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What is that daddy game? IT is your founding father, alex Cooper, with call. So we d welcome the color daddy. Finally, I it's like, appropriate that I took this long for us. You know, mean, you came to my tour and you went so fucking hard. The daddy gay was taking their top soft, you screaming for, oh, you didn't see that up or balcony t really and not .

as my party city committee .

and I had the best time with you and I was saying to earlier, like every room was like, so we don't get a fucking in episode, is you, is you? How are you today gay? You look amazing.

You look amazing. Can we talk about your nails? I really, you're like, very known for going hard with your nails. What inspired these nails day? And when I say these are also talking about your own nails.

well, I always get playing on my feet. I don't worn White to know polish. Since I don't know my twice, I need like A A White polish. No deal any other color, my feet, the wear.

I do feel like no one can go wrong with White tonneins. But you have more than like White on your feet. So we do not like glitter Crystals. I wouldn't peace surprise that the mother.

I can diamond down there. It's diamond.

How long does IT take to do these nails?

IT can run sometimes two hours, sometimes they could be eight to ten hours if it's like freestyling, like custom art paint and then jewels. IT takes time. It's like, drag a mirror on your fingers.

what the fucker you doing .

for ten hours? Girl, I try to have meetings. I try to lake moti ask, yeah, maniel appointments just so I can like, get things done.

I am like the opposite where i'm like if I am putting on like a fake nail if IT takes more than now and like I got ta go there would but we haven't finished you a lot nail like I don't care. I have I am like so in when IT comes to my nails and looking at you say, i'm like.

and those are not personal. But what inspired this is I shot to Christmas music videos, and I need to get into the the holiday season. So this actually have on them in a year. We.

are you a big Christmas person? Yes.

i'm for you, like, Christmas is such a big deal. And I okay, because I always.

whenever someone's come out with Christmas music, i'm always like, hold on, are you as obsess with Christmas? I go so fucking hard. Like, what do you do? So I turned to my husband every single year, and I like, it's september and he's like, we are not getting a tree. Alex kay.

real trees are factories.

I have a real one in my living room. And I go so fucking hard because, like, the minute fall happens, I am ready for fucking in Christmas. And I want to like edge towards Christmas. I don't want just december to be Christmas, like I want the whole fall experience to be leading up to the main event, if that makes sense. My entire house on decorating, but last night into the outside of my house, like, do you do your house?

I just do inside my living room.

okay. Yeah, yeah.

you're like making IT cozy. Yeah, making IT cose.

What is your favorite of Christmas tradition?

Christmas eve with my family? What do you do? Like we open at present dd night now on Christmas day. But like my favorite childhood morning, would be like my mom's mom clicking filipino food, hello food in cariole. And then at twelve o'clock we'd all open up our presence.

I always used to be like, please let us open our present on Christmas eve and my mom, like one and then I was always like the freak that was like trying to like, open them and then we wrap them at night. You know, I was so my mom was like, well, then you're not getting any your presence but I was like, i'm obsessed and it's just like the best time we speaking of food, i'm swarming, but I have heard that you like a lot of like different concoctions of food that maybe some people would be like with that growth. Can you talk to me about some of the things that you're pairing together that are like rand dom, but good in your opinion?

okay. So do you like sushi? Of course. okay. So like for a tunal kay, i'll get hot cheetos and i'll smushed him up and then i'll drizzling over the tunal.

That's fucking brilliant. It's actually really good. What are you bringing the cheetos in .

and not go only if I like, do some postmasters you're .

all like to mug magic some .

muggle in in some hot sheet .

s you got your big purse and you wait for the waiter to walk away working not no though. Like i'm not mad about IT. Okay, so cheow. S on top of sushi i've read, is this true? Speedy with lunch?

Finally, a room where that's true.

stop. When is the first time you tried that? Honestly.

I grew up doing that like that was so second native to me. So when I had posted IT the first time online, I thought nothing of IT. And then I was trending an hour later. Not wise is causing such a frenzy.

You really like, i've been doing this .

since I was born and since I was born.

I think also when you're a child, like you do some stuff that like people I I don't know, it's like, I guess like however you grow up, right but like this is kind of fucking disgusting and I wouldn't do IT now, but like, i'm pretty sure when I was Younger I put this is girls i'm brush, put catch up on my mash potatoes right.

but is like a friend try that's where period wish he wanted hear something nasty yeah. So when I was a little girl in the middle, the night I use a sneak into the and eat butter by itself, and one day I got a cut by my mom, like red handed, like with the whole bunch of button girl SHE scared the crap out of me. He was like, if you continue to eat that button by itself, you're onna. Turn into checker. I promise you, I never touch Better again.

