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Is this thing on? What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I am chilling in Vegas right now. Came back home to get some of these podcasts done. But on my way down here... Actually, she's been with me for like a fucking...
Yeah, you're not getting rid of me. I'm just, I'm attached now. I don't know. We just met and we've never separated. It's like every relationship I've ever been in. I got my girl, I am Kate of Music here. How are you doing, baby? I'm doing the best. I'm with you. I'm sorry. I love you. I love you. Want to eat my pussy later or what? All right.
So I don't know if you guys are familiar with Kata, but you guys are going to be familiar with Kata. Jelly is actually in the studio. I think we're allowed to talk about this. I think so. I was on. I think we're allowed to. My whole heart smiled. Yeah, Jelly. Well, I took an interest in her and her best friend, one of her best friends, Viking Barbie. Viking Barbie was on, I think, episode five of my podcast. She was like one of the first podcasters.
people to come on my podcast. And that's how I ended up being introduced to you was, um, you know, via the interwebs. I don't know. I feel like all of us internet girls kind of just bond with each other because we get it unspoken love that we have for each other. Yeah. And so I was introduced to her from Kaylee who has Viking Barbie. And ever since then, it's just been like, we've just been super cool. And then we actually got a chance to meet
And it's been game over since then. But her, Jelly, and Kaylee have been in the studio working on new albums together. And I'm really excited about this because Jay's producing it, right? Yeah, it's insane. Yeah. Somebody that insanely, like it's, yeah, it's kind of surreal actually. How did you get into the music industry? How did you and Viking Barbie link up and all that stuff? Let's start from the beginning. Oh my gosh.
Oh, man. There's so many aspects I can come at you with. So we're going to start with the music because all of you bitches, I'm telling you right now, go listen to I Am Kata music and Viking Barbies music and stuff like that. And you guys are going to be in love because they are for the bitches. Let me tell you. Definitely. So, well, my music story started probably when I came out of the womb, you know. I didn't cry. I sang. She came out like, oh.
So, yeah, no, I ended up moving to L.A. True story. One-way Greyhound ticket, $40 in my pocket to L.A. when I was 19. And, you know, I had like a lot of...
you know, there was a lot of learning that happened and we're going to talk about that. We'll like run through that process later. But like, so, um, I was working on an album, uh, and I actually, and she's pretty open about this. We're both sober. So she, um, she talked about her whole recovery process and everything. Yeah. So she and I actually met in the program of alcoholics,
Not allowed to say anonymous. And, but yeah. And so we were friends like here and there kind of, kind of like a creeped on her from afar. I'm like, I want to be, I didn't want to be weird. Right. Right. Didn't want to overwhelm. Right. You know? And so like we ended up,
uh, just like talking online, seeing each other every once in a while. And like, she just always had my best interest at heart. Like she was kind of blowing up on Instagram at that time. And I was like, bitch, what are you doing? Like, you know, tell me our secrets. And like, I was like, what are you doing, honey? What are you doing? You need to tell me like I need it. Um, so I was like, girl, like I was like, if you, she's all shout you out, you know? And I was like, Oh, I'll pay you. Like, I know how hard you work. And she's like, no, she was like, I got you. And I'm like,
that's me. You know, like I always got people and they don't got me back. I'm like, fuck. And I'm like, she's me, you know? And so I came back around and, um,
She had hit me up and she's like hey I want to write a song and I know like I was like well can you you know? Are you seeing are you? Like cuz it's not like everybody likes to do it, but if you don't have a natural ability like it's like the dude on that reality show last night I'm the king of R&B like no you're not friends. I'm not even the prince. Who are we lying? You're the jester. She was being nice But um, oh that sounded mean-spirited So
So yeah, I was like, yeah, let's get in there. So I kind of introduced her to my people or whatever and we got in and she was like insanely talented. And she busted out singing Fiona Apple Criminal. I said, what?
I got little chills on my arms. I was like, okay, you can sing. And so, yeah, we just started creating from there. And it was like, just like a natural, um, energy. We were sisters from like that. You know what I mean? Like it just worked and, um, we're both insane. So we get each other's crazy, which works too. Yeah. And so, um, ever since then, we've just been kind of cranking it out. Yeah. Tell me about the journey. You said that you moved to LA, um, with a one-way ticket. How did that pan out for you? Um,
Oh man, see, I always get weird about starting at one place in my story because it never makes sense. They're like, but why? You know, I'm like, listen, I promise it all makes sense. You know what, you tell the story from any point that you want to. Okay, so background. Where were you born? I was born in a small town called Red Bluff, California.
