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Is this thing on? What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. Today, I have one of the top girls and OnlyFans on my podcast, and I'm really excited because she's super inspirational, and she has a story that I think everybody needs to hear. So, baby girl Bella's in the house. Hello, hello. Thank you for having me. Dude, thanks for coming. What's up with those hooters? They're beautiful. They're about two and a half months old now.
Golly, like you are. She's so tiny. I mean, she is a baby girl, Bella, let me tell you. But her tits, how heavy are those? Six pounds. Dude, each? No, it's okay. I was like, holy shit. How many cc's? 1200. And I so I had my first augmentation two years ago and I was at 375, you know, living the life like but I honestly I had big boobs before then. So just shaped them better.
And then I thought, and then I was like, oh man, I just want bigger ones because I'm in the industry. And I like sat with that for a while and like I literally even like meditated on it because I'm like, man, I don't want, I'm not going to be in the industry forever. I wouldn't want to do something that was specifically for that. I'm not that type of person either. And then,
One day, I'm just like, this model, Bambi Blacks, has some like 2,700 or something. And she was like talking about it in a group. And I was like, you know what? I'm going to get some bigger titty. I was like, you inspired me. No, I just had my implants taken out in November. And I was out of the industry. I wasn't doing anything. And now that I'm doing OnlyFans again, I'm like, I want my tits back. Yeah, but it made you sick. I watched that.
Yeah. Well, it did make me sick, sick. It just, I, I suffer from severe anxiety. So I don't ever like to say that I had BII or whatever it's called because I don't want to ever mislead anybody. I didn't have all the symptoms that these women have. And apparently the BII is a real thing because all these women have it. You know, I don't think they're just making it up, but I didn't have those symptoms. The only thing I had was severe anxiety and my left one was
hurting really bad because I had a scar tissue. My implant had folded inside of me. So I literally had scar tissue, but yeah, I want some new tits. And looking at these, I'm like, dude, give me some new tits. I can't say I'm not. They're amazing. So let's, let's get into your story a little bit. Um, where'd you grow up? I was born in Wisconsin. I grew up mostly in good old Arizona. Um, I just recently moved, um, from Arizona to California though. And I'm
I'm loving it. Do you love Cali? Yeah. I don't know. It's just a different energy and everyone honestly talks so much shit about it. I'm like, I love Cali. Yeah. I was like, some of the coolest bitches come from Cali. I just think like they, they knock it cause they can't try, you know, they're like, Oh, it's so pricey. And I'm just like, you're like, whatever I'm living life. Yeah. I'll take it for the ocean 10 minutes away or whatever. So you grew up in AZ, you know, tell me a little bit about it. Um,
What set you on this path in life? It's like I don't necessarily think that, you know, everything, I mean, everything in your beginning when you're younger does have an effect when you're older. Childhood trauma is real. Yeah, but it's like I wouldn't say like, oh, this shit happened to me, so now I'm a sex worker because that makes it like a negative connotation. I get that. But I believe the things that have happened in my life have happened for me to be where I am now because I'm literally living the dream job. Like I got to fuck all afternoon.
I get to fuck a beautiful girl after this. Most importantly, I love that I'm not in the industry. I really love the independent creativity that I get to have, especially with OnlyFans. Like I was telling you, I've been doing this for four years. I was doing Snapchat before. How was Snapchat for you?
it was it was fun yeah not not as lucrative as the only family right like a joke it's like a monster of their own like it's i i couldn't believe it yeah i still can't believe it i'm just like we're blessed yeah like honestly anytime i see any girl coming on anything i was like any honestly i'll be real anyone who's in our industry doing independent um work like you have such an abundant um
opportunity online. Like there's always something to do, like make something. And I know it's hard 'cause especially a lot of us in the industry have, you know,
mental disorders oh yeah struggle with that and i struggle with anxiety and depression i don't say that i i don't as much now just because i don't identify with it i have right a little spiritual awakening and everything okay i want to hear about it yeah definitely um but yeah so in the beginning super traumatic childhood my dad passed away from a heroin overdose when i was eight years old um then my parents my mom my stepdad got arrested uh for drug trafficking when i i was in high school and it was just um just
A lot of, you know, just abandonment and everything like that. And I still tried to do what I could and everything. You know, graduate high school, went to college and everything like that.