The fuck up. No, you're just rod dogging, like inviting into IT. So we be on this road of me.

You're a little like going in with your teeth. You would you ever smooth out? No one thought in the morning. I really believe .

that will like .

I I in the dle night. But no, okay, your legal name is dam on ti. Yes, grow IT. Does everyone your life call you that or do they call .

you so some people.

what do your best friends call you?

IT s tell me that depends from what error they met me at. okay. So um my childhood best friends i'll call me D, D, my middle girlfriends will call me so because that was my my space name and that's where I had got sweet from like my mice space was so happen. I'd be at like high school parties or i'd be you know walk in a school neither like I used to weedy from my space. Yeah.

what the fuck are you doing on my speed .

was coating the fuck out of my page. I was, you know, the midday, the night, sweating, funding all the codes. Gra was a nurdle. So my mind was like, very aesthetically stop.

You were a coder from day one.

I was a coder from day one, not even knowing that I was coding rush that paid for IT.

No, Jessie has no fucking idea. Like if you missed the myspace era, changing the backgrounds.

getting your new song, my song, or hiding your song that body know about.

you know, oh god, people knew you because you are the call.

I mean.

I guess, okay, but before now, take me back before you start your mind space, where do you get the name? Sweet.

my grandma? yeah.

How did you give you that name?

SHE would just call me her sweet.

We are so fucking cute.

yeah. And then I was signing up for my space and that that's how much really like, like my name, how I love my name. Now, only because people wouldn't pronounce IT, right? That was like, I don't want to, like, put IT up and then people just do not to pronounce my name.

I was like, I need some flash IT, but then I don't want you to be like basic. So I put the a between the s in, the w in. The rest was history.

Who knew then? Then one day that would be like your global name that the entire world knows you as, and not just like a my space .

community he wanted know was even crazy, is I had started, like a business, a hat in A T shirt business. And my grama was like, I know you gna be a big business woman one day. I know that you're going to need your name. So SHE bought so wide, actually bought me the website so wide. Like when I was like, I think I think I was like eighteen yourself, i'd or eighteen yourself, you like, I know you're onna like do something so let me just good this for you because as a business woman, you're gonna a trade market .

that way gives me chills just because like IT seems like you obviously had like a pretty great relationship with your grandmother yeah, she's everything to me. Is he still with us? Yes.

girl SHE seventy, going on twenty one.

What does he think of your whole career? Now he has .

mixed emotions OK SHE loves IT. When when SHE here's like the negative press. IT dresses her out, yeah, but she's a preacher so he goes to like war from me employer. She's like my player warrior, so she's constantly trying for me.

What do you think stresses without the most?

Like what could be negative about you? I think that the fact that he knows that some of the um the rumors aren't true and he is just like, why don't you say anything like this isn't who you are. Numbers like IT is only gonna make this story bigger. So I choose not to address that and things because I don't want to add fuel to the fire in the best way to get rid of something is to ignore so SHE just like, yeah, but you know, I know my baby and that's not my baby right there so yeah, SHE does be going to do sometime.

But how did you decide like at what point in your career you like, do not give a fuck what people say about me because it's .

easier had been done. I two, so the forest half, I would say in the earlier on in my career, I would say I would disassociate myself from so d, because there's D M or so. We dy, i'm not okay if you knew D M, to know me, to love me, I ouldn't be another city stuff to me. So I first I was this association, but now i'm just so at peace with just who I am. Oh my god, as my heart, and as long as god knows my heart, there's no problem.

Sweet, why are you getting emotional? Because they .

tell .

me about that. What do you mean like you're talking him about, like you're journey to get here. You make me like we we went from you in the water.

So I just made me felt that way .

because I think that when you are someone that is you know yourself like and what IT took in everything and then you read like the bullshit and it's such bullshit you're like with this is what i'm getting reduced to right now like I think I could be speaking out of turn like I don't know that your experience but exactly it's hard to be like guys. No.

I told myself I was not going to do this today.

Here we are, one on o'clock on a monday without getting too detailed. I'm thinking obviously of like if someone is listening, that's like becoming a new fan today or like knows you, but it's little like what the fuck are you guys talking about? Can you lately just explain a little bit of what we're talking about? Like are we talking romantic? Are we talking friendship? Are we talking work beef? Like.