I call it shit town America actually. Cause like basically what it is, little bloop on the map. Nobody really knows where it is. A little, you know, it's known for its meth labs. Yes. I want to go visit. No, I'm just kidding. No, you don't. No.
Totally get it. Yeah. So I still get back there every once in a while because I got family there. But I'm like, every time I go, I'm like, take me back. Thank God I made it out of there. Oh my, literally, that's exactly. And sometimes I'll see things like happening there and I'm like, oh my God, that could have been me. Right. Like if I didn't grow the biggest pair of balls and been like, bye. What prompted you to grow that biggest pair of balls and get on that? Well, see what had happened was, is I had just gotten paroled. Yeah.
I was paroled at 19. What were you paroled for? Let's talk about all that. So honestly, like I got in trouble for a lot of crazy shit that like probably wouldn't have been like so bad, but I was in the system. So I was, I grew up in foster care, you know, the whole nine. And so anything that I did was against the law. It didn't really matter. You know, once you're on probation as a kid, like you're no longer a CBS case. Like if you don't, if you fail at a foster home or if you fail at a group home or whatever, you're going back to juvenile hall.
Like you're not, you're not being those kids. No hope, no hope. Like, but you know what happened was, is I'd already failed so many times. I was like, I could, if this fails, well, just add it to the stack. You know what I mean? So it gave me balls. But, um, so I, um, yeah, I was living in a, I bought a trailer, uh,
Watch Trash America. Watch Trash America. I like to paint a picture because everybody... If you guys were to go to Kata's profile, you would see this beautiful girl who's living an extravagant life, who has it so easy. And, you know, people just...
literally would look at you and be like, she doesn't have a care in the world and not realize that when they open your book there, it's that there's pages that they're going to take out of it. That's a testimony to their stories, you know, but that's what, so I know that it seems like we're jumping all over the place, but really this is all coming full circle to fruition. So you guys can hear about, you know, all the success that,
has come her way after all of the struggle. Yeah. So what prompted the move was I was selling meth out of this trailer, of course, because that's, you know, those were my options though. Like I literally like I sold, like I was in an accident when I was a kid and I had those like structured payments. Yeah. Let me hear about this accident. Cause I just learned about this accident yesterday. Yeah. I had no idea. Well, we're going everywhere. There's so much.
There's like, she's like, tell that story. I'm like, girl, we got juice. Like I got juice for days. Like, I don't know how we're going to fit this all in. So, um, yeah, I got suspended from school for getting into a fight. And like, while my, um, parents were at work, um,
I went over to the neighbors and borrowed their quad and like fucking they had just like built houses on these plots and they dig this hole that's called a perk test to test the well for like, you know, chromium and mercury and shit like that. But it's a big ass hole and the weeds had grown up in it. It's down the middle of the country and I was going like 50 without a helmet just like ripping and running out there and I flipped it like three times and I broke pretty much everything on my right side and like almost died. It was
It was a long recovery. Crazy. But so I got this settlement money and I was like, I'm selling that because they didn't want to give it to me until I was like 30. And I'm like, I'm broke now. Yeah. Give it to me now. I just got out of jail. Like I have no prospects. And so I bought it and I bought a bunch of meth.
I always wanted to be like this Tony Montana. Yeah. Like always have like this inner gangster. No, I think all of us like girls that grew up in the streets. Yeah. We want to be, we are bosses. So we live that lifestyle. Right. But I'm a terrible drug dealer. I'm way too nice. I'm a terrible drug addict. Yeah, I'm both. Makes both of us. I think I'm a terrible drug dealer because I am a drug addict. And also I'm nice. Like I want everybody
everybody to get high i'm like here you go you can just have it i'm like wait where my drugs go so yeah i did i realized that wasn't for me when everybody started trying to rob me and i i say trying because there weren't any successful ones but um i was like people that i grew up with is shady yo people that i knew since i was eight or like just coming out the left side and i'm like we want your math nobody has my back here like what the fuck am i doing here and so like um
Well, that's another story. So I got hit. It's like a friend hit me up. It's all coinciding. Yeah, it all crisscrosses. Yeah. And so like I got an opportunity to move L.A. and move to L.A., which actually wasn't the opportunity I thought it was, but it was like my way out. And so I moved. But yeah, so that's how I ended up coming to Los Angeles.