Then I had a friend, one of the biggest things I think that kind of impacted just like my whole shift of getting into sex work and everything was I had the first boy I kissed actually, you know, obviously way years later, passed away from a heroin overdose, unfortunately. - So it's like a pattern kind of. - Yeah, yep. And I ended up moving across country to Charlotte, North Carolina. - Oh, okay, I love Charlotte. - Okay.
She's like, maybe. Maybe if you visit. Yeah, yeah. It's different if you live there. And I mean, I was really in the party scene and everything. And the guy I was dating was just like a shit show and just very – just brought a lot of negative energy into our environment. And that's when I actually got into sex work though. And I –
um i first did i did like a little bit of cam work and like modeling and stuff like that um but what made it to seem okay of like oh you know i don't judge people that do that to something of like oh i'm gonna do that is the guy i was dating uh did like gay porn like not super gay porn he he looked like he was in a fraternity so it was like that was like gay for pay yeah literally though so um yeah what's super crazy is he had like a like a kind of like sugar daddy guy out there and that's why like moved us out there and like literally we could
we had all the money we wanted all of this living the life but like most things there's always something like behind the scenes all good things must come to an end yeah with that it was just you know a lot of just doing drugs and just partying what was your drug of choice um i've had my phases but i just i used to back then it was like it was like molly and everything oh god i had molly nights i'm still literally every time i have a panic attack it brings me back to when i used to do molly i
And you're just like, I think now I just might have a little too much caffeine. And I'm like, oh, my God, how did I used to do that? Yeah, isn't it crazy? Like when you're a kid, you feel like you're fucking invincible. And you can literally fucking just balls to the wall, snort rails, fucking take Molly, fucking shoot cocaine up your ass, do whatever the fuck. Now, I fucking won't even drink a whole coffee. You know, like I'm such a scary bitch. Yeah. I like I literally just started smoking like a very small percentage of THC again.
I'm just like, oh my gosh, how did I used to smoke dabs and blunts all day? And now I'm just like, whoa. No, I used to do fucking bong rips. I could never. I would end up in a straight jacket in the hospital. Who was she? I kind of miss her. I miss the girl that I used to be sometimes because I'm like, God, I was so much fun. And now I'm tired.
I don't got enough energy. Yeah. Yeah. But I also, oh my gosh, girl, I used to drink a lot, a lot. And now I think of that too. I'm just like, wow. Like I just, I love life sober. Do you feel like you were an alcoholic or do you ever think that you could really call yourself like a drug addict? Not a drug addict. Definitely not.
And then alcohol, I'd only say because I drank like every single day. Yeah, I did too. And, but it was never, I never felt that I needed it. Right. And I never. It was more of a social drinker. Yeah, it was just, it was that like. Take the edge off. I used to dance. So it's like, of course I'm trying to get fucked up for that, you know? Like, woo.
um and yeah exactly i need a drink to feel comfortable now now i realize like oh my gosh that was what was giving me social anxiety yeah like so many people don't realize that because it's so like socially conditioned that like let's go drink let's go smoke i used to drink all the time and then right before i stopped i started um right before i stopped dancing i would work sober and even when i was a working girl i worked sober everybody was so much more money do that dude and i'm just like dude
It's just you get to the point where you don't want to be fucked up anymore because you're, like, in control and you can control the target. Yeah, no, exactly. And I'm like, if I went back to dance now after, like, just having with OnlyFans and stuff, I'm like, it would be – I'd be that girl who'd be like, want to dance, want to dance. Like, not all the, like, oh, my gosh, I need to, like, shit, shit. Yeah. No, no, no. No. Just give them what they want. Just, yeah. So, yeah, with all of that, I got stuck out there a couple years. I finally got back to Arizona and –
So I was dancing out there for a while and the clubs out there aren't very fruitful where I was in Charlotte at least. Fruitful, I like that word. Yeah, but you know, I got by, did what I needed to do. I was like, I need to go back to Arizona. I don't belong out here. You know, I don't like any of this.
So I went back to Arizona. I dated a guy who wouldn't let me work, you know, for a couple of months. Yeah. Yeah. And I'm just like, I dated a guy that made me delete my Instagram one time. I had like 40,000 followers. This was years ago. So it was huge. Yeah. He made me delete my Instagram and I did it. I look back to it now and I'm like, why the fuck did I do that? That's what like every guy I dated before. I'm just like, oh my God, how did I let you do that?
Like, what did, I'm like, you wish you knew me today. Or just it's childhood trauma. Yeah, exactly. Because you think at that point, that's your love. That's your love. Your love language. Yeah. Trauma, yeah. So, yeah. And then I eventually luckily left him and, yeah.