I think is everything. Because as a public figure, all parts of my life in those categories, our expose yeah, but I think what I get the most sensitive about is my art. I don't know how much I put inside this, should you know? I think IT .

is important though to recognize, like especially with artists, so much goes into IT because it's a huge part of you. absolutely. Like you're clearly someone that's not just being handed a script and being like where this dress like thing like this, like this is you .

yeah very peculiar. So I have to be very involved everything, otherwise i'll be so d the hand.

When would you ever pop off on someone? Like, when are you gonna really like, what if I take never.

i'd never wanna off on somebody because the dots that I think are outrages. So we be, yes, no, my thoughts. And I just did my, like, my vision astrology chart, right? And in that, in that system, my moon is a scorpio. So IT is let you know, like when my mind can go so I can work with me. Farrow.

so you're always .

this calm I tried to be because I doesn't know. I know myself.

I I going like you staring at you right now. You're so like even kill, like calm, like it's nice. It's a relaxing actually to like being around you. But i'm trying to envision you like like what IT takes for someone to like push you over the edge. But you rarely let IT get to that point because they also win yeah also.

d let's talk about that too is an energy exchange and it's just like I D rather alchemise energy like take IT and then use this energy for something else like I don't want to give that back to you.

I feel like that sometimes in the romantic relationships, IT can be hard not to go tip for tap and be like you did this and I did this, but I feel like you've kind of gotten to a place where .

clearly your life i'm interestingly, it's aware because um sometimes it's like they want to a response out to you. They don't even appreciate the the growth .

and like a noise then when you want when you're like, okay and you're like wake, I little just called you an X, Y, Z, Z and your responses no you doing right that I can only imagine yeah that must drive people in saying.

mean.

It's kind of a superpower. I'm i'm not as strong as you. I I like I. I feel the same way sometimes with my words were like I could kill you with my words. And I I think I, when I was Younger, in high school and in college, if someone came from me, my friend, I almost like worse when I would see my friend, like someone coming for them and I knew they wouldn't speak up for themselves.

So then I was the friend that was like, and let me get the fucking in here and i'm going to say something but then I also realized, like, who is that helping in that moment? Like, I don't know. I feel like sometimes I felt like being like loud and taking charge and putting the person down would like make me feel Better.

But like you're just getting riled up and they're just happy that you're engaging at the same web of them. We're really when you're like, what are are you doing? They're little like and they're screaming and they're being insane and you're like, what are you go? Oh my god, they want to die. They want to craw into a hole like, oh my god, we we so I think that I agree the energy level can be interesting in the way that you interact with someone, can like heavily dictate also the way that you leave someone.

deal about you. absolutely. I'm still me a while to get here. Yeah, yeah. I wasn't always dislike poys when they came to my reaction so I trust me like if as long as you work on IT like you'll see yourself .

of all yeah yeah your career took off after you released a some icy girl yeah and it's all about wealth and luxury but obviously that's not how your life looked your whole life. I remember reading you were saying you would go on craggs list yeah and say, how did that come to be?

So you know, when you get an apartment, you have to do first and last, first months and last once, right? Yes, I was like that. So like, okay, how do I how do I um find a loophole? And the looper was crazy less because we are running or subletting your room from somebody you only just paying for your portion of the rent and is their name on the lease.

So um thankfully i've had some cool romains my two favorite oh my god, to bless this old lady's heart. There was there was an older lady in studios city and he had a guest house and I stayed. I stayed in her guess house.

And then there was another woman who I stayed with in sherman oks. Her, I think her, a roommate, was had to go back and renew his VISA. Ah, so I had subsided his room and I was just black. Being blessed with all these is good. A role is that were clean, nice.

respectful and you can have some like horse aries I feel like for rome honestly .

you a trust you got see some places and that be I wouldn't like mess with the energy and i'd like I .

ago you like new .

immediately I knew immediately and also a red flag um for any um people who do do IT yeah anybody was super eager and pressing you to run a room I wouldn't just that yeah that is good advice yeah I don't know why. But when you're when you're thirsty and eager to like have a strange room, I don't trust that personality .

why you work for a little .

bit and I don't .

know that something just be off a little .

bit that is like beautiful to know though that you had .

like a positive experience with that because it's weird in life when you like get matched up with people that you would probably would have never met. Yeah and then like has a lasting impact on you and at such like a pivotal time for you or you were like looking for a home and trying to get to the next step of your career and to have someone be so beautiful and like lovely towards you, that completely changes the dynamic.

