeah. How do you know that is? Okay. So her original rap name was Mulatto. Is she white?

No, I think she's mixed, right? Or I'm not sure. I could be wrong. I wonder what that term means. I'll have to look it up. Yeah, I don't know. But yeah, I'm guessing if it does mean something full black that that would then be offensive. Right, okay. I'm guessing. I don't know. Again, I'm still learning so much too. But the comment, in my mind, what I thought I was saying was don't judge a book by its

covered right right so i'm like you don't know what ethnicity i am that's how i took it when you just told me what you said but i did say for all you know i could be blacker than you and again i'm thinking biracial i'm thinking genetic i'm thinking genes but that's where i have a higher percentage but that's where your smart ass comes in and comedy because why is it okay for comedians to stand on a stage and say stuff like this anymore they're getting torn apart too now are they yeah yeah

I mean, this is just, I'm sorry, but the world is too fucking sensitive. Like it is crazy. Like can we learn to laugh and just love again? Or is it, are we just going to get hung up on every single thing? When I first posted the video, it was taken well about the first 150,000 views. Like I had so many amazing women coming in there like girl, come over here and make that Mac and cheese. Yes. Your cousin, like every, like was so nice. And to that one comment that said, this isn't sitting right with me.

So that happened to me. I'm on world star the next day. So that just happened to me whenever I posted my trap house cornbread. Um, I was only going to put Texas cornbread. My husband's like put trap house cornbread because one, we call our house the trap house. Yeah. Two, I was a hoe in Vegas. I have hung out in many a fucking trap houses. Three. My husband was a fucking drug dealer. He has hung out in many a trap houses. So we, the trap house term to us is,

We didn't think was a dig to anybody. Exactly. But they look at us and they're like, Oh, you know, white girl, blonde hair, blue eye, green eyes, fucking husband, you know, whatever. So it's like from the trap house, take offense. 12 million people fucking on this video, just losing their minds that I use the fucking term trap house.

And I'm just like, this is fucking ridiculous. And I didn't turn the comments off. I didn't fight with anybody. All I said was everybody that's offended. This was my life. I have lived this. I have earned that. I can use that word without people getting fucking offended, you know, and it finally died down. But Jesus, I was just like,

Come on. It's a fucking cooking video. I'm not trying to disrespect anybody. Like, I feel like everybody is just having to like mind their P's and Q's when it's supposed to be fun. And I don't think, again, I think when you put something out to the whole world, and that's what I learned, because nobody blinked at I, I mean, Indiana with how I talk, how I walk, how I act, like everyone knows.

knows in Indiana. First of all, don't be racist. Kelsey will fight you. Like I was the person that I'm standing with all my black sisters and brothers every day of the week, twice on Sundays. Okay. Because I don't, I'll fight a white person. Right. What'd you say Renee when I called her and I said, Renee, the internet thinks I'm racist. She said, I guess who? White people? I love that. And I was like, what?

She's so pretty too. I've been watching her smile over here. She is so pretty. So what was the second video? Okay, so real quick. Because you didn't learn the first time. Well, see, I didn't.

But okay, so that one gets put on Worldstar, all this stuff. So before I jump to the second incident, I did my first meetup in November. Okay. And it was with Brittany Jade and Cody Elise. I just invited Brittany to come on the podcast. I know she's been having a hard time. She's going through some stuff, but she's going to get through it. And I saw her video and you know, I've had a miscarriage and been through everything too. And at first I was just kind of like, that was bad. That was hard to

watch right it was very cringy yeah and but i didn't hate her right i wasn't like fuck this bitch i'm fucking gonna ruin her life you know like what was that yeah the fuck did you just do yeah you know and i just feel bad for her like you know if i'm gonna be hated for loving people then i could be hated for way worse things you know so britney you're always welcome to come on the podcast she's she's a good-hearted soul yeah she has a good

heart and I think that at the end of the day that's more important than anything absolutely everybody fucks up she has a good heart so I always stand by her because she has a good heart yeah and that's rare so you did this meetup so we did this meetup and on-site besties yeah we are all BFFs so you met up with Brittany Jade and who again Cody Elise okay okay okay I did watch a little bit about the Cody thing let me get my glasses on hold on let me see what I fucking wrote for the notes but yeah go ahead

So it was fun. We all got along great. It was a good time. I will probably jump back to a couple of things that I learned, you know, retrospect. But it was good. Everything's moving forward. Next thing that happens is V, Vanessa Cosio. It's V Cosio, I believe, on TikTok. She reaches out to Jenna, my best friend, Jenna. V's my best friend too. She reaches out to Jenna asking to do a mom strip.

Right. So this is getting planned. They ask Bonnie. Bonnie says, no, I can't go. And then they ask me. I'm like, yeah, I can go. And then all of a sudden, Bonnie can go because she was a huge fan. She was a huge fan of me. Don't ever let her forget it, internet. Bonnie Cox is a huge fan of mine.