I moved in with a friend. I was like, all right, I'm going to start camming. You know, like I'd done it before. I did webcam too. Yeah. Cause it's just like, you know, like, okay, this is, it's going to be lucrative no matter what. It's not popping. And I went for like a week and studied, you know, what was the best sites to do and everything. Um,
So I actually started doing like fem dom and I kind of just fell into it. I cannot see you doing that. Really? But then again, I can see you doing it. Do tell. I've always been so intrigued by that lifestyle. I had a real dominatrix, this chick from New York. But she's so sweet. And dude, like she's hot and she's hot like in that fucking like just very poised. Like she's a real dom. Like where's the fucking black and all that. Like did she walk in? I was like, I'm horny.
oh yeah by the time we were done i was like dude you're fucking hot and she's like dude you're hot i'm like yeah did we just become best friends i want to hear about your dom lifestyle um so yeah so what uh yeah i've always found myself more of like a switch like i don't really like i have well i guess i do have a preference i have a preference for personal life i have preference for work right um and even that being said though i would consider my work life i don't hate
to say vanilla but when I think I'm just more hetero I suppose right I think I'm more sub because I'm such an alpha yes I want to be tossed around in the bedroom choke me slap me pull my hair yeah that's how I feel but then like and then but then like the femdom on me comes out and I was like ugh yeah so what happened
know that was because um so yeah like my twitter is bratty bella that used to be like my persona um derives from isabella james but i used to just go on cam didn't really know what i was doing and everyone was like oh you're so bratty that's good though because they like bratty exactly so it kind of just turned into like a femdom thing and i was on um i was on stream mate so i was all like oh my god this is bringing back memories it
yeah see i worked for my free cams i did my free cams i started that's the very first thing that i did but i did it because it was like uh just like the private sessions and everything and now i look back at it it's like i don't i do like doing private sessions i like sex with my members and stuff but it's different than like a whole cam to cam yeah but it was cool because i was like just like making fun of small dicks and i'm like it's small penis humiliation yeah and i look back at the first time that i did that when i had like a like not femdom account yeah i was just like what is
So for everybody at home that's listening, why don't you explain to them like what small penis humiliation is and all that stuff? Because some people have probably never heard of this and probably can't believe that this is actually a thing. Yeah. So yeah, because you wouldn't think...
There's a fetish for everything in the world. If you could think of it, somebody has fetishized and has came to it. So small penis assimilation is just guys. Some guys actually don't even have small dicks. That's crazy, but they like that. I've had a few guys with big honkers that want you to tell them that it's small for some reason. Well, yeah. It's just like the guys that are into being subbed typically are very successful, strong businessmen, but they like that other aspect. Just like we were saying that
you know, the reverse role so they don't have to be the boss for once. So there's that and there's like come eating instructions because, you know, you can't... Okay, let me hear about this. This I do not know about. So what is this? Come eating instructions? I just learned what a fucking J-O-I was when I signed up on OnlyFans. She said, aww. Poor baby. Yeah. I mean, because it is just... I didn't know what a J-O-I was until I signed up on OnlyFans.
And nobody would teach me what it was. So I had to like start Googling everything and learn on my own. But I've shit now bang out of JOI in no time. Yeah, there's so many like more. So what is come eating? Yeah, so come eating, I guess.
See, there's so many things that some guys would say like come eating J-O-I. Like that's like a straight thing. But to me, that's like femdom. You're literally having a dude when he can come, when he can come and what he can do, what he's going to do with the come when it is. Because to me, guys want to do it, but they feel like it's gay probably unless they have like a hot girl tell them to do it. You know, like I think that's, but then there's like ball busting. There's just, I really was into like accumulation. Do they eat the cum? Is that what it is? So just like lick it up. They eat their own cum. Like lick it up.
bitch. Oh my God. I'm making a new video tonight. Yeah. No, but that's what I'm saying. Some guys that, you know, obviously it's not like a thumb down page, but a lot of guys are super into it, you know, cause it's like same thing. It's like, you're having, I'm telling you how to jerk your cock off. Like, let's just, you know, make it a whole thing. So, um, but yeah, so I, but then I, I did that for about six months and I met a girl, um,
that got me into doing Snapchat. And I was like, oh, wow, like being, you know, quote, vanilla or just more typical stuff is just a lot more abundant, you know, as me. I was like, remember, I'm like, I made $500 today. Yeah. So when you're talking about Snapchat, so you're talking about private Snapchat. Premium, yes. And this was before FanCentral was around.