I as opposed to have you went with one of the fuck and freak that was like, come on here, come on, exactly exactly that's survive. Where would I be if I took that offer? Let's talk about your love life.

What happening? Are we seeing anybody? Are we in a relationship? Are we single?

I am seeing somebody. Yeah, talk to me. And their name starts with the sea.

I think you going to say their name.

Do you want another? Their name? Kind of my career girl.

so we did. No, now we be like, oh my god, IT fuck. She's really down today. You're like Christian. Then, okay.

you're dating your career. And intentionally.

when did you get off the saw?

That me? what?

When did you like? I'm getting off the man first. I get i'm not dating.

I just feel like I had a really special time in my career and I just have all these ideas and I wanna channel my my energy in a way where I feel like I can make the steps to where I see myself going and in on was really happy right now. I'm happy where where my life is heading. So i'm dating my career.

I D love that answer. I think that like needs to I I wish that was more of my answer when I was Younger because I I think sometimes we've naturally feel like we do. I need to get back out there like is that weird that i'm not dating and it's no. I think you need to go through like long periods of time where you can decide what your focus is. And I think that's like amazing that you're focusing on your crew.

And then also let me say this, I felt like some people who have dated in the past, we would have been Better off as creative partners. There was this tick out. You know, sometimes tiktok, we have the information group.

There is a woman, and I wish I don't know her handle, because i'm so grateful for this wisdom SHE had provided. But he was basically saying that sexual energy and creative energy comes from the same place. And when you confuse the energy, you can sometimes, you know, make I would inside the wrong decision, but you can lean and more into the sexual energy within. That really was the creative energy because you've already depleted the energy.

Such a good point. Like anyone that ends up have, even if you're not in your specific industry, like people listening like I get that there are so many people that writing to me about like work relationships, and I get what you're saying. And that's a great back in tiktok because it's like the way that you can feel when you complete a project or you get to the next level of your career or you guys go to a fucked in presentation and new crush IT. It's like that feeling of like we have to have closed off and it's like it's .

a different way of finishing.

I like, love you. What if we were dating? What is IT like today?

You, no.

all of your actions were in this room right now. I wonder what that company would be like. What do you think they would all say is they're a theme.

I theme. Oh my god, you have them.

Would that be happy vives or like bad vibes if access were in this room?

I think happy vives really yeah because like, I don't really like, no matter what happens, I like, girl, I just be happy. I'm i'm naturally just like heavy person and i'd like amy, some shaddy ship. But I like my energy is so disconnected from you that I can, I can not associate myself with what happened between us. And just look at you as a regular human being.

That's so nice. I think a lot of people wish they could feel that way, like they could not get so wrapped up in you hurt me and you did this to me and like.

how dare you like? But also, something we have to impact to was a lot of men have unaddressed trauma that they don't face, and they project in on their partners. So sometimes I be taking about stuff and not be like .

web you in your childhood no actually.

you know right. So then that makes me look at what they did. So because I know that they really love me yeah like I know that. So i'm just like you got something to impact. You should probably handle that because if you worked to handle that and we probably would work out.

it's such a mature way to look at things like essentially also what you're saying, like IT has nothing to do with you and that I think hard for people sometimes to accept, like if someone is listening to this and just got cheated on and you can't help but sometimes think like what did I do wrong or what did I not give them or what.

And it's like most of the time, IT literally has nothing to do with you, which is a weird thing because you almost like wanna be able to pin point in yourself what you could change. So that never happens again. Half the time it's literally on the other individual you were doing in fuck and great. Yeah, you are thriving.

sweety, right? And I knew that I was a good girlfriend. So it's like, i'm some wrong with you.

Don't I like that? Enter again one of your songs. You described your type as someone who makes eight figures and is eight inches. What other qualities do you look for in a partner.

somebody who has high emotional intelligence?

Moment of silence for.

that.