Bonnie invites Darren Cole because she was nervous. She wanted to go to lunch. She invited Darren because that was one of her closer friends at the time. I invite Cody. And I did invite Brittany because I knew there would be drinking. So I did talk to Brittany. I was like, you know, I don't know. She's a recovering alcoholic for everybody who doesn't know that. And I did give her the option. I was like, if you want to come, that's fine. But I want you to be ready because I will be drinking. Because when I went there, like when I went out there, I didn't drink in front of her. I didn't do any of that. I wouldn't.

And so, you know, she made the right choice not to come, I believe. And then Cody brought a friend, Jessie. So that was the group that went. And we had the best time. Is this what was dubbed as the queen team? Yes. Okay, gotcha. This is when queen team had full of text. I'm hip. I know a little bit about what's going on. I just literally learned it last night. Well, it was great. It was honestly a great time. Oh, my God, Curtis. Oh, yeah, fuck, Curtis. I'm so sorry. Wait, Curtis, come here.

Listen, all this stuff is happening simultaneously. Curtis, we forgot all about you. Okay, so 2020, you get on TikTok, you're going viral, you got your heart broke. Curtis, when does he come into play? Timeline. Real quick, we're just going to... But the biggest thing was the timeline that I wanted to do. I wanted to show everyone the exact ABC timeline. So I meet Brittany and Cody mid-November. He is at a Friendsgiving with like JT Laybourne and other people on TikTok.

I know none of these people. I didn't even know who Cody was until last night. No, it was a week before this. A week before this. I'm in a live and I was like deemed as TikTok's bachelorette, right? And he's like a TikTok bachelor. And so everyone's like throwing his name in my life. There are all kinds of guys in me. First of all, there were so many guys. I was like, there's a lot of guys to choose from. But someone kept saying him and they were like, he's in his live right now talking about how beautiful you are. This is like November 8th-ish. November 7th, at the beginning.

And he's talking about how beautiful you are in his live, which is a public platform. I want to make sure he's publicly telling the world how beautiful I am and just raving about me. And I was like, how old is he?

Someone said, I think he's like 43. He wasn't. He was 39. But I was like, wow, that's too old for me. No. Immediately shut it down in my mind. But then I was like, oh, let me look him up after this live. So I click on his name. He's following me. So I follow him back. I did remember who he was because I did remember seeing him with his fake son. So Michael Abantonio, that's how they got big on TikTok is they pretended to be father and son. Right. So I do remember him.

So I add him back. I think I had followed, I don't think I did. I had followed him in the past. He never followed me back. And I was like, that's rude. So I followed him back. So he took a video of me, you know, perfectly Kelsey following, right? And he used an audio. This is a public platform.

By the way, it's like November 8th. Timeline's important. Makes this video and he walks in, he's pointing to me following him and he's like, things are getting pretty serious. Looks like things get pretty serious, right? And I go in and I put a couple hearts, you know, in the comments, a little flirty. And then I look at the comments.

And I was like, oh my God, they were ripping me to shreds in this comment section. Yikes. Oh, don't do it. She's drama. She's horrible. She's a terrible person. Run. Like ripping me. And I was like, I always wonder what kind of person does comments like that. Right. Like, why are you so fucking invested in my life? It's so fucking weird. No, no me at all. Yeah. But then I look at the other end and I'm like, but then people

will love me and they're invested in don't know me but I'm like at least they're using kindness yeah that's psychopathic tactics like yeah um so I'm immediately like well that's probably gonna turn him away yeah and so I don't really expect anything from it and I think like a week went by and then I got a dm from him so we're we're mid-november or I go out there see them I get a dm like that next week and he's trying to sell me ketones

So hold on a second. So you went and you met with the queen team. I did that. It was just Brittany and Cody at this point. Okay. Good. November, Brittany and Cody. And then, so Curtis is selling ketones. Curtis was what? Selling attractive. Oh, sold me right into those. There you go, baby. So we come to the matters, right? Well, first things first, as I look at, I'm like, did he just really try to sell me some shit? And the next thing I know, he sends a followup and he's like, Oh, by the way, this is me trying to slide in your DM. I was going to say that. This is mid November. Yeah.

He's sliding in my DMs. Anyways, just kidding. So I'm like, and I literally go back. I'm like, about time. Here's my number. Let's get this fricking ball started, dude. At this point, like I'm turned on by this man because he did not message me. Right. Right away. Right. He tried to hit on me and I was confused and I was flustered. So I'm all invested. And so I. Does he know who I am? Okay. I was like, I have the audacity. So he texts me. And one of the first things he asked, he says, I need to know what happened in your last relationship and why it ended.

And I was like, he's crazy. He's crazy. He must really like me. He wants to know. Let me write him a novel. I should probably write him a novel, right? Wrote him a novel trying to explain my situation. Guess what he wrote back? I was just kidding. K. No. The letter K. I was like...

He doesn't like me. I just ruined that. It was too much. So I'm in my head freaking out. He's the worst texter ever. So we're like texting here and there, but it's not a ton. So at this point, I'm about to go to Thanksgiving, right? Queen team still full effect, right into the top. Things are going great. Everybody's happy. We hadn't met the other girls yet.