So what happened whenever you got to Los Angeles? Oh, we're going to go there. Oh, yeah. Okay. How old were you when you got off that bus? I was 19. I was 19. 19 and green. That's how we like them. I was 19 and green. And not only was I green, I grew up in prison, basically. You know what I mean? So I didn't have any family. I didn't know what the fuck was up. Like, I barely knew how to make my bed. Like, nobody... They all... You know what I mean? Yeah. Like, there wasn't really any...
nurturing if you know what I mean nobody taught me shit so I'm out in LA and like somebody that was supposed to be my friend gets me caught up in some like gorilla pimp situation I'm like motherfucker can a girl catch a break you know what I mean like that I went from one hell to another that's exactly how I felt and I went out there to get sober I was like I'm quitting drugs and she's like you want some meth and I was like sure
You're like, yes, please. Now I do. Red flags feel like home. Right. Red flags feel like six flags. Yes, exactly. So, yeah. So how long did that situation? So you were a working girl. Yeah. Me too. Everybody on my podcast knows all about that. You're a working girl. You had a pimp that, you know, was pretty much, you know, you grew up without anything.
You grew up without the love. So in some aspects, it's kind of like Stockholm syndrome where you love that person because they're protecting you and they're guiding you and stuff like that. But well, I realized he couldn't leave because I had all the I made the money. But most girls don't realize that. Oh, I did. I realized as soon as I was able to dance, I was like, I'm not doing this anymore. And it was like.
All right. Because I mean, like, I really I spoke about this before. I was like, something changed. And I was like, I hold all the power. It's me all along, like the Wizard of Oz moment, you know? And I was like, I run this shit. So, yeah, I ended up starting dancing. I got out of that world, which I'm. How did you get away from him finally? Oh, man. Yeah.
So like I said, I was working in the strip clubs. I'm great. Uh, uh, Orange County, California. And I met somebody at a club who was very well to do and like sugar daddies. But it, but it was like, he was kind of like a Prince charming, you know what I mean? Like, um, and I really did love him. Yeah. Like when we were together, he ended up being really like a lot like, um,
Cause like as things progress, like I realized like I didn't like, it was too much for me. He wanted to get married and I got married to him. And so I married this millionaire or whatever, basically. Yeah. It was not a bad thing though. I always tell him the biggest thing I preach to people is never apologize for what you have to do to survive. We've all done shit that fucking either one we're not proud of or two just was a stepping stone.
for us to have to get to where we were. Right. Well, when you understand me and you understand my character, it's like when I left that relationship, like I was like, yo, like I'm not making you happy. Like you're fucking miserable. I don't want to hurt you. Like, yeah, I don't want anything from you. Like you can have everything that you, you know what I mean? Like take it. I don't want anything. You don't have to give me any money. Like I just want this to be over so that you can go on and be happy and I can go on and do drugs and ruin my life. And,
I didn't know that at the time that that's what I was going to do, but that's definitely the road I took. How old were you whenever you guys decided to get the divorce? 23. 23. So what's 23-year-old Kate like?
Oh, she's a, Oh man. I was, I was Hollywood and it up. I was rich bitch. It wasn't my money, but I was like, Oh, like draped in Tiffany's. And you know, it was just like, I had never seen that life before and everybody wanted me, you know? And I'm like, Oh, I'm a train wreck, but we'll just crash together. And so, um, yeah, I just was kind of living like that young lifestyles, the rich and the famous life, you know, for a while. And, um,
There was a lot of partying and a lot of just being dumb and fun. So your drug addiction, where did that take you? How dark did it get? Oh, fuck. The lights almost got turned out completely. Yeah. You know, it's the best way that I can say it. And like, so...