We're like come to us or something in you get the read more Better. I would legit if they don't have that I agree with you. But how do you even get to the point where you can figure out, like, are they a sweet talker or are they actually like with IT emotionally, that they can hang with me? Honestly.

this experience, we have to experience a unique situation. And that tells anybody have somebody yeah that.

like the honeymoon stage can be so easy. Daddy gang, like you can be like a love, the sex, the conversations, and then you hit like one bump in the road. Someone has a problem with family or finances or .

insecurity, jealousy.

and all of a sudden, how do you guys handle that? right? A good point. Okay, IT seems like you .

have a type.

Do do you? Do you want going to say, what do you think your type is? What's my life? You you brought IT up, you brought IT up.

Is your show rappers? Okay, let's talk about IT. Okay.

okay. So for example, if you're at a high school, right you time to date, I mean high school, whatever that is call IT, whatever the proxim ity is yes, you're going to date what you around, yes. And I think that's why I found myself in those situations, because these are the only people that i'm around. However, you know, i'd like to go to a new environment wrong.

Do you think you would venture out?

What mean my careers doing just fine right now? So you know.

i'd like that answer though because I think there is nothing wrong with a type. And I also .

think but I I think it's because of the proxy of ROM. Always at these are the people who are only engaging and seeing.

You know, yes, I remember, like back in the day, I would talk about how I had a pattern, pattern that what can you be like? No, IT was just like a little pattern. I had a pattern of dating athletes.

How is that.

by the way? So of dating athlete, you know it's not it's IT will fuck you up but I will make you it's just IT depends actually what's sport too .

okay what's a difference? So let's work IT .

down for icy gang and dad, yeah ah okay. So baseball players, I find that they are sometimes the sketchy st, really because they're on the road, they have a hundred and sixty something games a year or so. They are on the road at all times.

K, and they're playing so many fucking games is supposed to football. It's like sixteen fucking games and like they're not allow to have girls in the hotel room super strict for football. It's like we got sixteen fucked in games, mother fucker bear down and focus baseball.

It's like ah another day, another game. And so it's kind of more like a relaxed environment. So there's road beef in every fucking city. We got minnesota road beef, we've got miami road beef, and they they literally like call IT road what's roby women? oh.

oh.

So were that like an at .

least be somewhere to be? no.

But just to confirm, I have the bag to the ground. We've talked me. So in college I remember I was dating this guy. And I would be around his single, like baseball athletes in the way that they would talk about.

IT was so concerning because I was just like every thought kin city there was a different rotation because I think it's like they're just on the move and they're look at like it's almost like when you're in a bubble, whether you like, IT doesn't even feel like real life when I was like living that life with them, like they're just every fucking day is this ground hog day. They wake up, they go to the field, they come home, they were drink at the bar, they meet the girl, they go asleep, they do at the next day. And same fucker city. So I would say baseball players are like lethal.

They seems so clean.

No, I never date soccer players because that didn't really do IT for me. And hockey players, great, great buts, no teeth, great. But and they're kind of I thought they were Better than baseball players, really players. But like a little nicer.

I ve never been attract to athletes .

that's probably the best. But then again.

because like I come from a family full of athletes, so I just always feels like like my son.

you just want to.

my god. So i've never, never talked about to what everybody really never.

I think you also wouldn't have time for them. It's so on their schedule. And I think you have such a busy schedule, you gotto be very available for an athlete like you got to be up and ready to pick up and go their life, and you don't have time for that.

Should and I literally, I know, you know this, I shot him to like, foreign morning last night, and you're here and here.

Are you typically making .

the first move or that I am I had made the first little before.

And is that like you going up to them? And and .

what are you saying?

What are you ready? Let's reenact IT. I mean.

if is a bad, okay, okay.

it's like divide in the setting, but you're totally down to go up. Someone, yeah, I love that. Like if you see something, go for IT. absolutely. What is the bold this way that you've ever put yourself out there for a guy?

no. Okay, this is high school and high school. Okay, actually, in high school I talked. And athlete, yeah. After high school? No, I remember I was my single year and I had a crash on his boy and I was like, dying only got one more you to see something.

The clock is running out.

I was writing out, you know, he was like, um I was big and volleyball was doing my thing and he was playing football and we had a like an athlete room. Well, like the football players would come review their types and then we played during the same season. And so you know, the valley ball goes, would come in there. IT felt like one big family, but I was like, how do I like get him because he was so you girl, so was rush week.

I go like, I have a plan so me my plan get together in this lunch and were all sitting in the room if finally i'm like, um I happen i'm like, uh, somebody wants to go speak to outside he he was like, co, I was like, you know, like probably one of the organizations that is rush week and he is like, okay, because you know, sometimes I recruit and if you want to athlete, you couldn't come into the the room. He was like tables. So we walk outside and we still walk in and he was like, who was IT? That was like me.