But everyone, it's, we are good. Brittany and Cody and I are good. Right. I get, I go to Atlanta for Thanksgiving to see my brother and his, well, now wife. I get a text on the way down. He was like, hey, are you going to be in Atlanta? I said, Curtis, are you going to be in Atlanta for Thanksgiving? I was like, yeah. He's like, I'm there visiting my mom. Can I take you on a date? I'm like, sure. And at this point, I'm very open. I was like, I got two dates scheduled. Yeah.

just need to let you know I did I let everybody know I did not care first day I got all dressed up he brought me roses took me to a nice steakhouse right and then Curtis texts me well one he invited me to Six Flags but I'm like I have Kobe here trying to spend time with my family so no I'll just wait to the date he was like well my friends are in town can we make it a group date and I'm like this dude does not like me like this is so weird but like sure

and he wanted to go to Topgolf. So I got a sweatshirt on and a ponytail. And apparently he was like, I watched you dress up for this guy the night before. And then you show up with him just like, hey, here I am. Right? He's like, I didn't know what to think. But we had, that's when I fell in love that night. Like,

We had very good connection, very good energy. When's his birthday? He's at Aries. It's March 25th. Aries and Taurus. That's what you guys are, Jason and Mimi. I'm trying to tell her it's a great combo. Fire and earth. Yeah, for sure. Good combo. And it also depends on you guys' men's signs. Yeah, he's a Scorpio and I'm an Aries.

So his Scorpio probably talks to – you have a Scorpio rising, right? Yes. Yeah. So for sure. Yep. We are very – I mean, it seems compatible. Everything's been great. Yeah. He's great. So I had butterflies. He kissed me for the first night. I got butterflies. I was like, oh, shit. Here we go again. So I'm all in love. The next day, he comes over. Like, he went out with his friends, ends up ditching his friends to come over. We stayed up till, like, 6-something in the morning just talking. Mm-hmm.

I love those. I was absolutely in love. Um, after that, no hanky panky, no hanky panky. We made out. Yeah. We made out. She's like, I'm not giving it up yet. Nothing. I probably would have. Uh, he was like, if he would have tried, I was going, Oh, what a gentleman. Yeah. Didn't try nothing. So I said that later. I was like, I probably would have, I probably would have. I was in love. Um,

But then every night after that, he called me every night and we talked on the phone for an hour. Like after that. At this point, I need to bring up something. He had been talking to multiple girls, right? Because he was just out here dating just like I was. Just a player. Yeah, but I was doing the same thing.

same thing we're just dating you date until you find one worth just dating what dating's about right so we're doing that um there was one girl that he had flown to florida to see and she had flown to see him and there were conversations between the two that made it very clear that he was single

right they were not together absolutely and you could tell all over the internet he was plastering himself as single for those couple months that they were talking right and people did eventually go back and find all his captions their comments and screenshots and i was like thank you because this becomes an issue later right one of my cancellations was this woman uh but he slowly stops talking to her after he meets me now she did ask him

to his face if you saw Kelsey because I think she knew I was going to be down there too in Atlanta would you take her on a date and he was like yeah that ain't your boyfriend if he's telling you he's going to take another bitch on a date you guys got you guys listen you have to watch the video of this podcast because Kelsey's fucking facial expressions are priceless dude

It's just mind-blowing to me. But it's here nor there right now. Right. So they're slowly, he's slowly stopping communication. Right. Because that's what he does. He's not going to be like, hey. Well, that's what all men do. Men do. I do. They always want a plan A, B, C, D, E, and F. You know? So I think he's very much invested in me. He does not see her anymore. The last time he had seen her was early November. Like the week he posted about me. Right. Yeah.

Last time we saw it. So anyways, now moving into December, we go on to our queen team trip. And that's when things like just really kind of take off. Queen team's a big deal. It's supposed to be women empowerment. I think things are great. Right. The first incident that happened when I was getting calls, first of all, way too many calls. Like some of these girls wanted to FaceTime all the time and just talk.

I'm not a talker. I don't, don't call me. Could have fooled me. I can tell. Don't call me after this. No worries. Like I'm not, I'm not a talker. Like none of my friends, like we talk when we talk, but like I'm not big sit down and talk forever. And I was getting blown up FaceTime left and right. And I just wouldn't answer most of the time. And then I found out I was being talked about. That's later in the story. But,

The first instance that came up, it was Cody basically telling me that Tish was talking shit about me. So I'm not a person that's going to be like, all right,

all right well let's talk shit about her that no i'm like okay well give me a second i call tish yeah hey what's going on i heard you know you had this let's go straight to the source fucking to it and she was like um no they were talking shit about you and yes i did too because they were so i did oh god and so i'm like so everyone's just calling people talking shit i was so confused like why what's like what did i do right and cody hits this big viral video

Right? And so half the shit talking is how I'm probably so jealous of her. I'm gonna be so mad that she hits a million before I'm like, I'm not even thinking about this shit. I was basically wrapping presents for kids in Ronald McDonald house all December. And they're thinking I'm so Cody made a video that went viral saying that you were no, no, she just had a viral video. Okay, got like 45 million views. And everyone was happy for like, I even like, orchestrated her like 1 million tick tock.