So this is. I missed the whole fan center thing. I don't even know what the fuck that is. It's just a website that you can sell your Snapchat, your private Instagram. Now they have everything OnlyFans does because it's competition. Oh, gotcha. But OnlyFans has been around for a while. I had it, but just in like the last year, it's become really, really popular. Just a huge thing. Yeah. Or it's like, I never would have guessed that. But Snapchat used to be the thing.
and you know it's cool because you're like I don't have to be live and I can do this I can do whatever I want on my page and just like anything else it's promoting yourself so you are your brand that's what I always tell everybody everybody messages me every day for OnlyFans advice and I'm just like you are your brand you have to invest in yourself you have to promote yourself yeah that's you could literally have the most
the amazing hottest tape ever and no one's gonna care unless you know how to promote it absolutely and that's always such a letdown too if like when you make something like super fire and you're like why did i hate that yeah i didn't promote it yeah yeah like whatever i didn't mention that i did anal the captions are like the that's it yeah you really have to like have a great caption that just makes people want to it's like an erotic novella yeah no like we are literally like
writers. It's crazy. There's sometimes like me and my girls will sit cause they all have only fans. Also we'll sit here and just be like, okay, what's the caption going to be like? And we have to sit there and one of us will be like, okay, I got it. Or the other one would be like, I got it. And we'll like write it out and then we'll say it out to the person. They're like, yeah, we love it. So yeah, I go, I go on like Pornhub and,
stuff oh my god that's a good idea and then like sometimes i write it where it doesn't teach me your ways i'm like busty blonde you know or something no some of your captions are fucking great it makes me want to buy some of your shit yeah what's going on under this fucking little price well i've been yeah so i didn't um okay so i'll get to this part so snapchat i did that for
I did that for a good like two years before I started making like really good money from it. And what happened is that, yeah, so you used to have to use like Google Wall, even like PayPal and all that.
and all that. And like, so our accounts get shut down all the time. And yeah, I don't you think that for us girls in the sex industry, we get fucking hated on by huge corporations every fucking day. Yeah, no, we honestly like we don't do anything wrong. We literally it's a job like any other job. We're bringing people fucking happiness. That's what I'm like. I'm like, I consider myself helping people, you know, like I'm like, I help people masturbate and like I'm especially like we're in our own home.
Like even people that are professional in the industry, like you're not hurting anybody. You're not like, look at child, here's my tits. It's insane. And yeah, we get discriminated because...
sex yeah you know there's people but there's way worse things in the world that could be going on like you know fucking just murder murders all the look at all the pedophile shit that's coming out the child trafficking and all that stuff but yeah it's insane it's um always so i've i genuinely i'll be straight up years ago my ex kind of forced me into prostitution i almost got sold into sex slavery so
I've been on all ends of the spectrum where I did that. I did. I had sugar daddies and everything. And I did not that I got sold into to pimped myself out. I know I did that too. I was one of those renegades who was like, you know what? Fucking God gave me a gift and I'm about to use it. So that's what I did it where it was forced. I did it where it was voluntary. And then I do when it was forced. How old were you? Can you talk about that situation? I was in my early twenties.
And it was. Was it more like a manipulation or was it like. Yeah. OK. Yeah. I wasn't like I wasn't like a pimp off of like Craigslist. Right. I was. It was the guy that I was dating who had the sugar daddy and everything. And we didn't need the money or anything. And I was just like, oh, I fucked up on Xanax. I was like, how does Xanax phase myself? I was prescribed it and Adderall for years and years and years. And then I finally got off of it. Thank God. Yeah.
And it's just like, I'm just like, oh my gosh, no wonder. Like, I just like thought things were so okay, you know? And it's like, I know. But at the time, I'm like, I'm in another state. I'm like, you know, he paid for my rent. Like, I owe him like, you know, I was like in love with him. Well, you also probably wanted to feel like you were contributing. Yes, exactly. Because he was bringing in so much money. I know how that feels too. Yeah. And so, and, you know, it's forced. And then I actually had this guy who was like, oh, I want you to be on tour with Drake and all this shit. Went up with him to New York.