I'm always kind of a teeter totterer. Like I used to always wish I'm like, why can't I just, you know, go balls to the wall like everyone else and ruin my life quickly so I can pick it up. Cause if I'm not in, I swear, that's kind of how I think too. I'm like, fuck man. Why do I take so long? How am I such a control freak that I can manage a full blown drug addiction for years, you know? And people think I'm normal. I mean, they always think I'm a little crazy, but yeah. So, um,
Yeah, I was able to manage for a long time. What were you doing? What was your drug of choice? Well, it started off with just, you know, math. Well, no. Okay. So when I got, it's one thing the pimp did for me. He was like, you're not doing meth anymore. I'm like, yes, I am. He's all no. And I was like, oh, okay. He's like, here, here's heroin. No, he didn't do that. I'm kidding. I'm kidding. I actually got sober for a while. I got sober for a while, but then like shit was like swirling down, downhill.
at the end of us being together and me marrying the other guy. So I was kind of like, oh, I was doing heroin when I was early married to him. I forgot. I would like go hide it and I'll go smoke it in the bathroom. And like, so, um, yeah, so I'd started, but I would always have Suboxone and I would like do it for a week and then I'd kick it and then I'd be cool for like three weeks. Cause I was still like flying out to auditions. I was like, you know, being courted by Sony records. Like I'm doing all this crazy great shit, but I'm on drugs. Like, and so, um,
Yeah, so then she got really dark and I... So you went from Suboxone to... Then I was just, well, I remember having the thought. I was like, it sucks kicking. Suboxone's some serious shit too. Yeah, I'm like, this really sucks kicking all the time. So why don't you just do drugs until you're done? And I'm like, okay. I love how you're a little angel and you're double on your shoulder. Just like, do drugs. Just do them. If you're going to do this shit, then you do it right, you know? And I'm like, all right.
So I did a lot of drugs and then I ended up, um, Oh, I ended up getting arrested for trafficking is what happened. I was given to somebody a ride. I was giving a ride. That was it. And I got caught up in the wrong place, wrong time. And so I'm in fucking Linwood, man. Oh, I don't know what you want to go to Linwood. And so I'm like kicking in Linwood, get out. I'm like, I'm going to turn over my life. And then as soon as I get out, like this chick's fucking sat with me. So,
Some gangster chick. What were you trafficking?
heroin okay gotcha so you went from suboxone to heroin i was doing both of the same like you can't get high when you're on suboxone so i like always have suboxone so like when i ran out of heroin i could just kick it and like be a normal human for a couple weeks so yeah at that point that was after the thought why don't we just do drugs and i'm like all right let's do it and so did you ever shoot it what did you do so that's so every time i started shooting drugs god arrest me
Yeah. Seriously. He's like, no, cause I can maintain my, my addiction as long as I'm not shooting up. Right. As soon as I start shooting up, Whoa, I'm a burn. So up at your house, fucking at 3am wrapped in a blanket with cigarette holes in it. Like I'm a fucking mess, man. Like you do not want to be my friend when I'm in my addiction.
I'm not laughing at you. I'm just your face while you're telling this right now. It's like, it's so funny. My dealer, we'll call him Z. My dealer, he used to be like, bitch, you have to call me before you show up here. But I knew sometimes he wouldn't answer because he didn't want to deal with me because I was really that big of a mess. So I'd call him and hang up, call him and hang up, call him and hang up and then show up and be like, I called you three times. I don't know what to tell you. I really did. Look, he's like, I don't come through. And then like, after I did that like three times, he's like, you're doing something. I'm like, ah.
So you ended up in jail in Linwood. And then what happens after that? It was my first offense as an adult. So my record was wiped. So they ended up giving me like some little slap on the wrist program for being an addict. And I don't know why I did that. I am an addict. Because at the time you felt like you were just an addict. So you didn't really want to accept the fact that you were an addict, you know?
Yeah, I was aware. I just wasn't thinking about it. Right, exactly. Yeah, I was like, we'll deal with that later. Yeah, like, whatever. I'm just in jail. So, like, fucking three days after I get out of jail, I'm back, you know, four sheets to the wind, like, and I get in a car accident with these guys. I went to go see a client.
She needs to write a fucking book. Like this would touch so many people though. We're in the standard hotel. We get kicked out. I love this room. I have done eight balls of cocaine off the walls in the standard. I love you.