But there was conversations behind my back acting like I was going to be jealous or upset that she hit a million before. People really think like this.

That is insane to me. Girl. And that's what I'm thinking. Like, I didn't know any of this was going on. Right. So I'm still thinking he's all my friends. Okay. So moving forward, I go hurtful to hear this. It's like, so because if people really knew how in the dark I was to all this, like I, and that's why most of my friends now they're like, Kelsey's the most like fucking oblivious of everyone. Cause I just don't assume people are hateful. We don't have to cater to people's emotions. I don't, I really don't. Your friends. Yeah. I think I just assume we're all good unless I hear otherwise.

Right. So I didn't know any of this was, I didn't know any of this chatter was going on. I didn't know any of these private conversations were happening. I didn't know anything. And so then I have like this, there's this girl and she had a niece whose mom was killed in a domestic violence relationship. Right. So I sign up with this other non-for-profit and we fly out to Texas and buy this girl his presents, try to do a good deed at Christmas. She just lost her mom. She was two. Yeah.

Yeah. Sorry. Jumping ahead. Didn't find out until the end of January. So we're still in December. So moving along, Curtis and I do our first like trip together. Sorry. It's so much. This was like the worst three months since I was beaten. It was just, and my whole face was broke out and acne. My hair was falling out. Like I was so stressed by everything going on. Um,

But Curtis was wonderful. I was literally diving into that because it was the only thing that felt euphoric. You know what I mean? Like it just was just wonderful. And so I didn't give a shit about anything going on. I just focused on him this whole time.

um so we with our first like real real time together we took our kids to a cabin in north carolina and spent the weekend together for new year's yeah so new year's is kind of he asked me to be his girlfriend on new year's eve how many kids does he have three boys okay three boys i think i saw a video of you talking about yeah yeah they're great um but so when i met them they're a couple years younger than they are now it's crazy they look like babies i feel like now and i look back i was like holy crap

But so we're at this cabin, asked me to be his girlfriend. Things going great. We actually had like a put up a video like teasing people or whatever. It was cute. Cute. On my way home, I get a DM from a girl named Kristen. And that's the girl I was talking about earlier. Okay. But I didn't know who this person was. But I get this DM and she was like, I just want to let you know that him and I were talking. And so I'm not messaging back because I'm

I don't know you so I call him and I'm like hey listen first and foremost you just asked me to be your girlfriend last night so anything that happened before last night ain't none of my goddamn business but I did want to show you I'm getting this message if you want to handle it whatever you don't have to explain shit to me because that's before me right and but he does he explains the situation he's like yeah you know I was talking to her uh met up a few times uh but it would

I wasn't serious. I told her I was going out on a date with you. Is she on TikTok also? Mm-hmm. Is she big on TikTok? Mm-hmm. Okay. At this point, she had like 20,000. Okay. She gets a little bit bigger off my name. Okay. Because the use and abuse of Kelsey on TikTok has been outlandish. Yeah.

there goes those facial expressions again guys and that word like people are like oh my god she's such a victim I'm clearly being sarcastic but people don't pick up on sarcasm no I did now that I'm in front of you I can see I it's just crazy to me that people are I think it's obvious I'm like I'm hilarious I'm sorry yeah

We're going to be here all day. It's okay. If you don't mind, Jesse Lawless will be coming in. So we'll just have to transition. I'm going to really timeline this out real fast for you. No worries, baby. No, you're good. You're good. So I ignore it. Obviously, he's like, he ignores it. She wanted to meet you anyways, so. Oh, good. I wanted to meet her. Yeah. And so then the next week we go to an event. Next thing you know, this girl puts up a video.

Well, you brought in the new year on attacking me, stitched my video coming at me. You brought in the new year on a lie. He was dating me. That was my boyfriend. Like, oh, whatever. And so I'm like, and I make a video response back. So this is fucking nuts. And I'm just like, dude, everyone was dating. I was dating. I went on a date two days before I decided I liked it. Like, oh, that's what you do. And I was like, yeah, we weren't together. Like, but I'm now have the internet coming at me like I'm some homewrecker and she is inciting all this. And then at the same time,

I named a plant Shaniqua because I love that name. Okay. Well, technically Pixar named it because I just picked my best plant for that name. You know, the Pixar, he's naming the trophies. Yeah. And so I picked my favorite plant for Shaniqua. It was legit. Like you can ask my friend Renee in college. Shanaynay was my name when we'd go out and we would go out completely sober and just dance. And that was my ultra ego. I was just out there having the best time of my life. I genuinely love the name. I always have.

Not so much anymore. A little traumatic. But I named my plant it. So I was getting in trouble for that. And then one drunk night in a bathtub with Curtis, people kept calling me fat, basically. They kept saying, oh, are you pregnant? Oh, you look pregnant. Oh, you look pregnant. And I just am like, I am pregnant. Pregnant with quadruplets. Shaniqua, Hanifwa, Kwanifwa, and Tanifwa. I'm rhyming with Shaniqua. Like, I'm not trying to make fun of a name. You're just being funny. I thought I was being funny.