And he was grooming me to, you know, to sell me and everything. And the fact that I just had such a big mouth and the day he was actually going to take me to get like my pictures taken or whatever for this. And like he like had me delete my face or like deactivate my Facebook. He just wanted you off the face of the earth. Yeah. So people couldn't find you.
you exactly and um that's so scary that there's people out there like this yeah and like just make it seem like normal and then like you know it's so like oh you know you you party and drink too much that's why you look older and like all this stuff was like not even true right and um so yeah like we were we stopped to get some food and he heard me over telling some guy i'm like
I'm going to be on tour with Drake or, you know, some whatever tale he was telling me. And he's like, nope. He's like, fuck this. Like, you're leaving. Like, someone's flying you out from here. Like, I had too big of a mouth. He knew he was going to get – he would get caught with you. Yeah, definitely. Yeah. And, like, I look back and at the time I even still don't even know. Yeah, honestly. And, like, I remember calling two of my friends. Of course, they didn't have money. And then I called my –
boyfriend whatever he was at the time who you know he was he actually didn't really want me to go but he was like you know whatever about it right he was actually about to go to ibiza like two days later i would have been so screwed he you know flew me back i went back to carolina thank god yeah who knows what you would have fucking ended up having to do yeah no like that and that guy raped me and he's like i could kill you and like nobody would know and just like that's terrible
Yeah, and I just look back at it now and I'm like, man, girls need to be safe. It's crazy that you can talk about that. And I had a couple of girls on the podcast who the coolest thing that they said, I don't know if cool is the right word that I should use, but the most intriguing thing that they said was, you know, in our industry, you literally get raped and you have to get right back up and get there the next day. You cannot sit around and feel sorry for yourself. So to see you sit here and talk about being raped and just –
not even bat an eyelash like that really shows the strength that you have I don't think people in the world understand that girls in our industry how fucking strong we are you know like we can't we don't play we don't let our heart strings you know come out we don't let people see all the shit that we've been through but just to hear you talk about that just so passe you know like I just want you to know you are loved and we're so happy that you're here and that shit didn't you know fuck that dude
Hopefully, you get this fucking karma. Oh, yeah. I mean, all of them, though. I mean, honestly, it's been a long ride. And I just – about a year ago, I just started getting really into, like, meditation and stuff. I love it. You said you had a spiritual experience. I want to hear about it. I had a spiritual awakening. Awakening. Yeah. So fast forward to all that. About – so two years ago, I started –
doing really well on snapchat so using fan central and i like lowered my price and i was like you know i was one of the top girls on there um i got my braces you know i got my first boob job and everything and and then for a while it was like kind of slow because i let my public snapchat i had like 15k or whatever and like it used to be really so i've always done just inner um
Internet stuff. Oh, internet stuff. But like just promo like on Snapchat, promo on OnlyFans. Like I never had like a huge Instagram or anything. Right. So I'm used to that. I think that's amazing because most people make it sound like Instagram is vital, you know? No, it's not. Yeah, that's not. I think, yeah, I think if I had one, you know, or like if my Twitter is what it says it was, you know, but like and honestly, it's just I just do a lot of promo. I buy promo and I just...
And I like – and it's cool too because it's like I've been around for a while. So it's like girls kind of like know me and have that trust and everything. No, I see you in the 75 Up and Club. Yeah. I'm in there, but I don't talk to anybody because I'm scared. Yeah, I know. It's like – yeah, it's why? I mean, I'm in that too. I'm like, oh my gosh. Because I've been – so yeah, I've been doing very well for just like the last couple months. I've just been like thriving. So what happened though is I started – I got OnlyFans. And then back in December, like man, I'm like I see –
I see girls making a money amount that I literally make every week now. And I'm like, I need to make that every month. Oh my gosh. You know, like, you know, I got, oh, so I got a coach. And for two freaking months, I sat there and watch all these girls thrive in her thing. And I still was not making money at all. And I'm just like, I know, I'm like, I know this will work. I know this will work. Just got to like hang through like,
she does like i lowered my price and it took like i had a lot of videos and stuff just like just like giving too much and i just i only had like 400 subs like which is why like i learned very quickly that you don't have to have a lot of subs to make a lot of money that's what was i didn't know i didn't know how to hustle with them right to really give them what i wanted and really understand like price points and stuff like that nobody they don't have an only fans class
And they have like, you know, all these girls have like, I haven't watched yours and stuff. It's like you say as much, but you have to experience it. You have to do what works for you because what works for another girl, another girl can have a bunch of nudity, full videos on her page and still make, you know, X amount. But then, you know, another girl can do it and it doesn't work. Right. It's just like a lot of girls that have big platforms like you, like some of them don't even do hardcore stuff because they just do underwear pictures, you know, it's like, and they still can make
Like fucking, what's that bitch's name? The fucking ring girl. I forget her name. Fuck, I forget her name. She's like one of the ring girls for the UFC. Oh, okay. She makes fucking bank, dude. And all she does is like post pictures in her bra and panties. Yeah. And I'm just like, geez. Because it's just something else. Lucky you. Yeah, this one girl. I'm over here spreading my butt cheeks in the morning, you know. And she's over here in a fucking bra and panties. And I'm like, fuck you. No, I'm just kidding. I don't spread my butt cheeks in the morning. I spread them at night. Yeah.