That's like a druggie hotel. It really is. People don't realize it. It's like supposed to be like high class, upper class or whatever. And it is not. It is like a fucking ritzy motel six. It is. Seriously. I'm going to tell you the untold story of the standard. Let me hear. So, um, we had this client that, so like my bag was like getting clients high and just chilling with them. I'm a professional partier. So like I,
after I got out of that scene, I was like, these dudes will pay you just to do drugs. Right. Oh yeah. I tell a lot of people that. I tell a lot of people that. Especially being a working girl, you're not having sex with everybody. You're literally a therapist, an hourly therapist. Right. And they pay you to come and they pay you to leave. Exactly. And to keep your mouth shut. Yep. Yeah. And so, this guy, he would just give us a bunch of money to do drugs with him, but then he checked out of the room, but he left it open because he was on crack and he was so paranoid about it.
And so you just like go from expensive motel. It's amazing. Oh no, I know. It's amazing. I was just about to say dudes that have so much fucking money are crack addicts. Yeah. Like you would never even believe the shit that I mean, I've seen and you've seen these motherfuckers. And I'm talking like people that you would never eat, that you see every day on TV that are crack addicts. Like it's crazy, dude. Like the worst kind. Functioning. The FBI is outside the window. You're like, no,
They're not like, I'm back. Come back. I need more money. So you got to stay chill at least for another two hours. So many of those situations. Oh, it's bad. Like hands up on the ground, like full blown. You're like, bruh. Like nobody's outside the window, honey. No matter of fact. Yes, they are. I need another 10 grand. Right. I'll get rid of them. I'll hide you from them. Only real working girls. No, no, no. Um, yeah. All right. So the standard, um,
And so this is still 23 year old Kata. You're just going through 20 years. Years of past by now. 25 year old Kata. 25 year old Kata still getting high and just robbing tricks. Yeah. Robbing tricks, getting them high. I was robbing tricks. Sorry. I didn't rob anybody. I did. I was the one who robbed everybody. I have a conscious about things because, and the
only reason why I would do bad things, but then bad things would happen to me. And I'm like, that always happens to me. But let me tell you the reason why I never felt bad for stealing money from these guys that were literally drugged out. I felt like I was Robin hood. I would rob from the rich and give to the poor. And I'm the, I was the poor one. And I was going to give to myself.
And half these motherfuckers had wives. Yeah. They deserved it. So when we just did that video with jelly and them getting, you know, we don't want to reveal, but you guys have to watch. It spoke to me because that's really how I was. I was like, you know what? You're cheating on your wife. You deserve it. Yeah. So, um, I like it then when I like for them to call me back though, too. Oh no, they always called me back. They were always, I want to rob them.
They were always so fucked up. They never knew it was me. Oh, that's smart. You don't do it while they're awake. Is this incriminating? How many years has to go by before? There are nobody pressing charges. They have to press charges. I feel like they're going to be like, bitch, I knew it was you.
There has to be a victim for there to be charges. And they are, they're never going to tell them themselves. That's what I say. Rob them. I'm not meaning like actually go into their safe and steal their money. You're you're co let me not use that word. You're co I was going to say coercing. You're coaxing them. You're just like, yes, baby, you want this? Okay. I'll go get this for you. You know, I need X amount of dollars for this. So I'm not talking about straight up going in their pockets. Okay. Well, I definitely have worked, worked a dude before, you know, exactly like it. Like,
Like, I don't know. No, they love it. They love it. I'm like, there's such a weird... Yeah. All right, so anyways. So I get in this car wreck and I break my back and like... Oh my God. And both my hips and then I'm like all hemmed up and they got me all... I was in heaven. They gave me fentanyl. They gave me Dilaudid. They gave me so many drugs. But then...
I kind of got a little bit better and I'm back in my hometown because like, of course I'm broken. So like my mom came and got me and we had repaired our relationship from that time on. And so, but I'm back in my hometown and my stomping grounds and like,
Oh man. So I like get two doctors to write me twice the scripts. Cause remember when I used to do that back in the day, the pill mills, um, they didn't know I got caught, but, and then nobody would write me scripts anymore. Uh, but the thing is, is they didn't want to tell them themselves. So I didn't get in trouble. They did it out here in Vegas when it was like a huge boom in the industry. You would, you would go doctor shopping is what they would call it. And I just turn around and just, I sold the pills. Well, you, they, so they have a list, like an,
a DEA list. So like I had to kind of be smart about it, but the higher you get, the dumber you get kind of situation. So, and eventually like I fucking, it lasted for months, you know? And then they're like, uh, this was just filled somewhere. We can't fill it again. And I'm like,
You're like, shit. Well, I'm all covers blown. It's all over for me. So I just did heroin. But... Fuck a pill. I need the real shit. Well, I would sell the pills and get heroin. Right. I don't want these. So, yeah. Then I ended up getting arrested. So I stole a house. Stole a house? Is this a trailer? Trailer? No. It was like...