And it wasn't because I think what happened was, or how it was explained to me is, you know, impact over intent. So I spoke to a lot of people like your intent wasn't bad. You weren't being mean. You weren't being disrespectful. You didn't in your mind, see it the way others did. But the impact is bad because little black girls could have thought you were making fun of their name. And then I was like, well, that's not what I meant to do. I genuinely love the name. So at this point I'm getting canceled.

left and right. But here's the thing. Can we just let's fucking be real here. Nobody ever really gets canceled. Nobody ever. Look at me. Yeah. Nobody ever. So can we stop with fucking saying people are canceled because they tried to cancel me when I had dimps on here too. And I was like, I fucking made a shirt in my merch that said like cancel me or cancel my fucking. I don't give a fuck. Cancel me. I get canceled every Tuesday. Yeah. Cancel me.

me I do not give a fuck you know like I'm just so tired they just throw that we're canceling them because they like shut the fuck up I just can't I hate it it's just crazy but nobody ever really gets canceled right so at this point though it was bad though because no one like no one had seen it happen really like I was like one of the first yeah thank you

But it was bad. Thank you for taking that L for us, Kelsey. No problem. No problem. Well, this voice says, it's coming in left and right. I'm obviously looking bad for the queen team. Right? And so what happened, this is where I got really upset at the last video she put up because she literally took what happened to me and switched it and pretended it happened to her. She literally talked about how she got canceled and we threw her under the bus and I'm like, my storm.

Who did this? Cody. Cody. She just made a video a couple months ago. Okay, hold on. Did we talk about how the girl, were we talking about the girl who DM'd you? Did you say she made a video? Yes. And so everyone, I was getting canceled for that because I'm a homewrecker. Okay, gotcha. I know who this girl was. I just wanted to make sure. It wasn't that. Okay, gotcha. So Cody made a thing. So all this eventually comes out later. The truth does get told, but people forget the truth.

And then they don't want to know the truth because they want to wallow in the toxicity that, that makes people feel like they belong to something, whether it's evil and hateful and spiteful or not. Right. I'm sorry, but misery loves company. I'm not trying to hang with y'all. It absolutely really does. And it, it was insane watching all these pieces fall. Like people I thought were my friends. Like now granted, I will say this. If Cody would have just left it at, Hey sis, uh,

I just have these viral videos. My shit's doing really well. Yo ass is out here acting up. It's bad for my brand. I would have been like,

That's fair. I am acting up a little bit. I'm going to do better, but good luck. Like as a single mom to a single mom. See, to me, that's still fucking weird to me. I think it's annoying because I'm not that type of friend. I'm not going to just dispose of my friends. But I would have respected that than what did happen. Right. So like if she would have just done that, like we'd have no beef. Like I get it. Brands are weird, especially at that time. You didn't want to be affiliated. I was acting up. That's on me. It's fine. And so I did, we did get a text. The queen team group chat got a text saying she was backing away.

If that would have been it, that would have been fine. Right? I honestly was like, I get it. But then what had happened was, so I'm canceled. She throws me under the bus. She is now calling, her and Paige are calling all of my friends and

the bonnie uh darren cat all these people she they're calling and trying to get to hate me and i didn't realize any of these conversations are even going on that's just gross exactly it literally is gross that's gross behavior and i didn't even know like what are we fucking 12 right and so that's why i'm like when people are like mad at me for stuff i'm like i was never on the fucking phone doing this i didn't answer none of y'all's face time

Kelsey. Maybe I should answer. Okay. So at the end of January, Kat calls me. She's another creator. I'm no longer friends with her either. I know. Do not know any of these people. Because we're not going into that one. But she does call me and tells me, she's like, I just think you need the heads up. This is what's going on.

I'm getting these calls, they're getting these calls, they're basically trying to turn everyone against you, throwing you under the bus. They wanted to use me as like the, because everyone was calling us mean girls. So like Kelsey was the mean girl. See, we got rid of her. So now we can all be queen team and happy. Fuck Kelsey. Like that was literally a plan that they had.

but then people realize because my first instinct when all this was going out is I told the other girls I said listen you don't have to pick sides yeah you can ask them I told every single one you do not have to pick sides you can be her friend my friend you make your own choice you're an adult she did this to me or this person's doing this to me at this point I knew she was throwing me out so I'm like make your own decision you shouldn't do anything to me so I back up like I'm like whatever do what y'all want to do well next thing you know since I'm guessing since they didn't choose her side she goes

Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I skipped over the wrong thing. Now she's being canceled herself. Right. Because she slept with her best friend's husband. I did. Mimi. All you hear is Mimi go, I love how she's so invested. I did see a video of something. That's in my notes. You're literally covering everything in my notes. I mean, you're hitting all the points. So I'm just going to let you keep going, baby. This was a big ordeal going on because when I was friends with Cody,

So the first day I met Cody, she told me this story. But the story was that her best friend slept with her husband. And then she ended up dating her best friend's husband. Because why not at that point? So Cody's the problem. I would say yes. But you guys decide. And I mean, I don't know, Cody. I don't know, you know, anything. I'm going to tell you what the biggest issue I ever realized in retrospect going into all this was. Okay, so when she wanted to meet up with Brittany, she gave Brittany a sobriety date.