I'm just kidding. Gotta get that atmosphere. Yeah, but no, you're so right. Like, it doesn't matter, you know, going to the movies.
Go ahead. What were you saying? So, oh, yeah. So finally, I started just kind of doing my own thing, like kind of stop doing some of the things that she told us to do. And I still am so grateful for her. Like, it's still a great group and everything. But then it just, you know, started popping off more. And I just started, honestly, started making more sex tapes. I've seen your growth even since you and I first started talking. I've seen the growth. I'm like, go, bitch, go. It's fucking wild, honestly. I think it's amazing. Yeah.
And it's just, it honestly, it's consistency. That's what a lot of girls think. I mean, in some girls, like I, I put out two videos every day. Um,
See, I was doing three pieces of content a day on my free page. I was pulling in that much money on my free page. That was crazy. But it was exhausting. Three fucking pieces of content a day. Like, oh my God. So I've gone back to at least one or two pieces a day and then just try to like, you know, do things in between. Yeah, little things. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah, exactly. That's really, that's where...
The best thing is like doing engagement because the guys really want that. And like some girls, that's the thing. People do all different kinds of stuff. It's crazy. And it's just, it's like a little world. Yeah. You can do whatever you want to offer. And that's what I'm saying to you. Sometimes, you know, guys are like, why don't you offer this for this really cheap price? I'm like, cause that's not me. If you want me to do this, that's how much it is. Yeah. That's a custom. Yeah. That's a cut. Like not just your, your recommendation. Yeah. What is the weirdest thing ever?
that you've ever been requested on OnlyFans. Oh, no. Or maybe not even on OnlyFans in your career because I've had some weird shit. Like when I did webcam, I had a guy ask me to hang myself. Oh, my gosh. He said he would pay me to hang myself from a door. And just like not die? I don't know. But I was like, I'm not going to try it because what if I don't fucking live to tell the story, you know? I mean, I just like I've had guys like fuck their asses with baseball bats for me. What? Yeah. And I'm just like, no.
I didn't know you could do that. I didn't know you could. He wasn't ready. Like, oh my God, a baseball bat. Like, how do you figure out your assholes that big? Oh man, just like hopes and dreams. I can't poop. Okay. So I could never even imagine shoving a fucking baseball bat up my ass. Well, no, I see it like, you know, they have bad dragons, like hankies toys. I don't know.
Not even that they're that long. They're just so thick. And I'm just like, and guys are just like ramming. I'm like, oh my God, I see this on Twitter all the time. Listen, if any of my fans are watching this right now, I love you guys because you guys don't fucking do this to me. Yeah. Oh, yeah. My guys are just normal. They're just like, fuck it. They're vanilla. I guess you could say. I don't get any weirdos. I made a small penis humiliation video one time. Nobody bought it. Oh, no.
I was like, okay, these are not my fans. Yeah. I'm not doing this again. Yeah. I just started like, I have mostly sex tapes. I just started, I used to always just be solo and I'm like, you know what? Like I have guys, I just want solo stuff. I'm like, I make fucking amazing solo content. Yeah.
So it's just like finding that difference. And I'm like, I would always just want to like, you know, put out like small pieces. But I'd be like, yeah, the like subset of people actually request that. So I just like offer as a custom. And it's like, hey, it'll be, you know, have your name in it or whatever, too. So you have an interesting niche on OnlyFans. Can we talk about it? What? Yeah. It's the stepbrothers. Yeah. So you cater to that's a fantasy that people have. And it's, you know, obviously it's a real thing. Yeah.
you know can we talk about that it's like very taboo and people are very into that um yeah so actually one thing that and i'm not saying uh or like not not saying or anything that i had a type of relationship like that in the past but um what i had mentioned before with my coach that she found as interesting is that um
A lot of sex work is you're able to use it to heal past trauma. Right. That's such a cool way. Can you say that again for everybody? I've used sex work to heal my past sexual trauma. Yeah. Especially with the femdom thing because I was involved in that
the like gay for pay. Like, so I didn't mention it was like a, like a sadomasochist thing where like he didn't have, they didn't have sex, but he like abused the sugar daddy. And like, he like, he drank his pee and like did like, just like, you know, crazy like violent stuff. When I was a working girl, I had a client who always wanted to get beat up and kicked in his ball.