What did he say? He start laughing. It's kind of like really, really forward and i'd love IT he .

start laughing and he goes like why? And i'm just like because I want to talk to you.

Did you end up going on a day um cooking up? We like going in love.

We thought ted to go to each other. These games, I mean, everybody was already going to the football because um they were winning that year and then they were already to come into the volya all games because you know how the football plays got to practice, they got yeah but we like intentionally started going to each other, these games to like support each other and then we would go to like in and out afterwards because like that was like the high school club. So one day in the morning on the weekends um but yeah, I would go his house and I his family would cook for me. I would do my homework over there.

So that worked out will not worked out. But I mean, like what happened? Did you? Don't you? No.

I got bored.

So how to break .

up with him? You have bored. Yeah and I was like, I think we'd be Better off as friends.

Shout out where where you are today.

Love with honest you were yeah i'm very straightforward. If I feel like something not working out like i'll tell you, I feel like we're not working out.

Okay, what is the crazy thing and x has ever done to you? Give us a fuck and story. Come on.

sweating. Come on. This is call or di day. Crazy thing. go.

This actually happens to me twice. I don't know where men get their information, but i've had, like, i've broken up with people when they found me.

What was that weed?

I go shop to my hotel and be like room service.

Check the fuck up.

Air happens to me .

always room service.

And what the Cherry on that is, I try to make their voices hyped ch to go room so good.

Only there was a fucking camera outside that room of them like.

girl, but I know but but then like, they covered the peco.

Do you let the men I did?

I did I like, and you found me, you found me.

You're like, how you're spinning and you're like kind of of me and take you put in the work you found me. Have you been someone to historically get back with access? Or once you're done, are you done?

I feel like once i'm done, i'm done except for when .

they shot to the hotel.

I feel like those were like mini break ups, okay? I feel like we were gone through something I want to block them IT probably was like a couple days or a couple weeks, yeah and i'm just like it's like a soft break up, you know.

a hard work. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Are you a big blocker? I'm a big blocker.

Send you a big black away and I want to see them. Bubbles popped up.

So I know that you just said, I love said how long because I am assuming that you are black.

I'm black before, but there's people who were along my blacklist as .

many years and you don't even wonder no.

I don't.

Because I think that I remember I had a friend that like we would always talk about this back in the day when I was in my blocking face and he would always say, like, I don't know how you block people like, I need to see what you're gonna say like, it's so interesting thing I like, really like, I kind of want you to just fade into the abyss like.

I love and go to do.

I don't know what you're going to say like and then you can kind of like create what you think they would say in your head. But I want to, okay, wow, you're hitting pargraph in a genius. What is your stands on keeping gifts from? X.

I really just the pens. Okay, you know, like if a custom one of one, i'm keeping .

out custom one of one .

yeah like .

what is a custom one of one that you have?

You know, it's a couple of things.

Story.

story .

process. What's the nicest bag guys ever about you?

I would say a customer is broken, and he sent ted to me before I met home.

White, I don't have. I am time. I am a very talking of person. I don't have words. Yeah.

I would like some players should IT was my birthday. I was single and you know, we were like casually talking and he was like, what is your ads is in your breakfast? They coming up now is like, aldus nicer to send me flowers was funny is so my birthday pass is a week. My maps have clean, you know, my condo and he hits me up and he's like, so did you like your birthday, president and I like, I never got IT and he goes, I should have came in this kind of box so then I text my maid and then like, oh yeah, we put the box in the the guest room because we didn't know what I was. So I open up .

the box that group chat. Like.

that was nice.

How long after then did you meet him in person? Oh, oh, wow.

White, yeah. I was working a lot.

You got a whole last working before meeting a man. You have the video. clam.

He didn't even meet you and he know. But how long did that relationship go? Too long or short? I wouldn't need.

I say, was a relationship .

interesting?

And I was just like my player partner. Like.

did he gift to you a lot of things? And red flag.

no cause like you own IT.

And now I think .

I think that might have been his love language. You know, interesting. I didn't to see IT as like, oh, his a try or he yeah I got really appreciated his gifts that are very like thought out the amount .

of women watching this that are like, note to self find a man whose love language is customized burns um okay, worst way that you ve found out that you've got to cheated on the world he was having left the room. She's gotta. Boss so.