She confided in Brittany that she was sober too and gave her a sobriety date. She met me and gave me a bottle of wine and we were drinking together. Like, and so Brittany was like, I thought she was sober. She made up a sobriety date to get close to Brittany who at that time had 800,000 when she only had 200,000 followers. That is so weird. She made up a sobriety, that's where I'm like,

And then things started to fall in place. And I'm like, with me. And then you keep seeing this pattern. And then it's the taking of people's stories and making yourself the victim when you cause the pain. Like she just did when she said, I was being canceled. Everyone threw me under the bus. But you had already thrown me under four tires of that bus. Right. What do you mean? Like you took my story and made it yourself. Jessie, when she lost that friend, she took what she did and had happened to Jessie and Jessie's business and

And she told the internet that it happened to her. Yeah. It's the taking of other people's stories and then she just becomes whoever the person is she's with. Right? So when she was with me, clap that. When she's with Paige, she has like more, she's more emotional and all kind. And I don't know, like she literally evolved. It was wild to watch. It was like a chameleon. She evolves to who she's around. Sociopath. And then her story would change constantly and she'd pick up pieces of other people's story and make it her own. Mm-hmm.

And it's so warped to watch. Because you're watching it and like, I literally didn't even watch most of the last video she made. I watched the beginning and I heard just that part. And I was like, I can't fucking watch this. Because you just, you change. And it always starts with, I've never talked about this publicly after she's talked about it three or four times.

And I'm like, how many times are you going to tell your story and it's going to be a different story? So it's frustrating on my end. And then people forget. You know what I mean? The internet's a forgetful place. It's not a forgiving place, but it's a fucking forgetful one. I feel like they only remember what they want to. Yes. Because I've had them do that to me whenever the Demp situation was going on. They literally took a piece of something I said and tried to say that I...

Remember that they were going to cancel me because I was talking about a sexual abuse victim. And I was just like, that's not what the fuck was said. People don't like that either. Yeah. And I'm a sexual abuse victim. Me too. You know? And it's crazy. But when I know someone's lying, I'm supposed to be like, stop fucking lying about that. Right. I'm going to call it out. Yeah. You know, like, it's crazy. I think the issue with TikTok is and why...

fucking terrible website that shall remain unnamed is even a thing is because...

Reality TV has always been a huge fucking thing. Everybody loves reality TV because one, a lot of people live boring lives and they don't have drama in their lives. So they get their fix off of reality TV. Well, now we have TikTok where normal everyday people are coming in and becoming famous because of who they are and they get these followings and people get so invested in their lives. So you guys are pretty much like reality TV.

TV to them now except you're on a phone so now these people on this website literally have a place to discuss all the drama that's going on but never the positive things that are going on I never knew you owned an autism you know center like that I never knew you graduated from college like that's beautiful that's what the fuck people should be focusing on not fucking what you ate for dinner who you're beefing with queen team's fucking breaking up Cody's fucking another personality like that's

That's not what... That's not what the world needs anymore. Like, we are healing here. I'm not even gonna fucking stop. This is crazy. Unless you just ignore it. So I just pretend the hate doesn't exist half the time anymore. At least it's...

what I'm working on. Yeah. Um, cause I refuse to be consumed by it. Like I live in my own little bubble. Like I said, I didn't know any of you guys's drama and I would rather be hated for loving people than hated for being fucking toxic and a part of the fucking problem. All of these people are a fucking problem. And it breaks my heart that you have to sit here and explain yourself to

For things that are so fucking juvenile. That's what I said. This is the last time I'm talking about it, but I've never actually just it just hurts my heart. Yeah, stupid. Yeah, so stupid. And honestly, if it would stop if this person would stop every four to six months making a video about it, like I wouldn't. Well, she has to stay relevant.

You know? But I'm like, you have 3.9 million. You don't need me to stay relevant anymore. Right. But I mean, does she have 3.9 million that are invested in her or invested in the drama? She has a lot of teenage followers. And so I think they are... Those ones are very invested. Which I mean, honestly...

I don't care. Like, good for you. I hope it's all working out. I hope you're living your dream. I genuinely wish nothing but good things for this person. I don't give a shit anymore. Right. But stop lying on my name. Right. Like, at this point, just leave me alone. The only time I talk about you at this point is actually...

after you've made some big scene about me or talked about me. - If Cody was sitting here right now, look at the camera. If Cody was sitting here right now, what do you want her to know? What would you say to her if she was sitting here right here, right now, and you guys could just have a conversation? Would you squash the beef? Would you? - Okay, so part of me wants to be like, I would rather do like the TikTok boxing and her and I just getting ready. But I don't know what's gonna happen. - I love that, let's do it. We can make it happen.