She said, so we stole a house. Well, nobody lived there and didn't look like anybody was going to live there. I suppose. Yeah. No, no. We turned on the power and then they shut off the power because we didn't pay the bill. And so like, that's my most, most like, oh man. So I had this guy come over and like rewire the box. Yo, I live this weird ass life. So when was the moment of truth for you? When, what got you to be like, dude, I can't do this anymore. My body is burning out. Like,
my mind and my soul or um there were a few of those moments for me like so I got arrested out of that house again and I got extradited to Los Angeles County for the first charge because I didn't go to court so I'm like in LA County with LA County they arrested me with no shoes on like with oh yeah they don't give a fuck yeah they're like LA County shoes a onesie like you know what I mean
I was gangster onesie wearing motherfucker. I know. And so, um, yeah, I could tell these stories for literal days, but like, um, I feel like we're going to need a part two. It's always going to be part five or 10. We're going to have K to be a reoccurring guest on the podcast for sure. That's stories. But you know, so I was, I ended up back with that ex.
Which one? The pin. Okay. Cause when I was in LA. Cause he was your structure. No, cause he owed me and I was in jail with no money and no shoes. And I was like, motherfucker, it's your turn to show up. And so like he did. And then like, I got all mixed back into it. And like, I ended up leaving him for good when I went to rehab. And I like. This is your first time going to rehab? It's my first time. Yeah. Yeah. It should have happened long before that, but it was like. What was rehab like?
I got kicked out the first week for fraternizing. I don't know. Like you got to go. Cause you're not allowed to hook up with people or whatever. I didn't even hook up. We just like, you know, he just fingered me. No, we actually didn't even sleep together. But like rehab is its own beast, man. It's like, it's a little egregore. Like everybody's got their little fucking role to play and everybody's so sick. Yeah. Like everybody's sick. Everybody's sick.
Like literally about to die. So like, you know, like when you're in that broken space, what do you want to do? Like people are just like, well, I mean that too, but I'm talking about the outside people. Like they're all just like, there's claws I'm doing here for the people.
for the people who can't see me. Like, everybody's just kind of ravenous to be honest. And I'm like... You would think it would be a completely different environment. Girls are catty as fuck. In rehab? Oh, yeah. They're the worst ones. No offense, but you're like pretty much at the bottom of the barrel when you're in rehab. My bottom must have been higher than theirs because they didn't like me. I don't know. She's intimidating and I'm like, I weigh 120 pounds. I'm cracked out. I don't know what you see. Oh, my God. But, yeah. So...
Um, but I remember leaving. Yeah. I got kicked out and I was like, okay, well like, um, can you guys refer me somewhere? They're like, it's the first time we've ever heard that. And I'm like, yeah, dude, I just like gave up my apartment, like my everything, like my boyfriend, like everything. Like I'm, I'm going to die if I don't like get sober. And like,
They're like, we can refer you somewhere. And I'm like, okay. So they did. And like, yeah, I ended up like getting like three and a half years. And then I ended up relapsing on. You got three and a half years in prison? No, sober. Oh, gotcha. Or not three and a half years, three years. Okay. Yeah, I was three years clean off of, well, sober, clean and sober. And like, I was doing like the square life. I quit dancing and like,
I was miserable, man. I just wasn't from like, I don't know how I respect anybody with a job. I'm like, yeah, I don't know how people who do nine to fives. I can't. I'm literally incapable. I'm a terrible employee. I'm a great boss. But like, I've been fired from it. I mean, or quit within six months. I have a six month lifespan at any type of job. I feel that on a hundred. I feel that on so many levels. I'm like, I better figure out how to do something else. Cause like this shit ain't working.
working you know so yeah I ended up were you sticking to the music during all of this was that the only was that the one thing that stayed true to you a hundred percent like no yeah that was that was my like my light at the end of the tunnel like that's all I like I was working three jobs saving up for music videos like fuck it dude like the amount of work that I was working at a gym I was working at a rehab I was personal training on the side I am not certified I just
look good, but I'll tell you how to make you look better. They're like, are you personal trainer? Uh, yes I am today. I am today. I am. I'll teach you everything. I know Google don't eat the bacon. That's all you don't eat the bacon. Don't eat the bacon bitch. No. Yeah. So, um, so the music was the old and constant that you always kept up with. It was just like your therapeutic.