How, if you're listening, is not logging. So we basically .

just levity into the .

air and flipped off the.

oh my god.

no bad, no.

Oh my good. Was gracy just my water and are you an up ark, please?

Holy ship jesus, SHE is great. Okay, okay.

So I remember I was talking in to this guy time and IT was no yeah and I was like, oh my gosh like i'm just so happy to see this and we grow for new year's the great night and um we go back to the hotel i'm like, oh my god is the most perfect new year's ever like at a town is just like the vive for a vive and you could fill the energy in the streets yeah like love was in the area is the new year new me is like all these great things happening.

I'm just like if I felt like I was in a movie so we get back to the hotel. And I remember I had got a call from a childhood friend. And when I had picked up the phone, I put IT on speaker because I had nothing I head, i'm like, oh, happy new years.

He was a happy new years. I love you. Like, you can killing a shit.

Like, keep gone on that at life. So my, you too like, love you too. Happy new year. As I hang up, he's so like drunk that he missing turns the call and was like, you like, wow, like, okay, like, I know that shall be doing this is a net, you know, projecting.

Like he couldn't believe that I had A A plutonic relationship with this person and this person is my childhoods. End of nothing is going on. So he started cutting me out. He was like, I would never do this to you. He was like, man, you can go to my phone, my coat is, and I go always.

No.

I put the code in my phone, but i'm thinking he's probably just like drunk, you know, right? Not that like it's not the so finally he goes asleep. So we start to investigate, investigate, investigate.

That's the gay. So I like, okay, so I save the code. I IT IT goes, you like, my god, easy go. This man, man has been playing me the whole time. But I knew I was like a sickness, because I was like, all types of women really.

Did you go for the eyes messages? First of the pictures.

I went, I went to the assistant group chat. We, I wanted to do assistance messages because, you know, the assistance set up everything for, like, the men. And then I was happening keywords like genius .

genius so was .

pulling up all the receipts yeah grow. And I remember I had got so sick within so num that I didn't care because IT wasn't like IT wasn't like one person you know you know like it's not you not obsessing over one person.

It's like, okay, now you have the sickness.

you stop yourself.

What where did you type into .

the search for anything that use?

You're like P U S S Y thousand fucking. You're like, no, that's crazy. And so when he wakes up in the morning, what are we doing?

girl. girl.

You know what time is had? I'm like, a really you a tough guy.

stop. So OK you back to the begin of this this episode? I was like, what can get you on a different till? Did you enter that different till is what you're going to a different image?

Go crazy night of my life. My best room was staying in the same hotel as those. I'm just like, I was like the audacity.

And then what may like, I always had had humor to like my pain. So just kind of like, how did this boy get met over a simple conversation yet? Here you are doing A, B, C, D, E, F, G, X, Y, Z. You know.

no, that's when it's so crazy because i've had an x like that where he was cheating. And I, like, he would always get so anxious and say things about me if I was like the most innocent like, I don't even know that person like like, here's my phone mic, I don't know. And when they're so hard on you for that shit, eventually you have to be like, well, what the fucker are you doing that your brain is even on that tilt cause i'm not even thinking.

but IT made me realized that when someone does that so you is because that's what they would do. So they're prod, they're projecting from their experience .

yeah how long did you stay in that situation then? Did you leave? Did you leave that day?

And it's .

okay if you .

did now. I just say ago, we were at this and. 嗯 哼 嗯 哼 嗯 哼。

I am never had to want to answer question like that, and yet it's just so many words.

嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯。

Okay, wow. So IT ended eventually though yeah ended IT clearly.

Where do you draw the line of for giving someone when you find out that he did?

Honestly, I was Younger, so like I for me I was like, all this is definitely a deal breaker but you know, like you in love with somebody just kind like, okay, I can just delete you out of my life like this yeah um but right now I in my adult ears I was definitely a doll breaker for me and in that moment I think I would like tell that person like you probably have to figure out why you're doing this. Yes, you know that .

make sense when IT comes to your music. What is fair game of like writing songs about people that have screwed you over or you've been in love with? Like.

where do you draw the line? I think I I keep IT ambiguous A M, and I feel like from my album I M going into deeper subjects, and i'm really excited about that. I feel like i'm in my diamond area like I I came in as a icy girl. But do all this pressure that I placed on myself and other pressure that i've experienced, ed, with the industry, I feel like it's pressurized me into this is diamond is ready to shine.