This is you and I. But no, I mean, at this point, like I feel like I'm in a place where I'm like, I would literally just like you were fucked up in 2020. In 2020, you were a bad friend. You were not a good friend. You were not a kind person. She hurt you. You hurt me. You very much hurt me. I protected this person on the internet. And then she threw me away like I'm in nothing. She used me to gain following and then treated me like I was a problem.

And it did hurt because I lost a friend to be her friend. I lost Jabril. So be this, ooh, I hate that I'm crying. I lost Jabril infesting myself in this. And it wasn't fucking worth it. So yeah, you did. You fucking hurt me and you're not a good person, but I'm sure you could be. Also, this is the person who's putting fucking hexes on me.

Just do the fucking egg cleanse. You'll be fine. I did protect himself. I mean, do we even know if she's a real witch? But Paige said that she didn't think she was strong enough to really do anything. Nobody's ever strong enough to ever... Listen, light always outweighs the darkness. Exactly. And that's why I always come up. Return to cinder. And that's why I always rise again because I know the light in me burns way brighter than any of this badness. Any of this negativity. Any of this dark. But yeah, I think...

she did fucked up shit I don't want an apology I don't want anything she did try to apologize once but she said I don't know what I did

but i'm sorry no i saw it i saw the text messages i did see that like you know exactly what you did yeah because she that's another thing she went on the internet during all this especially when the girls didn't stop being my friend she then threw them under the bus she didn't lose friends because of me she lost them because of her yeah she went on and she said that she told none of us to say anything because you know i did a video defending her and the story she told me found out later

that she fucked her best friend's husband and she didn't fuck her. - It sounds like- - It was a lie. - It sounds to me like Cody has a lot of healing to do too. - And she might be doing that now. I don't know. - How long has it been since you guys have talked? - The last time she made a video about me was like three months ago. - Yeah. - And it was all lies. And that's what's frustrating, it's all lies. But you know what?

I'm not putting on my page. Your feelings are valid and I can see that you are really hurt by the whole situation. You know, like it, let's not disregard that you literally, it brings tears to your eyes what you guys went through. So obviously you did consider her a friend, even if it was in a short amount of time. And then all the shit that you've had to go through losing one of your best friends who helped raise your baby with you for her.

was hurtful. And of course, in return, you're going to be fucking pissed and you're going to want to speak up when she speaks your name. And you, you're like me. We always want to like get the,

our side out. Like it doesn't matter. It was very hard for me not to. Yeah. Oh no, same. I didn't say shit the last three months. But I'm learning this like, well, what Drake has like that 72 hour rule. Yeah. You know, like wait. And I was like, you know what? I'm going to sit with this for a while. Yeah. And if it still means something to me after sitting with it and not becoming emotionally attached or becoming the emotion and I still feel the need to say something. Right. Then I'm going to plan how I'm going to. And that's when I was like, I'm going to do it here.

because I don't want to do it on my TikTok page because I'm sick of fucking talking about her on my TikTok page. So I feel like half the time it's brought up so that I do because the videos are always ended with, I'm sure they're going to make a million videos about me. Well, that's her. That's reverse psychology. Yes. She's trying to implant that. And so everyone is around me like, don't make a fucking video. Don't do it. And I'm just like, and it's eating away at me. But I'm like, how are you just going to spread misinformation and lies?

And then I have to just sit with that. Right. But I'm learning how to. And that's where my growing is coming. I'm learning how to sit and not react. I am an Aries moon. I'm an impulsive ass bitch. So am I. Oh, hey, queen. Yes, I'm impulsive. I'm ready to react. Well, here's the thing. But I do think that that friendship happened and everything happened the way that it did because it's forcing you to grow. It's forcing you to become a better person. It's forcing you to change some pattern behavior. You know, being silent is important.

Aries moons. Like I know we don't, we, and I'm an Aquarius too. So I'm all about justice. I'm all about the truth. I'm all about Mars is Aquarius. Yeah. So I'm always just wanting to fucking just be like, Nope, these are the facts. If you don't fucking like it,

suck me while it's soft and fucking moving on, you know, like that's just how it is. So I think that's the silver lining in all the drama that has gone on with you guys. And I know we didn't even tip the iceberg or whatever of everything that has gone on the internet, but I just want to focus. Yeah. And I just, and I'm happy that you were able to say that to her because maybe she needed to hear that even though you probably have said that to her in text messages, has she ever really got to see the emotion behind how you felt, you know?

I do want to get into one subject before you go. You guys are trying to have a baby. Yes. I'm so excited for you. I think that is such a fucking amazing J and I excited. I'm wishing you so much luck because J and I for a brief moment in time wanted to do in vitro and I went and I got the test done to find out like if your tubes are clogged when they shoot that stuff in there and it was the most painful thing I ever went through and I was like if

this is fucking what childbirth is like. I'm not doing it. My pussy clammed up. I was like, I have none rope fucking just barbed wire around my pussy hole. I was like, I had my ovaries and shit. I was like, I am not fucking doing this. So I know it's not an easy journey that you're going into, but I just think that it's really cool. Can you tell us about it? Yes. So we, we just really started everything. I just had my first ultrasound and,

I go in. We should be pulling the eggs out of me and pulling sperm out of him on December 1st. I saw that you said you wanted a Sagittarius baby. I do, but I'm not going to get it. Are you sure? I'm not going to get it. Because my husband's a Sagittarius and he's a fucking nut. No, I'm just kidding. But seriously. But that's from Jenna's one, so I thought it'd be great. Aw. I love that. I have other one. Whitney's.