Yeah. And I never did it. I always brought other girls to do it for me. Yeah, whatever. Like, because I was just like, I can't just fucking look at this dude and punch him in his face for no, but I'm not going to beat the fuck out of somebody like unless I'm pissed. And then that's another story. But, you know, I always brought other girls and I would always tip them. And I know I love that. I'm actually one of like one of the fears, fearsome, tiny. I know you're not going to abuse people and shit. I mean,
want it i love it yeah but it is it's like that like switch um of that so it's like you know i see the dom in you now yeah because it's like i had that and i'm like and i'm like now i'm in power you know and like i've that it's like that i've worked through all that like so much and it has to be because of like what i do right so i tell other girls because i'm just like man like you know i've been there i've been there where it's like you cry all the time just because you think of like you know the past and everything but it's like it doesn't
It doesn't even even exist. The only moment that exists is the present. And, like, we have, like, all the power to just, like, create such a beautiful life. Because I'm, like, the reason – I mean, besides, like, honestly, anyone out there doing OnlyFans, consistency and hard work pays off. Like, you're going to get it if you want it. But my biggest thing is, like, in the beginning of the year is, like, I'm, like, I want to do very well. And, like, I manifested it. Mm.
I had a vision board. Literally everything I have on my vision board down to where I live, down to the Tesla I'm about to get, down to the grocery store that I shop at. I have all my vision board. And like even I had like the numbers I wanted to reach on OnlyFans and I keep changing them. You bitches better start making vision boards tonight. Yeah. I'm like I was always kind of like about it, but I have it up and it's just so powerful. No, I love vision boards. I think they're awesome. I want to hear about the spiritual awakening that you had. Okay. Yeah. So –
This is about a year and a half ago. And long story short, I was dating a guy for two years. He was a millionaire, but he was also a drug addict. I feel like that always goes hand in hand. They get bored. I've never met a happy millionaire. No. Not one. And they create their own misery. Yeah. Because it's like you have all... I mean, that's the thing. Obviously, material items don't make you happy. Don't make you happy. Or even being at the top of anything. At all. So what happened is that...
he got arrested while we're on this rave cruise and everything. And yeah, it was just like you get arrested on a rave crew. That's like expected debauchery. No, that's what they they're like looking for. But like basically we're in an area we weren't supposed to be at a time. And I'm told like this is whack. And he's like, shut up. And like he had. So, yeah, his thing was ketamine, which honestly that was that was my thing. I loved that. I did it one time and it made me really horny. And then I went to sleep and that was it.
yeah you gotta yeah you gotta like stay awake through it but um so I mean and everything you do it's like your environment and everything too it's like I was the worst drug addict everything made me sick I was always rocking back and forth in a corner like I'm not a good drug addict I know I feel like in a ball like okay stop rolling now yeah my body is just not equipped to take drugs period no and like some people don't realize that and they still keep
doing it yeah well that was me I did that for fucking like a decade and then finally when I got older I was like okay you know what I'm not gonna do this to myself anymore I think it was kind of like a form of abuse you know I felt like I deserved it yeah um yeah definitely it was like a self-mutilation in a way yeah almost that um self-hatred yep absolutely we all have to work through
um so what happened is he got arrested and it was just like really traumatic for me i was like this is when i first was like getting more into like self-help and just uh start seeing a therapist and stuff and it kind of just like set me back and um about a month after that just kind of being you know going and going with the emotions and everything i was just like messing around on youtube and i was looking at like um i'd been off adderall for like a year so i was like what are some
some natural remedies for like focus and I was looking at like trying to just like just bettering myself and also I saw this girl that I followed about spiritual stuff and found out she was a complete hoax so I was like hmm what's really going on that's terrible yeah I mean that's why you kind of gotta vet everything that's out there it wasn't the one with pink hair was it Audrey Kitchen yeah yeah
I was like, I don't trust nothing from my space. She blocked me because I talked shit about her on Twitter. It was all fake. She's a terrible person. But anyway, so, but I'm glad because everyone, you know, has their purpose in your life. And so I just kind of fell into the YouTube rabbit hole and I found specifically this dude, Aaron Dowdy. He has almost a million followers now and it's just like,
all that you know where we're infinite spiritual beings have a temporary human experience and like he had adhd and got you know cured his symptoms or whatever you call it from meditation just all of this fell deep into the rabbit hole um was vegan became raw vegan quit smoking weed like cold turkey and you know i was like smoking like a gram or more a day just stoned out on my mind i was like whoa like what about like yoga and you know meditation and i booked
I booked a retreat to do ayahuasca. Oh, my God. My husband would love you. Yeah. That's right up his fucking alley. He wants me to do that so bad. It's wild. What is it? So I want details. So it's like it's plant medicine and it has DMT in it. And basically it's like, you know, we're born and we're all born just like pure love.