Yeah, 100%. I was creating this album the entire time. But when you're an independent artist and you're working fucking a nine-to-five job, that shit's expensive. Respect these independent artists. Hustle out here because you fucking know. My husband has done it. You have no idea. Not only the creative aspect and the paying for shit aspect, but the business aspect. And on top of it, you've got to keep your brain on straight at the same time and not lose your actual shit because...
All musicians are insane. And I don't care why you say that. We have to be able to dig to a place that is like so dark and so deep that like, so that we can pull it out for you as a gift. No, my husband has done it independent his entire career, 15 year career. And I have learned so much about the music industry in the past five years. I hate the music industry. It is a beast. Like you say, it is a shady thing.
scary fucking place and nobody cares about the other person. You could be working with somebody and fucking they'll turn as soon as the album's done and over with, you know? Uh, yeah. I'm not going to go into all that, but yeah, I agree. It's just crazy. That's why I'm so happy that you guys are with us now because literally it's just a whole family vibe over here and you guys are going to be able to spread your wings and fly. Be the little monarch butterflies that you guys are supposed to be. I'm super stoked because the quality of like, um,
Just the type of music that I feel like we're going to be doing is very, like, in my vein. Yeah. Like, kind of the music that, like, I've always loved to do but, like, never got an opportunity to do because I've been in L.A. and just... It's fucking pop out, man. Well, sex sells. And you guys are beautiful women. Yeah. So they want, you know, the sex part. And I think...
jelly and I are trying to get the more gritty fucking your soul bearing side that, cause that to me, that to me is so beautiful. You know, when a woman can literally bear her soul, I was listening to Kata sing the other day in the studio. I told her this last night. Um, she has the type of voice that will invoke emotion in you. Like she hit this one note and I, my eyes teared up and I got like this lump in my throat and I was just sitting there and I was like, Oh,
you know, trying to squeeze my butthole together because I didn't want to cry, you know? Yeah, but it's just so, will you sing something for us? Can you? Wow. Please? They've got to hear your voice. Okay.
She's like, oh, wow. Okay, yes. Here I go. I'm like, how does this mic sound on me? It sounds good. I want them to hear you sing. I did not prepare for this. It sounds bad. You're in. I didn't tell her that I was going to do this, but I really want people to hear. Sing what you were singing the other day. Not only is she a great singer, the bitch can rap. It's fucking, and she can write. Like, it's just, she's a triple threat. Her and Kaylee both. It's just, it's a phenomenon. They're definitely both great.
two people you want to look out for. And I'm not saying that just words. Yeah. You're a wordsmith. Words are my friend. Just like my husband's a cocksmith. You're a wordsmith. He's a wordsmith. He's a wordsmith. Cock wielding wordsmith. That's exactly. Jay is so proud to have his cock all over second only band. So we just booze daddy up and tell him he's a cocksmith now. Cause you know, it's the second thing, but okay. I want to hear you sing. All right. Let me see if I can do it. This sounds bad. We're taking it out. We're going to do two takes. You're fine. You're fine. Okay.
Baby I'm torn Baby I'm torn Baby I'm torn Too much Faded riding on a blackboard Baby I'm torn Baby I'm torn Faded riding on a blackboard
I have fucking chills, dude. Although we're distorting here most definitely. We do not need to do a second take. That's so beautiful. I've been saying that. I'm like, but there's like, I can hear it distorting. No, it was great. I'm all singing this way. It was great. I love that. That gave me a loud voice. All right. So what would you,
you tell people who are listening to this fucking crazy half a story. We didn't even get fully into it. We're saving more for later. But what would you tell people that are going through addiction right now that are feel like there's no way out that have probably been to rehab? Hold on, man. Just hold on and pray. Lord, I like hold on and pray because I couldn't have gotten myself out of that space. And like we didn't talk much about spirituality, but there is like
man, there is such a loving presence of something, whatever you want to call it. I'm not trying to discriminate because some people, you know, they, I don't, I don't, it doesn't bother me to offend people. When I talk about my spirituality, I understand that some people are different, but I've really, I believe that they wouldn't understand it. So no, I get it. I always like to say I'm not religious, but I'm spiritual. Hell yeah. And heavily meditated. And, um,
i'm like god give me the words you know what i mean because that's a real moment um just ask for help please yeah like like ask for help if you're in a space like i had to ask for help and that was probably the hardest thing i ever had to do and it was through like i don't want anybody to have to get as broken as i did but i'm a firm believer that sometimes you have to be and another thing is uh like
Please do not give up on the work in progress that you are like. Things show up in the most unexpected ways. And it's it's so beautiful. Like when you see all of your hard work coming together.