Whitney is sages. I have all kinds of sad just around. No, they're the most jovial kindest fucking people and they have Jupiter and they're fucking they're ruled by Jupiter. So they literally are just the luckiest motherfuckers ever did. I wanted that. I wanted to

Yeah. She's like, I need some luck. Let me just have some luck. I'm really scared she's going to be a Virgo. Oh, it's going to be a she because we're picking. Yes. But yeah. So they'll fertilize it. They're going to do all the genetic testing, find the female atypical embryo and they're going to put it back in me probably, I think that's mid-December.

So by mid-December, I'll be pregnant with an otherwise. Are you going to have to start taking the Clomid and all that stuff? Yes, I'm on birth control right now. Okay. They stopped my birth control the 16th and I think I start my shots...

You know that's going to fuck with you mentally, right? Curtis already knows like, hey, whatever happens during this journey, let's just get through it, get the baby and fucking we'll get back to normal. We'll see. Because that was one of the things that worried me because I battle anxiety and depression and stuff like that. And just reading about all the fucking, I had a miscarriage and fucking had- You're scaring me.

suicidal no no i'm just keeping it real i know she's like bitch i thought this was supposed to be happy um i had a miscarriage and fucking had the worst suicidal ideation of my life dude it was really bad so just i think what i'm trying to say is don't be scared be prepared yeah you know it's better to know than not know and fucking go into it and be blindsided by it whereas you know absolutely so you're documenting out all of it for your youtube yes now youtube is blended with the woods

It's on all of our social stuff, but we're going to document the whole journey. And hopefully, you know, it happens the first time. It will. Put it in the air. Manifest. Literally. Today is 11-11-22. Baby, put it in the air right now. We're manifesting the first time. You're going to get knocked up, baby. I will find out. I am pregnant. Are you going to name her Shaquisha or Shaniqua? It immediately gives me anxiety. I had to, dude. No, it has to be a K name.

name. Oh, Kobe is cute. I don't know how you're going to top that. I have a cute one, but we'll see. Are you going to release it or are you going to do like Kylie Jenner does and fucking not tell anybody? I might try those one TikToks that like the it's like it's the Herbert family and they just do these six acts like we got a big announcement. Wait for the next TikTok. Ah,

I hate when people do that. Look in the background to see if you can find the clue. All right. Well, 2023, what can we expect? Hopefully pregnancy. Yep. Definitely pregnant Kelsey. Is there any other goals that you want to accomplish in 2023 or just baby is all that's on the brain right now? Honestly, I'm really focused on the baby. Like I'm really excited. I didn't think I'd get to do motherhood again.

So I'm really excited. It's the first round. Obviously, I loved being pregnant. Yeah. I loved labor. Yeah. It was weird. I loved infancy. You guys are going to have a beautiful fucking kid. It's going to be very weird. It's so funny because his mom, his mom is, she's white German. Dad was black American. I saw your TikToks when you guys were out there. Yeah, it was great. But she's like, please let it skip a generation and this baby come out dark and beautiful and beautiful, curly.

Like she's like praying and Curtis is like, the baby's going to probably have blonde hair and be damn hair rice skinned. Can you guys pick that?

that is that part okay I didn't know no because I know that it's like they have fucking crazy shit now that you can pick their eye color you can pick fucking hair color it sounded like just gender okay I was only all for gender yeah I don't know I wouldn't want to I just what I get I'm gonna love yeah I can't wait you're just like no fucking boys right no boys but I'm excited to experience pregnancy like being loved like

I didn't have that. I'm excited for you. I didn't think I'd get that, so I'm really excited. Kelsey, thank you so much for coming here. Thanks for having me. I'm really happy that I got to meet you. Why don't you tell people where your socials are if they already don't know so that they can...

Go and follow you. Follow the shit show. No, I'm just kidding. No rowing with Kelsey from here on out. There you go. I love literally. Yeah. Follow me at perfectly Kelsey underscore on Tik TOK and just perfectly Kelsey on Instagram. My name is Kelsey pummel on Facebook.

Starting that one. And then blended with the woods on YouTube. Do you have merch or anything like that or like a website? No, she's like, no, I'm not doing that. I tried the. It's a nightmare. Mimi handles all that for me. It is. It really is. Nope. Not right now. Just kind of hanging out. Stay at home. Mom on TikTok. I love that.

Well, thank you for coming on. I really appreciate having you. And I'm so happy that I got to hear your story. I'm happy you heard and gave me a place to say it. Absolutely, baby. And thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week.

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