and all this stuff that happens in our life uh kind of takes us away from that which is like so it's like the ego and then like the soulful self yes and just doing ayahuasca like brings you back to that and like what what like they say she's like you know an energy just like shows you like all this like just like who you've become basically you know like and it's kind of rough do you have bad like is it a bad experience or is it
emotional is it like a up and down thing or is it like a completely downhill thing um i slept through all my ceremonies like that's how like they they say that sometimes that happens because that's how you need to be healed and i'm like it was because i did it for four nights straight it's down in costa rica and it's like really nice you know it's called rhythmia it's like nice resort and everything did it make you like did you have anxiety or anything
and no like it was just all these people are literally some of them are vomiting some crying some are screaming you know it is it's like a really really intense process because it's like you know just showing i'll be the one that's vomiting screaming and all of the above yeah it's i mean i'm surprised i wasn't but it's like sometimes they say the people that have had the like deeper trauma like that's how it is they also say it's like healing your ancestral wounds because it's like all the stuff that happened like in our families in the past like we still
- Carry that. - Yeah, we're still carrying that. Even the karma. - Carry that, yep. - Yeah. - Carry that scar. - So you're like, damn, like I didn't even think, you know, I did anything like this, but it's like, oh, it could have been like your mom's mom or something like that. So there's so much like spiritual stuff. I'm so into it though. - I love it. - And I just think that, you know, people think because, you know, because I'm in sex work and I'm like this, that I can't be another way. And it's like, no, like you can be any way you wanna be. - The most spiritual women and the coolest women I've ever met are in sex work. - Yeah. - It's the square bitches that are fucking rude.
and judgmental and a bunch of fucking Karens. Like, I swear to God. And it's the truth. Like, and that's because they have a bunch of unhealed shit and they don't want to deal with it. So they take it out on everybody else. But we're so in tune with our bodies and our souls and our minds that we are, we're figuring this shit out. The hoes are winning. Right?
right? Hoes are winning guys. I just want to let you guys know that. So what can I expect to see or what can we expect to see from baby Bella for the rest of the year? I'm actually, I want to, I want to start a blog based. I know. So, so like nineties, but I love writing and just to give my, you know, my fans a little bit more, but something just based off of like a, my, my super boob adventures, you know? Cause it's like,
It is just a different life. And what's so funny is, like I said, I've always kind of been packing it there, but I really wasn't, you know, like, and now I am. So I'm just like, huh. And I'm like what everyone's always kind of kind of put me as perceived me as even like in high school and stuff. I'm just like,
I just love it. I love life. I can do that. Only fans all day. What do you think the lifespan on only fans is? I don't like to think about it. I know. At all. I know. She's like, let's not even talk about it. Yeah, because there's people who are like, oh, it's going to be shut down tomorrow. It's going to be this and that. I'm just like, you know, anything could. Like, you could be working at a corporation for 20 years and they could boot you any day. Yeah, any day. It's just like that. Just live every day. It's like the more happiness and more abundance there is of something, there's going to be the opposite end of that spectrum. So it's like just...
pay your taxes and save money. Yeah. Honestly, I love your views on life and I'm so happy that you came here to share your story. I can't, I want to have you back on. Definitely. I have to come back and see me and I want to just, you know, touch base with you, but thank you so much for being here. And do you want to shout out where people can find you? Cause you don't have an Instagram, no Instagram.
They can't handle it. They really can't. You can shout out your OnlyFans and all that stuff. Yeah, it's OnlyFans.com backslash BraceyBella. And my Twitter is at Bratty underscore Bella69. Go check her out. She's a cutie and she's a sweetheart, man. Thank you so much for being here. Thank you. And thank you guys so much for listening to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye. Bye. Bye.