And if you litter, like, dude, it's been, I've been at this for 11, 11 or 12 years. You know, this isn't some overnight success story. This isn't some, you know, fluke. Like I work my ass off and like, I've been through some shit, but the one thing I did, I was just like, I got nothing to lose. Like, you know, I'm going to fucking give this everything I have. And if I fail, who cares? I'm going to die anyway. Yeah. You know what I mean? But yeah, like,
ask for help please don't give up there's always a light at the end of the end of the tunnel for real what do we have to look forward to a whole lot of ass yeah baby yeah yes um you know
That's the thing. I don't know. You know what I mean? She's such a gypsy. She's such a fly by the seat of her pants. I just want to do like, so I've gotten really unattached from outcomes, really unattached from how it's going to happen, really unattached from what I want. And I'm really, um, accepting and trying to be in the vibration of, um,
what is being... What's showing up for me. What is showing up for me? And I'm just being like, that seems interesting. Let's go try that out. Like, just running at it, you know? But I know music's gonna be involved. I know that, you know, there's gonna be a lot of living. And my hope is that... A lot of living and a lot of loving. A lot of living and a lot of loving, man. You know, like, I'm at a point in my life where I'm just...
I'm trying to embrace fully and still healing and still like becoming the woman that I am. So I'm excited to see what I'm going to do next because even I don't know. Yeah, I love that. It's always a surprise. What about the dating life? Is Kate a single? Kate is single. Is she ready to mingle?
With a dingle. You know what? I mingled a few times this year and I'm so sick of everyone's shit. Like I used to have this rule. I was like, I'm trying once this year. You get one shot. If it don't work, we're working for the rest of the year. One dong and you're out. The thing is, is I don't like distractions and I don't like people wasting my time.
And I don't like wasting people's time. And so I'm just like, if I find somebody that like I really want to connect with and it doesn't work out, it takes a lot out of me to like invest like that. So I'm like, all right, well, we did that. Let's go. Let's go just work, put our nose down and work. And then if something comes along again, then we'll see what happens. But yeah. Yeah. I love that. So you guys hear that. Why don't you tell everybody where they can find you, all your socials? You can find me on the Instagrams. Instagrams. Instagrams. At, at,
I-A-M-K-E-T-A-M-U-S-I-K. That is, I am Kate of Music with a K at the end. I always bust her balls. But she does it every fucking time. Wrong. It is wrong. Why didn't this fucking tell?
tag you. I'm like, well, that ain't, it's not me. That's one of my fake pages right there. I'm always like, why'd you do it with a K? Um, and then where else can they find you? Like, where can they find your music right now? You're going to re rework your YouTube channel. Yeah. I'm reworking my YouTube and I'm rebounding my Spotify. I love my old album. If you want to go find it, you can find it in my bio, in my Instagram. Um, but it's, uh,
I'm always just like, are you, does, when I'm done with music, I'm like, all right, I did that. And I just like want to move on to the next. That's how my husband is. Yeah. Like I don't even listen to my old stuff unless I come across it and I'm like, Oh, so good. Like, who is this? Oh, it's me. Yeah.
Yeah. Um, and is there, where can they find you on like YouTube? Where's you and Kaylee's videos? Who's it's they're on Kaylee's or on Viking Barbie. So if you look up Viking Barbie on YouTube, you can go watch those, these two hot pieces of ass fucking wrap their asses off and sing and stuff like that. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Thank you so much for coming on my podcast. I love you. This is going to be the first of many that you'll be on the journeys of episode one, episode one, baby. Thank you so much. Of course. Thank you guys for listening to another episode of dumb blonde.
and we'll see you guys next week. Bye.