I fucking love that for you. Obviously, I know you've been teasing an album for a while. yeah. When can people expect you to come out next year?

okay. yeah.

Why was IT so important for you to wait to release IT?

I felt like I finally know myself, and I felt like I was constantly in this weird transition phase, especially with recording, like what I even talking about. But with who I am now, I know what my public messaging is.

Okay, Christmas songs, we need to talk about this. I mean, my car or, and like we said at the beginning, this episode, fucking love Christmas, you love Christmas. Talk to me about deciding to do these two Christmas songs. Like, how did you decide do this?

Well, you know, I love I C C. And because I, my icy girl, and I, just like, I got ta give something to the icy angles winner. So I wanted to create, like two songs least spoke to the two different sides of Christmas. I got big sana ARM like, big daddy get. And then my other Christmas song is a little bit more, you know, softer is like, care to you vibes like, not only like what can you give me, but what can I give you?

Oh my god. So we do. It's good like everything that you do and put out all of your music is such a vibe and I think like, again, i'm happy I got to talk to you today for a longer period of time, just like meeting you on tour, but like watching you on stage at my tour was such a spirit al experience.

All of us were like holding hands and gripping each other, being like, she's fucking insane even to the point where my team had texted me when you were in soundcheck being like, oh, this is going to be the best yet like you guys don't even know you are so talented and you have such a presence on stage. And just like as a person that I think is so exciting to see what you're going to obviously continues to do. But like i'm obviously so excited for the aben. You know we want IT, so we want IT. Um I want to ask just because I know obviously your fans are going to be watching this, like what is one goal that you have for yourself coming up in this new year and like your career that you wanna share with your family?

I want to be an action film like a tomb rider or like a like a colombian a something would just action because I really love like doing stance and i'm a body girl but I love a good harrowing that .

is the last thing I expected and get like, I can see IT, why are you like gonna make that happen?

I would like for is to happen. God, do you hear?

Yeah, yeah. Like, go. Anybody watching this in hollywood? hello. wow.

In that addition to and one of those people were for, like, well, I feel like I going to show up and get the role like I be sending an audition tape .

yeah I guess like last question is like what do you think what do you think is the biggest understanding about you?

I'm not sure what the collection thinks because everybody has their own opinion. But one thing that I do get a lot is that when people meet me, they say that they didn't expect this. I guess they like it's a it's a common response that I get, but it's rather Better because they be like, well, like the compliments are different but for some reason there's been a disconnect with who I am in with my perception .

to like the world is yeah that's interesting because I I I guess like I agree and disagree like when I listen to your music, it's so confident like you put this should on you like, I mean a fucking feel good when I was going to your music and I think everyone feels that way and it's it's like a experience that you literally feel in your body where you're like, oh, fucking yes like i'm about to pop my pussy tonight.

Let's fucking go and then meeting you. You are a multi dimensional person like you're not just the person that typing everyone like you have this like sweet, sensitive side that i'm like meeting today. And I met in oakland and I think that something that we don't get to see as often with artists, because understandably, like we're listening to music. But when we are so fortunate to get to also get to know the personality behind the music, I have found through my job. And it's my favor, part of my job when I meet someone and they are a little bit different than maybe the main public personal that's being pushed because I think it's again to shows people like we don't know everything, like you can listen to a song and think that people know you. You can go listen to one of my episodes and be like, oh, she's this one way but understandably like i'm gonna a different when i'm having a fun episode verse when i'm talking about like trauma and said, you know, I mean, like we show up in different ways for different moments of our life and I feel like you're such a beautiful person thank you that i'm so happy that I got to sit with you because I didn't know as much about you as now I am happy to know and like, I love you I think you're like such a great fuck and buy and am so happy that we've gotten to connect on this level because I don't I like sitting with people getting to know them more and you're amazing.

No, thank you in today. Like I realized why your number one stop. Yes, this was such a comfortable, safe and fun experience you have me crying in .

the crying I was having.

Like, hold on, which don't .

drop a theory. No, I really appreciate you going there with me though, because again, like everything we see online, IT can come off as fake. And I think when you get to do long form shit like this, you actually get a chance to, like, start, to finish.

Like, people now are going to understand you more, not that you need to give that them, but like, you are a great, lucky person. So why not? So thank you, my god.

So we we did IT. thanks. You're coming. Call that. Thank you.